#yeah thats good enoguh

[severalratstiedtogether]

can i be the transfem antasma guy

(wip under the cut)

[thatcheeseycandle]

SPOILERS FOR YIAU: IPOS CHP. 38, "6XX66 - Merry Hampton"

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Hi hello, currently me before posting this looking over the post to add in stuff I couldnt type down, so sorry for the delays on promised posts considering I'm at a hotel with my parents to visit family)

But thankfully by the time I'm posting this, it's the last day before I go home tomorrow so hopefully I can speedrun some projects to throw them here

And ah the the paragraph with a bold font will explain why this reaction was so late

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//IM IN THE CAR AS OF STARTING THIS, HEADING BACK TO THE HOTEL (CAUSE YEAH I WENT TO ONE WITH MY PARENTS TO VISIT FAMILY), I REBLOGGED THE CHAPTER

ITS HERE OHMYGOAPAHADNAUAHOAH

IM EXPLODING SO MUCH IM HOLDING IN SO MUCH-

AND WE START IT OFF WITH TYDFIL WOOOOOOOOOOOO

AAAAAANDDD I HAD TO FRESHEN UP, OKAY LETS CONTINUE YEAH

Tydfil TYDFIL AH NOO :(

Current me here, insert a bit where I go silent reading and how I dont know how to word my thoughts in this. I remember my feelings being mixed between guilt and anger towards Merfyn 6024

Fuck wait ITS BLACK SMOKE AH NOOOOO SNAP OUT OF IT TYDFIL

"She felt like her boiler was about to up off her frames in fright" HOLY GOD????? CHRIST SOMEONE HELP THE POOR GIRL SHES HAD ENOUGH-

NO TYDFIL NO NO DONT DO THAT TO YOUR BRAKES EVEN MORE NOO

"She wanted her comforting reassuring presence but every time she called out to the old, kind engine there was no answer. Tydfil truly was alone." MY GOD. THIS. AAAAAAMYGOD

NOTYDFIL NO THEY ARENT GONNA BE AFTER YOU NO NO IS ALL OKAY- NO TYDFIL NOOO

OI STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM HER OR I SWEAR TO GOD

What the

OH.

Ay ay AY HENRY??? HENRY ITS HIM LETS GOOO

This is a very interesting pair up, now Im curious how this goes👀

"This had to be some sort of trick, right? This Henry was tricking her, trying to decieve her like all the rest." nO NOO NO HE ISNT

BUT SHIT SHE ISNT GOKNNA BELIEVE THAT, SHES TRAUMATISED ENOGUH

Yet again, current me before posting this here, I loved this scene between Tydfil and Henry where it's just mainly dialogue (until Tydfil breaks it with her audacity LMAO) its a relaxing sort of scene to read. Especially after the whole adventure that is me and my parents making our way back to the hotel room lol

"What's the point of this?! This is stupid!" tYDFIL LMAOOO TYDFIL YOU NEEDA CALM YOUR SHITE

"Edward speaks highly of you" FUCK YEAAAHHHHH THEIR RELATIONSHIPS ARE TYING EACHOTHER AND ARE USEFUL WOOOOOOO

LOVE IT

"Why would someone try to hurt me if I was a good engine?" GOSH DAMN. DAMN I

THE FIRST SHOT, PREPARING MYSELF

Now that THATS REAL TALK, POSITIVE REAL TALK, APPLAUSE FOR HENRY RQ CAUSE DAMN

And this is another unique dynamic I look forward to seeing in the future, I cant describe the feeling of it but Im getting uncle and niece vibes from them, but either way I LOVE EHM

wHAT THE FUCK

RHION AY ITS RHION ITS HIM

FUCK RIGHT, BLACKSMOKE, YEAH.

"The Black Smoke, or whatever Ms Parsons had done to him had completely and utterly stripped him of any warmth, any hope, any semblance of warmth" Ms Parsons when I catch your arse WHEN I FUCKING CATCH YOU I SWEAR TO GOD

Okay yeah Im gonna appear a lot from the current, this scene, my heart ACHED I tell you ACHED. RHION YOU POOR SOUL (I was speechless in this)

No no RHION HE ISNT YOUR BROTHER ANYMORE

Okay well he never fuckin was

WHAT THE FUCK???? WHAT AND/OR WHO IS THIS

Current me, I dropped my reading device, and I nearly fell off the bed in this

DROP THE FUCKING SHITE WHAT

BUT HES- WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING OONNNN??????????????????????????

NO RHION NOOOOAOAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NO BO DONT YOU FUCKING DO THIS NO NOOOOOOOOO

MALLARD I SWEAR TO GOD

WHAT????? WHAT WHAT HUH

NOAOAOAOAOOOOAOAAOAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAOSOAOAOOOOO RHION NAOAOOO FUCK NOOOO

HE CANT BE FUCKING DEAD NO. NO HE CANT PLEAAAAAASSEEE

Summary of that rant to this bit: FUCK YOU 6024 AND MS PARSONS, I WILL BE AFTER YOU I SWEAR TO GOD

Okay OKAY YEAH. LETS GO INTO THE NEXT BIT.

What the fuck- WAIT WAAIAPSHSNAKABDDKHFBDOSHDHDXJ

POLLYPOFLTAJAOSBDLZGCNSIFN

CALM, CALM OKAY CALM.

What the fuck WHAT THE FUCK WHAY FUAOAKAPPAPAOAAOAO WHAT WHAT

WHERE THE FICK IS POLLY???????????????????

Ay AY A\Y AY AY AY ITS THE BOOK THE JOURNAL FIAUAPDJNDIABHDS

ITS THE BOOK OHMYGOD

ITS NORTHS JOURNAL

THIS IS OUR VERSION OF THE GRAVITY FALLS JOURNALS. OH MY GOD.

Norths sealshspa NORTHS SEAL???????????

NORTH AHS A FUCKING SEAL?????????

Now this is a detail I'll be keeping an eye out for if there are more GNJournal entries (or anything that shows North's journal) coming

MERYEGAKAPAUSVZVUKAOSXHDJCJCJCJUUUUJH

MERRY HAMPTON

OKAY WERE HERE

THIS IS HAPPENING

OKAY

TORN?????? RORN

ToahhaISHSKAJ

OKAY YES, RIGHT

I swear if its black smoke, I SWEAR- PRAYING THOSE FEELINGS ARENT THAT. NOT AFTER LAST TIME

"Yet, Olivia had the very distinct feeling that the answers lay within this journal." nO SHIT SHERLOCK OHMYGOAOHA

Necklace NECKLAAIAOAOAAIAHSAO NECKLACE ITS THE NECKLACE ITS THE RAVEN PENDANT IM FUCKING CALLING IT

FUCKWUAYDKAAA MY NINAGS COMIG SHITSHITSHITSHIT

Okay Im on the roof deck, dark mocha latte for the evening, LETS MAKE THIS EVENING BETTER

Ay AY WHAT THE FUCK WHY IS POLLY APOLOGISING WHY ARE YOU APOLOGISING OHMYGOD WHY DID YOU SAY THAT??????

So wait. Let me get this straight before I go bonkers; North doesnt have one journal but many journals for each engine he's most likely revived, and the first GNJournal entry we saw was actually Merry Hampton's journal/record

Thats. THATS ACTUALLY SMART HELLO?? North is upping his game right here, a true researcher!

What the fuck. WAIT. WHAT THW FUCK IS THIS?? THERES A DATE. WAIR WAIR-

IS THIS LIKE HOW EVERY OAGE IS, IT HAS LIKE A "GWR: [], LMS: [], LNER [], SR [], etc" TYPE THING??

Wait, whats with SR here?? Ill be noting that down, thats suspicious

Stanier tried saving him. I

HE TRIED SAVING NORTH, HOLY GOD

So they used black smoke, SO THIS PROVES THAT BLACK SMOKE IS ACKNOWLEDGED TO BE SOMETHING GOOD. LIKE AS IN IT CAN BE USED TO RELIEF PAIN LIKE PAIN KILLERS.

HOLYFUCK STANIER KNEW MORE INTO GOLD DUST??????? HE KNEW????????? FAILED EXPERIMENTS?????????? WHATTHEFUCK DOES THIS MAN KNOW HOLYGOD

OKAY SO, SIR GRESLEY KNEW THEN PASSED IT TO PEPPERCORN THEN WAS PASSED TO STANIER. Im guessing Peppercorn wouldve done it around the time before, during, or after Sir Gresley had passed considering the flashback in Chp. 26 where Sir Gresley and North were talking about the war

Oh shit. So Stanier was dying- HE WAS DYING. FUCK THIS IS THRILLING AND TENSE

THE COTTAGE WAS HIS???????? OKAY SO ITS BASICALLY A STUDENT BECOMING A MENTOR TO KEEP THE CYCLE GOING FOR OTHER STUDENTS TO BECOME A MENTOR, CONTINUING THE LINE OF KNOWLEDGE.

So that confirms one of my smaller theories, Stanier was indeed a mentor to North (that was just a theory out of shits and giggles..)

WOAH SHIT OKAY UH WEEW. LNER ROSE UP REAL FAST.

Oh OH. DAMN.

No fucking way NO WAY HE KNEW ALAN PEGLER??????? Okay well he did know the A1 Trust anyway, so why am I surprised LMAOO BUT I MEAN IT STILL IS HALF A SURPRISE

No NO WHAT WDYM WHATAAA WHAT WHAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTT

WAIT SO, THSI MEANS THAT A CORONATION HAS A REVIVED CONTRUCT. ONE FO THEM.

Golden Circle GOLDENCIRLAGAKAOAAH

SO HE WAS INDEED IN THE GOLDEN CIRCLE.

EughFOCK OKAY THE LNER IS STILL IN FIRST PLACE.. IM WORRIED

WHAT THE FUCK??? WHAT.

WAIT WAIR, WHAT DOES THIS MEAN??

Cause look, from what I know, there are a decent amount of Wardens for the LMS around that time period, humans and engines.

It. IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE WHAT THE FUCK

"The Black 5 if furious and threatens to crack my skull open." Surprisingly the most normal threat North has recieved so far. Damn.

Wait WAIT. HE ISNT A RUNAWAY??? HES NOT- HES A KICKED OUT MEMBER, IS WHAT IM UNDERSTANDING FROM THIS.

IFUCKINGCAAAAALLEDDDDD IT I CALLED IT OHMYGOD I CALLED IT. SIR GRESLEY STARTED IT WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Fuck wait WAIT WHAT. WELL FUCK OKAY THATS VERY BAD. BAD.

"Perhaps that was all it ever was, a dream." GOSH DAAMN. DAMN OKAY

I AM GETTING MORE CONCERNED AS I READ THIS.

Okay a one month timeskip, WHATTHEFUCK

WHAAT. 25?????????????

