#yes dainty delicate sickly looking evan is a conqueror

[lycoryspreachin]

humbly asking for rosekiller thoughts

humbly offering these thoughts

i always feel so excited when i get to talk about rosekiller because it gives me the opportunity to transcribe whatever is going on inside my head into actual concrete concepts

for me, rosekiller are like two completely different spiders ( maybe a redback spider for barty and a brown recluse for evan) who were each weaving webs on their own and ended up thoughtlessly working together on the same web.

evan loved beauty, or rather he loved searching for it, he was a conqueror and he conquered life by unveiling its concealed secrets. since he was a child he always was on a quest to find the inherent beauty of things, what is hidden and cast away by the average mind. he wants to see how things really are, their true and raw nature, and discover the kind of beauty they unleashed.

barty on the other hand had passed his life trying to escape. escape his life, escape his family, escape who he was, he was on a constant run and wished to never be found. to succeed in his ambitions he needed to distract people, take them as far as possible from the things he wished to hide.

However, in doing so he ultimately himself forgot the exact location, this is how barty crouch jr lost himself.

when they met, barty was entranced by evan. the latter was shamelessly othered and singular in a way he had never witnessed anybody be, he was unknowingly cryptic and mystical, like a being that didn't belong with them, or rather a being they didn't deserve to live alongside. evan knew himself entirely, he lived with purpose and conviction, someone like barty could never be able to resist gravitating around him.

for evan barty was a new world, no, barty was a whole universe. he existed in multitudes and he didn't exist at all, he was intricately and patiently built. before who he is now, there was nothing, he started being when he decided to be. nothing about him was inherent and evan wants to see what is under his skin. does he want to dirty his hands like he had done before? no, he wants to sink into soil and depravity and become stained by it, he wants for once to make art of his own, his ultimate prowess. he wants to play god, he wants to bring something anew into the world and barty would allow him to, further still, he wants him to, he wants to see what he would make of him, he wants to witness who he would be alongside him. to barty evan is a creator, a maker, he infuses meaning into things around him and he wants him to give him meaning too, he wants to taste life when it was gifted by evan rosier.