#yes i can eat spicy stuff i just have something in my way i didn't tell you

[owlwithascarf]

something weird that i do is that i can't eat anything spicy before 12 PM and I don't know why or how I adopted this behavior

[miizuzu]

Not proofread, MDNI...

Part 8

“How’s the water? Temperature alright?” Rafayel softly asks, finally letting you take off the mermaid tail costume and giving you a much needed break after so many rounds of heated sessions you’ve already lost count. “Yes, the water feels nice.” you answered with your eyes closed, laying your back against Rafayel’s chest. His arms moved up to start kneading on your shoulders and you felt like you were in heaven, even though your body was still feeling overstimulated and sore.

Rafayel sees you finally relaxing, and he smiles, “I really loved what you did for me, it was nice getting to see how you would look with a tail like mine.” He embraces you, turning your face for a kiss. “You have to show me yours one day.” You jokingly suggested. “Oh right! Can we go to my place tomorrow after we check out?” You didn't want to tell him about the party. “I don't see why not. I don't mind where we go as long as I'm with you, you know?” He snuggles closer to you.

You decide you want to watch the city after coming out of the bath, draped in the bathrobe, you stand close to the windows and admire the city lights. You loved how you could see so much of the city, pretty sure it wouldn't be a once in a lifetime experience with Rafayel around, but you still appreciate the beauty of it. Rafayel joins you, wrapping his arms around your waist and kissing the crook of your neck as your eyes wander outside the window.

“We should get something to eat, that was quite a workout earlier.” He chuckles. “And who's fault was that? I almost passed out!” You glared at him. “Yours', of course, showing me your beautiful tail. No way I would be satisfied with just a few rounds.” He smirks. “Let's order some food so we have energy to go again.” He whispers into your ear and you blushed, walking away to look for the room service menu.

The two of you enjoyed your meal and had a few more rounds of spicy sessions in bed before calling it a night. You woke up to Rafayel packing his things, and you lazily got out of bed to brush up before collecting your things. You couldn't find the fish tail costume anywhere and asked Rafayel if he saw it. “Yeah, it's here with my stuff. It was my present after all. Can't wait for you to wear it again for me.” he hums and continues packing, you put the dress back into the box and pack up your stuff as well.

Rafayel checked out of the hotel and the valet brought his car around, he helped you put your things in the trunk before opening the passenger door for you to enter. He gets in the driver seat and heads in the direction of your place. “Oh right! Could we make a quick stop at the convenience store? I need to pick up something.” You asked. “Of course, I can help you with the shopping basket.” Rafayel chimes in. “No, it's ok. Just wait in the car for me.” He looked at you shocked, like you’ve offended his whole race. He pouts and turns his head away, making you giggle at his reactions.

He waited in the car like you asked while you were in the store, you found the item you were looking for then headed back to the car. “What did you buy?” Rafayel questions. “You’ll see later. Let's head home.” He drives off again.

It didn't take long for you 2 to get back to your apartment, you got your dress and your belongings out of the trunk and Rafayel helped you carry it upstairs. As the 2 of you arrive at your unit, Rafayel unlocks the door with one hand while carrying your things with the other. You 2 made it inside and Rafayel was greeted with 2 party poppers going off in his face. He was stunned and was taken aback, until he saw Zayne and Xavier standing there as they greeted him a happy belated birthday.

Rafayels' heart felt warm, as he started blushing. He hasn't had someone close to him host a birthday party for him in a long time. “Thanks guys.” He lets out a genuine smile as you hug him from behind. He placed the items down on the couch and everyone made their way to the dining table. You had a cake prepared and Zayne had already set up the table for everyone to have cake. You told them the things that happened at the event while everyone enjoyed the cake.

“It's too bad we didn't get to see you in the dress.” Xavier pouted. “We brought it with us, we could just have Y/N change into it.” Rafayel suggested. “I want to see it too.” Even Zayne was interested. “Fineee… give me a moment.” You got up and grabbed the box and walked into the bathroom. Xavier and Zayne were excited but weren't really showing, even Rafayel was excited since he thought you looked so beautiful in it that he wanted you to wear it again.

You walked out of the bathroom with your dress and the 3 men were obviously flushed, their cheeks turning pink as they saw the beautiful white dress sit perfectly on your body. You stood in front of them and spun around a few times, showing off your dress.

The 3 of them sat awkwardly, all trying to hide their raging hard-on, which you've failed to notice. “Before I forget.” You quickly guided all of them into your room to take out the gift box. You walked towards Rafayel and gave him a small box which was nicely wrapped with a pink ribbon. “What's this?” Rafayel curiously asks. “This is your birthday present from Xavier and Zayne. They wouldn't let me pay…” you unintentionally pouted. “You were the one who picked the colors.” Xavier tried to give you some credit. “You should take a look inside.” Zayne encouraged Rafayel.

Rafayel quickly but carefully untied the ribbon and unwrapped the beautiful shiny wrapping paper. He opened the box to find 3 necklaces and a pair of earrings. “Is there one for each of us?” Rafayel looked and saw the different colored gemstones. “Yes. A proof that we are all in this relationship, together.” Zayne added. “Aww, thanks guys. I really like the thoughtful gift.” Rafayel blushing slightly. “Y/N, would you mind doing the honors and helping us out?” Rafayel looks lovingly at you. “Of course! I wanted to be the one to put them on you guys when we first got it.” You excitedly took the one with the purple gem and hooked it around Rafayels' neck. You grabbed the yellow one and put it on Xavier, finally grabbing the blue one and putting it on Zayne.

“Who's going to put her earrings on for her?” Xavier quietly asks. Rafayel handed the box to Xavier, “Well you guys bought it, so each of you can put one side on her.” Rafayel generously offered. Xavier excitedly grabbed one of the earrings and gently put it on for you, Zayne followed on the other side. They were all admiring how the earrings looked perfect on you and you did the same to their necklaces. It felt as if the bond you guys had just got stronger.

Xavier had been patiently sitting there, his eyes would be on you, burning the image of you in the dress into his brain. He wanted to touch you so badly but held himself back since Zayne had been apart from you the longest and he thought you would miss him too. “Xavier, would you like to take some pictures with me?” You extended your arm towards him. He jumped on the opportunity, handing his phone to Zayne as he hugged you into his embrace. Zayne helped take the pictures and asked Rafayel if he would also like a picture, Rafayel noticed he didn't get a picture of you in the dress and gladly took the offer. “You should take a picture with her too, Zayne.” Xavier suggested. Zayne smiled and nodded. “We should all take a picture together as well!” You suggested.

Zayne was sitting on your bed when he finally pulled you between his legs and into his embrace, he had always been able to hide his emotions better than the others, but seeing you in the beautiful white dress did something to him. You could feel his bulge throbbing in his pants as one of his hands ran down from your waist to your thigh, hand stopping where the split of the dress was. You could see the wanting in his eyes. Xavier was sitting next to the pillows and was watching quietly as his arousal quickly took over.

“This time I can take the dress off of you.” Rafayel walks behind you, cupping his hands to your chest before giving a light squeeze. As much as you wanted to keep the dress on, you didn't want to ruin or get it dirtied. Zayne slipped his hand into the split and traveled up towards your heated core, realizing you didn't have panties on, he had a smirk on his face. “Was this how you dressed yesterday too?” He asked as he ran a finger between your wet folds. “Mmhmm…” you playfully replied..

“Rafayel, there is something in my hoodie pocket that I want you to get.” You tried telling him before things got too heated. “Do I have to get it NOW?” He didn't want to let go of you, or miss the chance to take the dress off you. “Yes, just go, we will wait for you.” You watched as Rafayel pouted. “Fineeeee.” Rafayel rolled his eyes then went into the bathroom to get the mystery item. He ran back fully flustered, “What were you planning with THIS?!” frantically waving around a bottle of lube. “Oh… I thought it was something you wanted to do. Guess we'll just put it away.” You tried reaching for the bottle but Rafayel pulled the bottle into his chest and out of your reach. “As long as you're down, I wouldn't say no to trying.” His face is still bright red.

“I didn't know our girl was so naughty.” Zayne was surprised but seemed fine with the idea. “Just make sure you fully prepare her.” He continues. “Let's get her out of this dress first.” Rafayel licks his lips as he reaches for the gold ribbon around your neck, pulling it loose as the top of your dress falls and hangs around your waist. His hands now on your waist as he hooks his thumbs onto the inside of the dress and starts pulling it down.

You were standing there, fully nude, as the 3 men's gaze devours you, hungry eyes watching you from head to toe. Zayne scooched himself further onto the bed as he pulled you with him. He slowly unbuttons his shirt and the other 2 start undressing as well. Zayne pulled you closer, your knees on each of his sides as he cups your ass with his big hands. “Rafayel, hand me that bottle.” Zayne extended his hand towards Rafayel, and Rafayel placed the bottle into Zaynes' hands. Zaynes' hands briefly left your body to pop the bottle open, applying lube on his hands as they traveled back to your ass, running circles on your sensitive bud.

Your upper body was leaning against Zaynes' bare chest as your hands rested on his shoulders. “It's cold.” You whine as Zayne applies lube for you. “You will get used to it, have to prepare for it so Rafayel can enter, don't we?” Zayne is slowly pushing his finger inside your hole. “!!!” You gasped from the sudden stretch, you thought it would hurt, but you actually thought it felt nice. Your cheeks were pink, and you slowly breathed from your mouth, Xavier couldn't hold himself anymore and moved in to attack your lips with his. His tongue easily slips into yours and starts twirling against yours as he guides your tongue into his mouth, sucking on that little muscle like his life depends on it.

Zaynes' finger slides in deeper, your moans were muffled by Xaviers' kisses. Zayne gives the bottle back to Rafayel, who's cheeks were burning from watching Zayne prepare you for him. “Apply some on yourself.” Zayne instructs Rafayel, he squeezed the liquid onto his throbbing heat, the temperature of the lube sending shivers down his spine as he covers himself with it. Zayne grabs onto your ass and stretches the cheeks apart for Rafayel to get easy access.

Rafayel moves in closer, placing one hand on your hips and the other on his hard length, lining himself up to your puckered hole. Rafayel slowly pushed his cock inside, panting heavily at how tight you were. “MMMMMM!!!” you moaned, trying to catch your breath but Xaviers hands grabbed you by your cheeks and kept himself latched against your lips. Tears were forming in your eyes as your moans were still suppressed by Xaviers' lips. You could feel every inch of Rafayel's cock, every vein, every throb, as he finally fully bottomed out. It took everything from him to not just cream inside you, he froze in spot, trying to control his breathing as your walls continued to squeeze him tightly.

Just as you thought you to take a breather, you felt Zayne's cold fingertips lapping between your folds, your hands squeezed his shoulders and he took it as an encouragement to continue. He slips his middle finger into your pussy with no resistance from how wet you already are, he adds his ring finger and starts fingering you. His other hand works to unbuckle his pants and pulls it down enough for his cock to spring free.

Zayne pulls his fingers out and rubbed the wetness against his length, he lines himself up against your cunt and finally thrusted upwards, sheathing himself inside you. Your eyes rolled to the back of your head, never had you felt so full. Both your holes being fully stuffed with their throbbing cocks, both Rafayel and Zayne just living in the moment, feeling your warmth clutching around their cocks, both didn't want to move. Xavier, on the other hand, had not stopped sucking on your tongue, his face burning pink and you could feel your tongue turning numb.

Rafayel finally calms his breath, and he slowly pulls away from you, the friction had you screaming in pleasure. Xavier finally lets go of your lips but none of them can understand you anymore. Your words were reduced to random sounds of pleasure, Xavier watches your fucked out face and starts stroking himself. You watched his hands go up and down his leaking cock and pants with your open mouth while your tongue slightly sticks out and drooling.

Rafayel didn't even make it half way out before slamming himself back inside of you. “AhhhHHHH!!!” you are screaming out again. Zayne is also starting to move, they would synchronize their movements to always have one of them fully inside you as the other pulls all the way to the tip. The pleasure is driving you insane, your head resting on Zayne's shoulder as your eyes watch Xaviers' fist fuck himself. He looked so hot and you wanted more, your eyes traveled up to meet him, and you licked your lips, and as if he knew what you wanted, he got up and inserted his cock inside your wanting mouth.

NOW you are complete. All their cocks are inside you, one way or another. Everyone was getting to their limits, Rafayel and Zayne both grunted as your walls began to squeeze down on both of them. “My love, you..mmghn you're gonna ahh snap my dick if you squeeze eeh that hard.” Rafayel could hardly put the sentence together. “I'm also… at my limits…” Zayne added. “I'm…about to cum too.” Xavier butts in. “Hhmph!!” You muffled out, Xavier whines, “I think she said, she wants us to..mmm cum.” You slightly nodded your head.

All 3 of them pick up speed as they thrust into you, pumping their cocks deep inside your holes as you try your hardest not to pass out from the sensation. “MmmmmmMM!!” you came as you muffled out a moan. And your walls clutches Zayne and Rafayel and they both cum simultaneously deep inside of you, Xavier follows shortly after as he shoots hot cum down your throat.

Rafayel and Xavier pull out of you one after another and Zayne holds you into his embrace for a while before pulling away from you. You could hardly feel your limbs, you felt so drained of energy it was hard to even keep your eyes open. “That… was incredible, we are definitely going to do it again. Switching different positions of course.” Rafayel suggested to Zayne and Xavier. “I wouldn’t mind doing this again. But right now, she needs her rest. She has been a good girl for us.” Zayne goes into the bathroom and brings out a warm wet towel to clean you up, always putting your needs first.

After wiping you down, Zayne positions you to the middle of the bed, making sure your head is comfortably resting on the pillow. Xavier lays down beside you, placing his arm over your waist as the both of you fall asleep. Rafayel and Zayne just watch the 2 of you, Rafayel always amazes at how fast Xavier can fall asleep.

You had a dream, you were in an unfamiliar place. Everything seems dark and you cannot seem to find a way out. You see grandma talking to someone, you look down and realize you were your younger self, you tried walking towards grandma but the distance between you seems to grow further each step you take. You were running before you knew it, you felt your legs getting tired and you started to slow down. Grandma seems to finally notice you, she smiles gently at you and tells you everything will be fine and to follow your heart. She started to fade away, you cried out to her, telling her to not leave, but she only drifted further and further until she disappeared.

You called out “Grandma!” As you wake up abruptly, tears flowing down your eyes. Zayne and Rafayel rushed in to see what was going on. Xavier also woke up from you sitting up. “Is everything ok?” Zayne looks at you, worried. “I…had a dream of grandma just now. I was in a dark city, and I was lost but grandma told me everything would be ok… but she left.” You hugged your knees towards your chest. “It's ok Y/N, it's only a dream. We are all here for you.” Xavier comforts you. Just then you felt something, like something was watching you. You looked outside the window to see a crow, staring from the balcony right before it flew away.

“Y/N, come with me to the hospital tomorrow, there is something I need to give you.” Zayne had a serious look on his face. “Ok.” You nodded.

All of you decided to order dinner and everyone decided to stay the night and leave the next morning. They didn't want to leave you alone with your thoughts.

Morning comes around and Rafayel leaves after eating the breakfast that Zayne prepared. Xavier woke up and ate too but decided he would go back to his apartment and catch up on more sleep. You and Zayne got ready and left for the hospital.

Zayne leads you to his office and goes searching for something, he returns to his desk with a box as he handed it to you. “What is this?” You asked, accepting the box. “Your grandma entrusted that to me, to give it to you one day.” Zayne explains. “Thank you, Zayne.” You opened the box and it contains some information about an Aether Core and information about the N109 zone. Zaynes' face turns serious, “Y/N, if you plan on investigating, let us help too. Don't try to do everything by yourself.” You smiled at Zayne and nodded.

“I want to look at some of the information a bit more.” You grabbed the box and walked over to the couch and layed the contents onto the coffee table. Zayne follows you to the couch, sitting and patiently waiting for you to look through everything. You were in your own little world, trying to pick up every little detail you can with the information in front of you. Hours flew by and Zayne just watched you, totally focused as you try to learn everything you can.

“Maybe you should take a break, it's not a good idea to rush things.” Zayne calmly suggested. “I want to check the information some more.” You coldly brushed off his suggestion. Zayne grabs the papers out of your hand. “You've already looked through that, at least 3 times. It is lunchtime and you need to eat.” This time he wasn't asking. You slightly frowned and accepted, Zayne put the papers back into the box and placed it in your bag. “Let's go to the cafe close by and have lunch, we can go back to your place and study the information some more.” Zayne picked up your bag and his coat and started heading towards the door as you followed closely behind.

Arriving at the cafe, you sat down in a booth by the window. You have noticed crows everywhere you go, you thought to yourself how you never seem to notice them before. Zayne sat down in front of you and a waiter walked over and handed both of you the menu. You looked up to thank him and noticed he was staring at you with a bit of a confused look on his face. He wasn't going to ask but he thought you looked familiar, that's when you noticed he was the art student you let in for Rafayels' exhibition.

“Your… Felix, right?” Zayne watches you as you asked the waiter. “Um… yes. Have I met you before? You seem really familiar…” Felix asked. “I was the one who walked you around the exhibit, I guess the mask did its job.” You giggled. “Oh!! Right! I really wanted to thank you for that day. I was really excited to finally see Mr. Rafayels' artwork and was able to because of you.” He bowed at you a few times, and you blushed, trying to get him to stop bowing. “Order anything! This will be my treat!” Felix suggested. “No, no, no, we can't have you do that.” You politely declined. “I insist!” Felix not backing down. “Give us a minute with the menu then.” You playfully sighed, as Felix backs away to give you 2 spaces.

“So… who is he?” Zayne asked. You explained what happened at Rafayels' birthday and you only helped him because he looked desperate. “I see. Always helping people in need.” Zayne smiled as he placed his hand on top of yours. Felix comes back and takes your order before disappearing into the back to have them get ready. You and Zayne chatted as you ate, you went through a bit of the details of what you just learned. Almost all evidence is leading to the N109 zone. Zayne knows that is a dangerous area and doesn't want you to get involved, but knowing you and how stubborn you could be, all he can do is provide as much help as he could to keep you safe.

After the 2 of you finish eating, Felix refused to take payment of your lunch, but when he was called away, Zayne left the cash on the table along with a generous tip before leaving the cafe.