I

I CAAAALLEDDDD IT I CALLED IT OHMYGOD YEAAAASSSS YES YESSSSSSSSSSS LETS GOOOO

ENGINES SAVED BY WORKMEN BY THEM HIDING SAID ENGINES YEAAAAAAAAASSSS

Rooster. OKAY SO THAT CONFIRMS IT, ROOSTER CAME AFTER NORTH DID. OKAY GOOD. THATS YEAAASSS

J CLASS MENTION WOOOOOOOOO

Wair WAIT WAIT PEPPERCORNS. WAIT SO. WAAAAIT. WAIT WAIT OHMYGOD WAIT

THIS DOESNT CLEARLY CONFIRM IT, BUT IT MIGHT BE HINTING AT HOW KESTREL/KHLOE IS A REVIVED CONSTRUCT RN

But but, it still raises the question, WHAT WERE THEY REVIVED WITH??? WAS IT WITH GOLD DUST OR ARE THEY SILVER SOULS?????????

Wait FIGHT?????? HOLYGOD THERE WAS A WAR. THERE

ANARCHY, OF COURSE IT WOULDVE HAPPENED

So then. Okay SO NORTHS GOAL; SAVE SIBLINGS

I

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Okay so ah, before I continue this, let me just say this:

The next bits I reacted to were just WIPED OUT by tumblr when I tried saving it yesterday in my drafts, but thankfully Im running on naps, caffiene, and some hours of sleep cause I know I forgot how I reacted and what I did react to (considering this was a first read so yeah)

As of writing this little explanation it's the second day I'll be staying here at this hotel before going home, starting up back the reaction below this paragraph at around 5 am rn (wow I woke up early, not complaining though)

So basically LETS CONTINUE THIS REACTION FROM WHATS BEEN LEFT, RUNNING ON HOPES AND DREAMS EDITION!

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Oh OH SEPTEMBER 16TH

THATS POLLYS SCRAP DATE ISNT IT??

And IT FUCKING IS LETS GOO

WOOOOOOOOO LETS GO NORTH ANOTHER WIN

I POLLY?? Okay well of course shes doing that, its North, I think we all know she has a reason to be upset at him

Yet again, crossing off another thing that seemed impossible yet was possible, North believing things such as myths and beliefs circulating around an engine.

But then considering he has the logic to not believe in such things without a proper reason, maybe this is actually hinting at something Merry has?? Im guessing its something related to black smoke or some sort of “gold dust technique” (what the fuck am I saying)

BUT either way I still have my suspicions about her soul (both how it is in the present and past times)

Cause for some context, Ive had a theory (for a while) that Merry (or Jacqueline in the present) had black smoke inside her soul for a while in a way where Blue Peter had his black smoke stored, but in a way where it’s the cause of her cruelty as a parent.

But that was a scrapped theory since I had another theory involving Silver souls, her being one of those said silver souls in that theory.

Anywho CONTINUIJG ON LMAO

AND LETS GOOOO NORTHS GONNA SAVE HER YESSSS

But then, it would scrap my Silver Soul theory for Merry considering she hasn’t died, is what Im understanding here

“Rooster was appalled and almost threatened to kick me off his farm, a farm that I finance, I might add.” Now this sentence mADE ME WHEEZE

Ay AY AY WAIT SO SHE ISNT DEAD. OKAY RIGHT YEAH, SHE ISNT DEAD

“Merry Hampton is my sister after all.” DEVELOPMENT PEOPLE, DEVELOPMENT‼️ ‼

OH LOOKY HERE 30TH OF OCTOBER LETS GOO

IFUCKINGCALLEDIT YEEEAAAAAAASSSS YES STANIER DID HELP YEEASSSSS

AND OOH BOY NOT IN THE WAY I EXPECTED.. THIS HAS TURNED A LOT

Wait WAIT CONSTRUCG???? CONSTRUCT??

“Would go insane” and “Vessel for despair” intrigue me, cause that sounds like cold iron sleep-

Well I mean it in a way where the insanity could be where your denial of facing death leads to a spiral of insanity that makes them face it even closer, and how “vessel for despair” could be interpreted as a vessel for black smoke to feed on their despair of facing death

Okay shit I just backread a bit SO MERRY DID INDEED DIE. BUT THE QUESTION IS, WHEN DID SHE DIE???

Waoh WOAH WOAH WOAHAIAOAAHAHA ITS THE SPILLED THING ITS THE SNEAK PEAK OHMHGODOSHAOAA

IT ALL MAKES SENSE NOW

THE FIRST GNJOURNAL IT MAKES SENSE NOW

MERRY AND POLLY WERENT SAVED TOGETHER NO MERRY WAS INDEED SAVED OR WAS ATTEMPTED TO BE SAVED BUT NORTH FUCKED IT UP BY GIVING HER A CRUDE CONSTRUCT AND SO THAT LEAD TO HER HAVING TO BE IDK SENT AWAY FROM HIM??

AAY AY AY LOOK ITS THE OHMFYAO

SIR GRESLEY??????? HARMING HERSELF????????? WHAT?????????

AY WAIT. SO BLACK SMOKE WAS INDEED KNOWN TO BE A PAIN KILLER OF SORTS FOR ENGINES. OKAY NOTED

Coldstreamer. CODLHEAKAPA COLDSTREAMER OHMYGOD

KINGFISHER??????????????????? WAIT SOLARIO??????????

COUNTERPART TO SCOTSMAN- BITCH I THOUGHT MALLARD WAS HIS COUNTERPART OHMYHOD

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

SO MALLARD WAS INDEED KNPWN AS A HEALER BUT HIS MEMORIES WERE WIPED OF BEING ONE.

I just fuckin realized, Mallard was just a tool, a tool to relieve pain. When he wasn't a fellow bird enjoyer that is.

Thays. THATS SO DAMN SAD MYGO

If I knew that before reading aGS, it wouldve been even more sadder istg

WHAT THE FUCK. SO THOMPSON TRIED GETTING THOSE MEMORIES BACK BUT HE FUCKED IT UP BY DESTROYING HIS SOUL

ITS LIKE TRYNA GRAB A LITTLE BITE SIZED CANDY OUT FROM A TALL GLASS VASE FOR CRYING OUT LOUD, YOUR GONNA BREAK IT EITHER WAY.

HEAL MERRY HAMPTON’S CONSTRUCT??????????

Oh fuck Pollys not talking to him, shit

“All I have done is prolong her tortured existence.” YOU THINK??????? 

DAMN.

HUNDREDS???????? HUNDREDS. FOR EVERY RAILWAY. COUNT EVERY FUCKING RAILWAY AND MULTIPLY THE NUMBER OF THEM ALL WITH 100 MYGOD

Ay HOLD THE DAMN PHONE

HENDRICK WAS STORED IN A STOREROOM????

WHAT HAPPENED TO MALLARD- OH FUCK RIGHT THE YEAR

MEMORY??????? OHFUCK THEY MEMORY WIPED HER AS WELL.

Wait, black smoke feeds on any negative emotion (from what I understand), and memories can conjure said memories.

From that I can guess that Merry had black smoke used on her when reviving/reforming her into a construct but something went wrong and so CUE THE MUSIC

Woah WOAH WOAH THE LMS WARDENS, FROM THE THING, HOLYGOD

AND WAIT WAIT. SPION KOP OHMYGOD SPION

Wait, back in the server Loraine said that Spion Kop translates to Spy Head in Dutch, so then- OH.

OHIFUCKINGCAAALLEDDDDDITTTT MERRY DID HAVE BLACKSMOKE YEEEEEAAAAAAASSSSSSSS

Pause rq cause JACQUELINE BYRON IS A COOL SOUNDING NAME HOLYGOD

Ay AY OKAY YEAH TIMESKIP TO ONE WEEK LATER LETS GO

I take it back its been five damn years..

Oh something's wrong, yeah NO WAY there isnt anything wrong cause THAT SOUNDS BAD. VERY BAD.

Wait. Marley Vaughan? That sounds familiar sec-

Okay I was wrong, that name doesnt belong to a GDC we know. Noting that down

Woah WOAH WHAT THE FUCK WHAT?? SPION WHAT HAPPENED????

Wait WAIT. OKAY SO- HOW. THE FUCK.

THATS WHAT IM ASKING AS WELL

Wait this would be 14 years before (from what I've conjured/theorised) Olivia was born, so does this mean she has a secret sibling or does she age slowly?? 

Ah FUCK OKAY. POLITICAL CORRUPTUON GEAH LETS DO THIS, LETS NOT GO CAUSE THAT US BAD YEAH.

HE WAS A JUBILEE?????????????????? NO. NO WAY FUCK NO. ALLISON RAY WHYY???????

“Though I do not think it was intentional on Arethusa’s part to give Merry a child” Buckle in, prepare for tough shit cause I SWEAR-

JEREMY PARSONS??????? HEREMYSAJAO JEREMY PARSONS. HOLYSHIT

STEAAAL?????????????????? STEAL. OKAY- FUCK WAIT. I MAY NOT JNOW HOW THIS JEREMY PARSONS IS RELATED TO MS PARSONS (COULD BE HER TWIN??) BUT SHIT THIS IS WHY MS PARSONS WENT FOR NORTH TO GET OLIVIA’S WHISTLE. TO CONTINUE WHATEVER JEREMY PARSONS HAD PLANNED.

HEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

WHAT THE FUCK. HES DEAD. MYGOD AND WE DIDNT EVEN KNOW MUCH ABOUT HIM OTHER THAN THE INFO THATS BEEN SHARED, SOMEONE GIVE THIS GUY A FUCKING FUNERAL MY GOD

TAKE MERRY????????????? TAKE MERRY. OHMYGOD TAKE MERRY??????

ANCHOR????????? ANCHOR, LADY, CREATOR, WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS GUY ON???????

“Never have I seen someone so unhinged.” I couldn't agree more with you North, cause WHAT THE FUCK

BLACK SMOEJAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

OHMYGODOAOA

OKAY THIS JSUT CLICKED IN MY MIND FOR YOU LOT TO NOTE, EVERYTHING I'M READING THAT COMES AFTER THE MARCH 8TH 1969 ENTRY IS MY FIRST TIME READING THEM.

I AM SHOCKED.

Thank GOD Hamilton and Allison came cause NY GOD THAT. THATS TENSE HOLYSHIT

YEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSS YEAH GET HIS ARSE INTO JAIL RIGHT NOW, SERVES HIM RIGHT FOR DOING SUCH A THING

Wait. What the fuck- WDYM ARETHUSA AND I????? YOU JUST SAID HE WAS DEAD WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON??????

IS THIS A GHOST TYPE SITUATION?????

“She is with child and the baby is everything to her now” Jacqueline Byron Vaughan YOU TRAGIC WOMAN

“My curiosity is not higher than that of Merry’s happiness.” I am not strong, THIS SENTENCE RIGHT HERE-

AWWE. THATS JUST HEART WARMING, HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY TO MERRY AND HER SWEET CHILD (I am melting, like Ive said, I AM NOT STRONG)

wHAT THE FUCK. WAIT WAIT- BLACK SMOKE??????? NO FUCK WHAT NO NO NO WHAT.

MADE HER ILL?????????? MEMORIES???????? OH FOR FUCKS SAKE WHEN SOMETHING GRAND HAPPENS IT GOES DOWN HILL (WHY AM I SURPRISED??)

