#yes i havent posted imas in a really long time

[clownplushie]

#UNICUS from memory

[pikabian]

so like ima make a post of y progress shots because idk i think theyre fun. ill put it under a read more because otherwise it long af

i first just like brain storm basic ideas rlly messily in small thumbnail stages to like? rlly think about composition i guess and figure out what i want to convey? i have like at least two ideas and i pick the one i like the best and use it as something to work from

then its sketchy wetchy time, first with just like basic circles and stuffs and then actually going in and adding some detail? i dont really add in like loads because i like to keep lining loose and stuff

then i try adding the rough idea for colours n stuffs, just so i kinda know what im working with (like as a base for what i wanna convey again)

but yea like i said with the sketch i  dont rlly add details till this stage, the lining phase, most notably with the hair u know. i feel like i cant really sketch most of the details and im better at just lining it straight off u know? i dont mind if it comes out a little bit messy so long as i convey what im trying to convey

we block in like minecraft.png. i add in the base colours and markings on AB and Lucky as well as some of the block background colours. i havent added all the colours in lucky’s mane just yet bc that takes effort lol

then i start building up the background? i really hate doing backgrounds so much and tend not to do them pretty much 99% of the time, but like im rlly got dam trying here

added the extra mane colours finally lol

then i actually get to work on shading. i haventrlly gone into the process of how i shade bc thats a whole other thing in itself, but it sorta involves like soft and hard shading n stuff u kno, as well as adding in highlights

like i have a set process/rule of how i shade and sorta just play around with it till i like how it looks u kno. i also do one character at a time because am impatient

added tuh lucky. kinda felt iffy about her shading but i think its bc she’s more bright and multicoloured than apple bloom is so. i can make it werk

changed the colour of the lines from black to a sort of dark blue. its kinda not rlly noticeable but like i kinda like it

added some extra clovers over the top because dey kinda just b like floating in the background. at this point tho i was sick of drawing clovers so i feel like i could have added more. also lucky’s hair got sparkles now

dont usually add cutie marks because im lazy but they were kinda important for what this scene was trying to convey. also yes apple blooms cutie mark is different from canon cause i hate her canon one

added the final touches, which is mostly just random overlays and stuff as any artistic professional does obv. i spent like way too long on this piece and i dont rlly have what i wanted to show for it, but oh well. das it. it done

[shrubforhire]

Asks 1-100

I did this to myself

100 Questions

1: Do you sleep with your closet door opened or closed? usually open

2: Can you whistle? no and im fucking PISSED

3: What is your favorite quote? my old science teacher once said “grandma’s a slut!”

4: Are you afraid of the dark? only if ive seen something spooky

5: Who taught you how to tie your shoes? bunny ears bitch

6: What is your favorite color? rn like a nice lavendar

7: What is your birthday? april 21st 2000!

8: Can you swim? poorly

9: What’re you wearing right now? a striped sweater (the best time to wear it is all the time)

10: Who’s your character crush, and what book/movie are they from? Marceline the vampire queen yea say what you want

11: What was the last thing you thought about? Being in gay denial for so many years and not realizing why i liked marceline the vampire queen so much

12: What was the last thing you said out loud? goodnight!

13: Are you superstitious? yea a little,, i chill w the ghosties on our haunted campus. and i think theres a ghost in my room tbh

14: How many bones have you broken?

0 babeyy

15: What’s your favorite candy? Ferraro Roche

16: Sour, Sweet, Spicy, or Savory? sweet :)

17: What’s your favorite junk food? im a slut for cotton candy

18: What’s your favorite letter of the alphabet? q

19: What’s your favorite number? 7, ima basic thot

20: Dogs or Cats? Dots, Cags

21: Do you play any sports? If yes, what are they? I played baseball for a year!! and soccer for 2!

22: If you could change your name, what would you change it to? Aria

23: Do you believe in ghosts? yea

24: Who’s your favorite Disney Princess? Moana

25: What inspires/motivates you the most? hearing other peoples stories and knowing they’ve felt the exact same way i do

26: Do you believe in aliens?

honestly,,,,,, not rly. like i believe in life on other planets,, but they will just be like beings ya know,,, not rly like hollywood aliens

27: Do you have any irrational fears? If yes, what are they? i always think cars are gonna flip over when they turn rly fast

28: Do you have any pets? If yes, what are their names?

a lil sausage named bernie!