Zayne took you home, knowing you would want to go back to checking the information you attained, he sat down on the couch and had you sitting between his legs. He wanted to stay as close to you as he could, his arms loosely wrapped around your waist as you scattered the contents of the box on your coffee table yet again. Zayne lets out a quiet sigh as he twiddle his thumbs while his arms are still wrapped around you.

Zayne was a patient man, but you have been rechecking the information over and over, enough for him to have them memorized, yet you were still looking at them. Zaynes' hands now pressed against your stomach and your side, rubbing small circles as he tried to get your attention. Zayne thought he finally got the response he wanted when you placed your hand over his, only to pull it away from your stomach so you could focus. That actually caused him to snap, you were pinned down between his legs before you even realized what had just happened.

“Don't you think you're ignoring me a bit too much? I don't often get to spend time with you, and you're not even paying attention to me.” Zaynes' eyes darken, as he slips one hand inside your shirt, activating his evol to run his cold hand up your side. He had you shivering and whimpering under him as his hand traveled down, slipping into your pants and panties as his cold fingers slid between your folds. “Ahhha… Zayne… it's cold.” your hands resting on his arm and shoulder as he continues rubbing your entrance with his icy fingers. “Then you better warm me up, my sweet.” His cold fingers sliding into your pussy as he leans in to kiss your lips, muffling your moans.

Zaynes' cold fingers had you yelping more than usual, his kisses were demanding as he sucked your tongue into his mouth, his breath icy cold, you missed the warmth. “mm… Zayne, m’sorry. Please forgive me…” you plead. “Only if you promise that I will get your attention for the remainder of the night.” Zaynes' fingers still fucking your pussy, your mind already beginning to go blank as you nod and agree. He pulls his fingers out of you, covered in your slick, you gasped as you rub your thighs together, trying to fill the void as you watched him sucked his fingers like he was eating a popsicle.

“Take your clothes off.” Zayne took a step away, making room for you to remove your clothes. You took off your top layers and stood up to remove your pants and panties in one go. “Good job, my pretty. Now help me remove mine.” Zayne leans in for you to unbutton his shirt and slide it off him. You got on your knees and unbuckled his belt and pulled his pants and boxer down. His hardened length twitching in front of your face, making you swallow hard. Once the clothing was off, he spun you around and had you facing the couch.

“Get on your knees.” He whispers into your ear from behind, sending more shivers down your spine. You got onto your knees on the couch, feet hanging off the edge as your hands rested on the back of the couch. Zayne leans in, his cock rubbing between your thighs, poking at your clit. One of his hands now gripping at your hips as the other rubbing your slick around your pussy. “Zayne, please. I want you.” You turned your head, looking at him with wanting, watery eyes. “Then you'll have me.” Zayne lines his cock to your cunt and slowly pushes his way in.

The stretch had you gasping for air, his hand now moved to your clit, drawing circles as he pushed deeper and deeper, until he bottoms out, his tip kissing your cervix. He once again activated his Evol while flicking his cold fingers against your clit, making you hiss. The current position already had you squeezing him tight, now the coldness made him unable to move as he loudly moaned, “Fuck, Y/N, you… you're squeezing me too hard… ha… I need you, MMM, to relax a bit.” Zayne is panting heavily through his mouth.

“Aaahhng… it's cold!” You whine as you jerk your hips, pussy still clutching his cock, Zayne deactivated his Evol and rubbed fast circles on your clit again, this time the warm temperatures had you melting on his length. “That's it… it feels so nice inside of you, are you feeling good too?” Zayne was able to move again as he started thrusting his hips against yours. “Yes Zayne!! I love..mm.. love it!! Don't stop!” You had your head thrown back, panting and moaning loudly. Zayne leans down to kiss your shoulders, making his way to the back of your neck, gently pushing your hair aside as he leaves his mark on you.

“I'm close, Zayne, I'm so close!” You were squeezing around him tighter again, he pulled out of you to turn you around, lifting you up so your legs wrap around his waist, arms around his neck as he pushes you back down towards his throbbing cock. He had you screaming in pleasure, he watches your facial expressions, furrowes brows with unfocused eyes, drool rolling down the corner of your mouth, absolutely fucked out of your mind. He latches his lips to yours as you both moan as he thrust into you at a merciless pace. “Cum with me.” Zayne mumbles out, as the 2 of you cum together.

You were twitching in his arms, pussy still throbbing, milking every last drop of his cum out. Zayne glides his cock out slowly as his cum gushes out of you, making a big mess on the carpet beside the couch. Your arms and legs gave out and Zayne had to hold you up. You were absolutely spent, you couldn't even stand, even if you wanted to. Zayne brought you to the bathroom and cleaned you up before putting you in bed. You've fallen asleep by the time Zayne finished cleaning himself up, he went to clean up the carpet before grabbing his boxers and pajama pants to join you in bed. He kisses you on your forehead before sliding his arm underneath your neck, which had you rolling towards him. Zayne smiled and admired your sleeping face before drifting into dreamland himself.

You woke up early the next morning, feeling extra hungry since you did not eat dinner. You could smell a delicious aroma coming from the kitchen. You got up and followed your nose to the kitchen to find Zayne cooking breakfast. He turns around and sees you still half asleep, “As much as I like the view, you better put something on before you catch a cold.” He playfully sighs. Confused, you looked down and realized you were still naked. You ran back to your room, feeling flustered, you grabbed a random shirt and put it on before going to the kitchen again.

Zayne finished cooking and brought a plate in front of you, your eyes shiny and mouth watering and about to dig in. “Have you brushed your teeth yet?” Zayne questions you. You looked at him, put your fork down and walked into the bathroom to brush and wash your face. You walked back to the table to sit down, “Enjoy your breakfast.” Zayne chuckles. You playfully stuck your tongue out at him before picking up the fork to dig in. He eats his share before grabbing a suit to change into, he was getting ready for work when the front door opens and in walks Xavier.

Xavier greeted Zayne as he was coming out of your room all ready to leave. “Stay safe you two.” Zayne walks over and kisses your cheeks before leaving for work. “So, what did the 2 of you do yesterday?” Xavier asks. “Zayne gave me something that was left by my grandma. I want to learn about my past and I think the information could help, it seems it has something to do with the N109 zone.” Xaviers' face darken a bit, like he was hiding something. “Do you know anything about that place?” You question him. “Only as much as the Hunters Association knows.” He shows you information that you normally wouldn't have access to. “Can you help me? I really want to know about my past.” you begged.

Xavier gently smiles at you before letting you borrow his access. “I will help you as much as I can, but you have to promise me to stay out of trouble.” You promised him and the 2 of you got ready to go to work. The 2 of you cleared out the target areas in record time, you were able to do a bit more digging into the N109 Zone. You noticed Rafayel was wanted by them for a while and that he is somehow connected as well. You told Xavier you wanted to go give Rafayel a visit after work to ask him about N109 and Xavier said he would go with you.

You texted Rafayel to tell him you would be going by his place and he was delighted to see you. You and Xavier arrived there on your bike and walked into his place. Rafayel was sitting on the ladder painting a big canvas, it looked like some ancient ruins. He sees you and climbs down the ladder to walk over to greet you, pulling you into a kiss. “Ahem, Y/N has something she wanted to ask you.” Xaiver says as he gently pulls you away from Rafayels' kiss. Rafayel pouts and stares at Xavier before turning back to you, “What can I help you with?” He playfully asked.

“Do you know anything about the N109 zone?” You were watching for his reactions, knowing he wouldn't lie to you. “I know someone has been trying to get me to paint for them, even though I rejected their offer a thousand times. A lot of my paintings also end up in the black market in the N109 zone.” Rafayel sighs with a hint of annoyance. “Why are you asking about that place anyways?” Rafayel looked concerned. “I think it has something to do with my past. I have no memories of my youth and the documents grandma left behind links me to the N109 zone. I really want to learn more about it. Then maybe I can figure out who I really am… and why I have this Aether core inside me.” you placed your hands above your heart.

This was the first time the 2 of them heard you talk about your Aether core. They know of its existence but never actually question it. They both promised to help you, but what they both want most is your safety, they can't stand being without you. You told them you would make them dinner, for providing you with information. You made your way to the kitchen and prepared food. Xavier and Rafayel looked at each other, trying to help think of ways to get you into the N109 zone while keeping you safe.

You were able to make a very presentable meal with what Rafayel had in his fridge. Both of them thought the food was delicious and you brought the plates back into the kitchen to wash them after everyone was done with eating. Both Rafayel and Xavier followed you, asking if you needed help with cleaning up, Xavier ended up helping you dry the dishes while Rafayel helped to put them away.

You wanted to head home and shower before going to bed, but Rafayel still wanted you to keep him company for longer so he suggested that you use his shower and the 2 of you to stay the night. Rafayel nudges Xavier, trying to ask him to help convince you to stay, Xavier doesn't really care where he stays as long as he is by your side.

You didn't really have the heart to leave Rafayel by himself, he kept staring at you pouting and batting his puppy eyes at you. You finally sighed and agreed asking Rafayel to help you get a change of clothes and also something for Xavier to change into.

You walked into the bathroom and the 2 men followed. “Um, what are you guys doing in here?” You question both of them. “I want to shower too, so I thought we could shower together.” Xavier answers. “Well you guys can't leave me out, the shower is big enough for all of us.” Rafayel pouts. You stare at the 2 of them, both giving you innocent puppy eyes, you sigh again, “Fine. But no funny business. I just want to have a shower.” You said pointing to both of them. Both their faces gleamed as they quickly nodded in agreement.

The two of them helped you remove your uniform before hanging it by the door, Xavier took his and did the same. Rafayel removed the rest of your undergarments before stripping down himself. Rafayel walks into the shower first before you, Xavier follows shortly after. You were amazed how there was still so much room with the 3 of you inside. You rinse yourself from head to toe, Rafayel starts applying shampoo to your hair while Xavier takes the body wash as he gently scrubs your body. You felt so relaxed right now, the 2 of them taking care of you so well that you didn't have to lift a finger. They also listened to your demands, ‘no funny business’ even though both of them are having raging boners, which you couldn't help but have a smile on your face.

Once everyone is done with the shower, you get out and put on what Rafayel had chosen for you. Xaiver was wearing a set of pajamas that looked brand new which got you wondering if Rafayel planned to have him stay over again. Both of them can’t seem to be able to keep your eyes off you, their eyes linger on your delicate skin, a wanting hunger in their eyes. You were wearing a silky white dress that hovers just above your thighs with 2 skinny straps, along with a set of white silky lingerie.

Xavier took your hand and led you to the bed, his hands wanting to explore every inch of your exposed skin, Rafayel joined in shortly after. You are sitting at the center of the bed with each of them on your side, Xavier cups your cheeks and pulls you towards him, “Can I kiss you?” Xavier asks as his hands lightly tumble, fighting his inner demons to not jump you right this second. You didn't answer but leaned in to kiss him on his lips, you could feel the corners of his lips curling up into a smile. Rafayel was pouty, as he played with your hair, his hands gently massaging your shoulders to your back.

You felt your body heating up from their touch and now you wanted more, even though you were the one who said ‘no funny business’, you placed your hand on Xaviers' chest, feeling his quickened heartbeats as your hand slowly travel downwards, feeling each of his abs, making him moan quietly to your touch as he start kissing you more passionately. Xaiver kept his hands to himself, and you were getting desperate for his touch, “Xav, I want you to touch me.” you angled your chin perfectly to bat your big puppy eyes at him. Xavier bites back a gasp, his hands gripped in a tight fist on the bed. “You said no funny business, so if you want something, you would have to do it yourself.” Xavier gently smiles at you.

You made a cute pouting face but your hands started pulling down his pants, his cock springing free from its restraints. You wrapped your hands on his hard length and stroked him a few times as he moaned quietly, drops of pre-cum forming on his tip. You got on your knees and lifted up your dress, holding it with your lips as you pulled down your own panties, a string of slick connecting you and the panties as you pulled the fabric away. Rafayel was starting to get impatient, he ran his hands up your thighs and lifted your dress up so he could see your ass, he managed to tie up your dress, forming a ribbon on the back around your waist.

You inches closer to Xavier, hovering your pussy above his cock, his eyes watching every move you make. You took his cock and lined your pussy against it and slowly sank yourself down, making Xavier throw his head back from the tightness of your dripping pussy. You turned your head, looking at Rafayel with primal eyes, biting your lower lips as you began bouncing on Xavier's cock. Rafayel felt his face burning, you looked so sexy and he wanted to be inside you too. He went to his drawer beside his bed and pulled out a bottle of lube, he stripped down and applied a generous amount of lube to his cock. He gets back onto the bed and inches close to you, placing his one hand on your hips while he lines himself up with the other.

You were expecting him to prep you before he entered but instead of using your other entrance, he pushes his way into your already occupied pussy, making you yelp loudly from the stretch. You were trying to pull away when you felt Xavier's arms wrapped around your waist, holding you down as the 2 of them shared your pussy simultaneously. “Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuckkkkkk! You're so fucken tight!” Rafayel whines as he tries to push more of himself inside of you. Xavier was also a mess, panting heavily as he tried his best to stay inside you while Rafayel barged his way in. “Raf!!!! No… it won't fit!!! Ahhhn!!” You begged him to pull out but he didn't listen. “You can, my love. Mmmm you can, MMM take us both, at the same time” Rafayel says as he continues pushing his way inside.

You couldn't help but scream in pleasure, the painful stretch sending you over the edge as you came, coating both their cocks. You could hear your heart pounding in your ears, your vision getting fuzzy from the tears forming in your eyes as you see stars.

Rafayel finally fully sheaths himself inside of you along with Xavier, both could feel each other's cock twitching from within you in the confined space. You were still trying to adjust to the stretch but gasped in surprise when Xavier started moving, the friction was so nice he had you in a drooling mess. They would take turns pulling out of you, constantly having you fully stuffed, driving you closer and closer to another orgasm. They were both edging you, a payback from you not letting them do the things they want in the shower.

“Pl-please… just MMM let me cum!” You begged as they ripped another orgasm away from you. “It feels so nice and tight in here, I don't want it to be over just yet.” Xavier says as he slowly slides out of you, almost pulling out just so he could push himself back in at an agonizing slow pace. “You could try and move by yourself.” Rafayel teases you as he mirrors Xavier's actions, both of them working against you.

You tried lifting your hips up but your legs gave out, heavy pants and whines escaped your lips. “I… can't! Please, let me cum…” Both of them stopped their movements, they stared at each other and gave the other a nod before Xavier grabbed onto your hips and Rafayel grabbed onto your waist, making you gasp.

Both of them simultaneously lifted you higher, making you hiss from the friction before slamming you back down towards their cocks, your eyes widened and head thrown back from the sudden change, your cunt clutching tight on both their cocks making them whimper, they start picking up the pace, you were moaning in ecstasy as they bounce you on their lengths. They were getting to their limits, their grips tightening more each time they lifted you up, “I'm cumming…!” Xavier pants out, “me…too!!” Rafayel whines in your ear. All 3 of you came together, making a huge mess as you feel both their cum gushing out of your swollen pussy. Rafayel pulls out and collapses onto the bed, Xavier slowly pulls out and lays you down before laying down himself.

You were so out of it by the time your breathing calmed down, you could still feel their warm cum draining out of you. Rafayel placed his hand on your lower abdomen and gently pushed down, “MMMM!!!” You whine out as more cum seeps out of your throbbing hole. Xaiver went to the bathroom and got a warm towel and helped clean you up, wiping gently at your folds as your body twitched from each touch. They cleaned you up the best they could before laying you under the covers for you to finally rest.

Waking up in the morning feeling refreshed, Rafayel got out of bed and went to prepare breakfast for the 3 of you. You woke up to the sweet smell of pancakes which had your belly rumbling, you woke Xavier up and went to the bathroom to wash up before heading downstairs to the dining area. “Perfect timing!” Rafayel hums as he puts the last plate down onto the table, “I was just about to go wake you guys up.” “It smells great.” Xavier said with a hint of jealousy, both Rafayel and Zayne can cook, and he can't make anything unless he sets the kitchen on fire. “We can all make more food together another time.” Rafayel suggests, making Xavier relax a bit.

Rafayel walks the 2 of you to the front door and sends you both off to work. He stood and waited until you disappeared into the distance. As he went back inside the house, he made a call to someone. Trying to find ways to get you into N109.

You and Xavier arrived at work, heading out to the fields to hunt down wanderers, after taking out the area, Xavier brought up a place you should go after work. You were not sure where he was going to bring you but you haven't questioned him.

Xavier brought you to a flower shop called Philo after work, there was a guy working there, he looked around your age. He walked over and rested one of his arms on Xavier's shoulder and introduced himself as Jeremiah, him and Xavier looked close. Xavier whispers something into Jeremiah's ears and he gestured an ok sign and went to the back, returning with a laptop.

“If you're planning to go into N109, you better have a good disguise, it would help you through the city more.” Jeremiah says like he's been through the area many times before. You felt a gaze hitting you, but you can't seem to locate anyone other than crows, why does it feel like they are following everywhere you go? Jeremiah finished with his laptop and handed you some information and an alias for you to enter N109. “This should work, make sure to avoid the Onychinus at all cost, they are bad news.” Jeremiah warns.

You and Xaiver took your leave, Xavier was going through plans of how he would go into N109 with you, your alias was a daughter of some rich family which you would need bodyguards, and Xaiver could play that role.

Rafayel gave you leads on how to enter N109 over the phone when you got home, you thought it would be best for him to stay in Linkon since he was wanted in N109 and it would be wise to have someone able to send help if you and Xaiver gets into trouble. You were going through with the plan with Xavier when you received a call from Zayne.

“Something urgent came up and I have to travel to the Arctic for a while, try and wait for me to come back before going through with the plans or make sure Xavier is with you.” Zayne keeps going on and you haven't had the chance to tell him anything. “Rafayel hooked us up with a way into N109 and I have Xavier with me so don't worry. Make sure you stay safe in the Arctic.” you went through the plan with Zayne and he was relieved that Xavier would be with you. The 2 of you talked for a bit longer, knowing his trips usually take at least a couple of months. “I'm going to miss you, please stay safe.” Zayne made sure again. “I will be missing you too, I'll see you when you get back. Love you, and stay safe Zayne.”

