#yeah probably but also im just so proud of my clients?

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

My caseload is nearly full up and at this point more than half are seeing me specifically for autism/adhd related care, and I am on deck for consultation with 2 other providers who are working with clients whose schedules were incompatible with mine and my god sometimes it really does suddenly occur to me that I have become the primary therapist for autism related care throughout a solid 1/4 of the state because it's literally either me or the local hospital affiliates.

My clients are thriving and I have never been happier than while gradually moving with them through healing.

[twonderland]

☆*:.｡ NRC HAS A MAID CAFE ?!? .｡.:*☆

Note: sooo this is my first writing ! Omg I’m so nervous I have never written for any fandom before but I wish this goes well 🙏🏻😂 anyway, hope y’all like it and if you have any thoughts about it pls comment I would really appreciate it ☺️💖💖

Summary: NRC was organizing a school festival to attract new students and also to let the guys have a day of fun and chill. However the dorm leaders were out of ideas while deciding what activities they were gonna have, until you decided to talk about some options of what your school used to do in this kind of events (before coming to twisted wonderland), most of those activities were really alike to what NRC already had, except one thing ...

- when you mentioned that in your “dimension” there was different options that could be introduced in NRC at the festival he was actually pretty interested. Obviously he would have to make some changes so that “activities” could fit in Heartslabyul rules but, he never thought that he could have the opportunity to see you in such an ... outfit.

- Who does he think he can fool ? He’s a blushing mess and can’t even look at you in the face. How can he ? The moment you got out of your room with that white coping, that really short skirt, and oh god the stockings

- You look so cute and obedient and hfkogkebdiej

- The plan was simple, you were a “maid” and the boys attending the clients at your side were butlers, easy ! Except from the part of talking to you

- He’s angry because he can’t believe that such an outfit has this power over him and he thinks “god Riddle get yourself together and just talk to her about the menu” but somehow you think he’s angry for some strange reason since he tends to get all red face when he is angry (poor bean he’s trying his best to not collapse)

- HE’S A GENTLEMAN ! HE DIDNT HAVE SUCH A HARD UPBRINGING FOR NOTHING !! he goes with a straight face to your direction and then .... “(y/n) ! Have you learn your lines ?! Customers need the best of attention from this establishment !!” (Riddle this is just a classroom turned into a maid cafe, chill)

- “Ah sure Riddle-senpai, just look *you clear your throat* Welcome home master !!”

- Riddle.exe has stopped responding

- what ? A maid cafe ? Isn’t it just like the rest of the maids at his palace in Afterglow Savana ? He’s used to being attended by this kind of servitude at his homeland but he had never seen Classic or French (I leave that to your imagination ☺️) maid style

- He thinks “ohoho this can be quit interesting” and has that smug smirk in his face, OF COURSE he’s gonna take this opportunity to tease you

- However after he sees you in that cute and tempting outfit, for a little moment (just a little moment) he doesn’t want to admit it he goes shy, stops just a moment to admire you from head to toe in your outfit, you go like “what? “ and then he just shrugs it out just in time before you notice “hmph are you some kind of panda ?”

- Seems like he doesn’t care but actually you never get out of his view, he drinks his woman respect juice every morning but not the rest of the students

- If he sees that some idiot gets a little too close to you he may roar from across the cafe and shoot some killing glares to those idiots and problem solved

- Don’t get it wrong, he’s still Leona and may slide the tip of his tail under your skirt a little ... just a little 😏

- He listens to all your descriptions of the activity of the maid cafe, takes notes and adds some good ideas so everything’s on point

- He’s pretty chill the majority of the time while preparing everything, he even helped you to practice your lines so you could attend customers with the best training !

- Until ... he saw you in character. It was kind of a self goal since he told you to not get out of character when you wear your uniform, how fool and unfortunate (lucky) soul he was

- “Ashengrotto- sama ? I had some doubts about the menu ...” “yes ? (Y/...n)”

- his glasses break

- Azul.exe has stopped responding x2

- His mind can’t process all the things that are going on, you , on a cute really really short skirt, calling him “sama” with your innocent voice, and OH LOOK AT THAT

- THIGHTS

- he didn’t know he had a thing for thights until this day

- Tries to solve all your doubts without stuttering but fails miserably

- Thinks really seriously in a way to make you sign a contract where you accept to wear that outfit whenever you visit octavinelle (azul that’s practically impossible but ok try 😂)

- OMG A MAID CAFE ?! It’s foreign and interesting !! This guy is all in after you finish to talk about your idea

- Kalim is also used to being all pampered and having hundreds of people attending him at all times so he’s really curious about what is the difference between what he knows and what you know

- You tell him that is nothing too awesome, but is more to have fun in getting into character of “master and servant” BUT NOTHING IS BORING IF YOU ARE IN IT he tells you that you don’t need to worry and he just wants to participate in the experience

- He doesn’t assist as a butler but like a customer, and the night before the event he can’t sleep from the excitement, “Jamil, how do you think is a maid ?” “Idk Kalim sleep now” “ne~ ne~ Jamil do you think that (y/n) will call me master? tehehe” “OMG KALIM ENOUGH” poor Jamil he also couldn’t get enough sleep that night

- He’s one of the first clients to arrive and oh god ... when he finds you. He doesn’t know what is it with that uniform that it makes you look ADORABLE AND BEYOND also ... kind of .... ?? (Sexy kalim the word you look for is sexy) he just doesn’t know how to react the very first seconds but doesn’t last long until

- “Kalim-sama ! Welcome back, we are so enlightened to see you again”

- What is this ? Why is he feeling funny things in his stomach, every time he’s called like that in his palace it doesn’t happen anything, is something of everyday but now...

- “.... kalim-sama ?” “AH ! Sorry sorry ! Haha I zoned out , say ... could you say that again ? It was so fun !” “Uh.. hu, of course, if that’s my master’s wish !! ☺️” (HAPPY BOY HAPPY BOY HAPPY BOY)

- He probably is inside the maid cafe for very long time just to hear you every time you come around

- “Is everything alright master ? Would you like something else ?” “YES ! One more parfait please !! “ meanwhile Jamil is like “KALIM STOP, YOU HAVE ALREADY ORDERED 30 PARFAITS !!!, what are we going to do with all of this ?!”

- “the potato ? As a servant ? That’s hilarious” Vil is aware of all the maid thing since where he comes from wealthy families tend to have this kind of employees in their mansions

- NEVERTHELESS he can’t have a girl/boy in NRC dressed as a maid and you NOT 👏🏻 BEING 👏🏻 ON 👏🏻 POINT

- DRESS ! Check HIGH HEELS ! check STOCKINGS ! Check .... he goes on and on

- “Vil-senpai, I’m really grateful that you have taken your time to help me but don’t you think that your dorm also needs help-?” “SHUT UP GRACELESS POTATO we are not getting out this classroom until you learn how to move graciously in those high heels between tables while holding the tray , NOW LETS START AGAIN”

- At the end of the day somehow you have managed to make him happy, the next day you will show all your effort to Vil !

- He comes with Rook, it seems that he’s looking for you with his eyes but when you look back at him you never expect to receive such a gentle and proud look

- “Vil/senpa- ! I mean ... “Vil-sama !! Welcome ☺️” you say nervous yet excited to see him there. “Good enough, it looks like even dirty potatoes can turn into princess” (you are like “wait I’m the maid here, not a princess 😅”)

- Vil leans forward and puts a string of hair behind you ear and says in a low voice so only you can hear “a really pretty potato indeed”

- He enters the maid cafe and leaves you blushing in the entrance

- “Are we gonna treat ourselves or what potato ?! “ “ ah ! I’m so sorry master !!”

- Vil has a satisfied smile

- He is so grateful that every time he attends councils is via LIVE ‘cause the moment you said “maid cafe” he spilled the beverage he was drinking

- “m-m-m-mAID CAFÉ ?!” He can’t believe this is happening, for some seconds he can feel a creepy smile appearing in his face until ...

- “But how am I going to go to the cafe ?, I can have Ortho going there but knowing him he will focus the camera on desserts and not in (y/n) costume ... NOT THAT IM A CREEP OR SOMETHING Ijustwanttoseearealmaidinaction well is not that she’s/he’s “real” per say but-“

- Ortho is listening to all his mumbling from back his seat

- “Onii-chan 😊”

- “Ah... what is it Ortho ?”

- “Just go 😠”

- It took A LOT from his little brother to convince him to go and look for you

- The day of the festival it was CROWDED as hell and he was sooo grateful that the classroom where you were having the cafe had a window that had a view to one of the gardens

- He was peeking all the movement from the window looking for you, but some minutes passed and he started thinking (what am I thinking ? Obviously she’s not gonna see me from here ... but entering is NOT an option either ... maybe I just should go-) “Iidia-San?”

- You scared the crap out of him, he was lost in thought but thanks to that he didn’t go

- “Ah! Sorry sorry, Um ... (you remember your character) “iidia-sama, is something the matter ? Why are you out there ?”

- Perhaps Zeus had pity on his soul. You look SO CUTE SO ADORABLE SO SEXY-

- “Uh.... no, it’s just ... there’s a lot of noise inside” you know about his anxiety and you tell him “well, doesn’t my master want something ? I can bring him anything he desires to this window if Iidia-sama wishes”

- He just had a nosebleed

- “I-Iidia- sama ?!” “Ah ! Sorry .... Um yeah o-one crepe... p-please”

- He goes back to Ignihyde with a delicious crepe and a memory of you calling him master... but wait a sec...

- “WHY DIDNT I BROUGHT A CAMERA?!?!?!?!” “I ALSO COULD HAVE RECORDED HER/HIS VOICE DAMN IT!!!!”

- maid ... cafe ? This is interesting

- He was processing everything, from the concept and your explanation to all of the reactions that caused in the guys

- (Why were they so shocked ? Well I guess I will have to find out)

- He’s royalty and everyone calls him “sama” all the time, well except from Lilia, so he thinks that a bunch of butlers calling him that again isn’t any different ... but you 🤔

- How intriguing, you always call him “senpai” or “san” ... now this have caught his attention

- His dorm was organizing everything quite well and as usual Diasomnia had really disciplined members so his presence wasn’t really that necessary so he went to Lilia and asked him about this “maid cafes”

- Lilia knew about the maids but also didn’t understand the concept of mixing maids and cafes, but Lilia being the little devil he was he said some ... funny information that could intrigue Malleus

- “They are humans, but just like pixies they charm every man when they see them” “charm them ? But (y/n) is human ... how can she/he charm anyone ?” “Hehehe you will understand when you see her/him”

- The day arrived, and oh yeah, Lilia was right, he was expecting you to be little and with wings, leaving pixie dust behind but no ... it was just you with a strange yet cute little skirt and fluffy sleeves... your eyes looked at him and your little cheeks tainted a light shade of pink ... (what is this ? I can’t stop looking at her/him) he was in daze

- “Umm .... Malleus-sama ?”

- “Uh .... I’m sorry, so this is a maid ... you are quite powerful”

- “ uh.. hu” you just said your lines when you saw him but he didn’t seem to have listened to you so you decide to repeat them

- “Welcome back Malleus- sama ! We are so enlightened to receive you !!”

- Again .... he’s dazed , but this time he did hear you, so acting a little weird he enters the cafe, you handle him the menu and explain the recommendations

- You are so nervous trying to remember all your lines that you don’t notice it but Malleus is admiring everything about you with loving eyes

- You take his order and go to the kitchen (he honestly doesn’t know what the hell he just ordered since he isn’t familiar with the dishes but anyway)

- Maybe he doesn’t notice himself but he’s looking at you everywhere you go with a little smile on his face

- “Maybe (y/n) has magic after all”

[quirklessidiot]

Title: coward :: brat Pairing: Y/N x Miya Atsumu  Genre: angst, romance, and very slow burn [ex to lovers au] Warnings: Cursing, alchohol, mentions of unprotected sex, unplanned pregnancy, and mentions of abortion

Synopsis: you finally see Miya Atsumu after six years, meanwhile, he feels pain when he realizes that you settled down with someone else that wasn’t him. notes: i um want to thank yall for supporting this story im- crying T-T I’m happy to inform everyone that i’ll be updating this twice a week every monday and saturday! yay!!! i was able to finish editing and im writing the last two chapters now. stay safe and big love to each and everyone of you <3

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“...Uh, Youta-Kun, Yuuto-kun, I thought you guys weren’t allowed to go.” Sugawara laughed nervously, knowing all too well where this would lead. He’s familiar with over-enthusiastic boys, in fact, one of those over-enthusiastic balls of sunshine was here right now entertaining them.

“K-Kaasan says it’s alright.” Yuuto lies but Sugawara quirked his brow, it was so obvious that he was lying.

“Yep, she did!” Youta grins, trying to help his twin but like him, he’s failing drastically.

“Then you won’t mind if I call your okaasa-”

“No!” Youta and Yuuto yell in unison. This made other people turn their way, Miya Atsumu watched the pair in amusement from afar. He noticed that they were late and that Sugawara had caught on to their scheme of joining in even without the parental consent, “We won’t join!” Youta proclaims, “Right, yu? W-We’ll pick up balls!”

Hinata feels his eyes glimmer at those words and decides to help them convince Sugawara but in the end, the twins were forced to be benched while the grey-haired teacher had to go back to the faculty to call you.

“It’s alright,” Hinata ruffles both their hairs, “We’ll try to come back next time and I’ll be sure to help convince your ‘kaasan.”

“Hey don’t plant false ideas in their head, Shoyou.” Atsumu grins, lazily jogging to their side. He directs his gaze to the twins that seem to oddly remind him of him and ‘samu when they were younger. The boy's gaze lingered a bit too long on him,unlike other kids who stared at him in awe, these ones were seething, “What are ya lookin’ at, kid?”

“Wow,you’re as mean as your brother.” Yuuto notes, eyeing him up and down. 

“Yeah.” Youta echoes.

Atsumu quirks a brow, this was quite the new reaction. Never in his life had a kid told him that he was mean as ‘Samu also how did they even know his twin brother?

“Now, now, don’t you think you should cut me some slack?” Atsumu tried to jokebut the twins remained unamused by the blonde’s antics, somehow Atsumu felt a sense of familiarity from their monotonous reactions.

“No thanks.” Yuuto crossed his arms, “The fake Atsumu made ‘kaasan cry and since you look like him, you might make ‘kaasan cry too.”

“What he said!” Youta agreed loudly, copying his older brother’s action.

Atsumu was just plain confused now, he admitted that Osamu had an attitude sometimes when he was annoyed but letting a mom cry in front of her kids? That’s definitely new and not-so ‘samu like (after all, he was apparently the nicer one between them)

“What’s the name of your okaasan-”

“Youta-Kun, Yuuto-kun, Your mom will be picking you up at the gate! Please go there now.” Sugawara cuts him off, Youta and Yuuto stand up and eye him for a bit.

“We’ll defeat you and your brother! Just wait and see, we’ll be as big as you and that other jiji!” Yuuto exclaims and before Atsumu could retaliate, they’re running off to the opposite direction. Hinata was laughing beside him, clutching his sides because apparently he was too petty while Sugawara looked at him with an apologetic expression.

“I wonder why L/N-san didn’t allow them to go, she’s usually very supportive of their hobbies, especially volleyball.” Sugawara frowns, suddenly voicing out his thoughts. Atsumu felt his shoulders stiffen at the sound of that familiar name. 

Osamu revealed he saw you last week then these kids suddenly confessed that his twin made their okaasan cry, he’s never seen you cry throughout your relationship (save for that night when you first me but you guys weren't together yet so that didn’t count). Maybe he was mistaken? it might be your relative or a common name.

After all, you were clear about not wanting a family.

“You know their mom well?” Hinata inquired,  Atsumu seems to be listening closely now, wanting to confirm if the person that Sugawara was talking about is you.

“Oh yeah, we're around the same age so I’m much closer to her than the other moms.” Sugawara blinks, “Those boys have to listen to their okaasan more. She’s raising them on her own since their dad died before he even got to know that L/N-san was pregnant. She seemed to be longing for him whenever he’s mentioned.”

A crease appeared on the blonde's forehead as he was suddenly in deep thought. It couldn’t be, right?

“Uh, Sugawara-san, may I know the name of the mom? Her last name sounds kind of familiar.” he questions, pretending to be nonchalant but inside, he feels like he had his heart on his throat.

If it was you, he’d feel those things that he desperately tried to hide behind his confident jokes and laughs. 

The pain.

The pain that you chose someone else and was open enough to the idea of starting a family. If that guy probably hadn’t died, you’d be together, happily raising those boys he had just met a while ago. Happily married, something that Atsumu tried to mention one fleeting moment while you were together back in college but you immediately shut the idea down and left him a month later.

The pain that you fell in love in a span of moments unlike Atsumu who relentlessly tried to gain your favour and follow you around like a lost puppy.

“Oh, her name’s Y/N L/N.”

Thankfully nothing unexpected happened after what the twins did, they ended up having to pick if they wanted their video game rights removed for a week or cancel their plans with their favorite ojisan who was coming by a few weeks from now, they chose the first one on that.

They had even mentioned that they met the real Miya Atsumu and although you felt like your heart lurched out of your chest and your shoulders stiffen at the mention of that man --- their father---  they simply had called him a rude jiji like his brother much to your relief.

“L/N-san, we seem to have a problem.” Aiko frowned, handing the papers to you, “The director of the advertisement department wants a bigger budget, do you mind running it through him again? You have to go to the studio though, I heard they’re doing some photo shoot now.”

You nodded in reply, taking the papers from your co-worker. The studio was a bit far so you ended up having to commute to get there, “What a nuisance.” You muttered, you needed to buy a second-hand car soon when you had enough money. It would definitely be easier for both you and the boys, “Uh excuse me? Is Nakamura-san here?” you asked the secretary on the front desk.

“And who are you?” the secretary snapped back, still typing away on her computer.

“Y/N L/N from the finance department, I have to run through the new budget liquidation with him.”

The secretary one-eyes you and the ID on your neck for a split second, “You better be quick, the boss wants only five minutes per guest since he’s personally handling the shoot today.” was all she replied, handing you the pass. You muttered a quick thank you and made your way up to the studio, whoever the model was today, they must’ve been big for Nakamura to handle them personally.

“Oh-ho, is that who I think it is?” a very, very familiar voice calls out.

“Inunaki-san.” You greeted, trying to maintain yourself, were these the big clients that Nakamura was handling? The black jackals? good fucking gracious, god must hate you.

“Wow,” he shakes his head, feigning amusement, “You’re still so calm and cool.”

You narrowed your eyes at the insult but you waved it off, “And you’re playing for a national team, congratulations.” you replied in a blank tone, your senior probably knew what happened between you and his fellow member. You wouldn’t be the least bit surprised if he reacted the same way as Osamu did.

“We’re actually doing a shoot now, would you like me to call Atsu-”

“No.” your usual calm tone switched to a colder one, “I’m working now and so is Miya-san, please don’t bother yourself.”

“Gee,” he raised his hands, signalling defeat, “Just say you don’t want to see him. You don’t need to be so cold to me, my dear little kohai.”

“I have to go back to my job, I’m on the clock here.” You ignored his previous statement, “It was nice seeing you again Inunaki-san.”

Before you could give him a chance to reply, you headed towards the studio. You took a deep breath and mentally calculated to three.

one. 

It’s been six years, Miya Atsumu would ignore you. He wouldn’t care about the girl who left him out to dry in college. He’s got a girlfriend now, a model who has legs for days and looks ten times better than you and acts more like a girlfriend than you ever did.

two.

Yes, that’s right, he wouldn’t care.

three.

