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myabsurddreamjournal · 1 year ago

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Fate (part 2)

Soldier boy x fem! reader

Summary: Reader is a scientist who is forced to work at lab that they keep soldier boy frozen, she talks and cries to him when she is alone, thinking he can't hear her but he hears everything.

With the sound of emergency alarm she shoot up from her bed, almost falling the floor, then she heard gunshots. It was just like that night, the night they took her. Tears were already forming in her eyes. She needed to get out.

Without knowing where to go, She started to walk towards stairs. If she could be quick she might have a chance.

Gunshots were louder now with screaming sounds.

She was running like mad person, looking for a door, a window. Anything to get her out of here

But suddenly she stopped.

Ben.

Ben was there. She couldnt leave him here.

she started running towards opposite direction

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"Oi who the hell are you.,?"

it was the first thing she heard after stepping in lab. A tall man with black hair was holding gun to her face. He looked like he would fire the gun any moment. Everything about him screamed danger.

Then she looked at floor.

arms, few legs, burned and disfigured bodies where everywhere. Everything bloody and red. She closed his eyes in horror.

-"Speak or i will shoot you." he said with thick English accent

-"i-im a scientist." she told, raising her hands. And quickly added "im a prisoner here".

After looking at for a moment he turned to his back.

-"well our lucky day right boys?"

She looked at the "boys"

There was a black man who looked like he was going to pass out, and another-why he was naked? , in the opposite corner a Asian girl stood with man beside her, he was also holding a gun.

-"w-what happened here?" She said.

-"see love, we are here for Soldier Boy. He is here isnt he? He patted the door of cryo. "this cunts tried to stop us."

-"What will you do with him?" (will you hurt him? she wanted to say.)

-"Lets just say we want to talk to him."

"B-but he is asleep since 80s"

"You know how to wake him up, right?"

y/n weighed her options for a moment. Well.. was there any option? She was sure as hell she didnt want to get questioned and lose her fingers, and it wasnt like they could do anything to him as long as he was awake. So she decided to not tell them about special gas that can make him sleep.

"Will i be free if i do this?"

"dont try any funny bussines, and you are free to go."

"O-okay, ill wake him up. But im warning you, he might be out of his mind."

She walked towards other side of the room, Where a huge metal tube was placed. Few valves and big red button on it.

She dreamed of hitting the red button for more than hundred times but never tought it would feel like this. In all her life, she never been this nervous before. Not even that night. Her heart was pounding so hard inside her ribcage, hands shaking like a leaf.

She looked at the tall guy, signaling him for cryos door.

As he literally ripped the door, She closed her eyes. Suddenly so afraid to look at him.

next minutes were blurry. She heard the harsh sound of binds being ripped, and whimpering.

Despite her fear, after hearing his whimpering, she had a strong urge to hug him, calm him down, to tell him it was over.

but couldnt say anything because as soon as she opened her eyes she saw them for the first time. His green eyes. But unlike her dream, They were filled with anger. Looking at the gun that guy held. It was lowered immediately but. His eyes were now dark, making him look like a wild animal ready to pounce on his prey.

She was sure he was going to attack him but something else happened.

His chest started glowing.

Like a fire.

y/n was hit by a dejavu. Remembering the tapes that she tried so hard to forget. She was sure In one of them he was glowing just like this..seconds before exploding like a bomb.

Yes, this was whats going to happen.

With her panicked mind y/n started to scan room for anything to distract him. As his chest was glowing brighter with every second, She saw the glass ashtray on the lab desk (the one she always hated) And next thing y/n knew, she was throwing it towards him (aiming the wall next to him) while shouting "Be- soldier boy they are trying to help you!"

never considering herself lucky person, in that moment Y/n was sure this was the most unlucky moment her life.

because the ashtray hit him right in the head with loud thud.

Everything stopped .There wasnt any sound, only ashtray breaking to pieces on the floor.

Soldier boy started slowly turning towards her. Realizing what she had done, y/n looked over the tall guy with pleading eyes.

"FUCK." Tall guy mouthed to her.

No one dared to make any move as soldier boy walked towards her. His every step making heavy sound.

"All this time i was afraid of humans, and now He will be the one to kill me." she thought. "Will he hit my head in return?.., at least it will be a painless death."

She closed her eyes just before he stopped right in front of her, waiting for the hit.

"God, let this be the last time. I dont ever want to born in this world again"

But instead of a hit, she felt a hand -large hand gripping her arm tightly. And heard his voice for the first time.

-"Y/N".

Notes: i really didnt like this chapter. But i was expecting it. In next chapter Soldier Boy and y/n will have a lot of dialogues and fluffy moments together!💫

taglist: @deans-spinster-witch @mfnqueen1 @ponypickle @butchers-girl

#soldier boy x you #soldier boy x reader #soldier boy imagine #the boys imagine #the boys #jensen ackles imagine

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butmakeitgayblog · 11 months ago

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what do you think was going through lexas head the night she showed up in the black nite gown. i believe she definitely had to hype herself up before even showing up at clarkes door at all, how many times did she start walking to her room or even knocking on her door. did she repeat what she'd say on the long walk there and what her guards might think because we know lexa second guesses everything to do with clarke. how do you think that scene should have went? lexa couldnt have been more vulnerable in that scene look and all... she just wanted clarkes love so much...

I wrote a long post once before of how I wished the scene had gone, which should be tagged in the Clexa tagged below (I'll to find it after this and add the link if I can)

But if I'm thinking just from Lexa's pov, yeah I think there was a lot of conflicting feelings there. I think that scene was the most just pure Lexa we had seen thus far. Yes she still fell back on the safety of using her commander stoicism as a shield, but with Lexa, everything she did had a deeper meaning than surface value because those were the only ways she really felt comfortable and safe communicating.

For this night in particular I think Lexa was probably grappling between the want to respect Clarke's wishes for distance, but still wanting to see her. I mean think about what had just happened. Clarke had been visibly upset at the prospect of Lexa fighting Roan, visibly angry and scared at the idea that something could happen to her in that fight. She went so far as to try and fucking assassinate the ice nation queen (which,,, the amount of conflicting feelings that alone must've stirred up) just to keep Lexa from danger.

She had tried to protect Lexa.

And she'd shown up even when Lexa didn't think she would. When Lexa walked past stage of clan leaders, she'd looked up and seen Clarke's seat vacant, just as she had expected it would be. But then, oh, then there Clarke was. Not only there, but standing definitively on her side. She was backing Lexa and quietly willing for her victory.

And dammit, that had to mean something.

Didn't it?

I think all of that was playing in repeat in her mind as she got ready. The unsure wobble of her stomach, the residual guilt of everything that had torn them apart, the hope that things were mending. Questioning whether Clarke would even want to see her and the little zings of thrill that maybe, just maybe they were past a lot of the pain.

I think she wanted to very honestly tell Clarke that she appreciated her support, even if she might be reading too much into things, because it was a very tangible way for Lexa to be vulnerable in a way Clarke could appreciate on her own terms. Lexa had had so few people in her life who supported her beyond just the crown of Heda, but Clarke knows her more than that. She knows Lexa. Which was why I believe she thoughtfully and consciously went to Clarke's as Lexa, not Heda. I think she was trying very hard to be vulnerable with her in the few ways she knew how.

"Not everyone. Not you."

"I do trust you, Clarke."

"I vow to treat your needs as my own."

"This is, 'thank you.'"

Do I think she wanted Clarke to accept her back into space without barriers? Yeah, I do. I think a piece of her, however small, hoped that that night would be a defining turning point in their relationship. Both physically and emotionally. I think Lexa at that point was yearning for closeness with Clarke. More intimacy. She wanted to be forgiven. She wanted that intimacy to more than fleeting moments. She wanted Clarke.

But I also think that Lexa was never foolish enough to assume it'd be that easy. While she may have allowed herself moments of hope - like the one that lead her right to Clarke's door, dressed for a relaxed night of being alone together - I don't think she ever took that hope for granted. I don't think she ever assumed anything was a given. I just think she was happy to always put it out there. To remind Clarke, "I'm still here. I still care. Even if you don't, I do. I still want you."

#anon #clexa #lexa kom trikru

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foxxyy06 · 6 months ago

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Sunshine

F!Reader x Kim Jiwoo

summary: Maybe going out with your best friend (and crush) was a good idea at the time, however at the same time you had no idea what would happen.

tags: friends to lovers, fluff

wc: 1.5k

ao3

A night that changed your life. It wasnt really uncommon for you and Jiwoo to go out; she is your best friend after all. The late night walks or when both of you went to an ice cream shop which weirdly made you fall for her even more!

Either way whatever it was you couldnt seem to fall deeper in love for her. You did try to deny it, shes your best friend so it wouldnt make sense if you were in love.

Going out also wasnt that you both did, at least not alone. Of course you went out with her but usually there was someone with you, it was the case for anything. It did sort of get annoying, both of you wanted time alone but knew it would end up with it being quiet (which you or her dont really mind) and just awkward, however when you did get the chance you said yes.

“Lets go out.” Jiwoo said

It sort of sounded like a demand, the way she said it but you just thought she wanted to finally go out alone. Which sort of was the case. Both of you planned the time when you would go out and the wait began. As it is exam season this night out would be something both of you need.

The day finally came and you would be lying if you said you werent nervous. You were very nervous and a lot. However Jiwoo was the one who was probably even more nervous.

“Hey!” Jiwoo said as she ran into you

“Hey?” You said “Need anything-”

“Yeah.” Jiwoo said

“Alright what is it?” You asked. Honestly it should have been obvious, but you didnt catch on.

“When exactly are we going out?” Jiwoo asked “I mean we talked about it agreed to it but it never got anywhere further than that”

“Tonight?” You said “I mean look, whenever is best for you and me”

“Tonight sounds good” Jiwoo said

“Alright!” You said

“So you are going out tonight? On a date?” Kyujin asked

“Its not a date!” Jiwoo said “Its a hangout”

“A hangout which will turn into you breaking the news to us tomorrow?” Bae asked

“No!” Jiwoo said

“I dont get it, you and Y/n never hang out alone.” Kyujin said “What made it change your mind?”

