#yeah thats right im looking at you.......🤬🤬

[pipinpali]

Hdisjsnris im realizing i haven't posted in. days.

Heres a little. Little clip of the short rough animation I'm gonna make

[ssparksflyy]

jason grace dating hcs ִֶָ ࣪ ִֶָ♱་༘࿐

pairing jason grace x child of mors hcs warning slight mentions of death i guess but thats kind of a given an based off this request !! hope u enjoy

nothing has ever quite been able to top the wave emotions that hit jason when he saw you for the first time

some call it love at first sight i call it love at first sight

like just imagine little jason stopping mid tracks eyes wide and jaw open

you thought it was weird

cause it’s your first day at this random camp, you just found out(and are still processing) that your dad is a roman god ???

as if that wasnt weird enough now theres this tiny white boy staring right at you

so of course you hit em with that "whatcha lookin at punk 🤬🤬🤬" cause your so #hardcore #punk #rock #rebel

no im kidding you just give him a nasty ass look and hes runs away

very short interaction but its one he wont forget

i wanna say youre like eight when you get to camp just for lore reasons

it actually takes a hot second for you to get claimed, im talking like two maybe three years

yeah your dads not the best

but as soon as you do, all your friends DITCH YOU ??

except for

youll never guess who

jason !!

in the time where you were unclaimed, you and jason slowly got close but with him now being one of the only people you hung out with, you got even closer

somewhere along the way, reyna joined your little group and you instantly got close with her as well

(shes out here collecting her creepy kids)

you didnt really have a movie-like friendship with her, but you had a lot of respect for each other and trusted each other deeply

leading to the sharing of private stories and secrets, aka making her the first person to know about *drum roll please* your crush on jason !!! yayyyyy

turns out you didnt even have to tell her that cause she literally just said "oh yea i already knew that"

and you were like ?? okay

just cause you were aware of your feelings (and jason was aware of his) does not mean that you did anything about itttt

reyna spent YEARS watching you two awkwardly interact, both way too afraid to even insinuate any romantic feelings

aka : you thought he wouldnt like you cause ur weird + he thought you only saw him as a friend and didnt share the feelings

only when this boy gets snatched outta nowhere do your feeling really hit you like a double decker bus

waves of really anxious feelings begin coming in more often as time goes on and less people begin to care about his disappearance

butcha never give up and thats what matters !!

reyna's there by your side the entire time, comforting when u need it ♡

then like this one guy shows up i dont remember his name i think hes like the son of neptune or something like that

anyway he goes on a quest or something ?? dont really remember why he's relevant

you do become friends though so theres that

but like best part about him is that the search party that came to find him had jason with them !!!

your heart must've stopped when you saw him cause you were frozen in shock until reyna gave you a shove and suddenly you were racing towards this boy, and he was also coming at you

you collided somewhere in the middle, embracing each other tightly

and you ALMOST

key word almost

kissed him

but not yet !!

lets be honest, nobody wants lore and ive got homework due in a bit so to put it short: after you awkwardly peel yourself off of jason, you end up joining the seven and their quest to stop motha nature! the first few days are a little awkward with the others (mainly cause you've never been much of a people person) but spend so much time with jason !

you swap stories about his time away from camp and gets you a little closer to the friends he met on the way- particularly leo and piper

they soon connect with you, eager to learn more about you after the stories theyve heard from jason and you end that day walking into your room super giddy

just as you were getting into bed however, GUESS WHO WALKS IN

JASON.

"veronica what are you doing in my room??"

he plops down on your bed and makes a little small talk, watching you through the mirror atop the desk you were sitting at

the room gets quiet once you finish and walk over to the bed, the white noise of the ship's engine running being the only thing you hear

as you sit down next to him on your bed, you turn to face him with a soft smile

he returns the smile and starts fidgeting with his hands as he tries to find the words for what hes about to say

omg is he about to say what i think he is ?!?11/1

yea

he starts off his ramble talking about the first time he saw you, how much fun he had growing up with you, then went onto how lost he felt without you and eventually tied it up with a lovey dovey gush about how youve changed his life forever

youd think the guy is proposing

but he’s actually just confessing his feelings for you!!! how cute

you're left a little shocked cause what!! what do you mean jason grace likes you!!!

pretty sure you know what happens next and soon enough your walking around with your finger interlocked and receiving pecks on your nose like its nobody's business

once you actually start dating, the shift from friends to lovers isnt too drastic

cause you already spend so much time together and know everything about each other, it's just now you dont have to hold back the urge to kiss and hug him at every breathing moment

the honeymoon phase is crazyyyyyy

like yall cant get off each other

once you ease out of it, you're still super affectionate with each other, just now its not super shocking that you're dating your best friend and have instead adapted to it

as semi mentioned before, jason looves holding your hand whenever you're together and adores pecking the tip of your nose, forehead, and cheeks

jason is so excited to show you camp half blood and show you his favorite spots when you agree to visiting

you end up really enjoying the camp and have an amazing time swimming in the lake, taking nature walks in the forest, and ending the night cuddled up in cabin one together

but nothing can beat your sleepovers, coffee shop dates, university lecture sit-ins, and afternoon strolls that you have at camp jupiter

its truly your home and you wouldn't choose to live your life with jason anywhere else in the world

things don't really change friends wise

though you do get closer with some people in your classes

pretty soon you're living the dream; a small(ish) circle of friends you know you can trust, two homes, a supportive best friend, and your dream guy right by your side everyday

his favorite way to spend weekends with you is by watching popular movies and ranking them based on the toll the have on his life

#1 on his list? dead poets society

(guys i have not recovered. its been a WEEK AND I HAVENT MOVED ON I DONT THINK I EVER WILL)

he literally has 'carpe diem' scribbled on a lined piece of paper right next to his bed

you are yet to miss a movie night together

you always end up having them, one way or another

honestly, your parents don't have much effect on your life

other than the fact you're into darker things and have been your whole life, your dad and his image haven't had much of an effect on your life

he doesn't acknowledge you and truth be told, you're glad he doesnt

not to forget romans view it as bad luck, so having brunch with death every sunday isn't too appealing to you

you really dont mind it, and jason doesn't mind jupiter too much either

he simply kind of lives his life without really thinking about him, he's happy without him having a role in his life anyway

yknow why?

cause he has you!!! duhhhh

you end up living your life all happy together and its great ‹𝟹

[diorsluv]

casual , part 12

“ knee deep in the passenger seat and you’re eating me out ”

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next chapter notes ) i haven’t updated this in a week guys am i cooked?!?! wanna start that rut au so badly but i don’t want it to flop and i also don’t wanna put another au on hold 😔😔

tags: @dancerbailey3 @hughesfein @loveforaugust @alwaysclassyeagle @love4ldr @inhoodmood @bunting58 @crazycat-ladys-blog @smoooore @bunbunbl0gs @lilasianmeat

[oreoov]

��� ─ 𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐍 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐒, 𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐍 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒 ..?

kazuha x gn!reader / fluffy fluff / modern au <3

synopsis ─ you and kazuha seem to be more than friends, but at the same time, none of you have ever confessed so .. what exactly are you guys ..?

warnings : the word "hell", lots of and lots of teasing, kissing (idk how to put warnings so im just putting anything that sounds bad to some people LMAO)

notes : HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAZUHA!! (im very late but we dont talk about that) btw u guys should read my other kazuha fic because it didn't wanna show on tags and it flopped so bad!!! 🤬🤬

you were confused, puzzled, bewildered. kazuha has hugged you, yes. hold hands? always. cuddled? yes .. kissed ..? maybe once or twice but never on the lips .. but he never confessed or confirmed anything.

or maybe close friends just do that right ..? right .......?????

thats what you were trying to figure out for the past hour in this oh, so boring math class. you were too focused you didn't even notice kazuha staring at your gaze.

"are you okay? you know, its quite strange to me that you've been focusing on class a lot more these past days .." he whispers with a faint chuckle as he continues to look at you with the soft gaze of his.

ah yes, totally focusing in class .. if only he knew what you were thinking about this entire time!

"you should focus too zuha! stop looking at me like that .." you mumbled out quitely, a soft tint of red slowly came to sight on your cheeks.

"mhm .. my bad, its kind of your fault for looking so cute though." he teases you once more before finally turning away from you, proceeding to focus onto class just like what you told him to do.

you blushed even more by the comment .. ahahah .. close friends definitely don't say stuff like that. so why hasn't he said anything about it yet? you wanted to smack kazuha in the face for leaving it so unclear! or maybe you were just blind.

the bell suddenly rang, class was dismissed. both you and kazuha headed out of class, off to the cafeteria. and of course, he interwined his soft hands with yours.

because of this simple action, many rumors about you both possibly dating has suddenly appeared day by day. and yet, even you didn't know the clear answer to that.

the thought of dating him was never a bad idea in your opinion. is he cute, adorable, and handsome? yes. is he loving and caring? yes. is he smart? yes. is he too friendly with others? maybe ... but is he boyfriend material? yes, YES, YEYSYEYSS. (mb for simping)

do you like him? yes ....

"do you want anything? i'll pay for you!" kazuha interrupted your thoughts once again as he asked you with his signature soft, gentle smile that was only reserved for you.

"uhh .. not really hungry right now, thanks for asking though!" you returned a smile to him before looking away into your surroundings again.

"wrong answer, love. ill get you your fav okay? go find a seat while i get your food." oh, what a gentleman, but .. he. called. you. "LOVE"?!?

you wanted to jump out of this world!! your face was so red and your heart is bouta explode! you swear that this is gonna be your last straw and you are going to confront him right now!!!

"u- uh .. oh uhm yeah, ill go sit over there alright? uhh ..." ahahha .. yes, totally confront him ...

you turned back, face was still red as hell as you approached the empty table you're going to sit at. you took a seat and covered your face with your hands.

you need to ask him about all this sooner or later. you couldn't bare another day like this, but what if he actually doesn't like you? and he was just doing those gestures as friends ..?

your mind kept running back and forth from the only two possibilities that there could be ; "hes only doing that as friends ..." or "he literally wants me so bad."

you sighed as you watch him approach you with your food. you thanked him for the food and started to dig in, but he wasn't eating ...

"aren't you going to eat anything ..." i looked at him with a confused and worried look. what a hypocrite smh ...

"im not hungry right now, dont worry!" he responds with his soft smile again which always manages to makes your heart melt.

"y- you ... ughh ... here, lets just share .. you damn hypocrite." you scoffed as you pushed your plate closer to the center of the table.

he chuckles at you, but he accepts the food either ways to avoid you worrying for him. he only a ate a little though .. since he knows you hate sharing your favorite food!

you both ate over with a conversation, talking with him was always so easy. somehow, there was never a time where there wasn't a topic to talk about .. another reason to date him .....