Remarkableblu

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAJHVXHQSBJ CBSHVJ HEF HISFBC IM NOT NORMAL

AaaGYXQOHJXLSscBMVFJ  FSINBV SLVFEAIUFWFOWUDWULVVUYCDWTFURVHIVVYK.UUKUG  DQRNB.FWJJBMWF   P 2E

I NEED TO BREAARHE HOLY GOD. 

OLIVIAS MADE OUT OF GOLD DUST AND BLACK SMOKE. THIS IS WHY SHE COULD GO NEAR MALLARD IN AGS, BECAUSE SHE COULDNT BE CONTROLLED BY MALLARD'S BLACK SMOKE CAUSE SHE HAD HER OWN AND IT EXPLAINS HOW SCOTSMAN COULD SURVIVE IN HER BODY IN THE SAME SERIES.

AND THIS COULD CONFIRM HOW SHE HAD A HEART CONDITION, IT WASNT A HEART CONDITION, IT WAS BLACK SMOKE FIGHTING WITH HER GOLD DUST.

OLIVIAS A CONSTRUCT, A HYBRID CONSTRUCT, AND SO HER CHILDREN ARE THE HALF HUMAN AND HALF CONSTRUCT ONES NOT HER

THIS EXPLAINS SO MUCH YET QUESTIONS MUCH MORE.

[paperstreetlocal]

How did you manage to improve your art so fast in so little time?

i dont think 5 years is that little 😭😭😭😭 i mean.drawing daily for that long ....thats like thousands of drawings since on some days i draw several times

i started drawing fr at the start of quarantine for whatever reason (end of my gacha phase + i wanted to branch out + general boredom) and had a relatively supportive friend group who liked what i made (even tho i deem it utter garbage by my standards now) so that did motivate me to do it often asides from my general love for it... i usually focused on chibi/more cartoony stuff without a general sense of direction (didnt know anatomy or anything) so i guess the real start of me taking it seriously (whatever tha means) was watching fight club? cause i was like Yeah no way am i drawing tyler as a twink in my usual artstyle so hence came my insane focus on learning anatomy and how to draw muscles/fat whatever else

i dont ever do studies and barely use references (aside from character ones so ik how to draw them correctly) because it feels incredibly restrictive and i just like drawing what interests me and cant force myself to do anything that idgaf about which is probably a bad habit and uhm. I should actually learn color theory and whatever but I dont care I draw for fun.art isnt a serious thing if you put your heart to it you can learn anything with enoguh trial and error❤️ experiment!!! if it turns out like shit, good! you learned not to do that thign next time! you also learned how to utilize said style in the future to make something better!!!! If you struggle with studying shit make your favorite character/topic a core component of it!!! if you dont like drawing something, dont!!! take inspo from other artists, use the components you like from their styles to create your own!! its probably not that easy for most people but its how it came to me i Guess... if you struggle with something you want to get better at just fuck around with it until it looks good.......i have horrendous perfectionist issues and if my brain doesnt like what its seeing its gonna tell me (un)fortunately and i draw until its good enough. Or i dump it. my main goal is make as much shit as possible until i just gradually get better at it

i never take more than 5 hours on a drawing since my style is relatively flexible and i dont focus on much than besides basic anatomy and making it as funky/appealing as possible.if ur pose is too stiff mesh transform it until it looks fine, feel free to scrap shit if it looks bad. dont dwell on it for too long. people always talk about rules and whatever other shit or using tutorials it just Doesnt work for me...

only rule i Do like is you have to learn anatomy to break it properly ok. this applies to cartoonish shit too. and chibis. Learn it

gradients are awesome and will make ur stuff look 50 times cooler and I encourage using filters if ur colors look bad.. (i do it for every drawing)

dont compare urself to other artists EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean EVER you can like another persons art but NEVER compare yourself to them IT WILL KILL YOUR ART Only compare yourself to yourself . compare new art to old art if you need to. Do Not compare yourself to others you dont know how long theyve been drawing, how much time thye spent on it, their circumstances, talent, tools Ok. Dont . Jealousy is bad and ugly and you should never indulge in it. draw for nobody but yourself. if you like it its Good enough

tldr: fucking around

[leynaeithnea]

Oh yeah good call doing this song by song becase our essays are getting so long it's illegal at this point haha

Before we get into it, one of the chorus is "kill for love"? DAMN , that's totally not gonna ruin me at all, nu-uh I'll be super fine for sure

Okay let's go

This song is literally my fave of the saga, stuck in my head on repeat because of the melody and the beautiful vocals but also the story?? She is actually a siren trying to trick him but he pulls out a uno reverse card and tricks her even harder ??? Once again LYING CUNNING CHARACTERS FOR THE WIN AJSKSNBSB

Also I'm so jealousy of you bc I did not have it in me to wake up in the middle of the night for the stream but I wanted to see it so baaad, I would have been even more confused than you at 5am don't worry your wild theories are valid

Their little banter is impeccable "answer some questions for me please ?🥺" " Of course babe 🤭🙃" let's say I was on the run from Poseidon that big meanie 😔" " Oh nOo pookie poor you 🥺" They are so unserious !!! And then the vocals in her reply keep me up at night " sailing where he's scared to roam" is done so majestically akdmndns

Can't fight you on this , Ody saying he's shy and terrified is so fuckin funny and random hahahah

Oh good gods don't let me think about it because I know ,I KNOW HE'S PRETENDING A LITTLE BIT THIS IS REALLY HIS PENELOPE AND IT HURTS SO BAD the way he says he'd die for her and he misses her so much , "more than you know "because the siren actually doesn't know , she has no idea how much he misses his wife asakkksnns free my boy he deserves some smooches from his wifeee

( I love how you keep slipping Neil in the conversation and I do not fault you for it bc liars= Neil-Josten-hiding-his-whole-ass-murderer-father-with-ties-to-the-japanese-mafia-like-it's-nothing )

ALRIGHT I have a bit energy again

I agree with everything u said moving to the next song now!

22. Different Beast

the arrow followed by this ear piercing screaming (good think they all had beeswax in their ears fr)

ODY IS SO MAD "lets cut the charade you are no wife of mine" I almost feel like he hates the Siren even more for DARING to pretend to be Penelope, and making him yearn for her even more

the music in that one is also soooo sinister and creepy

and how his voice changes with "i know underwater theres packs of you hiding, yeah i know exactly what you are, a siren" its so vicious and cunning iTS soo good

Then the siren hiss seigsegj

AND THEN THE DRUMs when he starts singing "my real wife knows im not scared of the water, and my real wife knows i dont have a daughter" like the drums rise when he speaks and between the lines and when the strings or whatever they are come up again, the drum gets quieter again for a moment only to rise up again when he speaks...its so cool, i love this drum beat, which continues while he tells his whole big-brain plan (love how we see Odys hubris in this one, he gets so smug about his plans with the sirens that he spends a whole song explaining it to us, on one hand its exposition and him just recalling what happened for story purposes but also it fits the character for his pride - which in the myth is also his fatal flaw - takes over)

also "we are a different beast now" chorus: basically is just "we are the monsters rawr rawr rawr"

"we've been away from home for ABOUT 12 YeARS OR SO" JORGE; JORGE WE KNOW WHAT YOU DID HERE

I've also been wondering, i kind of feel like the ryhtm of the music doesnt fully-align with the lyrics bc theyre shifting between singing and sing-talking, and ive been wondering if thats maybe like a suble sign that acutally Ody and the crew dont hear a thing rn? kinda? idk, i dont have enoguh knowledge about music theory to actually explain the sort of dissonance i feel is happening, it could also just be done like this to showcase how theyre the different beasts now

Sirens singing "spare us" is eery and pretty

Odys embracing the lesson people have been trying to teach him throughout act 1 finially "why, so you can kill the next group of sailirs in this part of the sea, nah you wouldve spared me"

"cut of their tails we're ending this now, throw their bodies back int he water let them drown" HE IS THE MONSTER RAWR RAWR RAWR

AND THen the CHOIR LYRIcs shift to "HE is a different beast now, he is the one to feast now" (i lowkey imagine him just snacking on some Siren tail in that line ngl, the only way the lyrics "the ones to feast now" makes sense is if they literally feasted on these tails, it would also explain why Ody specifically wanted to cut of their tails)

also Ody plss "Kill them all"...ow, but fair i suppose, but you couldve just slit their throats

ADN THEN The last lyrics being "Odysseus" omg gsiejgisejg love it

Also i dont know when this shifted from "my favorite lines in the musical" to "my reaction and analysis to every song" but by now im just vibing with it

[colorisbyshe]

if you want to complain more about clamp I am listening :) as someone who owns many volumes of the manga in multiple languages...... I am listening. <3

okay i’m just gonna rant in a very, very long post everyone please just avert your eyes mental illness is happening

but like....... as someone who was nostalgically reading these manga to bring back some happy memories i had as a kid, discovering that these series (ccs which i remembere dfondly despite not having actually watched/read as a kid, and trc and xxxholic which i read with some of my best friends at the time) are not just deeply flawed but harbouring so much like... frankly heinous shit in them is like??? deeply hurtful to me???

and like... i could handle cardcaptor sakura being full of evil shit because i had no deep personal connection, i just wanted to better understand ccs references in tsubasa and lik better appreciate syaoran and sakura and like its 90s shoujo OVER COURSE ITS FUCKED UP! just like sailor moon and fruits basket like it’s not good but like... i can process it

trc hurts me because like... the character writing for kurogane and fai is fucking PHENOMENAL, the concept is cool and interesting and unique, it (for the most part) has great themes and the way it explores concepts like grief, trauma, sacrifice, and healing was a balm to my quarantined soul

but you can tell where they realized they literally... did not know how to resolve their plot? and it got so complicated it legit gave me headaches but at least i had kurogane nad fai and then they’re shoved to the side just for it to be revealed that syaoran... is syaoran and sakura’s son... looking to meet up with sakura... to be with her... so they can be his parents

like... wow so great to watch this beautiful relationship be explored with kurogane and fai saving each otehr from the worst part of themselves just to be sidelined for “what if those fourth graders from cardcaptor sakura where husband and wife AND mother and son but like NOT REALLY becaues syaoran is also syaoran’s own dad so is it incest or just really confusing” but no it’s both like legit when falling in love with sakura he comments on how she’s just like his mom like hello bitch? you’re 14 but i’ll still kill you that shit is WEIRD

so that wAS NOT GREAT and then it ends with THE GROUP SEPARATED AT THE END?? SO I COULDN’T EVEN GET A HAPPY ENDING like yeah maybe it’s good sakura and syaoran were separated but kurogane and fai got to stay together beacuse... fuck the incest  but like... where is my catharsis where is my happiness??

