#yes this is the fic where they talk about magnus too lmao it's so long okay more than that one thing happens | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

normal-thoughts-official · 3 years

Note

your “luke and alaric are married af” series made me transcend. they absolutely ARE. when i watched the show i really expected them to be in a canon relationship bc. it just seemed obvious. (me and magnus: you mean you’re NOT married??????) i’m surprised it’s such a small ship tbh. there is so much potential... i would love to hear more from u!!!!! what ideas do u have? first dates? how does maia react (i bet she’s like... duh? you’re my dads)? the story of luke’s epiphany omg???

for real!!! the chemistry and the love between them was so real and palpable and like hello? the way they always were on each other's corner? the Partners to Lovers dynamic?? the obvious mutual respect they had even though they were always butting heads? the way they always seemed to be growing together and not just fighting??? again the CHEMISTRY?? the fun little snippets we had like "it's never too early for teriyaki"?? literally we had so much to build an amazing romance and alaric is such a minor character his actor isn't even an actor he's a stunt double

like they had what 5 scenes and they all had such a great setup for romance or even for them to have been married the whole time??? they certainly had old married couple dynamics. fuck jocelyn i am speaking her out of existence. also i mean open relationships but why would luke even have a relationship with jocelyn when he had an actually good relationship to compare it to?

also the potential of their getting together being tied up to some personal growth from luke as an alpha and a downworlder in general like... most of their conflicts was because a part of luke still felt indebted to shadowhunters and their heritage and he kept putting the wolves last, and it would have been so good to see luke slowly realizing that he doesn't owe them shit and he gets to prioritize his own people and the people who are there for him, and him eventually choosing alaric over jocelyn being tied to choosing himself as he is now to who he used to be as a (terrible) shadowhunter...

not that it's alaric's job to fix luke obviously, but i don't think it would be "fixing" and this definitely wouldn't be a "teaching luke out of racism" story because when luke helped alaric as he became a werewolf he was already somewhat settled into werewolf life. i just think that a part of luke feels like he still owes loyalty to the people who hated him and it could have been a nice parallel to see him letting this go and getting with alaric. especially because alaric never coddled him, so, you know. and i think luke needed that little push in that sense. and alaric meanwhile would also be growing more confident into his role in the pack and in their job and getting the support he obviously still needed, and like, it could have been so good? definitely rocky before they sorted it out, but good. and of course sh had to waste the opportunity without even giving it thought because when don't they

anyway!!! as for your actual questions! first date is honestly so hard for me because i feel like their first date would feel like their billionth date. again i say, THEY ARE MARRIED whether they know it or not. so i can see their first official date going one of two ways: it's very lowkey, nothing they haven't done a thousand times before (like going to a small little family restaurant that they like, eating together, talking, maybe sharing a milkshake and they feel stupid but they're giggling and can't stop smiling and it makes them so happy that who cares) and it's absolutely PERFECT; OR they try to go all out and make it special and ~woo~ each other and it feels a little weird at first but it's still good and they get to enjoy the romantic ambience, hold hands over the table, and they're both a little shy because it feels like such a leap but it feels right

im gonna elaborate a little bit on both because i really love both??? so like they go to this little joint that is not the jade wolf or anything too close because they want to have this moment for tHEMSELVES, away from wherever anyone else from work or the shadow world might see them and from where they would think about it and associate with it. i am thinking... ohh some nice little place near where alaric's grown up? i'm headcanoning him as hondureño since we got no specifics other than his last name being rodriguez and i'm feeling like making him central american

and ALSO a great typical honduran dish is marinated meat and since luke is a beef jerky fan he would be all over that shit. i headcanon that luke knows alaric's family to some extent (i made a very quick reference to that in the second fic of the series) and i really love to think that luke has been to at least a few carneadas with alaric and his family?? which is aaaaaa another whole thing to talk about i might get back to it in a second but the DATE

also i like to think that luke would fall in love with rice and beans/casamiento because that is my rights. so like them going to the restaurant and having some meat (it's not really a carneada outside of the context of a carneada and for a date but like.. maybe pinchos or ye regular steak with urucum? i've had that in central brazil a few times and god i love it to death. or maybe chimol which sounds like something luke would like) with casamiento, tajadas, u know, the regular stuff? and it's lowey intimate because they are sharing the dish and it's something from alaric's culture you know??? god damn it i'm still talking about food. ONTO THE DATE

the point is that it's very casual and intimate but also uplifting and fun because this is a honduran restaurant we are talking about, so there's probably music, noise, alaric knows the family that runs it and possibly luke does too but they still have their space. maybe they get to dance a little bit because please god i am begging you, and luke has never had too many opportunities to dance before but it turns out he is a natural even if a little self conscious. i am picturing them dancing salsa which i kNOW is not an honduran dance but if the restaurant just leaves a Latin Music™ radio on as they usually do in latino restaurants in the US it's not that unlikely that it would play. and with alaric not being actually cuban he wouldn't humiliate luke too much. lmao

anyway most of the time they are just talking and teasing each other and every time luke takes a bite of the food he moans a little bit because he's a sucker for marinated meat and alaric wasn't even the one to cook it but goddamn if he doesn't feel proud of himself. and they share a drink (i guess the milkshake idea doesn't fit as well here but whatever they will get two straws for their iced tea or Tropical if they're feeling silly or agua de ensalada if they're feeling traditional. the point is that the lack of milkshake won't stop them from doing their dumb sappy thing) and are kind of laughing the whole time because it feels so teenage-y but to be fair luke DID just find out he was bisexual and figuring out your sexuality always brings in second puberty in terms of experiences. and alaric is not going to complain because it feels so sweet and right

and then the dancing which is fun and intimate and a little challenging for luke even if they aren't Full On Dancing Salsa, just a few moves here and there together but they get to be close and intimate and maybe alaric does some impromptu spinning and it makes them both laugh and maybe rub their noses together while they laugh and they are being so silly but they don't care

and basically they go home after hours, as you do, holding hands and a little drunk on each other, bumping shoulders on the way, alaric resting his head on luke's shoulder and luke on top of alaric's? and it makes walking a little awkward but god They Don't Care. and it just feels so perfect, like home and family and everything they are to each other :))))

really wanna add an "and then they fuck like rabbits" at the end but anyway i'll try not to ruin it

second date option! full out fanciness. they are already partners, they have seen each other in every possible situation, they know their worse, they know their married ways, but they want to have a ROMANTIC first date! lay thick their new relationship status. woo each other! show each other what amazing caring boyfriends/husbands they are. be adults!