"ah- wait ... i gotta get my book at my locker after this. you wanna come?" kazuha asked as he took his last bite, and so did you.

"ohhh .. sure, actually im gonna get my book too!"

"alright then, let's go" he reached his hand out for you again as he stood up. that simple gesture was enough to make you blush again.

he brought you along the hallways, which was quite empty, as everyone was mostly at the cafeteria. maybe .. maybe this is a proper chance to ask him ..?

your hands started to get sweaty as you got more nervous just because of one simple question. and of course kazuha notices ... because thats just how he is!

"are you alright? you seem quite nervous .." he stopped walking to check up on you.

your heart instantly dropped as he asked if you were okay. this is the chance to confront him, and to get this all over with!! just 1 simple question ... you can do it!!!

"i- uhm .."

"yes? you what ?"

"kazuhawhatexactlyarewebecauseyoukeepconfusingmewithyouractionsbutyouneverconfessedanythingsoidkwhatsgoingon"

"uhh, sorry but .. could you perhaps .. speak slower?"

you sighed as you had to repeat everything you said to him again!! your heart was beating faster and faster by every second, it was about to explode ...

"w- what i asked was .. what exactly are we ..? you keep confusing me with your actions since you know .. im pretty sure friends dont act like this, right?" you looked down as you were in a blushing mess. he was even still holding your hand oh so gently.

he chuckles softly, he didn't even blink. it was as if he was already expecting this question. and he was waiting for you to ask! "well, what do you think we are silly?" he chuckles again.

"i- i dont know!! thats why im asking you!! you're the one thats silly ..." you scoffed at him as you let go of his hand.

he couldn't contain his laugh as he took both of your hands again. "then ill ask a different question, what do you want us to be ..?"

uh oh ... things were not supposed to go this way and he was definitely not supposed to ask you this question!!! "u- uhm .. i- i guess more than .. friend's ..?"

"oh, come on dear, im not accepting that as an answer. you should be more specific to avoid anymore confusion! tell me, do you want us to be friends, or lovers?" he smirked, he was enjoying teasing you a little too much ...

"y- you ..!! i- i want us to be .. lovers. alright? i said it so stop teasing me now, this is so embarrassing!!" you were surely gonna die from embarrassment, and it was all because of kazuha ...

he chuckles at you, he couldn't help it. "alright, alright ill stop, im sorryyy, i couldn't help it! you were too adorable for your own good ..."

he continues "but, im also sorry for leaving it unclear, my dear." he pats your head softly as he embraces you softly.

"s- so .. were like, dating .. i guess? uhm .." surely it felt awkward for you, but you were also relieved! atleast now you know that he feels the same.

he laughs in amusement because of your constant confusion "yes, yes we are my love. you know what? how about i give you a proper kiss incase you're still confused? do i have your permission to do that ..?"

"f- fine .."

(insert kissing scene cuz idk how to write one LMAO)

[choccy-milky]

1. your fic is absolutely amazing. Have been bingeing it and I’m literally obsessed. The way you write just itches my brain in such a good way, literally cannot contain my love and appreciation for your work👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 cheers to you!!! Can’t wait to keep reading

2. As I was reading I found out you also deadass drawing the art to go w/ the fic?? Literally you’re living my dream 😭 plus your art is so so so well done!!!!! It’s added so much joy to my reading experience

Cannot wait to see what else you have in store!!’ Hope you have an amazing, AMAZING day, week, year, etc.!!!! 💞🙌🏻🫶🏻

OMG IM GONNA CRY 😭😭 BAHAHA U SENT THIS AT SUCH A CRAZY MOMENT cuz i just checked my ao3 comments and was down about a rude comment i got, and then i come to tumblr and like, a few mins later/literally AS i was venting about it, u send this BAHAHA your choccy senses were tingling. IM SO GLAD U LIKE IT THO AND THAT YOURE ENJOYING IT (and my drawings, even if youve defs seen spoilers by now BAHHA) hope u have a good day too, u defs brightened mine!! THANK UUUU💖💖💖

@kaviary-blog this looks so funny bc i censored u just to keep it (mostly) spoiler free BUT AW THANK U DAMN IM HONOURED THAT MY FANFIC WAS THE ONE TO MAKE YOU CRY?? IM SO HAPPY HOW INVESTED YOU ARE 😭😭💖💖 im also super happy with that chap and its so satisfying like you said to finally be able to tie of all those threads so IM GLAD IT WAS WORTH IT💖

@lovesicklovermia ONE DAY???? OMG. FIRST TWO DAYS NOW ONE?? ITS JUST GETTING SHORTER AND SHORTER. next thing i know someones gonna be like yeah so i took some highly experimental drug that lets me read at 1000% the pace of a normal person, and i finished ur fic in 2 hours 😍omg loved it!!!😍😍 BAHAHAHA but omg i totally see what u mean, they do HAHA. AND THANK U💖💖 IM GLAD UR LIKING IT💖

YEAH so in my fic fifth years are 16, and by the time things get....explicit....clora and seb are 17. im not against consuming media with teenagers depicted in sexual situations like euphoria or riverdale or w.e else bc i get that its fiction and these are just real things that happen so its fine to write about them, but their canonical ages of 15 was still too young for me and i wanted them to be 17 before it got the E rating (which is why clora and sebs birthdays end up being so close, bc i was RUSHING for them to turn 17 BAHAHHAA)

BAHAHA clora and seb secretly being together is like the most poorly kept secret in my fic, like im sure her parents technically KNOW, but due to old fashioned traditions and whatnot (and it being 1891) seb wants to be able to propose properly and with a proper ring, bc clive is intimidating and he doesnt wanna just be like "yeah so im dating your daughter and weve already fucked and i plan to marry her" LOOL he wants to do things properly and be with her with her dads permission(even tho its a bit late for that HAHA) BUT WE CAN JUST PRETEND. tldr its basically just out of some sense of chivalry on sebs side, a fear of her dad, and wanting to do things right LOL

ALSO WAIT OMG STOPPPPP I WAS LITERALLY JUST ABOUT TO POST THIS BUTI HAVE TO INCLUDE THIS NOW

YOU SAW MY POST AND IMMEDIATELY DREW THIS AS A RESPONSE WHILE IN CLASS?? BAHAHAHA IM ACTUALLY SO TOUCHED RN IM TEARING UP WTF THATS SO SWEET OF YOU WTFFFFFFFFF THANK YOU SO MUCH😭😭😭💖💖 (NOW PAY ATTENTION IN CLASS!!🤬🤬)

[miumura]

what do ur moots remind you of?! (ex. places, color, song, etc)

ooo another moot game ! tysm anon :) <3 ill only do a few cause im on a brainrot rn 😭😭

@flwoie — bad by wave to earth

bc u literally make my day 100% better. i always look forward to talking to you!! like you’re someone i can talk about anything with bc you wouldn’t judge me 🙁 like im prob on disc most of the time talking to u or waiting for a dm back. but yeah, i could never be bored when talking to you 🤗 love u lots pooks 🤍🤍🤍

@wvnkoi — one and only by enhypen

i was truly lucky to have you in my inbox (or for me to being in yours) 🙁🫶 like u acc put up with my bs and im so glad for that </3 U R MY ONE AND ONLY FR !!!! like who does it like u tbh … im always looking forward to our convos whether u think otherwise 🤍 but yes please be more active bc i cant be missing one of my ramyeonz 😊

@haknom — jolly ranchers but green apple

this is SOOOO random but HEAR ME OUT i love love LOVE jolly ranchers, just like how much i love you (ohhhh was that smooth 😍😍😍) which is a lot LMFAO. but i love green apple sm u dont understand…its pretty unexplainable why ure so fun to be with but us 08z r js like that!! UNBREAKABLE BOND!!!! #jolly-ranchers-w-soph-foreva #just-like-sola (soph + kayla .. get it)

@yeokii — nail polish 😊

listen hana ure prob like … erm What the freak!!! but just hear me out. nail polish isnt good for u (js like how ure not good w/ me /j) to smell but its addicting. thats like u and me cause ure addicting to talk to u (or make fun of) AND ITS GETTING OUT OF HAND!!! but its like a guilty pleasure soooo be glad i only had good things to say. love ya official 08z goofball !!!

@yenqa — strawberries

u just do 🤨🤨 like idk strawberries taste vary depending on the harvest / kind u get .. like sometimes u can be vv sweet and super kind 🙁 and then we have the sour kinds where u used to (and still do) hate on me and fight me 🤬 at least ure not bad like hana ALL JOKES but strawberries r a superior fruit so ure superior in my book 🤗🤗🤗

@yswon — hi-chew candies

hi-chews r too good n need to be talked abt more!!! js like ur blog (it deserves all the love) idk how to explain it, but u remind me of the candy in a way…like could be sweet if u pick the right ones 🙏 and u cant tell me hi-chews dont fit ur blog rn!!!! like its a comfort candy + super soft = amazing type of candy i tell u. nobody does hi-chew like this which makes u awesome n unique 😍 … what am i even saying urm but u get it (hopefully)

@soov — beaches

beaches r really pretty (just like you) and i really like how calming they can be. but sometimes, they can get violent as the waves of the ocean crash and could nearly drown u (js like how u could kill me w/ ur pics ohhhh) LMFAO but i really do love them!!! and i just get that beachy vibe from your blog too :)

guys i swear i was gonna do more than this but i really cannot think rn 😭 sorry i may have not tired my brain out writing (soph cb???) so its hard to come up w/ reasons why i think ure this etc etc. i could prob edit this post or js say in the comments what u remind me of if u do wanna know ^^ <3!

[sea-dwelling-wizard]

GUESS WHO'S BACK NERDS

THATS RIGHT. ITS ME NERDS 😎😎😎😎😎

(says the girl nerd who left for 3 months for academic validation)

ANYWAYS.

TELL ME HOW YOUR YEAR WENT. WHAT YOUR PLANS ARE FOR THE WEEK. DID YOU FEED YOUR PETS. DID YOU BUY THAT OUTFIT. 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

i will try to respond to everything!!!!

i also have some plans for this blog hehehehe

i will be posting more of my art!! i have some stuff in mind, both ocs and fanart!

more writing stuff, focused towards my characters!

i've started animating. yes, me. i made this in my free time in fact

yeah its.. uh.. its mmd :D im getting back into my vocaloid phase and i have some ideas for mmd i wanna explore! this was a shitpost and there will be more

i'm also planning on live2d!!

finally, an aesthetic change! i'm going for a more deep-sea, starry vibe with a hopeful theme! my intro post will be changed, too!

that's it for now!!!!!!

sorry for calling you guys nerds btw ;-;

i'm looking forward to talking and interacting more on Tumblr!!!!!!!!! love uuu <3

[captainaikus]

hello love!

its not any fun if you push yourself to exhaustion, so don't worry about it! although, i wont stop you from making a 5th edition. just be careful if you do, okay? we dont want you overworking yourself!

back to convo: MY IN LAWS ARE OBSESSED WITH ME YESSSS <33 WHAT IS UP WITH LIKE ISEKAI AND REINCARNATION? LIKE ITS FUNNY BUT ITS INTERESTING EVEN THOUGH YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOING DOWN? Oh. its the hot men. oops. well even though its predictable, theyre still fun to read even though theyre cliche.