You hang up and Xavier gives you an embrace, suggesting the 2 of you should go grab something to eat for dinner. There wasn't much groceries at home and you decided you want to go eat hotpot. The 2 of you got out of your apartment and got to the lobby before greeting with a familiar face. “Oh hi Y/N, I didn't know you live here?” Felix was surprised to see you as much as your surprise to see him. “Yea, a bunch of hunters live in this building, do you have family here?” Not sure why a non hunter is living here. “I live with my sister and she became a deep space hunter a while ago.” Felix explains. Xaiver was feeling a bit left out so he squeezed your hand, trying to get your attention. “Oh right, we are heading out for dinner, I guess I will be seeing you around.” you smiled and waved goodbye to him.

Xavier looks at you, wanting to ask who ‘Felix’ was. You explained what happened to Xavier and he thought it was a weird coincidence that he keeps showing up. Well you also find it weird but you brushed it off, it is more important to have the issue with N109 situated first.

You ate dinner and headed home, Xavier staying over like always, the both of you took a shower together before heading to bed.

The next few days were pretty normal until Rafayel messages you guys, saying he figured out the way for you to get into N109, you and Xavier were ready to execute the plan.

You entered the bar Rafayel told you about, and he had prepared you with what to say and do, you were told to take a shot, which you did willingly and waited for the evening to unfold. Xavier was close by, acting as your bodyguard when he suddenly received a message from Jeremiah, stating that it was urgent for Xavier to see him right away. Xaiver didn't want to leave you alone and he suggested that the plan gets postponed until he gets back. You accepted and Xavier left to find Jeremiah, little did he know you lied and went on ahead by yourself.

The main event starts and there is a giant eye appearing in the middle of the room, saying the hunt is about to begin. As you tried to avoid unnecessary attention, the eye locked onto you, marking you as the prey for the hunt. You were able to fight off a few of them until you felt a pinch on your neck, you’ve been drugged and quickly lost consciousness.

You regretted not listening to Xavier, you woke up in a van, all tied up in the back. You were trying to figure out what is going on right now until you heard the driver panicking as he stopped the van and pulled you out, pointing a gun to your head. You are still unsure of what is going on and with the drug still in your system you couldn't fight back. You saw 2 figures in front of you, both wearing masks as they walked closer towards you. The man yelled out “Stop!! Or… I'll kill her!” Shoving his gun closer to your head. You closed your eyes and squeezed them tight, you were thinking ‘this is the end.’ when you heard the man screaming in pain, you couldn't feel his grip on you anymore and you slowly opened your eyes.

You see the man suspended above ground surrounded by a black and red fog, he was begging for mercy until you heard a low voice chuckling. “Your pathetic life has ended when you decided to put a gun to her head.” the low voice said before you hear the man's neck snapped as he falls to the ground. You were shocked, you've never seen someone die this way, you went into full shock and threw up before snapping your head towards the 2 masked figures kneeling down while a silver-haired man with red eyes appeared in front of you.

You looked up at him, feeling disgusted. “Murderer!” You yelled at him. “I just saved you life” his brows furrowed, “he was about to kill you.” He continues. “I don't care, you had him in your grasp, you didn't have to kill him!” You yelled back, trying to back away. “Well, sweetie, this is how things are done here in the N109 zone. You better get used to it.” you felt a sharp pain at the back of your neck and you passed out once again.

@huuvu @juliettebbgamer

[rainbowbarnacle]

Ooooh I got tagged! :D

Relation Status: In a LDR with the wonderful @mercurialmalcontent. <3

Favorite Color: ALL OF THEM. But lately I've been wearing lots of purples and oranges and yellows.

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: Sweets: chocolate, red bean paste, apple-based pastries, and anything with poppyseeds. Spicy: I like it! Spicy coconut soups and eggs with hot sauce and spicyhot v8 juice and warming extra-gingery chais. Savory: yes pleeease, I am particularly fond of miso soup, lox, peppered beef jerky, and anything with mushrooms in it for savory things.

Three ships:

oh gooood just three?

Karlach and Astarion from Baldur's Gate 3. I'm digging the dynamic of Touch Starved Tiefling and Touched Out Vampire Figure Stuff Out Together. There is something so lovely about someone just flat out, unquestionably ADORING someone who has spent 200 years spouting so much automatic false praise at people that any compliment directed at him sounds like a lie. I don't care if they're friends or lovers or married, all of it is good, just please let these two hang out, they are hilarious and wonderful together.

Roland Deschain and Cuthbert Allgood and Alain Johns from the Dark Tower. Friends, lovers, both, everything rocks. They are traumatized cowboys who grew up in a constantly changing eldritch hellscape together and they can still joke around and they know each other so perfectly and I love them. Could they just all travel to New York so I can watch them lose their minds the first time they eat at a buffet restaurant, thankee-sai.

Ryne and Gaia from FFXIV. These two have been through so much horror and I just want them to be happy together. At first glance it's Hopelessly Cheerful Optimist beaming happy rays at the Snooty Goth Who's Learning To Smile Sometimes, but occasionally you get little scenes where Gaia perks Ryne up like high quality coffee. <3

First ever ship:

I dunno, I didn't really come up with ships on my own for a really long time--I just kinda went with what was there. I remember eventually learning how to do otherwise, I just don't remember who it was.

Last Song:

Last Film: I thiiiink it was One Piece Film: Red? Either way, WHAT A WILD RIDE, I think it might be my favorite One Piece film. A pop diva with creation magic covers up MASSIVE TRAUMA with glittery rainbow everythings, WHOO <3 Also, a banging soundtrack.

Last thing I Googled: The One Piece Film: Red trailer

Currently Reading: NOTHING. :O But that's only because I just finished editing someone's novel and my brain needs a rest.

Currently Watching: Rurouni Kenshin! I'm digging it a lot so far--I can tell the current voice actor admires the voice actor from the original series a lot. <3

Currently Consuming: Nothing yet. I drank all the cold brew coffee and now I have no cold brew coffee. :(

Currently Craving: Coffee. And these chickpea burrito things I found on sale, I should have bought twelve more.

Currently Working On: That Thing I did for Nano, a FFXIV fic and a Baldur's Gate fic

Current Obsession(s): Baldur's Gate 3, FFXIV, One Piece, that book I edited a few days ago (IT'S REALLY GOOD)

Aaaand all done, phew! Thank you for tagging me, that was fun! I tag: anybody else who wants to.

[cat-eclipse-m]

QUESONE N ANSWEH!

who is/are your comfort character(s)? HOBIE BROWN, PAVITR PRABHAKAR (SPIDERVERSE)

lighter or matches? LIGHTERS

do you leave the window open at night? NEVER.

which cryptyd being do you believe in? UNSURE?

what color are your eyes? DARK BROWN

why did you do that? DO WHAT- I DIDN'T EAT THE CHOCOLATES NO NO NO.

hair-ties or scrunchies? HAIR TIES

how many water bottles are in your room right now? NONE

which do you prefer, hot coffee or cold coffee? I HATE COFFEE

would you slaughter the rich? DEPENDS

favorite extracurricular activity? SWIMMING/YOGA

what kind of day is it? HUMID ASF

when was the last time you ate? JUST NOW???? CHICKEN CURRY IS DELISH

do you love the smell of earth after it rains? YES OFC!!!!!

are you a parent? (all answers qualify) NO. HOWEVER I'M AN ILLEGALY ADOPTED YOUNGER SIBLING OF MY BES FREN!!!!

can you drive? NAH

are you farsighted or nearsighted? NEARSIGHTED (I CAN ONLY SEE THINGS CLOSE TO ME)

what hair products do you use? SHAMPOO, CONDITIONER????

imagine we’re at a sleepover, would you paint my nails? NO PAINT EM YERSELF I'M SO TRASH AT IT

do you say soda or pop? SODA, BUT POP SOUNDS FUNKY ASF AND I'M ALL FOR IT

something you’ve kept since childhood? MY SUPERMAN STUFFIE

what type of person are you? IDFK? NICE TO MY BEST FRIENDS MEAN TO FAMILY??????

how do you feel about chilly weather? I. LOVE. IT. I WOULD KILL FOR IT TO BE CHILLY EVERYDAY

if we were together on a rooftop, what would we be doing? TALKING/DRAWING/VENTING TO EACH OTHER

perfume/body spray or lotion? LOTION ALL THE WAY

a scenario that you’ve replayed multiple times? DON'T REMEMBER TBH

about how many hours of sleep did you get? AVERAGE 5-8 HOURS

do you wear a mask? NO (COVID ENDED WHY WOULD I)

how do you like your shower water? BURNING MY SKIN. NAH JKJK I LIKE IT WARM

is there dishes in your room? YES

what type of music keeps you grounded? MICHAEL JACKSON/MY EMO PLAYLIST

do you have a favorite towel? YEAH? THE ONLY ONE I HAVE???????

the last adventure you’ve been on? IDFK, ARCADE?

is there a song you know every word to by heart? NO... BUT I ALMOST KNOW SEVERAL BY HEART!

what’s your timezone? DON'T KNOW DON'T CARE

how many times have you changed your url? NEVER?

someone in your life, other than a relative, you’ve known for 10+ years? SHIT IDK??? NO ONE TBH

a soap bar that smells good? MY OWN HANDMADE SOAP BAR!

do you use lip balm? NO. HATE THAT BS

did you have any snacks today? YEAH!

how do you take your coffee? I HATE COFFEE

an app you frequently use besides this godforsaken site? SPOTIFY, DISCORD, CHROME, REDDIT, PINTEREST, TWITTER(BARELY), GOOGLE SLIDES, ADOBE XD & ILLUSTRATOR, ETC.

what’s your take on spicy foods? THEY'RE YUMMY BUT I CAN'T HANDLE EM AT ALL

you get a free pass to kill anyone, who is it? MY EX

can you remember what happened yesterday? NOT REALLY?

favorite holiday film? IDK

what was the last message you sent? "HEY WAIT CAN YOU DO THAT WITH US" (DISCORD MSG)

when did you first try an alcohol beverage? FORGOT, BUT I TRIED WINE N BEER, BOTH SUCKED EW

can you skip rocks? NAH

can i tag you in random stuff? OFC?????

WEEEEEEEE!!!!

here’s weirder asks

who is/are your comfort character(s)?

lighter or matches?

do you leave the window open at night?

which cryptyd being do you believe in?

what color are your eyes?

why did you do that?

hair-ties or scrunchies?

how many water bottles are in your room right now?

which do you prefer, hot coffee or cold coffee?

would you slaughter the rich?

favorite extracurricular activity?

what kind of day is it?

when was the last time you ate?

do you love the smell of earth after it rains?

are you a parent? (all answers qualify)

can you drive?

are you farsighted or nearsighted?

what hair products do you use?

imagine we’re at a sleepover, would you paint my nails?

do you say soda or pop?

something you’ve kept since childhood?

what type of person are you?

how do you feel about chilly weather?

if we were together on a rooftop, what would we be doing?

perfume/body spray or lotion?

a scenario that you’ve replayed multiple times?

about how many hours of sleep did you get?

do you wear a mask?

how do you like your shower water?

is there dishes in your room?

what type of music keeps you grounded?

do you have a favorite towel?

the last adventure you’ve been on?

is there a song you know every word to by heart?

what’s your timezone?

how many times have you changed your url?

someone in your life, other than a relative, you’ve known for 10+ years?

a soap bar that smells good?

do you use lip balm?

did you have any snacks today?

how do you take your coffee?

an app you frequently use besides this godforsaken site?

what’s your take on spicy foods?

you get a free pass to kill anyone, who is it?

can you remember what happened yesterday?

favorite holiday film?

what was the last message you sent?

when did you first try an alcohol beverage?

can you skip rocks?

can i tag you in random stuff?

[causenessus]

HI LOVELY!! good morning afternoon or evening to you! how’s your day been!! i hope you’ve eaten AND REMEMBER TO EAT DURING UR LONG SHIFTS OR I WILL APPEAR ON UR SCREEN !!! (lovingly) the way i gasped when i read your response because i was just like… YOU DIDNT EAT? :( i was so distraught but i hope whatever u had for dinner was good, but still !! always remember to eat and take care of yourself or the ghost of me will scold u (lovingly again) (nothing but love for you always)

today i had banh xeo for breakfast (tbh at this point i feel like you can guess what nationality i am LMAO) but OMG YOU LIKE VIET FOOD?? WE ARE SO SOULMATES !! TWIN FLAME !! AND OMG THATS SO CUTE I HAVE A VOICE IM HHHH that’s so cute i feel so very honoured but omg yesterday while i was like doing whatever right i had a realization that im literally like mystic messenger right now with the “make sure you eat!!” “how are you!!” like IM LITERALLY A CHARACTER IN MYSTIC MESSENGER RIGHT NOW THATS CRAZY (id be so embarrassed if you didn’t know what mystic messenger is but also would not blame you) ALSO YES WE CAN YAP TOGETHER I LOVE YAPPING BUT IM DEFINITELY YAPPING TOO MUCH LIKE I WANNA REPLY TO EVERYTHING YOU SAID SO IM LIKE HHH YAP YAP YAP me and ness are literally yapper and yapper like im trying to hold back but im here like omg among us??? omg whack dreams??? i wanna know what dreams??? omg school?? i’m school soon too!!

but but one more thing omg i’m so sorry LOL BUT I FEEL LIKE WE’RE IN THE SAME TIMEZONE?? BECAUSE EVERYTIME YOU MENTION THE TIME IN YOUR POSTS i check my time and im like huh.. silly… coincidence, but it’s 4pm for me rn !!maybe im crazy maybe im not but omg when it gets to school you can 100% rant about it because i will 100% do it too HAHA school has me like like genuinely tweaking like one small thing and im like OH MY GOD YOU WILL NOTTTT BELIEVE WHAT HAPPENED TODAY

omg sorry i need to wrap this up but yes try again is amazing don’t doubt yourself and u can always yap to me whenever whenever like i’ll literally make a burner account and dm you instead so we can yap without having to flood your blog or if you don’t mind i don’t mind but mango anon loves you very much and mango anon would want ness to take care of herself forever and always and HAVE A GOOD DAY !!! xoxoxo

AAAAA OMG I AM HERE LIKE 11 HOURS LATER <33 DO NOT WORRY I AM EATING AS WE SPEAK BEFORE MY LONG SHIFT tbh i felt like so nauseous about eating anything though today idk why (i have like two suspicions lmao i def know why) but since i'm working i was like "then i'll just pick something up on the way there!!" so i went to my groccery store to get a sandwhich BUT THEY DIDN'T HAVE ANY </333 so i'm having a blazing dragon poke bowl instead??? and it's okay 😔 like i don't know how i feel yet about groccery store sushi and stuff but i've had it before!! it's just a bunch of spicy imitation crab, cucumber, carrots, and rice and i'm mainly just there for the rice. AND OMG i walked around the store bc i was trying to see if they had liquid death (caffeinated tea i think. i don't like it but i really need caffeine today </3) and they didn't have any and i decided to go back to like their little food section to get bao (you can probably guess my ethnicity too 😭) and i almost got hit bc this man WHIPPED around when i tried to pass him like i literally ducked i was so scared he was about to hit me and that man was STILL not aware of me. ANYWAY SORRY RANDOM STORY YOU AND ME AND VIET FOOD!!! TWIN FLAMES!!

ALSO OMG MYSTIC MESSENGER 😭 BRO I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT 707 LIKE TWO DAYS AGO WHEN THAT WHOLE ANON APOCALYPSE HAPPENED I WAS LIKE "i'm going to go 707 on these people and find out where they live and haunt them /hj" PLEASE I FORGOT ALL ABOUT THEIR LITTLE "remember to eat" messages and everything but it's so cute <33 and YES we will yap together!! i went in to school today although it starts tomorrow to switch up my schedule and going there was HORRIBLE i saw so many disgusting people :/// BUT i have a pretty good schedule now so it has it's pros and cons!!! i just give people dirty looks and accidentally saw "ew" aloud all the time :))) AND IK THAT SOUNDS MEAN BUT LIKE YK HOW PEOPLE ARE and the people that live in my state are all rich privileged kids and it never changes 😭 i see them everywhere AND THEY ALL LOOK THE SAME AND ACT THE SAME AND ARE GROSS

and LMAO A BURNER ACCOUNT I WOULD TOTALLY TAKE IT THOUGH!!! i'd love to talk to you whenever please please please feel free to make one and dm whenever you'd like!! <3 I LOVE SEEING YOUR ASKS THOUGH I LITERALLY WILL BE HAPPY EITHER WAY AS LONG AS I GET TO TALK TO YOU <3 I HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY TODAY ANON!!

[obsessive-bear-walking]

I was ruminating on something that happened when I was around 20, and feeling bad about it but then I realised I was literally gaslit this way.

So when I was around 20 (when I could still move around freely) I bought the wrong flavor of a pop that I like. They have extremely similar labels and were in the wrong spot. ( I don't know if this is an autism thing or if everyone experiences this, but I remember layouts really, really well) When I started to drink it it's tasted funny but not "bad" So I took a few more sips before putting it down more than half empty and then saw that it was the wrong flavor and said "OH it's x flavour no wonder it tasted odd." And one of my family members heard me and went off on me about how that's scary and they have no idea how I get through life at all if I didn't question that.

And I felt guilty and embarrassed about it for a long time (I am now 27) but also. As an Autistic person. I have ALWAYS been told to shut up and that I'm being dramatic if something tastes off or weird. I've expressed that diet tastes different from regular Coke and my entire family has said I'm dramatic and that's untrue they taste through same. I've been judged when I said grapes dont all taste the same. When a safe foof band is slightly off because they changed the recipie and everyone thinks im nuts for noticing. I've expressed that sprite and 7up taste different and told I was dramatic, I've said a recipe tasted different this time and been snapped at. So, why, if this was my entire life, would I even question that the soda tastes different this time? When every other time something that has considered to taste normal tastes off to me and I've been snapped at and called crazy? I had to suck it up and eat spicy food(which is physically painful for me to eat and makes me overstimulated for ages after, i have cried in public eating soicy food or accidently biting into black pepper) because my family didn't believe that it's still spicy when you take off the hot stuff. I've pointed out that mcdonalds sodas taste different at different times of the day, and it's the same shit about how I'm wrong and don't know what I'm talking about and I'm dramatic for simply stating a soda is watered down????? And one of my family members only started understanding THIS year that spicy stuff actually hurts me. I would try to protest eating things with hot peppers because it hurts me and get told to pick it off and "you can't even taste them when they come off!!!" Like yes I can I'm nearly crying because my mouth hurts.