they pick some fancy restaurant that luke may or may not have gotten suggested to him by magnus when he called him in a bit of panic because he is not very well versed in fancy restaurants and the like. maybe magnus even takes that extra step and portals them somewhere extra romantic like venice or whatever but i think they'd want to be independent in terms of going there and back so maybe not. anyway the point is, fancy restaurant! suits! they are a bit more nervous than they usually would because they haven't been in a place like this in waaayyy too long and they've never done anything remotely similar to that together before so it feels like a new territory and they kiinda want to prove something even though that's stupid because they've already chosen each other

but it goes well???? not as natural as the first date idea but that might just be me and thinking that casualness is the most romantic thing, and either way, it still feels so right and good. they get to sip wine, hold hands over the table, say something sweet to each other over entrees, share dessert, bicker over who gets to pay. again the marriedness of it all absolutely slips through but there is that new element that they are getting to explore and that feels so nice

and it's never stilted and forced, even if they are a little nervous, they are still themselves and it goes down smoothly and they are happy that it worked so well because there is always that fear in a best friends to lovers kinda situation that things will just feel weird, especially when you're both adults and have so much history. but it doesn't, it feels romantic and new and exciting and as they leave they tease each other a little bit like "after you, gentleman" and laugh together 🥺🥺🥺

and they have their first kiss as they leave and they both linger a little bit as they just stand under the stars and keep their eyes closed and their hands linked together and i need a moment oh my god

this got too long so i'm separating the answers for the different questions: maia's reaction (link), luke's epiphany (link)

#sh #shadowhunters #luke garroway #alaric rodriguez #aluke #ask #anonymous #long post #kinda #i know there are more questions im just separating them because the post feels too long already

2 notes · View notes

stevethehairington · 7 years

Text

Hiii!

Ahh! Thank you Sarah/@fxckxxp for tagging me in the talk about your WIPs thingy! (I dunno if it has an official title or anything lol)

Oh my god, I have wayyyy too many WIPs, not gonna lie. (I just counted and I have at least 17 docs in my writing folder eek!!!) I’m only going to count the ones I’ve worked on in the last few weeks otherwise this list would be way too long haha. So that comes out to be around 4 or 5! All of these are Evak (except for two— one of which is a character study so it’s not exactly about a relationship at all, and the other is a girl squad dynamic!)

If y’all haven’t heard yet, I’m currently in the middle of writing a Camp Rock AU! I have two entire docs dedicated to it— one for the plan and one for the actual writing. As of right now I have 15 chapters planned out! I don’t think that should change, but you never know! I have 4 chapters completely written (also completely unedited, but I’ve yet to get a beta for it so) and I’ve been working on chapter 5 the last few days! I started writing this AU months ago and I kind of stopped to work on other things and just let it sit for a lonnngggg time, but I’m back to it now, so hopefully I can finish it!! I’m not going to start posting until I’ve finished writing it just because I don’t trust myself haha and I want to be able to deliver the whole thing! Sooo stay tuned for that one!!

Another little oneshot I’m working on right now is another coffee shop one! It’s based off of a post I found on instagram where one character works at the coffee shop and another is the customer and the one that works there serves the customer his coffee (in a mug of course, otherwise this wouldn’t exactly make sense haha) and and the customer asks for a spoon to stir it, but the worker is so tired that his sleep-deprived brain thinks the customer is asking for the cuddling kind of spoon so he goes and does that instead! I’m not going to say who is who because I want to leave that up for surprise (unless you’re on the skamficiton server because I’ve definitely said who is who there hahaha.) I’m hoping to have this one done very soon— I currently have a little over 1k of it written already and I’m hoping to have it done and posted sometime in the next few days/week!

Okay, the third one is something I’m sooooo excited to write!! I’ve had this idea for a while now and I think I’m finally going to put it into words on a page haha. One of my all time favorite characters to write is Magnus and I feel like he wasn’t explored very deeply in the show so I’m planning to write a bit of a Magnus Fossbakken: Character Study. It’s going to be a series of works and I currently have 3 parts planned out! I don’t want to give too much away so all I’ll say is that it’s going to focus on Magnus exploring and figuring out his sexuality and the first part involves Vilde, the second involves Even, and the third involves Isak. I’m like insanely excited for this one so hopefully that will motivate me to write it!

The next one is well... I don’t know how else to explain it other than saying it’s an angsty one. I have almost the entire thing written out already, I’m just trying to put together the ending (which WILL be happy!!! I don’t do angst without happy endings!!) I also don’t want to give a lot away with this one (lowkey want to catch you all off guard with it lmao.) I will say that there are lots of tears and a bit of a panic attack and lots of communication!! Also for the ending I’m trying to do that whole “five months later” “two years later” “five years later” kind of snippets into their lives as the years pass and how things change. If I can get the ending written then this one could be posted soon as well!

I have yet to start (but really need to!!!!) my fic for the Skamfiction Secret Santa. I don’t want to say a lot about this one because I don’t want to give a lot away. Buuut I can say that it’s going to focus on girl squad and their dynamics! :)

As for the other docs in my writing folder that I haven’t touched in ages— I’ll give you guys a little bit about them:

I’m planning a Just Go With It AU, a Peter Pan AU, a Harry Potter AU, a part 3 of my Set My Soul On Fire series, a fic based off of a certain Rihanna song, a Sugarless Gummy Bear AU, a fic that has to do with ice cream and Realizations, the Dog Poop AU (yes, dog poop, go ahead and ask about that one haha), and a Catfish AU. I also have two collaboration projects in the works, one about a bench and the other a possible Star Wars AU of sorts....