You entered the studio, you could feel the air tighten around you as soon as you heard that laughter. The one you used to hear everyday and never get tired of. For all the laughs you couldn’t do, he’d do it for you and boy, was he patient around you since you didn’t smile a lot back then (who were you kidding? until now you still had the same problem except when the kids were around)

You want to stop and stare, you want to admire him and his glory that you were very much proud of.

Yet your legs continue to carry you to your boss, the laughter seems to have ceased and you could hear someone asking him what was wrong.

“Oh, L/N-san?” Nakamura greeted you, “You’re here for the renewal of the budget?”

You nodded feverishly, your legs seem to be turning into jelly because you want to collapse from the nervousness and thank god that you wore some make-up before arriving here, otherwise, they would’ve noticed how pale you looked, “Everything seems to be in order,” He nods, scanning the sheets and handing them back to you, “Are you busy right now?”

You glanced at the wall clock, checking the time to see if you could extend your stay and Nakamura is quick to pick up on it, “Ah right, you’ve got kids to pick up. It’ll be quick, just help set up the blocks there and you’re free to leave.” he orders.

You nodded obediently and slowly turned to the side only to catch the very familiar chocolate brown eyes of the blonde. You feel your heart hammering in your chest and your feet turn cold, it had been six years since you last saw Miya Atsumu and he was still as winsome and exhilarating as he was back then.

You may have seen him a lot on television but seeing him, right here, a few feet away from you was different. Taking in a big gulp of air, you started working on the set-up as quickly as you could yet you could still feel his burning gaze remaining on you, “Tsum-tsum, lay off her will you.” came Inunaki Shion’s loud voice snaps him out of his daze.

Great, that little twat had to make an appearance.

“Y/N-san you should really say hi,” Inunaki teased as soon as you finish your set-up.

“Oh? You’re Y/N L/N?” the orange one gushed, quickly up on his feet, you recall him as Hinata Shoyou, Youta’s favorite orange-haired ninja, “Sugawara-san’s friend?” 

You hesitantly nodded, “Oh, you know her Sho-kun?” Shion asked, seemingly amused by it all.

“What are you all crowding here for, Hinata?” Another asked, peering in them closely. This one must’ve been Bokuto, another favorite of Yuuto.

“Sugawara-san’s friend! she’s the mother of those two boys in the training camp who had to go home early!” he suddenly turns to you and then grins, “Ne, ne, the boys really seem to want to attend one of those. Why don’t you allow them to join us-”

“Forget it, Hinata.” Atsumu suddenly speaks out, that warm voice that you were accustomed to seemed cold and menacing now, “She won’t allow it.”

Shion notices the tension between you two and when he’s about to usher the energetic duo away back to the dressing room along with the other members, you let out a quiet sigh and spoke out, “I was on my way to leave, please don’t bother yourselves.” You simply replied, you didn’t waver and stared at him dead in the eye, this could be the moment to end it all and cut ties with him officially, “I apologize for what I did back then, Miya-san. I should’ve told it to you in person. I offer my sincere congratulations to you for making it this far.”

The blonde clenched his jaw, it seemed like he wanted to say something to you yet when he realizes the usual calm and collected demeanor you're putting up, he decides against it and leaves you alone by storming away first.

Hinata and the guy named Bokuto looked at you --- completely puzzled and lost like a deer in the headlights --- before following the blonde, “You truly are in a whole ‘nuther level, Y/N.” Shion whistles, “Heard you’ve got two boys now though. Congrats, where's the poor bastard?”

You continue to watch the back of Atsumu Miya. Finally, it seemed like he’d left you alone and probably for good this time, “Gone, off to a better place.” was all you replied.

Inunaki notices the longing in your voice, a completely unfamiliar emotion he had never seen back then even when you and Atsumu were together. It seemed like you and Atsumu were both the poor bastards in the end.

Miya Atsumu sleeps alone that night.

He doesn’t call his girlfriend back despite the several missed calls, he doesn’t reply to the unanswered text of his brother and his teammates. All he feels is pain tonight, pain because of your very dry apology, pain because of your bland expression. Pain because you didn’t seem to care like that time six years ago.

He shuts his eyes tight and he feels as if he’s back in college, back to that winter night where he received that dreaded phone call from you after you disappeared from him. He remembered those days clearly, your apartment had been cleaned out and paid for, you weren’t answering him on social media, your phone line was also unresponsive and he couldn’t even call your family since you never mentioned anything about them at all.

You both may have been intimate for the past two years but when you disappeared, he had the frightening realization that he didn’t know you at all.

He didn’t want to push you out of your comfort zone, he wanted you to lead the relationship but right at that moment, he wished he pried just a bit since he was worried about you.

Then in the midst of his anxiety, it came, that phone call.

“Atsumu.” your usual calm voice filled his ears and he suddenly feels the weight of the world is removed from his shoulders, thank god you were okay.

“Y/N? Baby? Where are you?”

“Out.”

“Where outside exactly?” Miya Atsumu dryly asks, “It’s cold, you shouldn’t be out now and wandering about. Would you like me to pick you up-”

“I can’t do this anymore.” you suddenly cut him off and the line goes quiet. The blonde feels the world around him quiet down too when he hears those words that he wished he heard wrong.

“What’s, what’s wrong? Y/N, are you alright?” 

“I don’t know,” You mutter, “I’m just tired.”

“Tired of what exactly?”

“Of you, of us…”

“Y/N, are you saying what I think you’re saying?” 

“Yes.” Your voice remained dead calm as if you just hadn’t broken his heart in a million pieces that moment, “Let’s stop this here now, Atsumu. Let’s break-up.”

“That’s…” He tries to keep the mood light, praying that this is one of your dark jokes, “That’s not funny, Y/N.”

“It’s not supposed to be since it’s not a joke.”

Your response was curt as usual and he doesn’t know whats worse, the fact that you’re breaking up over the phone or the fact that your tone remains stable and the same.

“Y/N, don’t do this...Baby don’t do this over the phone.” His tone seemed desperate at this point, “I’m not stopping this until you tell me what's wrong between us, you have to give me something to work with Y/N. Is it something I did?”

“I don’t know.”

“What do you mean ya don’t know?” Atsumu started to raise his tone when he notices how unaffected you seem at the other line.Frustration slowly started to bubble in him, the accent turning thicker as he got angrier, “Y/N ya can’t just disappear out of the blue and call me one day and tell me you want to break up! Do you think I’m some sort of fling? Some one-night stand or fuck buddies? We’ve been together for two years, Y/N. Two whole fucking years, What’s wrong? Do you not love me anymore?”

“Yes.”

The line went dead silent again and he hates it, he doesn’t know what to say as his face contorts in sadness and confusion. 

“I don’t…” He starts to feel a lump grow on his throat when he hears how easy it was for you to say, he knew he was in love with you more than you were with him. Many had pointed out how dangerous and how painful it would be on his side in the end, he couldn’t believe it would hurt him this much, “ I don’t fucking believe you, say it right at my face. Where the hell are ya? Let’s talk this one out in person.”

“Don’t bother, I just don’t want to see you again.”

“Y/N you can’t just-”

“I can and I will.” You cut him off, your voice was growing more and more detached and he feels like he’s back to that moment two years ago where you didn’t spare him a glance and treated him like a scrub, he hears a hefty sigh on your side and the next few words is another bullet to his heart, “I’m sorry it had to end this way, Atsumu.”

“You…” he shakily replied, trying to mask his grief with a painful chuckle. He wants to be mad at you, he wants to yell at you but for some odd reason, he couldn’t bring himself to,  “Jesus christ, you really are something, Y/N. You just broke my heart over the the fucking phone and all you could do is say sorry?”

“Sorry.” you say, like a broken-record on repeat and he hates it. He hates how he feels like this was nothing for you.

“Don’t you dare say that again when you don’t mean it-” He spat and before he could finish what he had to say, the phone line went dead. He tried to call again but it seemed like you had used a payphone. Out of complete vexation, he hurls his phone right across the room towards the blue photo frame with the both of you in it.

The sound of broken glass shards and ragged breathing is the only thing heard in the quiet apartment.

It’s not even the peak of winter that night yet he feels so numb and cold.

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[moonlit-imagines]

A Bug’s Life

Peter Parker x Lang!reader

warnings:

a/n: i love this concept and also anon u r sweet and i just found out theres a marvel supervillainess named dragonfly but since i havent heard of her until today im using that name!

prompt: anonymous: “Can you please write a Tom Holland!Peter Parker x Female!Reader where the reader is the older sister of Cassie Lang (Antman’s daughter) and her and Peter fall in love with each other. ✨ Thanks so much! 😘”

Okay, so when you were a kid, you had always dreamed of being a superhero. You never thought you’d know your idols personally, though. You see, when your dad, Scott Lang, came back from prison, a lot changed. Suddenly, he was a superhero and no matter how much he didn’t like it, you wanted to be apart of it.

“Y/N, no, please. You’re just a kid!” You dad argued with you in the presence of your “uncles.”

“Scotty, I think it’d be good for her, you know? Like, she’s so smart and she’s got a lot of talent! I think she could learn a thing or two from Hope and Dr. Pym, right?” Uncle Luis egged on.

“Yeah, dad! Me and Hope have already been experimenting with some stuff and, I mean, Mom’s been bugging me over getting into some extracurriculars...” You reasoned with him.

“Yeah, y/n, like photography club or soccer, not being a crime-fighting bug!” Scott pinched the bridge of his nose and sighed, but when he looked back up, you were giving him puppy eyes. “Don’t...don’t do that.”

“Please, dad? I just wanna follow in your footsteps. You’re my hero.” You pouted your lip and didn’t break eye contact with him until he let out a load groan.

“Your mom is going to kill me.” He mumbled while you celebrated with Luis.

You became known as Dragonfly, Ant-Man and Wasp’s sidekick partner. It wasn’t long before you were affiliated with the Avengers and other heroes from across the galaxy.

The first time you stepped foot into the Avengers Compound was unbelievable.

“If only I could tell eight-year-old me how cool she’d grow up to be...” You whispered as your dad led you through the place. You were specifically requested for recruitment following a backround check that proved that you were qualified to train as a junior scientist! The program had just been started thanks to the young Spider-Man, one of the many heroes you had met before and would actually get to know after today.

“Alright, kiddo, it’s not too late to back out.” Your dad told you.

“It’s gonna be fine, dad! You know you can visit me anytime and I’ll come to see you and Cassie every chance I can get.” You gave him a warm smile to let him know it’s alright.

“I know...I’m just gonna miss you, you know?” He shrugged, but before the conversation could continue, you were greeted by Bruce Banner, aka the Hulk.

“Welcome! Nice to see you again, Scott.” Bruce shook your dad’s hand, then turned to you. “And it’s wonderful to finally meet the girl behind the mask.” He shook your hand.

“Nice to meet you, too, Doctor Banner.” You fit your small hand into his abnormally large (and green) hand.

“I’ve heard great things about you, Y/N. I’m excited to see your talent up close.” Dr. Banner chuckled. “I told Peter to meet us here, he probably forgot.” He walked to the wall and pressed the speaker button to the intercom. “Peter, can you meet us at the South Entrance?”

Moments later, a teenage boy came barrelling towards the three of you.

“Sorry! Sorry I’m late.” He apologized profusely. You giggled at the disheveled appearance of him. His hair was sticking up in the back and his flannel was half-tucked into his pants. “I’m Peter!” He stuck his hand out for you to shake. “Peter Parker. Spider-Man.” You took his hand gladly and shook it.

“Y/N Lang. Dragonfly.” You introduced yourself. “It’s been a while since we’ve fought together.” You pointed out. “Maybe that’s a good thing.” Peter’s eyes furrowed at that comment. “You know, not fighting.” You added.

“Oh, yeah, definitely!” Peter agreed.

“So, let me guess: you overslept?” You referenced Peter’s bold look and he quickly fixed anything noticeably wrong to him. Bruce and your dad were just observing the chemistry between you and Peter, exchanging entertained glances.

“Hi! I’m y/n’s dad, Scott. Ant-Man.” Scott interrupted as he waved to Peter.

“Oh! I remember you. You got really big in Germany and I had to web your knees until you fell down.” Peter brought up old memories and you covered your mouth to stop from laughing.

“Yep! That’s me.” Scott eyes got slightly wider. “So, I really wish I could stay, but I have a meeting with a client tomorrow morning that I can’t miss. Alarm company doesn’t run itself, you know?” Silence. “Anyways, uh, y/n.” He motioned you a bit closer so you could say goodbye. He crouched down and grabbed both your shoulders. “I love you so much and I am super proud of you. This is an awesome opportunity, kiddo!”

“Yeah, I know.” You said in a sort of disappointed tone.

“What’s wrong?” Scott asked.

“I’m just gonna miss you.” You frowned.

“Come here.” Your dad pulled you into a tight hug. “I’m gonna miss you, too.” The hug lasted at least sixty seconds before he pulled away and kissed your forehead. “Okay, now here’s your bag, go do some science!” He gave you your suitcase. “I love you, Pumkin.”

“Love you, too, dad.” You smiled, almost holding back tears. You really didn’t want to say goodbye to him, but it’s apart of life. Scott watched as you, Peter, and Banner walked down the halls of the Compound. Bruce and Peter were showing you your new room!

“What’s crime like on the West Coast?” Peter asked you. “I’ve only fought crime on the East Coast. And Europe. And Space.”

“Crime is the same coast to coast. It’s crime.” You shrugged.

“Well, that’s cool. Sorry, I’m not good at small talk.” He chuckled.

“Peter, you’ll be able to show y/n her room and give her a little tour, right?” Bruce asked as he slowed down.

“Yeah, no problem.” Peter nodded.

“Alright, great. I’ll be in the lab if anyone needs me.” Bruce walked away and left the two of you to it.

“Okie doke.” Peter clapped his hands together. “Well, this is the hallway.” Is exactly how he just began the tour. The Compound was actually, surprisingly, bigger than you expected. “And that’s the training room, there’s the kitchen, your room has it’s own bathroom, but there are other bathrooms all over the place. There’s a shopping list on the fridge if you ever have any requests, but fruit snacks are banned since I ate two full boxes in one day and threw up.” Peter gave that wonderful anecdote.

“Wow, that’s...impressive?” You tried to come up with something.

“I think the word you’re looking for is ‘disgusting.’” Peter and you shared a laugh as you approached your new room. He opened the door up and you stepped into the biggest bedroom you’d ever seen. “It’s taken some getting used to, you know, the big room, the big bed, the huge bathroom, all of it.”

“This is amazing.” You mumbled.

“Yeah! And Bruce said we can go shopping and decorate the room any way you’d like. I just got my license, so I’d be cool with driving.” Peter proposed.

“Yeah, I think that’d be pretty cool.” You agreed as you threw your suitcase onto the bed and started unpacking. “Uh, I’m kind of hungry...know any places to eat around here?” You started putting shirts on hangers and filling up your huge closet. You noticed Peter hadn’t answered your question yet, so you turned around to see what he was stalling for. He was just watching you. “Am I really that interesting?” You joked.

“What?” Peter blinked. “Oh! Yeah, sorry, yeah, there’s a few places around that we can go to. Assuming you’d want my company, of course. It’s your choice, really.” Peter rambled and you approached him.

“Duh, I gotta get to know my housemate better!” You pulled Peter out of the room and in a random direction. “Am I going the right way to the garage?”

“No.” He answered and you quickly changed directions. You were oddly comfortable with Peter already, and he wasn’t exactly against it. You were super sweet to him and you two have a lot of shared experience. Teen heroes trying to make a difference. And bug-themed.

Peter drove you to his favorite (and closest) restaurant for dinner, and on the way, he played his music on the playlist. Left Hand Free by Alt-J played through the speakers as you sang along.

“You like this song?” He asked and you nodded without a pause in singing. “Good, so do I. You have a really good voice.” He complimented, which definitely made you blush.

“Thanks, now sing with me!” You nudged his arm leaning on the console and resumed your singing.

“I don’t really sing.” Peter chuckled and saw you roll your eyes, then sighed. “Fine. You win.” He began to join you in song.

Well your left hand’s free, and your right’s in grip. With another left hand watch his right hand slip towards his gun, woah woah woah...

“You’re not too bad, yourself, Peter.” You told him as he pulled into a parking spot at the restaurant. The two of you walked in together and the waitress immediately recognized Peter.

“Hey there, Peter! Good to see you!” She greeted and grabbed two menus. “I see you’ve brought a date.” She raised her eyebrows and smirked.

“Oh, uh, she’s not—” Peter stuttered before you took over.

“Yep, it’s our first date! I’m y/n.” You introduced yourself.

“Well, it’s nice to see him with someone. Follow me, you two.” She let you over to a table and told you she’d be back for drinks in a minute. As soon as she left, Peter turned to you.

“When were you going to tell me this was a date?” Peter cocked an eyebrow with a crooked smile to match it.

“I’m sorry! I hope it’s okay I told her that.” You innocently replied.

“It’s more than okay.” Peter leaned forward. “I’m happy to be your date. We are moving a bit fast, though.”

“Are you sure? This is actually pretty slow for people our age. By now, they’d probably be confessing their love for one another.” You joked and he rolled his eyes.

“You are so right!” He snorted. “Jeez, it’s been so long since I’ve talked to someone my own age!” He sighed. “What about you?”

“I hang out with adults all day long. The only kid I hang out with is my little sister. Do you have any siblings?” You asked him.

“Only child.” Peter answered. “What’s your sister’s name?”

“Cassie. She’s sweet but it’s kind of weird coming back after the Blip and seeing her all big and everything.” You made random hand gestures to demonstrate that she was bigger.

“I know, right! I have classmates that I saw as infants that are now bigger than me!” He explained. The waitress came back and got you your drinks and took each of your orders. Back to the chit-chat. “Okay, now tell me, what got you into the hero-game?”

“Okay, well, my dad had just gotten out of prison, right?” That sentence itself made Peter choke on his drink. “Oh, calm down, it was a non-violent offense. He actually exposed corruption, that’s why I look up to him.” You explained.

“That’s good, that’s good. I’m glad. Go on.” He took another sip from his drink.

“Yeah, so then he robbed Hank Pym, who actually wanted my dad to rob him, then a bunch of ants broke my dad out of jail after he got arrested again for stealing from Dr. Pym, then my dad became the new Ant-Man and took down some bad guys, his new girlfriend, Hope, who is Dr. Pym’s daughter, took a liking to me and started showing me the ropes, so me and my Uncle Luis convinced my dad to let me make my own suit. Then Dragonfly was born.” You explained in full detail. “What about you?”

“Oh, yeah. Well, I got bit by a radioactive spider that was being experimented on in a lab, then I had a short-lived wrestling career, then my uncle who raised me died and I became Spider-Man.” He smiled and your jaw dropped.

“Holy shit, are you okay?” You asked.

“Oh, yeah, I’m good.” He admitted as you guys recieved your food. “So, anything else I should know about you?”

“I dunno.” You shrugged. “I like Star Wars.” You told him.

“Me too!” Peter exclaimed.

“No, you don’t. My dad told me Spider-Man called AT-AT’s ‘walking-thingies.’” You shook your head and laughed at the thought of that.

“Okay, so I’m not a huge fan, but our next date can be a Star Wars marathon?” Peter proposed.

“Yes!” You agreed a bit too enthusiastically. Peter smiled and the waitress brought an ice cream sundae with two spoons to the table.

“It’s on the house.” She told you two with a wink.

“Looks like we’re sharing.” You grabbed a spoon and got to work. Peter got chocolate all over his chin. He was kind of a messy eater. “You’ve got a little something...” You grabbed a napkin and wiped his chin clean.

“Thanks.” Peter picked his spoon up and moved it towards you. “Have you tried any of the brownie yet?” You took a bite of what he offered.

“Wow, that’s amazing.” You spoke through your mouthful.

“I hate to brag, but I make a pretty mean batch of brownies.” Peter bragged.