and i’m rereading xxxholic which was my favorite of trc/xxxholic as a kid and... first off, it’s boring, secondly, it thinks it’s smarter than it is an dhas contradicting themes every other chapter, but FUCK it’s so interesting but doumeki, himawari, watauniki, and yuuko don’t have half the bonds as the TRC gang and like... i still don’t know why doumeki was going so fucking hard for watanuki

but the concepts were interesting enoguh and watching watanuki grow was nice

but you can ALSO tell AGAIN clamp just got bored and didn’t know how to wrpa it up so suddenly watanuki gives up ALL HIS BONDS AND HURTS ALL HIS FRIENDS just to be reunited with yuuko??? despite the themes of the story being about how self sacrifice causes scars on others?? and that’s BAD like if you love your frieneds you don’t hurt them by undervaluing yourself??? THATS A BASIC THEME OFT HE STORY

and then they rush to pair off doumeki with a girl THEY HELPED RAISE so he can have children to stay with watanuki... himawari is written off despite her last interactions with watanuki being about them caring for each other anad choosing to stay in contact despite her curse... and like yuuko’‘s entire character is never explained she’s just like “i’m a woman who exists as a vehicle of plot in both TRC and xxxholic i will never be given depth beyond that... well also i’ll ruin watanuki’s life”

and hen the last chapters are just watching everyone grow up while watanuki is alone, never aging, helping grant wishes where he watches other immortal beings suffer and lose everyone, and it just ends with him relizing he likely won’t ever see yuuko again but he’ll keep waiting?? even though it’s been 100 yers and everyone he loves is dead??

and that shit is not good for my mental health like i feel like i have been isolated fo ra hundred years beacuse of covid watching watanuki choose it hurt edeply

like half the manga is about syaoran and sakura begging him not to vanish (also that plotline was WEIRDLY dropped) and the series ends with him effectively... vanishing a sa person and just becoming shopkeeper

how fucking depressing??

i could handle a sad ending if it had value. if it said something. if it didn’t have doumeki marrying a girl he knew since she was an abused elementary schooler while he was like 17. ESPECiALLY when IN THE PANELS REVEALING IT it weren’t like “atcually neither of them love each other they love watanuki but it’s fine” like HUH????????? FOR WHY

and ive really had to grasp the reason why there’s so much fucked up shit (incest, pedophilia) in those series is core to CLAMP’s messages accross all their mangas about soulmates nad how about love can triumph over everything

and like using such a PURE message to be like “if an adult is in love with a child and they’re soulmates, it’s to be” is so fucking evil

like they’ll tip toe around kurogane and fai, yukito and touya, doumeki and watanuki, and all the gaybait that i KNOW is in their other series because i’ve grown up seeing shit like tokyo babylon and legal drug and all their other dropped manga

because gay peopl ebeing soulmates is a wink and a nod

but ADULTS WITH CHILDREN THEY ARE IN CHARGE OF??? MOTHER AND SON MAYBE??? oh that’s fine they’re REAL soulmates who will go against TIME AND DIMENSION MAGIC ITSELF to be in love

like...............................

gay people are second class characters compared to pedos and incest... does it get worse than that? like besides emotionally destroyed by the sad endings, i get that shit too?

it hurts on a deeper level like feels like a betrayal and i’m kind of really sad i revisited something i enjoyed so much as a kid (even when i didn’t understand wtf was going on, because i was literally reading it at the same time my friend was and rushing) andd discovered this like... deep rot inside it

i could have continued to remember it fondly but now it’s just like... reaching the last bite of cake and being told it was made with maggots like... well i already ate it all...

there’s no point reading clear card or the unfinished tsubasa/xxxholic sequels because they’ve already ruined themselves like they can’t fix it

kurogane and fai still won’t be allowed to be together. watanuki still outlived everyone who ever loved him for a mother figure that can never come back. cardcaptor wrote off the fourth grader engaged to hre teacher but like... sakura’s dad is still a preadator

like... what do i do with these left over feelings then?

i’ll be over it in a dya but like for tonight i really do feel unwell

okay thank you i got it out in one post i am processing the feelings

i am gonna cry about watanuki being alone tho

[superemeralds]

ive had my own idea for a sonic movie that would still be live action and a generic child-friendly action-comedy just like the “real” sonic movie is (presumably) gonna be

IN SHORT!

The main character that makes a duo with sonic for the majority of the movie is a young girl named June.

The overall plot is very similar to sonic x, but altered to fit the time span of the usual one and a half hours movie length in movies like that.

detailed description, explanation of the pictures and character info under the cut!

Through a mal-induced chaos control eggman and sonics friends get transported into the real world. this time space rift causes some really weird stuff to happen and June gets seperated from her dad, who was just on his way to bring her to school.

at first she thinks its cool to meet a talking blue hedgehog in a really pretty nature-y place and skip school to play with him, but soon they notice that they are not alone. Eggmans robots got transported to our world too! June gets captured because she is seen with sonic and therefore identified as a threat by eggmans robots! Sonic runs after her towards what seems to be eggmans base.

meanwhile the dad was transported to a really high place, whihc is bad cos he’s  got fear of heights. Luckily tails and knuckles appear and offer to help him down

both teams start looking for eachother, but get interrupted by various obstacles. June and Sonic get hold off by eggmans schemes, while Dad and Sonics friends stumble upon amy, who just escaped a military research facility. she hoped that cream would be with the others, but it seemed that they had to go back and save her. the Dad used to be a hobby boxer, but since he’s a lawyer he doesn’t really do that much anymore. it surely helped him when taking out those government officials. its funny how a lawyer breaks the law, right? there’s many jokes on that and his character development goes from strict father figure that doesnt allow fun and insists on obeying the law to a wild and free man who does what’s right, even if  he has to break rules. (also he screams “sorry” every time he KOs someone because hes that kinda guy)

June and sonic manage to infiltrate the egg carrier that was transported into our world and set it to crash and render all his stuff useless!

However, the ship is on course for the city which they didnt realize until it started losing height. eggman pretends that he can still stop this if the people are willing to make him their unquestionable ruler, but sonic and june are determined to stop the ship themselves. sonic keeps eggman busy while June is in the command center trying to find a way to make the ship change course and go crash in the ocean.

in the end everything is exploding and falling apart and eggman is fleeing, June managed to change the ships course and runs up to sonic telling him he needs to run, sonic says that she doesnt have to tell him twice and they go.

sonic gets blown to the side by an explosion and trips over debris, making his knee bleed a little (u cant see blood bc this is kid friendly hes just hurt like theres dirt or smth lol) and he tells june to run and not worry, but she comes back and lifts him on her back and is determined to run as fast as she can to get outside

when she reaches a door she screams because she’s scared. they are close to the ground, but not close enoguh to make it alive if she jumped... then sonic hugs her from behind and says “jump on my command” and shes like. no way. but he says “trust me we’re not gonna get hurt if we hit water” and shes like “but i cant swim that well” sonic chuckles “me neither” and then she gets the memo and is all determined and ready and they make it and its magical

they might also have a scene thats a nudge to 06 where sonic is very Positive and gives good life advice.

while everything seems like its perfect eggman is starting plan B of his conquer the others were all alarmed by the crashing egg carrier and therefore came speeding in the modified car tails rebuild for Dad (it can turn into a fucken plane. Dad and June are finally reunited and he thanks sonic for watching after her, and sonics like nah ur daughter totally watched after me shes a hero.

and then they work together to stop eggmans final boss robot and save the city.

at some point they all found chaos emeralds somewhere. and sonic can turn super to finish eggman off. yeah that sounds cool.

that also makes him and the others fade back into their own dimension, bc hes Got That Power

in the end its just him, June and Dad iin midst of a park in the city with debris and shit and June is like. sonic dont go we jsut became friends

and sonics like. treasure the memories you make and live life to the fullest bc u only got this one shot and u gotta make the best of it. n her dad is all agreeing and shakes his hand and is like. thanks sonic

and June hugs him and cries but smiles and sonic says nice smile bc im kinda getting emotional writing this all out and then he disappears in a flash of light and in that moment it cuts to the mom on the side of the park in her car with the window down going “what the-” and credits roll

thanks for reading

okay i know most of this was really silly and unfinished but granted i was making this all up as i went on and on about this and like. yea. i brainstormed this in like. 2 horus time completely from scratch, only using sonic X as basis for the plot and the humor of popular and successful action comedies as inspiration for the tone of the movie

as for the characters i just thoguht a carefree girl thats tired of being stuffed into a mold meeting sonic and learning that its okay to be herself and do what u think is right, learning that kindness really is the most powerful thing on earth and that friendships are precious??? hell fucking yeah!

also child character is more relateable than a fucking cop. kids will be able to relate to June, while adults (long time fans most of all) will be able to see their past self in her.

as for the dad, a lot of adults might see themselves in this dad role who just wants the best for his  kid, while being stuck in a boring job that doesnt really fulfil them, but pays the bills and the lifestyle the family has.

I also really wanted characters that you have not seen before. Whenever i see a black dad he has a shaved head and thats kinda boring its just. basic. nothing agianst dads with shaved heads but why is Every Single(black) Dad Bald/Buzzcut? so i gave him dreads because why not? looks cool when he does action shit. whoosh whoosh

i knew i wanted a kid and i knew i wanted a girl. im really fond of puffy pigtails and i decided to go with a black girl just because! it was the very first thing that came to my mind when i was looking for an adventurous girl that wants to go on adventures with a blue talking hedgehog.

plus loving black dads that lov their girls rly rly need rep u_u

as for sonics design, i tried to compromise with the movie’s need for a more realistic sonic by making him overall fluffier to hint at texture, but keeping his core design and proportions.

the same goes for all the other characters.

I’m still very thinking emoji about eggman, I think it would be best to have him be either played by a fat person. Like Really Fat Person to resemble his original design (hes fat okay who cares abt slanky legs) or have him be CGI/partially CGI due to the fact that he’s from another dimension.

and uh. that’s all i have to say for now! it’s 1am and i should get to bed!

[duckiesdoodlesdelight]

(sry for not getting to the requests quite yet motivation is a bully) but any ways i jsut made a new cookie run oc ! their name is gummy worm cookie bc. yeah

and yES their pet is a worm on a string !

anyways

Gummy Worm Cookie

They/them

their ability: either like. they become a worm n dig or wiggle around OR they start DIGGING through dirt making a dirt tunnel and oh my god that sounds cool. they dig a hole as a worm? maybe. and u get dirt jellies from it 

my brain isn’t good enoguh right now to think cookie creation stories but thats ok theyre just an oc

pet : Squirmles

pet ability: probly like... pick up missed jellies n also wiggle around and destroy obstacles 

uhh yea :) gummy worme 

[wildlycuriouswanderercj]

k1 speed

i am now determined to leave america

ever since i moved over to the east bay

life has ended for me

the only lifei have now is overseas

not anywhere local

i no longer have close friends

i am a lone wolf

i enjoy doing things myself

i enjoy spending money on myself

i have been forthing resturants for 4 years

retails for 2

and customer services for about 2 as well

i hae about 8 years of working experiences 

i started volunteering for companies at age of 11 or 12 ish

its been 10 years of working service

for most people

they start work at 22

after college

and by 32

theyll have 10 years of working experiences

i am 27 now

i have 10 years or more idk

but life here in k1 went bby quick

started out with many of the boys

now its just down to me basically

everyone moved one

everyones gone

its been a fast fun thing

things went and

came and went

things are moving fast

and so should i

i realize my life here wasnt equalitine to much

i decided i will follow thru with my plans for departure on the 29 of novmebt

i will coe back jan 18 fo family dinner

i will stay

get a job for any 2 or 3 onths

unitil its my bady

when i will head out again

life in k1

started off 

well

there were many guys

all were faster than me

 had some great lessons 

racing with faster people

things picked up

now im one of the fastest

but not fastest

new rookie in town took the spot

but yeah it was fun

had a quick short tie

well spent

covid came

and 2022 flew by

any lessons and scams along the way

didnt make much progess in terms of social or financial standing

didnt make it in tersm of money or girls

but i not worrying

i had a good year

or bad year

a bad year of good lesson

we did alot this year i feel

i liveeld u p a good aount

many experiences along the way

not many too memorable

but times 

good ties flies

its time to let go of the ast

pas

and move on to the future where the great journey awaits

no more being fearful of things

no more being lustful for girls

no need of anything but my own harnessed good vibration

i dontneed to seell anybody anything

i dont need to share anything with anyone

its all coming to an end

life is moving on

when i leave

i will go

and when i come back

ill take a job at sushi house

and take back the job at k1

with new attitude 

and i will work to make 4-5k a month

that is athe goal

i will work

all the way

thru may

and until summer

june 2023

then i will elave again

this time

i iwll leave with 30k in my account

january 1/2

2k

feb

4k

march

4k

april

4k

may

4k

18k.... thats plenty

i currenly

have 7 plus 3

i have ten k

its been a year...

