#yeah......... I'm rambling again sorry guys
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(SPOILERS) Andrew and plausible deniability, OR: mfer doesn't wanna be held accountable for his actions
This has been churning in my head for a while (I am mentally ill 🥴), but a large part of the driving force behind Andy and his actions is his aversion to blame. He sorta shares this w/Ashley (she's got quite a few rants abt how things aren't her fault), but I believe Andrew takes it just a step further.
I've seen many say this before, but from the start of the game, you'll notice that even beyond normal moral quandaries, Andrew's first objection to any horrific action Ashley proposes is usually a variance of "what if we get caught?". He objects not bc her ideas are ethically repugnant, but bc they could be found out as having done them, and he knows rationally that others know they're bad. This goes as far back as childhood with the Nina incident. He fears punishment and the threat of prison more than he apparently worries about what his crimes might mean for him as a person or what they might mean for the people that might be affected by them (save him and Ashley). This doesn't mean he doesn't feel guilt or have nightmares abt them, but they're not his first priority. Trouble's a pain to deal with, and the dude's low-energy.
In fact, most of his guilt seems largely self-centered. Like, no exaggeration: if it isn't about either him or Ashley (which is, in a way, lowkey also about him), then he couldn't really care less. Do you recall him ever expressing worry or remorse on Nina's behalf? Mourning her? We think Ashley's the one w/empathy issues, but Andrew's in the same boat imo. Self-preservation and self-interest is all that's keeping him seemingly amiable enough for polite society, bc for the most part, he really couldn't be bothered.
In his dreams, the victims of their murders are just bodies: interchangeable, holding no more meaning beyond the fact that they're dead. Any corpse's limb will do to replace the one Ashley cooked—never mind that they may be from different people—bc they're all the same to him. Even Julia, sitting in her dorm room surrounded by evidence of Ashley's harassment, gets no sympathy from Andrew. For the most part, he elects to ignore it all, and regards Julia herself with a detached sorta nostalgia tinged in no small part with apathy.
img txt: You'll never see her again. And the fact that it doesn't really bother you, bothers you.
(The only things of notable worth from her were the colored pencils on her desk, which he promptly takes from her to give to Leyley instead, and isn't that just some crazy symbolism right there?)
His fear of punishment goes hand-in-hand with his desperate pursuit of plausible deniability. Everything he does, he does under certain self-imposed conditions. If it's Ashley's idea and he argues back, it doesn't matter in the end if he goes along with it, bc it was Ashley's idea in the first place. He's just there to make sure she doesn't get them in trouble, bc she needs him, bc he's gotta take care of her. Even if it's not her idea at all (e.g., killing the closet warden, killing the lady in room 302), it's still her fault, bc he did it for her, bc everything he does, he does for her.
Ashley's a manipulative, evil lil possessive gremlin w/a soul as black as tar, and Andy's a doormat, but don't think for a second that part of him doesn't use that dynamic a little to keep from reflecting on what he is. He suffocates under it, but he also relies on it. If there's any sort of plausible deniability available, he'll take it and run with it.
The truth of the matter is that they're both deeply toxic, warped individuals. The difference is that Ashley's owned up to it and quite frankly doesn't care. Andrew hasn't. He's the "normal" one.
Now, for the funky incest part (what we're all here for babyyyyy)—
We've all seen the flavor text abt the bed-sharing by now, right?
img txt: Oh yeah, you tooootally have nightmares as often as you claim.
We know for a fact that aside from some light teasing, maybe, Ashley would have no problem whatsoever with sharing a bed w/Andrew. Heck, she'll coax him into bed (demo) or climb onto the couch with him (ep 2) w/o any prompting from him whatsoever, just bc she feels like it. Andrew, apparently, can't do the same. He doesn't allow himself this intimacy of his own choosing, so he has to lie and pretend to get it if he wants it. He's greedy for her, too, but he can't let himself show it.