“You’re gonna have to prove it, Pete.” You wiped your face off and cleaned up your spot a bit. “You ready to get back to the Compound?”

“Yeah, yeah, let’s get going.” Peter left some cash on the table to pay the bill and walked you out to the car. The car ride back was filled with jokes and even more stories about your super-adventures. “So, you’re telling me that the first time you shrank, you cried?”

“Yes! Dude, it was an emotional experience. I’m telling you, I was not prepared for something so cool.” You defended yourself. “Now tell me something embarrassing about your powers.”

“I got stuck to a bathroom stall at school and they thought I was skipping class so they sent an aide and I was crying out of fear.” He admitted with pity in his voice.

“Oh, my god. That’s awful.” You giggled and grabbed his hand. “Have you recovered yet?”

“No, unfortunately not, but the handholding sure does help.” Peter squeezed your hand tighter.

“I’m glad.” You smugly replied and closed your eyes to listen to the music. You were kind of exhausted from traveling, so you knew you’d pass out the moment you hit your bed. Soon, you arrived at the Compound and Peter kissed your cheek to get you up.

“We’re hoooome.” He said in a singsong voice as your eyes fluttered open. “Sorry, that was weird.” He apologized, but you grabbed his face and pulled him in for a long kiss. More like a brief makeout, but potato, poe-tah-toe.

“You’re really cute, you know?”

[freddiesaysalright]

Just Like a Woman - Part 11

A Roger Taylor x Reader Story

Summary: You and Roger were once in love when you were young. Only, he went on to be a rock star, and you went on to be a lawyer. Now, quite against your will, you’re representing him in his divorce. 

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A/N: THIS IS NOT THE LAST CHAPTER! Just to clarify because of the way it ends, but there is still more to this story! It’s not over yet!

Warning(s): Brief description of violence that we’ve already heard

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6  Part 7 Part 8  Part 9  Part 10

Part 11 here we go!!!

You walked into work the next day, whistling to yourself. Roger had to stop by his house and change before he would be there to go with you all to the courthouse for the last bit of the trial. Jane smirked at you.

“Good night?” she asked.

“Excellent, Jane, thanks for asking,” you replied, snatching your messages out of her hand, but still smiling.

She shook her head and chuckled as you closed the door to your office. Just as it shut, you heard a high-pitched, child-like giggle. You whipped around, scanning your office for the source of the noise, but couldn’t see anything out of the ordinary. You shrugged it off. It was probably just something from the main part of the office and you were too busy to think any more of it.

You gathered your things and headed for the conference room, humming now instead of whistling. Dominique smiled at you.

“You look great today, Y/N,” she said.

“Thank you, I feel great!” you replied brightly.

“Y/N,” Bill said as he and Roger entered the room. “You’re in a much better mood today.” He turned to Roger. “Well done, mate.”

Roger smiled. “Thanks, man.”

They shook hands.

You finally frowned. “Could you two not be gross?”

Dominique laughed. Bill took a seat beside her as Roger kissed your cheek in greeting. Bill decided to share the first draft of his closing. He would edit it more later after the trial depending on any new information that arose. You all approved of it, and then, you were off to court.

After the previous day, you were a bit nervous. Glen would be able to call more witnesses, and you were not prepared for any more surprises. Luckily, there didn’t appear to be any.

Glen stood up and called Nick to the stand. Dominique shrunk a little as she watched him walk up and take his oath before sitting down. Bill took her hand.

“Mr. Sully, tell us your account of the evening you and Ms. Beyrand went on your date,” Glen said.

“Well, it’s like she told you, we met at the bar, flirted, and then arranged to meet again,” Nick began. “I thought it was going well. Then she tells me she’s ready to go home, but I’ve been buying her drinks, and I think she’s telling me she’s ready to go home with me. So I offer to drive and we get in the car. I saw in her eyes that she wanted me to make a move, so I went for it. All of a sudden, she’s offended, and she hits me. I hit her back - I’m not proud of it - but she was so enraged, I feared for my own safety. There was a struggle and then I kicked her out of my car. If something happened to her after that, it’s not on me.”

“How do you account for your blood and hairs being on her dress?” Glen asked.

“It probably happened during the struggle,” Nick answered. “I’m not denying there was a confrontation.”

“Why do you think she’d identify you as her attacker if someone else put her in hospital?” Glen continued.

“I don’t really know, she was probably angry at me for how it went and saw it as an opportunity to get back at me,” Nick said. 

“So you would describe Ms. Beyrand as vindictive?” Glen went on.

“Objection,” Bill called out. 

“Sustained,” Judge Walsh agreed. “Counsel, keep your questions to what happened.”

“Of course, your honor,” Glen conceded. “As it happens, I have no further questions.”

He returned to his seat. Bill leaned over to you.

“You got this?” he whispered.

“I got this,” you shot back, standing up.

You strode over to the witness stand.

“Mr. Sully, how much can you bench press?” you asked.

“Objection!” Glen cried. “Relevance!”

“Counsel,” Judge Walsh said to you. “Are you going somewhere with this?”

“I am, your honor, you’ll see,” you said.

“Overruled,” he said to Glen. Then he looked at you. “Don’t take too long.”

You nodded, then turned your attention back to Nick. “So? How much?”

He looked you up and down, a cocksure smirk on his lips. “About two of you.”

“I see,” you said with a grin. “And you’re a professional kickboxer, right?”

“I am,” he told you, straightening up a little taller.

“Think you could take on your lawyer?” you asked. “He’s a pretty big guy. Fit. Strong.”

“Oh, yeah, he’d be no problem,” he replied. 

“And what about my co-counsel?” you asked. “He’s about your size.”

“Also no problem,” he said confidently, glancing at Bill. “It’s easy when you’re up against someone who doesn’t know what they’re doing.”

You heard Glen let out a quiet groan from behind you. You bit back a smirk.

“And you expect them,” you pointed to the jury. “To believe that you feared for your safety because of that little woman?” You pointed to Dominique.

Nick realized his mistake and the color drained from his face.

“I - well - hold on - it wasn’t -”

“Don’t bother answering, Mr. Sully, that last one was rhetorical,” you said. “No further questions.”

You turned on your heel to head back to your seat, but froze. In the aisle, between the rows of observers, stood a little boy. He was the spitting image of Roger, only with one distinction. He had your eyes. In your heart, you knew him. Only, you weren’t sure how you knew him. You stared at him, and he grinned back.

“Miss Y/L/N?” Judge Walsh’s voice took you out of your trance and the little boy vanished. “Miss Y/L/N, are you alright?”

You shook your head to clear it. You went to your seat and looked at him.

“Yes, your honor, I’m fine,” you replied, cheeks reddening as you felt the whole courtroom’s eyes on you. “Just...I thought I saw someone.”

His expression showed just how much he was questioning your sanity. The defense had no other witnesses to call, so you were released for a fifteen minute recess. You retired to the same chambers you had the day before. 

“Y/N, are you alright?” Roger asked. “What happened in there?”

You found yourself embarrassed to say. You didn’t want to seem crazy. But you were also with people you trusted.

“None of you saw the little boy?” you asked, looking at each of them.

“What little boy?” Dominique wondered.

“The boy!” you insisted. “He stood right in the aisle. He just stood there and then he...he…” you trailed off.

“He what?” Bill pressed.

“He vanished,” you admitted.

“Are you hallucinating?” he wondered.

“I - well - maybe!” you cried. “I dunno! But I saw him!”

“Okay, we don’t really have time to unpack this,” Dominique said. “Bill, are there any changes you’d like to make to your closing?”

He started describing what he wanted add, but you didn’t hear it. Roger’s eyes were trained on you. He was concerned, but you didn’t notice him either. You couldn’t stop thinking about that boy. Then you remembered the laugh you heard in your office. Were you going insane?

You shook your head again and focused on Bill. Before you knew it, it was time to return. Glen did his closing first.

“What you’re looking at here is a classic case of he said she said,” he began. “No one is denying that a physical altercation took place between Ms. Beyrand and Mr. Sully. What is in question is how much damage Mr. Sully actually inflicted. Did Mr. Sully strike her? Yes. But in defense of himself. Are we really so old fashioned that we believe a man can’t be abused by a woman? That a man can’t fear what a woman might do to him? Let’s not hold Ms. Beyrand to a double standard which only puts men at risk. She led him on, there was a misunderstanding, and that’s what happened. If someone else attacked Ms. Beyrand after her altercation with my client, then that’s somebody else’s business. But what you all need to understand is this: Mr. Sully defended himself from a person who was attacking him. And if you imprison him for it, we are heading down a very slippery slope.”

With that, he went to his seat. Bill got to his feet and walked over to the jury.

“Ladies and gentlemen, say it with me,” he began.

“Please,” the jury echoed back to him.

“Counsel!” Judge Walsh scolded. “The jury is to listen, not interact.”

“Certainly,” Bill agreed. He turned back to them. “The facts of this case are simple. You heard them from the doctors, the police officers, and from the victim herself. You saw the photos. The impression of the car door against her scalp. It’s not a case of he said she said because what she said is backed by evidence. All of which points to Mr. Sully violently assaulting Ms. Beyrand because she refused to have sex with him. As a society, we like to say that women have the right to say no. But they don’t, do they? Because look at what happens when they do. Dominique Beyrand was nearly killed for it. Thousands of women every year are not as fortunate to be able to take a shot at justice. And that’s what we’re looking for here. You have the facts before you. We’ve presented them clear as crystal. Now, it’s your turn to deliver justice. Not just for Dominique Beyrand. But for your mothers, sisters, and daughters. For every woman - every person, even - who has a right to say who puts their hands on their bodies. Justice. That’s all we’re asking for.”

With that, it was over. The jury went to deliberate. 

“This could be a while, right?” Dominique asked as you headed out to the lobby. 

“Yeah, it could be a few hours,” you told her. “But if they’re sensible, it shouldn’t take more than a couple hours.”

“Well, Roger and I wanted to thank you for all you two have done,” she replied. “By having you over for dinner.”

“Oh, you don’t have to do that,” you said, touched. “It’s our job, and we’re glad to help you.”

“I know, but we appreciate it,” she said. 

“Plus, we have an ulterior motive,” Roger added. “We’ve got to decorate the house for Christmas, and we could use the extra hands.”

It hit you suddenly that it was December. Christmas was in just a few weeks. You had been so busy with this case and your own thoughts that you’d forgotten. 

“It would mean a lot to us,” Dominique said. “And to the kids.”

You and Bill looked at each other and nodded. 

“We’ll come,” you said. 

Verity was thrilled to see everyone when you arrived at Roger’s house. Roger told her you were all going to decorate, and she agreed to help. So, she got the children.

Felix was excited to see you again and he quickly warmed up to Bill. Rory was entirely a mommy’s girl. Even though she could teeter around, she got fussy if she wasn’t in Dominique’s arms. You had never seen Bill look so soft as he watched Dominique with her daughter.

You all worked together to unpack the decorations and begin hanging them. They didn’t have a tree yet, but Roger assured you they would get one in another week. That way it would stay fresh. Dominique put on a Bing Crosby Christmas record and you all got to work. You were putting the stockings on the mantle when Roger approached you.

“Did you really see a little boy in the courtroom today?” he asked. “He looked real?”

“Yeah,” you said somberly. “It’s got me a bit frightened. He looked so solid. Very real.”

“But he vanished?” he questioned.

You nodded. “He did.”

“What did he look like?” he wondered.

“Quite a bit like you, actually,” you told him. “I dunno, maybe I’m cracking up after everything we’ve been going through.”

He chuckled. “I wouldn’t blame you in the slightest.”

You smiled at each other and finished the stockings. He helped you string lights around the garland and then place it on the mantle as well. Dom had a collection of Father Christmases that she put along the beam to keep the garland in place. It looked beautiful. 

Then you and Roger helped hang wreaths. Felix wanted to help so Roger hoisted him onto his shoulders. The boy giggled with delight. The sound made you stiffen. It was so like the laugh you heard in your office that morning.

“Y/N?” Roger asked, looking curiously at you. “You alright?”

You nodded, clearing your throat. “Yeah, yeah. I’m fine. Just anxious about this verdict.”

“Don’t worry too much,” he said. “Whatever happens now isn’t in your control.”

You nodded again, and he handed Felix a ribbon to tie around the wreath. You jumped in and showed Felix how to tie a pretty bow, then let him try it on his own. It was sloppy, but you left it to show you were proud of him.

“Look, Mum, I made a bow!” he called to Dominique.

“And what a beautiful bow it is, darling!” she praised, beaming at him.

“Well, done, Felix!” Roger added.

You high fived him as well and he looked most pleased with himself. 

Decorating was a welcome distraction from your worries. In a way, it felt like you were celebrating that you all had done this in the first place. You made it to trial, you tried an excellent case, and whatever way the jury decided, you were happy to have done your part for Dominique. She was glowing as she looked around at her friends and family. If not for the scar poking out from her hairline, you might not have thought anything happened to her at all. 

At one point, Roger handed Felix some mistletoe and walked over to you.

“Oh!” he cried dramatically, earning more giggles from his son. “Looks like we ran into each other under the mistletoe. You know what that means.”

He winked as you rolled your eyes. A smile tugged at the corners of your lips, though.

“You are such an idiot,” you teased.

“Well, you owe this idiot a kiss,” he returned.

With a laugh, you obliged, leaning over to peck him on the lips.

Everyone laughed, sang, and got covered in glitter and pine needles as the house turned into a Christmas winter wonderland. You finally felt the spirit of the holiday. You were almost sad when it was completed because you were having such a wonderful time.

Luckily, the evening wasn’t over. Roger and Dom still wanted to make dinner, so you all herded into the kitchen. You took Rory and Felix crawled into Bill’s lap while the former couple got to work. Felix was animatedly talking to Bill about all the things he was asking Santa for, but Rory’s energy had depleted. She rested her head against your chest and closed her droopy eyes.

“This baby is tired,” you remarked, smiling. 

“Well, she’ll eat a bit before we put her to bed,” Dominique said. 

The children were fed first, with some assistance from you and Bill. Felix was truly taking advantage of all the attention he was getting. Rory was just tired and a little fussy. When they were done, Bill and Dom went to put them to bed. You and Roger started to prepare the wine.

“Y/N, I wanted to tell you just how much last night meant to me,” he said as you placed four glasses on the counter. “I really think things are just working out.”

“I do too,” you agreed with a grin. “Last night was incredible and it reassured me that we were meant to find each other again.”

He smiled and kissed you sweetly. 

“I also wanted to thank you again for taking this case,” he said. “No matter what happens, we are so grateful for everything.”

“Roger, please, we are just happy you trust us enough,” you told him. “Bill and I adore you and Dom. We’re your friends. And I think after tonight….we’re all kind of family.”

“A weird family,” he joked. 

“But a family all the same,” you insisted.

He kissed you again, and in it, you felt that he shared the sentiment.

Bill and Dominique returned, laughing softly together. You handed them each a glass of the freshly poured wine.

“They go down okay?” you asked.

“Perfectly,” Dominique said. “Felix always acts like he’s not sleepy, but the second his head hits the pillow, out go the lights.”

“Sounds like Roger,” you teased.

“I know, right?!” Dominique agreed.

You all chuckled. As Roger began retrieving things from the fridge for dinner, the phone rang. Verity picked it up on her way into the kitchen. You watched her expression shift to concern.

“Y/N, it’s for you,” she said. “It’s your assistant.”

You swept over to her and took the receiver. 

“Jane, what is it?” you asked.

“The jury’s back,” she said. “You’ve got to get to court.”

Your stomach dropped. “Thanks, we’ll be right there.”

You hung up. All eyes were on you. Bill looked at you with understanding.

“The jury’s back,” he said, not having to guess.

You nodded.

“Dinner will have to wait,” Roger said. “Let’s go.”

You all rushed to grab your things and headed back into town. 

The courtroom was empty now that it was late. Roger was the only person in the audience. You arrived after Glen and Nick were already seated. You noticed him and Roger exchange glares. 

You all stood when Judge Walsh entered and took his seat. Glen and Nick remained standing while the jury filed in. Once all the formalities were taken care of, Judge Walsh looked at the jury.

“Have you reached a verdict?” he asked.

The foreman - who was actually a woman - stood up. 

“We have, your honor,” she said.

“What say you?”

She unfolded the paper in her hand. You watched with bated breath. This was it. Had you done enough?

“In the matter of the people versus Sully, we the jury find the defendant, Nicholas David Sully, guilty…”

You didn’t hear the rest. You looked over at Dominique, but her face was already buried in Bill’s chest, and his arms were around her. Her shoulders shook with silent sobs. You turned around to see Roger, head in his hands, absolutely frozen. 

“Members of the jury, thank you for your service,” Judge Walsh said. “This court is adjourned.”

He slammed his gavel, and it felt like a wake up call. A burst of joy shot through you and you jumped out of your seat to hug Roger. He welcomed you into his arms as you embraced over the wall between you.

You felt a hand on your shoulder. You turned to see Dominique, tears and makeup streaming down her cheeks, but the widest grin you had ever seen on her face.

“Thank you,” she choked out.

Your own eyes welled up with tears. You didn’t have words, so you pulled her into the hug. You yanked Bill in as well, and the four of you stood there, relieved and victorious. The sentencing would be in a few weeks, but you were already over the biggest hurdle. You felt a little bit of pride in yourself. It was your first ever criminal conviction.

“How about we celebrate?” Bill suggested. “Let’s have a drink at the bar before we go back for dinner?”

“That sounds perfect,” Dominique said.

She took his hand. You took Roger’s. All of you headed out to the bar. A few of your coworkers - including Jane - were already there, so you told them the good news. There was champagne to go around. You hardly drank any. You were too busy dancing with Roger. Dinner was forgotten. The whole evening was spent at the bar, toasting, dancing, and being with the person you loved more than life itself - Roger Meddows Taylor.