Annnnnd that’s it! If anyone wants some sneak peaks of any of these just ask and I’ll consider giving one :))

Now I’m going to tag @julian-dahl @vildewlw @littlespooneven and @crackandcanonships and see what they have in store! <3 :)

#evensdramaticshenanigans fics #fic stuff #My writing #my plans #woo!

4 notes · View notes

demiromanticmickey · 7 years

Text

For Eternity

Fandom: Shadowhunters  Pairings: Simon Lewis x Raphael Santiago  Rating: G  Summary: Raphael was lying back in a leather recliner with his eyes closed. The record player beside him softly playing Ritchie Valens. He looked peaceful but somewhat sad. ———————————————————————-  

Notes: It was the anniversary of Ritchie Valens’s death February 3rd and I got emo about it. He was a Mexican-American rock singer, songwriter, and guitarist in the late 50s. The song that Raphael is listening to is We Belong Together, hence the title. If you don’t know it, I highly suggest you give it a listen maybe while reading this fic and crying with me about it.

You’re mine and we belong together Yes, we belong together, for eternity

It had only been one week since Simon rejoined the clan and the hotel. After Simon’s mom found out about his vampirism, Simon didn’t feel he could stay home anymore. And after Camille’s arrest and Jocelyn’s death Simon didn’t want to burden Clary or Luke further. Magnus was great, too, but he said something about how living with one vampire had been enough. Simon didn’t really have anywhere else to go - again. So Raphael took pity on him and invited him back, despite everything that had gone down between them.

There were no apologies exchanged. There wasn’t even a conversation, but Simon felt there maybe needed to be.

“Hey, Lily,” Simon greeted her in the main lounge. “Where’s Raphael?”

Lily regarded him carefully. The clan had accepted him back into their lives but he still needed to warm up to most of them again. “The music room most likely. I wouldn’t disturb him today, though.”

“Why’s that?” Simon questioned.

In return, Lily leveled him with a stare that looked tired of his disobedient nature. She walked away from him, her heels clicking on the hard floor.

Simon shrugged and strolled off to the hotel’s music room.

“Raphael?” Simon said as he peeked through the double doors. “Lily said I might find you here. She also said not to disturb you but… uh…”

Raphael was lying back in a leather recliner with his eyes closed. The record player beside him softly playing Ritchie Valens. He looked peaceful but somewhat sad. Simon could tell he was awake but he still startled a bit when Raphael spoke.

“But you didn’t listen?” Raphael shrugged. “I wouldn’t really expect you to by now anyways.”

“Hey!” Simon chastised as he fully entered the room. He pulled up a chair next to Raphael, who cracked open one eye and smirked at him.

“Did you need something?” Raphael asked. He sat up but didn’t turn off the music, making it difficult for Simon to concentrate when such a romantic song was playing.

Simon swallowed nervously. “Ritchie Valens, huh?” he asked, abandoning the reason he came in. Raphael looked at him inquiringly as if to say how do you know about Ritchie Valens. Recognizing his confusion, Simon explained, “I was in a band remember? And, well, I’m not Mexican but I’m still Latino. I know Chicano rock.”

Raphael snorted. “What do you know of Chicano rock music?”

“Ok, maybe I didn’t live through the height of it like some people but I still know about it,” Simon said defensively. “And I’ll have you know that Colombians are responsible for Shakira and Juanes, and that Cubans are responsible for Celia Cruz. And we invented Salsa.”

Raphael erupted in laughter, a rare sight for anyone, including Simon. “Don’t let Daviel hear you say that.”

“Why not?” Simon asked.

“He’s Dominican.”

“Whatever,” Simon grumbled, rolling his eyes. “So, you were alive then? Like when he was famous and all that?” Simon noticed Raphael stilled briefly before composing himself.

“I had already been turned by then,” Raphael answered. “But yes, I was there to witness it - him. It’s the anniversary of his death today. He was only seventeen.”

“Yeah… that’s pretty sad,” Simon said. He thought of his own death, of coming back, vague memories of crawling out of a grave, dirt caked under his fingernails, stains on his clothes and skin - blood stains. Simon was only eighteen, only a year older than Ritchie. He wondered how old Raphael had been. Raphael seemed so wise and ancient that sometimes it was difficult to really see how young his features were. Simon wanted to ask but he wasn’t sure Raphael would tell him more about his past. Maybe another time.

Raphael hummed his agreement but then said, “Yes, but he’s still here in a way. Through his music, and the people who remember him.”

Simon got the message. He’d most likely outlive his mother and sister - Clary, Luke, too. But he could keep them alive in his memories and in his heart, despite it not beating anymore.

“Now, what’s the real reason you’re here?” Raphael asked.

Simon stuttered a bit before he said, “Don’t you think we should, I don’t know… talk. About stuff.”

“You came to apologize?”

“No!” Simon said firmly. “I- I’m not…”

“You’re not sorry.” Raphael said it like a statement, like he knew.

“I don’t know anymore, Raphael,” Simon said. It was the truth. He wasn’t sure anymore about how he felt about their situations.

“I don’t know either. If I’m sorry or not,” Raphael admitted, surprising the both of them with his reply. “But it’s forgotten now. That’s why you’re here again. We’re trying to move past everything.”

Simon caught Raphael’s wording. Forgotten - but not forgiven. Maybe they couldn’t forgive each other for what they’ve said and done. Maybe they didn’t need to.

“Are we? Are you?” Simon asked.

“Yes, Simon, I am. Lo prometo.”

“Okay. I promise too.”

Raphael nodded and Simon could only stare back at him as the song began replaying. Simon glanced between Raphael’s eyes and lips, remembering old feelings. The hope he had once that their relationship could be something different than simply fledgling and leader. Where they stood now, Simon didn’t know, but he was beginning to hope again. Maybe this time the circumstances wouldn’t be against them.

Simon was unaware he was openly staring at Raphael’s mouth now until Raphael interrupted him. “Dios, Simon if you want to kiss me just-”

The sentenced remained unfinished as Simon surged forward to press their lips together. The kiss was hard, but not rough - desperate. It was an awkward angle, seeing as they were sitting beside each other in different chairs, but they made it work. There was an ache in Simon’s chest, but it didn’t hurt. It was like a longing deep within him had finally been satisfied. He unsuccessfully tried to stifle a moan when Raphael opened his mouth, inviting Simon’s tongue in with his own. He figured this answered his question about where they stood.