29: What’s your favorite song right now? prolly fake happy by paramore

30: Can you rap? poorly. but okay for a white person ig??

31: What would you do if you had 24 hours to live? be a giant ho

32: Do you have any allergies? If you do, what are they? nope!!

33: Do bugs freak you out?

if they’re right up in my face im kinda like dbasfkjbdfke but normally not too much.

34: Who’s your favorite Disney Prince? uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 

35: What’s your favorite Grimm brothers fairy-tale? rapunzel 

36: Can you sing? god i hope so

37: Who’s your favorite singer? barrett wilbert weed

38: What is your favorite restaurant? hobnob!

39: If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go, and why? Hawaii so i could remember it better

40: Who’s your favorite band/duo? Paramore!!!!!

41: Do you write fan-fiction? ive written fan fiction exclusively about my friends and about hand sanitizer

42: What continent are you from? murica

43: Do you still live in the city you grew up in? i lived in reston virginia til i was 5, then i grew up in portland, but i go to school in illinois!

44: What’s your favorite animal? giraffe!!!!!!

45: What was the last lie you told? it was more a half truth when i told my girlfriend what i think about at work

46: Do you have any long-term goals? What are they?

47: Would you save your worst enemy’s life? yea cuz i dont rly have a worst enemy, and if i did its been so long that they’re probably cooler now

48: What’s your usual flavor of ice cream? cookie dough

49: How often do you try new things? preeeeetty often, i love tryin shit

50: Do you have a catchphrase? What is it? we cant all be winners

51: What is your favorite word? pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis

52: What’s your favorite fruit? mango

53: Are you in any fandoms? If yes, what are they? oh this is a lil cursed,,,, imma just say fuckin gravity falls

54: What’s your favorite board game? i play the most sorry these days so i guess that

55: Have you ever made a sandcastle? only really shitty ones

56: Have you ever made a snow man? yes!

57: What’s your biggest pet peeve? when people say something is fermenting when oxygen is present

58: Have you ever role-played? yea,,,,

59: Who’s your favorite super-hero? i rly dont follow stuff,,, imma say spiderman cause ive liked his movies the most lately

60: Who’s your favorite Disney villain? Yzma

70: Do you have any pets? What animal are they? What are their names? see question 28

71: Do you play any instruments? What are they? ukulele, piano, some guitar, shitty drums, and u kno wat imma say tambourine

72: Can you snap? hell yea

73: Who’s your favorite Greek god? it changes like every day,,,, i rly like athena tho

74: How many blogs do you have? 2

75: Was your url your first choice? If not, what was? oh gosh,,, i think my first url was cipherstuck lmao

76: What’s your favorite swear word? frick

77: How many posts have you made? too many

78: How many followers do you have? some amount

79: What’s the last thing you ate? chicken parm

80: What percentage is your phone battery right now? 54%

81: What time zone are you in? pacific babeyyyyy

82: What’s your OTP? Elanor and Tahani

83: What’s your favorite kind of weather? warm but still windy enough but theres sun

84: What’s your favorite season? early and late summer when its warm but theres shit goin on

85: Who’s your celebrity crush? hayley williams

86: Do you keep a diary? i did for a hot minute,, i do little checkup apps, but i havent journaled in a while

87: What’s your shoe size? 6 1/2

88: What’s your Hogwarts house? heck if i know, crucify me

89: What’s your favorite punctuation mark? ; because i never know when to fucking use it but it sure looks funny

90: Are you reading any books right now? What are the titles? nope!! im a little whore

91: What mythical animal do you wish existed? pokemon

92: Who’s your favorite Greek goddess? another for free???? artemis

93: Where do you wish you live? new york but for free

94: What color(s) is your favorite shirt? gray and pink

95: How many languages do you speak? What are they? english and lesbian

96: What’s your favorite gum flavor? gum

97: Do you have braces? nope

98: What’s your MBTI?