KRJDJSB YOUR LEAST FAVORITES LMAOOO 😭 THEYRE EGOISTS BUT THEYRE HOT? THE ONLY EXCUSE TBH. but your last two, tbh theyre not that hot in my opinion... i totally get it 😭 nothing like being a camera/women whore to make us angry.

YES PINK <3 I SAY ITS THE BEST COLOR OUT THERE! i myself am more of a reddish-pink but like- really light yknow? pastel, but its really cute! painted my room a piglet pink for that :) the other pastels are cute too! even orange, which is the worst color. guys can hate on me but i hate orange. if you like orange youre WRONG 🤬 (ofc guys im just joking please dont get offended 😰)

THATS SO CUTE? EXCUSE ME? A LITTLE SAFE HAVEN MANSION PLEASE AND LIKE BEAUTY AND THE BEAST? GOALS? <33

about me, huh? umm its a little long sorry

my favorite songs are bug, fragile, & airhead(vocaloid). my aesthetics are softcore, cottagecore, kawaii, & japanese school aesthetics! basically anything pastel, pink, beige, plant, or japanese! i looked up softcore to confirm my suspicions and um... i got p*rn. uh guys make sure when youre searching up softcore that you search up 'softcore aesthetic' instead because.. i mean unless you wanna get p*rn. that's fine ig?

my top favorites animes/manga are toilet bound hanako kun, bungo stray dogs, hunter x hunter, & blue lock :) mainly because they contain my favorite characters: aoi akane, ranpo, killua, & nagi :)

i love sweet food, as well as asian food (especially basic beef pho)! i cant handle spicy, but im fine with the burn. its the pain that comes with it. ouch. BUT IM ASSUMING YOU HAVE HIGHER TOLERANCE 👀 like jalapeños? you can eat them without dying, right? please tell me some good spicy foods for beginners! i can handle like... pepperoni and like... spicy barbecue sauce, and hot doritos? 😭

AND THE PANTIES DISCUSSION? THERES MORE. INTIMATE THINGS? NO. GET READY FOR:

loincloth

undies

underpants

underclothes/clothing

long johns

underthings (did u already list this? 😭)

skivvies

I KNOW THAT SOME ARE FOR GUYS BUT I CANT IMAGINE WRITING A SMUT FIC AND PUTTING: "take off your long johns babe, because it's gonna be a long night." LIKE PLEASE? WHAT? 😭😭 I CANT???

also im sorry im not calling you belle! im used to calling people love or lovely! if youd like me to instead call you belle just tell me! its ok if you dont like the nickname :)

DESPITE ALL OF THAT i hope today's a great day/night for you as well! byebye lovely! <3

- 🌸 anon

ty for understanding doll 🥹 so yeah there would be a 5th edition but I'm taking my time with it Don't even get me started on the hot men in webtoons (got a woman in there too) - I’ve read a lot of Manhwas too (some BL)

i started reading one today - the boxer (still on chapter 3 - but so far it’s going good) my moods in two panels

one of the comments really said “albino Bakugou” 🥹😭

they certainly are hot v.v adam disappointed me. There was so much potential in there the beard n aura but no. oliver is kinda a whore my whore pink is also said to have a calming effect compared to other colors. imo- yellow is the worst color out there, but I've gotten used to it haha yeah the Budapest hotel is my mansion :) ooh vocaloids! i listen to them as well (esp the wowaka's album) n deco! (i listen to a lot of genres tbh, phonk, classical n all - you name it but i think my writing gives lana del rey vibes cause it is tragic n ambiguous at times?) oh yeah there have been times when i have seen nsfw things on tumblr when just scrolling through for some blog aesthetics 0v0 i have one too many fav animes but here we go :

• jojo's bizarre adventure

• kamisama hajimemashita

• Hanayori no dango (its boys over flowers - the original one)

• tokyo ghoul (it was one of the first anime series i watched but after season 2 i wasn't a fan of it)

• death note

• devilman crybaby

• black butler

• slam dunk n knb

• haikyuu

• maid sama! (one of my personal favs)

• ouran high school host club (i watched it a few months ago n it was good)

• free!

• beastars

• jujutsu kaisen

• promised neverland - the first season was good the second.. we know happened to that

• bsd was one of my favs too! i have one too many favs from there

• yuri on ice (contemplating to watch it again)

• blue lock (manga wise - anime i don't keep up with the eps)

• vinland saga (yet to catch up on season 2)

• the ways of a househusband i was watching the time i got reincarnated as a slime (good watch imo), baki (v interesting too-) yeah there are a lot of animes to name

hentai too jalapeños... yeah i eat those. not spicy for me tbh, apart from that the real spicy stuff is the samyang noodles confused crying how do people even eat ghost peppers 🥹 i like enough spice in food to trigger my palette n brain but not spicy enough to burn my stomach or intestines i'm not the best person to ask spicy food for beginners cause some people can't handle spicy food well - depends on the kind of food you grew up eating n the kinda diet you have as it could trigger your body ; but i added chilli powder to bland foods - including Szechuan sauce or sriracha n now that's my go to for spicy food or making fried rice i feel like if uncle roger saw this he's gonna make sure my cooking career goes up in flames loincloth 💀 underthings? 💀 long johns 💀 how... where do you even get these words - i don't even want to know how do they invented these i read that sentence in the most victorian woman voice ever.

actually same here, i tend to call ppl doll, angel, pretty, lovely at times- cause it makes a person smile (i say girlie pop too, honey, gem, sweetness) but at times i hesitate cause idk if the person is comfortable with me calling them that and please! feel free to call me love or lovely! idm it at all 0^^0 i hope you have a great morning / afternoon / evening too doll ! <3

[delusional-mishaps]

OMG OMG YESSS I have so much to say so be prepared for yet another long ask 💕 really enjoying your replies omg they are so fun RAAAAHHHH!!!Op and I might have later replies because my dog is really sick, uuhhh yea not good

I FREAKING LOVE AND HATE ANIME TERMS. Like they are so cringe but also goofy, yes he uses them. And he likes Mob Psycho 100 BECAUSE I SAID SO OKAY LEMME PROJECT!!! HE MAKES REFERENCES TO REIGEN ARTAKA WHENEVER SOMEONE BRJNGS UP A SCAMMER AND PROBABLY BRINGS UP THE SEXYMAN TOURNAMENT LIKE “Oh yeah bruh people said an alternative version of me was hotter than him,” HE WOULD BE SO PROUD OF ORIGINAL SANS UNDERTALE WINNING THAT GRRRRR!!! And the fontcest was VERY disturbing, but my friends have sent me a lot worse (if they suffer, I have too also 😭😭😭).

Could not agree more on how goofy the mtt is with grandpa nightmare. ONLY FANON THOUGH. Canon is pretty messed up actually, but I ADORE the angst with all my heart. Omg epic sans angst also… we👏need 👏MORE👏

Cram and James also had an abusive owner though? WHO COULD HURT THOSE BABIES. HOW DARE THEY TOUCH DA CHILD, I WOULD BEAT THEM UP SO FAST‼️🤬 Also how did your sona react when they realized there were two more previous lil things in their pockets? And just wanted to say how right your motto in the description is, to be cringe IS to be free! THAT’S WHAT I’VE BEEN SAYING AAAAAHHH!!! And I remember you said you fell in love with epic after you wrote a request for him? WHERE IS THAT REQUEST I NEED IT NOW TO READ PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE 🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🤲🤲🤲🤲🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

Your coworker that you were posting about seems really yucky. Honestly I have no idea what you should do, but making it very obvious that you don’t want to hang out with him and telling your boss about it would be the best steps in my opinion. Also since he has an accent that you can’t easily understand, texting might be a good communication method. Just know that it is completely okay to feel uncomfortable and that there are people here for you. I love you platonically boo boo, stay safe. And if you ever need me, just use the words epic and sans in the same post and I SHALL BE SUMMONED (I check the tag everyday lol) there should be some in depth videos about what to do when feeling uncomfortable around coworkers also, it;s a pretty common thing and I would recommend maybe checking those out. Hope everything turns out okay, take my hearts ily again friend 🩷❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜🤎🖤🩶🤍💖💝💘💓💗💞💕♥️❣️💟🫀🫶

-sincerely, anon? Wait I don’t really have a name I guess lol. And hahahah, YOU’LL NEVER KNOW MY TRUE IDENTITY!!! (stay safe tho I might die if anything happens to you, care about you a lot)

ANOOON ❤️❤️🫶🫶🫶🫶

OKAY!! THIS (click here) is the post that made me fall head over heels for the cringe master himself i hate him i hate him i hate him i need to make out with him *get's assassinated* (this post was the reason i ever even looked into epic i never really knew abt him before that)

ISNSONEOEJ EPIC WOULD SOOO LOVE THAT UT SANS IS CONSIDERED SEXIER THAN REIGN.. ngl i dont watch anime anymore so idk what is going on in.. anime fandom anymore.. but methinks epic would totally still act like late 2000s/early 2010s fandom.. bro would "glomp" and .. wtv idk LMFAOOO

i adoreeeee angst im actually so surprised ive yet to write any angst with epic ngl (all my personal self insert writing is.. smyt... LMFAOOAOAOAI) actually thats a lie theres a lil angst bcs (bringing up my persona's lore mwehehe) they met epic first!!! and became friends eith him b4 they met cross!!!! and he had a lil crush on them but woyld ratger die than confess so then my sona and cross get together and epic is all emo bcs unrequited love but its ok theyre a power throuple now

i had this customer earlier who had like a rlly thick scottish accent and fr some reason i was like.. nightmare wiyha thick scottish accent would be so funny. the mtt would make so much fun of him fir how he says words and when he gets angry hes like incomprehensible. idk why i thought of that but its tlly funny to think about LMAOO <333 BUT ALSO imagine how a canon mtt would be.. because the mtt is veryyyyy fanon.. like everyone would hate each other 😭

OK CRAM AND JAM!!!! ngl when my sona (who's name is jet, and i'll be calling them that fron this point instead if calling yhem 'my sona' LMFAOO) realized they had two extra bitties they kinda just.. 🧍 <- stood there like that. but its not the first time they just had bitties pop up and decide to live with them they got an ink bitty that did like the same thing BAHAHAH he just decided to move into their apartment. jet doesnt rlly mind but theyre lil trouble makers >:(

ANOOON YOU'RE LITETALLY SO SWEET.. catch me crying on my break at work rn LMFAOO yeah im gonna tell my boss to not schedule me with that coworker anymore.. but man when i told my mom abt it last night her first response was "i remember when i had a stalker :]" LADY.. first of all THATS NOT FUNNY second what is the lore you are dropping cuz whaaat (she then threatened to go speak to him and tell him to fuck off she's so slay)

DO U WANT A NAME... you can be one of my lil emoji anons i love you guys :] and it makes it easier to recognize you LMAOO

[gogolstoelicker]

Yahoo ! Can you make this please ?