“I dont know really, we were sitting in the library studying and she threw the idea of going on a night walk” Jiwoo said

“And it turned out into a date?” Bae teased

“Its not a date.” Jiwoo said, bringing her attention fully to the taller girl.

“Well whatever it is, i will definitely want to hear the full story tomorrow!” Kyujin said

Maybe it wasnt a date. Thats what you and her thought, it was just a thought at first to hang out but now it turned into something more. It was already evening and Jiwoo was at your shared dorm room with Haewon, Lily and Sullyoon to go out. You got up and went to the door.

“Im ready!” Jiwoo said the moment you opened the door “Hey…” “Sup” Haewon said seeing Jiwoo

“Have fun!” Lily said the moment you went out. You noticed how nicely Jiwoo dressed, you were wondering if you should quickly go in to change but that plan was quickly changed with Jiwoo dragging you outside.

“Are they your friends?” Jiwoo asked, you knew who she was referring to. Sullyoon, Haewon and Lily.

“Dorm mates” You said “I mean i guess friends too”

“Is it fun living with three people?” Jiwoo asked

“Yeah” You said “They are fun people to hang out with”

“Oh, then thats good” Jiwoo said

You wanted to sort of reveal why exactly you wanted to go out with Jiwoo but that changed as you didnt really want to ruin the night (or date) this early on. Jiwoo dragged you into a coffee shop, the one where you always went to with others, but never alone with Jiwoo. You and her ordered the usual and sat down at a nearby table, you thought she would just sit next to you instead she sat right in front of you. You hoped that she wouldnt see how nervous you are.

“Why are you nervous?” Jiwoo asked

“Im not” You said “Just…its rare for us to be alone, you know?”

“I understand” Jiwoo said “Why have we never tried being alone?”

“We cant, we just get quiet” You said “Remember when Sullyoon and Kyujin left us for a couple of minutes?”

“Yeah and we were just quiet” Jiwoo said “I wanted to say something but i just thought it would be awkward”

“Yeah i know” You said

“But hey! We can at least now get closer” Jiwoo said

You were grateful that this hangout (more of a date at this point) wasnt that awkward. The time spent in the coffee shop was more of Jiwoo talking and you falling even deeper for her. It was pretty much you falling even deeper in love, if thats somehow possible now! But with Jiwoo anything is possible at this point.

Next place she wanted to go was an amusement park and who would you say no to at this point. The walk to it wasnt far away but at least you talked to her a lot, in fact so much that you didnt even realize you were there already.

“Where do you want to-” You said before Jiwoo dragged you to a game already, it was one of those where you had to make a shot of some sort which was almost impossible, nonetheless you agreed to it. You didnt think Jiwoo would actually win, but when you did you were probably more excited than Jiwoo herself.

Maybe Jiwoo knew that you would agree to everything she suggests or she just wanted to have fun whatever it was both of you went to games after games you were sure that you will get through everything and Jiwoo would only have one reward (which was at the start, at this point close to an hour ago), however you saw how smiley and how happy she was, it made your heart flutter at the sight of it. The whole night was mostly you looking at her and not paying attention to anything else.

Midnight was slowly approaching and the last place you wanted to go to was the nearby field, where a firework show would happen. A good way to end the night and hopefully a really opportunity to finally confess to her.

“What are we doing here?” Jiwoo asked

“Just wait and you will see” You said while finding a nice place to sit at, it was away from anyone else but still a perfect place to watch the end of the day show.

“You know im glad we went out” Jiwoo said “What else would we do right now?”

“Honestly probably nothing” You said “Tonight was fun”

“It was the most fun i had in a while” Jiwoo said “Probably in years”

“Yeah me too” You said

“We should do this more” Jiwoo said “You know go on dates”

“This was a date?” You asked, dumb question you should have known. A trip with Jiwoo all alone even.

“You are really that blind?” Jiwoo asked “Y/n i have been giving you signs for months now.”

“Signs?” You asked “What kind-”

“I love you Y/n!” Jiwoo said a bit too loudly making couple of people turn around to look at you, if the sun was still up and shining Jiwoo would see you blushing.

“Come on you really think us going to the coffee shop and coming here is just cause?” Jiwoo asked “A night out really?”

“No of course not” You said “I just never thought you liked me too”

“Yeah i understand i didnt show signs” Jiwoo said

“I love you too” You said “I think this was a successful date”

“It was” Jiwoo said “Im glad thats that…”

You finally confessed to her, honestly you were never sure if Jiwoo liked you. You werent even sure if she even sees you two other than best friends but now that she did confess to, its a huge relief. Especially for you.

The next day Kyujin started the day by asking Jiwoo questions, as Bae had her own dorm she wasnt there currently.

“So let me get this straight, you took her out on a date but didnt tell anyone?” Kyujin asked

“Yeah” Jiwoo answered

“And you confessed without even telling me you had feelings towards her?” Kyujin asked “You really wanted to surprise your other best friend too!”

“Yeah sort of” Jiwoo said “She took me to a coffee shop and then we went to the amusement park and then-”

“Alright i will invite Bae over and you will tell the full story!” Kyujin said before picking up her phone.

You werent safe either, Haewon, Sullyoon and Lily automatically started asking you questions.

“So you have a girlfriend?” Haewon asked

“Yeah” You answered

“Congrats!” Haewon said

“Y/N HAS A GIRLFRIEND?” Lily screamed from the other room.

“This is going to be a long night”

#kpop fluff #gxg #kpop x reader #nmixx x reader #x reader #gxg fluff #kpop imagines #bae #kyujin #lily #haewon #jiwoo #jiwoo x reader #nmixx imagines #sullyoon

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georgette-mademoiselle · 9 months ago

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Georgette and aizetsu part 1

based on the canon that georgette first clone to get along with was aizetsu and still hadnt bonded with sekido as she does now.

The rain

The rain poured throughout the household the garden of roses absorbing its life source thanks to mother nature. Georgette watched through the window sighing as she leaned in to watch. Today had been lonely for her everyone else was in there rooms bored while letting the storm pass meanwhile bieng alone in her room for to long only lingered in somberness and isolation though the more she watched the roses and how alive they must have felt in this stormy weather she thought to herself why not bask in mother natures tears to feel alive as the flowers itself? And so she did just that.

She walked out barefooted in the wet soil the smell of petrichor immediately soothed her malady a bit. She walked foward raindrops trickling down her skin and dress her hair crimson as a trail of blood as the water dropped down her tips. Closing her eyes she took a deep breathe and raised her arms shutting her mind of from the background noises and only meditating in the sound of nature.

"i am alive...im alive...i am still here" these words echoed through her mind until suddenly a hand placed on her shoulder turning it was aizetsu with a calm look in his face.

" its one of those days for you i see..." Georgette knew what he ment and nodded "rainy days like these make me feel sad when im only watching on the inside...

But when im outside, its as if it brings my life together and the sadness goes away..."

Aizetsu absorbed her words and he couldn't agree more with that " its true that the weather can change ones mood thou for me it does the opposite...*lifts a hand letting the rain hit on his palm* it makes me feel peace within myself..."

She smiles " looks like we both have something in common in appreciating natures tears" he looks at her " when i think about it more, how sad it is that mother nature crys for us to shed her compassion to us...

Even to us demons..." Georgette loved to listen to his ramblings of anything that intrested him it was rather eandering to see such demon be vulnerable and empathetic at the same time " she crys even to those who have been converted like us perhaps she wished our lives would have been different but alas whats done is done..."

He looks down "would you have wished your life to turn out differently than it is now?"

She didnt say anything at first but the more she thought about it she answered " demonhood has been hell... especially with the kind that converted me, despite that...perhaps i am satisfied with this lifestyle compared to the one prior...so no i think i wouldnt want it any different."

He looked curious " if i may ask...whos your master? Because from the way you talk about him he isnt like the one where with.."

Oh dear should she even talk about him? Perhaps its best not to talk about to much of him yet "lets just say he isnt a demon influenced by the blue spider lily plant more so...he was once something humans would find comfort until he no longer wasnt..."

"oh? Well he certainly sounds fascinating...how sad that he is no longer something humans would appreciate anymore..."

She looks down with a face a little more depressed than earlier in her room " indeed...perhaps one day maybe ill talk about him more but for now" raises her arms to the sky yet again inhaling the wet earth. "Lets just enjoy this moment together before its finally put to an end dont you think so morning dew?"

Aizetsu blinked in confusion "morning dew? Are you talking about me?" Georgette giggles and nods "yes indeed, your a morning dew as you are saddness so when you shed a tear you resemble a morning dew once your tears stops it means the old is dead and now a new comes in your life you will have something positive come into your life now aizetsu...maybe not now but soon it will.." *holding both his hands*

He blushed from her words and actions he couldnt believe she just complimented him in such a way no one had done before " o-oh.." he pulls back turning way as he scratched his head.

"your to cute..."

"perhaps one day ill be able to bond with the others soon though i have my doubts on the angry one..."

Aizetsu speaks as his bashfulness fades away " sekido? Hes difficult for sure...but i promise you that hes more than a serious leader looking after us..."

More than just a serious leader? " You mean theres a side i have yet to see then? Oh dear i hope someday ill be able to see that instead of annoying him that hell blast me!"

Aizetsu couldn't help but chuckle in that last comment " how sad to think perhaps he will...maybe talk to him when hes alone or when his mood isnt as bad i cant promise you that hell want to bond but it dosent hurt to try you know?"

Its true, if she just sulks in fear avoiding him she will get knowhere with him infact for all she knows showing such weakness only irritates him more

"as scary as that is your right i need to try harder than just hide. I-ill do it! Tomarrow though...i need this rain for good luck now"

And so georgette stood there know poured entirely that she was soaking "alright then but may i recommend using a towel before you get in? I wouldn't want you to cry when sekido yells at you for leaving mudprints...."

She opened one eye "true...fetch me one please!" Aizetsu nodded and went inside before he to stood with her for another hour until the rain finally stopped and went inside.