it was enfj now i think its enfp i forget

99: Are you an introvert or an extrovert? extroverrrrtttt

100: What’s your zodiac sign? taurus

[brightlytae]

angel, awe, baby, blossom, blush, bright, calm, cozy, cupcake, cute, cutie pie, daylight, dear, doll, dreams, euphoric, fairy, gem, giggles, heart, honey, hunnybunch, kitty, ladybug, love, magic, moonlight, munchkin, paddywack, precious, pretty, prince, princess, pumpkin, rainbow, smitten, snuggle, starlight, soft, toot, treasure, whiffle, whiskers, wiggly, and wispy.

angel: do you have a nickname? people normally just call me P, little P or Paoletta!

awe: How old are you? 21

baby: Fave colour? Purple and blue!

blossom: Favourite book/ movie/ song? book- The Princess Bride, movie- The Goonies, song- (ima stick to bts) Move, Spring day and Baepsae

blush: What was your stuffed animal as a child? I had this teddy bear called angel and I used to take her everywhere with me. I loved her so much seriously she was so soft and i used to buy little outfits for her and everything.

bright: Mermaids or fairies? damnnnnnn like a bitch loves both so much? Ima pick mermaids though just because im so attached to the sea and water in general.

calm: Favourite scent? vanilla!

cozy: eye/hair colour? I have green eyes and ashy blonde hair. Im naturally brunette though. 

cupcake: Favourite flower/plant? Lotus flowers, blossoms, cacti, money plants (this is what my famo call them so idk their actual name?)

cute: What did you get on your last birthday? LOTS OF FLOWERS! (i absolutely adore flowers), Jewelry to mark my 21st, money...

cutie pie: Most precious item you own? anything my grandparents have given me. My nonno bought me a vintage typewriter that i keep in my room that i love. 

daylight: Favourite album of all time? this is hard. the all time low weightless album is really special to me. The wicked broadway musical soundtrack too. Also the bts Young forever album has a very very special place in my heart.

dear: Zodiac sign? cancer!

doll: How do you like to dress? I wear a lot of jumpers, a lot of oversized clothes, and like loads of culottes- wide flare pants or dungarees. I tend to tuck my jumpers in to high waist jeans (If im wearing jeans they will always be high waist), or skirts. Also long flowy patterned dresses. My wardrobe is pretty made up of long flowy dresses. I also either wear all black or i live in very vibrant patterns- its one or the other! also i wear a lot of rings and earrings like all the time.

dreams: Do you want any tattoos? I want loadsssss of tattoos but just havent had the time to get any done yet!

euphoric: Talk about someone you love? My grandmother is the strongest, bravest most honest woman i have ever met. No one has so much love and care within their heart as this woman does. She is my everything. I go to her for everything and she will always listen to me, look after me and just be there when I need her. she is the type of person who will drop anything just to help someone out. She does so much for the people around her, she helps everyone no matter what. She’s been through so much in her life yet continues to power through and its really just inspirational to me. If i could give her the whole entire world, i would bc she deserves nothing less. 

fairy: Do you have a pet? I have a little doggo called rolo and he is just a sweet little old man who makes my heart melt. Honestly hes freaking precious and i dare anyone not to fall in love with him.

gem: who are your favourite tumblrs? I love a lot of bts based tumblrs but i feel sort of bad tagging them in this post coz its super long and im kinda shy ahahah. 

giggles: What is your aesthetic of choice?  i honestly dont even know? i dont really think i have one...

heart: silk or lace? ooof i think i look better in lace and i own more lace so...

honey: Coffee or tea? being italian living in england im so adjusted to both. Im a cappucino girl but i love tea. Both with milk and either 1 or 2 sugars depending on how im feeling.

hunnybunch: What sounds help you sleep? I actually sleep with earplugs in because i need like complete silence to sleep. The littlest sound and i stay awake!

kitty: Whats your favorite time of the day? I like the morning period from like 8:30-12:00 when i have nothing to do and can just send the time doing things i love!

ladybug: What’s your favorite artist to listen to when you’re sad? when im sad i tend to listen to musicals. Like the Rent soundtrack is a big go to when im upset! musicals just generally evoke a lot of emotion out of me and that tends to make me feel better

love: Whats your favorite season and why? SPRING! (I actually really love all the seasons bc i think theres something relly beautiful about each one) but spring to me just feels bright? the weather starts to change, everything sort of shines, everything gets a bit more colourful and it always feels like a new start for me.

magic: what are five flaws you have?