The dorm leaders, vices and the rest reacting to Ace having a powerful Unique magic more powerful that malleus (if it's too much you can only do the dorm leader (if you don't have ideas here is one)

Ace Unique magic is rabbit hole : He has a shadow who can crontrol a person shadow so he can controle the person, the shadow may take a person apperence, personality and magic so the shadow go to Ace and be in him so Ace can be that person, personality and their unique magic and last the shadow can make himself a hole when a person fall in it they gonna live a cruel nightmare and gonna be tortured mentaly and Ace gonna be there to watch them

Hope it is ok ! 😊

Twisted wonderland reaction to Ace's unique magic

ace may be an ass but hes not an ass ass alright

Warning: slight spoilers for book 6

Note: •im sorry if it doesn't reach ur expectations since uh i barely mentioned abt what his UM is like or just him using it on someone💀i genuinely can't see ace using his UM to harm someone unless ofc someone he cared for got their safety threatened or for his own safety

•also sorry if i got the UM kind of wrong? or if the parts are short💀

Heartslabyul:

he most likely won't use his unique magic to harm someone🤔well at least i hope so💀

so lets say riddle is safe (kind of)

pretty sure ace got enough revenge by punching him anyway

he just plays pranks do not worry!:D

imagine riddle being woken up in the middle of the night just to see some random shadow who looks like him

ace got collared in the morning btw

deuce is... deuce

at first he goes 😰😰

but then he goes 🤬y🤬you think that scared me⁉️

and then went back to fistfighting with ace

maybe tho maybe ace will like play around with his UM to scare them🤔but that's all

oh right speaking of which, he'll surely brag abt it 24/7

"yeah ok thats ur unique magic but have u seen mine?"

but if we're being frfr💯, his own ability scares him sometimes💀

like ace??? getting THIS big of a responsibility??? damn that makes him wanna sob

ace when he found out abt his um:

it lasted for about a week before he finally went "maybe this isn't so bad yall‼️‼️"

cater was like yikes but lemme take a quick selfie

^it got viral and that's how everyone else found out too

hehe oops -cater before running off

ace doesn't care much??? hey hes getting famous, sounds like a win for him

now he walks around school with people being scared of him

at first he went 🤩😘🤷‍♀

but then after a few weeks he went😁😟😔

bc people are avoiding him and its kind of sad????

thats when his bros from heartslabyul comforted him

a small tea party for them‼️‼️ with the bros from ramshackle dorm too‼️

this may sound like a surprise since ace pranked him nonestop but riddle is the one who planned it

deuce brought it up and cater said lets cheer him up

and then riddle went "leave the planning to me"

trey made the best pastries

even put a small word of motivation for him ontop of it

ace sobbing in his pillow at night /pos:

trey seeing it while walking around the dorm checking on the freshmen🤨⁉️

leona goign RAWF RAWR GRR bc THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE HIM🤬

Savanaclaw:

oh well he can't do anything abt it

so the most ace will get from him is😡 looks

ace: ?????

"i dont think I've pissed anyone from savanaclaw off lately🤔"

ruggie would be cautious around ace

all bc he doesn't wanna get tangled up on smth he can't handle

other than that he's still the same as ever😘

maybe he'll think twice before stealing from ace but

hey if he doesn't know its u, he can't do anything abt it amirite⁉️

jack is shocked bc like

wow that troublemaker friend of mine is THIS strong🤔u really can't underestimate people

overall a supportive friend

not scared❌will knock ace out if he do smth against his morals

will invite ace to practice with him

he said "so that u can control that better"

and smth abt how he can still be stronger anyway🤔so why stop now🤔

ace sobbing bc jack actually woke him up at 5am or smth just to practice

Octavinelle:

the dorm that's on thin ice

one wrong move and ace gon use it on them woops💀

floyd chase him around sometimes for shits and giggles

in a good mood that is

hey he just wants to see ace lose his cool and use hid UM alright‼️

although most of the times, ace FORGOT what his UM was when he saw floyd chasing him💀

bro still got that unhealed trauma from book3

its ok ace its better than jade at least⁉️

bc hes officially jade's test subject💀

sometimes he just

control jade to go far FAR away from him

but hey it works at least⁉️

and it kind of satisfied + pissed jade off bc like

one. he can't do his usual mushroom test subject plan

two. he kind of got to see the UM and test it for himself so like🤗

azul? he is curious🤗

goodluck to ace for having to deal with menaces all day long

ig its a price to pay for being a menace himself

azul wants to know how it works + how it'll benefit him + how to get ace to work for him etc

so ace will sometimes see azul studying him fron afar

ace probably: 😟 (unhealed trauma yknow)

Scarabia:

kalim does not care or fear him💀

HE DOESN'T EVEN FEAR MALLEUS WHAT DO YALL EXPECT

would literally run up to ace and ask him abt his UM out of curiosity

with jamil trying to stop him bc ‼️DANGER‼️HELLO‼️⁉️

i don't think ace can use his UM on kalim tbh

bc like we all know kalim's intention is pure💀ljke he would never approach someone with bad reasons

so ace lowkey got his conscience stabbed whenever he even thinks of using his UM on kalim

if he ever did🤔

jamil tho? maybe he would after careful consideration

HELOKELSMLSKA

i didn't mean this in a mean way (i think)

im just saying he would use it on jamil as a way to get back at him

say there's this strategic game and he loses

he'll use his UM on jamil for shits and giggles

careful not to harm him ofc💀

he better run tho bc jamil will surely give him a nice beating for that

Pomefiore:

🌟welcome🌟 to ace's new stalker kind follower🙏✨ROOK HUNT✨🙏

we all expected this come on

look at rook, now look at me in the eyes and tell me he won't follow ace around after finding out abt his UM

rook heared it and went "THAT IS VERY INTERESTING😍" and from then on, ace's nightmares started

actually tried to scare rook off with his UM but it backfired

bc not only did rook got more interested, he also follows him even more now:D!

vil did sternly told rook to lay off stalking ace but

but hey will rook ever listen to that?

mhm

speaking of vil, he doesn't care much

tho he does encouraged ace to learn how to control his UM better for his and the people around him sake

epel however took this as an inspiration

if THAT ace got to be strong, then surely he can too‼️

will never ask ace to teach him tho (that'll flare up ace's ego)

sometimes wishes he can have that UM so he can protect the people around him better rather than with his UM

(its ok epel u can use ur UM to help protect my sleep schedule)

Ignihyde:

oh yikes idia def doesn't wanna get tangled up with ace lmao

its ok its a nice UM but pls don't bother him😘

he did nothing wrong in this life, pls don't EVER use that UM on him🤗

ortho however, while cautious abt it, is pretty happy for ace

like wow his friend got THIS strong⁉️congrats⁉️⁉️

will do daily checkups on ace just to make sure he's not overdoing it

will suggest to ace for him to train more so he can control his UM better

even offered ace he'll train him himself💀

ace ain't getting any rest now from the constant training and schoolwork

its ok it can't be that bad amirite

ignihyde is probably the shortest one of all but oh well, bear with me here

Diasomnia:

sebek is ofc the first one to find out

the first years bros will always find out first‼️

he is BEYOND shocked💀

like damn THAT ace is stronger than his master😰⁉️are we sure we're talking about the same ace here

angrily rants about it during teatime in the diasomnia dorm

lilia have heard of it too!

how u may ask? teehee, thats a secret

doesn't make a big deal out of it tho

he likes how ace can surpass his own expectations tho^^ lowkey makes the old man happy for some reason

silver does not care sorry HELP

he's busy trying to stay awake already, u can't blame him for not caring abt this newfound information

malleus is pretty surprised when he heard of it

probably the last one to hear abt ace's UM💀

bc sometimes hes not invited to those tetimes

he either hear it from sebek one day bc they saw ace

or from the mc bc the mc needs someone to rant to abt how thry couldn't believe of all people, ace is the one who's the strongest among their gang

while he is surprised, i don't think, he'll care much??🤔

i mean hes not even friends with ace. what do u expect

well i mean there's some hope for him tho

bc like ace is feared now too😁so do u think he can be his friend too since they experienced the same thing😍😘⁉️PLEASE.

nothing is more important to malleus than invitations and friends /j

Ramshackle:

ah yes, ace's 2nd dorm

he basically THRIVE on scaring the residents there (the only 5 residents) with his UM

will brag to grim about it daily

and will absolutely use it on grim for shits and giggles

grim clawing him after:

mc absolutely not believing ace is the strongest

still support him tho‼️good for ace ig

ace brought out that maybe he should be the prefect for heartslabyul/ramshackle and absolutely getting his ass kicked out

like u ungrateful swine🤬i let u sleep here when u don't wanna face ur dorm leader and this is how u repay me🤬⁉️

ace thought it was hilarious btw

he had fun scaring the mc and grim with his UM too

absolutely teams up with the three ghosts to scare them both

got his ass grounded after LMFOAOAOAOA

[leossmoonn]

BYE IMAGINE WHEN YOUR PREGNANT YOU DEMAND ask for a movie and Stefan is like ok ill bring you one. so when stefan brings it your pissed bc he brought the wrong one and then everyone is like watching yall bc wtf and the you start throwing curses everywhere and stefan is like stop 🥺 while damon is laughing and elena and care and bonnie are like 😭😂. and then he says time for bed and picks you up bridal style and leaves while you are throwing sarcastic comments everywhere- 🍓

LMFAO I LOVE THIS YES.

so youre like 8 1/2 months pregnant and are about to POP.

so yall are hanging at your house on the couch, sipping tea and are exhausted. and so you all suggest to watch a movie so you tell stefan to fetch your fav (yes hes supposed to know) so he goes and brings the wrong one and you are livid bruh

like he hands the DVD to you and you’re like

“WHAT THE FUCK!? STEFAN THIS ISNT THE ONE I WANTED”

and hes like “o-oh i uh... i’m s—”

and before you can get a word out you get out off the couch, setting your mug down on the coffee table roughly

“WHY CANT YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHT GOD? I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING IN THIS FUCKING HOUSE, HUH? AND IM PREGNANT TOO. UGH 🤬🤬🤬🤬”

and caroline elena and bonnie are just like “um... should we help them?”

and damon can’t stop fucking laughing he’s like “HAHA NO. this i-is hilarious 🤣🤣”

and caroline’s like “she looks like shes about to kill him.”

