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cultrem · 4 years ago

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Reiner X Reader

First post kinda nervous (ಥ﹏ಥ)

I did a few edits and made the reader gender neutral ? So reader goes by they/them pronouns. Just background info.

Slight mentions of smut, angst

(I personally don’t really like this one, I rushed to write this and didn’t really take much time to immerse into greater details. Sorry!)

Today was grey. Clouds filled the pretty sky, and made everything seem dark. I had recently been informed that Reiner had returned. However I had no intention of seeing him. My heart ached and told me I should see him at least once. But my brain continued to insist to me that he wasn’t worth my tears. I’d spent years hoping that someday I would properly be able to sit next to him. But those years were the same reason I spent countless nights crying. See I met Reiner when we were kids. I was training to become a soldier, that’s where we met. His eyes were often full with sadness but I could see that when he looked at me, adoration and admiration filled his heart.

As I was training I got badly injured. And I was no longer able to continue. However Reiner stuck by my side. And oh how I cried and begged him to not leave me when he revealed he would be leaving for a couple years. My heart shattered. He chose malice and war over peace and love. And I don’t blame him however. It is far too late for me to be with him, He doesn’t have many years left and once he leaves this earth, I don’t know what I’ll do with myself. I moved out a couple months ago from my parents home. Into a small small home. And here I was, thinking over every happy memory of me and Reiner. I’m sure he must have become more handsome over the years, that won’t do my attachment any good either. No guy could compare to Reiner. I got up from my table and slowly dragged myself towards my bed. I lied there on my back just starting at the ceiling. Eventually fatigue caught up to me and my vision slowly started blurring. Darkness engulfed me as I fell asleep...

-2 hours later-

I heard knocks on my door. Which is strange because it’s dark outside. I sat up slowly. My heart beating In my ears. The knocks almost sounded desperate, and I was way too paranoid to just open the door. “Y/n? Y/n are you there? It’s Reiner” my breath hitched and I could feel my heart dropping to the pit of my stomach. I slowly got up and walked through until I got to the door. I hesitated a bit before opening my door a little bit. “Can I help you?” I said looking down to avoid seeing him. “Can we talk?” I sighed “who told you I was here” I asked. “I passed by your parents house and they informed me you no longer lived with them. And then they showed me where you lived” shit “okay.” I said as I completely opened my door and finally looked up. Oh was he so handsome. I stepped aside as he slowly stepped in. He took off his shoes and afterwards I guided him to my table. I guess nothing works out in favor for me. I asked if he wanted anything to drink and he shook his head. After that the room went quiet. And I slowly say at the other side of the table. Looking down at my hands for a couple seconds before he spoke “how...how have you been?” I looked up “I’ve been fine and you?”

“I’ve been good as well”

“Are you allowed to be out this late?”

“No”

“Oh..”

“Have you been dating?”

“No...have you?”

I could feel my face slowly heat up soon after I asked that question

“No, the women where I was were not up to my standards. They weren’t you”

“Oh..okay”

“Yeah...how has your foot been?”

“Better. I’ve gotten used to limping haha..” The air was awkward. And I wasn’t prepared for any of this.

“Reiner be straight forward. Why are you really here” I saw as his eyes widened and his cheeks flushed.

“I was truly just hoping to see and talk to you. You were on my mind all the time and I couldn’t forget you”

“Reiner you left...why are you making yourself seem like the one who was left instead? I understand you’ve been through many things. But this isn’t fair. I saw you a handful of times and I was never allowed to go near you. Why are you here now, when I’m trying my best to get over you”

His eyebrows furrowed. “Believe me, I know it isn’t fair. However, you were the first person I was able to grow comfortable around, I know it’s stupid But I just wanted to know, would you give me another chance. You know I don’t have long. But I want to spend my remaining time with you. I truly missed you, and if you tell me to leave I will do so, it might hurt my heart buti will be fine as long as I know you still love me” he said as his eyes became glossy under the light.

My chest felt heavy. “Yes. I still love you. But what should I do once you’re gone...”

I said as my own tears filled my eyes. I saw him get up and get closer to me. He cupped my face in his hands “I will always be with you no matter what”

After that night, almost every day Reiner would come by. Sometimes he would pass by at night.

His hands would roam my body. He would pound into me relentlessly sending us both over the edge multiple times.

When he would leave marks all over my chest. When he would kiss me passionately. When he would make love to me under the pale moonlight. I would grow to attach myself a little more to him.

When he would whisper lovely compliments into my ear. When he would kiss my stomach which I grew to be to insecure about. When he would use his tongue to bring me pleasure. I grew to love him a little more.

His groans would fill the room. Tears would escape my eyes as he stretched me. His fingers bruised into my hips. His hands over mine as he kissed my neck. He would paint my walls white until I couldn’t take it anymore.

After a night full of activities I would wake up with sore legs. And bruises decorating my body.

I knew that my happiness would be short lived. However I didn’t expect it to end so soon.

As we all gathered the events of the night were all confusing and happened very fast. As they explained things about paradis. As they explained about the mysterious Eren Jaeger. As the titan emerged, it was all a blur. How did I end up here. With a huge piece of god knows what over my legs, I could no longer feel them, breathing was becoming a harder task than usual, The world slowly slipped away. Darkness engulfing my senses.

“Reiner...”

Third person POV:

When Reiner heard the news of his Lovers passing, he was devastated. His heart ached each time the thought of them crossed his mind. He wasn’t able to sleep as much anymore. Guilt rooted deep within his heart. Was this his fault? He would every so often return to Y/n’s place where he would look at all the things they had kept from him. Gifts and what not, things he would give them as a gift, he would remember how excited they would be to get them, He would sink down and cry, restless nights. His heart was heavy, his conscience was painful and each time his only peace was when he imagined them hugging him as he broke down. He swore to keep fighting, no longer for the sake of humanity, but for the sake of Y/N’s soul, heart and mind. And too for the sake of his poor heart ache. He would not give up.

#reiner x you #aot x reader #imagine #aot angst #reiner braun #eldians #snk spoilers #snk x reader #season 4 #aot imagines

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