I worry too much about everything all the time where i cant ever really enjoy myself

I struggle with my confidence a lot and tend to put myself down

I struggle to keep control of my life a lot

I dont think im great at meeting new people and i tend to give off a bad first impression

I overthink so much to the point where i can obsess for days over the tiniest detail.

moonlight:do you prefer soft pastels, warm neutrals, or cool darks? when i think about my wardrobe its literally a mix of all three. cool darks maybe?

munchkin: what do you look for in a significant other? really i just want someone who is kind-hearted, passionate, shares my interests and makes me smile.

paddywack: How would you describe a perfect date? i think its less about where i am and more about how i feel. A perfect date would be one where i cant contain my smile because the person i am with makes me feel so happy, where i cant help but blush every time my date looks at me because their eyes seem to twinkle and show me that they like me too. A perfect date would be one where theres never ending discussions and conversations, where i laugh so loud at something my date said, or they listen to every single word of what ive said and i can tell the were listening. I want to feel comfortable and secure, like my date wants to be with me.

precious: What is something valuable that you learned in your life? Someone elses success, is not your failure.

pretty: Do you like to cook or bake more? I honestly love to do both but baking is a big hobby of mine!

prince: How would you describe you handwriting? always changing, normally cursive, slants to one side

princess:do you play any instruments? if not, are there any you wish you could play? I used to play piano. I’d love to play the guitar and also the harp would be super cool to learn

pumpkin: favorite fruit/veg? i love watermelon!!!!!! my fave veg is either broccoli, or brussel sprouts

rainbow: what was the last line of the last book you read? “always dancing in the sun. yes. yes. yes”

smitten: do you collect anything? Theater playbills, concert/show tickets, i take and collect polaroids and i also have a small collection of beach rocks and VW camper vans.

snuggle: what is your favorite candy? does chocolate count as candy?

starlight: What was your favorite show as a child? RECESS

soft: describe your favourite spot in your house? white walls decorates with lights, polaroids and patterned flags, anti war posters, a pinboard full of art, a whiteboard full of ‘to-dos’, plants, photoframes, ornaments, a flamingo, books upon books, a television nd the comfiest bed in the world...

toot: What is something you find unique about yourself? I think that i think in quite a unique way. I kind of talk and deduce and speak in a way that i dont think some people always understand.

treasure: What was something that made you smile today? I had dinner with my sisters and their boyfriends and i smiled a lot as we sat and talked. It was really nice.

whiffle: If you could have a magical power what would it be? Ive often wished i could read peoples minds or stop time. Maybe also heal people or change their state of emotion so they could always be happy. 

whiskers: Do you usually wear makeup? I love wearing make up and i find it kinda therapeutic to put on. I do tend to wear makeup everyday if im leaving the house.

wiggly: Are you a messy or tidy person? tidy. I love to clean, i love clean spaces, and i also love to organize.

wispy: do you like the place where you grew up? do you think you will live there when you get older? my town is very cute and very lovely and as i grew up i dont think i ever truly appreciated how wonderful a town it is. That being said, with the dreams i have and the places i wanna go, my town is too small and i need to expand my horizons.

Thank you hun!!💜💜💜

[21yroldmeesh]

back again 7/20/17

iit’s been a year since i have written in this blog and dang it’s kind of heartbreaking to read the “ty” post. i mean ima just be open cause i’m sure as hell people don’t even know about this blog anymore L O L i have 0 followers L O L 

things on the agenda: dan, guy who drove me to va, my first and last hookup

me and dan actually broke up over a month ago (6/16/17... i have a particular thing for dates) and it’s been a weird experience.  i literally thought we were going to get married. you can talk to someone for 5 yrs almost everyday and it only takes a day to become strangers. actually you can get close to a stranger. we’re worse than strangers. with us, it’s best to spend some time apart because if we start talking, we don’t even know what we want from each other. like, we actually have such good chemistry but too much has happened too much pain too many lies. it’s one big clusterfuck. i don’t normally curse but i’m going to curse a lot in this post future michelle. i was willing to live in the boring ass town of ann arbor, michigan and i would have been perfectly happy for simply just being with you and being loved by you. i had so much love for you. your fungus feet, your crackly white tongue, you never brush your teeth, everything weird dumb annoying about you just stopped being that and it was “normal” anyways,

i decided to write again because for the past week, my mind has been all over the place and i think my friends are getting annoyed of hearing me out so here i am.