“or rip out her baby and throw it at him” bonnie adds

and damon just starts laughing HARDER AND HARDER at bonnie’s words

and youre just still screaming at him and stefan’s like 😕🥺 “im sorry. i thought i grabbed the right one”

and youre like “you thought? y-you THOUGHT? WHAT THE FUCK? YOU HAVE EYEs, CANT YOU CHECK??”

and you grab a pillow and throw it at him, and thats when stefan toughens up and is like

“alright. you need to calm down its time for bed.”

and youre like “NO. YOU NEED TO LEARN YOUR—”

and you stop yourself as he suddenly picks you up bridal style. and youre like flailing in his arms like

“NO PUT ME DOWN YOU SON OF A BITCH I—”

“nope. i know youre mad and tired, but you have to stop shouting.”

and youre like “oh yeah, always the playing the peacemaker!”

and damon’s like “have fun you too!”

and then you turn your anger onto damon snd are like “YOU KNOW WHAT DAMON? FUCK YOU. YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IM GOING THROUGH”

and stefan shuts the bedroom door and calms you down while your friends are all like

“😧 wow. what a show”

stefan concepts masterlist

[treatbuckywkisses]

IM SO LATE READING THIS PART UGH 😭😭

“Let’s hear it for Barnes and Little Rogers!” ONGSKSGS I LOVE THEIR TITLES PLEASE THATS SO CUTE

“Come on, Oak,” he urged, “You only graduate high school once. Besides, I’m sure we can have it at my place and the moms can hang out next door. If anything happens or you don’t want to be there anymore you can just walk twenty feet and be home.” he wants her there shutup😭😭😭😭😭😭

Of course he was stoked about the party, and now he was absolutely shitfaced, never staying more than 10 feet away from the makeshift bar on one of the folding tables. of course john would be shitfaced a party that has nothing to do with him I hate him🙄

Your eyes narrowed as you crossed your arms. “I’m sorry, you’re saying I don’t let you love me because I don’t want to sneak into some dark room during a party while you can barely stand?” YEAH OAKY YOU TELL HIM BABY WOOOOOOOOO

How can I let go of someone when they might be the only person to ever want me? hey🥺 ouchie

Where you found John sitting on the toilet with his pants down, mouth locked onto the neck of Dot as she straddled him. BITCH ONGSKSGS SHUTTE FUCK UP NO STOP I GASPED SO LOUD W H A T OHMYGOD

I was painting my nails while reading and I literally quit when I got here because I could not fucking believe what I just read. I mean like I figured he'd cheat but with DOT am I stupid bc what I didn't see that happening help<3 no joke have only my left hand painted right now because of you LMAO

Bucky was storming over toward the car before you had a chance to hang up and pull into the driveway. YEAAAAHHHHHHHH i love this man <3

“I’ll be damned,” Brock sneered, shaking his head. “Bucky. I thought you looked familiar. Now it all makes sense. You seem to be everywhere.” what does this mean🥸 whyd he say that and why did he say it like that col what is this🥸

You wished that life had gone differently, that things with the boy next door hadn’t ended right when they started, that the two of you hadn’t abandoned whatever spark you found and gone down separate paths. That you hadn’t allowed your desperation to let you follow Brock, let him use you and break you and take you from everything you loved. WHAT HAPPENED ACTUALLY IDK IF I WANT TO KNOW BUT TELL ME ANYWAY

But this was where life had taken you. On your own, left with the messes that you had played a large part in creating. Bucky was the protective brother figure as he always had been, and Brock was the thorn in your side that you were determined to rip out no matter the cost. hm🥸

“Stop calling me baby,” you snapped, arm folding over your chest. “This isn’t about us, this is about you. You need me for money.” YEAH THATS MY GIRL WOOOOOOOO IM SO PROUD OF HER YOU TELL HIM BABY

“You think that he is gonna go for a girl like you? Get a grip, Y/n. Some loser in the suburbs who crashed and burned when she tried to make it big? Without your art, you’re nothing.” UM HEY?? I MEAN FELT THAT BUT HEY DONT TALK TI MY GIRL LIKE THAT !!!! 😠😠😠😠😠😠

His arm lifted in a gesture toward the house. “Mr. Wannabe Tough Guy Deadbeat?” GASP SO LOUD GASP QJAT DID HE JUST SAY NO BAD DOG NO Y9U TAOE THAT BACK RIGHTBNOW HE IS VERY PRECIOUS TO ME 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

His eyes scanned your face, desperate to get a read on how you were feeling. “Are you okay?” 🥺🥺🥺 SHUTUP HE FUCKIN LOVES HER IM KSGSOSVSKSHS WOW UGH

He walked you to your front door, hand no longer holding yours but still close enough that you could grab it if you needed to. 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 lemme hold his hand

“I know. It’s just, if I could do anything to keep you from being hurt, I would do it, Oak.” okay im literally tearing up what the fuck

“Do you want me to stay over? I can sleep on the couch if you’re nervous about him coming back.” HE <3 HE IS SO SOFT & PRECIOUS AND HE LOVES HER OHMYGOD

Bucky: Remember, I’m here if you need me. 🥺 cryin

Would he really be there? shutup no thoughts only love <3

Any sound - whether it was a loud gust of wind or a branch hitting your window - made you jumpy. baby🥺🥺 this is the worst

Her head cocked down once again - man she was good at giving that ‘I know everything’ look - eyes boring into you. sarah tell me everything you know pls

“Girl. He comes to the bar all the time, only when he knows you’re working, and when he’s not your phone is constantly buzzing because he’s texting you. And I don’t know if you even noticed but I was there at the firehouse yesterday. I could see the drop of drool ready to fall from your mouth and I saw the way his whole face freaking lit up when he saw you.” YEAAAAHHHHHHH THEYRE IN LOVE 🥰🥰🥰🥰

The shots of tequila you were pouring were looking more and more tempting. Maybe the group who ordered them wouldn’t notice if one was missing…“I know that’s what you said back then. And for a second, I agreed. But you were there. You know what happened.” WHAT HAPPENED IM GONNA SCREAM also she deserved to steal a shot <3 I'd let her

Flashes of the aftermath of that summer entered your brain. You curled up in a ball in your bed. Crying yourself to sleep every night that first year of college. Not eating. Looking in the mirror and hating what you saw more than ever before, thinking you were unlovable. It took so long to get over Bucky, to move on from the dream that suddenly became a total nightmare. NO WHAT IS THIS THEYRE SUPPOSED TO BE IN LOVE 😠😠😠😠 NO WHAT STOP SHUTYP NO HEY NO QHAT NO HELP

Bucky agreed to your request, but you could sense that he was still on edge. He texted you daily to make sure you were okay, and stopped by the bar whenever you were working to check in. At Sunday dinner, he rarely strayed more than a couple of feet away from your side. I AM LITERALLY GSLSISGSLSBSGSKHSJSG SCRWAMING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now, with your heart pounding and your face flushing, you realized that you were too close to going back to those days where you still felt a sense of hope that Bucky might have felt the same. THEYRE SO STUPID <3 (AFFECTIONATE)

It was…a lot. Overwhelming to say the least, but you couldn’t deny that a part of you loved it. It was so easy to deny your growing feelings to Sarah and to say you were certain that Bucky felt nothing for you. But then he would do things like this, be so caring and protective, give you these looks that put knots in your stomach, all of it making your brain too fuzzy for reason to take hold. when will it be my turn🥺

Still, you knew that you would have to tell him to cool it. You were getting dangerously close to a point of no return, and if your heart broke again, you didn’t think you’d be able to put the pieces back together no matter how hard you tried. 😐 the way i know that whatever the fuck happened will actually kill me problems <3 good for you col

Not glowing, ignited. A ball of fire, surrounded by flammable liquid spilled all over the wooden surface. HUH

And then the bar burst into flames. HUH WELL IS SHE FUCKING OKAY ???? HELLO ????? WHAT IS THIS COL

sorry HUH 🥸 WHAT HUH COL YOU- AND IT- AND THEY- WHAT YOU OKAY 🥸 NO WHAT

woah are we going to see firefighter baby in action 🥺🥺 WAIITTTTTT daddy to the rescue 🥳

In the Embers ~ 6

Pairing: Firefighter!Bucky x F!Plus Size!Adopted Rogers!Reader

WC: 4.9k

Summary: After returning home from a failed career as an artist in LA, you are reunited with the boy next door who has always owned a piece of your heart, and there's no running from each other this time.

Chapter Note: *hides behind Big Oaky*

Chapter Warnings: Brock being an asshole, John being an asshole, underage drinking, very very very brief mention of nsfw content.

Series Masterlist / Series Playlist

EIGHTEEN YEARS OLD (pt. 1)

“Let’s hear it for Barnes and Little Rogers!”

The entire crowd erupted with belligerent cheers as you and Bucky stood awkwardly in the basement of the Barnes household, Bucky turning to give you a small sheepish grin. You shrugged with your own smile as you knocked back whatever battery acid drink John had made you.

When Steve and Sam came up with the idea of doing a joint party for the two of you - your high school graduation party and a farewell to Bucky before he left for the army - you protested, never liking the idea of being the center of attention, even though you knew most of the attendees would be there for their favorite town bartender and former high school quarterback.

But Bucky nudged your side with his elbow, cutting off your rant about how you didn’t need a big party, just your friends and family.

“Come on, Oak,” he urged, “You only graduate high school once. Besides, I’m sure we can have it at my place and the moms can hang out next door. If anything happens or you don’t want to be there anymore you can just walk twenty feet and be home.”

You couldn’t argue with that logic. Besides, John had been begging for you to go to more parties ever since he came back from his first year of college, whining about how boring this summer was going to be compared to life at school. Long distance (which wasn’t really that far but John made it seem like it was almost impossible to see each other during the year) had been tough for the two of you, and you wanted to make sure he was happy to be home so that he wouldn’t leave and never come back.

Of course he was stoked about the party, and now he was absolutely shitfaced, never staying more than 10 feet away from the makeshift bar on one of the folding tables.

“Baby,” he cooed, wrapping his arms around you from behind, “Why don’t we go into one of the rooms and have some fun?” His words were slurring and you fought back a gag at his breath.

You had already consumed a couple of John’s dangerous drinks, but your fuzzy brain found the strength to pull away. “John, no. There’s so many people here. Can’t we just hang out and spend time with our friends?” You cocked your head over to Sarah.