If something is sufficiently too intimate in his eyes, beyond anything he can excuse away for some reason or another, then he'll stop himself from doing it. Just like how he wouldn't let himself succumb to the urge of pulling Ashley into his arms to make her smile, but is willing to give her a hug when she asks for it in front of their parents.
He insists on the extra expense of two beds, and then cites his nightmares and panic attacks as the driving force behind crawling into bed w/her, bc then it isn't really his fault now, is it? He tried to stay away, after all. He did! He just didn't have a choice!
Lol
Andrew can't admit to wanting this—buries those feelings and thoughts as deep as he can so they fester and bleed, the repressed idiot—so he gives Ashley all the power to decide how close they get. It's in Ashley's hands. He's free of that hassle.
Which is why the post-sex vision, and Ashley's reaction to it, is so dangerous. @csg-iii made a good point about it in my last post:
img txt: I think the biggest point about "11" is that Andrew asks/begs Ashley for reassurance that it will never happen ("never say never"). It's a subtle admission that if she really wants it to happen, he knows he won't be able to resist his own urges. His only ""hope"" of avoiding going there is if Ashley doesn't want it.
Andrew, in absolving himself of this choice and putting it in Ashley's hands, shoots himself in the foot, bc what if Ashley goes the whole mile? Then the only real thing keeping his desires unrealized was the fact that they had never been voiced as an option before.
He doesn't want to think of himself as someone who'd bone his own sister. Forget being a cannibal, demon summoner, or a murderer; those titles were foisted upon him. This is too close to something real that he carries inside him; this isn't anything Ashley's buried in him, but rather something of his own invention. Something he'll definitely have to take responsibility for.
#the coffin of andy and leyley#tcoaal#coffincest#andrew graves#txt post#yeah......... I'm rambling again sorry guys#character analysis
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ryomina demons are winning
#does anyone here like them idk. theyre funny#putting off finishing p3re to draw these so i don't have to be sad just yet#cat’s art#ryomina#ryoji mochizuki#makoto yuki#minato arisato#p3#persona 3#p3re#p3 reload#sorry for traditional sketch stuff... idk i just feel like i do better on paper even tho its literally the same style#like i can just get the lines better on paper. i think my brush is probably too thick digitally if i'm having this problem lol#makoto makes me so emo u guys have no idea. i didn't quite get this guy in the beginning but now...#full force understanding of a character. hes. he :( (incoherent sobbing)#tag ramble again SORRY I UEBRO4Y39NRMFMT#oh yeah the period thing going around is so funny. PERSONA 3 PERIOD SIMULATOR
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pfp change!! ft an actual doodle of myself gaspppp!!
#people keep confusing me for Ghost/Simon so yeah#also people think i'm a Guy (I HAVE A PUSSY!! 😭😭)#like guys im flattered and i really wanna have my Very Own Dong- but im so sorry to disappoint#tho.. having a Schlong would make Certain things easier LOL#if you're reading the tags: will open c/mms tomorrow! and will open inbox again next week 💖💖#tim rambles
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Bing bong. They're idiots.
Rambling Below
So I'm actually playing Jean's kids in a tabletop game! I never thought I'd get a chance to use Ronnie and Rowan in anything really! So I was like "Oh haha this'll be awesome and no one will know! It won't come up that he's the son of my fucking South Park OC! I surely won't have to explain that at the table!"
The game is called Legion. My DM wanted to run a power rangers game with his own twist. We're not "Rangers" we're "Legionaires".
Ronnie and Rowan were literally abducted by aliens in the 90s when they were sixteen. They were taken to a war planet and forced into a fighting pit. Ronnie isn't a fighter. He's a lover, kind of a crybaby. Long story short, they escape the planet and find their own space ship. So now they're two sixteen year olds scrambling to try to make sense of a planet where they don't understand a word of what anyone says. Fast-Forward about thirty years and Ronnie and Rowan find their way back home.
