#yes i did go through fairbone and find every part with lying and ruka and elias

[you-are-my-neverland]

[ “...it’s an oxymoron really...the fact that fae cannot physically lie, but elias is always accusing ruka of being a liar...a fact that ruka himself believes, despite it being so contrary to the fact. it’s like this...to  each other, ruka and elias were both the only ones the other allowed to get so close on a personal level...and so when ruka left, he broke his [elias’] trust in an irrevocable way...he left elias to second guess everything about their supposed friendship....and so, when he returned, elias can’t trust him even if he wants to...because there’s a part of him always obsessively wondering if ruka is lying to him again...this is a man who has picked apart their relationship for three years...someone unsure of whether or not the person they knew was really someone they knew at all. and on the other hand, you have ruka...someone who has been ostracized his whole life and lived with this huge secret on his shoulders...for fear of himself, of exposure, of knowing his position in life...and so if you think think about, ruka is someone who already feels like he’s living a lie...and [he’s] doubted by everyone around him, and now it’s the person who was his best friend...the person he abandoned to protect in his own twisted way. ruka and elias are not the two schoolboys they were...and so in a way they are forging an entirely new relationship now, after three years...but it’s one built on distrust.” ] lrh, author of fairbone, on elias’ and ruka’s ill fated relationship

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okay!!! so i basically just wanted to share that i met the goal of 80k i set in january and just wrote the climax earlier this week !! which was very ~~emotional cries fight~~. i have about ~10-15k left to wind down (and honestly let everything else go wrong) and that’s kind of !!! for me. i might actually finish something (hopefully by the end of may).