He groaned, taking a giant swig of his drink and pulling his arms away. “You’re no fun,” he muttered, punching you in the gut with his biting words. “Why won’t you just let me love you, baby?”

Your eyes narrowed as you crossed your arms. “I’m sorry, you’re saying I don’t let you love me because I don’t want to sneak into some dark room during a party while you can barely stand?”

He scoffed, shaking his head and stumbling away. “Whatever.”

Ignoring the pit in your stomach, you decided to head over to Sarah, wrapping an arm around your best friend’s waist and leaning your head on her shoulder.

“I love you,” you mumbled.

She giggled. “I love you, too. How you feelin, babe?”

Your laugh came out as more of a groan. “Boys are dumb.”

“A-freaking-MEN to that, girl. I still say you should give women a try. Not that they’re necessarily less dramatic. Wait, what did John do?”

You sighed. “Nothing. Had too much to drink, I guess. I just get nervous seeing him like this and thinking about how he acts at school when I’m not around.”

She hmphed, wrapping an arm around your shoulder. “I still think you should dump his ass. You don’t need to be worrying about him while at RISD. Hell no.”

You felt a knot forming in your stomach as you fought back your initial response.

How can I let go of someone when they might be the only person to ever want me?

Instead, you stood straight, kissing your best friend on the cheek. “Thanks for looking out, but I’m sure he’s fine. It’s John, and we’ve been together almost two years. Brown is right next to RISD so I’m sure we’ll see so much more of each other once we’re in the same city.”

Sarah tsked, giving you one last squeeze before you walked to the bar to refill your drink. This time, you made sure there was more orange juice than vodka. Just as you started pouring, some guy stumbled backwards and into you, causing orange juice to spill all over your shirt.

“Shit,” you muttered, shuffling through the crowd to get to the bathroom. At this point, your fuzzy brain had finally got the best of you and you hadn’t thought to knock on the door before opening it.

Where you found John sitting on the toilet with his pants down, mouth locked onto the neck of Dot as she straddled him.

NOW

Bucky was storming over toward the car before you had a chance to hang up and pull into the driveway.

Brock had noticed the big hulking man barrelling over in his direction and jumped out of the vehicle you basically paid for before Bucky could raise a fist to the glass window.

“Woah woah woah, what’s your problem buddy?”

“My problem?” Bucky didn’t stop until he stood towering over Brock, keeping your ex’s back pressed against the car. Brock’s eyes were wide with fear. “My problem is that you got out of your car instead of staying inside and driving as far away from here as fucking possible.”

“I’m sorry, but what business is it that I’m here? Is this your house?”

The moment you walked up to them, everything turned to chaos, the three of you trying to talk over one another.

“Brock-” you started.

“Y/n, baby, there you are-”

“What are you doing here-”

“Don’t you fucking dare talk to her-” Bucky shoved Brock against the car when he tried to take a step toward you.

“And who the hell are you to decide who gets to talk to her-”

“Bucky, please, it’s okay I got this-”

Brock went quiet, eyes narrowing at the mention of Bucky’s name as he stared at the giant man who had placed himself in between you and your ex, one hand slightly extended in your direction in a protective gesture.

Then, Brock started laughing, and Bucky took a step back closer to you.

“I’ll be damned,” Brock sneered, shaking his head. “Bucky. I thought you looked familiar. Now it all makes sense. You seem to be everywhere.”

“Brock,” you stepped forward past Bucky, “Just stop. What do you want?”

“Look, can we talk?” He looked past your shoulder, scowling. “Alone.”

You turned to Bucky, catching that his eyes were locked in a lethal gaze with Brock’s. “Bucky,” your words broke his spell and he looked at you, face softening, “You got the spare key right?” He nodded, jaw clenching. Your voice lowered so only he could hear you as you continued, “Please just go into the house and I’ll talk to Brock. It’ll be fine. He’s not going to hurt me. Anything weird happens, I’ll run inside and get you.”

Bucky’s teeth bit down on the inside of his cheek as he debated whether to fight against your wishes or follow along with them. You knew doing the latter would go against everything he stood for, to not protect you if he thought you were in danger. He had been doing that your whole life. Well, most of it.

Still, he trusted you, and that was what finally made him choose the latter. He gave Brock one last death glare, then turned his focus back to you. A large, calloused hand rested on the sleeve of your jacket with a gentle squeeze, and then he was walking toward the front door of your house.

You wished more than anything that Brock weren’t her; that you could follow Bucky into your home and spend the rest of the night watching a movie or forcing him to show you how to make his delicious apple pie while drinking some of the leftover scotch Nat and Steve brought to last Sunday dinner.

You wished that life had gone differently, that things with the boy next door hadn’t ended right when they started, that the two of you hadn’t abandoned whatever spark you found and gone down separate paths. That you hadn’t allowed your desperation to let you follow Brock, let him use you and break you and take you from everything you loved.

But this was where life had taken you. On your own, left with the messes that you had played a large part in creating. Bucky was the protective brother figure as he always had been, and Brock was the thorn in your side that you were determined to rip out no matter the cost.

“Alright,” you said as you turned back to your ex, “Now can you please tell me what you’re doing here?”

With his threat finally gone, Brock’s face switched from annoyance to his best pouty face, the one he used whenever he wanted to soften you up. He ran his fingers through his short black hair before placing both of them into his pockets, his head cocked to the side, and he gave you his most (what used to be) charming side smile.

“Baby, I miss you. I made a huge mistake with that girl. I don’t know what came over me. Must have been all the stress I was under with work, and I felt like you didn’t want me anymore. I love you so much baby, and I want to spend the rest of my life telling you that.”

Nausea flooded into your stomach, all blood leaving your face at the unexpected proclamation. You shook your head. “What…where is this coming from-”

“You know how I get when I’m stressed out. I get all manic and crazy, do the worst shit imaginable because I can’t think straight! I promise I’ll try to be better. I’m working on getting back on my shit and being the best guy for my babygirl.”

The nickname, which used to give you butterflies, now made you cringe. “Brock, you can’t just come here and expect me to pack up my life and leave because you want me to. I’m not a kid anymore. I’m here, and I have a life and a job here. It might not be the glitz and glam of LA but at least I’m happy for the first time in years.”

Saying it out loud for the first time, knowing that what you said was completely and utterly true, caused you to breathe out a small laugh at the revelation.

Meanwhile, Brock just scoffed. “What, living with your mom in this dump of a town? In this house? Baby, if we sold a few more of your paintings we could buy ourselves a mansion five times the size of this! Sales haven’t been great with the stuff you left me, but we can try again and get ourselves in better shape in no time. Just gotta get your creative brain back into shape and all of our problems will be solved!”

Ah, and there it was.

“You’re not here for me, are you Brock?”

His head shifted side to side in confusion. “What does that mean? Of course I’m here for you bab-”

“Stop calling me baby,” you snapped, arm folding over your chest. “This isn’t about us, this is about you. You need me for money.”

“What the hell? How could you say that-”

“So what, you’re mad because you can’t sell any of the art you stole from me-”

“I never stole it if it was legally mine-”

“-and now you’re stuck and need me to get to work so I can keep your cash flow coming.” Your chuckle was filled with bitterness. “You really never did care about me, did you? You only cared about what I could do for you. That ends. Now. I’m finally at a point in my life for the first time in so long that I feel fucking loved and supported, and there is no way in hell I’m giving that up for you.”

Brock stared at you, jaw locked in anger, the rest of his body shuffling around in manic movements. “Is this about that guy?”

You frowned. “What guy?”

His arm lifted in a gesture toward the house. “Mr. Wannabe Tough Guy Deadbeat?”

Your fists clenched. “Bucky is anything but a deadbeat,” you seethed. “He’s a better man than you could ever hope to be.”

His brows raised, and he let out a long whistle. “Damn, you got it bad for this guy, don’t you?”

Embarrassment coursed through your body and you dropped your gaze to the ground. Brock chuckled.

“You think that he is gonna go for a girl like you? Get a grip, Y/n. Some loser in the suburbs who crashed and burned when she tried to make it big? Without your art, you’re nothing.”

Tears stung your eyes at the words that had been soft whispers in the back of your mind ever since you moved home. Hell, even long before then. It was easy to shove those voices down and ignore them, but hearing them out loud, even from a low life like Brock, it felt like it was the final validation they needed to totally consume you, and you were brought back to feeling like that scared, vulnerable girl in her 20s, fresh out of college and desperate to be wanted by someone.

No. You weren’t going to let the voices win this time. You weren’t that girl.

Not anymore.

“Go away Brock.” Your voice was quiet, a bit wavering, but strong. “I’m not leaving with you, so just go.”

He let out a long, annoyed breath, rolling his eyes and shaking his head as he silently walked back to the Tesla you paid for, leaving you standing in the middle of your front yard, empty and numb.

“Whatever,” he muttered, “You’ll be begging for me to take you back soon enough.”

Instead of going inside, where Bucky was probably waiting anxiously, you walked to Big Oaky, sitting down in your favorite spot and leaning your back against the trunk. It was a cool November evening, and your denim jacket wasn’t thick enough to keep you warm, but you found the sting of the chill comforting as you stared up at the stars.

“Oak.”

You looked down at Bucky, now standing over you, responding to his concerned expression with a half-hearted smile.

“Hey, Buck.”

His eyes scanned your face, desperate to get a read on how you were feeling. “Are you okay?”

You rolled your eyes and gave him a small shrug. “Been better, I guess. Sorry you had to see that.”

He shook his head, jaw working. “Don’t be sorry. That piece of shit had no right coming here.” He pointed to the spot next to you and you nodded, giving him permission to sit by your side. You pressed your arm against his warm flannel. “What did he want?”

“Oh you know,” you said, picking at the loose frays on the sleeve of your jacket, “Just wanted me to move back to LA and make more art for him so he didn’t run out of money.”

Bucky stilled by your side. “I’ll fucking kill him.”

“No you will not,” you gently shoved him with the right side of your body. “I can’t let you go to jail and deprive myself of your sweet rolls.” Bucky raised his brow at you and you felt heat rise to your face, and not one that you welcomed to fight the cold. “I did not mean it like that.”

He let out a grumbly laugh. “Alright then, I won’t kill him. I’ll just kick his ass.”

“You have to stop trying to kick the ass of everyone who hurts me, Bucky.”

He looked over to meet your eye, and though the light had faded from the sky, the blue of his irises shone brightly enough to pierce yours.

“I know. It’s just, if I could do anything to keep you from being hurt, I would do it, Oak.”

“Not worth it.”

A younger, more closed-off voice belonging to the man at your side smothered any butterflies you might have felt from his statement, leaving you speechless, too conflicted to respond.