[gaysneeg]

ALRIGHT SO THIRD GAME. FIRST CASE FLASHBACK CASE YOU BECOME BIG TIDDY MENTOR ON HER SECOND CASE

she's defending a 20 year old phoenix wright who's been accused of murdering his girlfriend's ex (also he looks like this and i think you need to know)

she proves his innocence and his girlfriend's (dahlia hawthorne) guilt. apparently not only did she kill the guy, she ALSO poisoned tit's ex boyfriend, landing him in a coma

so phoenix latches to tit like a lost puppy bc he is just a little man, and she takes him under her wing and teaches him more law stuff (he switches from talking ab hour sad he is about dahlia to why he wants to go to law school SO FAST it's hilarious)

so boom flash back to the present, phoenix and co are facing off against a new prosecutor, godot, who seemingly has some kind of history with phoenix?? he hates the man's guts, but never explains why. he also has an eye mask for some reason and he can't see the color red

so they continue on, solving another couple cases, then BOOM FLASHBACK CASE AGAIN

it's big tiddie's first case !! she and her assistant/boyfriend probably are facing off against 20yo edgeworth (who is like a huge bitch) to prove this one guy's innocence. they interrogate this witness, melissa, and then prove that her true identity is dahlia hawthorne. they almost catch her as the murderer, but before they can their client drinks poison she gave him in order to off himself bc he didn't want to live without her, and the case closes

then it pans out to phoenix (in a hospital bed??) reading the file on that case, CUE FINAL CASE BABEYYYYY

so maya and pearls are trying to convince phoenix to take them to this spirit channeling mountain where they can train, and he really doesn't want to (mans hates the cold) but he agrees after he sees a familiar face in the paper. ✨✨✨✨dahlia fucking hawthorne somehow ✨✨✨✨

so they go to the mountain, and everything is going great. and then someone fucking dies. maya is on one half of the mountain alone (the only thing connecting the two is a bridge) and after this lady is discovered dead the head nun sends phoenix to the bridge to call the cops (he doesn't have his phone and there's a landline)

so he goes to the bridge, only to find out that it was STRUCK BY LIGHTNING AND IT'S ON FIRE. he tells a guy sleeping nearby to call the cops, AND RUNS ACROSS THE BURYING BRIDGE bc hey man thats his basically little sister over there

and then of course it collapses bc it's a burning bridge nick, you dumbass, and he falls into the freezing river below. the cops arrive, he's taken to the hospital, and the guy nearby (he's nick's childhood friend but like he does not matter so i haven't mentioned him) calls edgey, who is currently in fucking germany, and tells him the situation

of course he calls a goddamn private jet and gets there asap, finds out what's going on with the case from the detective (the dahlia lookalike was accused and detained) and then visits nick in the hospital. he has literally no injuries but a really bad cold bc of course, he's phoenix wright. he tells edgey to take the case in his stead and uncover the truth, and then hands over his badge

THAT'S RIGHT PLAYABLE PROTAGONIST EDGEY

so he agrees and goes on, and bc he has magic prosecutor power he arranges a trial with a judge who doesn't know him, and franziska on prosecution because she won't rat him out. so they go though the first day alright, and after that phoenix takes over even though he has a 103° fever💛

they open up the other side of the mountain, but when they're looking for maya they deadass can't find her??? and there's this one room that's completely locked off with these magic spirit locks that they have the not? dahlia work on opening

and im gonna skim a little bc this case makes my brain hurt but they open the door notdahlia flees bc edgey passes out, they find her but she's acting weird, maya is still gone and there are more locks, godot shows back up out of nowhere, pearls goes missing for a bit, they find out the victim is maya's supposedly dead mom, then they go to court again

nick kicks ass and takes names and finds out that the reason notdahlia was acting weird is because when she ran away actual dahlia, channeled by maya, took her place and hid her in the cave. plot twist!!! they're twins!! so pearl channels tiddy and her and phoenix bully dahlia out of maya's body

they think things are over but then godot accuses maya of killing the lady (oh yeah there was a murder everyone forgot) as dahlia, but nick proves her innocent and they find out he killed her, bc SHE was the one channeling dahlia, who tried to kill maya to get revenge on tiddy (yeah this shit is convoluted)

why did he do this??? BECAUSE HE WAS TIDDYS EX BOYFRIEND THAT GOT PUT IN A COMA AND THEN WOKE UP ONLY FOR HER TO BE DEAD, AND HE BLAMES NICK FOR IT BUT AFTER SEEING THE CHANNELED TIDDY BEING PROUD OF NICK HE DECIDES THAT HE'S NOT TOO BAD AND CONFESSES

so then he's detained, everyone cries a little, and then they go out to dinner

there's a couple fun spin off games after this, and then you get hit in the gut with pain in game 4💛 (apollo justice my beloved)

how do you remember so much about games story woah. I play a game and forget most of the plot within 30 minutes, I swear. 

[theskyexists]

ive bought harrow the ninth and am now attempting to reread act 1 so that i may understand it better

ianthe clearly proposes that Harrow not get herself killed trying to bring Gideon back - reading it over again. instead to take the future and somehow?? be really powerful together and forget about their cavaliers. but harrow says no

im once again struck with how offhand this book introduces the concept that the empire goes out to deliberately kill planets over a couple of generations

now im not sure....there also seems to be an implication that there’s no aliens - because they say only humanity has a soul - but client planets were said to rebel - i guess the human colonisers rebel against central solar system command sometimes? but then what enemy does the Cohort fight? possibly it’s just bigotry that they think aliens dont have a soul

but like - they find LIVING PLANETS and then - kill them slowly. to the extent that they need to move the entire population. WHAT? why do they do that??? just so they can do some bone tricks???!

what the fuk

so how did the planets get murdered again? and which solar system planets could really have been said to have had enough life to have a soul?? cos like, only one of them is really known for that

why did God give Harrow the choice to go back home TWICE if he was never going to let her?

once again, why mess with the Hand candidates if God was always gonna come for Cytherea? just to mess with him more?

yeah - harrow keeps hearing and saying ortus ninegad but the rest of the world remembers gideon.

Harrow truly is totally mentally shattered AND time is totally fucked up

but sometimes in the fake-ish timeline Harrow remembers but doesn’t remember Gideon - like how she notes that there were two womb-bearing members of the Ninth who were the right age...but only elaborates on herself

for some reason - Harrowhark remembers Ianthe’s arm ripped from her by Cytherea - but now it’s whole. for some reason

that letter is still so what the fuck

‘like you did the last time’ - hm harrowhark sewed Ianthe’s lips shut? how did she come by the power?

is ianthe - calling Harrowhark God?

throughout the first act, they keep referring to time, having too much time, or not mastering time, or not having enough time, ‘this time’ etc.

the eggs you gave me all died - that’s DIRECTED at Harrow, is my theory

ok but the planet revenants come after Lyctors and also God (- God became God when? at the Resurrection) before the Lyctors happened - God was still at Canaan House - despite the Revenants already coming right...

is Teacher criticising god and lyctors for leaving Canaan House lol?

ok so yeah Canaan House WAS part of a ‘last sacrifice’

ok so - Harrowhark is a little resurrection miracle. This implies that God killed a lot to resurrect the Houses.

wow God is being a very dad to Harrow

Blood of Eden - BOE - they turned their back on the solar system. now they hate necromancy. in other words - when the solar system died, God resurrected it - but before that point some humans had fled - lived. and they can see what absolute fuckin horror necromancy is ACTUALLY

so what im getting is...maybe...god resurrected humanity by killing the planets...?

i just realised that Ianthe has taken Gideon’s place as the smartass in the room - the counterweight to Harrow’s portentousness

what the fuck do augustine’s comments to Mercy mean???? why is she unloveable? why would he say that God doesn’t need her? and why is it obscene that Augstine calls God John? What is the dangerous game she’s playing? What was the foul implication??

‘Then that is your downfall’ OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Harrow BURN!!!

what i don’t get is - the Cohort is an army - when they land they die because they’re being killed by an enemy at the front - NOT in pure sacrifice for thanergy. so why does only the death of humans and planets produce thanergy. why is the death of the enemy not good enough? they don’t have fuckin souls?? they MUST be complex life. and doesn’t a planet produce a constant stream of thanergy? but i guess it’s not dying enough - generally its life maintains itself in ecosystems.....unless a fuckin lyctor ‘makes the juice flow’ i guess!

sometime in the next book there IS gonna be a ‘are we the baddies’ meme. muir loves memes and she stuck skulls on absolutely EVERYTHIGN. Like WHY THE FUCK would you colonise planets if you gotta kill them for it? LOL????

huh? augustine just said that they can’t use necromancy when in the river - but mercy mocked harrow for having hypothermia ? implying her fundamental failure was not being able to necro while in the river? Harrow’s inability was what was wrong partly right?? oh no ok it’s how Harrow tried to compensate for her body going lights out while in the river. alright. that was written confusingly

how and why is this a completely different story???

The Sleeper.......is Harrowhark? the suit is too close to what she was wearing killing the asteroid. and the sleeper is lying on ‘something’. oh they just straight up say it lololol

ortus got into trouble 19 years ago...hhmmmmm wasn’t Gideon 19??? huh? which is why Mercy started at Harrow’s peculiar YELLOW eyes that Harrow can’t see herself i think

‘i do things face to face’ ortus says after stabbing harrow. HUH? why go for a stab if decapitating would have done the job? just to give her a small chance to fight back? (face to face?)

why not tell God that ‘his’ attack dog is trying to kill you?

why does Ortus the First want me dead? ‘who?’ ---uh. has she forgotten him completely (time shit) or is she saying the wrong name? mercy wouldnt reply like that then right?

she told him and he’s like - oh well guess you gotta just get through repeated almost-successful attacks on your life. ???? THANKS GOD!!!

‘you, with your unfortunate memory for poetry’ HA! i love how we are reminded that she knew all the fuckin damn books nearly by heart which is insane!

Teacher suggests his dying at least three times a day?? hahaha what?.........................is this purely a meme reference. is that meme the mental image im supposed to have of Teacher??????????? is this trying to say that this meme was preserved in the amalgamation of human life that is Teacher?? oh my god....

no.....palamedus and camilla....did old Harrow really kill them.....

seems like all the murders were consensual maybe?

it’s probably too straightforward that Harrow created and alternate timeline and made for a Harrow Lyctor without Gideon dying and kicked her to the original? maybe she took Ianthe and Coronabeth with her bc she needed Ianthe’s help

is this Cytherea or Dulcinea? Pro seems real this time. why does Dulcie call Pal and Cam strands and cords?

did muir put in a fuckin secondary school S - muir’s just like - im gonna put in all the memes as a nod to ancient human culture

still no idea what the messages are that Harrow is getting

This Harrow is so goddamn sick. I mean she was sick before, but at least she had Gideon. Really do feel that that helped her. now she didn’t have that -- AND she’s getting slapped with trauma another five times

if ortus can undo the thanergy of her own bone then why not simply crumble HARROW into dust? cos there’s a core of thanergy fusion in her that he can’t undo?

FLKJDFKLJSDLFSD fucking IANTHE ‘Wow! Not how I imagined this happening, at all.’  FUCKIN HELL

Harrow with her fucking fucked up dramatic inner monologues about weakness and Ianthe comes in with this shit. she really is doing Gideon proud here.

Did love Harrow’s musings about how only a truly idiotically obedient Cavalier would be the only one to keep to a vow of silence. HAH! nice one muir

‘have you taken the time to rest lately?’ asks God, YOUR FUCKING SAINT IS TRYING TO KILL HER IN THE FUCKING BATH YOU IDIOT AHAHAHAHA

JEZUS FUCKING CHRIST - try and be normal Harrow! try and make some soup and read a book! Harrow: *does and then hyperventilates hidden under her bed after 86 hours of zero sleep*

she was trying to remember what cutlery did. why is this so goddamn funny hahahaa. this book has ONLY been Harrow being in extreme states of misery ALL THE TIME both mentally and physically to the point of death

GOD IS HAPPY THAT SHE MADE SOUP AND DOESNT EVEN FUCKIN NOTICE SHE’S NOT SLEPT FOR A WEEK SOMEHOW THIS IS THE MOST HILARIOUS SHIT

thats what you fucking GET you piece of shit god! you push a prodigy teen to the brink and she fuckin explodes your lyctor and feeds you her fuckin marrow. maybe you shouldn’t have ignored her goddamn fucking understandable distress

SHE FUCKIN HITS HIM WITH THE FUCKIN TRUTH what an IDIOT of a God. he truly doesn’t understand mortality anymore huh

I LOVE HOW MERCYMORN CONTINUES TO MAKE HARROW YOUNGER IN HER HEAD AHAHAHAHAHAHA she’s only nine years old!!!hahahaha

naturally God focuses on how - wait- actually harrow is truly an INSANE necromancer - INSANE

still no idea what the fuck is going on in the not-past

aww. ianthe’s scent soothes harrow now. begrudgingly of course.

i thought this was gonna be lovely angsty harrow/gideon but naturally that did not happen

harrow is comfortable! first time in the whole book! one moment of comfort!!!

‘love my twin, also murder’ tridentarius pffjlfjdljf

‘how i crave your honeyed words’ hah

wow this scene sure is weirdly sexual with these similes lol ‘as though she had shyly undressed for you’ ok there Harrow you about to chop her arm off calm it probably sex repulsed thirsty teen

i do love how....there is this theme again that’s everybody underestimating the main character - who is actually a prodigy. Gideon had that with the sword and Harrow also has it with being a Lyctor now

it’s so telling that these Saints would rather be shits to these babies than help Ianthe grow a new fuckin arm

i dont see why Ianthe can’t work off this bone construct which is her own stuff and put some flesh on it since SHES A FLESH NECRO?

Ianthe that’s super gay

wow muir really never delivers on full gay does she??? i dont mind but i think it’s so striking hahaa

how are Harrow and Ianthe still hung up on the Saint of Duty? i mean, if they dont have him against the RB they’re dead anyway

why is the First going through rain and ice?

Harrow haunted? naawwww

i cant help but like mercymorn though - she cares. it’s soured ages ago but she cares.

awww Harrow needs Ianthe to sleep

Ianthe constantly poking Harrow for her prudishness is so goddamn funny.

‘It’s the type of energy i wish to take into my future’ AHAHAHAHAHAAH IANTHE MY GOD

‘i always forget you were an honest to go nun ... and six years old to boot if you listen to mercymorn’ HAHAHAHAHAHA

‘you look good enough that im proud of my handiwork but not so good that i’ll be consumed with lust and ravish you over the nut bowl’ fpdfjsdfkjsd this is what harrow means with crude japery and yet....

mercymorn has started to call harrow three years old. i will NEVER tire of this gag

all of the blood of eden stuff happened in the past 25 years??? god was on the erebos, but he also remembers ortus kicking the commander out of an airlock? that was in the last 25 years??

Ianthe‘s carressing the nape of Harrow’s neck. hmmhm

its honestly super weird if you think about it for more than 10 seconds that theyre talking about their cavaliers whom they murdered (im still not sure if all consensually) ten thousand years ago (!) and how hot they were that just seems.....fucked up

Harrow is like WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! basically all the time but especially now. yep well that was to be expected i guess lololol

Harrow being painfully frozenly fascinated by (god having) sex and deeply repulsed is very Harrow

oh nooooo well that was a perfect kiss between them really

the funny thing about Harrow is that though she is so completely fucked up - just like Gideon - she is fundamentally a helper.

why wouldn’t Harrow have thought of blood wards! she knew he could only bleed thanergy! it;s the first thing i thought - just use not bone wards then!

ortus thinks anastasia is in Harrow - which makes me think - why does he think that’s possible?

mercymorn now calls Harrow a two-year-old. i am waiting for embryonic genius

so did they use the river to get to the planets theyre killing?

Harrow feels the peace and pleasure of a stroll through nature that she has come to kill

oh my god - Harrow somehow saved Cam and Pal is still attached to the mortal plane!!

Harrow helps Cam risking herself entirely just like that. yknow as she does

i wonder if Pal has realised that Harrow is not who he remembers

i think he realised once he realised haz mat suit was Harrow also...

ianthe xo’d harrow.....lol

im sad that original harrow is definitely dead.... :( loved her. guess gideon’s not coming back either. not sure how the second adept survived. she didn’t survive in the original timeline either. but she was ‘killed’ in the other - just like coronabeth..so that means soemthing

this whole ‘flashback’ stuff to Canaan House is Harrow being in the River the whole time. the cold temperatures, the blood, the creatures theyre fishing from the sea that apparently abominations

after all, we’ve just learned about river bubbles and a haz!harrow that can change their parameters.

all the people ‘dead’ she’d not spoken to much or at all beforehand. like they’re NOT real, in the River. the only one not like that is Dyas...

the fact that the narrative keeps calling Dulcie, Dulcie means she’s really Dulcie.

there’s giant organs falling from the ceiling. this is definitely the river

they talk about time AGAIN

the Body is the devil who let herself be used to complete the work of Teacher and the Lyctors in his mythology....hmm. and when they realised the price (AFTER? the work was done?) they wanted her dead but he buried her....SHE allowed them to become Lyctors?? I still don’t understand why the heck that was necessary

the king is dead, long live the king. hmmmm

Harrow comes onto a hallucination of the devil who was her first crush with the voice of her parental figures and the eyes of a love interest she can no longer remember - which is actually not precisely a hallucination probably - and gets summarily rejected lol OUCH (the Body didn’t mean it that way ofc)

Harrow is so repressed on every single front but definitely sexually

I love Mercy

so there is death beyond death. does everybody go into the river and become a mad horrid ghost? like - is that everybody’s fate? how awful

ok so God DID resurrect the planets also. ? but like. then why are there resurrection beasts?

what does resurrection mean? and who killed the planets in the first place?

BECOMING NONE HOUSE, LEFT GRIEF

oh.....my god.

ARE YOU AND IANTHE BEING SAFE!!?!?!?! HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

HIS BODYGUARD IS THE DEVIL??

so the destruction of Earth somehow made God? as though it was something that simply followed from it

A.L. was destroyed in the first assault? Of an RB

so the RB’s were happily running off in the other direction until they decided to fuck around and kill their mates to become immortal and powerful - then the RB’s turned around and came towards them - which meant leaving the planets God had resurrected forever.

what the fuck god??? hahahahaa

God always seems so likeable goddamn.

Harrow is such a dramatic bitch. Affection??? JUST KILL ME!!! KILL ME!! LET ME SMASH THE GLASS SO I CAN KNEEL IN IT AND BLEED ALL OVER THE FLOOR!!!!

Harrow goes into her fun kid's game of not dying to traps.

But she instantly calls him father. OH MY GOD

HE DOESNT BELIEVE HER!!!

'then that will be your downfall' - is what Harrow said to Augustine AND IT WILL BECOME TRUE FOR THEM ALL

to be dismissed like that where it hurts most - to have God Dad dismiss her only slip of comfort her only pillar of truth in this crazy old world

'nobody had watched you leave'

SOMEBODY HAD - I love all the deliberate references to Gideon

Temporal lobe!!!! Again the temporal lobe!!!

So why was it again that Harrow refused to be locked in with the Emperor?

So isn't God gonna check out Harrow's temporal lobe? He's just gonna let that mystery go to its death?

WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKK

Muir what the fuck??!!!!!!!!

Oh it was.....a hallucination?

Always love how this dips into genuine horror sometimes

What's weird is that Lyctors seem made for the task of going into the river and killing Resurrection Beasts - instead of the other way around.

So say - that the sword somehow holds Gideon's soul (we've just learned that that's possible from Pal and also Ortus trying to get Pent to summon his grandma by his sword) - does it not make sense that Harrow 'for some reason' stabbing Cytherea's corpse with it transferred it to her? Or maybe it's SOMEHOW Anastasia if Ortus was macking on her. But Ortus thought HARROW had/was Anastasia.

IANTHE WANTS TO MARRY HARROW - HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA

Every fucking chapter doesn't make things any clearer. This is worse than Gideon the ninth

Hello???? Am I reading a canon alternate universe roleswap au??? What the FUCK is going on. This is like - if they hadn't gassed the 200 and her parents instead adopted Gideon for her clear necromantic gifts which nobody noticed somehow the other time round

I do love how Aiglamene was the sole source of slight comfort in Gideon's life. And Crux was Harrow's - apparently in any sequence of events.

Harrow is tumbling through timelines. But how can you do that just by messing with the lobe?

WHAT!! WHAT!!!

Is this...is this what I think it is??? Is thi

The fanfic roots are STRONG in this one. In fact I believe I've READ this fanfiction

Harrow's temporal fever dream (in the river?) HAD HER (Decidedly Not) VYING FOR 'HER DIVINE HIGHNESS' hand, which is either the Body or Gideon or both lololol. Seeing as the previous had Gideon as the main unnamed titled character - I bet it's Gideon ahahaaga

A fucking. COFFEESHOP AU. OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDD

We've had roleswap, 'ball' au, and coffee shop au populated by the ghosts of the dead LOLOL,

I knew it!! I knew that they were ghosts and that they were in the river!!

Ok so but when did Harrow shoddily create the bubble? When she adjusted her memories at the start? When is this. Ah Harrow has the same thought hahaa

So the stage is a - she was building her memories while sleeping?

Why is that she cannot access her lyctorhood like this...

I just realised that Harrow's mind made the party food taste like SALT based on Ianthe's cooking!!!! Hahahaha

THE NARRATOR IS GIDEON. But it doesn't sound like Gideon though

There's more to the work than simply preserving Gideon's soul though. There are next steps that Harrow prepared for that Harrow doesn't know about yet

Who was the sleeper and why was it in Harrows riverscape of memories that she ACCIDENTALLY??? made

Ok she sounds like Gideon NOW

Gideon no it's not because she didn't want you! It's because she wanted you to live!!!!!