Simon laughed giddily as he pulled away, panting despite not needing the air. “I’ve been wanting to do that for forever. It’s just, after everything that happened-”

“I know,” Raphael said. “I know.” He tugged Simon back in and they continued kissing until the song ended again.

You’re mine, your lips belong to me Yes, they belong to only me, for eternity

———————————————————————- Notes: Lo prometo. - I promise.

Raphael is a little bit of a music snob. Just a little. Also, I just love unapologetically Mexican Raphael.

If your latinx, and especially if you’re Cuban or Dominican, you may have heard of the Salsa debate. And since Alberto is half Cuban I just had to sneak that in here lmao.

#simon lewis #raphael santiago #saphael #my writing #saphael fic

14 notes · View notes

kinkymagnus · 4 years

Note

I love you (no Romo though) also do you have omega Magnus ideas

flkgjdgkdjfg mood anon

hm... ok this will probably be messy but let’s get on some highlights

OK THIS GOT SUPER LONG HAHAHA

set up and worldbuilding my guys

ok so first of all i feel like i gotta talk about how this interacts with trans magnus. i promise i’ll get to the fun stuff afterwards!!

i know some people like to go more into like, the realistic dynamics of a/b/o (trans a/b/o people, as in, a trans alpha who was born an omega, or like, sexism that has to do with a/b/o and those different new stereotypes, as well as like “non traditional a/b/o dynamics” like alpha/alpha or omega/omega relationships, how this interacts with new different sexualities (being attracted to only alpha females? alphas and betas and all primary genders? etc.) and how it intersects with REAL transphobia and sexism and sexuality) and like.... i have two takes on this i guess:

one: while this is not inherently wrong i guess, it’s just. not what i get from a/b/o. for me a/b/o isn’t a complex worldbuilding set to play with necessarily, although i def am one to ask questions and overthink worldbuilding even in the stupidest of shit. but like, i come to a/b/o for fluff (nesting, fluffy heat sex, maybe scenting and/or “mates” if i’m feeling it), smut (knotting, heats/ruts, etc.), and MAYBE angst but that gets into dodgy territory sometimes. (i’m a slut for arranged marriage aus tho ngl dfgkldjfdg.) like. that specific set of tropes is combined perfectly in a/b/o, and it’d be hard to do that in a coherent au as this is already established and saying “au where alec has knots and magnus has heats” is weird. the only other au that gets close is very specifically like a werewolf au which has its own trappings, you know? it’s a specific coherent and established au and it’s hard to separate the tropes i like from the other stuff.

two: again, i don’t think it’s inherently bad. but i do think that a lot of people who do this are basically just reinventing real issues like transphobia, homophobia/queerphobia, and sexism... without actually dealing with those things or the characters they would involve. and i think that it often strays into yikes territory. so like. i don’t love it. (also it does have some yikes stuff people do like going really, really hard on the oppressed omega angle, or worse, reinforcing the gender roles of omega = submissive soft weak baby, alpha = strong dominant and scary man. or sometimes they establish other roles but either way like, all their characters fall into that. and i think sometimes it kind of works for this feeling like a guilty pleasure trash romance novel where it’s just uncomplicated fantasy of being taken care of, but like.... even then it just gets dodgy, you know? also it does tend to get INCREDIBLY rapey.)

i often used a/b/o for the things i mentioned, and before i started writing trans magnus smut, also ironically as a way to sort of write trans magnus in smut without actually doing it out of fear of backlash/lack of popularity. and while backlash hasn’t been much of a problem, my popularity has definitely gone down fics-wise. (i get much less in the stats area on ao3 now)

and cis omega magnus is in a way basically trans magnus but he has a penis and there’s knotting. like i said, in many ways, a/b/o is sort of a way to write porn with trans characters while keeping to cisnormativity. i, as a trans person, took advantage of that to get more comfortable with writing it, but a lot of cis people use it basically to just. do that. you know.

so how do i reconcile this with trans magnus?

basically i say “fuck you, he’s trans AND an omega, i want heats/ruts and knotting and nesting and shit” and then ignore it lmao

like ok he isn’t cis. he’s afab and gnc and all the shit i normally write, it’s just like. he also gets heats and his ass doesn’t get wet dlfkjgdfg (god it sounds So Unappealing when you say it like that. now that i allow myself to write smut with real trans characters i could never go back to a/b/o--although, like. some a/b/o aus actually do have male omegas have a pussy but that feels even more slimy in the sense of just. make them trans.) and like alec’s an alpha and so on you know.

i basically just ignore all the complex worldbuilding shit and trying to figure out how sexuality and gender and the various -phobias and -isms would be effected by the addition of secondary genders and their trappings, and just go “fuck you” under the guise of an a/b/o au

tl;dr, so i have a lot of complicated feelings on a/b/o and how it generally is something i do not trust people to write properly. but i also am a total slut of a lot of tropes that are sort of entrenched in a/b/o specifically. namely, heats/ruts, knotting, nesting/scenting, etc.

let’s get into the fun stuff.

magnus and heats :)

ok so heats are super like. vulnerable, you know? i’d think magnus would take heat suppressants (ah another plot convenience in this au) because he doesn’t want to spend his heat with someone he doesn’t trust. that’s not to say he’s never had a heat with someone, or even that it’s been all bad experiences, but it never clicked super well i think and like, it’s something that’s very hard for him. because there’s a lot of vulnerability and trust involved, and he loses control and could so easily get hurt

also possibility: while he can take suppressants to lessen how many times he gets a heat, taking them consistently for literally centuries sounds like it could fuck someone up. so. perhaps. magnus occasionally spends his heat with a trusted friend like meliorn (not someone who feels like Family and therefore would it feel incesty, but def someone who is a close friend) and while he still doesn’t love the feeling of being that vulnerable, and it can be uncomfortable--it’s not like he’s looking forward to it--but like... he definitely does trust meliorn (and possibly other non canon characters?) and it’s not like it’s disgusting and miserable. it’s not like, The Same, but it satisfies the biological side of it and sometimes it’s even like. fun, you know? it’s nice.