Dividers by @/elryisia

Part 2 in the rain with sekido this time

#Georgette mademoiselle #georgette and aizetsu #aizetsu #kny aizetsu #aizetsu kny #sekido #kny sekido #sekido kny #oc lore #original demon oc #kny fic #kny #demon slayer #kimitsu no yaiba #oc x canon fic #oc x canon

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like-the-verb · 4 months ago

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Just had the worlds worst conversation with my mother (under cut)

Tw: rape, CSA, vent

So, I mentioned my fear of sharing a room with someone right? And my mum asks me why im scared of that, and i share that its because im constantly afraid of the other person raping me in my sleep, or otherwise assaulting me sexually. And i thought this was a normal-ish fear right? Like everyone is super hyper vigilant about sexual assault right? But my mum said thats actually really concerning, and asked if anyone has ever assaulted me, to which i said no, not to my knowledge. Anyway this lead to a conversation about how im constantly terrified, how any time a man walks past i shiver and think that this might be it, that he might grab me and rape me, how i cant go out early in the morning or late at night because im scared something will happen, how i cant get close to people physically because they might touch me inappropriately, and how i dont have sleepovers at friends houses because im scared. And my mother asked me questions about it, and she got really worried, and i said "but its fine, if someone raped me as a kid i would remember it", and I thought shed agree but instead she brought up how she was raped at age 4 and didnt remember until she was 20 and reading a book about CSA. And then I remembered a few books i tried reading, and how i couldnt get past where they mention/imply CSA because it made me panic. And i asked my mum if i showed signs of it as a kid, and she said yes, but i was so emotionally dysregulated because of the other abuse, not to mention undiagnosed autism, that it was impossible to tell, and that wouldve made me a perfect victim. I said theres no way because i wasnt around any pervy men, and while my dad was pure evil, he wasnt that evil, and anyway he has so many kids that someone wouldve said something by now, right? Well, he had no contact with any of his kids except me and one of my half sisters, and both of us have always been alike in our behaviour, and my sister used to beat me up, but she would kick me in the privates because "no one would check there" and now i think of it, how did she know that? How did she know to attack me there at such a young age? But then again, she couldve come into contact with plenty of men i didnt. Theres no way that happened to me, right? And i tell my mother this, and she said maybe, but then she brought up my asexuality and what ive told her about my experience with sex, and she said she was concerned even with that but now with the other stuff shes really worried, and she says i should talk to my counsellor about it, because she knows she wouldnt be clear headed enough to help me considering her personal history and the fact that well, shes my mum. But then i thought more about what ive said about being ace, and how i do experience attraction and i like the idea of sex in theory but the thought of being touched makes me feel sick, and i have nightmares about the time i had sex, despite it being fully consensual and the fact that in the moment i loved it, and when i am reminded of sex i feel physically ill, and apparently thats not being ace, that's something much more concerning? Not to mention the fanfic i used to write, where every self insert i had would always be sexually abused, despite me supposedly never being abused in that way myself. And i have nightmares all the time about being raped, but i put that down to watching too much svu. Also, tmi but like, i cant even pleasure myself without feeling violently ill and sobbing because i hate sexual acts so much....all of this is to say, i dont fucking remember if anything ever happened to me, but i do know i have forgotten other traumatic moments, and that scares the shit out of me. Im 100% not ok rn, and i cant think of anything else other than i mightve been assaulted as a child and i dont remember it. I really hope not, obviously. I dont see my counsellor for another two weeks and idk who to talk to about this. I bet none of this made sense, i just needed to get it off my chest. Im scared and worried, because what if my biggest fear already happened and i didnt know it?

#tw rape #tw csa #vent

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februaryberries · 2 years ago

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the rest of my reaction to the rest of the episodes because i can’t be bothered to split them up

JIMS HOT CHOCOLATE JIMS MUG

she’s so cute im gonna cry

she’s so cute and they’re so like hdjshfjdbf

SHES SO SWEET

DONT HESITATE TO ASK ANY OTHER QUESTIONS YOU HAVE ABOUT LOVE INSPECTOR CONSTABLE

i feel so bad for nina :(

OH MY GOD HE JOURNALS

aziraphale fuckin writing in a journal kicking his legs like a teenage girl

aziraphale sweetie you’re so brainwashed

OH MY GOD HE MADE IT YELLOW

oooooo i love the bentley driving into the intro art that’s so cool

he’s so obsessed w the rain moment

im so obsessed w ziras diary it’s so funny

now zira that was petty and bad

zira NOOOOOO

oh poor zira he’s so sad

he’s so cute in his little detective costume

THE SKINNY LOWDOWN HES SO SOLLY

gimme the FACTS

well yeah mason hmmmm

im so worried about this girl i feel like this is going to end badly

they’re gonna die

i knew something would go wrong

rip those guys

NO SHE DIED??????? FUCK

he’s insane crowley insane

HES SO TINY

im small arent i

GIANR ROWLEY?????

where are you

GRINDR LMAO

the awning moment

ooooof

VERY CLOSED LOL

it’s always too late :((((

PH MY GOD IS HE IN THE HITCHHIKER

who is she

YOU DONT SEEM HIS TYPE ????? IM SORRY!?????

WHAT HAT WHAT I HEARD YOU AND CROWLEY WERE AN ITEM IM FUCKING SCREAMING

furfur WHO

OH MY GOS OH MY GOD OH MY GOD ITS LIKE I HOPED BUT I COULDNT LET MYSELF BELIEVE THEYD ACTUALLY DO ANYTHING SJFJSJCJJSKSZKJDJ OKAY WAIT OKAY IM NOT POSTING THIS UNTIL I FINISH IT NOW IN CASE IM WRONG LOL

Im sorry is it literally raining hearts when zira and crowley are sitting on the roof in the intro are u kidding me

NO WAY NO WAY NO WAY NO WAY NOT US GETTING 1941 RIGHT AFTER THEY YOURE AN ITEM COMMENT ARE U FUCKING KIDDING ME RN IM GONNA THROW UP

the music

who tf is that guy in the church how is he awake alive whatever

is he flirting is that flirting

oh thank you crowley is there anything i can do for you in return *bats eyelashes* LMAO

ooooo

SISSY TYPE

EW THAT TONGUE WAS SO UNNECESSARY

oh no not magic he’s so silly

nice exactly what nazis deserve

ZOMBIES????

no this poor old man also how did he not see them LMAO

That’s what …… f r i e n d s are for LMAOOOO

CROWLEYS OLD MAN IMPRESSION IS SO FUNNY

he’s so supportive look ziras so happy

SOMEONE YOU REALLY TRUST OH MY GOD

ZIRAS SO EXCITED AW oh rip the magic shop guy

im so scared for aziraphale oh god i don’t know if i can watch

he’s so baby

THE BEES KNEES

JIGGERY POKERY

OH NO MIRACLES BLOCKED OH FUCK

oh no

evidence envelope LMAO

im so nervous but i know it’s going to work H

he’s so whimsy

OH HE DID A MAGIC TRICK W THE PHOTO DIDNT HE

BRILLIANT AZIRAPHALE IF U DID WHAT I THINK U DID

Lmao get fucked nazis

YES ZIRA I KNEW IT

oh my god im gonna throw up

they’re so sweet

SHADES OF GREY

im so

CROWLEYS PET????

TJE BULLET HOLE STUCKERS THRE STICKERS

oh no are the demons gonna crash his night

HES GIVING AWAY BOOKS

NO WAY DAVID PUTTING ON THE FEZ I SEE YOU AS HE ALSO MENTIONED THE DR WHO BOOK ARE U KIDDING I FUCKIN SEE YOU

THE FEZ LMAOO

HER ARMOR LMAOOOO

this is so awkward lmao

OH FOFO FURFUR WHATEVER HIS MAME IS

Zira please stop speaking french

YOUVE BEEN TOGETHER LONG IM KILLING MTSELF IM THROWING UP

HES NOT MY BIT ON THE SIDE

other peoples love lives always seem more straightforward than our own AND HE WALKS AWAY HE DIDNT KNOW IM HOW DO YOU NOT KNOW WAHHHH

Im losing my mind oh god the season finale is after this episode im going to throw up

WHAT IS THIS

SMITTEN IM SORRY ???

this isn’t going to end well

okay but the way they do the texts from Lindsey is so cool

my only friend

OH NO HES SO SAD

CROWLEY WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU

oh thank god

crowley OH ITS IN THE MATCHBOX

DO YOU WANT A HOT CHOCOLATE CROWLEY AWEWW IM GONNA DIE

Oh sweet girl

nobody would believe you anyway :( WAIT AND SEE LMAO

So beautiful

OH NO MAGGIE

A SEASMSTRESS

ZIRA U CANT FORCE PPL TO FEEL THINGS

he’s so worried :((( crowley

HES ASKING HIM TO DANCE ??????? IM SORRY ARE THEY GOING TO DANCE

jim :((( a

THE FUR COAT LMAO

TOSTE

oh rip the annoying guy LOL

i won’t leave you on your own maggie :(

BUT RESCUING ME MAKES HIM SO HAPPY????????? IM SORRY EXCUSE ME WHAT

YOU SAID BLAH BLAH BLAH

WHY IS CROWLEY GOING TO HEAVE THOUGH

LAST EPISODE IM GOING TO DIE

his little prance

MAGGIE NO

man that one demon can’t catch a break

HIS LITTLE HAPPY WALK LOL

crowleys emotional support angel

CROWLEY YOUR MEMORY

are gabriel and beelzebub going on dates these look like dates LMAO

SHE GAVE HIM THE FLY ????