Well, a few sessions ago another player character asked Ronnie and Rowan why they haven't seen their mom. Ya know, let her know they're alive.
"Hey, so what about your parents, Ronnie? Why don't you talk about them?"
"Uh...well, that's complicated, dude. I mean, they know we're alive...they probably saw us on the news."
"Isn't that more of a reason to go see them?! They're probably worried about you! You've been missing for thirty years!"
Out of characters, I was sitting there with a look of horror on my face. I have to quickly make up two different idiots that are Ronnie and Rowans' parents. The thought of everyone at the table finding out that I made a south park oc and shipped them with a Canon character.
Then, my so called best friend, pipes up with a shit eating grin.
"Yeah, Kayla, let's go meet Ronnies' parents."
Because she knows. She's the one person at the table who knows. I trusted her.
Luckily, the DM threw me a bone and just introduced Jean. I had Ronnie and Rowan give the excuse they're not ready to face their dad yet.
So the slight change in Kyle's design was not only fun, but helped me hide from the other players. I love them all so much, but I'm not ready to be raked across the coals yet.
Extra conversation with the DM, who is my best friends husband. So of course he found out:
"So...Ronnies' dad is...Stan?"
"What?! No! Gross! Jean would throw up at the thought alone. It's Kyle."
"Ronnies' jewish?!"
#south park#south park oc#sp oc#my oc stuff#south park fanart#jean wellman#oc art#kyle broflovski#sorry for rambling again#ahhh I thought it was just a fun story!#I need to draw Rowan yet#I've been saying that for months#but I'm silly#i remain whimsical#ttrpgs are wild#you're fighting for the right of earth#bouncing from planet to planet riding alongside a galactic rebellion#only to come home thirty years later#and smoke weed with your twin brother and your mom#oh and you find out you have a little sister#ronnie is the 'white ranger' btw#we all picked a color#he doesn’t wear a suit#its just his outfit but everything is white#and he has different colored patches for each of the player characters#i must return to the sun now#oc x canon#oh yeah my name is Kayla btw#guess you guys just know that now lol#sp growingpains
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hi do you think sam is normal about the fact that matt died (on what was supposed to be his watch. by the way) and then came back as a fucking catholic priest. like. this guy watched his community get torn apart by a religious leader. aforementioned religious leader told him to kill a guy, got really pissed when he didn't, and threw him and his mom and their entire community under the bus when the beast came to take back its stolen power. he doesn't trust religion. he definitely doesn't trust religious authorities.
and now, you know. his quasi-father died (very nearly by the sword sam was given. by the way.) and came back as a religious authority. he actively works in the catholic church. he's a priest. that has to be uniquely shitty for sam. your dad figure is back from the dead (that you probably should have been there to save him from in the first place) and he's not a lawyer anymore but a guy in the exact same position of authority as the one you became blindspot to work against. the one that tried to make you into a murderer. the one that got your mom killed. oh and he doesn't remember you. crazy.