well 5 motnhs 18k not ad actually

so

yeah 

get 20k 

and leave again

from june

july

aaugust

september.

novmeber

deceber

and come ack january

20k

6 months

3k a month spending

work months for 6 months of play

repeat and repeat

life

of a 27 year old

28

29

30

31

32

33

34

35

then maybe by then

id have enoguh of everything

if not

36

37

38

and by then

its real time to get started with maybe a house

and car

mortage

puppy

girlfriend

child

and by 40

id like to settle

after

10 years+ of travel eperience

ive done it all

seen it all

lived all there is to do eat and see smell feel

and by 40

ill be good

then ican settle

house car dog girl mortages friends social gatherings

for now 

tis all about the travels an

live it up now

who knows

if ill live to 40

theres so much to see

and do while young tthan go get a house

lock urself in

get a girl

get a car

lock urself in

lock get tied down

do the same shit

eat the same shit

see the same people

age 20- 30

30- 40

the prime years of ur life

spent doing the same repatitive shit

running track

doning tracking

doing races on the sae track

its about getting out there

doing all u can do

lvingin all u can live

being all u can be

being great being free and wild and limitless

dont be tied down to what others opinion is best of ru

u know hawts best for u

and do what is best for u

dontelt don

dont elt others

tell u whats bet for u

only u should have dictoriatiship over ur own life

else ur life isnt urs

its someone elses being controls for u

to let u know this is whats best

no

be the captian fo rur own story

[cinco-cabezas]

so i watched Last Jedi on thursday...

SPOILERS SPOILERS SPOILERS FOR THE LAST JEDI UNER THE CUT

overall thoughts is that i liked it a lot! i liked it more than tfa, and i liked tfa just fine.

stuff i liked: - i liked luke. just in general, he was very good. and vey good job, mark hamil.

- that lady admiral was great. i love her, she's awesome. i suck for forgetting her name.

- i like leia, she was good. though i spent the entire movie waiting for her death and the inevitable waterworks that would ensue, but alas, she didn’t die! well played, i guess? can’t stop thinking they shot themselves in the foot with that one, really. is episode nine going to open with someone saying “oh, yeah, it was super sad when leia died offscreen two weeks ago right guys?”

- yoda was good too. i liked that they made him a muppet again. good movie for old people this was.

- i liked that poe learned his lesson. i also liked what the lesson was, very good. thinking back on it his stuff felt very passing the torch (re leading the rebellion)? i’m okay with that

- i liked the salt planet, it looked cool.

- i liked admiral holdo's (there's the name!) suicide jump to destgroy snoke's ship, best shot of the movie hands down, got a big cheer from the audience.

- liked the stuff with rey and kylo a lot actually, and i say this as someone that does not care for the ship, i really hope they don't make it romantic, but damn, their stuff was so good i have hope in the writing.

- i liked the backstory about luke and kylo too! good stuff.

- i enjoyed beloved supreme leader kylo more than i thought i would. it was very good how impatient and unbalanced he was by the end and how he kept making very stupid choices.

- it was funny how luke did the final battle via skype. i actually liked this a lot, love me some jedi masters doing impressive stuff with the force that's more creative than shove or slam. the only sorta gripe i have with this is the bait and switch they did with luke's death took me out of the moment, i was so ready for the ben kenobi parallel when luke turned the lightsaber off and made the wise master accepting death pose that it was genuenly shocking when it didn't happen, only for luke to die anyway a few minutes later. and don't get me wrong here, i think luke's last moments were done really really well, i just didn’t feel i was as into it as i could have been. i don't know how they could go about fixing this, or even if anybody else got this problem. oh well, much like scenes with leia, i think i will enjoy this better on a rewatch.

things i didn't like so much:

-i think some of the stuff at the end could have used a bit more subltely. like the sad little slave orphans, that was too much, and for the last shot of the movie, too. yes, i get it, the point is that there is people in the galaxy that still need and will fight for the rebellion but! the sad orphans were a bit much!

ditto for rey and leia talking about luke dying. i think in this instance more is less, the look they exchanged was enough, it got everything it needed to get across. yes, rey, we just saw luke vanish in front of a beautifull sunset, we know he died in peace, you don’t need to make a speech about it. even if you absolutely need them to spell it out, i think minimal dialogue would have been better. rey: “luke is dead.” leia: “i know.” here is were you want to get the point across through acting rather than dialogue! and this two actors in particular have the emotional chops to spare to convey “i force-felt luke dying in peace” without having to speak a word, see: the look they exchanged five seconds prior.

- i really don't like what they did with finn. basically relegated to comic relief and inconsecuential to the narrative. seriously, the only thing that impacted the plot that resulted from his actions was that benicio del toro got captured by the first order and sold them the rebel transports. good job hero indeed. and what even was his character arc?? he starts selfish and ends self-sacrifincing? he ended tfa facing kylo ren alone to protect a friend, that’s not selfish by any measure. i guess it would be more accurate to say he begins interested only in himself and rey (”i’m not a hero”, tries to sneak out with the thingy that will call rey back) and ends loyal to the rebellion (listens to rose’s story, asserts his rebel-nes to phasma, attempts suicide run on the cannon) thats... i guess that’s a little bit better, though i’m not trilled about it either. the writers room needed to stack up on coffee and put a lot more hours on finn’s subplot (and tying that to the plot-plot) because that was not good enough! he's supposed to be one of the main characters of the trilogy, he deserves better!

i did like his showdown with phasma (finally getting some good use of that gwendoline christine! not an ounce of sarcasm here, phasma had little time on screen but they made fantastic use of every minute, she came off as just the right measure of threatening and imposing, esp from finn and rose’s perspective), in isolation, it was a great moment. but it really needed to come after a movie where finn got to tell his sad backstory, and face his demons, like rey got to do.

writing this actually made me realize what the writer’s intentions for finn were in this movie, and it’s not as bad as i previously thoguht, but the execution of this subplot was substandard. it is not baseless to have finn not be completely on board with the rebellion at the begining, he did have some moments of protest in tfa about getting dragged into rebel’s affairs, he was finn the stormtrooper deserter, who wanted to stay with ray and be left alone, and you know what, fair enoguh, he was abducted and trained as a child soldier! his only ties to the rebellion is his relationship with rey and poe, and actually, having a movie dedicated to his journey from that to rebel scum/hero of the rebellion is actually a good direction for his character, but, seriosly, all this is begging for far better writing.

- while i think in concept the character of rose is fine, and maybe a good contrast for finn, if all i just wrote is true and not just the first draft of a very bitter fanfiction, i feel like the inclusion of her character came at the expanse of finn. like her jaded and cynical survivor to finn’s... childlike wonder at shiny stuff? that made finn look spoiled and sheltered. he wasn’t. he was a child soldier. this is what i meant when i said the writing wasn’t very good. little things like this, they add up. like rose telling her sad backstory and finn just staying quiet. you know he has one of those too, right? the whole child soldier thing? that was a good moment to share, tell us how he feels about it, about the first order, about animal cruelty? something!

yeah, finn’s treatment is my only real problem with this movie.

oh wait. that kiss sure as fuck came out of nowhere. i don’t buy that rose fell in love with finn. finn’s reaction was bewilderment and nothing else. i do believe they developed a strong friendship over the course of the movie, but love? footage not found. also, hilariously, we do have an actual timer on how long it’s been since they met, it’s hours. disney, ammirite?

that’s mostly nitpicking about the kiss, but boy oh boy if it didn’t leave the nastiest impression that it was shoehorned in to remove finn as a possible love interest for rey. I WONDER WHY GEE! I WONDER IF THE REASON COULD BE A WORD THAT STARTS WITH THE LETTER R

also if it was made so to make room for reylo i am going to throw the shittiest of fits, you just whatch me.

[constellations-and-energy]

May I ask, what is a crossfaded reading? I’ve never heard of them before. And may I please have one? My initials are GNL.

yeah man im stoned anddrunk and im doign tarot reading stheyr fun af and i dont evne oknow what im saying

wight of cups

get in touch with realtity, see through those thatt ry to deciev you, adndont put up with anyones bullhsi tveer, listen to your gut, if yod ont like something jsut because you dont like it thats good enoguh walk away form it

[the-fiction-witch]

This World of Ours p4 of ?

REAL LIFE: POS APOLOLIPTIC COUPLE: TBS X READER RATING: SMUTTY

Y/N POV:

we both then get up and go to our room after a few seconds he walks of to have a shower and while he's gone I change into by white pijama's and sit in bed I get a book from the side table and pick up where I left reading last night I'm currently reading a book about the rules and laws of our society mainly becuase I dont have a choice I either read this or I dont read anything "any and all defyance of the ruler will lead to punishment any and all refusal to work will lead to punishment any and all atempts to leave the city will lead to punishmet any and all refusal to honour you match will lead to punishment" and so on "citizens will be watched by the watchers at all times citizens will be punished without remorce citizens will report to there work place for there sifts or face punsihment citizens at the age of 19 will be matched with a member of the oposite gender and they will me matched forever citizens at the age of 23 must have had a child if this has not been done thoguth intent they will be punished if it has not be done becuase of registraed reason a child will be taken from another family citizens are only allowed one child per family if there are more the others will be taken to either other familys or to be watchers all citizens are two familys to one living courters-" then my book was shut for me and I notice Thomas has come back and he is now showered, changed and is sat in bed beside me with my closed book in his hand "why do you read this" he asks "I dont know it's something to read" I answer "why this though this life is depressing enoguh with out you re-reading the rules we have to live by" he says "I know I mean I still dont like reading that rule" I say "wich one" he asks "well two actully one) the fact all citizens will be watched by watchers at all times that one creeps me out a bit and two) at 23 you must have a kid" I reply "well 23 is a long time away and yeah the fact we are contantly being watched is not a nice thing to be reminded of" he says laying back on the bed looking up at the celling I then copy him so I'm laying right beside him "mum says the time will fly by after 19 she says 23 will just dawn on you when your not expecting it the time in wich you must have a child" I say "well its still a long time in my opinion but I dont like the fact we can only have one that doesnt seem fair" he says "but it is fair thats why its like that so everyone gets one" I reply "I know but I want more then one" he says acting like a child "well your not allowed its the rules" I laugh "I know" he said turning on his side to face me " boy or girl y/n?" he asks "what" I ask a bit confused "do you want a boy or a girl" he asks I have to sit and think for a second I had no idea a little boy or a little girl till after about a minuet of thinking I answer "a little boy" "why" he asks "I dont know I want a little boy" I reply "well that makes this difficult" he says sighing "why?" I ask "because I want a girl" he answered "why?" I ask laughing slightly perfect he wants a girl and I want a boy maybe well make some sort of hybrid then "becuase I want to be a little girls daddy" he asnwered "cute, but we dont really have much choice in it, the child will be what ever it is we dont have much choice in it" I say "I know we dont I still want a girl, I dont like little boys" he says "you where a little boy once" I remind him "who said I liked me when I was little" he laughed "you seemed pretty happy" I laugh "of course I did I was content with my ignorance" he says I can't help but laugh at him "night Thomas" I say to him "night y/n" he replys I then begin to turn away to sleep only to be interupted by him speeking again "arent we gonna do the thing" he says "what thing"I ask no idea what he's talking about "you know like our parents do" he says I look at him very strangely for a second I still have no idea what he means serveral idea's come to mind but I dont know what he means "what do you mean?" I ask still looking at him watching his face for any sign "you know" he begins before starting to make kissing faces at me oh he means a goodnight kiss well that clam me down considerably "oh, I thoguht you meant something else for a second" I reply before leanign follward and giving him a kiss "we can do that aswell" he smirks "no" I snap as I trun away from him to sleep "why not" he asks from behind me as he wraps his arms around my waist "becuase I'm not sure I trust you enoguht yet" I reply elbowing him in the chest again "fine" he sighs still not removing his arms from my waist but I didnt mind for a second just enjoying the dark and the quiet I shut my eyes and go to sleep. when I wake up it's getting late any minuet now if Thomas's not awake he's gonna get shocked I turn to look at him his arm is still around me he's still asleep I know it would be mean to not wake him up but it is funny to watch him get shocked but I decied to wake him up or he would be very anoyed at me so I place my hand on his chest and begin to move him and he slowly opens his eye's "hey" he say's "hey, get up or you'll get shocked" I reply "oh thanks" he says "your welcome" I reply we both then sit up and yawn "what time is it" he asks "it's ten" I answer "what then how am I still tired we slept all yesterday" he says yawning again "I dont know maybe your just lazy" I reply getting out of bed and walk out into the kitchen area and straight to the box placeing me hand in and with in seconds there's a cup of white tea and like yesterday before I have chance to move there's arms around my waist again "morning y/n" he says resting his head on my sholder "morning, I see the tochiness has extended to today" I say "of course it has it's gonna extend forever" he say's I can't help but giggle "really forever" I ask "yes we are stuck together forever so this sort of thing will continue forever" he reply's before he grips my hips and truns me around so I'm looking at him he's smirking at me till a few seconds pass and he looks in pain I also can feel a burning pain at my stomac looking down I notice my tea is stuck between us I step back letting the cup not touch either of us and we both laughed I hit his chest pushing him out my way as I walk over to the table and sit down stiring my tea with the spoon while I put the tv for the sunday anouncments after a few seconds Thomas is sat beside me with what I assume is coffie as I know he hates tea as soon as the white of the countdown to anouncments is of the screen a man in a white suit with light skin and dark blue eyes is sat the ruler for now atleast and he begins to speek all I know for sure is all the world I know is listening as it's the law we listen to this guy once a week "good morning citizens of williten, this is week 987634523 of the new calendar there are currently no editaions to the rules and laws we live by but we have had reports of an underground rebal network has began if you have any information on this you will inform it to the watchers denial to inform and you will be punished when this underground network is fully discorvered all involed will be punished emediatly without remorse and anyone in conection with anyone invloved will be taken for questioning by the watchers and if it is found they have protected the rebals or in anyway witheld information from the watchers they to will be punished, also and update the affairs of bentian are none of the citizens consern as allways all borders are closed and will remain closed indefinatly any defyance will be punished and finaly there has been romours going around the ruling bloodline is corrupt if after testing that is true it will be passed to the passive bloodline good day citizens of williten" then the image disaperes and the tv switches of I look over at Thomas he looks worried "are you alright" I ask a bit conserned "I'm fine just anoyed I woke up for that"he sigh's rubbing his eyes "can I go back to bed now" he asks "no we're up now might aswell stay up now" I answer drinking some more of my tea it's discusting tea today it's all herbal tasteing now the normal tea I get after a few more sips I take my cup and tip it down the sink "what you do that for" Thomas asks "it's not my normal tea, it tastes strange like herbs" I reply "oh god comes to a thing were even you won't drink the tea" he laughs "so what are we gonna do today" he asks me as I return to my seat "I may call up y/bff/n in a bit" I reply refering to of course my best freind annilentica me and her where best freinds all thoguh school as we both share the horror of long strange names I needed to see her on an important matter she was getting married in a few week's and I was going to  be her maid of honour so we had alot to do but I knew from previous experieces thoguht my time knowing y/bff/n, Thomas didnt like her that much even when we where kids and she's come around the flat to play Thomas never really liked her I never really got why though "will she be bringing oscar with her" he asks sounding very unhappy oscar now even I didnt like oscar y/bff/n's match and husband to be now we both didnt like him but he was y/bff/n's match so I had to accsept him and y/bff/n loved him he was that guy at school the show off one the one that messed around all year failed his exam's and didnt care she of course would be bringing him she doesnt go anywhere now without him "I'm afraid so" I reply Thomas then sighed putting his head in his hands "I hate that guy and your gonna abandon me with him because you and y/bff/n are gonna be doing wedding stuff" he sighed "if you really dont want to be around him why not go out" I sugest "where" he asks "I dont know go down and see finly" I sugest "no way he's got danni and she's allready pregnate so he's busy dealing with her" he sighs "then I dont know if you want when they get here go into our room lock the door and go back to sleep then ill wake you when theyve gone" I say "no I will stay with you and idure the toucher" he say's "okay but dont complain then" I giggle at him "I promise I won't comaplain" he says "good now go have a shower" I say "what why" he says looking at me like a child again "becuase I say so we have guests comeing so go take a shower and get dressed" I say to him "why bother no one can tell the difference between when I'm wearing pijama's and went I'm wearing normaly clothes it's all white and all looks the same" he complains "still, go and shower or I will make you deal with oscar all day on your own" I threaten he looks at me sourly for a second then sighs sitting back on his chair letting his head fall so he's looking at the celling "fine" he sighs before getting up he gave me a kiss on the cheek then walked of to the bathroom I then get up and walk over to the white phone in the main living room area and dial y/bff/n's flats number after three rings it picks up "hey y/n" she says "hey y/bff/n are we having the meeting today" I ask "of course if it's not to much trouble" she says "no way I've got nothing to do today, plus it will get you out that flat a bit" I say "totally is it okay if I bring oscar to" she asks "sure he and Thomas can have boy chatts while us girls do the fun stuff" I laugh the conversation then just turned into chatting of nothing of any real importance just little things all girls disscuss for a while till I assumes oscars on the other end of the phone with her as I can here him talking "when do you want us there y/n" she asks "I dont know give it time I'm not dressed yet" I reply just as I can feel arms wapping around me from behind but a strange sensation behind me this isnt normal slightly turnning my head I notice jeremys not exactly dressed he stood behind me with a towel around his waist and thats it I can't help but laugh "what are you lauhging at y/n" y/bff/n said at the other end of the phone "oh nothing just Thomas beging stupid" I reply "hey" he says from behind me "will you be quiet I'm on the phone go put some clothes on Thomas" I reply taking the phone from my mouth so y/bff/n can't here me "I will see you in a bit y/n" she says "see you" I reply hanging up the phone and puting my hands where jeremys are "I think someone is getting into a habbit of doing this" I say to him "I like doing it it's funny to watch you get caught of guard" he say's laughing "well stop it I dont mind sometimes but not when your like this" I reply also laughing "like what" he asks "when your not dressed" I laugh "I'm not not dressed there's plently more undressed this situation could get" he laughs "you dirty boy" I say to him pulling his arms of me even thoguh I'm still laughing "go put some clothes on before y/bff/n and oscar get here" I tell him "why bother as soon as there gone I'm just gonna take the clothes of again"he says puting his amrs around me again this time so I'm facing him I know what he's trying to do he's trying to flit trying and failing I can't help but laugh at his attempt "is that really your best try Thomas" I say still laughing "no I can do better I just know at the moment I dont have to" he says "and why is that" I reply "becuase I know you all I have to do is wait" he says before letting go of me and walking of into the bedroom I then walk of and change into my normal white shirt and white skirt in the bathroom as soon as I'm done I go and sit on the sofa in the living room area of the flat thinking till a few seconds later Thomas is sat beside me dressed like normal for him just white tight trousers and a white shirt he had a point there was not much difference between his clothes he used to sleep and everyday ones he sat for a moment looking at me before speeking "you alright" he asks "I'm fine just thinking" I reply "what are you thinking about" he asks "nothing important" I reply "be that as it may tell me anyway" he says putting his arm around me pulling me into him on one side "everyones a head of them selfs I can't help but think were behind" I say "what" he asks "everyones doing stuff I mean Ki Hong's got danni pregnate allready, oscar and y/bff/n are getting married everyone we knows allready getting well invested in there lives and here we sit still flirting" I say "nothing wrong with flirting" he says "I never said there was anything wrong with it I'm just thinking that's all everyones getting stuck into there lives together and we havent done anything are we odd?" I say in reply "we're not odd,you said yesterday this is forever we dont have to rush this stuff I mean the only real landmark is that we have to have a kid in 4 year's other than that we can do what we like" he replys "well I'm not having a kid till after we're married I'm not bringing up a kid without being married" I say something my mum allways said to me that it's wrong to have a child if your not married allready even though most people dont bother getting married as poeple think being matched puts you together forever anyway so most people think theres no real point in getting married but I'm sticking to my guns with this "I know you won't your mum allways said it was wrong to do it that way relax, it'll happen just give it time" he reply's "I know, it's just gonna be odd if were last out of everyone I mean y/bff/n and oscar hated each other eight months ago" I add "yeah I'm suprised there getting married at all" he says "I know the only real reason he's marrying her" I say "whats that then" he asks "she won't let him do anything till she's married" I reply "well that certianly explains it" he says "yeah apparently she won't let him do anythign till she's married" I say "uh...where do you stand on that" he asks "what" I have to ask wondereing what he's talking about "where do you stand on the whats allowed before and after marridge" he asks "fine up to kids then marridge" I reply I hear him let out a sigh of releif "why worried?" I ask "no just curious" he laughed at that moment there was a knock at the door and Thomas put his head to the back of the sofa and grounded in anoyance "dont be mean it will be fine I'm sure" I say getting up and going to the door when I open it I can clearly see y/bff/n and oscar, oscar is a rather tall man with short black hair and messy clothes more grey then white and y/bff/n is a short thin girl with blonde hair in a plat down her back she looks very young even thoguh she is the same age as me and oscar looks much older then all of us alot of times when I see him all I can think of is the word rebal if anyone around here was a rebal it would be him "hey y/n" y/bff/n says "hey" I reply as she huggs me then walks into the room she sits on the far side of the sofa far away from Thomas they didnt even give each other a hello just a passing glance as she's sat there I notice she has a bag but I know why it's full of stuff like magazines and idea sheets she had for her wedding oscar stood leaning on the sofa just above her I then go and sit between Thomas and y/bff/n trying to be in the cetre of both of them so I'm not picking one or the other I can see by the look in oscars face he's not happy about something I'm not sure I want to know what as y/bff/n begins to speek about the wedding "okay so first things first, fashion" she says "yeah for you y/bff/n what are you going with traditional or upbeat" I ask "upbeat" she answers "okay that gives you ivy or linnin for you and then several options for me and the girls" I may sound like I know what I'm doing but other than wedding I really dont I just have an key eye for wedding fashion "I've got ivy, and sifron for you and the girls" she says "really ivy and sif, are they clashing on pourpose" I ask "yes they are" she answers "right okay I'm up with it now" I say this contiued for a while just little bits and peices for the wedding oscar looking more anoyed as time went on till y/bff/n was showing me a picture of her dress and I have to ask him "oscar are you okay" "fine" he snaped "if you guy's want to do something while we do this it's okay" y/bff/n said "I'm good" Thomas said eventhoguh I can tell by his voices he's bored out of his mind he's now sat leaning on his arm stareing into space "if he's not going anywhere,I'm not going anywhere"oscar snarled still stood almost glareing at y/bff/n "thinking about the boys for a second y/n how's you guys going"y/bff/n asks "were good" I say taking his other hand I can see him smileing allready "you guys set any dates yet" she asks "no we're playing it all by ear" Thomas says pulling me into him so my head is resting on his sholder I can't help but laugh "awe you two are so cute" y/bff/n said giggleing at us both "who would have imagned back in the day's running around this flat you two you be together" she said at that my mind almost went into a full flashback of a certain memory "y/bff/n we really need to be getting back"oscar said or more snarled pulling me back out of my flashback "yeah we need to be getting of" she said "I will call you when we have the stuff" "sure ill be here or at work" I say getting up and showing them out bidding them both goodbye at the door then closeing it and sitting back with Thomas he looks slightly happier now "sorry" I say "it's fine you can't help the fact she's haveing a boreing wedding" he replys "I know I just can't beleve she's having clashing bridesmaids dresses to her's it's gonna look so weired"I say for a while we both just sat stareing into space till I yawned and knew I was sleepy even thoguh it was still early "Thomas" I say "yeah y/n" he replys "can we go to bed I'm tired" I reply yawning again "okay" he says putting his arm around me and pulling us both up of the sofa we then both walked into our room and both laid on the bed neither of us entirely asleep I was laying on my side facing away from Thomas he was facing me with his arms around my waist as usual till after a few miuets one of his hands began to move around my stomac at first then up and down my arms then around my neck my only thoguht was self explainitory what on earth is he doing is he trying to flirt again is this some sort of weired thing he does in his sleep beofe I know whats going on there are only a few of the more inimet places his hand hasnt been I turn around to face him to see is eye's are still shut but it's obvious he's awake "what are you doing" I ask him "trying to find it" he replys keeping his eyes shut "find what" I ask "where your sweet spots are" he laughed "I can't find them anywhere" he says opening his eyes I can't help but laugh at him "well your not gonna find them like that are you" I laugh "well I want to know where they are for future reference" he says after a long thoguh I roll so I'm on top of him sit up then laugh "I'm not letting you know where mine are till I know exactly where yours are" I laugh looking down at his suprised and slightly confused face after a few seconds his hands are around my waist but I quickly take them off again "now sit still I'm a nurse I know what I'm doing yet I allso know what to do if you missbehave becuase I know of a way to kill you using only my hands and without any screams or blood" I say pretending to be serisous "of course nurse" he says laughing at me I just sit there on top of him and cross my arms trying to be serious again till he stops laughing "now, stay still eye's shut mouth slightly open Thomas" I say in my serious nurse voice "why mouth open" he asks it sounded like a literal question "who's the nurse here" I say crossing my arms again "I'm a doctor" he laughs "no your not Thomas" I say laughing "yes I am I have a doctoret dont I" he says now being serious "in geology and spectromics Thomas that doesnt make you a doctor" I reply "whatever" he says shuting his eyes and not fully shuting his mouth "please stay still,reframe from talking and if posible keep your hands to yourself" I say being serious again "I will try but no promise's" he say's laughing slightly at that second I get into my nurse mood and acting all serious I can tell he's waiting for me to do something so I know I'm going to tease him for a while, after a few seconds I pull his shirt of as soon as it's off is that I throw it to the floor the look back at him I have seen his with his shirt of before but not like this he's very pale and very thin but with no real muscels it's nothing new to me to see him without a shirt I have seen his comeplty naked before