So like. Why would I even blink at my pop tasting weird. Why wouldn't I just keep minding my buisness when in the past I just got talked down to or even mocked??? Like my response was perfectly valid for my situation fuck.

[roosterforme]

Is It Working For You? Part 6 | Rooster x Reader

Just in case you need to start at the beginning or visit an earlier chapter, check out my Masterlist!

Summary: Wingwoman Phoenix strikes again. And your brain and heart are finally working together when it comes to Rooster.

Warnings: angst, fluff, some swears, adult banter, getting more into 18+

Length: 2700 words

Pairing: Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw x Female Reader

Still in a haze of Bradley induced lust, you could barely figure out how to answer his phone. "Hello?" you managed, your voice sounding like something from a porno.

"Y/N? I think I took your bag by mistake! I'm so sorry!" It was Phoenix, but it took you a moment to figure out what she was even talking about.

"Oh, right. That's okay, no worries," you told her. Bradley was slowly pulling further away from you and removing his hands from your sides. "Bradley said he would drive me over to get my stuff."

"Sounds good. Can you put him on for a second?"

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You gave the phone back to Bradley and he took it in his large hand, his eyes never leaving yours. He knew he had to have the dumbest look on his face right now, but he didn't care, because you also looked seriously blissed out at the moment.

"Yeah?" he grunted

"Did it work?" Phoenix asked.

He started laughing. "I should have known. But yeah, somehow it did."

"YES!" she shouted loudly into his ear. "We are all at the Burger Shack, but take your time getting here."

"Perfect. We'll come meet you to get her bag."

Bradley ended the call, silently taking back every mean thing he had ever said about Phoenix.

"You ready to go?" he asked you, really loving the way you were looking at him now. You nodded slowly and he placed a gentle kiss to your lips before closing your door. Unable to contain himself, he danced around the back of the Bronco before grabbing his aviators, climbing in and starting the engine. 

The start of the drive was silent except for the radio. Bradley glanced over to see you running your fingertips gently along your lips. "So, now that I have your phone number, am I allowed to use it?" he asked carefully, hoping he wasn't going to spook you.

"Yeah, I would like that," you whispered back with a smile.

"Great. Would you mind saving your number in my phone for me?" He handed the phone to you and gave you the passcode while he drove. You saved your number with your first and last name and handed it back as he pulled the Bronco into the lot of the burger place. 

"Bradley, will you please ask me out again? Please ask me if I want to go to that place in Del Mar and eat spicy food with you."

Bradley smirked as he shifted into park. "I'll think about it, Sweetheart."

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"Well played, Bradshaw," you thought to yourself as he walked around to get your door for you. Your lack of shoes was still a problem, but he wordlessly looped an arm under your knees and scooped you up, holding you against his chest. 

You floated along like you were in a dream, your arms looped around his neck as he carried you around the back of the restaurant. "Should we be seen like this?" you whispered, realizing the position the two of you were in.

"It's sandy up ahead. I'll set you down there," he replied with a grin. "But if I had it my way, I'd be touching you all night, and I couldn't care less who was around to see it."

You bit your lip as he set you down and bounded up the steps in front of you. Your brain and heart were working in tandem for once, demanding that you grab him and get back to kissing. You had to collect yourself before walking up the steps.

"Wow, Phoenix," Bradley called toward the tables where everyone else sat eating. "How many bags did you decide to steal today? You truly are a menace."

She jumped up with your teal backpack and handed it to you. "I'm so sorry! I would have driven it back to the beach, except that Rooster was so sweet to bring you here to get it."

You were thankful that the back deck was crowded with so many people eating and hanging out. This way, you were able to slip your clothing and shoes back on without drawing a lot of attention to yourself. "It's really no big deal," you told her with a shrug, trying to play it off. "Bradley helped me get up from the beach and everything, so it's fine."

"I'm sure he helped you with a lot of things," she replied innocently before returning to her seat and her tray of food. 

You huffed out a laugh and went into the restaurant to order some food, and that's where you found Bradley. He waved you up to the front of the line where he was about to order. "What do you want to eat?" 

You were just checking your phone and saw that Cam and Maria both went home to shower instead of grabbing dinner. "A burger with everything, and a chocolate shake," you told him, rooting around in your bag to get your credit card out so you could pay for your food and his too. 

"Make that two burgers with everything, two chocolate shakes, fries and onion rings," Bradley told the kid who was taking the order before handing him his own credit card. 

"I was going to pay for it," you scolded him, finally locating your wallet. His only response was leaning a little closer to you, smiling and shaking his head. "I hope you do realize I have the clearances to have you removed from all mission details at work," you threatened with a completely serious expression. 

"You would never," Bradley said, but he did look a little nervous.

"No, I wouldn't. I just want you to know your place. So when I say I'm buying you a beer later, I don't want to hear you bitching."

You grabbed the order when it was ready and started walking to a table out on the back deck. 

"Have I mentioned that I like everything about you?" Bradley whispered in your ear as he followed you.

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As Bradley drove you through the darkness back to the beach to get your car, he felt you reach for his hand on the center console. You seemed to have no idea what you were doing to him every time you touched him. 

"How should I save your contact name in my phone?" you asked him as he was about to park next to your car in the beach parking lot. "I feel like I'm the only person who calls you Bradley instead of Rooster."

"Here, let me do it." He thought for a minute before typing out Bradley Rooster Bradshaw <3 <3 <3 and hitting save before handing it back to you. 

Your bright laughter filled his car and made him smile. "What if someone sees that?"

"I don't care. And if you change it, I'll be so mad," he said as he hopped out and started around to get you. He opened your door and helped you jump down. "Like now I'm going to demand that you text me a screenshot of our conversations every night so I can make sure that's still how my name is listed."

You cracked up. "And what makes you think I'll be texting you every night?"

"You will be," he said with a nod before backing you up until your butt bumped your car door. Then you reached out and touched his cheek, and it was ridiculous how quickly he had his mouth on yours.

You overtook all of his senses as he kissed you. He could still smell your coconut sunblock. Every curve of your hips fit perfectly in his hands. The little gasps and sighs coming from you sounded obscene to his ears. You tasted like a chocolate milkshake. And when he pulled away to get a good look at you, your face was bathed in moonlight. "You're fucking beautiful," he told you as he ran his thumb along your bottom lip.

"Are you going to ask me out again?" you asked him sweetly, making him chuckle. 

"I said I would think about it. Now, I'm going to stop back and get a shower before heading to the Hard Deck. And then I'm going to let you buy me exactly one beer so you'll allow me to keep my job. Sound good?"

"Yeah," you said, running your hands down his arms. "I'll see you there." 

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"Maria!" you screamed when you got home a few minutes later.

"What's wrong?!" she asked as she came running out of her room half dressed. 

You were jumping up and down, and trying to kick off your shoes. "I kissed him! I kissed him and I should have done it a week ago!" 

Maria joined you in your jumping. "Tell me more! Is the mustache magical?"

"It is soooo magical!" you sang as you pulled your shoes off and ran toward the bathroom. "He's just.... oh my goodness, he's so sexy. I need to take a quick shower so we can go out to the bar." 

Once you were in the shower, Maria let herself in the bathroom to continue interrogating. "So what happened after Cam and I left?"

"Well Phoenix accidentally took my bag with her, so I was left with just Bradley and my towel. I didn't have my phone or keys or shoes or anything. He carried me up the rocks, Maria. Then I kissed him in the Bronco. It really is a hot car."

Maria snorted. "Yeah, it sounds like Phoenix took your stuff on purpose. She was probably trying to blindside both of you."

You poked your head around the shower curtain. "You really think so? Wow, she's a very good friend then."

Maria nodded, as you got back to showering. "So, how exactly have you solved your Rooster problem?"

"I'm still working on it."

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Bradley tried to casually throw some darts with Hangman, but he couldn't stop looking toward the door for your arrival. And then suddenly there you were, in a cute little sundress that hit just above your knees, arm in arm with Cam. Bradley completely froze at the sight of you, just as he was about to take his turn. 

"Oh shit man, don't even bother with her," Hangman drawled once he realized who Bradley was looking at. "Been there, tried that. She's completely brutal. She'll shut you down cold and never even glance in your direction again. But it must have been fun for you to get your hands on her during football earlier. She is something to look at." 

Bradley had to work hard to hide his smile. "Yeah, she sure is." He threw the last dart, lost to Hangman, and then excused himself to get a drink. You were leaning against the bar top flanked by your friends.

"Fancy meeting you here," Bradley said, and you spun around to face him. He wanted to touch you but managed to keep his hands to himself. 

"Yes, fancy," you said with a smile. You'd taken the time to French braid your hair and put on some makeup. He desperately wanted to mess it all up. "I just ordered you a beer. Thanks for not stranding me on the beach earlier."

"I hope you realize, you're just making me think of how much fun it would be to get stranded with you," he said, low enough for just you to hear. 

"Maybe next time," you told him with a smirk as you picked up both bottles and handed him one. "I'm going to drink this beer, and then in about twenty minutes, I'm going to go outside and walk down the stairs on the far side of the deck. I wouldn't be opposed to you meeting me on the beach."

Bradley's heart was hammering in his chest. "I'll be there," he managed to say before he took his beer to the other side of the bar near the pool table. He checked the time on his phone and forced himself to be as chill as possible for the next twenty minutes. He passed the time by thanking Phoenix profusely for taking your bag. 

"I knew she liked you!" she whispered excitedly. "She just needs some time to realize you would treat her well. I'm sure she thinks all of you guys are essentially a bunch of fuckboys with more balls than brains. And honestly, that's true for most of you." 

Bradley checked the time. Four more minutes to go. "I would never fuck her over. She's amazing. She calls me out on everything, Nat. And she's hilarious. I don't understand even ten percent of what she does at work, she's so much smarter than me. I already like her more than I think I've ever liked any other girl."

Phoenix smiled up at him and patted his arm. "Then you have to figure out how to keep her around."

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You discreetly excused yourself from your friends, who clearly knew exactly what you were doing. You crept around the perimeter of the bar until you reached the door, then you ran across the darkened deck and down the stairs to the sand. With your back pressed against the wooden pillar that was holding the deck in place, you tried to slow your breathing. The night air was cooler than you expected for late summer, and you shivered in anticipation. 

You heard heavy footsteps move quickly across the deck, and then someone was running down the stairs next to you. When Bradley landed on the sand, you reached for him and he found you in the near darkness. 

"Hi," you whispered and his lips were immediately on yours. You pulled him closer by the collar of his Hawaiian shirt, and he pressed your back against the wooden post. He smelled so good, you wanted to lick him.

"Hi," he said against your lips between kisses. He cupped your chin and tilted your face up a bit before placing teasing little kisses all over your lips. Then he let his hand trail up and down along the back of your neck, playing with your braided hair. You shivered from cold and anticipation. "Are you chilly?"

"A little bit."

"I'll keep you warm," he promised and took both of your hands in his. Then he wrapped them around his neck and moved so his large body was pressed against yours, heat rolling off him. He slowly rubbed his hands up and down your sides, warming you through the fabric of your dress and making your core ache with need. "Better?" he asked against your shoulder, tickling you with his mustache. 

"Much," you whimpered as he dragged his lips up along your neck, kissing your ear, forehead and the tip of your nose before returning to your lips.

You delved your tongue gently into his mouth, desperate to know how your favorite beer tasted on him. 

Good, it tasted very good.

He responded by digging his capable fingers a little harder into your hips. And now his tongue was in your mouth, tasting you.  You were almost seeing stars, you were so turned on. 

"Your skin is so soft," Bradley rasped as he ran his knuckles slowly across your collarbones and down a little lower, brushing the top of the swell of your breasts. Now his kisses were a little rougher, needier, but you still felt like he was worshipping you. "I'll bet you're soft everywhere."

Unable to keep control, you rubbed yourself gently against the front of his jeans. He was so hard. "Fuck, Sweetheart. Let's not go there tonight." 

"Why not?" you whined, completely lost to this man. 

"I can't really remember at the moment, but for some reason, it's not a good idea," he managed to say, bucking against you once and swallowing your moan with his mouth. Then he put a few inches of space between you so you could both catch your breath. He propped his forearm against the pillar above your head and you leaned back and looked at his face, bathed in moonlight. He was absolutely stunning.

A moment later, you could hear him softly laughing, and he tucked your braid behind your ear and stroked your neck. "I was planning on making you sweat it out for another day, but... do you want to go out with me? To Del Mar for dinner on Friday?"

"Yes."

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Part 7

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Mmm I feel like sage would be a pretty decent cook. Definitely not a professional tho. He can handle chopping and cleaning pretty well and make himself and/or tulsi some really delicious small meals but not something for a full on feast. He probably follows his impulses waayyy too much so a lot of the times he fucks up by adding some random ingredients just to see how it would taste together. Oh and adding beer to random shit, most likely learnt that one from balsam. He definitely starts eating small bits of whatever he's cooking along the way to if it's taking too long. ALSO SAGE LEARNING HOW TO MAKE YOURS AND TULSIS FAVOURITE FOOD AND BRINGING YOU SOME CAUSE THERE OH SO COINCIDENTALLY HAPPENED TO BE LEFTOVERS BOY OH BOY WOULD YOU LOOK AT THAT BETTER EAT UP Or he'll cry. You can be his taste tester!!!!!!!!!! UGH MY HEART-

LUCAN BAKES. THATS IT. THIS MOUNTAIN OF A MAN LIKES DECORATING CUPCAKES.

-egg anon (dumb bitch anon)

Sage is a great cook and I'll kill on that hill (/lh) but yes after much contemplation I can see your point, and now I have many thoughts about the griefers and cooking m.list

Now, comparing Sage and Balsam depends on which period of their lives we're talking about. As kids/teenagers Sage was probably the better cook; they had the bare minimum to work with and Sage knew how to make it work. He also had Tulsi (and probably Balsam) to take care of, and for her he's willing to go above and beyond. He might like his meat half-raw it could almost start breathing again, but Tulsi doesn't so he had to adjust to her tastes.

In fact his impulsiveness was probably his strongest point. Recipes are too boring for him to follow, but it was his spontaneity and willingness to try anything once that made him such a good, creative, and adaptable cook. He figured out what worked and what didn't through trial and error.

Further into adulthood, when Balsam got his own place, he was able to stock up the shelves with herbs and spices, and could peacefully experiment with cooking thus honing his skills. Probably better at following recipes than Sage, because he truly was lost at first when it came to cooking and needed all the help he could get.

I do agree he probably threw in a little beer or wine when he wanted to feel ✨spicy✨

So, ultimately, in the wild Sage is the better cook, but in the kitchen Balsam does better. The lack of many ingredients made it easier for Sage to experiment, whereas in a kitchen setting he might be overwhelmed with just how much stuff there is to work with. What do half of these tools even do?

That's where you can play the role of Sage's taste tester, maybe even cooking assistant. You guys are stuck in Fathom until this whole Griefers and corruption thing is resolved, and he's sick of Felix and Anisa's attempts at cooking. (I wouldn't immediately discredit Felix's potential but his tastes might be too specific for Sage.) So he starts experimenting in the kitchen, and your help would be most appreciated.

Starts small with the things he's already used to: frying eggs, meat and fish, and maybe the occasional vegetable, then he starts to branch out with all the different ways you can cook these things. Yes, you have to stop him several times from taking one too many bites of the food. He'll probably smear some of it on your face just for an excuse to kiss it off, or it can evolve into a food fight. You're surprised when he's the one to bring the fight to a stop, then he insists that food must not be wasted and that's when you understand.

Sage will scoff about how he doesn't care how the food comes out, "y'all can either eat it or find your own thing," but he does care, especially about your (and Tulsi's) opinions. His eyes are fixed to your face after he spoon-feeds you something, but he quickly averts his gaze when you catch him in the act. Please put his heart at ease and tell him it's great, or show him what might need fixing. Sage is surprisingly accepting of criticism when it comes to food.

Unless that criticism is coming from Felix, then Sage will tease him about how spoiled the bourgeoisie must be. Little does Felix know that Sage does keep all his little complaints in mind, not that he'd ever admit to it.

If anyone is more likely to flub a recipe it's probably Lucan. This man doesn't know his spices and what's even worse is it doesn't matter to him because he'll eat anything. Like Sage, he likes his beef raw and never had any reason to adjust to something different.

You'd probably have to introduce him to baking yourself. Then you'll have to keep stopping him from trying to shovel all the whipped cream into his mouth. This grown man can't resist a sugar high.

His favorite part is when the batter is in the oven and he can watch it rise, just... this mountain of a guy sitting cross-legged before the oven watching it like he's in a trance.

He keeps Elowen in mind when drawing cute kitty faces on cupcakes, because he knows his cool and stoic sister can't resist a cute kitty face. Elowen can't help it, though; her little brother will always be a baby to her and anything sweet that he does for her might make her tear up just a little.

[karezzasstuff]

From the project of interviewing Stanley S. Bass about his experiences with Karezza techniques, The Life Science Publishing created the 2008 book Energy-Karezza. Here Dr. Bass tells the story of how, in his 30’s, he was on his way to become a celibate yogi through Brahmacharya, when he learned about reaching the same spiritual goal via Karezza & Tantra. He decided to try Karezza instead.

Even though his personal goal was spiritual, Dr. Bass soon discovered that women loved Karezza, and couldn’t get enough. When he started teaching the improved Energy-Karezza method to couples with marital problems, the results were astounding. Usually, within weeks, the couple had fallen in love again. Problematic marriages healed, becoming more and more harmonious and stronger with time.

Over time, over 50+ years, he not only gained experience concerning every aspect of Karezza/Tantra, but also – thanks to his energy-understanding, being an orthopathic doctor – developed an improved, more powerful & easy-to-learn, version. Traditional “Karezza/Tantra” can be difficult for men, but “Energy-Karezza/Tantra” is easy, and also gives more pleasure & prolongation..

INTRODUCING OTHERS TO KAREZZA

Karezza is about one thing, the man has to control himself. It is so easy. I got so good at this control that I soon was able to go almost a whole year with no accidents. With very heavy sex - three times a week, four hours each session. It didn't take long to get to a high level of proficiency.

In a few months I was very good at it already.