#I guess I what I'm saying is#they should really put sam in the current daredevil run#because the potential for some absolutely crazy awkward pseudofamily dynamics is crazy.#plus what if matt remembers.#“oh shit I told this kid to go live his life and then tried to kill myself with the sword he'd been carrying for like years.”#the sheer amount of guilt#what do you Do after that#look I'm sorry I just. stop chucking sam into the canon void they're fascinating foils okay!#you can't just give daredevil an apprentice#jack him up with religious trauma#kill daredevil in the spot the apprentice was supposed to be guarding#have him come back as an amnesiac catholic priest#and NOT COME BACK TO THE APPRENTICE#also chip zdarsky is a coward and should have let matt kill himself with the sword stick gave sam#the twisted cycle of apprentice and master coming. well not full circle but a wonky little spiral.#sorry elektra your whole fight scene was badass but you are not as conducive to devasting narrative symmetry in this particular instance#i forgot where i was going with this#uh yeah. free my guy he did all of it and it was excellent literary foiling.#sam chung#blindspot#matt murdock#daredevil#kili is rambling again
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if i do "?" in text i'm genuinely tilting my head like a dog if i do "!!" my eyes are sparkling and i am figuratively wagging my tail if i am IN ALL CAPS i'm screaming from the top of a mountain with all the power i can with love and the strength of RAGHHH within me
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#sorry guys. i will not shut up.#honestly i really miss it here on tumblr SNIFFS ..... i say this sm tho but damn real/offline life has really been fun <33#anyway. meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow me#very good day ty to those who greeted me anywhere or even just liked a post as a little hi hbd or just acknowledgement ya know arghhh arghhh#I'M SO TIRED NOW ACTUALLY i'm on 5 battery but watch me keep talking (writing) some more#i'm insane btw i went out w friends earlier this tuesday (love them sm) and then. they pitched in to buy me the origin of species bcs i've#been wanting the book LMFAO AS A BDAY GIFT IDK IT'S SO FUNNY TO ME BUT GENUINELY I'M SO HAPPY (NERD) <333#and today i've talked a lot again w one best friend and another of my dearest friends and another too and idk fun day fr#okay i shut up now#that's a lie btw who knows when i will shut up#i might shut up now actually actually#actually i like rambling it's so fun teehee#BUT YEAH TY AGAIN ... genuinely makes me so happy i feel so giddy i was scared today would turn out bad and hey it isn't perfect but to me#it kinda is. in its own way. imperfectly perfect ^_^ <3 yeehaw!!
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just wanted to say that i hit 300+ followers a long time ago and i just want to say 🥺🥺🥺 thank you !!!!!!! honestly i'm so grateful for all of you, especially as i just yap about different things that you may or may not be into! HBREFHJERBF
i actually do plan on doing an event to celebrate it!! but im so busy ;;A;;; thankfully though, i only have 4 more deadlines for the year and i'll prob start the event somewhere around july and hopefully by then there'd be more!!!!
but right now with like 3 hours of sleep in my system, all i can say now is thank you and i hope you guys continue to support me for a long time 🥺 i'm having a lot of fun here with you all!
#wop wop thats all i rlly wanted to say bJRFBERF#im sorry yalls im so tired#i've only had enough energy to just doodle for close friends in discord#nothing post worthy though#(mostly cause its ocs anyways hbREHJFHBJERF)#but yeah#i'm taking care but i miss drawing BHJRFBEBF#so most likely im gonna do an event where i open art requests for a bit??#but thats a very big depends#if im tired for the whole month of july then im tired for the whole month u know 😭#but i'd love to do a lil small event#we'll see umu umumu#dean rambles#again wanna thank you guys !!!#love u!! mWAH
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I got like. 2 asks asking wtf happened because I reblogged a ton of reblog bait things (I was on a vc and wanted something to do with my hands), and in my haste to respond to them faster despite the fact I was in the Tumblr Timeout Corner I tried to put them in queue and now they're gone with the wind. This was a lesson on patience the gods have given me and I will learn absolutely nothing.
#Yeah sorry guys I'm alive and not hacked im just deranged#Sorry to any of my mutual ever. It may happen again#I was in the timeout corner >:[#But yessss I'm freeeeee to finally reblog the dumb stuff that comes on my page#But fr tho thank you for the concern random anon im fine just really fukin weird#sillyposting#silly#me rambling
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man.