[the-fiction-witch]

This World Of Ours P3 of ?

REAL LIFE: POST APOCOLYPSE

COUPLE: TBS X READER RATING: CUTE 

Y/N POV:

"what have you done" I ask

"well your mother said we only had about a month left of two beds anyway I thought I would get rid of one then we would have more time to get used to sleeping in the same bed" he answered "is that my bed or yours" I ask crossing my arms "neither it's our bed now" he said leaning back on the headboard and crossing his arms as well "fine" I say sighing as I walk over to the bed and sit on the corner drying my hair with the towel as Thomas moved down the bed to sit beside me "so are we gonna talk about it" he asks "about what exactly Thomas" I say in response "you know what were gonna when it's official were together forever" he says still smiling "I don't know I haven't really thought about it yet" I reply "really, you can pull that trick with your parents y/n but won't fool me you have thought about it I know you have so tell me" "I haven't honestly if anything I've been avoiding the subject" I say "what do you honestly hate me that much you're avoiding the subject entirely" he said sounding almost hurt "I don't hate you I just haven't thought about it yet" I reply "well actually on that subject how do you feel about me" he asks I had to sit and think for a second about how exactly to answer that question I didn’t know what to say to him it was obvious from the look on his face he wanted an answer but I wasn't sure how to give him one I didn't want to tell him I didn't have feelings for him because I would be lying in some respects I couldn't say I didn't like him were together permanently now but on the flip side I didn't want to sound to forward "well I don't know what to tell you Thomas I really don't" I finally say "what's there to know what feelings do you have for me good or bad" he replied "well I'm not sure there's lots all complicating things in my head I'm not sure just yet it may take a while but it may help if I knew how you felt about me" I said trying to sound clever but failing completely as I removed the towel from my neck and just threw it with the rest of the clothes on a pile by the wall they both sat thinking for a while till eventually Thomas broke the silence "y/n?" "yeah" I answered turning my head to him I watched his eye's intently they seemed to be flickering around like he was looking at me like trying to work something out in his head till suddenly his hands were on my face and his lips on mine sort of he missed the angle by quite a lot and he was more biting then kissing and the amount of power in it, it was like he was trying to push me over one second then the next trying to pull me more into him I can judge though I had never done it before I think I was kissing back I think it was hard to tell given the conditions that he was kissing me with after a few seconds I had to pull away from him when we had both separated completely and breathed it was awquard if anything that may have made the situation a little worse I kind of had to think for a second I'm positive he had kissed someone before our real first kiss now was nothing like that I don't think as I return to reality again "well...uh," I said not sure what so say "yeah well....anything" he asks "well....it was...full of energy I will give you that Thomas" I laughed trying to lighten the situation and he laughed to I guess it worked "yeah sorry" he said in reply "it's okay but I think you bit me" I say as I put my hand to my bottom lip I was right he had bitten me "sorry y/n" he said looking more at the floor then at me "it's okay you didn't know what you were doing it's not your fault" I reply as I nudge his shoulder trying to cheer him up a bit it worked a little "so is there anything there or is it just nothingness" he asks "there's something Thomas I'm not sure what but there's something" I reply taking his hand he turned back to look at me he was now smiling again "can I try again?" he asks I just nodded in response "but try slower with less power to start okay" I say more like a joke he just nodded before connecting our lips again this time much slower much more relaxed and just in one word perfect so much I really don't what him to stop but if the last kiss was anything to go by there's a lot of represent emotion and energy in there and I would rather not let that out just yet so with much annoyance at myself I pull away but remaining in his arms "so?" he asks "so, I think we will be fine after next month"I reply I couldn't stop a smile neither could he "what about all the other stuff like your mum said after it's official" he asks "if it happens it happens if not we will wait a little longer lets not rush this, this match if forever wherever we like it or not we got time" I reply giggling slightly he then nodded in agreement we both then moved back on the bed so we could lean against the headboard till a few minutes later Thomas moved his hand from mine to wrap it around me he rested his hand on my waist so going on what I've seen other people do I put my head on his chest and put my hand on his shoulder we both then moved so we were laying down looking up at the plain white ceiling this like the kiss seemed perfect and long overdue "you know I'm so happy out of every girl in this dump that computer let me have you y/n" he says "I know I'm happy I got you to" I reply after a while I'm almost positive Thomas is asleep I glance at the clock on the side table and I think I may have fallen asleep to as it is not almost six o'clock at night I sort of don't want to get up because he's asleep and not snoring I kind of don't want to wake him up again but I'm hungry and he properly is to as all I've had to eat today is two bits of white toast and I don't think he's had anything I sit up slightly to look around, the room looks a bit dark I then turn back to  Thomas he still looks deep asleep so I slowly remove his arm from around me and walk out towards the kitchen area I walk up to the white cabinates looking for some dinner but with no success as we havent ordered anything from the box in a while so straight from box food it is then, I walk over to the small gap in the wall I place my hand in the gap within a few seconds there's food I dont know how it all works it just does it's not much just a place of white chips but right now thats good enoguh but before I have chance to move over to the table I can feel arms wrapping around my waist from behind and I can hear and feel breath on the back of my neck"some ones touchy today arnt we" I say to him "why didnt you wake me up for food" he says ignoreing me "you seemed happy, plus you werent snoreing I thoguht if I left you I would be able to go come back and have a quiet night sleep" I answer "you where wrong" he replyed I just laughed in responce elbowing his chest so he had to back away from me as soon as he was fully of me I walk and sit at the table after he gets his food he sits beside me "so what plans do we have for the uncomeing week" he asks "I'm not sure I go to work on wensday" I reply "I'm going on wensday to" he says "what are you ment to be doing" I ask "I'm ment to be showed how the spectrem works" he answers this is again something that needs a bit of explaination unfornatly I can't give it becuase I dont understand it all I know is Thomas is a scientist thats the job he choose out of his options when we left school just before the match all I know for sure is what he tells me which is not alot all I know is that the sectrum is the meaning of our existance and he gets to work with it everyday my job is a lot different I'm a nurse I got the option to become a scientist but at the time I wasnt sure if working with Thomas  everyday was a very good idea this was ofcourse back before I knew I was stuck with him anyway but I guess it will be good then we get a break from each other when we got to work I dont really understand how other peoples jobs work but its not my business "really I'm just gonna be shown around the hospital I think so I know where stuff is" I reply "well then what are we gonna do between now and wensday" he asks "I dont know I'm sure we'll find something to do" I reply as I eat we both sit and eat our white food in scilence after about a minuet I put the tv on from a small white remote on the table the wall were both faceing then flickers and the tv programing comes on channel one news channel its on weather all thats on the screen is a white map of our city and a man in a white suit stood beside it talking "and like normal weather is going to be white and pale with slight rain in the food manufactering area's there may be some slight problems with light times tommorrow as the sunseveare is still a bit glichy" he says the same as everyday by now I'm possitve its a recording they just play eveyday that guy has said that twice a day everyday for as long as I can rememeber and what a suprise the sunseveares on the glich I dont think they will ever fix it but sometimes it does give you another hour sleep in the morning wich knowone can really complain about another second and the mans gone now theses a young pretty blonde girl dressed in white at a white desk reading the headlines "today's top stories, 20 year old jake hamming has been arested for murdur of his match, there was eleven no shows at the world of work today and the no shows will be punished emmediatly, the ruler has said he is not stepping down after claims he is not the correct ruler by bloodline, after close monitoring we have discorvered bentian is on the verge of civial war as allways the borders are shut to all but the rule-" she was cut of by Thomas turning the tv off "you shouldnt watch that y/n" he says "why I like knowing whats going on" I reply "I know but you shouldnt watch it all the bad things going on right now we dont need to know they dont involve us" he says rather sternly "I know they dont it's still nice to know" I reply "but its all just about bad things like the ruler and bentian none of that involves us" he says "well it could you know" I reply "how?" he asks "well you should know by now Thomas my dad's part of the passive blood line so if the rulers bloodlines wrong my dad with be ruler" I argue "but it won't happen y/n think about it they wouldnt let it happen" he replies "yeah but still if bentians civial war goes wrong and starts involving everyon else you could get carted of to fight" I argue again "but they won't involve us it all just to scare you y/n" he relpys "like the camara's and the constent threat of tourcher isnt enoguht" I s,noticeingay sarcasticly we both then laugh noticing the time it's almost seven now "almost curfew" I say sighing