Instead, you turned your gaze back to the stars, and Bucky did the same. The two of you sat there in silence for a few minutes, until the cold betrayed you and caused you to let out a small shiver.

Bucky groaned out a small laugh, moving to stand up. “Sorry Oak, but I can’t have you freezing to death.” He extended his left hand and you grabbed it as you stood. This time, unlike your reunion a few weeks ago, you made sure not to trip on any roots, and you remained planted on your own two feet.

He walked you to your front door, hand no longer holding yours but still close enough that you could grab it if you needed to.

“Do you want me to stay over? I can sleep on the couch if you’re nervous about him coming back.”

You shook your head. “That’s okay, Buck. I don’t think he’ll be back.”

“Okay, but remember I’m next door. If anything happens, if you need me, just give me a call and I’ll be here.”

As if I could ever forget that you’re right next door.

You smiled. “Thanks, Buck. For everything. I know the night turned to shit, but I had a really great day. I didn’t realize I had ‘slide down a fire pole’ on my bucket list, but now I will happily cross it off.”

He chuckled. “You were awesome today. We should really think about getting you on the team.”

“Hey, maybe if the bartending thing doesn’t work out…”

The two of you laughed softly until it dissipated into silence, your eyes locking on each other.

Bucky bobbed his head down. “Goodnight, Oak.”

“Goodnight, Bucky.”

He turned to make his way toward his house as soon as you were inside. Two minutes later, your phone buzzed.

Bucky: Remember, I’m here if you need me.

You sighed, shaking your head as your brain debated whether to smile or frown at the message.

Would he really be there?

The first night after seeing Brock, you had hardly gotten any sleep.

It was easy to act tough and confident in front of Bucky, but as soon as you were by yourself in an empty house you grew more anxious. Could you really be sure that your manic ex wasn’t going to show up in the middle of the night?

Any sound - whether it was a loud gust of wind or a branch hitting your window - made you jumpy.

Still, night passed into day, and nothing had happened.

Bucky texted you first thing the next morning to make sure you were okay, which you assured him you were. You spent the morning doing more depressing apartment hunting before getting to work. Though you had been saving almost every penny you earned, it still wasn’t enough to be able to afford even the shitty studio apartments in town.

Today’s shift was with Sarah, who spent the majority of the time conveying how Carol couldn’t stop singing your praises for doing such a great job with Wanda at the Fall Festival.

“I never knew you were so good with kids! I mean, obviously Cass and AJ love you, but all of the kiddos who stopped by said you were so much fun to hang out with. If you’re around next year, you should definitely do it again.”

You smiled, jostling the shaker around to mix a martini for a customer. “You know, I just might. Seeing that my art career is probably over and I’ll most likely be working for you forever just so I can save up to finally move out of my mom’s home. You’ll never be able to get rid of me.”

She cocked her head down and gave you a look. “Y/n, babe, come on. You and I both know that this isn’t all there is for you. Don’t get me wrong, I think you working here has been really good for you, and not just because you get to see me all the time.” You both laughed. “But that doesn’t mean that you’re stuck here. If you love this job, you can have it forever. If you’re itching for something else, though, don’t hold yourself back from it.”

You clenched your jaw to keep yourself from crying, pulling out a glass and pouring the mixture from the shaker in, stopping it just before it reached the rim. “It’s just, art was my thing. It was what I used to do to help myself feel better and escape from all my problems, but then somewhere along the way it got distorted to make it feel like the only way I could be worthy of anything was through my art. I didn’t deserve anyone’s respect or attention if I didn’t have something to give to them. Without my art, I was nothing.” You winced as you repeated Brock’s words from last night. “And living like that for so many years, it’s a hard mentality to let go of.”

You grabbed an olive with a skewer and placed it in the glass, handing it over to the woman who ordered it. When you returned, Sarah’s mouth was set in a thin line.

“I’m gonna kill that Brock guy.”

The sudden laugh that came from you made Sarah’s brows furrow in confusion.

“Sorry. It’s just, you’re not the first person to say that to me in the last 24 hours.”

She frowned. “Who else said it?”

Your smile dropped, and you turned your focus on collecting dishes as you muttered, “Bucky.”

“Who?” Sarah asked loudly.

“Bucky,” you responded with the same volume, then felt a rush of heat rise to your face in embarrassment, scrubbing a non-existent stain on the glass in your hands.

From the corner of your eye, you saw Sarah cross her arms.

“Bucky threatened to kill Brock?”

“Well, not to his face. He had already left at that point-”

“Hold up,” you looked at Sarah as she shook her face in surprise and confusion, “When the hell was Brock here?”

You grimaced, picking up another ‘dirty’ glass, then proceeded to tell her about last night.

By the time you were done, your anxious cleaning had made the whole area within five feet of you spotless.

Sarah pursed her lips, her nose flared with rage. “That’s it, I’m calling Bucky and the two of us are hauling ass to LA and killing this man.”

“Save me a seat!” Dum Dum called from the end of the bar. You turned your head to glare at him.

“No, no one is killing him. I don’t want to make this a bigger deal. Brock is gone, I’m fine, nobody needs to worry about it.”

Sarah sighed, nodding in acceptance and resting a hand on your arm. “Regardless, I’m glad you’re okay, and I’m glad Bucky was there.”

You smiled. “Me, too.”

Her hand squeezed your arm. “He’s been around a lot, I’ve noticed.”

Your eyes widened, more heat rising in your cheeks. You tried to laugh it off. “He’s my neighbor, Sarah. And Steve’s best friend. He’s family.”

Her head cocked down once again - man she was good at giving that ‘I know everything’ look - eyes boring into you.

“Girl. He comes to the bar all the time, only when he knows you’re working, and when he’s not your phone is constantly buzzing because he’s texting you. And I don’t know if you even noticed but I was there at the firehouse yesterday. I could see the drop of drool ready to fall from your mouth and I saw the way his whole face freaking lit up when he saw you.”

You shook your head. “Sarah, it’s nothing-”

“It’s not nothing, Y/n! It’s just what I said in high school. The pining between you two is once again absolutely ridiculous and undeniable.”

The shots of tequila you were pouring were looking more and more tempting. Maybe the group who ordered them wouldn’t notice if one was missing…“I know that’s what you said back then. And for a second, I agreed. But you were there. You know what happened.”

“Things change, though! You were both kids. Maybe this time it’s different-”

The bottle of tequila slammed on the bar, almost hard enough to break the bottle. “Stop.” Your voice was harsher than you intended but you couldn’t seem to will yourself to settle down. “I love you, but you have to stop. I can’t let myself think like that. I can’t….I can’t go through that again.”

Flashes of the aftermath of that summer entered your brain. You curled up in a ball in your bed. Crying yourself to sleep every night that first year of college. Not eating. Looking in the mirror and hating what you saw more than ever before, thinking you were unlovable. It took so long to get over Bucky, to move on from the dream that suddenly became a total nightmare.

Now, with your heart pounding and your face flushing, you realized that you were too close to going back to those days where you still felt a sense of hope that Bucky might have felt the same.

He didn’t. Sure, he loved you. But it wasn’t the same way you loved him.

“I’m sorry,” you whispered, looking at Sarah. “I shouldn’t have freaked.”

Your best friend gave you a small smile, then wrapped her arms around you for a side hug. “No, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have pushed.”

You rested your head on her shoulder. “Love you.”

She leaned her cheek on the crown of your head. “Love you.”

The next week was thankfully a lot less emotionally taxing and things went back to normal. You went on with work, did a little bit of painting here and there, took care of the house, and spent Sunday dinner with Steve, Nat and Bucky. Your mom wouldn’t be home for a few more days, and everyone was feeling too lazy to cook anything, so you settled with ordering pizza.

You had asked Bucky not to say anything to Steve and Nat about Brock, not wanting to turn the situation into a bigger deal seeing that Brock had gotten the message and left you alone. All you wanted was to forget about it and move on.

Bucky agreed to your request, but you could sense that he was still on edge. He texted you daily to make sure you were okay, and stopped by the bar whenever you were working to check in. At Sunday dinner, he rarely strayed more than a couple of feet away from your side.

It was…a lot. Overwhelming to say the least, but you couldn’t deny that a part of you loved it. It was so easy to deny your growing feelings to Sarah and to say you were certain that Bucky felt nothing for you. But then he would do things like this, be so caring and protective, give you these looks that put knots in your stomach, all of it making your brain too fuzzy for reason to take hold.

Still, you knew that you would have to tell him to cool it. You were getting dangerously close to a point of no return, and if your heart broke again, you didn’t think you’d be able to put the pieces back together no matter how hard you tried.

Hopefully when you found a place to yourself, when you weren’t always so close to him, things would get easier.

Hopefully.

You were working at the bar, wiping things down and getting ready to close in a few minutes.

Dum Dum grabbed his jacket, dropping his payment on the bar. “Have a good night, Y/n.”

You looked over your shoulder and smiled, lifting your chin up in goodbye. “You too, Dum Dum! We on for our gin rummy tournament tomorrow?”

He grinned. “I’ll bring my best set of cards.”

You called out as he opened the door to the exit, “And I’ll keep them for myself when I win!”

His chuckle echoed in the empty space, and you watched him walk to his car through the windows while walking to the door and locking it.

As soon as the time on your phone hit 1am, you began your nighttime routine of putting on your favorite broody music, moving to the closet and grabbing the broom, sweeping and swaying along with the music, living your best protagonist life.

CRASH

You whipped your head to one of the windows, and the softball-sized hole in it.

Then you whipped your head to the bar, where a glowing red object had smashed into the bottles of liquor.

Not glowing, ignited. A ball of fire, surrounded by flammable liquid spilled all over the wooden surface.

And then the bar burst into flames.