ngl i actually kind of like the idea of meliorn helping him with these heats and being like a trusted alpha he knows would never hurt him like that. that does mess with any angst you want to go with him not trusting alphas or not like, having good experiences with heats/ruts (like in “stuck in a rut”), but like, different aus different stories, and anyway you could probably work something in there about meliorn specifically being different and someone he trusts

this is on and off, he sometimes does have heats with whatever romantic partner he’s with, although it... doesn’t always end well. so he has a lot of bad experiences, but at least with meliorn he has a good experience to look to, as well.

also camille was a TERRIBLE alpha. i can 100 percent see her using his heat against him to hurt him (and being like oh baby dont you trust me? you cant go to this seelie for your heats, you cant cheat on me, and why are you taking suppressants, dont you trust me--?) as well as potentially her ruts (actually a) im not sure i want to go into the logistics of a female alpha--would she... have a penis? because i’m not making camille a trans woman nor am i touching those transmisgyonistic vibes with a ten foot pole. b) actually, maybe she’s a beta. she could use that against him, as well--being like she doesn’t understand why it’s such a big deal, you know? also i refuse to believe only an alpha can satiate a heat even tho it would work the best because like--fuck i’m overthinking the worldbuilding again this is EXACTLY what i wanted to avoid. fuck, never mind.)

but like...........when he gets it (namely with alec, because yes, i am a slut) with like someone he honestly is a viable “mate” or someone he trusts and like, has actual romantic feelings for, too...............it’s literally mindblowing. magnus had no fucking idea heats could feel this good. obviously he had fun with meliorn and felt safe even if he felt kind of awkward/uncomfortable (not bc of anything meliorn did but his own issues with being vulnerable) but like............... alec just fucking makes him melt???

like he felt safe before, he did know meliorn would never ever hurt him or take advantage of his heat, but now he feels so like... free and safe and open? it’s not just the normal vulnerability that comes with but the complete lack of discomfort, just feeling absolutely safe and like. not worried at all? again i want to emphasize it’s not that he felt unsafe before or that meliorn necessarily did something wrong, but bc of his own like. readiness to be vulnerable + while he does trust meliorn, it’s like. it hits different with a romantic partner (in this specific context!! this is not a romantic > platonic thing), if that makes sense.

an y wa y THE POINT IS. magnus is like. Mind Blown. having sex with alec during his heat is like. amazing. alec is so intent on taking care of him and just worshiping his body (alec!! ravishing him!! pressing warm kisses all over his tits!!! big hands all over his body!! caressing him everywhere and giving him physical affection all over and just making him squirm and moan!!!!!!) and like. not only is he absolutely intent on taking care of magnus and making him feel good and making sure he’s comfortable, but like also it’s just??? really fun?? and alec gives him so much affection and so many kisses???

magnus is not the best conversation partner during heat because he is a little. busy. but it doesn’t stop alec from talking to him and helping him stay grounded and just like... treating him like a person? he hadn’t realized one of the reasons he was so comfortable with meliorn and now alec wasn’t just bc he knew them well and trusted them with this kind of thing, but because like. they treated him like he was present despite him being mostly non-verbal and incoherent beyond vague pleading. like, they always made sure he was comfortable and talked to him and didn’t just do what they wanted with him. it didn’t feel like he was a doll--getting satisfied and fucked hard, yes, but like. also sort of just being used. and not in the fun sexy pre-planned way, but like, in a way that just made him feel more distant and disconnected.

but alec very much doesn’t do that. he keeps talking (and there is a lot of praise! so much praise and gentle affection and teliing him how beautiful he is and how good he’s doing--and of course dirty talk wink wink) and even narrating what he’s doing/his intentions, you know, and not only his voice generally soothing but it’s just nice you know

and like again i would just like to go back to alec ravishing magnus’s tiddies with kisses and holding them in his Big Hands and massaging them and like kissing his nipples and just making him feel so good??? iconic. we stan.

and alec like. is the perfect mix of gentle and rough, you know? he knows when to pin magnus down and fuck him nice and hard and rough and get him squealing and begging, but he also knows when to be gentle--particularly at the beginning and when he’s coming down. not to mention even when he is fucking magnus hard there’s a lot of gentle touch accompanying it

also not to just be a slut but

Also It Feels Good Because Alec Has a Huge Cock

that’s not to say meliorn doesn’t or even that you need a big dick to pleasure someone well but like.

alec has a big cock.

and it feels. hhhhh. good

magnus when alec first slides into him in heat: [straight up just immediately goes incoherent and whining with pleasure and kinda just mewling and clawing weakly at his back or the sheets on either side of him]

and alec fucks him so well :) like they’re honestly both feeling so fucking good like just AAAAAAAAA im such a slut for alec taking care of magnus in heat

also. uhh. K N O T T I N G

alec sliding into him nice and slow to make sure hes ok and like hes loving it, alec fucks him, and when he’s about to knot him magnus is somewhere in the back of his mind expecting that usual queasy sort of anticipation like he does Want It but usually he does kind of feel a little discomfort and again just... apprehension. this is The Moment, and he’s really giving up control you know

but it. doesnt come (but magnus is about to AHAHA)

and he just wants.

like he honestly just really really wants this and it’s kind of a revelation how much he genuinely wants this

alec knots him and magnus is Losing His Mind it feels so fucking good he comes almost right away and he’s just right there again

hes so Full and everything about it feels amazing

and like after alec has like. made him come a dozen times squirting and came inside magnus’s cunt and kept him knotted full there’s just this moment where magnus is exhausted in the best way, lying on his back, legs spread, alec still knotted inside him, his cunt is full of cum and he’s panting and moaning a little and alec is just on top of him and it’s warm and amazing and he’s coming down from the high and he just feels.... incredibly relaxed actually

like he’s like wow have i ever been this melty and relaxed and floaty, like, ever?

the answer is no, not really.

alec is just gently stroking his hair, pressing soft close-mouthed kisses to his skin, and they just sort of cuddle for a bit while waiting for magnus to come down completely from his heat and for alec’s knot to go down and honestly just lying there entwined is really, really nice.