And she succeeded....your soul is INTACT in her body!!!! You're protecting her with full consciousness!! How the fuck. And why didn't that happen before when she went to the bubble?

Are the ghosts of the contestants happy that they got pulled out of the River briefly? Or were they so briefly in there they couldn't remember?

She returned them to the RIVER???? is that really such a kind fate????

Something has gone wrong in the River - yeah because why r all these ghosts going insane and stoppering it up like slib

Do love how Muir has found a way to give these characters more screentime

I actually said 'oof' when Harrow screamed at Ortus - oof that really is embarrassing. GodDAMN Ortus you stepping up with the emotional support!

I've EVEN read the damn fanfic in which they switched bodies. My god.

A. L. apparently is thought to wander about still. I think she's the body....I do believe she's the body. That's why the Lyctors are scared of her

She thought - what. Mercy is talking about blood of Eden's commander. What is going onnnnn still!!!! Mercy is the traitor I guess. But how is blood of Eden connected to the ninth house and the body?

Why is Mercy awake on the mithraeum and not in the River anyways?

Gideon.... And the commander were in cahoots? So did A. L. and Anastasia an the body and the commander all have the same eyes?????

What the fuck is going on indeed.

Cytherea seems to have had a plan B for getting revenge on the Emperor. Or something had a plan B with her corpse as the main weapon.

If guns are so effective against people why aren't they still used.

The messages are from the commander. I.e. Gideon's mother. I.e. Anastasia? We never explicitly did learn how she met her end no? Gideon was convinced that Anastasia had taken the baby. It just seems incongruous how the Emperor spent like 80 years on the Erebos and the Lyctors were faffing about - meanwhile there was this drama going on in the last half century?

I love Abigail Pent. Love that I got to see more of her.

I'd honestly forgot that Judith was alive by the end of all of that shit

The sleeper is -the sleeper is Gideon's mother. Also. She's haunted by her mother. SOMEHOW. what the fuck? They couldn't drag her spirit back from the river they said!

'you wizards never learn' there's a whole modern regular sci fi world and culture out there! Or maybe it's just a. L.

Is it? Or is it Anastasia? Or is it the commander? Or are they the same thing?

The sleeper wants Harrow's body. Somehow invaded it - probably from the river? - which means its Anastasia or the commander. Which means that whatevers possessing Cytherea is someone else.

In retrospect - Harrow's coldness to Ianthe talking about - to what her - seemed nonsense at the time - in the very first part - doesn't quite fit.

Oh my fucking GOD Gideon is fighting Ianthe for messing around with her fucking girlfriend - who is HARROW, who actually, Ianthe wants to marry.

They just went from ramping up to a serious fight to Gideon dropping Corona's name and suddenly they're like - ah we got more important priorities actually.

Augustine's first thought at thinking a.l./the body (?) is in Harrow is John - and the Second is Joy!(mercy?)

'How I was gonna have to take showers with all your clothes on.' fuckin Gideon hahahaha

Wonder if Ianthe truly believes what she's saying - that Harrow was trying to rid hersel of Gideon. It's preposterous. It's just hurtful talk.

GIDEON REALLY THOUGHT THAT LOOK TO MEAN THAT HARROW DIDNT LOVE HER??? THIS IS A CONSTANT BARRAGE OF ALL THE ANGSTY DRAMATIC SHIT IVE BEEN YEARNING FOR

Oh my fucking god Gideon calling Ianthe out for being in love with Harrow in the most iconic way ufsojdjdodnd 'she wants the D - the D stands for dead'

Crazy brain-mutilated Harrow sure made it seem that way I can tell ya that!!

Hahahahahaha Ianthe remembering Harrows prudish Ortus/Cytherea shit. Amazing

Aw Gideon really went and fell right into the cavalier/bone mistress shit huh. And trying to shield Harrow - well as noted before - very necessary because harrow has been having a godawful miserable time - mostly because of herself.

Gideon appreciating Ianthe's pun xD

Love how neither of them position themselves as the love of Harrows life but instead as inexorably attached to her by the sheer role they play in her life - they don't dare aspire to what they think they can't get.

Muir realises this is gonna end up as a Gideon/Harrow(/theBody)/Ianthe ship right?

Oh WOW THIS IS AMAZING. nonius the legendary nonius!!! Come to protect Harrow!!!

For some reason the Sleeper can manipulate the rules of this River bubble and doesn't seem surprised about it

If all her cavaliers were this excited for death, she was definitely the problem.lololol. somehow Harrow, you inspired undying loyalty in even a person that you treated abominably

Yeah Harrow you slowpoke. If the Sleeper can adjust the rules - so can you

If the sleeper was not Harrow's invention - but planted itself - then they're very lucky it got to the ghosts that weren't actually there - first.

So it was the commander....a portrait in a shuttle of blood of eden - can only be the commander. And redhaired? There are too many red haired people in this book!!

It's nice how all these ghosts got to have lasting impact from beyond the grave

NONIUS KNEW ORTUS/GIDEON?

Ok so ....there's the bed of the River with stoma. But there might also be the other side.

Did Harrow really not account for steps beyond her plan to mutilate her brain?

Is this book really gonna go: fuck you Gideon will die anyway ?????

But.wait. the sleeper had a two-hander. Where did that go???

I don't get it. If they go into the river - won't they also go insane?

SO NYAH!!!!!???

Ok but - what? The Commander ALSO -somehow - took over Cytherea's body?

'did the ten billion give you that too' I KNEW CANAAN HOUSE HELD EVEN GRUESOMER EXPERIMENTS AND SACRIFICES THAN LYCTORHOOD. God is made of ten billion souls. I think they killed humanity on earth to spare it 'slow inexorable apocalypse' and used the power to make the Empire from the resurrected. There was an extremely vague implication by Teacher to the amount of souls violated in Canaan house in the first book.

So God knows the commander went for the ninth house? Firstly, how. I don't understand how Anastasia fits in here!!! It would explain though how the commander

So the commander found the ninth house - and she died right? They tried to call her spirit but couldn't. But she became a revenant?

Ah. God THREW the bomb.

A fuckin wake me up inside joke jskdjskdnd

So Mercy and Augustine ( not Gideon ?) had all turned against God? And they were working with the commander to -... Make a baby????? And then evacuate the houses???? (For when God dies - there being a risk that Dominicus would go out I guess)

Make a baby/body to lever the one who lies in the tomb into....?

Love how the book foreshadowed Mercy and Augustine manipulating and lying to God - and turns out they did that on much bigger scale

They....meant to kill the baby to break the blood ward?

'The woman who I was pretty sure was my mother, wearing the body of the woman I'd had a crush on, who in turn had been wearing the identity of a woman she'd murdered -' KSNFKDJDKFJJFC

So why did they want this consistently characterised as kindly and humane god dead?

GIDEON THOUGHT IT WAS HIS!!!! But he called Wake Anastasia then????

They really are the same???

Oh my god I know what they're gonna say. Gideon is the daughter of God. WHICH HARROWS FUCKIN ROYALTY AU FEVER RIVER DREAM FUCKING FORESHADOWED HAAHAHAHAHHAA

Isn't it fucking ironic that God told Harrow that - HE WANTED HER TO BE HIS??? WHILE GIDEON HIS ACTUAL DAUGHTER WAS SPINNING INSIDE HER CHEST LIKE A LITTLE NUCLEAR FUSION REACTOR

They've been trying to kill him for more than 500 years???? Did mercymorn actually genuinely learn the extremely fine knowledge of the body for THIS purpose? How many thousands of years ago did they decide to kill god?

A fucking DAD JOKE

GIDEON REMEMBERING HOW SHE USED TO TELL HARROW HOW HER OTHER PARENT MIGHT BE THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN THE WORLD SO STOP PICKING ON HER

I am fucking DELIGHTED I AM SO GODDAMN OVERJOYED

It segues into a reminder of how shit their childhoods were and how their suffering had them lash out at each other endlessly and how it made Harrow suicidal and shit though - which is great

ALECTO'S EYES. THE A. FOR A. L.

A. L. The cavalier of God....but she walked. She had a body.

Ohhhhh. That's why they betrayed him. That age-old hurt. Ten thousand years old but still the bane of their existence, the seed of their madnesses. The loss of their cavaliers. Oh how did they manage to keep that from him?

I honestly thought - is Mercy saying she knows he killed humanity? But that's not what she couldn't have forgiven?

But why did he hide it? Why did he hide the perfect way? ('it would be easier' why???)

Ah. Yes. The expansion, why would the Emperor do that?

Uhhhhh. Couldn't Mercy have done that all along??????????????????????? Couldn't Mercy have killed God all along? That was both a trick and utterly sincere.

Augustine and Mercy were trying to do the right thing..... Mercy.... :'( Augustine was right. God is much less sentimental than he seems.

'im not even mad that you failed to either fix or put down Harrow' hm guess the constant kill quest HAD come from God after all. What a goddamn bitch of a man

What was the original plan? Unleash a. L. ? And then what? How would that help with the whole Dominicus going out problem?

Had God ever really thought to make up for all the bullshit he put his Lyctors through. He seems so affable and human but he's caused so much suffering. He's as good at manipulation at them - better!

The resurrection beast can't kill him, but he let his Lyctors die to them one by one anyway. So why??

Why are they punching each other in the River? They can use theorems right? God could blast Augustine to pieces same he did mercy?

Yes! It's true! Pyrrha and Gideon both exist in the same body - foreshadowed by his cavaliers build. There was something so fishy about it.

I love how Gideon has exactly the same response as me: what the fuck. Pyrrha??? Gideon??? What the fuck??? Why did they BOTH have an affair with their enemy??? So ok. Pyrrha stayed underground from Everybody for the thousand years. SOMEHOW their compartmentalisation let her pop up in his body regularly and not just when Gideon remembered her - because the hadn't fucked up his brain. But then how did THEY do that.

This absolutely galactic balsiness

The stoma thinks John is a resurrection beast. Might it be.....because he's..... A revenant. A 10 billion souled kinda- revenant ? A bit like.....Harrow is? Which is why he felt kin to her? Which is why he compared her creation to Resurrection?????I've really gotta reread those messages from commander wake.

A fucking jail for mother meme. Jail for one thousand years. Gideon how do you know this one????

I KNEW Ianthe would do that. Knew it. She doesn't want the system to die. Coronabeth is still out there. Well guess what - she's on the opposite side babe. Ok I realised that Gideon's mum apparently stuck to Gideon and then the sword? But also did Harrow manage to break the blood ward because of of her proximity to Gideon? Did Harrow uhhhh get put into a pocket in the river? But the emperor wasn't murdered!!! Fuckin chapters kept lying. They're on a hold planet. Finally - we meet the people. Alecto and Camilla and Corona? And Judith.? Did Alecto somehow do a time twisty around to come save Gideon at that moment in the river? Once again nothing much more is clear.

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White Satin Sheets | Ch. 4

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→ Author’s Note: The previously is in Jaebum’s POV, Jaebum’s POV is in italics. Also, the story has sort of taken a turn because I wanted to give Jaebum some character development. I know it him being nicer is a bit random but I wanted to add it to the story. 

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→ Rating: Def rated G/PG like there will be smut in later chapters tho

→ Contains: My hard work and me finally overcoming a serious case of writers block.

→AU: Playboy!Jaebum, Spoiled rich boy!Jaebum, Student!Reader, Heir!Jaebum, and contract marriage AU.

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Previously

Fuck.

I sat up out of bed, my alarm going off what felt like too soon, but that was normal. I got up and began dressing. I walked downstairs as I continued to fix my hair and walked into the dining room to eat breakfast.

“What do you think of Y/n?” I asked Mr. Choi, someone, who had served as my butler/driver for years. “I think she is a fine fiancee, sir. Quiet the young lady.” He said as he set down a drink for me and I nodded slowly as I slowly ate my breakfast. “What do you think of her sir?” He asked as he stepped back from the table.

“I think she’ll be fun to mess with,” I said as I let a devilish smirk stretch across my face.

Once I woke up I changed my clothes, something comfortable yet something that was not my pajamas. I walked downstairs, being greeted with bows from each and every staff member I walked by. As I made my way into the dining room I was met with the sight of a rather large breakfast that seemed fit for a king. I walked in on Jaebum sitting at the head of the table, scrolling on an iPad and drinking coffee, steadily taking bites of his food. I hesitantly formed a small smile as I walked to the table and glanced at the selections. 

I reached to pull out my own chair quickly being moved out of the way before a server pulled out my chair for me. I slowly sat down and a server began preparing my plate with the food I had previously had my eye on for more than just a few seconds. I smiled while mumbling a small thank you as I took the plate. 

“Good morning Jaebum,” I said quietly as I took a sip of my coffee and I glanced at him. He hummed softly and looked down at his work, not even caring to glance up at me. One of the older servers walked in and Jaebum sat up a bit, closing the cover of the iPad and handing it over to a server. 

“Good morning young master Jaebum.” The older man said as he bowed with his hand covering his abdomen. “Good morning Geun.” He said softly and respectfully. I looked at Jaebum out of the corner of my eye, shocked, this was the most respect he had given anyone, other than his parents since I’ve become his fake contract bride. 

“You have yet to introduce me to your fiancee...” the man said and stood facing a space between me and Jaebum. “Ah~, this is Y/N. Y/N this is Geun, he has been by my father’s side since they were both young-” He said, obviously about to say more before cutting him off and bowing as he spoke. “Good morning young miss.” He said before he stood with a smile. “My family has been taking care of the master’s for generations, a very proud and loyal craft we have.” He said laughing slightly. “I’ve known the young master since he was a newborn, my son is actually training in the main estate to become Jaebum’s butler alongside Mr. Choi once he becomes of the respected age.” He said and Jaebum made a face, showing his dislike for his son at a simple mention at the fact he would be serving Jaebum in just a few months.

“Hi, I’m Y/N, I’m Jaebum’s fiancee. Although I assume you already were aware of that.” I said and he smiled with a small nod. “If you ever want to know anything about the young master, from petty secrets, embarrassing photos, how he did in school, even his many previous partn-” Geun attempted to continue speaking before Jaebum coughed loudly and purposely. Geun let a wide smile spread across his face. “What is the reason for your visit Geun, I thought you were coming with mother and father the next time they decided to come to visit,” Jaebum asked as he cut his food. “Well, I’m just here to grab something for the master of the house, he left it in the study last we visited. He has an important meeting today and you know he is beginning to become forgetful of small things such as these.” He said and smiled before Jaebum nodded and Geun excused himself to fulfill his duties. 

“Left a file?” I asked softly and I looked at Jaebum, “I thought all files for huge companies like yours were all online now.” I said and Jaebum scoffed slightly. “My father doesn’t trust the world of technology when it comes to the most important things. Money, Family, Health.” He said listing them on his fingers. “Since it is a file for the company...” he said as he looked at his fork and twisted it in his hand, “It isn’t health because neither him or mother are sick. The family would only come up if it was about the official heir. So I assume it has to do with money, probably some random overseas client finally coming to the main office that he wants to impress.” He said and took a bite of his food, the server who had taken the iPad in Jaebum’s place attempted to hand it back to him, Jaebum waved his hand, mumbling something about being at the table for a meal with work would not sit well with Geun. 

“So... Geun has been taking care of your family for a long time huh?” I asked as I began to eat, slowly chewing my food and appreciating the chef’s work. “Yeah, he is my father’s best friend and he and his wife basically raised me while my parents were busy.” He said and took another sip of his coffee, still not having looked at me once other than when he introduced me to Geun. I looked down a bit as I began to sense a small bit of tension from Jaebum when he mentioned his parent’s being busy. “Does his wife also work at your parent’s estate?” I asked and he nodded, almost sadly as his shoulders moved to slump over slightly. “Mr. Lee Geun and Mrs. Lee Eun Jung, while Geun has been by my father’s side since he was a toddler, Miss Eun Jung has been by my aunt’s. When my father took over the company and Geun and Miss Eun Jung got married, Miss Eun Jung became the official nanny for our family. She didn’t raise my brothers, but she is basically my mother.” He said and looked down again before he slowly pushed food around his plate with his fork before setting his fork down and pushing his plate away. He stood from the table after wiping his face and hands with the cloth napkin. “I think that is enough of my past for you to hear today, I have some work I have to get to.” He said and finally looking at me, his eyes no longer gleaming with playfulness, rather they were dark with a type of sadness I couldn’t even comprehend. 

I nodded and took a sip of my drink, glancing at him when he began to turn away. “I’ll be down around lunch if you’d like to join me...” he said softly “we can sit on the terrace and talk more.” I smiled at him softly, shocked to the point of freezing when he shot one back before making his way out of the room.

When I could no longer hear Jaebum’s steps and those of the servants who followed his every move, I heard heavy footsteps coming down the hall towards the dining room. “Young master, I will be leaving now,” Geun walked slightly into the room as he stated his farewell. He smiled at me and moved to my side of the table quickly. “I know the young master keeps a lot of secrets and seems like a problem child, but please be patient.” he smiled and grabbed a note before quickly writing something on it, setting it next to my hand mumbling a ‘look at it once I am gone’. I nodded in response and as I heard the front door open and close I looked around the dining room, making sure none of my assigned servants were looking over my shoulder or spying on me. I opened the sheet of paper to find beautifully trained handwriting and a phone number.

‘Miss Y/N, please get in touch with my lovely wife, she never asks about the young master but I know she would like updates on his well being and to know that he has finally found someone who will stay by his side and make him happy a way none of us could. Thank you. 258-xxx-xxxx Lee Eun Jung’ 

I stared at the note, reading the same line over and over, I wanted to know more about Im Jaebum, the life he has led to this point, if the articles were true, and what happiness he wanted, and what he needed to fill the void he so obviously has in his heart. 

Throughout the time leading up to lunch the servers following me around and tending to needs I didn’t even know I had, had switched out several times in order to have their meals or work on other household duties. I made my way to the terrace, although I knew this house was big I didn’t expect it to look so ethereal every time I stepped into the view of the back garden. The terrace was one connected to the library, marble pillars and railing lined the sides. The railing all the way to the top of the terrace was covered in calming blue moon wisteria vines. I looked out over the railing and in the garden, every color and kind of flower was placed almost too perfectly, but just enough out of place to look native to the ground they were planted. I jumped slightly as the glass doors to the terrace opened, this time being held by door stops as Jaebum walked towards the table followed by servers with our food. Once they set it down he quickly waved them away. As the doors to the terrace closed Jaebum took off his jacket and tie, setting them to the side on another chair. He unbuttoned the top button to his white dress shirt and sat down. I slowly followed his movements as I looked at him, waiting to know when I could begin making my plate. 

“I’m sorry about earlier.” He said softly, “Which earlier?” I giggled slightly as he poured my drink for me and handed me the glass. “All of them,” he smiled back at me, “I know I’m not the nicest and when Geun comes around it brings something else in me out. So I’m also sorry for getting slightly deep in my emotions earlier.” He said and gulped slightly as he looked down at his plate. “It's fine, I found it interesting...” I said softly and he looked at me confused, “your past I mean, not you changing.” I said as I began to help my self to the food laid out in the middle of the table. 

“I’m still going to tease you” he laughed, “don’t think I won’t.” he smiled as he cut into his food, looking at me while he took a bite. “Really? I thought we were finally becoming close,” I said jokingly causing us both to laugh, “We are.” He said, at his words I almost choked on my food, forcing it down my throat so I didn’t. “I’m happy to become friends with you, since we will  be around each other all the time and we are technically engaged, it wouldn’t hurt to be nicer to you.” He said and smiled at me.