#💭 — ⌗nervo rambles . ★#gonna say I'm venting a bit (kinda of a lot)#but I may seem selfish from this and let me say now ik everyone was putting themselves first (which is a very good thing)#but having three mutuals deactivate their accounts within I think two months or so??#I rlly don't like to be negative and I might also take a break from Tumblr (as much as I love posting here#so I'm still unsure if I'll even stick to that) bc of how negative I've been lately#I just don't want to keep venting and putting that on everyone so#but yeah I just. It makes me sad to see old/new mutuals go#I never thought I'd have to like#witness it#Idk#I've cried over losing them all and it feels rlly silly but I mean idk#I (try to — my feelings with crying are iffy and I hate admitting I do cry) not cry over everything but I just can't word stuff rn#might be posting less/not posting at all for the next few days or so#I'm gonna be busy in July anyways so it's probably better to just say that now#sorry guys I'm just dealing with some stuff mentally lately (an example being gender dysphoria but I can't even word the stuff going on#not to sound like I'm overexaggerating bc I rlly don't wanna seem like I am. It's nothing too serious so don't#be worried at all pls I'm ok enough I won't just disappear)#I just wish I could have alone time in my room with my cats without my family bugging me for a few days#It's tiring atp#I wanna lock myself up just to recooperate and figure out how to deal with certain things the best I can#anyways yap fest over I'm gonna go play wuwa and build Jinshi more#sorry for venting again 🫡🫡
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alright, i think i'm going to close drawing requests for now. maybe i'll open them back up at some point but i'm going to keep them closed for now.
#not art#there's two reasons for this#1. artfight is upcoming ofc#and 2. i'm think of offically opening commissions at some point. once i get my own bank account#and yeah i know it sounds like a rip off to go from free requests to paid ones but i think it will be worth it for myself and you guys#and oh yeah this doesn't mean i'm not going to draw the other requests in my inbox rn#i haven't got to them because there's a lot going on in my life rn so there's not as much time to sit down and draw#but i will get to them. trust me. and if i don't then uhhhhhhh i forgor sorry#maybe if i open free requests again. it will be small sketches while my more complete drawings will be paid.#i think that's a good compromise for my bitches with no money but still want a cool drawing#okay i'm rambling but yeah. requests will be closed unil further notice
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Hello! Do you& know of any pagan-umbrella deities that're plural or could have domain over plurality in any way? We're looking for someone to devote to, someone we can ask and thank for good fortune/etc related to multiplicity functions and such. We collectively identify as a Chaos witch so technically we could search for one across the multiverse but we'd really prefer one from this world. Thank you!
So I'll preface this first by saying this kind of isn't my wheelhouse. Most of our system works with entities that are able to communicate within the system (as participant in daily life) or are derived from our exomemories (like Narty from the innerworld). We tend to avoid working with externally sourced entities as a stopgap to keep them from messing around with our system (either on purpose or not). It gets real weird real fast when you start introjecting Gods.
Now, that being said, we are interested in the theory behind worship. Say, "in what aspects is [x] God worshiped in? Why?" Again: we're coming at this question with the big ass pin of "we don't technically work with external entities for this kind of stuff." Your mileage will vary here.
So, since we can't give y'all any specific deities to do research on, instead we'll say this: when you're looking for a deity that is plural or could reasonably have domain over plurality:
Do you consider epithets and the fragmentary nature of Divinity to be plural? In other words; if Divinity can be worshiped in many diverse aspects, some of which may be broadly different in scope or temperament, is that plural to you? Are there elements of the world which you gravitate towards and see yourselves in (ex: relating to the Moon because of its ever-changing yet ever-same faces)? If any of this is "yeah" then:
What are some core ideas you hold true about your plurality? The goals of your worship might offer you a starting point to kick off of here. Real reductive examples here but: say you view this goal as primarily one of Health, so you might investigate the Divine associated with Health/Healing/etc.; but if you view the goal as primarily one dealing with, say, spirit work (this is the most relevant example I could think of since we have a lot of dead people in our system), you might try to work with the Divine associated with Death/Grief/etc.
If approaching Divinity associated with plurality in the world, then consider how that might affect your path. Are you going to approach the Divine from one aspect alone, or do you intend to work with the broader strokes of that Deity? Understand that your goals may guide you a bit better here, but from what little I know about Chaos witchcraft (very little), y'all probably know quite a bit about throwing things at the wall and finding what sticks as opposed to what stinks.