magnus is full and relaxed and he genuinely loves this feeling in a way he’s never experienced before

even when alec pulls out and magnus is pretty much back to himself completely again magnus is so exhausted he just sort of lies back and lets himself breathe and alec is like Pamper Mode Activate(TM) and magnus tries to be like its ok to relax i do like cuddling with you and i can clean up myself its ok and alecs like But I Want To Take Care Of You and like helps clean him up (just... magnus lets himself relax as alec gently uses a damp cloth to wipe away cum and slick you know? idk there’s just something intimate and sweet about the dom helping clean their sub up in the aftercare) and gets him water and a snack and then once they’re both tidied up pulls him into his arms and he strokes his hair and they just cuddle and it’s great :)

i wonder if magnus talks to meliorn about this either. hm

and from then on, alec is the one he goes to for heats. and alec, of course, becomes immortal, which means he can take care of magnus for the rest of their lives :’))

whether magnus would stay on suppressants is another matter because on one hand heats can be inconvenient and like he might still want to minimize them, but on the other hand Hnnnnnnggg Alec Feel Good. so i could see them going either way here.

also i mean................that’s not to say that meliorn would Never help magnus either..... two possibilities here: 1. for whatever reason magnus’s heat is coming and alec can’t be there. meliorn is happy to help. it’s good to have back up i guess lkjfgh fuck idk. but the real fun one....

2. as magnus has more heats, they may or may not have a little Fun with it. perhaps roleplay (whether this be like “oh..... oh no..... im a poor little maid and i’ve gone into heat.....Looks Like My Boss Will Have To Fuck Me” or like even pretending the heat isn’t part of it and he’s Just That Slutty and we love to see it, etc. obviously they alec is sure not to push it too far, he teases magnus but probably a lot less than he normally would bc he’s so sensitive and needy and eager-to-please, but like.... they sure do have some fucking fun with this.

and also. i mean.

threesomes. y’all knew i was going here.

look idk how i got so far on the magnus/meliorn (as close friends and fuckbuddies not romantically) train but HERE WE ARE.

magnus getting absolutely wrecked by two alphas and LOVING it is not something he ever thought would happen, particularly while he was in heat, but it’s happening and he absolutely loves it.

also there are other fun possible scenarios like in “goldenrod” where alec doesn’t know that magnus is an omega and Shenanigans Ensue or whatever like just....both fluffy and angsty possibilities.

i’m a total slut for friends to lovers “oh no magnus is in heat :( but alec can help him through it, gently and lovingly, just completely as a friend :)” which can get into dubcon territory but if you fuck with it it’s doable. and i’m just a slut for pining pre-relationship heat sex.

even like in an au, alec playing the role meliorn did in the previous bullet points but blended with how i discussed their first heat together so like... helping his best friend through his heats, showing him a really good time, making sure he’s comfortable and magnus is just like wow i’ve never felt this good and safe during a heat before :) guess it’s because we’re friends and definitely no other reasons :)

i’m not sure how to word this right but i feel like there’s a potential angst here of like a mundane au of some sort wherein magnus has only had a few relationships with alphas and none of them great so when alec is helping him through his heat he assumes it’s different (as in, alec is so gentle and caring and treating him like this, and he feels safe) because they’re friends and it’s a different dynamic, and that being treated Badly is just like, the normal way alphas treat their mates. or something. look. let me have my whump ok

but the point is alec sets him straight obviously

but like anyway i just like.........i adore friends to lovers malec and heat sex it’s got so much fluffy potential with magnus just feeling Utterly Safe (and pining angst) and alec is both a) incredibly turned on/helplessly in love with him so he’s loving every second (even tho Pining Angst) and b) just in awe that magnus trusts him that much??? (also sad he’s SURPRISED at being treated gently flgkhfjghgh)

malec and ruts

ok as i explored in “stuck in a rut” i think it makes sense that magnus would not feel incredibly secure during ruts. it’s not something he would have sought out with say, meliorn, although he would have been willing to do that meliorn has other partners more than willing to help him with that and actually love it while magnus is. very wary of it.

like a heat, it leaves him feeling very out of control and it seems kind of scary--but it’s almost worst, because rather than feeling needy and helpless (which is a good thing when with a trusted partner but not so much when he’s less sure, or when they take advantage of that) it’s like. he’s cornered totally sober with a similarly out of control alpha, except with more Dominance(TM) and potential aggression you know?

so maybe he’s had some very bad experiences before. and i doubt it’s been literally all terrible, but i think he would likely avoid relationships with alphas, so he wouldn’t have a lot of experiences to draw from overall anyway

but like okay let’s get to the fun stuff

i’ve been over the angst of magnus not being sure how this is gonna go but wanting to Tough It Out with “stuck in a rut” although it’s probably a bit exaggerated for fun angst purposes but idk aaaaa

but anyway the point is here. alec gets his first rut with magnus and like, he probably hasn’t been with anyone during a rut (suppressants?) so this is wild for both of them

but even Feral(TM) alec’s entire goal is just taking care of magnus

i mean obviously there’s an element of like wanting to get his own satisfaction and all but it’s just like..... mutual pleasure you know??? like he wants to fuck magnus nice and hard and make him feel good and magnus is just a mewling mess in his arms letting alec take control and ravish him and they are both having a great time actually

but like ok let’s just. move away for a moment from angst

just................... alec fucking magnus nice and hard and rough, pinning him down and “”making“” him take it, and there isn’t really much teasing because he’s too busy wanting to fuck magnus and fill him up :)

but like it’s also fluffy bc even all needy and desperate alec still takes the time to make sure he’s ready and prepared and wet and into this before fucking him, makes sure he’s comfortable and checks in on him and if magnus safeworded or told him to stop you know he absolutely would, without hesitation, even if it literally hurt to do. which is basic decency obviously but the like.... the just trust and care there? the fact that even in a literal fucking rut when he’s supposed to be out of control he’d force himself to stop if magnus needed or wanted him to is just.... comforting and good and i love it

and magnus is like hm i have never felt this safe when with an alpha in rut before! time to examine this trauma later.