It is very simple, it is natural. It is not difficult. Prove it for yourself, don't take my word for it. Try it out. The first time I heard about it, it was strange to me, so I tried it. It didn't take me long to get good at it. It was easier than I thought. In fact, I taught Karezza to a lot of friends, and everyone had success.

If one of them asked me, "how do I know if it will work?", I gave him a simple method of trying it. I usually said, "why don't you first try:

1. Don't have an orgasm quickly, but wait until the woman is finished, until she has had her enjoyment. Practice holding back for half an hour, for an hour, for several hours, if you can.

2. Then you'll see that your own orgasms are better; they are more enjoyable.

3. Also try having an orgasm only every other time you have sex.

Skipping one time. Every other time, try without orgasm. See how you feel."

With my sex students, those were my instructions, to begin with. These instructions summarize basic traditional Karezza. But these simple instructions could still be difficult for some men. They lost control (ejaculated) early, and were never able to do Karezza for a full hour.

Therefore, to make it easier, I gave my students some Energy-Karezza secrets. I asked them to improve their diet, and to avoid alcohol and all drugs. I told them not to eat before sex, because a man can not control himself after he has eaten. Why? Because then too much blood goes to the stomach.

Also, I gave very detailed instructions on the best movements in sex. I told them to move slowly, and explained how to move, so they wouldn't get too excited, e.g. sideways, in semicircles, avoiding the in-out moves.

For the premature ejaculators, I told them to give up salt, and to not use anything spicy hot, avoid hot peppers, stay away from spices, because this throws them out of control. And then I told them to use certain motions, slow motions, that makes it easy to control oneself. That's all.

Then the women will get the pleasure, because the men are controlling themselves.

For some men the pleasure was so overwhelming that they were still unable to control themselves very long, more than perhaps 45 minutes, even if their diet was good and they had high vitality. In these cases I think the solution is just doing it over and over. Sometimes men, just like women, may need saturation with lots of high-pleasure peak orgasms, before they can start with serious self-control and higher-pleasure valley orgasms. It may take months, but in the end they will get there.

I myself was never overly concerned with the clitoris or the G-spot, because the Karezza was so enjoyable and I was so good at it that a woman couldn't hold out long. If they wanted to have an orgasm, they could have it quick. Women enjoyed it.

The women were very happy. After beginning Karezza, it became unnecessary to calculate all this stuff. I never had to actually figure it out.

All I did was to function naturally, the way I felt like, without thinking about it. And it was right, for every woman. If one gets too mechanical about it, one becomes a dud. Then it is not real. Real sex has nothing to do with the brain, it has to do with feelings, true feelings and movement.

That's all. The brain is not needed.

From page 45 the Technique to Paradise.

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YAB YUM

What are you experiencing?

~ by yab yum

Be patient. At first you can't experience the orgasmic part of this process. Some get it on their first try and for some it can take years. Keep practicing with the exercise your teacher gives you. Even if you don't experience the orgasm, just the breath and energy circling alone is of great value. It will clear blocks so that eventually the orgasm can pass through you. Blocks can be experienced in many ways – crying, gagging, getting frustrated, resurfacing old memories. Just keep breathing. Visualize letting go of the "old" on the exhale, ringing out the "new" on the inhale. Energy levels will most likely rise and fall, like mercury in a thermometer. Tell your partner where it slipped. Your partner will encourage you to tap into your sexual center when energy is slipping. One of the main keys to learning this technique is KNOWING that it is possible.

(When asked if she had an orgasm, Sara responded 🙂

It was uninterrupted, uninterrupted… This was definitely something else, which I have never experienced so fully.

(Sara was then asked if there were any psychological changes.)

Oh yes, sure. From the point of view of spiritual practice it is always full of insight, a kind of insight that comes after, about how I am in ecstasy in my usual state, because it is obvious that the ecstasy is inherent in the body (level), of my being… and also of course this would affect my meditation. I am much more relaxed and receptive physically, emotionally and psychologically when I sit down to meditate…. I don't know what this has to do with anything, but meditation becomes very sexual, very physical, playing with all these hormones. Very often in my meditation there is a stage like deepening where it goes through something like lovemaking in a hormonal sense. I feel the heat and change of energy and so forth, and then it just cools down. That is when deep meditation begins.

It is absolutely blissful in ecstasy because the bliss is something I feel in the body. The ecstasy is something where the body is no longer. Energy goes up. His community. It is love. The transcendent, the energy feeling, transcends even the light that I'm talking about in meditation, and just went into the light.

One tree merges with another tree, the earth merges with the trees, the trees merge with the sky, the sky merges with the unknown...you merge with me, I merge with you...everything merges...differences lost, melting and merging as waves into other waves…an enormous unity vibrating, alive, without limits, without definitions, without distinction…the sage melting into the sinner, the sinner flowing together in the sage…becoming good becoming bad, becoming bad…the night turning into the day, day turning into night… life melts into death, death plunges into life again – then everything has become one.

This has changed my experience with sexuality forever… It has blown up things like this what you have about sex, the good feeling you get from sexual experience or trying to get. It broke that because it was so obviously about submission. It wasn't about me trying to do something. It was about not doing something, but rather receiving or allowing it, rather than doing and creating and making.

This is the most profound healing practice I have ever encountered. It has awakened me to realize that my body is often shut off from the bliss and ecstasy it might be experiencing. Through this practice I have come to learn that emotional pain occurs when orgasmic energy does not flow freely through my body and that there is an infinite flow of orgasmic energy available to me. It has taken me years to gradually release the tension and pain in my body and I still have areas of tension to unblock. The sensations can be different each time depending on my condition, sometimes there is a pulsating vibration and sometimes it feels like some kind of electrical current circulating through my genitals throughout my body. There may be tears of joy. My mind can be perfectly clear and it can seem like everything I feared has been resolved. When a certain area of ​​tension is unblocked and the orgasmic energy circulates, there is always an amazing sense of oneness with the life being awakened.

Mel 40 Auckland

My teacher knew how to touch – and where to make contact – He knew places to touch that I didn't know about – and soon I was on my way to another place in another universe. I was in a trance of breathing and sweat and pleasure that so long and so dead do had gone – that I traveled through light and sound. I never knew that such an experience could be had without actually making love. When I finally climaxed and climaxed and climaxed, I couldn't believe I was having a sexual climax in the presence of someone other than my husband. I felt both excitement and a little embarrassment. Looking back at this moment, I would never have thought that having an orgasm for another man would actually be the "beginning" of this whole journey in Tantra

Emma S 35

Auckland

And this is the joy of Cosmic Spiritual Orgasm, because you disappear for a moment. That moment is very small, but its impact is immense. For a moment you are no longer the ego, you do not think in terms of 'I', for a moment you dissolve into the oneness of the all, you become one with the whole, you pulsate with the whole. You are no longer an individual… you are no longer limited to your body. You have no limitations, for a moment you are unlimited, infinite.

That is the meaning of Cosmic Spiritual Orgasm – that your frozen energy melts, becoming one with this universe, with the trees and the stars, and the woman and the man, and the rocks – for a single moment, of course. But in THAT moment you have a kind of consciousness that is religious, that is sacred, that is one with all things. – OSHO

Unbelievable! Some are very strong and some are wonderfully subtle. In general, the more time you spend building up the energy, the more powerful the sensations. You experience “electricity” throughout your body, hands, feet and lips tingle, and there is a sense of letting go and receiving at the same time. You will feel high, euphoric and light-headed. It feels very different from a clitoral orgasm (but it can happen at the same time as a clitoral orgasm). You see a seed sprout, flowers appear on a tree somewhere, the birds are singing – the whole phenomenon is sexual. It is life manifesting in many ways. When the bird sings, it is a sexual call, an invitation. When the flower attracts butterflies and bees, it is an invitation, because the bees and butterflies bear the seeds of reproduction. Everything seems to be divided into these two polarities. And life is a rhythm between these two opposites. Repulsion and attraction, coming closer and getting far… these are the rhythms.

Z

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15, 18, & 36 pls :D

ty sweetie! 😘

15. Do you write in the margins of your books? Dog-ear your pages? Read in the bath? Why or why not? Do you judge people who do these things? Can we still be friends?

not frequently ever & probs not at all since i was a student; no im a bookmarker & i smoke so i generally always have a scrap of card or paper; yes. um bc why would you, why would you, & why wouldnt you. and no i don't really judge on the first two, books are made to be read!! i might get judgey if it was MY book if it was a special pristine copy (more over the writing in than dog earing). and YES, yes we can 😊

18. Choose a passage from your writing. Tell me about the backstory of this moment. How you came up with it, how it changed from start to end. Spicy addition: Questioner provides the passage.

ooof! Choices 🤯 OK, I'm going to go for the opening scene of do you like drugs (tonight) bc it wasn't there to start with!

I've unearthed the Notebook, where the story originally started with the second scene:

I got two pages in before I was like NO -- this was how I'd envisaged the story starting but it didn't feel like it was working, I wanted to peel back and set it up properly (and not have to keep explaining how they got here when I could just start the story a little earlier).

You can see I just gave up with an ellipsis ha:

& then the next page is the real ~asterisked in first scene instead.

I'm going to cheat a bit and not go for the whole scene, and instead pick out a couple of (annie-centric) paras:

i. what eventually became the opening: "“So,” Annie says, shimmying her upper body the oblique way that makes those lengthening waves surge at her shoulders. “Given any more thought to the motorbike?”"

ii. and another one a bit further on: "“How is, uh, Steaming Spas doing?” Annie prolongs, thumbs hooking on belt loops. Something about her stance suggests she’s about to whip an apple from thin air to start chewing slow; as if settling for surveillance, rooted to the ground where she stands in front of the desk."

Which ended up being some of my fave bits & neither of which were really there in the first pass:

You can (maybe?) see 'originally' she was saying that first line with some impressive brow-waggling, then there's an addendum that she's shimmying, moving her hair, and then there's another one that she crunches down on an apple from god knows where, as well as something about annie shimmying (?) with finger guns in the margin. And the whole motorbike thread got added in up top.

I love being able to to throw things down & trust that future me will sort it out 😂🙏 particularly for stuff like motion which can be difficult to capture in words. and I like how the apple eating became theoretical rather than actual! I also like how what was the new opening got split into the first line, and then another bit (13 paras in I make it!) -- collating & splitting is one of my fave parts of editing!

This was quite a hard fic to write, or especially to begin properly, cos it was my first/only promptfill and my mind had been spinning in different directions for how to address it, which made it a different experience to how I normally plan a story, plus I was experiencing growing pains and general hubris re assuming I could knock something short out (instead it's almost 20k).

I also don't think I was originally planning for there to be so much annie, mick, Ruby, stan -- not that there's a huge amount but it was a kinkfest prompt so I was intending for it to be quite narrowly focused. But I actually really like the balance, and particularly the almost bookending of the real life scenes at the beginning and the end (beth + annie at work; Beth talking to Ruby & stan into her getting home) vs the relaxed bubble of the night, as well as the contrast in Beth's povs there re ~relaxing 😊

36. They say to Write What You Know. Setting aside for a moment the fact that this is terrible advice...what do you Know?

im not sure i agree that it's terrible advice, actually! i think it can be, mm, misapplied/misinterpreted though?

Bc first of all you can learn/know new things!! Research is real!!!

But also bc I tend to think of this as meaning more hm, write the emotional truth? You can put characters in situations you've not experienced and thus might not 'Know' but if you know the emotions they're experiencing, you can know what you're playing with, you know? 🤔

Anyhoo what do I know... A lot of trivia, ~emotional intelligence, how I like to treated as (an) audience, basic re/search skills, the benefits of self/reflection, the word autoscopy

Weird Questions for Writers (because writers are weird)

[a-pretty-nerd]

Tomura Shigaraki x AllMight!Daughter!Reader

Chapter 9

Premis:

When The League of Villains discovers that AllMight has a daughter, they are quick to snatch you up and hold you hostage. Shigaraki had a careful and thought out plan, but that was before you got there. Now you’re in the mood for some not-so-healthy rebellion.

Word count: 2,756

Warnings: Cursing

A/N:

Oh dear lord I'm slow at getting these out. Life's been kickin' my ass lately. But thank you to everyone who's been giving me feedback on my stuff, I really love to hear from you guys!

Taglist: 

(So sorry, I forgot when I originally posted!) 

@craftybean13 @babayaga67 @imjustverable

@bat-eclecticwolfbouquet-love

@kamenoyaki @hentaiqween101 @skzero-99 @justanotherlifeff

@witch-o-memes​

Chapter 8 Chapter 10

Two months. You've been "missing" for two months now. The days flew by, your time occupied by quirk training Shigaraki insisted on but never told you why. The times you tried to ask he'd brush it off, or say something like:

"So you don’t throw another fit." His words were harsh but he said them with a flat and bored tone. Like it was a poorly acted line.

So now you had better control. You could move things on command, you knew basic combat, you certainly knew how to kick Dabi's ass by now, that didn't take too long. You were being allowed more and more freedom. Even allowed to leave for a convenience store runs with Toga once or twice. No one policed you, told you what you could and could not do anymore. You could have easily ran away by now. You supposed they really didn't need you either. For their plan to work all they would need was some blood and Toga could easily pass as you.

That idea sent a shiver down your spine. You're sure Shigaraki has thought of that already, so why hadn't he? Why was he training you? Would he use your quirk against the heroes in some way? Was he grooming you to turn and fight your father? You wouldn't. No matter what you wouldn't fight your father. Would you? You shook yourself of this thought as you walked down the ally to the back door of the hide out.

Toga unlocked the door and you stepped in, greeted by a dark and dingy back room. You made your way through the dark halls, following closely behind her as she led you up the stairs that finally led to the parts of the building with power. Soon you found yourself walking to the familiar living space where a few people rested. Dabi laid himself out on one of the couches, Spinner sat fiddling with his burner phone, and Twice had started yelling at the TV before you arrived.

"Luuuunch!" Toga shouted. Toga was often used as the errand girl, she brought back necessary supplies, oftentimes food. Today Toga asked you to tag along and help out, and there wasn't a single objection to the hostage going out on the town. You sat the heavy bags down on the coffee table, taking out the contents as you spoke.

"Where are the others?" You asked.

"Mr. Compress was sent on an errand of his own. And Shigaraki's probably pouting in his room. He'll come out when he's hungry." Dabi groaned as he took his meal from your hand.

"Oh. I'll just bring it to him." You said, absent-minded. All eyes turned to you, looking confused and shocked. "What?" You asked.

"Nothing! It's just-"

"He doesn't like to be disturbed." Toga and Twice spoke. You paused and looked at the box in your hand. It would get cold if he didn't eat soon, and besides, none of you had had much to eat lately, you were sure he was hungry. You knew you were.

"I'll just leave it at the door and knock. It'll get cold and then he'll be in an even worse mood." You told them. They watched you turn and walk up the stairs to his "room". You stood in front of the door, with such thin walls you could hear furious typing on the other side. Loud clicking of a mouse, and the sound of a computer's fan. You took a deep breath and softly knocked on the door. Suddenly the sounds abruptly stopped, followed by a bark.

"What!?"

"Foods here." You called back. You heard footsteps on the other side growing louder and louder until the door flew open. You stared up at the tall man as he looked down on you. His hair hung over his face, his eyes hardly visible. Your heart rate quickened the longer you looked at him. What the hell is wrong with you?

"Give it to me." He held out his hand, his pinky holding out in preparation to receive the box.

"You said you liked spice stuff, right?" You asked as you placed it in his hand.

"Yeah."

"We got you their spicy special. I hope it's not too much. The sign said 'caution' on it." He scoffed at you, turning the box and looking at the writing on it. He fell very quiet. Inspecting the box, you suddenly worried that something was wrong with it. That maybe you'd messed up somehow. But before your anxiety could reach its peak-

"Thank you." His voice was low and soft. You could hardly hear him. Then before you could respond he closed the door and left you alone again. Did he really say that? You never heard him say that to anyone. Granted, you hardly knew him but still, the way he said it, it made you feel... special in some way. You shook yourself from your train of thought and shuffled down the hallway, pausing when you heard movement and the door to Shigaraki's room open. You froze.

"Wait a minute." He barked. You turned too look at him. He hung out of the doorway to stare at you.

"W-What?" You asked. Shigaraki had a way of making people feel like they were in trouble. His ability to easily become an authority figure was something you were beginning to understand now.

"You...went out?" You nodded. He paused and looked away, his eyes shifting as the gears spun in his head. He turned back into his room as he spoke, "come here for a second." He asked. You slowly made your way to his room, the door left wide for you to peak inside. A dark room lit by portable light fixtures and a laptop computer which sat on an old desk. A cot thrown to the corner covered by the same old and tattered blankets the rest of you had.

"Am I... in trouble?" You croaked.

"What? No. Close the door behind you, you'll let in a draft." He ordered, seeming genuinely confused by your question. You closed the door behind you, leaving you completely alone with him in his space. Your heart raced.

You watched him turn and look up at the wall which he had decorated with plans. Pictures of heroes and villains cut out and pinned. Newspaper clippings, printed out articles and research essays. He was planning something, but what it was was difficult to determine. You did notice however, a cut out of an empty figure with your name on it pinned to the center of it all. You stared at it for a second before he broke you from your train of thought.

"Well?"

"Huh!?"

"What do you think?" He asked. His attention turned to his meal, he picked at it, taking a few bites.

"Of what?"

"...the plan." You looked back at the wall, puzzled you tried your best to gain any sort of information from it. Only being able to find bits and pieces. You knew it involved you, your father, and the take down of hero society. A cut out piece of article said something about the rise of villains, that more and more people were turning to villain work. How those rates have a correlation with classes. You slowly turned back to look at him.

"I'm sorry you're gonna have to explain this to me." You told him. He rolled his eyes and stood, directing his attention to his work as he spoke.

"This is the second part of the plan."

"What was the first?"

"Taking you as a hostage."

"Right. But, didn't you say the plan was to expose the heroes after they weren't able to rescue me and not only expose the faulty heroes but also my father as a neglectful and flawed individual not worthy of the hero title?" He paused.

"Yes."

"But that didn't go as planned."

"....."

"Didn't you say something about making a video to broadcast outing myself as All Might's daughter and causing panic? What happened to that plan?"

"It became leverage. If they attempt to come for you, then we'll go with that. But if we do that now, they'll come for you now and we'll be forced to fight."

"Isn't a fight...a good thing? You'd get news coverage and You'd no doubt gain supporters."