“Can you tell me more about how you were as a child? I don’t really have anything to tell you because I know you did some pretty in-depth research about me before we signed our contracts.” I said causing him to grimace at the word research. “What do you want to know?” He said softly and looked at his food, focusing on his food. “Your happiest memory,” I said and he smiled slightly, setting down his knife and fork and sitting back in his chair. He smiled at me “You know, my previous fiancees never asked me things like this, it was more of ‘how much money do you have?’, ‘how much of it is mine once we get married?’“ He said and his smile turned into a smirk before he sat up straighter, still leaned against the back of his chair. 

“My happiest memory...” he said and looked around slightly before looking at the garden, “I was probably around the age of 7, my parents threw a garden party to celebrate Jinyoung becoming first in his class. I wasn’t allowed to invite any of my friends because they were too young and ‘unpolished’ I guess is how you would put it. The garden at my parent’s house is much bigger than this one, but this one holds a lot more depth for me.” he said and stood up moving to the rail and looking over it a bit before he turned and leaned against it, closing his eyes. “I remember my caretaker at the time wouldn’t let me walk around in fear I may mess something up and embarrass the family, this was all under the orders of my father of course. I got so mad I ran away while they weren’t looking, I ran through the garden to this small area that had a bench under these beautiful vines that when you looked up at the top it looked like stars. The vines covered the top of an archway that the bench was beneath and the vegetation was so thick that when you looked to the sky the sun hardly was able to get any light through.” He said and positioned his head to look upwards, I assumed to relive this moment. “I was crying my eyes out, wondering why I was always pushed out of the way when it came to everything else, why a child was something that didn’t even come second, but third on a list of priorities. Then, my nanny, Eun Jung rushed through and fell on her knees in front of the bench, out of breath. I started crying because I knew I had made it hard for her by running away but all she did was come to me and hug me.” He said and finally opened his eyes, his head still looking upwards. “She hugged me so tight I felt like I couldn’t breathe, but the pressure wasn’t from her strength it was from the amount of care she had for me. We sat there for hours after I explained why I was so upset and she said that this bench was also her favorite spot, telling me a story about why the sun can only come through so much and why the flowers at the top were so thick.” He said and smiled before he grabbed his jacket. 

“But that story is for another time, I’ll finish my lunch later. I have to go now.” He said and I smiled slightly as he made inside. I looked up at the ceiling trying to see what made his eyes gleam as they did when he was looking towards the sky. The wisteria vines. Covering the top of the ceiling, blocking out the sun and only letting little bits of it through causing it to look like the night sky in the middle of the day when the sky was at its brightest. 

Wisteria, a beautiful flower that symbolizes devotion, vitality, and new beginnings.

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lesbian mom

My sister told me I dress like a lesbian mom. With no offense meant towards lesbian mothers because as Chloe put it- if I was a lesbian mom, my style would be closer to cool. But because up to this point in life I have been straight and childless, I’m just an appropriator. Which I definitely don’t want to be by the way, but I'm an American and blind appropriation is the American way. Working on it. I’m in the kitchen in Cedar Falls finding all my last sporadic, traveled with items to shove in my XL backpack* by the time Chloe brings her new opinion up to her roommates, my family. “Cathy, don’t you think Maddie looks like a lesbian mom?” “a what? A lesbian? I didn’t hear you” ...and dad’s reaction: “oh.. did you get a surrogate then?” * (United and Frontier front like they will be strict about charging you based on the sizes of your luggage, but they won't be. Apparently my size of backpack does not count as a personal item (free) but instead a carry-on (not free). It's a glutinous excuse for a backpack. However, they don’t say shit to you when you show up on the day of your flight. In the words of my friend Grace: If it's on your back and not on wheels, you're fine. I have had to repack a backpack once, throwing on a sweatshirt and carrying socks in my hand to make it through. But you know what that was? Free.And Fyi- U.S. airlines alone made 5.1 billion bucks in extra baggage fees in 2018. Don't contribute to that mess.) * But anyways, to come to the defense of lesbian moms, I think I dress with the best intention. I don’t think I have bad taste, but I can have bad execution. It's not entirely my fault though, as I feel bigger boobs make a lot of outfits merge towards mother. Tops are always an issue because you have the possibility of looking tenty, and opposite that- the issue of looking too tucked in. It can make the attempted effortlessness come off as starchy. I also straddle this line of wannabe skater and NOT wannabe school teacher, meaning I would love to come across as someone who deserves to wear Vans and less like someone who is reading to your child over snack time. That one is harder to explain, but has a lot to do with stripes. I don't bother running all of this past her, but I told Chloe that if I was flat-chested she wouldn’t be saying this. She didn’t argue but offered to help pay for my reduction. My dad and I get in the car after I make an everything bagel with some onion flavored cream cheese. A Thomas brand bagel, of course. Because it’s the cushiest and you can find them everywhere. We love a processed carb. He drives me to the airport in his new-but-used Toyota Highlander, which doesn’t reek of cigs like his previous whip. He only likes this new car because it has a cassette player, but the low mileage is a plus. I just want to say that the Cedar Rapids airport is low entertainment. It’s a trade-off because you are through security in seconds, but you have to do things like chase after people to hand them their ID’s they left on the counter to help the employees out because we’re Iowa nice and when in the homeland you have to act right. And people wear really ugly printed leggings and foul footwear. Lots of camo and lots of Hawkeye logos, which I do not identify with despite it being my alma mater. I was caught in a very vulnerable spot with my thick and tall Doc Marten's, (not a good airport shoe but a good everyday shoe so what can you do) hunched over the ‘Get Your Shit Back Together Very Quickly Bench’ that comes after security, when I see this rushed looking, young nerd man in a long black trench coat. He LOUDLY and SO abruptly asks this similarly aged gal he was coming up behind whether her hair was red or blonde. She had long red hair with dyed blonde ends. She said “red?” and he says nothing but “HUMPH” without breaking speed at all. Why did he need to know that and also why could he not see that her hair was both colors? And if he cared so much to know, then why did he not respond? Did he think this was considered to be hitting on her?? Because practically yelling at her to inquire about her appearance is not cutting it. I wish for his sake I could at least call him a boomer but he didn't meet the age requirement. Whatever. She looked around for confirmation that what had just happened to her was so weird, which of course I gave to her by saying: “That was so weird.” The sole restaurant by the gates has Blue Moon so that’s redeeming. But it’s in a tin can which is not so good. I used to prefer a draft pour with an orange slice but I am partial to a cold bottle now, plain- no orange. It’s more consistent this way, as some places don’t clean their draft lines regularly and it shows. I met an icon on my flight today. I, of course, was assigned my usual middle seat as I am certain I paid the littlest amount of airfare out of everyone on the plane. Deals only. But as I step up to my row and make that apologetic eye contact with the dude who is about to have to move and let me assume my usual middle spot, the guy asks me if I want to switch spots with his son- WHO HAS AN AISLE SEAT. YEAH SIR, I DO. And this is how I was seated next to the only stranger I’ve had an extended conversation with on an airplane, ever. At least to the point where I was sure I wanted to be buddies with her. She was not stoked on the middle seat, but it’s the one she had in our row. The icon is named Erin and she said: “I’ve been ignoring people on planes for 20 years but you seem like an absolute riot.” I realized I also tend to spend a lot of time ignoring people on airplanes. I actually spend more time trying not to bother the people around me, aka holding urine in until I am nearly bursting because the awkward fumbling out of my usual middle seat is too much. I did, however, have slight banter with a guy sitting next to me on the way into Iowa from Denver on this same trip. All he wanted to say to me was that he had just been skiing in Vail or something. People love being able to say sentences like this, by the way. "Skiing in Vail". It's supposed to impress whoever they tell. Ok. But later on, he and I would exchange terrified eyes as we watched this awful moment unfold after an older fellow in the row across from us ignored all social rules and played his voicemails on full blast, speaker volume, for about 10 minutes. A young gentleman near us let him know that “We can all hear that!” which I would have never said but was also thinking. Obviously. The Voicemail Blarer says “Oh sorry” calmly but is very caught off guard. I thought- wow. That went well. But the Voicemail Blarer takes all of 30 seconds to stew before erupting. He belly yells that he is a “WAR VETERAN AND THAT IS WHY I CANNOT HEAR OUT OF THIS EAR WHICH IS WHY MY PHONE IS ON SPEAKER AND BY THE WAY IM ON THIS FLIGHT BECAUSE MY MOM JUST DIED AND I AM FLYING BACK TO IOWA FOR THE FUNERAL. PEOPLE LIKE YOU ARE AHHHHHHHHH KDFKSJDFLKJDFLJSDF”... I feel like the percentage of people flying to Iowa for funerals is probably a decent chunk. Either you're visiting your family or someone died. Just speculating. ANyways. The Mourning Vet Voicemail Blarer said some pretty harsh remarks towards the Complainer that I can’t remember because I was so nervous as a witness to this that my adrenaline was working overtime to suppress. I remember being proud of The Complainer as he kept very level and only said a couple words to defend himself followed by: “I’m sorry you’re going through that man but we don’t all need to hear your voicemails.” I see both sides of this interaction. On the younger Complainer dude’s side, it’s not socially courteous for the vet to be playing his voicemails out loud. Especially for ten minutes. I mean Larry David would have lost it. On the other hand, no one was insulting his status as a vet or poking fun at his late mother, but he has obviously been through more life and more challenges than I and plus he’s grieving. I don’t know. I didn’t mind the voicemails THAT much. Back to today- Erin is the second stranger I’ve met who inspired me this month. Technically this year, and technically this decade, too. Happy 2020. From what I saw, she’s a kick-ass, take no shit, lay it all on the table kind of individual. She had a natural openness about her and radiated warmness but is the type to probably gaurd herself just enough. The kind of person who you would hate to see sad. Born in cedar rapids, went to Iowa for Journalism, got her masters at Syracuse. Has lived all over- New York, London, LA (I think she said). Will not donate to her old sorority, Chi O, because she can’t affiliate with that anymore because it’s lame. But she’s loyal enough to one of her sorority besties to fly to Denver and sit with her while she undergoes a chemo treatment. She asks me about work and I say I have enough side hustles to equate to having a real job. She tells me I need a podcast and says I must have been told this before. I haven’t. But If I had one, I would have her guest star immedieately. She oozes content. Apparently, there’s such a thing as coaching people on how to talk on camera because this is her job. It can be split up into different categories based on the size of the screen. Phone, computer, TV, etc. She kept saying things about “inches”. I thought this was wildly specific, exactly the sort of job you wouldn’t think about until you thought about it. Niche. Hopefully future me is doing something niche right now. But only if I'm enjoying it. She also mentioned some clients she has that I should speak to so I can learn how to travel the world for free. I could have clung to her and never let go after she said this, as that would make my life and her encouragement inspired me. Before this though, we agree I need a credit card that rewards with airline miles instead of cashback. It’s third up on my “to-do now” list- which is different than my “to-do” list becasue that one is for things like making dentist appointments. For the things that should not be put off but can and will be. Until they can't. She asks what my sign is, which is Sagittarius. She said of course. She’s a Virgo. I have no clue what this means. People ask me this sort of thing a lot now though so I need to read up. This guy I met recently who works at Wax Trax Records told me not only extensively about my sign but about my rising moon and one other part of it that I can’t remember. Or is it your rising sign and moon sign as separates? Idk. He told me that every girl he knows has an ex-boyfriend who is a Pisces. True. Erin also told me she’s on some board in Iowa City that is currently discussing the ped mall. I had a lot to say about THAT, as I feel the ped mall has turned into wasted space other than maybe one and a half shops. She agrees. It’s not being utilized like it should be, we think. Too many frat bars. Apparently, her family owns the Bluebird cafes or used to, and I said "ooooooooh!" but that I could never get a seat in the Iowa City location because every hungover kid within a ten mile radius is trying to eat there every Saturday and Sunday morning. I also thought of the time they burned my friend Madison Wood’s toast and she sent it back. I didn’t tell her this though. I like Bluebird. And I hate when people at my table complain about the food. She tells me I'm too good to write for random freelances, which I have dipped my toes into doing. Pays like shit. I agree and listen to her tell me about someone she met when she was just one year sober (she is now ten years along) who pushed her to take charge of her own point of view. It sounded to me like she was inspired to trust and invest in herself. I liked that. As if I needed another excuse to stay out of corporate America. Right before she fell into meditation and soon to be sleep, Erin comments on my middle part and my “nice natural eyebrows” which is funny because I helped the brows out right before going through security. (By helped out, I mean makeup-ed. In the airport bathroom, too far away from the mirror, two different pencils- one chubby for careless shading and one skinnier to help the endpoints of my brow that is otherwise dead.) On the topic of my appearance, I tell her that my sister had just told me that I dress like a lesbian mother. She said she loves my sister.

[nukefamily]

THAT DELETED SCENE THO

 let's just talk about it for a sec. 

First of all, I'm still hella salty it got deleted like all the other Barisi scenes.

Ms Drake’s Appearance

I love the looks Sonny and Rafael get on their faces when Ms Drake appeared. (Excuse some shitty screenshots cause I took most on my phone lmao.)

They were both simultaneously going "Oh God. Here we go..." Because they both realize that what she’s doing. Approaching them to talk... and this is considered inappropriate in this sense. She shouldn’t be approaching them to talk as Barba is fighting against her son as he was suspected of raping her at this point. Even despite this though, they both stop and turn around, giving her the chance to speak instead of shooing her away like most would.

Now, we all know that Sonny really could've up and continued walking to give Rafael and Ms Drake a chance to speak one on one, but with the mix of both his good conscience, wanting to support a friend and colleague in this situation, and the fact that Ms Drake said she wanted to “look Barba and Carisi in the eye,” and “ask why they’re ruining her sons life,” he felt the pull to stay. To be a support system for Barba but also see if he could weigh in on the conversation. Not to mention he wanted to know what Ms Drake wanted to say simply because he’s a good person to begin with. Not to mention the look he gave when he was first addressed. It was a concerned but interested look... with a tinge of “don't mess with either of us.”

Barba’s Apology

“I’m sorry for what you’re going through.” Now, yes, that is the normal procedural line we hear all the time on this show and in real life from both cops and lawyers alike, simply because it’s typical protocol for them not to show too much sympathy and saying this is the safe way to go about it. It tends to sound robotic but I think that was Raúl’s intentions with delivering this line. And when Ms Drake said they should drop the charges, it sounded as if she still half-believed Barba’s words despite the ‘cold’ voice he used. I appreciated it when Sonny did step in saying that they couldn’t and I love the fact that Peter used a soft, saddened voice. With this, we know that Sonny wishes they could, but considering the circumstances, considering the fact that Andrew is suspected of raping Mandy, they can’t drop the charges as Andrew needs to have some sort of punishment instead of walking free and Mandy never getting justice for what was done to her.

Now, what I like most about Barba saying that he was open to a plea was the facial expression he gave before he turned his head. 

Maybe this was a poor screenshot but anyway. The expression to me looks like he wants to be done talking because he knows exactly where the conversation is going but he continues anyway, giving her another choice. While the expression is still rather soft while holding a cold-ish stare. I find Raúl to be very good at giving these kinds of expressions. Anyway. Continuing on.

Ms Drake’s Slam

“Must feel really good standing there in your expensive suit having all the power. Moving people around like chess pieces.”

Okay. Here we go. This sentence, you can just tell by the look on Barba’s face right after she says this, he knew that she was going to say something, but this was... well, not completely what he was expecting. We know that he doesn't like feeling high and mighty before he said “No. Doesn’t feel good at all.” Because we’ve seen him in court getting emotional. Examples: (x) (x) (x) there’s probably plenty more but you get the point. This being said/shown, if someone out there was too blind to see the pain behind this man’s mask since season 14 (2012), aka 5 years, even with it showing through on multiple occasions, THERE YOU GO. There’s the pain. 

Continuing on with that, cases definitely get to Barba, especially ones involving children (or in this case young teens) despite him not being a fan of children (which is evident with the way he held Noah that one episode, which I still find hilarious because same), it's still hard for him because children are innocent. They haven’t lived life long enough to experience the pain they’ve gone through.

When Ms Drake leaves, her expression is... well actually, I don’t know what it is. It looks like she believes him but doesn’t believe him at the same time? I don’t know if there’s a word for that or not. But perhaps this expression is because she doesn’t understand the weight Rafael constantly has on his shoulders because of the fact that she isn’t an ADA. She never had to take on the huge load of work that he has to. She’s never had to break families apart. She’s never had to deal with losing a case and making his client feel betrayed. It’s just something she’s never had to deal with so she isn’t sure if he’s telling the truth or not.

Then Sonny steps forward with a, still disappointed look, but also a small bit relieved. But maybe I’m just shit at reading facial expressions idk.

That Question

“Do you still wanna be a lawyer?”

This. Line. It’s like it’s constantly on Barba’s mind and honestly, I don’t blame him for having on his mind. Going back to 17x23, he brought it up after he identified Felipe Heredio. It’s like once he realised the dangers of being an ADA could happen to him, despite being friends with cops, he wanted Carisi to realise that being an ADA wasn’t all he probably thought. It wasn’t all fun court stuff. There was an actual risk of being one and he doesn’t seem to want Carsi to be in danger despite him being a Police Detective.. and he’s been in tough situations (so far).

Having a rough start when he joined SVU as the others thought he was blunt and insensitive despite his skills. It took a while, but he did eventually get respect and friendship from his colleagues.

He also has a tough time keeping his emotions in check like the time he nearly broke the dentist’s hand because he raped his own niece. 

Sonny responds with the fact he’s been thinking about it but when Barba says there’s an opening in Manhatten, Carisi goes on to decline said offer because he wants to stay a cop to protect and serve. Especially after Dodds’ death. 

Now, jumping back to the deleted scene, when Carisi was asked again, fdjkgf okay wait. So, because Barba asked, I’m automatically assuming that they talked about Sonny wanting to be a lawyer because we know characters interact off camera. It’s common knowledge at this point. So when Carisi says “Not today,” I’m thinking he told Barba he wanted to try again but there have been no openings recently which is.. understandable and maybe the new ADA, who’s coming in God knows when, took the spot in Manhattan between 17x23 and 19x04. Now, we won’t know this for sure until he comes into the show but aNYWAY.

Sonny’s Response

Because Sonny said “Not today,” I can only assume he realises the challenges involved in being a lawyer. Not that he hasn’t before but it’s suddenly coming back to him. Maybe he’s realising that it is a good thing to simply be a cop with a lawyer mindset as he can give another viewpoint when Barba isn’t there. But let’s just talk about the facial expression he gives. He’s also glad he doesn’t have to go through what Barba does, no matter how selfish that might sound on his part.

Like, you can see the concern in his face (and his voice but that’s beside the point-no it’s not but I’m not focusing on that because it’s audible. shh). I feel like this is because he honestly feels bad for Barba having to deal with this crap day in and day out. He knows it’s taking a toll on him and he feels bad, but there’s not much he can do but provide distractions for him every so often.

The Look™

I feel like this was geared towards Sonny's response. While we know Rafael is proud of Sonny, there's something else there. He wants Sonny to become a lawyer, but at the same time, does he want Sonny to be a lawyer? He's been a lawyer for a long time, since before season 14. I can't remember if they've ever said how long he's been one. He knows Sonny has been through a lot. Obviously, we know that too. I mean, hell, here are some things I didn’t mention above.

He was nearly shot in the head at gunpoint in 18x07 by Sgt. Tom Cole, a rape suspect. That had to of taken a toll on his mental state for a while, if not permanently. Thank you to Olivia for saving him btw.

When he was doing his best to hold onto the man’s hand in 19x02 (i forget his name pls forgive) but the glove slips off the man's hand and he ultimately plummets to his death and Sonny is very shaken up about it. 