WAIT ACTUALLY I DIDNT THINK I WAS RIGHT OH MY GOD

HES SUGGESTING ALPHA CENTURI FOR THEM AND ITS LIKE BUT THATS WHERE HE WAS GOING TO TAKE AZIRAPHALE

it’s a crime that gabriel and beelzebub are getting together before crowley and zira THEY DID IT FIRST

us time

he’s tidying up the shop :(((( and waiting for zira

im gonna throw up im gonna throw up oh no what is azira going to say what did matatrom say oh no

NO CROWLEY WAS ABOUT TO CONFESS IM GONNA THROW UP

oh no but he doesn’t want oh no

oh zira sweetie

NO IM GONNA THROW UP IM GONNA CRY

NO IM NO

im NO

THIS ISNT WHAT I MEANT WHEN I SAID MAKE THEM KISS WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WTH YOU THIS ISNT WGAT I MEANT THIS ISNT WHAT I MEANT IM GONNA THROW UP WHAT DO TOU MEAN IM GONNA FUCKINGDYE IM SOBBING ZIRA NOOOOOOOOOO NOOOOOOO ZIRA WHAT HAVE YOU DONE ZIRA NOOOOOOOOO

WHAT THE FUCK THIS ISNT WHAT I MEANT

how am i ever ever ever ever supposed to recover from this the way they both wanted the other to come with them but zira is too brainwashed by heaven still and it’s heart breaking and the way crowley kisses him because he thinks he’s never gonna have the chance now the NO NIGHTINGALE GALES we could have ben US zira being so heartbroken by the kiss I FORGIVE YOU don’t bother what if i eat my entire laptop right now

The way he tenderly touches his lips afterwards is Gut Wrenching and then he’s about to say he thinks he’s made a mistake and then you see him pack those feelings away in a box and shove them deep down and what if i died right now

#good omens spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #im #neil gaiman #took me out back and shot me with that last scene #im so #HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO RECOVER IM SORRY #tw suicide joke #i say im gonna kms a lot but i mean it in a good way if that makes sense #yk how it is being deranged about media

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enviousennui · 1 year ago

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Nobody asked me so im doing it on my own accord

1/2- My chum handle is my username, so yes my username is hs related. When coming up with a username, i thought hard about it and ended up leaning towards the hs format. as for the meaning, it doesn't particulary have one. Im not really an envious person but i guess ennui works sometimes? Idk it doesnt mean anything deep

3- I have referred to my partner as a matesprit in the past but i dont currently since it isnt something ive done for a while

4- I have with online friends but i dont irl. I probably would of in the past though

5- I used to say i kinned Jade but It was always more in the way of strongly relate to instead of traditional kin culture. I do not kin anybody in that sense

6- Sylph of Light

7-I do! It's mostly doodles and more relaxed art as opposed to more detailed pieces, but i post art here and my ask blog

8- I do not but i have been thinking about a potential fic. Im not sure if i will or not though

9-Im currently on a rp server which i play as WV. i havent been super active this week but i try to hop on every week. I used to rp on msprp all the time though

10- Ive been looking to pick up cosplay again. I have cosplayed hs before in the past, that being Terezi. I made her stick and the horns using felt sheets, but it definitely looks like a first cosplay. I gotta revamp it

11-Yep! It's very casual but I've got a wayward vagabond ask blog. I've been thinking of stuff to draw from it aside from asks, since i xo not recieve many asks, but i have not had time recently.

12- not particulary other than the disgrub rp group

13- fuckk thats a hard question. June, Jade and Roxy are very high up there...Terezi ofc, i wouldnt of cosplayed her otherwise. These characters all mean a lot to me but those are the top. Oh and i think it goes without saying but the exiles are definitely top too

14- Equius ane Damara. I like fanon interpretations but those two are just not my faves. I dont need to get into it

15- rosemary, cottoncandy, wvpmar and pepsicola. Guilty pleasures guys.

16- ugh really not a fan of pm/bec noir. Its not very popular and only mildly implied as a black rom thing but no. As for other ships? there's probably a few but none on the top of my head

17- Jane and Dirk. I love their friendship sm

18- I have a lot of mixed feelings. I like aspects of hs2 but yeah.

19- I played the first act of hiveswap when it released but i wasn't able to play act 2. I watched it on yt instead and i enjoy the game. I cant wait for whenever the next act releases....

20- Well i got into it when i was around 13 and im almost 20 now. It feels like a significant amount of my life has revolved around it. I used to reference it at school and even now i make subtle jokes when they pop up naturally

21- not particularly but i do know a few people online through fandom

22- yes but it wasn't an intentional leave, it was more of a slow interest decline where i got into something else at the time. But it came back, this comic is very relevant to me all the time. despite not being my number one interest at times, i always reblogged art.

23- i originally read it during the gigapause, then i read it again once it had ended. I read through it again after hiveswap was released and then again in 2019 before 413 (unaware of the upcoming epilogues that would be released that day) and finally at the beginning of January this year

24- i hate to admit it but when I first got interested in the comic, i couldnt read it. So i decided to watch the voxus dub but i got bored, so i started skipping through and upon seeing Karkat, i thought john had turned into him? When it came time to me actually sitting down with my old shitty pc to read it, i skipped the intermission. I went through the pages but i didnt read it. I didnt think it was important :/

25- once again, mixed opinions. Current fandom is fine, old fandom was all over the place. I was an avid tumblr blogger then and was in a lot of the popular fandoms at the time. Fandomstuck had so many fandoms i was in, for example. Seeing old posts makes me very nosta!gic though and i love to see how loved and active it once wasgic

26-Oof. Okay. The comic is rough but for all the circumstances, it still holds up well. Of course with the website being in shambles, flash being extinct and certain...writing choices...its hard to recommend to people. But if you can look past certain things, or even read the unofficial collection if it makes it more digestible, i still think you should read it cause it does a lot of things i love. And also things i dont. But thats not unheard of

27- carapacians

28-Oo i should of read through this question sheet before answering them all in one. Thats hard to say but cascade is still a huge moment to me. That or jade:enter (yes these are both flashes but those are what came to mind)

29- the retcon. Not the idea of it but the fact its so vriska central. Vriska is not the problem solver. Also hate hate the whole vriska (vriska) stuff. I like (vriska) and seeing her get shredded to shit by the "better" vriska is just. ugh. Theres definitely other things i dont like. Oh god trickster mode. I love the designs but i hate what it is in the comic.

30- *insert the cop upd8 story because im not coming up with something on the fly*

31- Pretty much 95%. In the paat it was more like 50% but now its pretty much blog wide.

“Homestuck Isn’t Dead” Tag

I wanted to make one, so send a number or reblog to get one!

1. Do you have a chum handle? What does it mean?

2. Is your username homestuck related/have you had one hs related?

3. Do you call your s/o a matesprit?

4. Do you call your best friend your moirail?

5. Are you “kin” with any characters or commonly called a character?

6. God Tier?

7. Do you make HS fanart?

8. Do you make hs fanfiction?

9. Do you roleplay homestuck? where and how often?

10. Do you cosplay homestuck characters? Who and where?

11. Are you apart of ask blogs?

12. Are you in any homestuck groups?

13. Favorite character?

14. Least favorite character?

15. OTP?

16. NOTP?

17. BROTP?

18. Do you want homestuck to just die already?

19. Are you following up with hiveswap? Do you play? Watch YT videos?

20. Tell us how homestuck has effected you in real life?

21. Have you met anyone through homestuck?

22. Have you left the fandom before?

23. How many times have you read through it?

24. Did you ever skip intermissions/dialog/animations?

25. Opinions on the fandom?

26. Opinions on the comic?

27. Do you favor the trolls, humans, or carapaces?

28. Favorite moment of all of homestuck?

29. Least favorite moment of all of homestuck?

30. Tell us a homestuck based story.

31. How homestuck related is your blog?

#reblog #phew #homestuck #ask game #pretend someone asked me all the numbers. All of them #save for later

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remotely-radical · 14 days ago

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i found it so interesting, that when i tell people about my last relationship, i dont sugar coat it, i explain all my wrong doings and what she said i did, and how horrible i was and made her feel. But also I get to express how i felt, what she was doing, id say word for word things she said, and yet, they always say its not okay. It's taken me a while to accept it, to stop defedning her and excusing every thing she did and how she made me feel. Though ill always most likely have a soft spot due to her past and trauma, im always going to be sad for the little girl who got put through so much. I genuinely wonder what kind of person she'd be without that upbringing.

But trauma is not an excuse to treat someone badly. Which is ironic as she'd often tell me those things. Say how because I've got issues, im now doing all these horrible things to her. I tell people that too, alot just find those normal relationship issues and can be worked on.

Which I wanted, but i couldnt get the time to work on myself because all my time was for her now. I have talked to strangers who dont know either of us. Said what happened, how i felt and what things made me feel. and people are shocked and just not okay with it,

Even now its still hard to paint her as a bad person, because how could someone so close be like that? I have to keep hold of hope she wasn't the way people see her. Then i feel bad, when someone speaks badly of her, calls her a narcissist, that she's manipulative, she's xyz and abusive. Because I still doubt myself at times. Since she called me those, am I just twisting the story and making it that way? How could I be doing that when these are my raw and genuine feelings? How could I of been all that when nothing in that relationship was benifitting me. All i was was hurt and on edge all the time in the end. Yes our relationship was beautiful at first. Which is so confusing and conflictng. Was any of it real? Did any of it mean anything to her? Or was all this just to have someone obsessed with her and boost her ego? Surely not..

But she is so egotistical, i used to like that and think the confidence was hot. But i realise its not just confidence, its genuinely thinking shes better than others and puts herself above. Because thats how i viewd it, thats how i was so okay being treated like dirt, because she was above me, i didnt deserve to be loved the way i loved her. That i needed to put her above me. which was hard, as sometimes id defy that, and want to do something for myself. Which usuallly ended in tears and fighting and being called selfish, so i learnt not to. Until the end, I started standing up formyself much more and sticking to my truth and reality and didnt let her alter it.

Makes me feel shame that i let her treat me that way, before meeting her, I had alot of self worth and progress, i was adamant i wouldnt be treated less than again. But she managed to get me there again, had me begging for her, and for what?

I did leave sometimes, or was going to, the time she told me to fuck off, im horrible and wished she never met me. I packed and started to leave, then she guilts me into staying by saying how hurt she is that im leaving instead of staying to fix it.

I thought it was done and over, i didnt think i could fix it. So it made me feel I had a chance, that shes willing to let me stay to fix, and so i did, for so long. Like fuck i stayed outside her door in the cold for 8 hours begging her to stay and how sorry I am. I feel so pathetic for that, but i was determined to prove my worth, to prove ill stay and fix it, to prove i wont leave. Because i thought thats what she wanted, when she said to leave, I should alawys find a way to stay, because otherwise she is hurt that im leaving????