If none of the above appeal to you, meanwhile, the search for plurality in the Divine might be a little messy and complicated. It's hard to pin down examples of Gods that you could definitively label "plural," because sometimes that comes down to UPG, as well as what you might be looking for as plural. The only example coming to mind right now is Janus, the Roman God of Boundaries (forgive me if that's a bit reductive). But that said, the answer also might not be obvious if you're looking for a very strict definition of plurality in the Divine.
Uh, anyways, I'm sure other people in the witchblr and pluralgang spaces could chime in better than we can, considering our lack of expertise here.
-Heitaros (he/him)
#pluralgang#witchcraft#witchblr#dg writes#ramblings#heitaros talks#heitaros#it feels so clinical to type my whole ass name like that jfc#but yeah hopefully folks in the tags have something to add to this conversation#really sorry about the lengthy mostly non-answer lmao but i'm a dead guy from a fictional world#most i have to say is “fuck it we gut god and become it” /j /ref#and again any work we do with divinity is purely limited to in-sourced divinity or sol's whole weird deal
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r.une is so awesome! he's the kindest guy ever and I always drop by the thieves guild whenever I'm not doing anything just to hear his pretty voice
#ash rambles 💚#and he's handsome!#steal me away 🐉#ugh it's been so long since i've played s.kyrim#or uh. anything other than c.yberpunk#school keeps me busy and#i also got some wisdom teeth removed today! and two other teeth! it's... not the most comfortable! I'm trying to stay chill about it but#FUCK i miss solid food so much#anyways I'll try my best to get some sleep! I'm trying to downplay it but it's probably not a good idea to like. not rest after all that#so yeah if i havent been as activate as of late it's just a mixture of that + school + me trying to platinum cy.berpunk 2077#i think I'm at about 75% trophy achievement? which isnt bad at all#sorry i was talking about r.une#s.kyrim has ass lighting but. his eyes are actually green! i just think he's sooooo handsome!#I can't really kiss since my face is all swollen but i am mentally kissing him all over! he's just such a sweet guy! i know i ship with a#lot of men that are a little rough around the edges but. not him#he's just a genuinely nice guy#(ignorethat hes part of the thieves guild)#oh speaking of I've started to play o.ctopath 2 again. starting to drag myself out of my gaming slump#it's just... been such a crazy last few weeks. with school and life and my mouth... and the roadtrip in which our tire went kaboom in the#middle of nowhere.. everyone is okay but it's still definitely a moment that made me go 'what the hell is wrong with ash's life' LMAAAOO#gonna save that story for the grandkids! BAHAHAHAHAA#oh speaking of kiddos. i've been developing the kiddo for s.eifer a lot as of late! her name is selena + she wields a gunblade like her pap#and just like how her papa has a thing for s.quall (/hj) she has a thing for s.quall's kid LMAAAOO#ah shit it's almost 3am.. I'm gonna go to sleep! i should rest after today#good night my friends#or. well. good morning. since you know. it's so late ajdkahsjq#I'll get back to the regularly scheduled f/o posting eventually <3#your knight until the end 🤍#also also I've been reading john koenigs the dictionary of obscure sorrows and annotating it like the nerd i am. fucking hell it's so good#apologies to all my friends who keep getting spammed with me analyzing it LMAAAAOO y'all are the best
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How to write Main Character: Make them feel unique,make them feel different but also familiar. Like you can see them everywhere at the same time nowhere
Or we can go the easy road and make one with God complex
I feel like ppl don't really make good main characters anymore. They feel the same these days
Ehhh???
Honestly, people do make good main characters, you just have to look. Usually easier to find in non-YA novels, in my experience. They tend to feel more like fleshed-out *people* with their own life-experience than vessels for the reader to insert themselves into,
Which, ironically enough, makes it easier for me to relate to them, even if we are otherwise very different people. If you make your character a person, then inevitably, some of those experiences line up.