And I mean, there are probably other things I forgot to write down but yeah. Barba knows that despite all that, something in Sonny wouldn’t be able to handle the hard passings of being a lawyer/ADA. And honestly, I feel that way too. With his good conscience, I feel like he wouldn't be able to work properly if he got a client who was the suspect of a crime. Not to mention, Barba probably realises Carsis sees court as “cool” and “awesome” and he’s “awestruck” by it. But once he gets to be a lawyer, he’ll realise it’s not all he thought it out to be. He doesn’t realise how hard being a lawyer is yet and Barba is probably trying to shield him from that fact for a while until Carisi is like “lol fuk u im doing it” and he doesn’t want to see the Detective’s dreams go down the drain. But I don’t think Barba realises that Carisi realises that being a lawyer isn’t all he thought it was gonna be due to the fact that he was always so giddy and excited when he was taking night classes.

Walking Away

Now, at the end when Barba is following after Carisi, I began thinking. 

Barba is walking after Sonny faster than normal

They must be going somewhere together

Where this somewhere is, who knows. My shipper brain really wants to take over and write a bunch of fantasies but I’m being realistic here in this thought thing so I’m not gonna do that. All I’m gonna say is maybe they’re going to get drinks or something. K? K.

Overall I’m still salty they cut this.

[whimsically-ominously-auspice]

Alex: i think it makes her feel good that shes with someone you love and approve of her dad gave her such a shit time About being a prostitute

Apparently the girls got together and said they would tell dad. And she told him and he blew his lid so everyone else didn't. And he's harassed her ever sense.

Jesse: i got more than one?!?!!?!?!?!?

Me: mind your business

Michael: Sabrina how many are there -.-

Me: mind your business they're grown ass women!! They can do what they want

Michael: Sabrina HOW MANY

Me: if you must know I got 937 in South America. 859 in Guatemala.

Michael: im walking away!!!! .... she's right sometimes that's what you gotta do. Mind your own business. I'm looking at Jesse's face right now and he's laughing. I mean what are you gonna do?

Jesse: I mean she don't care, why should I?? I might as well be happy and proud. They do what they want as do I. I mean I could been killed having sex with you for 30 years. But what? Just relax man! That's what she used to tell you! I'll take that advice. I'm proud. I'm sorry for what I've said to my only onedaughter brave enough to take that dive for sisters and probably brothers.

Michael: one confessed. He said "why does she keep calling prostitutes girls? I'm one. I'm not a girl, im just s boy. I didn't mean to say that. It just spilled out. Are you mad?" Well yeah. And she's all no. Those are my babies. They got the opportunity to stop with their friends maybe in time they will. If not we will see. I thought of all the gumption now She's lazy. But last night I saw a difference when she talked to she-ra she said "client" not John like they're all clones like the mess in my head. It'll get better. I'm sorry, too, also for what I've said.

Me: i know some are men. So that is why I use rhe term prostitutes. Like i will use that term more than girls. But sometimes I just say girls... But i try to remember to say prostitutes as i think it's a gender neutral term. And most men have soulmates they share a body with so girls does apply to Men. Total for 9 billion years I've had 3,914,286 children work in the sexual field, strippers, porn or prostitutes.

67,249,586 since 1984 have been prostitutes because they wanted to. At least 12 times done a sexual act in the street for money including myself. During a prostitution act I learned how to teach the entire world how to grow their Dick and not have saggy balls, tonight. I got $20 and a crack rock.

Had that night in Tulsa Oklahoma when i was 19 (actually 15) not occurred then no one would got an example on how to make their penis larger. I would say that was what needed to be done. Not how.

It wasn't CIA work. It was for fun, in my personal bank account i had $3400.18 I could bought crack. I just didn't want to. It was on a CIA and they actually got him outta bed and on the clock because they knew he was a hermaphrodite and i would like to see, they thought i would induce memories. That didn't work the way they wanted. But i never forgot it. It worked the way I wanted. Just a moment in time. Something to do with a kind guy. I even remember what he looks like. It was Michael Jackson.

My cousin told me "you want rock? They got it over there and you can just fuck for it" cause i was bored in the house. I said ,can i help you sell weed? Or you know someone with money who wants to fuck? TV is killing me with the lights and the house is suffocating."

"Over there? Okay come find me if you get scared or I'm gone more than a day or two. Cause that's where I'm going. I know you don't lead me astray"

My cousin Kyle.

So no I don't judge. But i know the difference between doing it for work. For fun and doing it for food because you're starving.

The food and starving and people evacuating their country for food and being forced to prostitute is a concern and must be stopped!!!

Here eat. Go home if you want. But don't work for food. Work because you want to! Men and Women.

My children are mind strong. They know what they're doing and why and how it makes them feel.

Total we have currently 1,221,468 children in the world working as strippers, escorts, prostitutes, etc. Sex Workers.

My children. My eggs from my body.

Over 90% want to and enjoy it.

I'm proud of them. It's good money. It's good for their health, the environment. Their souls.

They learn alot about people that is very rare information that not many people get to learn.

It's intimate. There's nothing else like it in the world.

Alex didn't want me to do it but rarely.. And even then he hated it. Because i was taken away from him.

In Armageddon he didn't care who i fucked. I could been a prostitute in Armageddon just fine.

I didn't want to. That pissed me off.

Here in this life, I did often want to. But he didn't want me to so i didn't. For his feelings.

He said i could if i wanted to but i knew he didn't want me to. That type of job being a single mom... And waiting on him, was counter productive.

So i didn't. But i could had. I didn't choose not to because it's disgusting. I didn't want to feel vulnerable or desperate for companionship or money and make a mistake and i was sick a lot..

It's alwsys been too dangerous for me to do alone. And i don't want to share the street, i want ny own street. But with no one to look in on me and not wanting to have a pump or being told what to do.

I knew it wasn't the life for me.

But for 1.2 million of my kids it is.

And it makes me smile.

[alluringcliche]

 So I’m watching The Good Wife and @jod1ewhittak3r made me write a season 1 review so here goes under the cut

So I’m going to start with my favorite characters because that’s most natural for me I LOVE THEM SO MUCH I want to watch them just hang out and make them on the Sims and speculate about their Hogwarts Houses and all of that good stuff so my faves are...

Let’s start with the obvious one Alicia I mean do I need to explain this she’s amazing? She’s such a good lawyer and a good mother and she always supports the clients and comes up with such interesting defenses. And I love seeing her develop from the pilot to the end of Season 1 where she actually does use her connections to beat Cary and she’s becoming a bit more willing to do anything for the firm. Also she’s SO STRONG like with everything that happened with Peter and I’m so proud of her, but whyy is she still with Peter...okay I’ll get to Will/Alicia later but I hope that in this character development she eventually realizes she and Peter won’t work out. Oh and I love her relationship with her kids it’s so nice and how she’ll protect her family over everything! She’s just great! Also I love her relationships with all the characters I’m about to name, haha.

Okay so Will and Will/Alicia ah like Will’s so flawed and that makes him so interesting like he actually is really willing to do anything for the firm...more than Alicia he cares about his clients #1 and that makes him a great lawyer...but maybe not always a good person? It’s so interesting to see him work that out and also in his relationships with others. I LOVE HIM AND ALICIA OBVIOUSLY AND IM FOREVER MAD ABOUT THE END OF SEASON ONE / FIRST EP OF S2 AND ALL THEIR MISSED CONNECTIONS. They really are friends-> lovers and make each other better people which is my #1 downfall in a ship as y’all know. Other Will stuff: we really don’t know anything about Will’s background except that he went to college with Alicia and I hope to learn more. Will’s relationship with Diane is interesting and HIS BASKETBALL TEAM bros <3. I loved the episode where he was friends with the corrupt judge and made it right.

Kalinda I mean this one was probably obvious too and Kalinda&Alicia and Kalinda/Lana ARE ALL AMAZING and Kalinda’s amazing she’s such a great actress and she’s a great person (at the end of the season when Will wouldn’t turn in his client SHE DID). And she always solves the cases so well and she helps Alicia let loose and have fun and it’s GREAT OKAY. And in general she’s just so guarded and I really hope she opens up with Lana and they live happily ever after.

Cary OKAY so it’s probably Matt’s fault but at the same time I LOVE HIM he tries so hard, he works so hard, and he’s a great lawyer! And he was loyal to the firm, I loved the ep where he turned down Stern’s offer.  And yeah he’s willing to do a lot for the job but so is Will. And he and Alicia had some really nice moments over the season. I just want him to stop working for Childs and give all his information to Alicia and them to become BFFS in this Cary&Alicia&Kalinda&Will foursome haha. Also I mean I get his feeling that he worked so hard for them and they didn’t keep him...so I really understand for he’s coming from BUT JUST COME BACK CARY.

More thoughts: I love the format of the show I like seeing the case of the week but also that there is character development over the season. A lot of the cases were really powerful on their own! I also liked seeing the background of the office and the politics with the merger and everything and of course with the state’s attorney thing. The plotlines with Alicia’s kids were really fun, like actually really sad/ouch, but interesting to see how the kids reacted to their father and the whole situation. Diane’s great too of course, it’s great to see a woman in charge. Alan Cummings is amazing as Eli and it’s an interesting parallel where he’s also willing to do anything for Peter....like some others will do anything for the firm. Least favorite recurring characters: Peter and Stern and Childs, haha. 

I think that’s everything I can think of at the moment? Excited for 6 more seasons! 

[comicteaparty]

August 10th, 2017 CTP Archive

The archive for the Comic Tea Party chat that occurred on August 10th, 2017, from 5PM - 7PM PDT.  The chat focused on ABDUCTED by Mike Battle.

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RebelVampire

Good day everyone~! This week’s Comic Tea Party is now officially beginning. Today we are discussing ABDUCTED by Mike Battle~! (https://tapas.io/series/abducted) For those new to CTP, discussions about the comic are freeform, so please feel free to bring up whatever you wish. However, every 30 minutes I will be dropping in a discussion question to help those who would like a prompt. These questions are totally OPTIONAL to answer so pay them no mind if you wish~! Remember, constructive criticism is allowed, but the primary focus here is to have fun and appreciate the amazing comics that the community makes~! Each chat a top comment will be picked and featured on an ad for this chat, so let’s have a great discussion~! With that said, let us begin with this first question~!

QUESTION 1. What is your favorite scene in the comic so far and why?

Novasiri

My favorite, by far, was when Asher utilised his own powers to trick Zelek in their battle by crushing a bolder into dust to blind them.. and then punch him right in the brain case.(edited)

RebelVampire

lol honestly that moment made me cringe a bit. mostly the brain case punched cause my mind was overwhelmed by the amount of brain damage that mustve caused. i shed a tear on the inside of my heart

Novasiri

Hahahahaha. XD

At least Asher hurt his hand in the process, poor fella not being used to combat n' all.

Princess Emma of Potatoes

I really like the recent scenes with Shea

DracoPlato

I liked when he was wearing the cherry hat

Novasiri

XD

RebelVampire

yeah ive really like shea as a character so far cause shes so spunky. albeit i also like that you can kind of see why that one fellow was bitching about her recklessness. and i just appreciate the character wasnt bitching for no reason. like theres legit reasons for why hes complaining

DracoPlato

yeah i've liked shea a lot too

if not just because her colors really balance well with the others visually, lol(edited)

Novasiri

She's a real breath of fresh air between Cairo's snark, and Asher's more timid nature.

FONCreator

Oh shoot were starting today cool!

And yee

Novasiri

Yup!

FONCreator

Shea's a cool character so far

I'm really proud that Mikey's improving on his art

The progress is amazing

Novasiri

Mhmm, looking from the first few pages to now has been a drastic and amazing improvement in both art but also those gorgeous backgrounds.

FONCreator

ye

Novasiri

Tho maybe I'm bias cause I love galaxies, and space... Haaa.(edited)

DracoPlato

yeah his art has improved a ton since the beginning

mathtans

I have to echo Novasiri's scene. Not so much the brain punch, but that he was able to use his 'crush' technique to clever effect. That whole "turning a disadvantage into an advantage" deal.

Princess Emma of Potatoes

The art improvement is sick

DracoPlato

but i don't find the early chapters visually unappealing either

mathtans

I'm impressed he can keep up the colour aspect. o.o

Novasiri

Mhmm.

CairosImporters

Hello everyone! I'm going to try to participate although I'm still at work. I'd love to get some constructive criticism on how to make the story better if you have any

FONCreator

YOOOOO MIKEY

Novasiri

Heya dude!

FONCreator

WELCOME TO DISCORD MAN

DracoPlato

Hiiiiii~!

CairosImporters

HI!!!

DracoPlato

just read it all to current, you have great visual story telling skills~!

super easy to get through

RebelVampire

yeah theres a good balance of dialogue amount too with the visuals

mathtans

Regarding the story, I like how everything's got links... like the stuff with Fin was linked to the bullying, the stuff with Shea is linked to the GameDude... it doesn't feel like filler.

I think skipping forward a few weeks was the right call.

FONCreator

Yeah

Timeskips are a life saver

if done right

in which case you did right by it

Also, so far the story feels very easy to jump into

DracoPlato

yeah it does

mathtans

I admit I'm wondering a little about what happened to the bully. They didn't even try to go back for him.

FONCreator

Yeah here's hoping he comes back somewhere

mathtans

Like, I know he was taken by the mystery guy, but they don't seem too concerned.

He's still a link to Earth.

DracoPlato

i did wonder why they didn't go back to the kidnappers in a secretive way since they obviously knew where earth was and were a link

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

A-Am I late?!

RebelVampire

well yeah would you be concerned if your bully was in trouble? XD like guy tormented asher so i doubt hes high on the list of ppl he ever wants to see again

FONCreator

naaah Queen

RebelVampire

theres never a late in ctp

everyone always arrives on time exactly when they mean to

DracoPlato

also if the kidnappers were in that area and knew where earth was wouldn't other aliens in that area also know

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

awesome, just q1

mathtans

Oh, I'm not saying it was out of character! Just, if they're looking for leads on Earth, the bully and bully aliens are one method.

DracoPlato

it seemed abnormal to me that nobody else in the surrounding area would know if they knew

mathtans

Draco: It's possible they didn't know it was "Earth", just that it was some planet they were paid to go and get the guy from.

DracoPlato

perhaps, or that earth itself has a different name to others

RebelVampire

well where did the kidnappers even take them? they might not have been in the area when asher finally woke up

DracoPlato

i also wondered why there isn't a galaxy map since it seemed like there would be if there's magazines and stuff

FONCreator

Yeah could be named differently

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

So far I liked when Asher had a real battle after had crushed on that planet with the alien plant thing, and had to fight with alien shark (Im so bad at names Im sorry RIP)

DracoPlato

the kidnappers themselves would have known where they beamed him from tho

FONCreator

or Earth is just that obscere of a planet

DracoPlato

so they're definitely a lead

mathtans

I'm bad with names too, Brave! No worries. Last week that generated a new nickname.

RebelVampire

theyre a lead but i personally would not want to go chase that lead. lest wind up kidnapped again.

Princess Emma of Potatoes

I just assumed that Earth was an obscure planet

DracoPlato

but he made fast work of the guards there with no prior experience in fighting or his powers

so why should he be afraid of them

mathtans

Emma: Yeah. We barely even have space flight.

RebelVampire

because he lacks confidence

DracoPlato

but he always pulled through when needed

so him lacking confidence isn't a great excuse

mathtans

I'm not saying the whole story needs to be about returning to Earth either, I like the exploration. Just, seemed like there were some leads they didn't follow/mention.

FONCreator

Yeah for all we know, the Solar System is an obscure of mythic system

It's like that old rusty gas station in comparison to other planets

you know it when you see it but it's a dime a dozen and in the middle of no where

mathtans

Draco: Part of the reason he got to them was because they didn't know he was an esper. Now that they know, they might be ready for him.

DracoPlato

perhaps but they could also plan better for an attack if they went back

to me it just seemed strange they completely dropped the idea of the kidnappers as a lead is all

mathtans

Not disagreeing. I like arguing both sides somehow.

DracoPlato

especially with as large as the universe is it seems a poor choice to not pursue that

on their part

RebelVampire

well do they even know where the kidnappers are? like finding a bunch of random kidnappers sounds equally as hard as finding earth

FONCreator

Could be a lot of black markets as well

mathtans

Is it the universe or the galaxy? I don't remember, but that's kind of important.

DracoPlato

i think cairo can navigate well enough he would have some idea, based on the business he's in(edited)

FONCreator

yeah

RebelVampire

but even just the galaxy is ginormous.

there are 100 billion star systems

DracoPlato

how does he find his clients then by that argument, lol

mathtans

True. Just, in terms of mapping.

Message boards.

RebelVampire

well this is the whole point. cairo needs coordinates, names, or other map like features to navigate. so if he knows where planets are, of course he can find clients.

but its not like the kidnappers are on a map mathtans

"Siri, please direct me to kidnappers."

DracoPlato

he would have probably known the area they were in tho, and if he knew the anatomy of the guard he would probably know their species and planet they're from

since he knew where the guard was hit was his reproductive organs

which shows knowledge of that species

FONCreator

I wonder how Cairo would react to seeing a minature version of his species on earth?

mathtans

They could be a rogue faction. But there is that. Maybe he sent a message, but it takes time to get a response across light years?

Cairo might like the Sphinx.

FONCreator

XD His ego would probably be out of this world if he finds out humans worshipped cat headed gods at one point

RebelVampire

but this is making an assumption that the kidnappers are anywhere near their home planet, or that their home planet would randomly know where some criminals were. and even if cairo knows "the area" space is unbelievably huge.

mathtans

I wonder if Cairo's name is a shoutout to Egypt.

FONCreator

Would be cool if it is

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

What if kidnappers have one base close of earth, and where was Asher was to send them probably to another planet to be sold or experimentation

FONCreator

And hey Mharz

mathtans

(Not in universe, obv.)

FONCreator

And that would be interesting

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

i didn't get to read through

mathtans

You read some!

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

rip

FONCreator

IF Earth is that obscure, makes sense to have the base in the solar system

DracoPlato

it took my 30 minutes mharz, you can do it

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

wow

30 minutes

RebelVampire

QUESTION 2. Despite being stranded in space, Asher has a friend in Cairo. However, besides him being an intergalactic smuggler, we know little about Cairo. What do you think happened in Cairo’s life to turn him to a life of crime? How does one even become wanted in twenty thousand star systems? Additionally, will he and Asher stay together or will Cairo’s loyalty eventually run out?

FONCreator

It ain't long

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

W-What if Mike is thinking in the 51 area and such

mathtans

I'm a slow reader, it took me longer than that. -. .-

FONCreator

Hmmmm

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

dat question

I would dare to say Cairo had a rough life, most criminals had difficult lives with not much to eat or money, so they try to look for the best choice in front of them

FONCreator

well, I think that depending on the situation, Ash and Cairos might end up continuing their travels, or, Cairos decides to visit often

mathtans

It might be interesting if Asher and Cairo have a falling-out, but not just yet, I think. I wonder what Cairo's life span is, a little.

DracoPlato

i think their friendship will be tested but i don't think they'll be forever fallen out

FONCreator

And yeah, maybe Cairos' species could be scavengers

mathtans

Maybe his parents were also in the business.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

I'm a very slow reader

FONCreator

isfinemhar

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

becos I try to understand everything

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

am I the only one who thinks like "Cairo is a good friend of Asher, he'll take care of him" and there's a small part saying "Cairo needs Asher's sper powers to survive"

DracoPlato

cairo is a cat tho, so of course he's in a shady business

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

LOL

mathtans

Me too, Mharz. ^^

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

hey cat's gotta do anything they can to survive

FONCreator

ye

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

stray cats that is

mathtans

Brave: Good point. Esper powers are handy when running from the law.