But then she tells me im being domestic voilence everytime she says to leave and i dont. HOW DO I WIN, WHAT THE FUCK COULD I OF DONE. WHAT WAS THE RIGHT WAY AND ANSWER.

Like fuck me, the rules changed so much, i really wasnt enough, i always felt that, and its true. No one is enough for her, she needs to date a clone because no one is better than her. I feel she wont ever be happy with someone whos not her. Which is sad and makes me sad if thats true. Because after everything, i do want her healed and happy. I do want her to find someone that is perfect for her, meets her standards BUT not at the expense of them. Someone who is equal. Can call her on her shit, not let her walk all over them and control them. I think she needs to learn and to be comfortable in not controlling everything. Because its impossible to. It's how she can find peace.

She'd say that about me, that I need to be in control, that im causing everything wrong in the relationship because of it. I didnt feel that or resonate with that tho, as I know not everything can be controlled. But she was projecting her own thing on me.

I realise now that pretty much high majoirty of things she was accusing me of, was projection. Yet she had me so under her spell that I took it all into consideration and that I might be all these things. Even tho anytime i lookd up gaslighiting, manipulatin, narcissism etc, alot described her and what shes said.. was unsettling but i convinced myself its all me and that im actually even gaslighting myself into that and i really am this horrible person.

Was just so confusing. Especially the gaslighting, I had no clue what was going on half the time. She was so adamant I said xyz, but i genuinely hand on my heart had no memory of it or memory of saying something else. But mostly i just went with it, just caved in, submitted to it and just "admitted" it just to apologise and grovel and try and do better and make sure i dont do it again. But kept happening, i kept saying all these things according to her then lying about it. I felt so crazy, like actually crazy and scared I was blacking out and doing these things.

One im so so soSO adamant about is how she told me i told her she was over reacting. I did not, I said how i was understanding her reaction to the situatuon. Never once said it was an overreaction. Because i know those are damaging words and i was always so damn careful and alwyas tip toed around phrases like that. So i know it didnt say it.

but ofcourse she would of known her saying i said that id of contested it and called out on it and say i didnt say that. Which obviously turned into a full fight, her bawling her eyes saying im gaslighting and lying and making her feel awful.

Did she genuinely believe thiss?? what if this was so real for her, that she did think i said it, and did think i was gaslighting? Or was she legit manipulating the situation knowing how id react and used it as a way to get me to obey her.

idk man, this will always conflict me. If she did think this, then im so sorry for her as that would of been such a horrible feeling. Because i felt exactly that and wouldnt want to make somoene else feel that. So how could someone else intentionally do this ?? Scares me people like this exist. My friend who had a guy in her life be the worst person ever and was lying and manipulating her the entire time. Some things she said he said.. hit to close to him, or how he made her feel. Made me unsettled as there was some simular things. Surely not tho, maybe some traits, but i know she wouldnt be like him fully, since he was downright evil. I think she was just traumatised and having al0t of trauma responses.

but she really does love herself, or atleast presents herself that way, someone showed me her current dating profile. Just screams "im so hot and better than you" its way worse than when i matched with her. She's got these eyes, but they arent friednly eyes, they are scary. She was scary. I genuinely hadn't feared someone like that in a relationship.

even my abusive relationship, where my first gf would be voilent and hit me, It was a different kind of fear. I really dont know how to explain it.

As much as i want her to be a good person and infact it wasnt an abusive relationship, i cant deny the facts and motions i went through. Ive had several realtionships since my first DV. Not a single one had made me feel like my last one did.

She brought back alot of feelings from my past relationship, tho not all was exact the same. But i didnt feel that bad in myself for a long time. Even started to have dreams where my first was in it or something about her, yet I hadnt dreamed of her for years.

funnyily enough, I even told her about it, before i could even finish what i was saying and expressing how it made me feel. She already decided what it meant, I cant remmeber word for word, but was along the lines of "yeah youre treating me so bad to the point ur ex is showing up in ur dreams"

i was like.... right.... okay.. anyway, and actually told her how im feeling some simularties in this relationship and really opened up about it.

Ofcourse it became about her, and how DARE i compare the two and now ive made her feel bad bad and im being a bad person again yardyya ya.

Ive typed alot, first time properly using my tablets keyboard. So nice i got this, ive enjoyed doing digital art, very nice. :)

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theddude · 6 months ago

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Im home alone,... i heard a sound,.. hoped it would be you sitting in my livingroom, i ran to the livingroom,.. only to not find you there,...

Maybe im pathetic, maybe im a fool, mybe im desperate, maybe i hope to much, maybe i care to much to,... but i am because of you,.. i miss you,.. never thought this would happen,.. i swore my devotion to you, and only you more than a year ago,.. and now i'm here,.. and you are not...

I hope when you talk with your parents about me, you also tell them that, that we had devoted our lives together,.. that we where in real love, and we are real best friends,... i hope you do, do give me that credit,..

You know i asked you if they where angry on me,... they where,... but if they knew it all, that it is real love, real devotion, real care, real commitment,.. how can they be angry about the thing that makes her daughter happy?,...

I remember the mondayevening when before you first broke,.. we snapchatted each other like we always did,.. i asked if everything was alright,.. you weren't,... i asked if i could do anything for you,... i couldnt, you had to do it yourself,.. i asked if you still loved me and wanted me,.. you said you did,.. i even asked if you still wanted be intimate with me and stuff, and you replied you did, happily,..i replied i would love that to, but was very worried about you,..

One day later im pucking down the road,.. because my world fell apart,.. you pushed me out,...

The second time, I specifically asked if we where still the same for each other,.. yes we where,.. you still want us do the same,.. yes you wanted,... you wanted to avoid difficult questions,.. so i did, i respected you,..you even helped me choosing presents for my niece(which she adores btw) ... and then all of a sudden another break,... it was so sudden, i almost think you got caught again or something and had to do this,...

Writing me makes me light headded, i never have been angry you know, wont be,.. and if your partner is angry and dissapointed in me i can imagine, but he should know how love works,... if its there its there, if there was no space and click where it could evolve in it wouldnt evolved in this we had,... and honestly he gave so much space it was uncanny, like he was okey with me pleasing and beeing there for you more than him,... you know he said to me a couple of times,.. i could better talk with you instead of him, because i know you better,.. i mean come on,..i've talked with people around you about it, and they even noticed,.. and they thinked you and me should have been a couple instead,... this was a time back already,..

I hope you are not bussy with a farewell tour with me, and still we find a way to circle back,..

I trust you, love you, adore you, miss you, and kiss you on the forehead in my mind right now,..

Your love,

#miss me?

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pesterloglog · 1 year ago

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Jake English, Jane Crocker

Act 6, page 4587-4593

golgothasTerror [GT] began pestering gutsyGumshoe [GG]

GT: Aloha madame.

GG: Jake!

GG: Hey there. I was actually about to message you.

GT: Yes i have heard that maybe your correspondence was forthcoming.

GG: You did?

GT: I just got off the horn with roxy.

GG: Wait...

GG: What did she tell you?

GT: Well. Not anything all that specific.

GG: Did she goad you into writing this message?

GT: Oh you know how it is. What with her ways.

GG: What ways?

GT: You know... ways!

GT: I believe they are not incongruous with those of a feisty and provocative young woman.

GG: Provocative my behind!

GG: She is skirting dangerously close to meddlesome territory.

GT: No its really not like that!

GT: Hold on...

GT: God dammit.

GG: ??

GT: Its just dirks inscrutable wrestlebot acting up over there.

GT: What the fuck is it doing now?

GG: Has one of his gadgets been causing trouble for you over there as well?

GT: If by causing trouble you mean clobbering the everfriggin tar out of me while still switched to the "novice" setting then yes.

GT: But that is not why i messaged you!!! I will not be deterred here jane.

GG: Deterred from what?

GT: Jane i think its time we had an honest to goodness dame to fella talk. Like about our...

GT: Stuff. You know?

GG: Our stuff?

GT: Our feelings.

GT: Like how we feel about each other.

GG: Um...

GG: Yes.

GG: Okay.

GT: I dont think im out of line in suggesting weve been tiptoeing around some things here do you?

GG: Have we?

GT: I think so. Its just a hunch.

GG: Is there something you want to say to me, Jake?

GG: About how you feel?

GT: Absolutely!

GT: I feel that total honesty between us will be the best policy as we begin our journey together.

GT: So i say lets put all the facts on the table where we can both see them.

GT: With that in mind i would like to ask you a question jane and i hope it doesnt strike you as being too forward.

GG: ...

GG: Go on.

GT: Maybe its just my imagination but ive picked up on certain lets say hints.

GT: So i have to just come out and ask. Hoo boy this is actually proving to be a serious challenge to my bravery now that im going through with it.

GT: Im getting a little hot under the collar here!

GG: No, it's ok...

GG: Please continue!

GT: Ok then.

GT: What id like to know is...

GT: Do you like me jane?

GG: Uh.

GG: Wait...

GG: What?

GT: I mean do you like me as more than a friend?

GT: Do you envision us as like...

GT: An item? A romantic pairing of sorts?

GG: Wow, um.

GT: Is that the direction in which you would prefer our relationship to progress?

GG: Well,

GG: I

GT: Please! Be honest with me jane.

GT: Just come out and say it. Do you fancy me?

GG: No!

GT: I see.

GT: Very well then.

GT: Jeez i mustve really misread that one! I feel like kind of a bone head now.

GT: Are you sure the answers no?

GG: I guess...

GG: That...

GG: Sure was the thing I said! Ha ha.

GT: Yes fair enough.

GT: I guess i did put you on the spot there didnt i.

GT: You know it may sound cocky of me but i really was not prepared for this answer!

GT: You must think im just this epic friggin tool now. Couldnt say id disagree if you did.

GG: No!!!!!!

GG: Oh my God, what am I saying here?

GG: Jake, I didn't mean it! I didn't want to make you feel that way!

GT: Now jane lets not backpedal here.

GT: Youve spoken the truth and i greatly appreciate and respect you for that.

GT: But now that i think about it you know what?

GG: ...