If anything, trying to walk that tightrope of having your character just "unique" enough to be interesting while still "relatable" enough as to appeal to as many people as possible is where things can get muddy and you end up failing either way.
I think it tends to affect some genres more than others, but at the end of the day... It really isn't as bad of an issue as people make it out to be. Like, yeah. Mediocre literature exists. Things tend to be mid more than they are especially good or bad.
And I think that's fine.
Plus, tastes vary. There's no doubt alot of stuff I love that people will look at and say is subpar. There is no objective way of looking at fiction-- We all come in with our own biases.
I'm going offtopic. Hope the first half of this reply made sense. Apologies if I've completely misunderstood your point.
I dunno, I just hear these complaints, and it makes me think of alot of those shitty writing guides that I used to eat up (often made by amateur writers themselves), which were very insistent on finding the "right" way to write and ruthlessly mocking anything "bad."
I don't think that's what you were going for, at all, but I still think it's very generalising, and I'm not sure what to make of it?
#scrawny rambles#scrawny answers#sorry this reply is a mess#but i just. kinda struggled to see what you were getting at?#some of that is no doubt down to me and my tendency to overanalyse everything#but yeah as someone who doesn't jive to well with protags in more mass-produced/mainstream media#i get that to an extent#even in the event they're otherwise good characters! i dunno man i just Don't Click#i've always been a villain girlie for reasons i still struggle to both articulate and comprehend#but yeah my main disagreement (i guess?) with your original ask was that it felt too general#like? who/what are we talking about? mainstream media? YA novelists? detective novels by Some Guy™? amateur writers???#is this chiming in on the xreader ask?#because in that case i'd argue it's a combination of amateur writing and being in a genre which inherently prioritises casting a broad net#and the particular people within that net#not everyone fits the common denominator for an audience and the dissonance is more jarring when the protag is meant to be 'you'#but again i'm not sure#not hostile at all btw i appreciate your willingness to chat#i'm just struggling how to parse this? it feels a bit unclear#thank you regardless#i'm sure this reply has been plenty weird and unclear itself... ah...
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it's sunday, my fucking ankles and knees hurts like bitches AND i still gotta go to work until 12pm 🙂
#kelin talks#kelin's ramblings#ohhhh i'm gonna lose my mind so bad if they ONCE again offend me in front of customers like–#who tf are you to diminish me AND THEN pretend that i stay?????#you fuckers where the fucking second choice literally so where's all this narcissism coming from??? 😭#literally could've gone babysitting for 3/4hrs and get 300€#instead of staying in a ice-cream shop for 9hrs + overwork time and get 600€ like–#for a workplace like this one guys is truly not worth#they're such tyrants like– in 4 days i got told that i suck so many times that yeah... yesterday i had the outburst yall witnessed 😀#PLUS if we get more workers... my chief is planning to make us work on our resting day too...#ohhh but i'll make sure to leave before that happens#sorry for this many amount of rants guys but yeah... i'm so fucking tired...#i've already surpassed my work time by LOTS on the third day lmfao
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once again i implore you to listen to ffxiv ost 🙏
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#i cld ramble on n on about the lyrics n everything n#hdflkasjdflksdfjsad 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼#apollo's logged into my instagram account n vice versa#THE FINAL FANTASY DJ GUY#i ramble so much on tumblr that i'm too shy on even like. close friends on ig i don't rlly put the time#but. bro. wnvr apollo n i nerd out or wtvr he hypes us !!!!#😭😭 dude's so nice i think it rlly does mean a lot to him that apollo n i r like. rlly passionate about. yk interests that he shares#so wait context yes i'm logged into apollo's account ^^ so i see stuff in my notifs#🥺 said smth like yk 'wish i had your confidence when i was about your age' & HE'S GNA. RLLY ACTUALLY PLAY FFXIV SOON#hdfaksldjfl pls.. world transfer.. to materia T_T#ngl if i cld have a free world transfer again to like. idk wherever. i think i'd go to elemental bcs currently problem is kinda ping still#i mean. not that it's actually a problem rn. but. yeah.