nesting (ft. scenting)

AAAAAAAAAAAA

i love the concept of nesting so much it’s so fluffy and sweet and dkgjfklgjg

you build a pillow/blanket/clothing nest that smells like the people u love and u feel safe in

and then you get ravished in it sometimes

iconic.

like magnus just piling a fuck ton of soft things (ranging from blankets/pillows to just like spare sheets and shit like that) and stealing alec’s clothes to put in there and curling up in the middle of it feeling safe and in heaven tbh

especially once they key component of the nest arrives: alec

*magnus yoinking alec into the nest and immediately curling up against him like a particularly insistent cat*

alec is just like This Is Precious and wraps his arms around him and strokes his hair and magnus is purring (purring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we Will discuss this later)

and it’s just nice and somft??

fluffy cuddles?

i feel like nesting would be a particular urge either during or near heats so im just imagining pre heat magnus being like *suddenly stands up* I Must Gather Soft Things (Meaning Pillows, Blankets, And Alec)

and he just makes a nest, all aesthetically pleasing and arranged nicely, maybe a candle nearby with a nice scent that kind of helps, and just..... curling up in alecs arms all content

and alec ADORES this like the first several times magnus was scared of coming off as clingy so he suppressed nesting instincts let alone cuddly needy clingy instincts but alec was sort of like hey baby it’s ok if you just don’t want to but do u need to nest?

and also he just made a point of being more touchy/affectionate when his heat was coming up/dying down and he watched carefully to make sure it didn’t magnus uncomfortable but he melted into it even more than usual

so like just....alec cuddling the fuck out of magnus in his nest and it’s warm and safe and smells like home????

scenting i feel is kind of weird and i feel weird being like “mm he smells good” or whatever but like also it can be so cute when done right you know lkgjdgfg like omg just...... Alec Smells Like Home

their scents kinda mix and both of them have the others’ lingering on them and people can tell they’re super close

and just.....................again..........alec like scenting him, marking him as his in a sort of gentle soft way? and like, burying his nose in his neck and nuzzling him and he smells so nice and good???

especially if you’re going with true mates think their mates’ scent is just the best thing ever flgjlkjlfkgjfgh

but anyway ok

back to nesting

and specifically, because i am a whore, to S E X

magnus feeling absolutely safe there and it smells like home and alec’s holding him and it’s so--

hey so i know i said i was going to do sex,

but hold on a sec

ANGST

magnus has nested before. but generally not with romantic partners.

not sure if familal nesting is a thing--i feel like it’s possible, but given a general association with heat (i mean one could either feel the urge to or simply enjoy nesting outside of Heat Time(TM) but like) it feels a little weird

so let’s go with it’s more romantic except for maybe like really young kids or something idk

but anyway moving on from that

magnus has nested before

but almost always alone

and an empty nest is just not the same?? it’s still warm/safe but like... it feels empty and sad too. especially if he DOES have a romantic partner they just don’t want to nest with him--saying he’s clingy, or it’s time consuming/boring to just sit there, or whatever else.

camille was particularly guilty of this, he had to basically hide his nest and cram it in a closet or something (the enclosed space was actually kind of nice but it was too cramped for his liking and it felt even more empty and sad than usual)

and then he would just be there alone in his small empty nest and it was still reassuring but it was just......not the same

also he didn’t have anything to ground him so he got all fidgety (adhd magnus? adhd magnus.) and like it was a lot less comforting than normal you know

but with alec OH BOY

not only does he feel all warm and grounded in alec’s arms like he can relax and doze off and feel good and alec is stroking his hair and it’s just. nice

but like also

BACK TO SEX

alec making sweet love to magnus in their nest and it’s just like wow this is the most safe place possible

it’s not even heat sex they’re just having fun and magnus is like this is my dream come true

and then obviously there is also heat sex

it is the most mindblowing thing either of them have ever experienced

also i feel like while it’s not an instinct thing to build nests for ruts, they still do it because they’re soft and it helps them relax anyway

PURRING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PURRING

ok i absolutely love the a/b/o headcanon i’ve seen before where like, omegas purr only when feeling completely safe? particularly around alphas?

so like.

magnus doesn’t purr that often.

or he didn’t but then he fell in love with alec “his arms feel like home and safety and love” lightwood

it is not uncommon to see him cuddled in alec’s arms purring contently

or like in his nest leaning into alec’s side or head resting on his chest, PURRING

also i have this fic somewhere but au wherein alec doesn’t know magnus is an omega yet and then finds out because magnus dozed off on his chest and BEGAN. PURRING. BECAUSE HE FEELS SO FUCKING SAFE AND TRUSTS ALEC SO MUCH.

even if he hadn’t told alec about being an omega yet for whatever reason

anyway just alec stroking magnus’s hair while he purrs away and its adorable and also soothing for both of them so they fall asleep like that

magnus’s purring is like a soothing thing for alec big time its good sensory time and also just generally nice so its easy for him to conk out with magnus warm in his arms and purring loudly

it’s very nice

and also he loves that magnus feels that safe with him

MATES

this one will be short but like

basically the whole mates for life thing is cute

and it can just kinda be like soulmate aus

which are all vaguely problematic but just really cute/fun to have and not think about too hard

so them being mates is just cute idk man i like it

ok that’s it for now (i’m gonna add more in a separate reblog for reasons but that’s only on one topic, you’ll see--i think i’ll do that tomorrow bc im very tired rn) that’s the omega magnus manifesto (some parts not included)

#trans magnus smut #omega magnus #long post #malec #alec lightwood #magnus bane #shadowhunters