GG: No? :(

GT: Please dont take this the wrong way but your answer is actually kind of a relief!

GG: It is?

GT: I consider you to be a lovely lady of the highest caliber and i really think any gent worth his salt would be a huge bozo to let the chance to go steady with you slip through his fingers.

GT: Ive even given the possibility some thought myself.

GG: You have?

GT: Sure im only human jane im going to entertain lets say certain ideas. What ifs. You know?

GT: Like what if we did meet up some day? And you asked me out or something. Im sure id say yes given all weve been through together and then well who knows?

GG: You would??

GT: Probably but im kind of babbling here. The point is those are all just silly daydreams about stuff and about your feelings for me that i was projecting on you which werent even real.

GT: And now that weve been honest with each other about this we can kind of move on and just be great friends.

GG: Friends!

GG: Oh boy!!

GT: And its a load off to be honest because that was lot to think about on top of everything else!

GG: Everything else?

GT: Things are kind of complicated for me jane. With you and roxy and dirk and his crazy responder and now...

GT: Well its a tangled web lets just put it that way.

GG: I don't think I'm following.

GT: There are a fuckload of irons in the fire jane!

GT: So many irons in the fire. Such a tangled web. It is a web full of flaming irons.

GG: And mixed metaphors, apparently?

GT: Exactly. See? You get it.

GG: I really don't, Jake.

GT: Oh son of a bitch!

GG: What?!

GT: The robot is being weird again.

GG: What's happening?

GT: Its having some sort of mental episode.

GT: See this is what im talking about jane. This is what im dealing with here.

GT: Sigh. Like i said my life is many different hells of complicated.

GG: Jake, could you just tell me what you're talking about?

GT: Youre right. I did say honesty was the best policy didnt i so i might as well not keep certain things so close to the vest anymore.

GT: Actually since youve made your feelings apparent and only see me as a friend that makes it a lot easier!

GG: Haha, yes!

GG: Friends!!!!

GT: Maybe you could help me sort out some stuff that has been weighing on me lately?

GG: Well what are friends for Jake!!!!!

GT: Jane are you alright?

GT: You seem to be exclaiming more liberally than usual.

GG: Me?

GG: HOO HOO HOO!

GG: I'm just

GG: Terrific!

GG: I'm feeling so...

GG: Friendly!!!

GG: I clearly just want to be a good friend and bring all my AMAZING FRIENDLINESS to bear on your problems.

GG: Friendlystyle! Ahahahah?

GG: Shit I mean

GG: Ahahahah!

GT: Thats aces. Jane youre a sweetheart.

GT: So as i was saying.

GT: I cant help but feel like all this stuff going on with dirk like his responders mind games and his brobots mysterious and brutal hazings...

GT: Are all like...

GT: Man i know this is going to sound crazy.

GG: What?

GT: Like theyre all part of a really long term and esoteric courtship process that is bizarre but somehow makes perfect sense in his mind.

GG: Courtship??

GT: Yes from dirk.

GT: To you know...

GT: Woo me.

GG: Huh!

GG: Really?

GT: I know its hard to believe but i know dirk pretty well and...

GT: Well im more than a little sure he likes me in that way if you catch my drift.

GT: And what with how he is...

GT: Just so relentless and aggressive about everything you know?

GG: Yeaaah.

GT: So i just start to wonder deep down if maybe its inevitable.

GG: What's inevitable?

GT: Him and me. As more than just best buddies.

GG: Uhhhhh...

GT: I know if he has his heart set on something he will never let up.

GT: So maybe its just going to happen and things will be easier that way and i should just try to come to terms with it?

GG: I don't think you have to do anything you don't want to, Jake.

GT: Yeah.

GT: Um.

GG: Wait.

GG: DO you not want to?

GT: Like i said jane i am inclined to entertain certain ideas and what ifs thats all.

GT: I mean we do get along really well and share a lot of interests.

GT: Im not saying im really GUNG HO TO THE MAX about the proposition but yeah ive given it some thought.

GT: I dunno.

GT: Do you think thats weird of me? For even considering it?

GG: Well...

GG: No.

GG: I don't think that makes you weird, Jake.

GT: Really?

GG: I think

GG: That

GT: What jane?

GG: I think that it's great if you are open to exploring those feelings.

GT: Thats really swell of you to say that.

GT: Have i mentioned what a top notch friend you are jane?

GG: Yes.

GG: As a matter of fact you have.

GT: Now please dont take me as saying im about to go leaping into his arms or anything.

GG: Heh.

GT: That would be a bit brash.

GT: Haha could you imagine??

GG: Whee!

GT: But my thought process sort of went like this.

GT: Hes been my best friend forever and ive always liked him a lot as a bro.

GT: And years ago i used to joke around with him that we would probably be totally into each other if he was a girl.

GT: But of course that was before i started to realize he was probably serious about those feelings for me regardless.

GT: Heheh come to think of it maybe that was unwittingly poor form on my part kind of leading him on or something?

GG: Whoops!!

GT: But then...

GT: Later i started thinking.

GT: Maybe i was being kind of unfair to him in the first place?

GT: I mean by saying we would be a good match only if he was a girl.

GT: Like is that last condition there really all THAT important?

GT: Does that make sense?

GG: Hmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GT: You are incredibly understanding jane. Thank you so much for listening.

GT: I have never told anyone all that. Its so great to have a friend as good as you.

GG: That is what I am good for, it seems!

GT: If we hadnt cleared the air just now i probably never would have had the gumption to talk about it with you.

GT: Its so cool how you were honest with me about how you felt. I think honesty is always the best policy. I cant believe how much i was overcomplicating all this in my head.

GT: Haha the situation is really pretty funny when you think about it.

GG: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

GG: Yeaaaaaaaah..........

GG: Say, Jake?

GG: Not to cast doubt on your feelings, but are you quite sure all of Dirk's actions have been for the sake of courtship?

GT: Um...

GG: You did say his robot was prone to assailing you, did you not?

GG: Is that really an affectionate gesture?

GT: Well...

GT: He basically sent me that thing as kind of a sparring partner.

GT: Like to wrestle with.

GT: And i love to wrestle!

GG: Oh.

GT: And yeah i guess he programmed it to be a bit overzealous but i mean what do you expect from the guy.

GT: I think its his way of training me to become tougher.

GT: Which sometimes is annoying and sometimes when i walk through the jungle im sweating bullets wondering if its going to pounce on me outta nowhere.

GT: But theres actually something kind of exciting about that its like every day is more of an adventure.

GT: And truthfully its probably working i probably AM getting better at being in scrums.

GG: Yeah.

GG: I guess you're right.

GT: And his responder which i guess is really a part of his personality even if he doesnt like to say so...

GT: It kind of lets on a lot more than dirk ever would. Its almost like its this weird clone of himself playing passive aggressive matchmaker between me and his real self.

GG: Yeah.

GG: I can see how such a complicated relationship could keep you preoccupied.

GG: I guess I can't blame you.

GG: Maybe you should just...

GG: I don't know.

GT: What?

GG: Maybe you should just go for it.

GG: Hell, why not.

GG: Just tell him you know how he feels and that you're open to the idea?

GT: You really think so?

GG: ...

GG: Yeah sure why the hell not.

GT: Well i was kinda going to let it play out and just see what happens and go from there...

GT: But you think a more proactive approach would be better?

GG: Well,

GG: He likes you.

GG: You seem to like him well enough.

GG: Just...

GG: Yes.

GG: Why not??

GG: Sounds good to me!!!

GT: Wow.

GT: I must say this sort of advice surprises me coming from you!

GG: And why would that be?!

GG: What, are you expecting me to advocate a more conservative approach?

GG: To tell you to keep being shy and cagey and keep beating around the bush indefinitely??

GG: What would ever give you that idea about me!

GT: Hmm.

GT: Yes i guess that is a certainly a strategy to consider.

GT: Jane i must say your perspective on this is refreshingly bold.

GG: I BELIEVE YOU WILL FIND THAT AS REFRESHING BOLDNESS GOES I AM SIMPLY THE BEST THERE IS.

GT: Hehehe! Sure looks that way!

GG: Screw it!

GG: Ask him out.

GG: Just kill the suspense already.

GG: Become boyfriends and such.

GG: Have some babies!!!

GT: Whoa now!

GT: Jane the decision to sire children with your best bro is not one to be taken lightly.

GG: Okay I think I have to go.

GG: I have this stupid game to play.

gutsyGumshoe [GG] ceased pestering golgothasTerror [GT]

#homestuck #jake english #jane crocker #homestuck act 6 #page 4587 #page 4588 #page 4589 #page 4590 #page 4591 #page 4592 #page 4593 #homestuck act 6 act 2

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ok im not interested in debating with anyone (which is why im not reblogging any of the people who are arguing with me bc its obvious none of us are gonna change our minds about something so pointless) BUT i thought of some more points as to why i believe this so im adding on bc why not <33333

believing it shouldve been dipper is a perfectly fine opinion to have and there were a few points ive seen other people make in opposition to me that i actually think are pretty valid so im gonna touch on those real quick

one person pointed out that mabel isnt as keen on the supernatural as dipper is and i can agree with that! i never said that wasnt the case, dipper obviously is more interested in it than she is. the way it is in canon works because im sure mabel would much rather just enjoy the party than go out and fight ghosts the whole time. but i never argued that wouldnt be the case!!! and im not trying to discredit dipper here when i say this, but its not like mabel COULDNT do his job. she definitely could! and in a potential rewrite, i think she was doing it LESS for the ghosts/the northwests, and because she wanted a chance to further the relationship with pacifica that started in golf war. mabel is perfectly capable of fighting these ghosts. its not like dipper was doing it from memory; yes hes probably read the exceprts from the journal before, but thats just it! he has the journal! anyone who had it and who is aware of the blacklight secrets could do exactly what he did, maybe even more efficiently (not that i think that mabel wouldve done better, because like i said, i think the plot points wouldve gone about the same) (EDIT: quick note bc i touch on it later: when i say the plot points all wouldve gone the same i mean like. almost verbatim. we could still have that moment of mabel being upset to find out that pacifica was in on it the whole time, but rather than being MAD like dipper is, shed be UPSET, because she believes that it goes against the hope she had that pacifica can be a good person. thatd lead into the picture scene etc etc IT ALL STILL WORKS even if you take mabels perrsonalty into account)

another point was that this episode was also about the northwests darker pasts but,,,,,was it really??!?!?! we already knew the northwests were liars and frauds. we have seen much more reliable evidence to this literally in season one. DIPPER already knows this; he wasnt at all surprised by the room of paintings, or at least he didnt seem to be. it was PACIFICA who hadnt wanted to believe it, and that doesnt change no matter which of the pines twins are there. but honestly, i think this point only makes me MORE convinced that it shouldve been mabel, because SHES been looking for an opportunity to believe pacifica is a good person. DIPPER has been looking for an oportunity to believe pacifica is a bad person. this is up for debate of course, but i honestly struggle to see dipper being swayed by pacifica being upset by her past? im not saying hes totally unempathetic, but like. he already knew all of this. he knew the northwests were horrible. if anything, i can see him being annoyed that pacifica didnt realize it sooner. but MABEL would be! she knew all of that about the northwests too, of course, but shed take pacifica being upset as proof of her good heart, and be more inclined to help her/root for her!