[the-fiction-witch]

This World Is Ours P6 Of ?

REAL LIFE: POST-APOCOLYPSE COUPLE: TBS X READER RATING: SMUTTY 

Y/N POV:

"yeah we are playing ladies first" he says "and gentelmen just before" I add he just smirks "can't argue with that logic" he says while pulling of his shirt and tossing it away not that it really made any differnce to me "your turn y/n" I then pull my skirt as high as it will go before it's revealing my underwear I can see he's watching me like a hawk but I dont mind becuase I can see on his face he's allready stuggleing as soon as I'm done I just look at him expectently he sits for a little while I presume thinking of what to do next till I speek up "are you gonna do anything or are you allready out of idea's" "no I not out of idea's baby girl" he says in a sly voice crap the voice and that nickname now I'm worried but there was not much else he could do I calm my head and keep my breathing steady so he isnt aware of the fact it's sort of working I think for a second then reaslie exactly what to do "my turn" I say before sliping my hand under my shirt and doing a rather skilled thing as removing my bra without removing my shirt he watched me with wide eye's as I drag the bra out and hold it up then let it fall to the floor as I smirk at him I can see by his face if he's not about to snap it isnt far off he's definatly cracking he has to shut his eyes for a second to calm himself down a bit but before I've really paid any attention boom crap he's done it the troursers are donw ever so slightly and the lines are there and there obvious I can't help but stare and there is nothing I can do now I'm cracking to I can't stand it one more sly word or calling me by that name again and I'm over I even have to choke down a whine that threatens to leap out of my mouth but I sit calmly let out a breath even thoguht it comes out jagged and sharp and he smirks even more obviously knowing full well why "you can give up at any time y/n" he says "not on your life" I say still trying to sound confident but I knew what I was going to do I pick up my bra and cleverly put it back on under my shirt then it's off with the shirt leaving me in just my bra , skirt and underwear but I'm not finished I start twisting and moving my bra around with my hands like I'm fixing it I'm not looking at him but I can hear the almost chocked moan in his thout from here as he stares I just giggle and stick my tonuge out at him like a child but from what I can tell he's to deep I thoguht to respond I can see any second he's over plus he's used up almost every option he had wich is good becuase I'm not sure if theres more I can do not if I can't touch him if I could this would be much easiler but I'm positive if we could touch this game would have been over five seconds after it started then while I was zoned out for one simple second sort of stareing at him he's undoing his trousers peroperly and sliding them down not much but enought to make clear his boxers and his erection I am stareing I wasnt sure it was posible to stare at a boy this much for this long and not get bored how the hell did I sleep in the same room as this boy for months and not even notice what was down there how I dont understand it how when we where seventeen did I see it all and didnt really think about it and now I'm at this point felling any second I'm gonna either smash completly or explode but he's not finished his turn yet I'm almost confused at what I'm seeing the only real way to descripe it would be doing what I was yesterday but to himself and groaning oh god this is one difficult game all of a sudden as soon as he took his hand away from himself I just sat there not sure what I was now gonna do one more word and that was it and right on que as if he could read my mind "your turn baby girl" he says in the slyest voice I have ever heard and yep I'm gone but I can still fake it I sit still a bit bewildered but I can stay I have defiantly snapped the only thing going across my mind was that I needed to get my hands on him and fast I didnt just want him I needed him but I can keep my guard up for long enoguh to end this game my next move would have to be ground breaking something I know would smash him to bits then it hit me fake it I then licked my lips and leaned back on the sofa so my head was on the arm rest I pull my skirt down to the knee lenght it's ment to be then sliped my hand under the waist band of the skirt I'm not going to do anything I'm just going to fake it becuase I know faking it is enoguh I slightly move my rist so it looks like I'm doing something then with supriseing realisum I moan and groun making it obvious what I'm ment to be doing I even arch my back a couple of times opening my mouth and shutting my eyes I can only just see when I open my eyes he's gone I can see it in his face he's gone becuase he can't keep his eyes of me for a second and he can't shut his mouth and I think he's makeing more noice then I am as soon as I think he's had enoguh I remove my hand from my skirt and stay laid back I even pretent to lick my fingers before sitting up slowly leting out a breath I can see it can't take it before I've really got back to how I was before he on top of me he obviosuly jumped onto me laying me back down there hardly and inch between us at all "well I guess that means I win then" I say smriking at him "I guess it does babygirl but this isnt over is it" he say's oh god I pray to god he calls me that forever now but I dont really need to answer I just wrap my arms around his neck as we both pull in for the most passion filled snog in history full of tention neither of us going to take out hands of each other for a second I think even if someone walked in right now we wouldnt stop within a few seconds his hands are on my thighs edgeing closer to you know where I can't take it that game snapped up both theres no stoping us now so I just put my hand to his pants dont even flirt just staright up hand staight there I know he doesnt mind because he's moaning into my mouth as I move my hand  till I break away anoyed at myself he looks down at me a little anoyed I know what he thinks that I'm just going to teaste when I catch my breath "bedroom now" I say between jagged breaths he just smirks and crawls off of me then stands I almost dont have the strengh to but I dont have to within seconds he's picked me up and I'm over his shoulder we're both laughing but before we can reach out bedroom door we can here someone a familiar voice comeing down the corriodr it sounded like his mother he drops me to the floor quickly both of us trying to find away to cover this up before she gets into the flat he quickly does up his pants I run of into our room I mean I'm basicly in my underwear theres no way I'm covering that up I quickly slip on a top and pull my skirt down as far as posible then run back and see lilly Thomas's mother lucky we where heading to our room anyway that would have been difficult to explain if she found us on the sofa she looks at us both I dont think she suspects anything but she doesnt look like she interly belives we werent doing anything "Thomas why dont you have a shirt on" she asks "I uh- just got out the shower mum" he says she looks a bit curious but I'm sure she doesnt think we where doing anything "right okay well put some clothes on you stupid boy, your father will be home in a minuet" she said well thats why she doesnt look very happy "why I thoguht dad was working till next month on a long shift" Thomas replys "he was but we have been called to the watchers I'm not sure why but I'm sure we'll find out so we have to go there in a bit" she explains "and how long will you uh be" he says I can tell from his voice he's obviously fired up and would very much like his mother to leave and leave quickly but I'm in agreement with that to be honest "why" she asks us both "no real reason just currious is all" he answers "well, not that long we both just have to change then head of" she replys "okay"Thomas replys obviously not that happy about it I can tell he would much rather her walk out again and him get his hands back on me again "I'm going for a shower tell your father when he gets here where I am and to change thank you Thomas" she says as she walks of into the bathroom as soon as we hear her lock the door he turns to me and pins me against the wall snogging me again its horrible becuase I know I can't do anything becuase neither of us would like to get caught by his parents it was like a teasting snog becuse we both wanted it could go somewhere we just knew we couldnt it didnt stop us both from letting our hands roam around each other that it untill we hear the door again and we both quickly knock it off and step away from each other as andrwes steps in the door "after noon kids" he says to us both not sure why he's started calling us that recently he looks me up and down then looks to Thomas a little bit confused "uh Thomas quick word in the kitchen" Thomas then nodds and walks of into the kitchen area with his dad but I can still hear them "Thomas have I missed something" his father asks "no,no,no why" Thomas replys quickly "well I dont want to pry but why is one of your shirts and one of her's on the floor by the sofa" andrwes say's I look over crap we didnt think about that but we did the best we could given the time we had to not make it obvious thats what we are doing "I just had a- shower and she had one earlier- and I uh moved the washing basket and they fell out" he answers I will atmit for on the spot that is a good alibi "really yeah okay and uh well I dont know if you think it's obvious or not Thomas but you uh have an erection" his father said to him in a wishper "no-no-no I dont" he stuttered in reply "Thomas it's obvioius do you now mind telling me whats going on" "we were doing somthing and mum walked in" "I thoguht you two went all like that with each other" "that was saturday this is monday big changes have been made" "like?" "like" Thomas said pointing to our bedroom andwers then walked over to our room and looked in the door "oh one bed now for you two then well just for the love of god dont tell your mother , and if I was you I would atleast try to sort that proplem out " "I would but mum turned up" he said walking back over and putting his arm back around me "alright," andwers said "just asking if it was the sofa how far was it" he whispered to us both "second base" I say "oh god definatly dont tell your mother ever even if your very drunk never tell your mother" he says walking of into his room as soon as we both know the doors shut we're at it again in some small ways it was horrible like this to the extent I pull away only seconds into it he looks at me slightly confused "what" "I'm sorry Thomas I can't do this" "what" "I can't do it when I know your parents are here, and I hate this teaser snogging it does nothing in my opinion" "oh but babygirl" he complained "no Thomas I know we're both got snapped in the game but we can't now the moemnts gone" "ow stupid mother" he says to the door of the bathroom "WHAT WAS THAT Thomas" I here his mother shout "nothing mum" he says back