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[ragnvdnir]

Ok i'm back to reply to your messages 😍

miss kamisato girly better come home but if she aint doing that you who who will : kazuha 😏 ay*to might just sign up in a business marriage to continue the bloodline 😌

Yes i hope i lose my 50/50 to that certain sweetie pie 2 😍 i've only won it one time with albedo and lost every other 50/50s with no diluc 😔 and c2 qiqi and keqing :') i have like cons for each standard 5* and i am still dilucless 😭

bc i was just in a village doing alright then i became your royal advisor over night and now im crazy like you 🧐 if i did get a hime cut irl we would be twinning 🤩 the queen and her royal adviser twinning in hairstyles (real!) Yes you're def dragging me to som crazy things 😭

This "betrayal" to are talking about means that i'd kick asses for you but i'd kick your ass too if i have to do it 😋😎

Yes i can see through your brain 😌 it's giving so much wide ass open minded vibes 💪 no but 😭 you're really successfully making everything sound funny or a joke everytime 😩

True abt vyn 🙄 man is allegedly aspiring to be an attention wh*re??? 🤨 Asking is easy but he wants to manipulate you instead 👮 yeah he may not physically be strong but he'd fit in a role to be proclaimed "dead" and the actual killer in the movie 😰

Today's generation must be smarter bc look at them not making the sweetie pie the standard 🤬 (this is a joke we def respect your ideal types ✌️😭) yall wilding when you can just settle for a simple but also luxurious life with Diluc Ragnvindr 😤💕

"maam this is mcdonalds" do you think you can stop me?? u lowly peasant of a cashier 🤨😎 can i just please order an extra large fries and a spaghetti with coke drink maam 😌 marius teases MC but he knows when 2 stop too when u literally cant take it 👍 cant let you die bc of him 💪 have fun having the stages of grief again 👍 she got engaged by default so that we would not try to endorse her to mhy as a potential lover character 🤬 they know they makin their side characters especially the women look good bc we cant date them 🙄

Also to the ppl cancelling Ein over using emojis: 🤺🤺🤺 dont you dare slander her humor 🤬🤬🤬 ur just jealous she's funnier than yall 🙄😤 (this is a joke again i dont do fights with ppl so pls ignore me 😎 i literally have no time to fight in nonsensical arguments) just keep using the emojis 😍😍😍 bc who are you to bow down to them 😋

No but about the ableist thing 😰 i kinda am frightened to whatever stuff that id do or say would come out of me bc i was ignorant of stuff

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i hope so too, i like ayaka's playstyle so she better accept my proposal🙄 kazuha will surely go home if she didn't bc after all im guaranteed😏😏 and whos this ay*to trying to set an arrange marriage🤨🤨 tell him to do it or hes a scaredy cat🤷🤷

mr. diluc is playing hard to get, just be patient bc thats what i did even though i have to suffer months before i got him😗😗

oh wait you're from a village before becoming royal advisor??😲😲 why is this kinda familiar 🤔🤔

i was a girl in the village doing alright then i became a princess royal advisor overnight. now i gotta figure out how to do it right, so much to learn and see~

u should get hime cut🤨 we're best buddies so we have to show ppl we're true and legit💆💆 kicking asses for me? yes. kicking my ass? no🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️ i would run away if i have too my dear royal advisor ⁉️

sometimes i just wanna shut my mouth bc weird and corny jokes naturally comes out and i have to curl into a ball and cry on how cringy it is😔💔

ugh me and vyn being an attention seeker🤝 🤝🤝 we definitely deserve each other but my man vyn richter, manipulation is a no no or you will see a flying slippers and appliances coming your way🙆🙆🙆

agree, diluc set the bar too high to reach. diluc would do anything for you (yes we respect your opinions dont mind us! after all *glances at thoma* there's a certain malewife i would need in my life hehe)

me? a lowly peasant? i see🤔🤔 ill be looking for a new royal advisor. just ask my butler for your last pay check

i still refuse to believe that celestine is engaged 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

naurr bc i started overusing emojis with my irl friends as a joke. apparently, i never got away from it👀 i think emojis is a part of my life now😔💔

same same anon😭 i now have to prevent myself from doing things bc i wont know that i did something horrible until someone points it out or mentions them. im just glad that this is not twitter bc i will really get cancelled even tho i did that unknowingly😟😟 twitter is a scary place to be in and not to mention the toxic side of genshin fandom existing there😗😗

[lunaflvms]

Luna i do not want to be here anymore:( my dad is really mean to me. i was doing school and he told me to come eat, then he told me to grab a plate and get some chicken and salad so i did, then he got mad and hit me. then i went back to my desk and he came over and started cussing and yelling at me. then threw some random white thing at me that fell on my back pack. like excuse me bald man, why are u getting mad bc i put chicken and salad on one plate ummm.... so like yeah then he started saying yesterday i was "dominating" my older sister by um "punching her". but it wasnt even a punch punch it was a joking slow mo punch😹. but hes fucking dumb. and he kept talking shit to me and how im a disappointment to our family and thats why im failing school. like um no im only failing math, thats why u graduated in jail🤣. so like um i was really sad bc i havent eaten anything today and its currently 3:18 pm where i live and he said i cant eat anything today so like. i got sad again and started crying and snot came out of my nose and i was like ewww what is this?? so i wiped it and i went in the bathroom and i saw that my eye bags under my eyes gotten really big and when i came back out my sister even pointed them out. so i got sad once again and was like "idgaf" anymore so like i went to my school lessons on my computer and i was gonna do science so i started and it was a lesson about hormones and sex🧜‍♀️. so i skipped most of the pages and went to the next page where it showed a weewee and a veevee and i got so scared i turned my computer over to my sister and showed her and we started smiling, but at the time, my dad was talking to my brother abt how dumb i am and he looked at me laughing and thought i was like laughing at him so he yelled at me to go in my room so here i am now🤬. and if i had said something he would've said i was "tAlKiNg BaCk" like- so anyways i am here now. and he said hes gonna take my pillow and blanket out of my room tonight and he also said he hopes the ghost takes my whole feet this time so like now im scared. but hes also drunk so i think thats why hes rlly mean but im like kinda scared of him.

- lover anon😑

omg 🙁 wtf is wrong with ur dad 🙁 thats so bad wtf he shouldnt have hit you and not letting u eat? thats so messed up and ur not a disappointment ur actually really so sweet and if this is about school than ur actually doing really well, but ur dad what the hell 🤨 taking away ur blankets and pillows too as a punishment?? thats not right like, also what does ur siblings or mum say about this ☹️ like ur dads treating you so bad and like not letting you eat? sleep with blankets? you shouldnt listen to ur dad btw especially if hes drunk ☹️ is he always like drunk tho cuz if he does this alot than u might need to tell someone because hes not letting u eat, he hits or throws stuff at you which could probably hurt you alot and like not letting u sleep properly? 🙁 lover anon i hope ur alright if this happens alot im so sorry ☹️ ur really strong for being able to live with this, please dont harm urself or do anything over this you can fix this 🙁👆

[pumpkinmich]

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THE WAY I AM ✨salivating✨ 🤤UGHHHH I WANNA KISS 💋SOMEONE SO BAD 😡ITS MAKING ME LOOK DUMB 😔 SKDNISJDJSNKSN WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME MISSIE??? 🤬😤🔪EVIL!👹 VERY EVIL 👹OF YOU (keep it up😌👍).

WAAAAAAAAAA HOW DARE YOU 😾 NONONONO ❌❌YOU MADE ME GO “Kou… 🥺🥺🥺” aND THATS SO UNFAIR😡☹️ REALLY LOW OF YOU TO DO SO 🤬🔫🪓 but i’d get so excited over him counting down and I imagined both of us looking at each others eyes and then lips and then uGHHHHH *trows myself in my bed and screams at my pillow aggressively* HOW DOES IT FEEL?? TO LIVE MY DREAM???? 😾🤬AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 😤 him barely able to wait and oh I’m barely able to wait and him ✨crashing✨ his lips into mine??? 😳😳Crashing?? You wrote the thing, yeah the thing, THE THING THAT WILL KEEP ME GIGGLING AND DAYDREAMING FOR 2022 WHOLE!!! You did it, congrats🎉🍾😾. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA KUROOOOOOOOOOOOOO OH NO MY ONLY WEAKNESS THIS WAS SO TINY BUT SO WELL WRITTEN HOW TF DID YOU DO THAT YOU F WIZARD B? 😡🔪😾🤬 like everything around just chaos and then 💥BAM💥 you kiss at midnight and people are screaming and popping champagnes 🍾and there are fireworks 🎆but the world is melting right into the moment because he’s holding you, and there with you, an oasis mid war IM HURTING MY OWN FEELINGS ILL STOP NOW AND HE’S SO SMOOTH ABOUT ALL OF IT OMG MISSIE I DONT THINK I CAN TAKE IT THIS IS SO GOOD AND IM SO WEAK AND UGHHHHHHH JSNDJSNDKSNKD my toxic trait is that I don’t get impressed with boys here doing the bare minimum because I already imagined my favs doing way more in my head. ISTG MISSIE AND THIS IS YOUR LAST WARNING 🤬😾 I DO NOT LIKE OIKAWA TOORU ❌❌❌❌❌❌❌ AND IF YOU KEEP ON WRITING HIM LIKE THAT I WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM 🥰😾😳💋🤬AND THE RESPONSIBILITY WILL FALL ALL OVER YOU☺️🧍🏻‍♀️AND YOU KNOW I AM EASY TO OBCESS SO ILL BE ALL OVER YOUR ASKS 🤬🥰BOTHERING 😌👹🤬💋YOU WITH MY DUMB DUMB 😵‍💫🤡🤪 THOUGHTS AND YOU WILL HAVE TO BLOCK ME 🤬😤😾❌🔪 is Missie really gonna write about how he’ll kiss you before it strikes midnight and say he couldn’t wait any longer, erasing your doubts and worries giving all his love to you and cherishing you like you’re the most precious thing in his life aND WE’LL JUST LET HER???????????????????????????

as your new year’s kiss

bokuto

makes sure everything is perfect for your perfect moment.

you leaned in unable to resist your boyfriend, but a quick glance at the countdown prompted bokuto to bring you to a halt.

“stop! it’s not midnight yet!” he put a finger to your lips to stop you from getting any closer. you giggled against his touch, choosing to kiss his finger instead.

“please?” you put on a fake pout as he shook his head firmly, his eyes only on the countdown on the screen to his right. 

5…

4…

3…

2…

right when the timer hit one, you bet his lips were crashing right into yours.

kuroo

makes you feel like there’s nothing else going around.

as cheesy as it was, the fireworks were nothing compared to the sparks in his eyes. the excited shouting from your friends, the news reporter yelling how many minutes were remaining until the year was over, and the music blasting through the mini bluetooth speakers- all background noise as you leaned in closer.

“are we really doing this?” you whispered, only loud enough for him and just him to hear. 

“it’s just me and you right now,” he smiled at you, before closing the distance as soon as the countdown went down to 1.

oikawa

suddenly erases all your worries, even your self conscious ones

you only noticed how chapped your lips were as you licked them, anticipating what was about to come. maybe they would taste like the punch you drank earlier. or even better, maybe his lips would taste like fruit punch. or maybe it would be the opposite. maybe he wouldn’t even like the taste of your lips at all. maybe- 

suddenly his lips met yours without warning, and you mumbled your confusion against his lips.

“mmph?” you pulled away from him. “it isn’t even new year’s yet?” the minutes left on the countdown timer confirmed your claim.

“i just couldn’t wait any longer,” he said, pulling you back in. 

he made sure you had been worrying for nothing.

a/n: HAPPY FREAKING NEW YEARRR!! this isn’t much but i wanted to start off the new year with our favorite boys <333 LOVE YOU GUYS ALWAYS

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