ANOTHER comment i saw that kind of annoyed me said that its better with dipper because hes able to offer advice and sympathy to pacifica, which mabel isnt "emotionally mature enough to do" and. i would argue its the exact opposite way around. YES mabel is more immature than him, but shes more sociable. shes good with people and good with understanding their emotions! her empathy is something that is one of the biggest dividing differences between her and dipper! she is FAR more willing to see the good in people than he is most days, which leads me to my next point

the best argument i saw was that nmm and the love god are really close to each other. in nmm, its dipper working with mabels enemy, and in love god, its mabel working with dippers. and thats a good point! i have no idea if that was intentional, but its actually really solid in why this is the way it is. but also,,,,,,i think my biggest problem here is that dipper doesnt seem very suited for aiding in redemption arcs. like ive said a few times, its not that dipper is unempathetic by any means, but we see time and time again that when he gets an opinion in his head about someone, its HARD to shake. if he doesnt like you, you need hard facts and evidence to convince him to change his mind, and you need to SHOW him youve changed. pacifica does do this at the very end of nmm but considering that he is still distrustful/dislikes her later in canon, clearly he has not full been convinced. i think both of these episodes could be mabel-centric, and that would be fine! ESPECIALLY since they lead into nwhs.

talking briefly about nwhs, i think that episodes existance only furthers my point even more. it almost,,,,doesnt make sense to see dipper get a redemption story, and then see an entire episode where he vehemently refuses to see the good in his literal uncle. hes perfectly fine helping his sisters former bully despite his suspicions that she sucks being confirmed, but refuses to even CONSIDER that his grunkle is being honest ??? AND BEFORE ANYONE SAYS IT yes i agree that stan is a million times more untrustworthy than pacifica JHKSFHJKLSHJKL he is a terrible influence and dipper has all the reason to be suspicious! im not trying to say that dipper SHOULDNT have acted the way he did in thsi episode because that is a perfectly valid and reasonable way to react!!!!!!! he even apologized later. all im saying is that it makes more sense to ME PERSONALLY that mabel get TWO episodes of redemption, leading up to her desire to forgive/trust stan when it really mattered

i also think its fine to believe that dipper ignored old man mcgucket because he wanted a moment of peace but. peace or not, i STILL cant see him brushing him off the way he did JHKSFHJKL. dipper has been excited about "lore" after plenty of life threatening situations.

one last argument i saw was that it has to be dipper, because while mabel laid out the foundations for her redemption, she shoudlnt finish it, because pacifica needs brutal honesty. and sure?? i suppose?? but also iwould argue thats not. really what she needs. she needs someone to tell her that she can change. she clearly believes that shes 'a link in the worlds worst chain'. which is a belief that dipper instilled in her.

FINALLY im not saying that dipper and pacifica is a bad dynamic. it is a perfectly fine dynamic. i do think dipper provides a good balance to her arrogance and kinda puts her in her place some time but my point was never that dipcifica is BAD, my point was that it literally came out of nowhere and then went nowhere. ALL of the people arguing with me are dipcifica shippers pointing out that dipcifica is better than mabifica, and that is a FINE belief to hold, but that was never my point!!! I DONT EVEN REALLY LIKE CANON MABIFICA. its a fine ship and i DO like it more than dipcifica but my general take is that it doesnt HAVE to be a romance and i would argue that making it a romance (IN THE TERMS OF NMM not future stuff) even takes away from what this episode of really about

ok ok thats all sjhkdfhjks this will probably be my last comment on the topic :PPP im not trying to change anyones minds and im definitely not saying nmm is BAD i literally even said its a good episode as is!!!!! this whole argument is obviously very opinionated on both sides i just have A Lot to Say

All right I take the bait. Why do you believe Manel should have accompanied Pacifica at the party

AHHH THANK YOU IM SO EXCITED TO EXPLAIN MYSELF (in reference to this post)

ok. northwest mansion mystery is a great episode obviously. but HERES why i think the episode would've been even better if mabel was in dippers spot!!!!!! its kinda a lot so i put it under a read more

so this episode is sort of the middle-ish of season 2 i think, right before the ford reveal!! its not a super long show anyway so theres not a ton of pacifica appearances, anyway. BUT in EVERY SINGLE OTHER PACIFICA EPISODE, her energy has been bouncing off of mabel!!! from their meeting in double dipper, to irrational treasure, to golf war; they have been established as the main dynamic here. golf war is especially important here, because this is the very first step in pacfica's redemption arc! mabel saves her in this episode, the pines give her a ride home, and it seems like pacifica is going to start being a little more understanding of mabel because she had misjudged her, hence why she was treating her so poorly. it looks like theyre gonna establish a friendship between them!

and then. they dont. they basically never interact again. because the next time we see pacifica, she goes straight to dipper in northwest manor mystery. the cold open implies that the northwests wanted dipper specifically because of his knowlege of how to deal with the supernatural but IN MY OPINION that DOESNT EVEN MAKE SENSE because we NEVER see dipper fighting these monsters on his own? hes ALWAYS with mabel. at the very least, i think it shouldve been BOTH of them??? we see a brief shot of a newspaper clipping where dipper is fighting a vampire bat or something and i just. when did this happen. where is mabel

that would be a fine argument for it being both of them instead of just mabel so heres one of my bigger points thats gonna come back a lot in this breakdown: dipper. does not like pacifica. he STRAIGHT UP HATES HER. every single interaction theyve had has been negative!!! its even massively negative at the beginning of this ep!!!! though mabel often dislikes pacifica, she TRIES REALLY HARD TO LIKE HER. mabel has a lot of love in her heart, and if she could, shed want to be her friend!!! its always been pacifica whos been rejecting those advances!!! golf war was the start of pacifica understanding that about mabel, and it nmm wouldve been the PERFECT time to wrap up that arc, rather than leaving it!!!

and i would argue that could STILL LEAD INTO A DIPCIFICA ARC, if thats what the showrunners/fans wanted? most of why dipper hates pacifica to begin with is because shes so terrible to mabel. he only agrees to go to the party in canon because MABEL wants to!!! imo, i think the lead in to them being a couple would be a million times better if that massive problem in their relationship was solved first

i dont PERSONALLY like dipcifica but im trying to stay unbiased about this if you cant tell

i would also argue that like. dipper just seems really out of character. the reason i picked some of the scenes i did for my redraws, was because they were scenes that i think his behavior would fit mabel a lot better. examples:

why do the northwests have a suit in dippers size anyway. he literally doesnt even like wearing it sjkfhkj in a potential re-write of this ep, i considered that mabel would come in wearing her super extravagent home made dress, and it would 'violate dress code', so she would be forced to wear one of pacificas we could still have that cute dress-up expo scene that we do AND have some fun commentary/symbolism about pacifica being nervous about having her in the dress because its NICE and TOO GOOD FOR HER and she looked FINE BEFORE ANYWAY

mabels empathy is a recurring theme in the show. shed WANT to give pacifica the benefit of the doubt, and would be VERY betrayed when finding out her and her family already knew about the ghosts and knew what he wanted. i understand that dipper was so upset because it seemed like pacifica was changing for the better just to find out that she wasnt, but i think this fits so much better with mabel, because shes always WANTED to believe that shes secretly a good person. she would be glad to see her turn a corner, and would be upset when finding out she was 'wrong', and that she really was mean deep down. whcih would obviously lead to her comforting her later/finding out the truth about her etc etc. on the other hand, dipper literally never believed she had good in her. from the first interaction we see of them, he thinks shes as terrible as her family. he ISNT as interested in giving her the benefit of the doubt and if it wasnt a life or death situation i dont think he wouldve forgiven her. IDK i just think its more in character for her

the dancing scene!!! honestly this works fine as is (i can see both dipper and mabel being excited to make a mess on a fancy carptet) but idk i just think it carries so much more weight if its these two girls. silly moments for mabel!!!! pacifica getting to really be a kid and not just a sparkly prop!!!!!!! pacifica finally indulging in her sillyness that she mocked in irrational treasure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok moving on. one of the bigger things that bother me about it being dipper here instead of mabel is one teeny tiny (honestly really irrational) scene at the party. in it, dipper is confronted by fiddleford, who tells him he has big news about the author/the laptop and the towns in danger and its vitally important and dipper just. shrugs him off???!!?!?!?! i cannot even IMAGINE. in alex hirschs words "the first season is about dipper being in love with wendy, and the second is about him being in love with the author" meaning that. those are the TWO things that dipper is completely and totally obsessed with. hes clearly not over wendy (as we see in later episodes) and this is not long after sock opera/society of the blind eye so youd THINK hed be more depserate for answers than ever!??!?! this child was willing to sell out his great uncle and raise the dead and stay up for several nights in a row for answers, and the second he is offered some (from a man who WORKED WITH THE AUTHOR btw) hes like like 'whatevr'?!?!?! it is so out of character and it drives me fucking nuts every time. i know hes starting to like pacifica now but as we see in the comics (if you chose to think those are canon) HE DOESNT EVEN SEEM TO LIKE HER THAT MUCH!??!?! hes STILL convinced shes vain, and mean, and selfish!!!! he DOES start to have a little arc with her but jksdfjksf IDK i just cant in a million years see him passing up the chance for answers to the biggest mystery in gravity falls to hang out with a girl he tolerates

but yknow who i CAN see doing that? MABEL!!!!!!!! mabel would be concerned when mcgucket comes up to her, and starts talking like this!!!! i can totally see her suggesting that he relax for a little while and enjoy the party like dipper did, and then forgetting to come back to talk/not running into him later!!!! ESPECIALLY since i can see mabel WANTING to spend time with pacifica where dipper just. really doesnt seem to want to MOST of the time

ok ill admit that this last one is sort of a personal opinion. but i just. i really dont like the B plot of this episode with mabel and the girls. IDK its just so annoying and pointless to me to have a plot where its just a bunch of girls turning against each other over a guy. im not gonna say its mysoginistic bc i know little girls can be boy crazy but i just. dont see why there was a need to make them fight/turn against grenda briefly??? even when they rekindled and it was all ok in the end its just. in comparison to the A plot its so. Nothing.