that night, i tried convincing him that id be able to forget about all that he has done. i was crying. i thought it was so fucking unfair man. whenever he lied to me and i’d try to break up with him, he always held on to me and i am a push over... i gave in every time. that day, we fought and yes, i said let’s break up but i told him i didn’t mean it. and then he just brought up how even though i didn’t mean it, everything i said was right and that we arent good for each other. he kept saying this was for us. we didn’t make each other happy. bull shit. i made u so happy. u were only “not happy” when i wanted u to be mature. i mean this is a memory i want to erase from my head so im not going to go into it. but i just felt so hopeless like you just tied up my arms and i couldnt do anything. i asked you to let me hold on to you ONE time because i let you do that with me. and you just wouldn’t budge. do u know how that made me feel? i felt like everything was my fault. if i didnt bring up anything, we would have still been together. we were doing amazing. you opened up to me for the first time literally the day before we broke up and damn everything just happened so fast. you made me feel like i was the type of person who didn’t let myself be happy.

well, the first night i was completely miserable and suicidal. i don’t even know how i survived but i did. for the first two weeks i cried my damn heart out. i let myself feel pain. i didn’t touch alcohol at all until i knew i was ready to not emotional vomit while drunk. i went in my car, blasted music as loud as i can, sobbed for thirty minutes until i was exhausted and came back home. once you hit rock bottom, you got to come up right? i couldnt be alone. i was always with friends. what the fuck was the MCAT right (ugh) i did this multiple times and i think by the third week, i was feeling pretty good and realized you and i weren’t good for each other. actually, correction, we weren’t good for each other because you weren’t willing to be. i guess i just wasn’t worth it to you anymore. well, correction, i didn’t give necessarily my all either. breakups are never on one person. you just lied to me way too much and i just couldn’t trust you 100%. i said i forgave u but i never really did, did i ? what is relationship without trust. it’s surprising how we even lasted this long. well, its because of our chemistry. whyd you have to go fuck it up dan. you and i had such a good connection LOL maybe u can have that connection with others but im just picky af LOL

actually, i haven’t thought about you dan for a very long time. i sound pretty hung up on you still up there but i’m not. something just happened recently which i will go into later 

but actually i have not thought about you at all. its funny because ive been telling haram “who the fuck is daniel am i rite” hahaha its been fine for me. ill be sad but now i can be alone and just deal with it. im doing really well. when i was dating you, for some crazy reason, i thought i couldn’t be without you. why the hell did i think that? like i went through my darkest times without you and survived every single bit of it. why did i ever think i ever NEEDED u in my life? i havent felt depressed since we broke up. isn’t that the craziest? i never have suicidal urges like i did while dating you. im never sad for too long. im just doing me. being with friends. being with awesome people. meeting new people. and yeah i miss you, but damn i think the emotional roller coaster and the clusterfuck of lies (like you telling susan in MAY THAT U LOVE HER?!!?!?!) just made me like dumb and made me believe i just couldn’t let u go. love is insane. and i am insane. michelle in love. there is no logic in it whatsoever. i’m just the type of person to just give it all she got u know? fucking cheat on me, i’ll be here. fucking take my money, i’ll be here. i think id peace the fuck out for animal abuse doe. but anything else is pretty much game.