"Normally it would. But a fight isn't what we need right now. The heroes have us surrounded. If we make any move at all, we're in their hands. We won't be able to win."

"Not even with your quirk? Couldn't you-"

"Not with everyone here. As strong as I've gotten, I'm not strong enough to keep them from getting swept up and dusted too."

"Right."

"We're in a tight spot. One wrong move and we'll be wiped out."

"What about your supporters? Couldn't you get help from the outside."

"I could, but the heroes would see it coming. They have our signal tapped. Any sort of communication has to be verbal or written."

"Homing pigeon?" You offered. It made him smirk.

"Right now we're like a fox trapped in its own hole by hunters."

"So... we dig?" That made him smile, wide.

"Dig. If we could smuggle ourselves out of the city, we could reach a clear spot where we can call for backup to get us."

"Why not send one person to smuggle themselves out? Toga could easily disguise herself and leave."

"They have a barrier."

"What?"

"Part of the city is closed off until further notice. They know exactly where we are. If one gets out, they won't hesitate to come for all of us. We all have to get out at once and they can't notice until it's too late."

"But how the hell are you gonna do that?" His smile widened. He looked truly excited and happy. For the first time you saw your capture seem truly excited about something.

"We have a few secret recruits in the city. Spies." He turned his attention back to his meal box, reaching in to pull out the inner box that held the food, to reveal a piece of paper sitting underneath in the flimsy take out box. "I didn't know they were letting you out of the base now." He spoke as he opened and read the note within the box.

"I thought, you knew. I thought you were the one that said I could. Dabi said it was fine." He read the note and stood to pin it up on the wall before speaking.

"I've been too busy with this to worry about you. You shouldn't believe everything that Dabi says. I told him to make sure you just don't have another episode and cause a scene before we leave. I thought assigning him babysitting duty would keep him busy." He chuckled. "There's just one thing I don't understand." He turned back to you. "Why didn't you leave?"

"I...I..."

"You had the opportunity, but you're still here. Why?" You froze. Why? Why didn't you run?

"I was scared I'd be killed." You lied. He laughed at you.

"Don't lie to me. You lost that fear a long time ago. You know that's not true. If I wanted you dead I would have killed you a long time ago."

"You've kept me alive to use me as bate. To, to expose the truth." You argued.

"With Toga, we wouldn't need to." You swallowed hard. You knew he had thought about this.

"I'll tell you why I stayed, if you tell me why you've been training me." He scoffed.

"To keep you busy, to keep you from having another episode."

"That doesn't make sense. You could have drugged me, killed me, you said it yourself. But you kept me alive, you kept me busy. You could have kept me on my meds, unable to use it at all but you insisted I learn my quirk. You trained me yourself. Why?" His smile faded and his expression became dark.

"I asked you first." He growled. You looked away from him and thought for a moment before gaining the strength to answer. You knew the truth for a while now. You never wanted to say it out loud. You refused to look at him as you spoke.

"I don't wanna go back. But you probably already knew that by now. You just wanted to hear me say it, huh?" His smirk returned.

"Had a hunch." He snickered.

"Now you answer me."

"Why don't you wanna go back?"

"We had a deal. Answer my question now." You barked at him. It took him a long pause. A full minute of waiting in silence felt like agony.

"I thought it would help you feel better." He muttered in a surprisingly husky tone. "Keep you from asking me to dust you again." That's right, during your episode...

"I'm sorry." You blurted.

"What?"

"I'm sorry I... I asked you to kill me." You hid your face from him. He shifted and crossed his arms across his chest.

"It's not a big deal, I dust people all the time."

"No, I know. But like, I can't imagine being asked to by someone having a fucking break down happens all the time too. I kinda...kinda put you in a shitty position." When you looked up, he looked confused. Comically so. "What?"

"I took you hostage." He reminded you. You couldn't help but chuckle, that made him more confused.

"Shit, yeah, you're right. Guess I shouldn't be so hard on myself huh?" He looked away. "Still. My intentions weren't to upset you."

"You didn't upset me."

"It seems like I upset you." You toyed. His guard was down, he was vulnerable, and allowing you to be there.

"Shut up. You didn't answer my other question!" He shouted in an almost playful tone. You couldn't help but smile, only to have it slowly fade as you thought about your second answer.

"I don't want to go back because..." you stopped, the words getting stuck in your throat. You were unable to speak. He looked down at you, waiting for an answer. He seemed almost relaxed. He seemed normal. Like a normal guy leaning against the wall of his bedroom with his arms folded across his chest. Your eyes wandered up to his scarred neck, bright red scabs forming. Inflamed and fresh. He had recently scratched at it again, clearly in an upset state too. When he blinked you got a clear view of the scarring around his eyes.

"Boss!" A familiar voice shouted from outside the door. "Boss!" Before you could move the door was thrown open, Spinner's wide eyes finding you standing there. He shook his confusion loose before turning back to Shigaraki who quickly changed his position to attention. "Come quick!"

You followed him back to the living space where the old television sat. The news playing loudly as everyone gathered around to watch in panic. Swat teams and heroes decorated the screen as shot after shot showed them surrounding your building. Fear ran from your toes to your head, making you feel nauseous and dizzy. Shit. Shit. Shit. They're here for you. But you...you weren't ready to leave. And what about-

"Not again! - We can take 'em'!" Twice shouted at it like a sport was playing.

"Tomura, what are we going to do!?" Toga asked, frantically bobbing up and down in panic. He watched the TV intently listening in.

"After receiving a tip from an anonymous source, police and heroes found missing tourist Y/L/N Y/N being held captive by The League of Villains in this abandoned office building. Officials are working now to safely rescue the hostage."

Suddenly a loud voice was heard both on TV and through the halls of the building.

"League of Villains. We have you surrounded. Please let Y/L/N go and no one will be hurt." A cop shouted through a megaphone.

"C'mon Shigaraki, what's the plan?" Dabi asked, clearly starting to get uncomfortable. Before Shigaraki could respond, you spoke.

"Well, looks like this is it for me." You began walking away, only to be stopped by a strong, four-fingered grip pulling you back.

"Where do you think you're going!?" He growled.

"The jig is up, Shigaraki! Let me go! I'm not useful anymore. All they want is me, if I'm out of your hair you'll be able to escape easier." His grip tightened, pulling you closer as his red eyes bore into yours.

"So long as you're here they won't dare make a move. You're still my most valuable player. You're staying right here."

[writemywaytoyourheart]

BTS Reaction: You having a panic attack | Maknae Line

Requested: yes ❤️ thanks for the request love!

a/n: here's the second part to the panic attack reaction! Hope you guys like it :)) -chip

Genre: angst-ish, fluff

Warnings: panic attacks, car accident and catcalling. Nothing too severe but if that triggers you don't read!

PARK JIMIN:

an anGEL

"TO THE STORE!!! WOOHOO!!" Jimin cheers and runs down the steps leading from your apartment, jumping off at the last few steps and landing on the ground gracefully before sprinting to the car. You hurry down the stairs and laugh at him, sending him a big smile when you see him watching you happily from the side of the car.

Jimin always gets excited when you two have movie night. Whether it's the movie, spending time with you, or the snacks; you still can't figure it out. You climb into the driver's seat, buckling your seatbelt and turning to your boyfriend, "ok, seatbelt on?" He nods and pulls on the belt strapped around him to prove it to you. You laugh and shake your head, turning on the radio and plugging your phone in.

"Music?" Jimin pumps his fists in the air at your question.

"Yessss!"

~

The two of you make it to the store, and run around collecting all the goodies you can't wait to stuff your face with. Jimin has a little basket and is grabbing chips, popcorn, and spicy snacks. You fill your basket with different candy, cookies and ice cream. Then, the both of you meet up and buy everything, lugging it to the car and settling back in your seats.

"Woooo, that was a lot." You flop in your chair and pull the buckle around you. Jimin pulls his on as well and nods, "yeah, there will be no shortage of snacks tonight!" You two laugh and you plug your phone in; handing it to Jimin and giggling at his surprised face.

"You can pick the music. As long as it isn't something you know I hate." He nods and gently takes the phone, scrolling through the options.

You're driving down the road, singing along with Jimin to the song blasting through the speakers; when the car in front of you swerves a little to the right. It straightens out, but now you're nervous anyway. Jimin makes a 'hm' sound and you see him shift in his seat.

"That car has done that a couple times, actually." Jimin speaks up and your palms start to sweat. Was the driver drunk? Hurt? Tired? Just not paying attention? Your mind starts to think up all the worst case scenarios, then you feel Jimin's hand on your thigh. He pats it and says softly, "it's alright y/n, just stay a safe distance behind him and we'll be fine." Yes. Yes, he's right. If you keep your cool, no matter what the person in front of you does; you'll be fine. You take a few deep breaths in and let them out slowly, keeping a distance between you and the swerving car. If there's one person you trust, it's Jimin. If he says you're fine, then you're fine. Jimin smiles at you and pats your thigh again, "good job baby, see? Nothing's gonna happen. Just hope he pulls over soon." You nod in agreement.

After a couple minutes, the car seems to be going straight again, but you're still uneasy. Jimin shifts again and mumbles, "is there a number we can call to give them a heads up that someone is driving that maybe shouldn't be?" You shrug but keep your eyes on the road, "I'm not sure. But I don't trust this guy-"

At the same second you say that; the car in front swerves off the road, almost turning in a complete circle and you scream, slamming on the breaks and just missing colliding with the vehicle.

You and Jimin lurch forward in your seats; the belts restraining you and slamming you back into place. Thankfully, the airbags didn't explode and you both seem to be fine. Your breathing picks up and you start to cry, your hands shaking and struggling to unbuckle yourself. Jimin unbuckles and quickly reaches to your side to undo your seatbelt.

"Hey, hey baby it's okay. Calm down, y/n." You can't though. Your nerves are absolutely shot and now all you can see is dust in front of the car, obscuring your view of the other driver.

Once Jimin is sure you didn't bang your head too bad, he hops out and runs to the other car. You can't see anything, but your body is frozen jn place and won't let you get out of the car. A minute later Jimin comes into view; his phone to his ear while he nods and speaks to someone on the other side. Your boyfriend walks to your side and opens your door just as he hangs up, "come here, baby. It's alright. Everyone is okay." He pulls you into a gentle hug and let's you cry it out on his shoulder.

"Just breathe deep, babygirl. You did the right thing, everything is okay." After a minute of just crying, you pull your head up and wipe your eyes, "how is he? Is the other driver okay?" Jimin nods and pushes your hair back from your eyes.

"He's okay. He didn't get enough sleep last night I guess. He's shaken up and extremely regretful, but he doesn't have any serious injuries. The police will be here soon to get everything sorted out." You nod again and Jimin smiles softly, lifting your chin to look him in the eyes, "hey now, you did great. I'm so proud of you." Jimin knows you suffer from anxiety and it took a huge amount of strength to keep your cool. You hesitate, then give him a small smile.

"After this is all figured out, I'll drive home. We'll continue movie night and forget this happened, okay?"

"Thanks Jiminie."

"I'm so proud, and I love you, y/n."

"Love you too."

KIM TAEHYUNG:

mHm, yAs, wHo sAid yOu cOuld LoOk liKe thAt?

"You ready, cutie?" Taehyung opens the car door as you're flinging your purse over your shoulder and skipping to the door he's opened for you.

"Yes, I am! Thanks, baby." You hop in the car and Tae shuts the door with a big boxy smile on his face. He gets in on his side and shuts the door, rubbing his hands together and turning towards you, "alrighty! So, downtown?" You nod enthusiastically and he giggles while putting the car into gear.

~

Tae hurries out of his side so he can open the door for you; which makes your heart positively melt. You pat his arm and smile at him when you hop out, "thank you, you're such a gentleman." You kiss his cheek and he tries to hide the blush creeping up his cheeks by staring at the ground.

"N-no problem." Then your fiance links his arm in yours and you two are off. You both love to shop, so you go in and out of lots of stores before stopping to grab a bite to eat. After lunch, you see a pair of tan heels in the window of a store and stop to look at them. Tae didn't notice and kept walking for a few paces before turning and realizing you had stopped. He laughs at you staring into the window longingly; then he starts walking back to you. Right before he reaches you, he hears some random man call out to you.

"Hey beautiful! Looking good."

You turn at the sound of the voice, seeing that Tae had kept walking and some man was looking you up and down. There's a sinking feeling in your stomach and you turn to walk away when he calls out again, "you not gonna say 'thank you', babygirl?" You pick up your speed when you see Tae walking towards you with a look of murder on his face.

"What a shame, I woulda liked to-" the man says some inappropriate stuff that you try to block out. You reach Tae and he grabs you by the arm and pulls you to him. You stumble into his chest and try not to panic. You can feel how tense he is and when he goes to move toward the guy you hold him back, "Tae, please. Please, let's just get out of here. Please, Tae." You're starting to tear up, scared that the man is gonna try to start something with your fiance and you just want to leave. Tae's shoulders drop when he feels your panicked grip on his shirt.

"You're a piece of trash. No wonder all you do is sit on the street and catcall girls. You couldn't get a date if you paid someone. Pathetic." Taehyung spits at the man and turns to gently drag you away.

"T-thank you, Taetae." Your voice is quivering and he pulls you into a nearby store before enveloping you in his strong arms. "Are you okay, darling?" You nod, but contrary to your actions you burst into tears and choked breaths. Taehyung shushes you and holds you close, petting your hair and rocking you back and forth.

"Hey, how about some boba tea?" He says after a little while, then he laughs at the way your watery eyes start to shine at his suggestion. You nod and he wipes your tears away, "no need to fret baby, I won't let anyone touch you." You hug him again and listen to the sound of his heartbeat; it's strong and steady, calming you down almost instantly.

A week later you find a box with a note from him. The note reads: Just a little present for my one and only girl <3

You smile and set the note down gently before opening the box; gasping and rolling your eyes when you see the tan heels you wanted that day.

JEON JUNGKOOK:

yEaH let's not talk about this gif. Bc I'm dead mofo.

It came out of nowhere honestly, you have no idea why it happened....

You and Jungkook are on his bed, he's on his back scrolling through his phone and you're laying on your stomach with your head on his tummy. You were extremely tired earlier when he asked you to come over but you missed him so much so you decided to just relax with him, that way you could still spend time together.

Jungkook giggles, which causes his tummy to jiggle; making your head move since it's lying right on his stomach. You laugh and open one eye to peek up at him, "what're you laughing about up there?" he looks over the top of his phone down at you and smiles before cooing at you, "hi sleepyhead, get a good nap?" You nod against his abdomen and cuddle closer to him, "I guess, if you can call fifteen minutes a good nap." He nods, running his fingers through your hair then flips his phone around for you to look at while he massages your head, "this is what I was laughing about. You can go back to sleep if you want sweetie, I'm not going anywhere." You look at the meme on his phone that Taehyung sent him and giggle at it then you stuff your face back into his belly and give it a big kiss. Jungkook squirms and laughs out loud, "stoooop~ it's tickling!" You smile and lie back down, closing your eyes. You feel Jungkook brushing your forehead softly.

That's when it hits you. Suddenly your chest is tight and you squeeze your eyes shut, willing it to go away. You breathe in and out deeply, but it just gets worse from there. You feel your palms get sweaty and the thought that someone is going to hurt you jumps into your brain so quick you can't catch it in time to logically figure it out.

You sit bolt upright, startling Jungkook, grabbing your chest in an attempt to help the air go in. Jungkook sits up quickly and reaches out for your hand. He knows exactly what's going on, even if he doesn't know what has triggered it. You don't mean to, but you're panicking at this point, so you yank your hand out of his roughly and stumble off the bed. Jungkook watches you in alarm, seeing you start to sob and shake right in front of him, and not knowing a single thing to do about it.

"I- I ca- I can't-" your breaths are super short and your sobs are choking you, not letting you get enough air in to speak. You start to fold in on yourself, the horrible feeling that someone is right there about to kill you taking over your mind. At this point Jungkook is off the bed, mind turning round and round to figure out what to do. Then he wraps his arms around you, sinking to the floor slowly alongside you as you cower to the ground. You both sit on the floor and you can hear Jungkook saying something, you don't know what, but the sound of his voice is breaking through the blur of panic.

You mentally grab onto his voice while he rocks you back and forth, telling yourself over and over that it's okay. You hear little fragments of what he's saying, things like, "my baby's okay. You're perfectly safe my love. No one can hurt you. You're okay babygirl. My baby is so strong. It's just you and me, love. Nobody but you and me."

Eventually your sobs have stopped. Jungkook keeps rocking you, back and forth while you two sit on his bedroom floor. When you come to, you realize he's started to sing to you.

His voice is breaking slightly due to his tears, but you can't see his face. His heart breaks for you every time this happens, and he wishes he could take it all away.

Your breaths are slow and calm now, the tears on your face just a sticky reminder of what just happened.

When Jungkook feels your breathing slow down, he pulls back and smiles gently at you. You look like a mess with your hair sticking to your face and a red, runny nose sniffling. Jungkook kisses your nose and softly wipes under your eyes, then he pulls his sleeve over his palm and gently dabs under your nose to clean you up.

"There you go, baby." He whispers and keeps smiling while fixing your face up. You curl back into his chest and he wraps his arms around you, continuing the song where he left off.

"Take my hands now, you are the cause of my euphoria."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

a/n 2.0: I hate Tumblr. The end.

[dayasbun]

Fame - Angus Cloud (4)

Summary- a luckily timed audition leads to you falling for your new and unexpected co-star.

Warnings- okay HI welcome to my first multi chapter series woah?! this is actually so exciting for me like wow especially since angus doesn’t have any fics yet im just really really excited- so warnings! smut for sure, bad words, lotsa fluff, angst- everything in one basically. here comes a ride and I hope you enjoy :)

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4 {reading now}

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“Fuck right there- Oh my god please-” You moaned holding his hair. “You never had anyone eat your pussy like this before right?” he said eating deeper as you moaned and squirmed. “Only you baby, this pussy is only you-”

“Yo wake the fuck up, you making weird noises and shit.”

You sat up taking in a deep breath and inspected your surroundings. There stood a worried Angus with a mug in his hand. “I'm fine...” you said quite unconvincingly.

“You sure? I went to make you some tea and came back to you rolling around and groaning and shit, thought that strange netflix monster had come to you or sum.”