in my head i have a rewrite of this episode and how it goes is that pacifica approaches dipper and asks for help and he turns it down (like he does in canon). mabel suggests that they do it anyway, but he refuses, as he wants nothing to do with her. when dippers gone, mabel agrees to help (and pacifica begrudgingly accepts bc it seems like the only option) and so she steals the journal when dippers not looking. she goes to the party, and events go pretty much the same?? only major difference i can think of is that the B plot is replaced by one where dipper realizes mabel and the journal are missing, so he sneaks into the manor/sneaks around the house trying to find he rand get it back (and its so massive he has no luck). the reason i think THAT works is because we can even still have the scene where dipper turns to wood like shifty prophesied!!!! and i would even argue it makes more sense this way because wasnt shiftys warning that "if you keep digging so deep into the secrets of gravity falls, this will be the last form youll ever take" ?

OK IM SORRY THIS WAS SO LONG im probably forgetting points too so i might edit it later but THANKS FOR ASKING

tldr: pacifica and mabels friendship plotline was left on a total cliffhanger after golf war and if mabel replaced dipper in nmm it would've been a good resolution to it

#sorry i got so autistic about this but me and my bf have been talking about this for literal months #cloudysrants #northwest mansion mabel au

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anakinskywalkerog · 1 year ago

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omg oli hiii! no worries at all hehe, i was sorta worried because of the oli drought lol

actually me and eli broke up like last week lmao. my friend was the one who suggested it - he was like, "dude. you dont seem interested in your relationship at all anymore. hes dating you thinking you still like him, which is unfair. i genuinely think you like han more than eli at this point; if what you said about getting the feeling of him not really keeping to himself is true, then break up, for both of your sakes."

so i did 🤷‍♀️

but yes i love 'I Can See You', all of the vault tracks are so good! foolish one was written for me lolol. and timeless is so perfect. "in the 1500s in a foreign land"??? ma'am, queen taylor has slayed again. or should i say, queen slaylor?

lmao i agree with the seasoning part. existence is too boring indeed. although i disagree with using the crush thingy. i don't REALLY like him, sort of just an attraction. in fact its over too lol. he texted me and we talked for a little bit and everything has gone back to how it was before anything turned up 💀 i get the ick quite easily

oh no! im sorry! im sure it will, but in the meantine, if you ever need, i'm always here :)

he did lmao! it took a lot of begging, and a lot of flat out refusal ("i cant write that! thats objectification! "consensual objectification!" "... no way i can do that. id be scarred." "its fine just do just do it pleaaaaase!" "lmao i cannot write smut about you both, thats too far, even for me, canberry." "...what about all of the smut you read then-") (not sure what gave him that impression but i am a college student, what am i, mary jane? i could, but i wont 🤭) cranberry asked after i wrote a sort of drabble for his friend (who also asked, but he gives highkey gay vibes lol. he and his gym bro and both crazy) back in january, but i flat out refused. and then something my friend posted on her story after one of our finals made me go "... no way, but i actually have a great idea"

ergo it happened!

but its definitely platonic lolol im sort of their only friend with such *amazing* writing skills ;) their exact words were "but youre the only person we know who writes fanfiction, please please please"

lmao i have no clue, just being crazy with their boys i guess lol.

hopefully! definitely did not seem that way from his messages, but maybe im wrong. ill give it a couple of months? plus, i have not been blocked, or removed from his stories, and he did enjoy reading it (bros was laughing so hard he couldnt even read)

lmaooo me too! we would be so iconic. feel free to drama dump anytime lmaoo. i am officially a *tumblr user who gets asks* (proud smiling) hehe 😈

i also cooked my own curry for the first time today hehe that was interesting

lmao i will try, thank you for the tip <3

love, sythe <3

sorry it took me so long to reply, sythe!!

1) don’t be worried about oli droughts, I just get busy but everything is fine!

2) sorry to hear about eli 😭 damn. but also rip and thank u next, you know what I’m sayin

3) foolish one was written for all us tumblr girlies!! lololol. but also, you don’t have to have a CRUSH just to have a lil crush. like, just a lil makin eyes on occasion makes life less boring hehe

4) truly CANNOT imagine anyone in my real life asking me to write them fanfic let alone a BOY let alone SMUT that is a crazy story

🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡 (ps have you watched Ahsoka yet)

#answered asks

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do you think elliot was *in* love with beverly? when it was revealed she frainkenstein'ed the tube babies and Tom asked wtf was that for, she said "because I love her" and that felt pretty damning. I'm somewhat glad they never explicitly told us, I feel like incest is still too controversial (unless you're in the GoT universe lol) for big platforms, but on the other hand, the show wasn't subtle. like at all. Between the jealousy toward Genevieve and the love-as-consumption read, I felt like the theme of pregnancy was used as servitude/ownership, hence why Bev decided to do it "another way" with gen and not her twin and why Elliot was so hurt. I've never seen a show like dead ringers tbh, very compelling and strange and fun!

i think it lands far from simple codependency or simple *love* love as in attraction. theres a line on the show that goes somewhat like “i couldnt explain our relationship to anyone who isnt in it” or something like that – forgive me for im a little drunk –

my take is that elliot and bev are is this entwined relationship. they might have two bodies but they operate as if they are one being – elliot supplies beverly needs (genevieve) and beverly supplies elliot needs for her lab research. its something more than mutuality that i cannot grasp the word in the lexicon rn.

its not incest not explicitly, but emotional incest and it goes deeper because they are twins and have been each others companion for their whole lives. so when bev starts to ‘abandon’ elliot bc shes in love with genevieve, that “mutuality” is endangered is breaking. so it sends elliot in berserk mode, she has to do anything she can to gain beverly, to remind her that they are one being in two bodies, even if it takes some over the top display of affection - she was fckin sucking bevs neck -

so yeah that is my take. Incestuous. Yes. Sexually. No

the show is veeeeery deep i def need to rewatch to grasp some more things that i didnt in my first watch but this is what i could take from and how i perceived.

#dead ringers

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marvelita85 · 2 years ago

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Maybe a few h*te words but other than that non

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There he was following you with his gaze, both your mother's half brothers, no one dared to talked evil about your heritage because of your Targaryen looks, some brave ones would dare to whispered you were a product of Daemon before your mother married Sir Leanor, whatever you have felt for the sons of your grandsire was gone or at least thats what you thought, that dinner was forced and you tried to endure it sitting beside your younger brother Luke

- we have a lot to celebrate, Luke and Jace are to be married with Raena and Baela

- and Luke as Lord of the tides - you smiled raising your cup for him, you loved all your brothers but Luke was no so secretly your favourite

You watched behind your cup as his eye was set on you he was trying to intimidated you but it wasnt the feeling you were having, you vould hold his gaze, he hated your brothers you couldnt feel anything but the same for him

- my dear y/n...

- grandsire...

- I wish for you to be happy aswell... you are free to marry... - you werent but you let him speak, over those 6 years away you've been in Winterfell you met Cregan Stark and his younger brother Robb who had asked your hand to Daemon and Rhaenyra, they knew the north would be asegurated with that union and you were much willing to accept it - the king and I would like you to accept our son Aemond

- father...my queen, thought is a very thoughtfull proposal y/n is already bethroted, I'm very sorry brother - Rhaenyra your mother said and you smiled to him you let him know you were something he could never have

The table knew who you were going to be married, your brothers were smiling knowing very well the desire both their uncles had for you, Aegon tried to seduced you uncountable times, Aemond loved you in silence all those years living together but then his eye happened and his friendship with you was severed like his eye, never to be the same, that dinner ended abruptally when your grandsire retired, Aemond said horrible things, you and Baela almost riped Aegon before your mother send you all to your chambers, you decided to have a walked through the gardens and he appeared in the shadows

- you cant married the Stark boy...

- why not? I like him a lot, he is very kind and attentive with me

- you are a Dragon

- and he is a wolf...

- you love him...

- what if I do...

- when we were kids you were promised to me...

- Aemond our family is divided, you and your brother along with your mother had never felt anything but resentment and hate for my mother and for my brothers how can you think I can feel anything more than that for you

- we were friends...

- yes... and you destroyed that friendship when you lost your eye.... you blamed me and my brother, you only have revenge in your heart for us, thats all

- what can I do...

- you just called my brothers bastards at dinner, calling them Strong, I know the whispers about me being Daemon's daughter... in another life maybe but in this one you decided to be enemies and I'll never be anything less than that

Aemond heart broke again in that garden speaking with you, your words hurted but she was right he couldnt feel anything more for the person that took his eye for his neglected father, for his half sister for not giving your hand to him it was all hate but you were the only one capable to break him because despite everything he loved you and you were never going to be his

A few notes, y/n looks like Dany from 1st season but she has the fire of the7th, her eyes are like her grandmother Alissa one green one purple, because she is Daemon's daughter, she is older than Jace and 1 year younger than Aemond

And he is Robb Stark 😁

My love for Aemond is still intact but he has to be put in place sometimes🥰

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