#elemental wld still be better but the free world transfer to materia.. :^) in the future though i know i'm not staying in materia so#rip gil? 😭 nah i'm a crafter anyways actually hehe. i think dude's just like. ah yeah free trial. but i think he's gna buy again.#sorry i ended up rambling abt that i just get rlly excited when it comes to ffxiv n any of my friends#as much as i ramble on tumblr i don't actually. typically share stuff directly w others? :< maybe some friends but#yeah usually i just have apollo. n before i'd usually be the ones listening n. sometimes i'd even get uncomfortable when i'd#be given the chance or like yk given encouragement to share too (trust issues </3)#WAIT I'M RAMBLING 😭 yeah bcs i rlly wna share ffxiv stuff or ff in general n talk abt it w others aaaaa#like i'm listening to return to oblivion rn n. 🥹😭 T_T :^) HDLSKFJASLKDF#wahh that said though most of the things i have to do this week r. actually today. bcs i'm helping w the script#n my grpmates r gna do more on the video bcs i might fuck up or smth w speaking in filipino T_T then lit's gna be fun#but it's due 10 pm today n i haven't started anything yet#whoops! i guess i'll take a nap first though <3 (pls do not follow my example. i'll get it done anyways but Don't)
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I honestly have never understood why this line is so hated. I have seen people use it to villainize Ford. I would like to say that I agree with all of your points. It was completely wrong for him to project his relationship with his brother onto Dipper. He definitely has convinced himself that his and Stan's relationship has always been bad.
We don't know much about how it was in the past. However, it seems that they were always grouped together as a pair. It was always Stan and Ford. Additionally, Stan gives off codependency vibes during the incident, while at the same time, Ford seems very independent. He has zero issues with the prospect of going to a university across the country.
I believe that this dynamic probably caused some issues. While I doubt teenage Ford thought of their relationship as suffocating, I'm sure he got annoyed and/or frustrated at times. He was never seen as his own person; he was just part of a pair. Stan probably loved it, maybe even encouraged it. Remember, it is not wrong to want to be your own person!
Again, I'm not saying that it was right in any way for Ford to say this. At least not to Dipper. This is very much a conversation he needs to have with Stan. What I'm trying to say is that I believe that there is a valid basis and some truth behind that statement and shouldn't be judged point blank.
I think so much about Ford's line "And isn't it suffocating?" when Dipper says he's never been away from Mabel. Side barring how insane it is to project onto a twelve yr old boy, I think it really shows how Ford's perception of his and Stan's relationship has perverted over the forty years they were apart. We know they were close at Mabel and Dipper's age. But Ford's convinced himself that it was always bad, that his brother always had poor intent for him, always held him back, because if that's wrong, if his brother really did make a mistake, then it means he doubted the brother that loved him and he loved in turn.
#i'm not trying to say that ford is unflawed#he is incredibly flawed#but that doesn't mean he's a bad person#look#he and stan had a fight#he was frustrated and understandably so#however#he didn't really have an opportunity to actually talk with stan for a long while#we know that filbrick was bad father#he 100% influenced how ford thought about things#and then he would hear about stories and rumors about stan#reinforcing the beliefs that filbrick had given him#and THEN#bill comes along and double downs on what his father has taught him#and once again#i'm not excusing what ford has done#i'm not trying to say that he wasn't accountable for his actions#but holy shit guys#people are COMPLICATED#please for the love of god read about humanism#it's a psychological approach and something i believe everyone should know about#it just#annoys me when people are like#“oh my god he's awful for thinking like that”#like yeah it's definitely harsh#but that doesn't mean that it's wrong for ford to have wanted his own life??#it was wrong for him to say that but that doesn't mean his feelings are invalid??#also sorry op for rambling on your post#i'm not even really commenting on what you said 😭#unrelated but i can write an essay on how filbrick has horribly affected both twin's mindsets
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