“The demogorgan-”

“Yeah that shit!” He sat next to you on the edge of the bed. “Nightmare?” he asked softly as he handed you the tea.

“Well not exactly...” You took the warm mug and took in a long swig of the warm goodness. It's not like you were just going to openly tell him ‘Oh no, I just had a dream about you eating me out and I loved every second of it.’ “Actually yeah, a nightmare.” you lied.

“I hate those, what was yours about?”

“I...a monster ate me alive and I couldn't stop it.”

Angus shook his head. “Damn mamas, I’m sorry. Those suck, I know its like 2 pm, but let’s eat some breakfast and try to forget about it.”

You nodded standing up and stretching “Thanks...for the tea.”

“Of course, don’t girls love tea? Ion know, I don't really be sleeping with girls that often.” He chuckled walking into the small kitchen.

“Tea is amazing!” You exclaimed, following him and sitting on the counter. “I love tea in all seasons, it has so many benefits.”

“Yeah? What’s some of them benefits.”

“Well green tea has amazing antioxidants, and is a more naturally caffeinated drink than coffee- with not as many negative results. But don't get me wrong, I really do love my coffee- anyway! Tea can help straighten and strengthen bones, brighten your smile, and help you lose weight!!”

“Oh wow.” He laughed “I didn't even care about all that tea shit, just wanted to hear your voice. But it was actually kinda interesting.”

“Yeah- and don't worry about a lack of my voice, I never shut up.”

“You right about that; but before you get all defensive, its aight. I like hearing you blab off about random stuff ion care about.”

You felt your face grow hot as you stifled a giggle that wanted to come out. “Thank you. I think I talk too much, but hey, can't really stop it y’know?” Angus nodded as he cracked 5 eggs into a pan. “You just be going off about stuff- actually you was sleep talking a little bit.”

Fuck.

“Yeah? What was I saying?” you asked innocently, hoping he didn't say what he was most definitely about to say.

“Well it was when you had that nightmare. Was the monster a cow or sum? Cuz you kept saying ‘Angus’ so like.” He turned to look at you “I figure it wasn’t me, but it was probably like...some beef monster.”

“Oh yeah, for sure a beef monster.”

“And that beef monster was eating you huh?”

You smoothly tucked your hair behind your ear and nodded with a sweet smile “Mhm.”

Angus gave you a quick up and down look before turning around and continuing to scramble the eggs. You had to change the current topic or you'd die of embarrassment, so you decided to bring up the topic of the show instead. “Do you know which scenes we’re filming tomorrow?”

“Yeah, no sex scenes until next week. Tomorrow they finna do you coming back and me reminiscing on the old times.”

“Okay cool. I have those lines down, pretty simple...” You mumbled.

“Yeah me too.”

A butcher knife couldn't even cut the tension in the room right now. Fuck, a chainsaw couldn't either.

“So like... I’m gonna go change and I'll be right back? Sound good?”

“You can wear summa my stuff. If you want- you don’t got to i'm just offering.”

“Oh that'd be great thanks! You know my trailer is just so far away!” You joked, knowing that it was only next door. You hopped off of the counter and followed him back into the room you two had just come out of.

“You just want one big shirt? Girls be doing that alot nowadays.”

“Yeah, thanks that'd be great...”

“So the biggest shirt I got got some barbecue stains on it- ignore it. I just went off on some spicy wings the other day-”

You burst out laughing and sat on the bed “Gus it’s fine, gimme!” You pulled your shirt off and held out your hands. He turned back around to find you only in your bra and shorts.

“Yooooo-”

“Its fine, we have to be completely naked with each other next week. Titties are just titties.” You took the shirt out of his hands and put it on. After pulling off the shorts that you wore underneath the shirt; that was more like a dress- and folding them, you walked back into the kitchen and reclaimed your spot on the counter.

“Well I know one problem we won't have!” You stated with a smirk.

“Yeah, and what's that?”

“Drake was worried you wouldn't be able to ‘get it up’...but honestly, I don’t think it'll be too hard.”

“Why you think that?”

“Look down.”

Sure, Angus wouldn't let you live down the wet dream you had about him for quite a while, but you'd never let him live down the boner he got- just from seeing you in a bra.

+

“So. Let's get to the real real.” Storm said pulling her knees up to her chest with a grin. “What the hell is going on with you and Angus?”

You, Storm and Daya were hanging in your trailer. You three were the only girls that didn't have scenes to film right now, Alexia, Barbie and the rest of the female cast were shooting night scenes. They had helped you set up the place to seem more homey, and now the newly formed trio you were a part of was in your bed with microwave popcorn, juicy juice, and twizzlers.

“Nothing Storm! Actually nothing I-”

“Nope, don't do that.” Z quickly cut you off. “Everyone can see it, it’s like what everyone on set talks about.”

“What?-”

“Plus, he talks about you too much, and you do the same with him! Earlier I said I wanted to pop some microwave popcorn and you started telling me about some conspiracy he told you about popcorn and microwaves, how they’re a secret way in for the government- like girl! Don't tell me you're so whipped that you're out here believing this stuff!”

“OKAY! Okay! I get it...look Gus is-”

“Gus?! You call him Gus?”

“Yeah?-”

“He literally hates that nickname with a passion. He gotta love you.” Storm chuckled grabbing a handful of popcorn.

“Okay well Angus is cute. He’s sweet and funny and caring- BUT. I won’t let anything happen between us, it’s like...business. This field is acting- and I don't think it would be good for us to do anything more, especially during filming.”

Z sighed. “Falling for your costars is weird.”

“Yeah.” Storm chimed in. “Our girl Daya been there and done that...but it never really affected her acting. She's so talented that she could keep it hidden off screen and focus on her character. I mean I know you talented Y/N...but you not my big sis like Z, so I don't really know how you'd be able to deal with it yet. Drake already seemed a bit iffy about it because he could tell you two had a little something going, but the thing comforting him is y'all are talented. So he knows you can do it- I know you can too.”

“Yeah he sent us a letter about it...it's just hard. I can't lose this role, I've come so far.”

“I don't think you’ll lose it. I think you'll be fine. Just keep a business mindset when on set. What goes on off screen and behind closed doors is your business, girl. Drake or nobody can stop that- Jesus can't even stop that!”

You and Storm giggled at Zendaya’s last comment. “Yeah yeah yeah...okay I get it guys. I got this- period.”

“Period.”

“Period...So were you one of those girls that watched all the Fez scene compilations on Youtube and drooled?” Storm teased you.

“No!” You said firmly, knowing you were lying.

“Oh she definitely was.”

“I wasn't!”

“I just don't see it! Angus is just not attractive to me, he looks like one of those guys that stop you at the gas station with a ghetto ass group of friends- he rubs his hands together and then screams ‘Hey baby lemme get yo numbaaaa!!!!’“

In response, you practically fell over laughing “Stoppp no!”

The rest of the night was filled with giggles and whispers, and by 1 AM, you, Z, and Storm were all huddled up in your little twin trailer bed. They snored softly but you couldn't seem to sleep. Just as you were .1 seconds away from drifting off, your phone buzzed next to you.

Angus☁️: u uppppp

-oh wow yeah that's not the most fboy thing ever to send at 1:27 am

Angus☁️:  see all you had to say was yes you didn't have to do allat

-can i help you mr cloud

Angus☁️: what typa help you offering?

-whatever help you need.

Angus☁️: you finna have some more beef dreams tonight?

-you finna get a boner if you see me in my bra again?

Angus☁️: maybe.

-then i'll say maybe too.

Angus☁️: you're too much

-i know i am, did you film today?

Angus☁️: ye i had some scenes wit jacob

-wit

Angus☁️: leave me alone

-you texted me

-and wow you sound really mature rn not at all like a five year old

Angus☁️: if i was w you rn id make you regret that

-was that supposed to be a threat or a way to try to make me sext

Angus☁️: both

-you should go text all the hoes you have waiting for you at home

Angus☁️: im texting them at the same time

-boy...

Angus☁️: im plAyin

Angus☁️: only you :)

-getting soft???

Angus☁️: no and i wish this was instagram dms so i could unsend it fuck

-fuck

Angus☁️: thats another thing you was saying during your ‘nightmare’

-STOP NO I WAS NOT

Angus☁️: yeah i know you wasnt lmao i just like messing w you

-you can mess w me whenever you want to

Angus☁️: oh bet????

-goodnight angus

Angus☁️: nah i want you to tell me about me messing w you

Angus☁️: damn you really left

Angus☁️: thats wrong 

Angus☁️: doing me dirty

-GTS MY PHONE KEEPS GOING OFF

Angus☁️: then put it on silent?

-NO

Angus☁️: ill stop being annoying if you come over here

-i cant, im w z and storm too

Angus☁️: shit okay well it was worth a shot

-why, what was you planning to do

Angus☁️: cuddle

-its fr time for you to go bed, i think your sleepiness is making you too soft and taking the hood away

Angus☁️: goodnight

-goodnight

Angus☁️: gn

-gn

Angus☁️: night

-night

Angus☁️: GOODNIGHT

-OKAY GN

Angus☁️: STOP REPLYING

Angus☁️: night

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[creambunnie]

First Love

ONEWE - Jin Yonghoon // angst , fluff

a/n : this fic was inspired by ONEWE's song IF. you can listen to it while you read this long imagine! enjoy~

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you were swinging your keys with your finger as you stepped out of a bookstore. your clumsy self accidentally dropped the keys which slid and hit a lady's feet.

your eyes widened as you quickly jogged to the lady to collect your keys and also apologise.

the lady bent down to pick them up and quickly stood back up before scanning the area for the owner.

you waved slightly at her and bowed a little.

"ah sorry, that's mine.". you told shyly.

the lady smiled and passed them back to you.

"be careful~" she chirped as she walked away from you.

you gave an embarrassed smile and watched her back moving further away from you. she was a beautiful lady...

you were about to go back to your spot earlier when you saw a familiar figure. a face too familiar to ignore.

the lady gave the guy a peck on his cheek before wrapping her arm around his.

the guy almost turned around to look at you but you quickly pulled up your hood and backfaced the couple.

.

.

Jin Yonghoon. your first love .

you tried taking calm breaths. you turned back around only to see the empty streets. you chuckled at yourself .

no matter how much you've moved on. your first love will always have a special place in your heart.

~

you wiped the last set of windows before quickly sitting at the counter.

you were a florist at a small shop owned by your mother. she trusted you to operate it on your own. she would come down sometimes too. your mother mostly did her admin works at home, while you monitor the shop.

you checked the clock on the wall.

2 minutes before he passes by your flower shop .

yeah, you had a crush on this guy, he would pass by your shop every morning at exactly 10am to go to the music academy he worked at.

1 minute.

.

you took a deep breath when you saw his handsome face.

how can someone be so ethereal ? he's not human. he's an angel.

your silent admiration was interrupted as you panicked .

he suddenly turned to walk towards your shop. yes , YOUR SMALL FLOWER SHOP.

*wait wait wait what is happeninggggg* you screamed in your mind as your crush entered your shop.

"we--welcome~ how may I help you?". you stuttered.

your crush flashed an attractive smile and scanned the shop.

"i'm looking for flowers that are suitable for a birthday gift!". he explained.

you quickly thought of some flowers combination and suggested them to him.

"ah this is beautiful! i hope she likes it!". your crush exclaimed as he agreed with your suggestion right away.

you felt your heart tugged. ahh he has someone already. of course. he is this attractive, wouldn't make sense if he wasn't dating anyone.

you cleared your throat and straightened up .

"would you like to write a card for your girlfriend?". you asked as you prepared some cards choices.

you looked up quickly when you heard him laugh.

shit. even his laugh is beautiful.

but why was he laughing ?

he calmed down after a few seconds and shook his head.

"this is not for my girlfriend. uhm i don't have one ? this is actually for my teacher. she used to teach me at the academy when i was still a student there.". he explained.

you felt your face warmed up from embarrassment. you slowly nodded and slid some cards to him.

"ahh, sorry. you can choose any cards . they're all the same price. ".

your crush smirked before picking out a card .

.

"i'm Yonghoon by the way. Jin Yonghoon.". your crush introduced himself as he paid for the flowers.

your eyes widened at his bold move and cleared your throat for the nth time.

"uhm i--i'm y/n . y/s/n y/n. thank you for buying flowers from here.". you awkwardly stammered.

Yonghoon gave a cute smile and nodded.

"no problem! i've always been curious about this shop. this shop is as beautiful as its owner.". Yonghoon teased with a wink.

you bit your lips, refraining yourself from smiling too widely.

Yonghoon chuckled at your reaction.

"i hope we get to see each other more in the future, y/n . thank you!". Yonghoon said one last time before exiting the shop.

you stood there for a few moments, trying to process what just happened.

.

of course you knew his name. in this small neighbourhood, Yonghoon was like a celebrity.

he was not only good-looking. he was also talented. Yonghoon's voice is so beautiful, you would feel all sorts of emotions listening to him sing.

Yonghoon was also kind-hearted. he would help the neighbourhood kids when they need any . he was just the guy in the neighbourhood.

Yonghoon was famous among the aunties. they would always try to matchmake Yonghoon with their daughters. but Yonghoon would always turn them down politely.

and that was your wonderful first ever face to face encounter with Jin Yonghoon.

~

a year later , after getting to know more about each other , Yonghoon confessed his feelings for you.

you too told him about your feelings and the two of you started being a couple.

your routine after being a couple wasn't that different than when you became close friends.

you would still visit him from time to time at the academy to have lunch together.

Yonghoon would also drop by the flower shop every morning to greet you .

the only difference was , you would hang out at Yonghoon's place more and even sleep over at his house.

your houses were only about 20 minutes away from each other but Yonghoon said his house was always open for you.

Yonghoon was that clingy boyfriend, and truthfully, he wanted you to just move in with him. he loved it when he has someone to accompany him at home because he lived alone.

but you didn't want to move out of your parents' house just like that. besides, you still had to help your mother with the flower shop stuffs.

although lowkey the amount of time you stayed at Yonghoon's house was way more than you staying at your own. 😆

.

you enjoyed every single time you've spent with Yonghoon.

he was just the sweetest boyfriend ever.

everytime you had free time together, Yonghoon would always suggest for you two to cuddle .

he just loved admiring you silently as he held you close to him.

Yonghoon would always whisper sweet words to you when you two hang out together .

.

it was a weekend, as usual, you were at Yonghoon's house.

an activity the both of you would sometimes do together was watching a movie .

you were sat in between Yonghoon's legs, back against his chest. Yonghoon had his arms around your waist .

something you loved about your movie sessions was Yonghoon's cute habits.

he would play with your hair and massage your head gently. or he would leave soft pecks on your clothed shoulders.

Yonghoon just won't waste any time to show his love to you.

you would giggle when it tickled and Yonghoon would leave double pecks to tease you.

"hmmm babe ? i'm kind of hungry... i feel like eating some jjapaghetti...". you pouted as you turned to your boyfriend.

Yonghoon chuckled at your cuteness and booped your nose with his.

"shall we go to the convenience store together then?". Yonghoon suggested cutely.

you immediately nodded your head. Yonghoon ruffled your hair lovingly before the two of you went out for food.

convenience store dates was also a common thing in your relationship.

the two of you didn't really care about where you eat, as long as the two of you could eat together.

you loved experimenting new food combinations with Yonghoon.

if it was good, the both of you would get super excited and continue eating the same combination of food again and again until you're sick of it.

if it was bad , the two of you would play rock paper scissors where the loser had to finish up the gross combination.

but Yonghoon was a softie. he would either let you win easily or eat some for you when you really lost after a few rounds.

"cheese , ramyeon , egg , collaboration!". Yonghoon exclaimed as he mixed all those ingredients together.

he saw a video of this combination and he thought it looked good so he wanted to try it.

you settled with your favourite jjapaghetti and some spicy sausages.

.

aside from your cuddle and convenience store dates , you also spend time together at the music academy which Yonghoon worked at.

Yonghoon was specifically a vocal teacher but he could also play some instruments including the piano and guitar.

you two would hang out at his studio when he had no classes.

during this dates , Yonghoon would either show you some works that he was working on as a producer or sing you songs.

sometimes it would be cute spontaneous songs. sometimes it would be your favourite songs.

either way, you loved it when Yonghoon sings. his voice was just out of this world . he was your favourite singer.

.

all those good times confused you when one day Yonghoon suddenly came back home and acted differently .

his usual warm greetings were short and cold.

it had been about 2 months since the both of you had spent time together like usual.

you had been a bit busy with the flower shop. your mother finally had the opportunity to extend her brand and open up another branch for her flower shop at another neighbourhood.

of course you had to help her with lots of things. but those were settled and you finally had the time to visit Yonghoon again.

Yonghoon knew about this achievement and even bought a gift for your mother to congratulate her.

maybe the 2 months of not seeing each other properly made you both a bit distant. but your feelings for Yonghoon was still as strong as ever.

you thought maybe he was just tired from work and wanted to rest.

but your usual fun dinner was dull. Yonghoon ate quickly before staying in his room for the whole night.

you wanted to ask him about his day. you were worried. you were scared at his sudden change in behaviour.

but you thought to yourself to only think of good things and act normal.

you cleaned up the living room before joining Yonghoon on his bed.

you gently slid onto your side of the bed . Yonghoon's back was facing you. you pouted before scooting closer to your boyfriend and backhugging him.

Yonghoon stayed still and let you hold him.

"i missed you....". you gently whispered as you buried your face against his warm back.

Yonghoon didn't respond . you supposed he was already asleep.

~

the next few days, Yonghoon was a bit better . maybe he was just tired with work the other day.

"babe,, do you want to go to the convenienve store together ?". you asked softly.

Yonghoon sighed before nodding.

you interwined your fingers together like usual on your way to the store.

you didn't know if it was just you but his hand felt ....cold.

his entire presence felt cold.

you shook your head and tried your best to act normally.

your usual chaotic store date was silent. you tried swallowing your food down together with the tears that were threatening to fall.

why ? why was Yonghoon suddenly acting like this ?

you felt like he was forcing himself to spend time with you. you felt like he didn't feel the special spark between the both of you anymore.

you felt like... he didn't love you anymore. no maybe that was too far..

you didn't know. you wanted to know. but you're sure if you were to ask him about it now, you couldn't handle it. your emotions were too unstable.

you cleared your throat and reached out for his cold hand gently..