11 notes · View notes

normal-thoughts-official · 4 years

Note

I NEED MORE AUTISTIC ALEC FICS AND HEADCANONS!! Like what do his meltdowns look like? Does he ever go nonverbal? Does he ever have very long nonverbal episodes? How do they communicate when he’s nonverbal? I need to knowwwww

unfortunately i don’t have any good autistic alec fics to rec (boy is this fandom full of terrible ableist shit) but i’ll take my crack at those dajsdodjasj

i think alec has shutdowns more often than he does meltdowns, because like, he was trained to repress his emotions and power through overload, you know? so he usually ends up shutting down rather than melting down. also, since he’s very self aware and has had to learn this to survive (cuz i can’t imagine shadowhunters would take kindly to someone having a meltdown) he’s good at realizing when he’s at the pre-meltdown phase. so usually during those he will go to training alone, or outside, or just generally find an excuse to leave. he’s become pretty good at making those up

he’s probably going to grab his weapons, because it helps him feel safe and a bit more in control, like he could somehow attack his own overload daodaoja and he kinda goes to the corner of the room and has his back to the wall, because he just becomes, like, very defensive you know? and when his senses go into overdrive that translates in his head as “danger” so the way for him is to isolate himself and prepare like he’s going to go for war. so he has his bow and quiver in hand and he’s looking around almost obsessively (which isn’t great, since you know, more stimuli) and he’s dead quiet and still like he might snap into action at any moment. like he tries to hold it all together so much that it just, compacts? i feel like he might also dissociate as a result, again because he’s used to just powering through and working even as it happens, so he just shuts down from the world completely

i also feel like they probably also commonly interlace with self harm which. again, not good! but it’s kind of a way to let it out, not just to “overpower the pain” as magnus put it, but quite literally like he’s bleeding the tension out. he just throws all the overwhelming feelings into his muscles and punches and just throws it out and around and tries to focus on that rather than on everything else

and yes, he totally goes nonverbal during those. i think this is one of the things that happened when he was at magnus’ and they had that talk about his self harm - he basically didn’t talk, he was just looking at his hands, you know? i think he could be nonverbal in that moment, but again he usually powers through to talk even as it drains every last ounce of energy out of him. i also feel like he might have gone to magnus’ not only for the obvious reason that it’s a safe place where he feels understood and happy, but also simply because it’s more toned down? like at the institute the lights are bright and the rooms are big and there’s people and noise. magnus’ loft (especially at night and on the rooftop like he was) was dark and quiet and calm, and so he could breathe a little and regain his surroundings, you know? magnus also gets sensory overload, especially with noise and touch, so he makes sure that his loft is free of noise/echo, that it’s not too convoluted that he has to keep touching things, everything is in Nice Textures, etc. his apothecary is also kinda dark and i think that’s why, not too much light, not too many distractions for when he’s working, less chance of getting overwhelmed when he’s already dealing with so many textures/smells/sounds/temperatures like when he’s brewing a potion, you know?

as for long nonverbal episodes - i don’t think he has long nonverbal episodes often, again because he’s used to powering through. like it might kill him to talk but he just- does it. because he’s expected to keep in position and to answer questions and basically just, keep going you know. but he often feels overwhelmed, and it’s one of the reasons he likes to listen more than he does talking. especially to magnus, because his voice is smooth and nice and has a cadence that just always feels natural? not exactly predictable but never brisk or shocking, and still interesting enough to distract him. plus, he likes to hear him talk. that’s it, really

but anyway! so he often feels like “oh god talking is so much right now”. tbh almost constantly, especially at work, because he has to deal with a lot of people and things and stress and there’s just. never a damn minute to recharge his batteries, you know? i mean he loves his job and he’s good at it, but it takes its toll on him

and so once he’s finally home he probably spends the, first few hours? quiet and retracted and dreading having to speak. but magnus doesn’t expect him to, and he also has his moments tbh, what with his flashbacks, his c-ptsd, and his adhd, sometimes everything is too much for him too and he doesn’t want to talk. i feel like magnus’ language in this case is more touches, both to keep himself grounded and to connect with other people, because while he doesn’t want to talk, he also doesn’t want to lose his anchor- it would be way too easy, honestly. and he wants to feel like other people are there, too. especially because otherwise he might have more flashbacks and his symptons might get worse, and it’s just- not good. so he likes to lay in alec’s lap, maybe play with his hands, stuff like this, when he’s nonverbal. it’s not so much that alec feels smothered, and he likes the closeness too, having good, light sensations to distract himself with and stuff

in regards to how they communicate when hes nonverbal: i think Magnus already has something of a system in place, because he's lived with Raphael, whom, i feel, has long nonverbal episodes more frequently. i mean Raphael is also used to powering through and speaking anyway, same as Alec, even if for different reasons, but it also just happens more often that hes overwhelmed and goes nonverbal. and Magnus notices, notices the way it pains him to speak, like hes trying to move through water, so he's like. you know, if you dont want to talk, there are other ways we can communicate. and raphael's never had anyone tell him that before (rosa always supported him when he was nonverbal and even spoke for him sometimes, and they had their own talking system, but hes never had anyone actually tell him "you know, it's alright" and he hadn't realized how much he needed it until he got it) so hes a bit overwhelmed and he just nods

i feel like both Raphael and Alec are still very communicative even when they go nonverbal, like- words are too much, but they still want to communicate and say stuff, you know? and i feel like Raphael likes to hum as a form of verbal stimming (kinda like Magnus) so they used that a lot - Magnus learnt Raphael's specific hums and what they meant pretty easily and if he didn't know he'd ask yes/no questions until Raphael got it. and it worked pretty well

idk if Alec is as into verbally stimming as Raphael, so maybe not humming, but his hands talk lmao. again, same as Magnus', he also loves stimming with his hands. so different movements can mean different things, almost like a sort of sign language, except specific to them and simpler, cuz like, dont wanna think about grammar and syntax and words and shit right now. but gesturing, pointing, twisting his hands - all of that works. and Magnus finds that he also likes talking with his hands (and humming) more than he thought once he started getting into it, so soon it's like they have their own secret language lmao they just get each other and their hand movements and what they mean and it's sweet :)

(i answered this one based on my own experiences as well as my brother’s, the knowledge i already had from following autistic activists for quite a few years now, as well as these sources which were written and created by autistic people. however, i’m not an expert, so if there’s anything inaccurate or offensive about how i’ve written it, please let me know)

#ask #anonymous #sh #shadowhunters #alec lightwood #autistic alec lightwood #c-ptsd magnus bane #adhd magnus bane #mention of autistic raphael santiago #q

6 notes · View notes