but yeah i am no longer that person. i am so special and cool to deal with that LOL im actually not a bad catch. i realized i am going to run far far away from someone who lies to me. it’s just not worth it. i love you. i loved you but damn i just kind of miss u as a best friend. nothing romantic anymore. i just miss talking to u and talking shit with u but you can beg for me back, and it is a huge no from me. also i really respect u stepping up with coco while im not in ann arbor. ur just a bad boyfriend. i always knew that tho and i still went in for it. none of that anymore LOL fck that for real. like i wanna be friends with u just so we can hang out. im not the same person anymore LOL and i just think we would really get along now LOL 

when u said you couldn’t give me a ride i was upset but not really? i just understood. it wouldn’t have been good for us and last week, i don’t think i was ready to be in a car ride with u for that long even when i thought i was. looking back, i think it would have set me back a lot. thanks for making the best decision for us. you were always able to do that, i cant hahaha

but yeah anyways, this guy who i talked to for three days kind of offered to give me a ride. correction, we talked for two and then like he just decided to do that for me. very impulsive but i mean i get it, so am i

as we were talking, i realized we were way too similar to even have any romantic attraction. like, i know he did because i think he saw that as a good thing. but everyone else and me later on, realized, similarity for michelle kim is not the best. she needs excitement, passion, and just someone different for her fire. we were similar so we could have been good friends but i think i realized we couldn’t be more than that when he just started coming off too strong. idk, five days in of talking, he was just telling me don’t fool around with other guys and just like telling me to enjoy my single time while i can and it was very overwhelming. not to mention he dated a girl who actually became pretty closely to me recently and i actually really dig her so that was just a final like nope cause it wasnt worth it at that point. 

so i get to ny and im having all these realizations about the guy who drove me to va while im out with my friends. as im getting all these “boyfriendy” texts im like nope nope nope nd telling my friends i think i have 0 feelings for this guy now. 

next thing you know, my first and last hookup walks over to my friend asks her to smoke and he tells her he thinks im cute. i mean i didnt even know until like round 3 or even until he told me the next day. but yeah we just made quick eye contact and that was it. he joins us for round 2 and dang he is hot as fuck LOOL ok well maybe its cause i literally haven’t seen a guy that hot in a while. L O L like i always liked skinny tall guys. but he was like tall and fit?? like wtf?? LOL it just took me off guard and he was showing interest and i was just suuuuuupppppper drunk so we just went home to my airbnb. FOR THE FIRST TIME, I MADE OUT it was so crazy. like i dont think he believes me because he knew i wasnt a virgin but then i told him i never made out before so he was like so confused but didnt ask me questions cause i guess he just thought i was lying?? idk man. but ya we didn’t do anything except make out and when it got hot and heavy i was just like yo u want pjs and then told him lets just go to bed

l o l 

and hes like a super big gentleman 

he kind of didnt want to leave cause hed say stuff like ill leave when u go out. ill leave when u tell me to leave and i was like “ok u should leave now” and idk how but he just kind of stayed

and then he ordered food and idk we talked about his mom and my mom and we played this dumbass creepy game that we literally made up called black mirror black mirror idk man it was super fun and he even pretended like gdragon, hes a complete clown and i love clowns LOL but yeah he left and i went with my day, saw jane and joohee, came home and he texts me. hes like aksing to hang out and im like yeah if we dont get white girl wasted. 

we meet at one of my fave places beauty and essex. it was awk at first because i did not expect it to be like a bar bar since i came during dinner time last time. but we ended up having a lot of fun and it was good. we tried going to fat buddha but line was too long and one thing led to another, he came over my house and we just kind of made out and i d k what happened but i was suppppppppppper drunk LOL like more drunk than last night that i was dropping my phone in the uber and i was a mess but we ended up having “sex” it was just super fast and weird man. he just felt so diff from dan so i felt really out of it but the other guy finished and i think alc was also hindering his performance and it was just a clusterfuck. we just ended up going to bed. next morning, i know he got into super big trouble with his mom and i felt really bad about that. and then he left. i went to va. he texted me saying have a safe trip and that it was a super fun weekend and yeah that was that. 

im starting to realize i fucking like this guy LOL i mean i prob dont but i thought and think i do u know. im just not the type to do this and i feel like he got the worst image of me LOOL yeah my friends were like michelle ur not the type of person to just have one night stands cause one ima fall in love with them and two ur just not the type

idk i just lost myself from being in nyc

nyc is like the root of all probs 

love that place but still crazy

and ya i think hes kind of cute but i also know hes not really down since im in mich and all so ya ohwellz we’re only 21