"babe, i don't think i'm sleeping over at your house tonight. and don't worry you don't need to walk me home... i know you're tired.". you said carefully.

Yonghoon only looked at you with a raised eyebrow. "really ? ahh we should get going then before it gets darker.". he replied.

you thought your normal stubborn clingy boyfriend would still insist on walking you home.

but at the junction where you usually separate, he really bid you goodbye and walked away quickly before you could hug or greet him back properly.

you blinked in confusion at his actions. Yonghoon didn't even turn back to look at you.

you were frozen on your spot. was this really happening to you ?

unnoticingly, tears flowed down your cheeks. soon, you started sobbing in the middle of the empty streets.

you covered your face with your palms as your cries got louder.

the usual Yonghoon would whine when you say you weren't staying over. the usual Yonghoon would still walk you home no matter how hard you try to convince him that it was okay.

maybe the usual Yonghoon wasn't feeling the same as before. maybe the usual Yonghoon was tired of loving you.

maybe the usual Yonghoon was gone. you didn't even know who he was anymore.

~

Yonghoon noticed how in the span of only 3 days, your part of the wardrobe was becoming emptier.

he thought you were just reorganising things, but soon even your toiletries and other little things usually in his house was nowhere to be seen.

Yonghoon felt that his house was a bit emptier with most of your things gone.

he was confused. he wanted to ask you. why ?

but he was confused with himself too...

.

Yonghoon was in the shower while you were preparing some breakfast. just for him .

you scanned the house again. absorbing all the memories that you've spent together with Yonghoon.

you walked towards the coffee table and reached for his phone.

you scrolled through his contacts and stopped when you reached yours .

♡ My Love 🌸 ♡

you bit your lips and sighed before pressing the delete button.

you placed Yonghoon's phone back carefully before carrying all your remaining things.

*i guess this will be the last* you thought as you walked slowly to the entrance.

you were about to unlock the front door when you heard his cold voice calling out your name.

"y/n ...".

you mustered all your courage before turning around to look at Yonghoon.

there he was, standing at his spacious living room. looking as handsome as ever. looking as soft as ever. but he looked cold , like never.

"why are you doing all of this ? ". Yonghoon asked with a slight frown.

you looked at Yonghoon in disbelief before approaching him slowly.

you tried your best to hold in your tears.

"are you, seriously asking that Jin Yonghoon?". you asked in a hushed tone.

Yonghoon's frown dipped deeper. he still didn't understand what was wrong.

"why are you doing this ? why are you cleaning up your stuffs ? why did you ,, why did you delete your number from my phone ? what's happening ?".

Yonghoon bombarded you with questions, in a tone as if he was the victim now. as if he was the one who was being hurt.

your palms curled into fists as you neared him . your tears were now trickling down your cheeks freely.

"you really have the heart to ask those questions ? why am i doing this ? i am doing this because i feel like i don't know you anymore. i feel like you're forced to spend time with me. you started acting cold towards me since those 2 months.". you sniffed and wiped your face harshly with your sleeve.

"i tried thinking of only good things, i thought you just needed some rest. but it lasted for a month. a month Yonghoon ! i'm hurt. it feels like you don't love me anymore....". you continued before pausing for a while as your cries echoed in the living room.

Yonghoon only stood there, his face a bit shocked. but even after a few moments, he didn't reply nor deny your words.

you looked at him with a sad smile and chuckled before shaking your head.

" i cleared my stuffs bit by bit , to help you forget about me slowly. so you won't get hurt. so you don't have to go through what i had to... i deleted my contact, so that you won't be hurt if you accidentally see my name. im just , trying to delete my life out of yours, so that you won't be in pain.". .

you swallowed your saliva forcefully as you reached your hands out to hold his cold ones for the last time.

"thank you for loving me these past 3 years , Yonghoon. thank you for all the great memories. thank you for everything. but i think it is finally time for us to separate. goodbye love. goodbye my first love..".

you squeezed his hands before leaving him alone as you walked out of his house. not once turning back.

Yonghoon stared at your back walking away. his voice stuck in his throat. he wanted to call your name out again, but instead , he only managed a sad sob.

Yonghoon slowly sat down and pulled his knees to his chest as loud sobs started filling his now empty house.

it hurt him.

in those 2 months of not seeing each other as much, Yonghoon suddenly started doubting his feelings for you .

he didn't know how it started. Yonghoon just started feeling empty everytime you texted. everytime you called.

Yonghoon thought loving you for these 3 years will lead him to love you forever... but his heart just didn't beat as fast as the first time he talked to you.

he thought it was just his mind playing tricks on him.

Yonghoon tried figuring out himself this past month. he tried to treat you as usual, but he felt fake.

Yonghoon didn't want to lie to himself. he didn't want to give you high hopes .

the day he thought he finally understood himself , you decided to leave him for good.

it hurt him that he hurt you.

Yonghoon didn't realise how selfish he was . he wanted to figure himself out but he was hurting you.

all these while, he thought you were just going to think of the good memories. but he didn't realise , he was actually giving you painful memories too.

it was scary. love .

just when you think you'll love someone forever , just when you think someone will love you forever,

the love fades.

after leaving him , you didn't even try to get updates about Yonghoon or his life.

your parents knew about what happened and respected your decision to move away from that small yet precious neighbourhood.

you ultimately decided that it was best for you to leave that place to clear your mind.

you planned to take care of the new branch of your mother's flower shop at the other neighbourhood.

you asked your parents to never tell Yonghoon about your whereabouts if he ever asks. you doubt it though. he didn't care about you anymore, right ?

~

your long train of thoughts was interrupted with a gentle pat on your head.

"hey babe, i'm done buying my books! oh--- why are you crying ?". your fiance, Jongin, cut his own sentence when he saw your face covered with tears.

you jumped in surprise and quickly wiped your face with the sleeves of your hoodie.

"ahh i just thought of some things... don't worry...". you replied softly.

Jongin gave a cute smile and ruffled your hair.

"you know you can always tell me your troubles. hmm what do you want to eat for dinner?".

you grinned at Jongin's words and hummed before answering, " i feel like eating jjapaghetti and spicy sausages tonight.".

Jongin raised eyebrow and chuckled before wrapping an arm around your shoulder as the two of you walked to the nearest convenience store.

"i thought you didn't like jjapaghetti?". Jongin asked in a confused tone.

you scrunched up your nose at his cuteness.

"it's not that i don't like it... i just don't feel like eating it most of time. but this time i really crave for some good jjapaghetti!". you replied cutely.

Jongin giggled at your response and pinched your cheeks . "alright,, we'll eat some jjapaghetti then!".

~

you were glad Yonghoon was living his life happily with his new love.

you didn't want to be selfish , but you hoped he still remembered your happy memories together after all these while.

.

indeed , no matter how much you've moved on, despite the fact that you're already in love with someone else ,

your first love will always have a special place in your heart.

.

.

a/n : hope you guys liked this fic for our angel Yonghoon💕 ngl , i cried ¾ of the time while writing this 🤡

[thedyingmoon]

🖤 I See My Future Before Me 🖤

~ A V X Reader set in an Alternate Universe where you get to play a game of hide and seek with V. 🖤

~ This part is dedicated to all my new followers. I couldn't mention all of you, you know who you are. Thank you very much! 🖤

~ Psst, @acieoj , a new part for you to stay awake for. 🖤

~ I couldn't thank you enough for all the likes and reblogs, @heaven-on-a-landslide . Thank you so much! 🖤

~ That's my game screenshot. Aww, V looks so cute drinking whatever energy drink that is. 🖤

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V

You wearily looked at the three boxes of pizza on the glass top table in front of you, one being almost empty, courtesy of Nero. Then, you looked at Nico, who settled on the sofa across you, legs apart and one elbow on a knee.

"Dinner?" Nico offered, getting a slice herself.

You shook your head.

"I'm not having any of that." Your friend for ten years retorted, picking a slice and forcefully handing it to you. "Eat!"

You two have always been like this, you refusing food and the freckled girl always shoving them your way, anyway.

The moment you woke up in their home ten years ago, you were aware that you were so close to dying due to starvation. But, due to the strict orders of those scumbags who abducted you, you were taught to avoid temptations like hunger. Of course, upon realizing how malnourished you looked, Nico and her mother practically forced you to eat, telling you to not die on them. And on the following days after that, you were fed all sorts of home - cooked meals, thanks to Nico's mother, that slowly improved your impoverished state.

You took a little bite off the pizza, slightly wincing on its spicy taste, then threw all kinds of pretense out of the window and took a box for yourself, digging in and giving in to your hunger.

"So, what you mean to say," Nico began, her mouth half - full of her food. "... is that V is who you are looking for all these past ten years?"

You nodded, unable to answer with a full mouth.

"How could you even tell? I mean, you told me that the man in your visions had white hair."

It's true. After the events that took place in that cursed castle, the entity has been giving you little visions of the future. Sometimes, it's just trivial things, like predicting Nico's results in her exams as a student, the weather for the next week, and visitors.

But, one prominent thing that the entity was always showing you was the vision of a white - haired man playing the violin. And what's more, the entity would sometimes speak to you in your head, subtly whispering stuff like,

"You must find him."

And

"You must go to him."

However, just a year ago, the entity gave you vague and horrifying warnings about this man, telling you all of a sudden to,

"Protect him at all cost."

"Save him from his death."

And

"Fulfill the wish."

Especially the second and last warning. Despite the vision staying the same for ten years, the warnings were getting more and more drastic that it simply could no longer be ignored. You had no idea how to "fulfill the wish", but you were very certain that the entity would show you how when the time comes.

Which led you to the events that were beginning to unfold right before you.

"Dude with white hair,..." Nico mumbled. "If it is Dante, then I would understand. But, V?"

"I told you." You replied. "I felt it the moment I saw him in the park earlier this afternoon. That,... feeling I didn't have when I met Dante." You took your third helping of the pizza and looked at Nico gravely in the eye. "But, this man. I could feel it, Nico. It's him. I must fulfill the entity's wish, and I won't rest until I do."

"Alright, alright, honey, you've made your point." Nico leaned on the comfortable sofa and crossed her legs. "So, you sure you're going?"

"Yes."

"Very well." Nico stood and went to one of the rooms. When she came back, she was carrying a large, white box. She placed it down on the floor, considering it was too big to place on the table, and carefully opened it, revealing its contents.

Your eyes widened in delight and surprise at such wonder. "It's so breathtaking!" You admired the object inside the box.

Nico smiled at you and lightly punched your shoulder. "You have to look your best this Saturday."

You gently took the glistening fabric, holding it like it was the most fragile thing in the world, and frowned.

"Aww, don't tell me you don't like it!"

You glanced at Nico and held the thing closer to you. "No, it's not like that. I just couldn't believe that I'm finally going to meet him."

"Well, if you're that excited, why didn't you just introduce yourself earlier like a normal human being?" Nico had a point.

"I'm scared." You answered, and it was the truth. You did find V very intimidating, especially that time when he just transported right above you earlier in the park. "What if I screw this up? How can I be able to protect him if I'm like this? You saw him and how powerful he is! He's got some,... pets with him,..."

Nico's eyebrows furrowed. She knew you were very shy and that you needed the proper motivation for you to keep moving forward.

She stood up and went back to the sofa to eat pizza. "I was wondering. You, a weak girl without the help of your entity, trained to be a good fighter against Demons, bugged me to death a thousand times for a weapon of your own, and even deliberately blackmailed Dante into letting you join Devil May Cry, all because of this funny mission your entity gave you." She leaned in to get a closer look at you and eyed you very seriously. "What is your motivation? And don't ya dare keep your mouth shut because ya haven't told me a single shit about it. Spill the beans, honey."

You sighed, no longer able to think of some clever way out of this. You put the fabric down and joined Nico at the sofa.

"That vision with the white - haired man, that was not the only thing I saw." You took Nico's right hand and gave it a light squeeze. "Beyond that, I saw something else."

"What is it?"

You looked at Nico and slightly shook your head, brows furrowed at the thought. "It wasn't quite clear to me yet, but I saw myself with this man. And there was a child."

Nico's eyes widened, her mouth forming an O. "Is that your future baby, then?"

"I'm not sure. I told you, it wasn't quite clear. And then, I saw a house, an afternoon picnic, him playing the violin again, and,..."

"And - ?" Nico was fully anticipating the next thing you would say, when you suddenly squeezed her hand too tight with all your might, hurting her. "Ouch! Hey, watch it!" She withdrew her hand from you, rubbing it and hoping for the pain to go away. She was about to scold you for it when she saw you becoming red from forehead to chest. "Aha! You saw something lewd, did ya?!"

"NO!" you screamed at her face, your blush deepening even further, and knowing that she will not believe you because of it. "Anyway, the point is: I finally have a chance to build something I lost when I was a child. A lovely house, afternoon picnics, a family to call my own! Nico, this is it! My dream of a perfect family, and the entity has led me right into it!"

"You really should have introduced yourself to V." Nico muttered, shaking her head and frowning. "You might get along pretty well,..."

"That's not how it works, Nico. To have that, I must fulfill the entity's wish to protect him and save him from his death. The vision will not come true unless I follow the entity's conditions!"

"So, you mean to say, V's gonna die,... unless you do something about it? Is that right?"

You almost lost your nerve after building it up with a dream of a perfect home a while ago. "Yes, you could say that."

"So, that's why you trained to be strong."

"Yes."

"But, that doesn't explain why you have to work for Dante."

"Remember what you said earlier about Dante and perfectly understanding it if it was really him in my vision?" You said, taking Nico's hand and squeezing it again. "Well, I thought so, too, believe me. But, I was wrong. The vision is a man who looked like him, but not him!"

"You - " Nico began, then stopped, processing everything she just heard from you. "How could the man in your vision look like Dante and not V? How could it NOT be Dante and how could it BE V? Honey, that's so confusing! Unless, he's hiding a twin brother somewhere, which V clearly is not,..."

"Yes, I know that." For the second time, you squeezed Nico's hand way too hard for the woman to take.

"Ouch!" Nico shrieked, once again withdrawing her hand and keeping it firmly close to her.

"Sorry. It's just that - I felt a connection to Dante and to the man in the vision. Like, something very powerful was linking the two. And now that I've seen this V person, I became certain of it. He also holds a deep connection to Dante." You went closer to Nico, your hands on the sofa. "The decision I made about working in the Devil May Cry was not far off, actually. And I' am glad for that," you took something from your pocket and showed the same black envelope containing the details of the event for the coming Saturday. "... and for this."

"Whatever you say, honey." Nico said, but before she could even stand, you two both heard noises coming from outside the unit. "They're back already? Hey!"

Nico called after you, but you were too fast. You were already outside the door to your room, carrying the large, white box, and smiling at her.

"Good night!" You gleefully mouthed, opening the room, entering it, and finally retiring for the night.

And at the same time Nico heard the lock to your door click, Nero opened the front door and let V and himself in.

Right then and there, V was very positive - he knew you've been there, the one who almost "chopped him like onions", as per Griffon, and the one who yelped behind the window. In fact, he could sense your presence all over the place, especially behind that one particular door. After all, he could still smell you. What was that again? Oh. Fresh flowers blooming in the morning.

"Hey, this box is almost empty!" Nero said, mystified as to how an unopened box of pizza got almost ravaged by a lone woman during his absence of only thirty minutes.

But, V perfectly knew that Nico was not the only one who ate. And it was totally confirmed by the woman, herself.

"Well, sorry about that. (Y/N) was really hungry." She admitted.

"You mean the owner of this unit?" Nero asked, opening the third box and dedicating to finish it himself. "Where is she, anyway? Why won't she show herself? She got fangs, bumps, or something?"

"My thoughts,... exactly." V added, letting Griffon and Shadow out with a simple smile that could actually be considered as sinister. Someone wants to play hide and seek with him, so he would play the game, as well, and with much enthusiasm.

Nico laughed at what Nero said. "She doesn't have fangs, but she does have a bump or two, you know what I'm sayin'. She's probably asleep by now. Don't mind her." Nico answered. "She's just tired as hell. You'll see her in the morning."

And, so he must. For if you don't show yourself by then, heaven and hell help V, but he would definitely find a way to meet you and go after you, just like what Griffon initially suggested. In a space of thirty minutes while he and Nero were away in search of formal clothing, he may have found out one of the reasons the Yamato brought him closer to you. And if you avoid him once more, he would have no choice but to spam the Yamato on you if he must as a last resort.

***

🖤🖤🖤

[sergeantjessi]

6, 16, 23, 24, 26 for the weirdly specific asks :)

So many :o Thank you!! <3

6. do you use a watch?

Sadly no. I think I finally stopped trying in 2019? I have one that looks like a GameBoy, and it's definitely as cool as it sounds. I stopped wearing it because admittedly, it is a little big, but even worse, it had a built-in alarm clock, and I think it happened twice that the alarm randomly went off and would not stop. Which is way too anxiety inducing to be worth wearing a cool looking watch.

There was also a fitness watch I used shortly after I stopped wearing the GameBoy watch, I think, but it kind of sucked, so I didn't wear it for long. Other than that, I have a few pocket watches, but I never took them with me, and also I am too lazy to change the batteries. Which is honestly the main reason I don't use watches.

16. thoughts on mint chocolate chip?

If you like it that's cool & stuff, but also I will judge you. Eugh.

23. do you wear jewelry?

Yes I dooo! There are like 2 things I never take off, though one of those are some festival bands, and I'm not sure if they count. But my black lotr ring definitely counts. Can't believe it's been 4 years since I bought it... my ace ring my beloved, which I only take off when chances are high that I could hurt myself, lose it, or damage it. <3

Other than that, I like wearing earrings. My fave pairs include puzzle pieces, vinyls, and self-made pendants my bf's sister made. I also have a TLoZ: Majora's Mask necklace, which I try to wear whenever I can. And also 3-4 more rings I'm wearing (somewhat) regularly. I also got a septum. And uhhh yeah I think that's enough for now.

24. which do you find yourself using, american or british english?

I prefer using british english, but sometimes, american english is more convenient or just looks nicer. But generally speaking, I hope that I use british english more than I do american.

26. how’s your spice tolerance?

Not the best, I'd say. I'm not terrible with spicy things, but especially since I don't eat them regularly, it doesn't take much until I consider something to be spicy.

Alright, I hope you enjoyed reading this! Thank you so much for sending some questions, have a great day <3

(weirdly specific and unrelated asks to know someone well)