FONCreator

Yeah, and they ain't common, but not too rare

There are other espers

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Tho that smol theory falls considering Asher has not much control on it yet

FONCreator

need protection from them

mathtans

I thought that was a great explanation of esper too!

FONCreator

true true

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

PHENY

FONCreator

OH YO PHEN

Phenylketonurics

OH question of the best green cat in comics, man!! I have always wondered why Cairo ended up as a rouge smuggler~ It's almost like it's in his blood~

YO YO!!!

mathtans

Actually, when I first started reading, I thought Asher's esper powers were due to him being Abducted years ago, and they did experiments on him, giving him the power. Then he didn't expect the abduction and the power was common, so I was all, oh. But THEN the mystery guy seemed to want Asher, so I dunno no more.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

There's a phrase that Cairo said while talking with Asher, saying that he doesn't have many friends anyway, so I would like to think Cairo is at least, with ASHER, honest

FONCreator

Yeah

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

but still something bothers me, somewhere

RebelVampire

honestly from the start ive felt like cairo is just using asher. so i definitely think theres going to have to be a small falling out at some point. but i dont think its anything hardcore forever cause i mean, cairo is sticking with him despite everything.

DracoPlato

i wondered if his mother has something to do with it cause of one of the covers where what is presumably her has the esper eyes

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

I need more proofs to trust Cairo LOL

FONCreator

OH

That could be true

And fun if its true

Phenylketonurics

(trying to catch up on everyone's thoughts on Abducted so far... Cairo's character seems directly influenced as something from his society he's not welcome in....or that he doesn't feel comfortable with)

mathtans

I've felt like Cairo was using him at first, but that maybe he's legit getting close to him since he helped get the ship back and everything.

FONCreator

I think Mike even said Cairo died his fur

so maybe

he's like a rebel on his homeworld

Phenylketonurics

YES THAT'S RIGHT!

mathtans

That was Q&A though, maybe not canon.

FONCreator

true XD

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

There's a possibility that Cairo WAS using Asher, but later gets so along with him and gets some bro affection, but Asher won't listen at first

so break up for a bit, for development

mathtans

Shea might make them confront that aspect of the relationship.

Phenylketonurics

I agree, it really feels like Asher was kind of someone he was gonna profit from and then ended up MAJORLY pitying... and then just started liking him, haha^^

FONCreator

Ye

Like Yandu and Quil

Phenylketonurics

Shea could definitely put some questioning to their friendship, whoa

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Shea could get on Asher's side since he protected her videogame, and that's important for her

good move Asher

top 10 best way to get a waifu

mathtans

I wonder if they'll end up as a bigger crew later on.

Phenylketonurics

I was gonna say!! It seems like Cairo would like Shea since she's a fellow rebel but... EH, they could end up butting heads a lot

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

asher does have a pretty useful powers so it's possible

mathtans

Yeah, Shea's a bit "in the moment" whereas Cairo strategizes first.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

This comic makes me remember old tv series about space, so I tend to think they could get a big group of space friends XD

FONCreator

Oh yee

Phenylketonurics

GROUP OF SPACE FRIENDS YES PLEASE

RebelVampire

yeah i think eventually cairo and shea would bump heads. cause she has not listening issues

FONCreator

Shea could be a space friend

Phenylketonurics

That's right, that's right~! She's her own just as Cairo is his own -- they both have issues with authority figures, ohoh

*Shea's aaa

mathtans

She's Shea. ^.^

Phenylketonurics

Heh, it worked even with the typo I guess!

BUT YEAH, Cairo's the lead due to his strategising ability, he's GOOD at that (which made me skeptical at first!)

mathtans

Anyone else wondering about Mystery Guy who sicced the kidnappers on Asher? I'm wondering about that. Maybe he gets another crack at Asher and the misfits all have to go and save him, repayment for all he's done for them.

FONCreator

I have a feeling he's gonna be back

may be the big bad

Phenylketonurics

.... hm, very vaguely... aa, I can't quite remember him.

mathtans

Maybe he's linked to the amusement park company?

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

maybe a sub boss

mathtans

He has the bully. Bully could be powered up into sub boss too.

RebelVampire

i doubt hes linked to the amusement park company. since the villain of that arc is clearly the dessert looking ceo bro

mathtans

Just, maybe he has stock in the company. ^.^

Not a direct link.

RebelVampire

well then that is possible.

gotta invest in them cool cherry hats

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

I think Cairo is nice

I mean he could've just left Asher to be eaten by plant

sorry was reading on the spot

FONCreator

isfine

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

I totally think the bully can be back powered up, and will be besides a physical battle, and emotional one for Asher getting the worst part

Phenylketonurics

Yes yes, he really is like... ultimately a good guy. IT EVEN SEEMED like he was just gonna bail on Asher but he didn't! Cairo's morally chaotic but... he's still got morals~

mathtans

It's true. Can't all be self-servingness, he did fine without Asher too. (Well... not that fine... he got caught by kidnappers...)

Maybe the bully joins forces with Fin!

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

LOL

RebelVampire

i wonder how cairo got kidnapped by the kidnappers

considering he was pretty good at evading the police

mathtans

Taking a cat nap?

RebelVampire

was he taking a cat nap and woke up and was like "well this is my life now"

Phenylketonurics

CAT NAP JOKES OOOHOO

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

awwwwww.... he's friends with kitty

FONCreator

caaaat

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

well kinda

FONCreator

XD

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

that's the part I was talking about XD

mathtans

Maybe someone sold Cairo out last time. That's why he feels he has no friends.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

What if he was sold when he was a baby cause parents were poor

mathtans

"Just deliver this to these people." "Oka-- yoink HEY"

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

and Cairo did is best to survive

RebelVampire

oh maybe thats how cairo got kidnapped. someone hired him to smuggle something to them and they just kept cairo

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

sharky's mad LOL

nah Cairo delivered hot sauce in the wrong address

Phenylketonurics

Nooo, wait, yeah, Cairo's the product of his own game, that would be so mad!!

mathtans

I feel bad for Sharky! I hope they can make amends.

Dude needs to relax more.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

he so sensitive

XD

RebelVampire

i want asher and fin to bond

become best bros

FONCreator

Broshark eys

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

LOL

FONCreator

*yes

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

he has the potential

yis

mathtans

Maybe they meet on Galaxy Tinder.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

damn

Princess Emma of Potatoes

Pfffft

FONCreator

xDD

RebelVampire

granted they probably cant become best bros. i dont forsee fin leaving the police and i imagine asher is now also a wanted fugitive

mathtans

I could see Finn leaving the police. They're all such jerks to him. He needs a job he can enjoy. Like short order cook or something.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

I get the feeling tho Cairo doesn't want Asher to return home

mathtans

It doesn't matter if he has hot sauce on him then. He's prepping foods.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

I mean he can get coordinates like this.

RebelVampire

idk if that was him getting coordinates so much as it seemed like it was like a gatekeeping checkpoint sort of deal

FONCreator

Yeah

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

hmmm

it did said "requested destination"

and the next page he said change of plans

RebelVampire

the checkpoint could be covering several locations tho

cause its space

mathtans

He might not know where the place is. Just what it's called. No one knows what Earth is called.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

good point

we'll never know I guess

mathtans

To sum up, Suspicious Cairo is Suspicious, but maybe he's had a bad past and he probably cares for Asher at least a little. Just maybe not enough to change his routines.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

maybe there's no coordinates about Earth cause they think Planet Earth is shit

FONCreator

He even said that they had to have the coordinates before entering a jump gate

RebelVampire

what would make me laugh is if cairo didnt have a bad past. just became a smuggler cause why not. being a fugitive is fun?

mathtans

"The test I took on career day said smuggler."

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

>Inb4 Cairo is super rich

FONCreator

XD

RebelVampire

well cairo gotta be getting paid well for smuggling

and he clearly aint investing it into his ship

mathtans

Point. Wonder what fuel costs.

FONCreator

What kind of fuel even?

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

awww little Asher's falling in love

XD

mathtans

Those cubes that Asher blew up in the first Arc.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

I wonder if we'll ever get some scenes of Cairo licking himself like any cat does

totally relevant

FONCreator

xDD

I bet he does

RebelVampire

well thanks for that imagery brave

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

RIP

h-he could just lick his paws

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

copyright-friendly gameboy

FONCreator

XDD

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Good thing Asher is not allergic to cats

RebelVampire

QUESTION 3. At the end of Chapter 2, we learn of Dr. Niel and how he’s behind Asher’s abduction. Who is Dr. Niel and why would he specifically target Asher? What was this experiment that succeeded? Speaking of which, what sort of tests do you think Travis the bully will be subjected to?

mathtans

I wonder, Game Dude existence implies that someone's visited Earth in the last 20 years, right? (30 years?)

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Maybe the experiment is about giving to erhh.... let's call everyone as creatures, esper powers in an artificial way. Like there are ones natural born with that ability, but too uncommon

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

I don't think I can take this ice cream seriously

mathtans

Right, Mystery Guy is Dr. Niel. I still think he somehow got Asher the esper powers. Like, there are some races (Finn's) which aren't supposed to have 'em. And we don't know where humans rank there.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

so artificially they could get an army

FONCreator

Dr. Niel probably wants to study espers, maybe mass produce them

mathtans

I'm on wavelength with Brave again.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

yis

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

Asher's mom seems to have it too

it might be inherited

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

there are too many species, more than one might be in belic conflict with eachother(edited)

RebelVampire

well assuming were following our timeline, the gameboy advanced game dude pro wouldve come out in 2001

mathtans

Alternate theory: Asher's wife used to be married to Dr. Niel, and she ran away to Earth and remarried. He's ticked off, and wants the kid back. Maybe there's even secrets in his head.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

true, what if humans can be espers but need some kind of trigger, so Dr Niel is investigating about it in order to later massproduce more

mathtans

RebelV: Thanks, I'm bad for history.

FONCreator

*Asher's mom

And yeah

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

oooh good one math

FONCreator

That seems to be his game

mathtans

FONCreator: Derp. Yes, thanks.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

that could be true

then Asher's dad could be in danger at some point?

FONCreator

true true

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

unless he's not really his dad

mathtans

Could be!

FONCreator

Oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh

thats even better

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Dr Niel got cucked

RIP

FONCreator

That could be possible

his mom may not even be human

RebelVampire

i wonder if dr. niel is an alien or if hes human

FONCreator

thats also a good question

mathtans

Maybe Asher's mom fled there with Asher when he was a tiny baby. Married, and so his Dad grew up considering Asher his son.

FONCreator

Yeh

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

I have two theories, a species that look similar to human except few difference besides technology or, a species that can change their shape

FONCreator

Yeah I mean

there's some humanoid species

Maybe there's other more so humanoid species

Shea's one of them

mathtans

It's true that not a lot of the other species we've seen have looked very human.

Why would Dr. Niel bother to look human if he wasn't human?

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Reading about UFO and similar stuff there are species that look exactly like humans, that's why I said it, besides the gray ones and such

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

would love to see Asher's mom, if she's still alive that is

mathtans

There's gotta be more intimidating species.

RebelVampire

im really curious about the fact no one seems to care about asher's humanness. in the sense that no one is really like "hey this dude is weird what species is he"

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

I wonder what happened to her

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

they just thought he's alien in general

FONCreator

Maybe because there's a species that's very similar to humans

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

yis

mathtans

RebelV: That's a good point. Maybe they figure he's Cario's pet or something.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

LOL

mathtans

I suppose narratively it's also so that they can't use it as a key to Earth. Like, if someone says "ooh, I haven't seen a species like you since I was in sector ZZ-PluralZ-Alpha, it's a bit of a giveaway.

RebelVampire

im sure thats some of the reason

FONCreator

yeah

RebelVampire

but it still implies theres other more humanoid species OR that ppl have seen humans every once in a while.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

I caught up!

FONCreator

noicee

RebelVampire

granted if ppl assumed he was cairo's pet thatd be hilarious

congrats mharz

to be fair tho

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

yay!

RebelVampire

there could also be an implication that there are so many species in the galaxy seeing a new one isnt surprising

just a normal tuesday

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

yeah

mathtans

There's that.

FONCreator

ye

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

I mean they see people look different from them all the time

mathtans

Except what's a Tuesday? I liked that bit where Asher was trying to figure out how long he'd actually been gone and was all, whelp, not sure.

RebelVampire

didnt he also say hes like in his 70s according to space time? XD

FONCreator

xDD

Ash is old as fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

RebelVampire

what if cairo is younger than asher. physically of course not mentally

FONCreator

might grow like a cat

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

hard to say

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

How does age in cats works

similar to dogs?

FONCreator

same as dogs ye

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

oh

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

15-20 years

mathtans

Maybe Asher's an elder God inside a kid body. That's why Neils wants him.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

their life span that is

RebelVampire

actually its a bit diff from dogs cause cats live longer lifespans on average. so theres a bit of discrepancy. but its close enough

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

ooh the he's the most powerful almighty being trope?(edited)

mathtans

Or he's just really old.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

I see never had a cat so Idk

FONCreator

xDD

I do

*i have two rn

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Cairo is very old He'll die soon Prepare to feels(edited)

my mind is a mess sorry XD(edited)

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

suddenly turns to drama

mathtans

Ok, silly theory is silly. I wonder how old Shea is relative to Asher though.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

huh

FONCreator

good question

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

She's probably closer to Asher in age

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

I feel like Shea is inspired from the Avatar movie

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

maybe a bit younger since she's so impulsive

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

she might be older tho just slow to mature

mathtans

Like Cairo. ^.^

FONCreator

yeah

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

everyone are older except Asher

Asher is surrounded by old people

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

yeah

RebelVampire

really? shea reminded me more of a mix between the asari from mass effect and the one tentacle head species in star wars whose names i cant think of

mathtans

Asher needs a small pet to care for, to teach him the ways of old people.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

aliens normally has longer life span than flimsy humans

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

or shorter, anything could go

RebelVampire

normally tho XD doesnt have to be

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

maybe even a species who have life close to eternal

RebelVampire

i hope its cairo. that way cairo can live forever

and that would explain how someone becomes wanted in 20,000 systems XD

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

I want Asher to have an alien pet to take care of and hug during nights

FONCreator

yee

Phenylketonurics

Cairo~! Cats have nine lives on earth, how long is his alien cat life??

FONCreator

like an alien worm

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

an alien baby that cries

Cairo lives for 900 years

lololol

mathtans

That's what makes Finn like Asher, the way Asher cares for the smol alien baby.

FONCreator

ye

Phenylketonurics

Ahaha~!! AND AN ALIEN PET FOR ASHER Ohohooo, Finn would totally warm up to Asher if he saw him taking care of an earth goldfish, hahah^^

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

LOL

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Asher is pretty much a nice boy, he could take care of one

I just want to see Asher doing cute things

FONCreator

He a brave boi

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

at least for a whiel

brave boi

mathtans

He can stand up to people now. And crush rocks.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

he can't talk to others yet, needs more confidence

mathtans

Actually, if he had a small plant to care for, he could practice his esper powers without crushing it.

FONCreator

ye

RebelVampire

asher can get a good career of rock crushing.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

legit rock crushing

can produce gravel if he wants

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Hero name: Rock Crusher

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

who needs machines if you can crush them yourselves

RebelVampire

"Do you need rocks crushed? Gravel mixed? Come on down to Asher's Rock Crushing Emporium!"

Phenylketonurics

Asphalt Asher

FONCreator

Ash is the Brain and Brawn for Cairo

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

no machines just magical telekinetic powers

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Asher is cute, CUTE

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

LOL

FONCreator

yeee

mathtans

Chocolate crush.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

at least he can fight even if he's a cry baby

okay not exactly cry baby

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

he needs to learn to fight people verbally

FONCreator

ishipit

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

wait what, which ship

mathtans

"Do you bite your thumb at me, sir?"

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

better than characters who only talks but has no bite

eh

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

I need to know

mathtans

Ship Asher with Rock Crushing.

FONCreator

ash and hikari

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

omg 2 ships in a short time

Asher x Rocks, and Hikari

Wonders if we'll see Cairo's planet at some point

FONCreator

caaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatsssssssssssssssss

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

LOOOL

RebelVampire

caaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatsssssssssssssss

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

If I don't see Egypcian reference I'll be dissapointed, okno

FONCreator

Planet Felina

xDD

mathtans

I wonder how they'd perform "Cats" the musical. Magical Mister Cairo.

FONCreator

Appease the vacuum gods

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

THE PUNS ARE HURTING ME OMG

RebelVampire

math no

dont you dare get that song stuck in my head

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Imagine the hairballs tho

RebelVampire

welp its too late. this is my life now with songs in my head

QUESTION 4. Asher has one goal in this story: get back home to Earth. However, with so few people unaware of where Earth is, that’s going to be very difficult. Do you think Asher will succeed or will he be stuck in space forever? Even if he does succeed, do you think he’ll be able/willing to stay on Earth? What do you think his homecoming would be like, especially considering his newfound powers?

FONCreator

Mangojerry and a Rumpleteaser

I think he may succeed, but might be hard to stay there

may like staying in space

but if he stays on earth

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Same, he might get there, but it won't be peaceful yet, unless he comes back to earth by the end of the comic

FONCreator

FON meets Abducted winks

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

if it happens during the middle of the comic, something terrible could have happened

mathtans

See, that's the tricky thing about this comic. Since it started on Earth, there's the feeling you have to get back to Earth eventually. At least to see his Dad. I don't think he'll be able to stay there though, like it'd be too dull.

Phenylketonurics

He could succeed, it'll be very hard to readjust himself, though. And he may prefer to stay in touch with the friends he makes from other parts of the universe but... yeah, I think he'd choose to live on earth.

RebelVampire

i really hope he doesnt decide to stay on earth. space so much cooler

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

also, technically travelling, planet's time passes different than in the space

Phenylketonurics

As for homecoming, wwwoooooww, I can't even imagine that.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Asher could have been lost for years by now(edited)

FONCreator

He may get home and its years in the future

dad could be old or dead

Phenylketonurics

I wonder if it'll be publicised at all or if, to make it easier on him, Cairo would downplay it lots?

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

People could think he's dead

mathtans

Space very cool. No air in space. Freezing, in fact.

Phenylketonurics

GOHS YOU GUYS saying his family could be dead -- how long has he been away from earth so far???

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

His dad could have gone insane looking for him

FONCreator

shrugs

Phenylketonurics

I just assumed it was like... a few weeks.

mathtans

There's relativity too though. You move away from Earth fast, then return, and hardly any time has passed for you but more time has passed on Earth. (I think that's how it works?)

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

oh their perception

can't say the same on earth

RebelVampire

i think one of the Q&As said hes been gone like 6 months

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

"Abducted people" has said they felt it like for only minutes, but i fact happened way long ago

rip

Phenylketonurics

They travel through wormholes, right? I wonder if time travel is in the equation? Maybe they'll jsut transport him back the day he was ABDUCTED~!

RebelVampire

part of me wonders tho if asher returns to earth, maybe hell be caught by a government for science cause esper powers.(edited)

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

i throw myself to the theory his dad went insane looking for him, I think he's a good dad who wouldn't rest until find his baby

RebelVampire

cant even spell things

Phenylketonurics

Nice and easy way to transition from being thrown through space and mixed up with so much craziness. And that would make his success in coming home kind of more self-satisfying than anything else.

mathtans

Brave: Maybe he thinks the bully ran away with him. Or maybe there were TV cameras on that street?

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

poor dad

napples

mathtans

(Hi napples...)

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Dad coudl think Asher was kidnapped by people, so yes

he could have taken a travel, looking for him

since police couldn't do anything and gave up

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

punches everyone he found suspicious

mathtans

Maybe Dr. Neils abducts the dad. So he's not dead or insane, just trapped offworld too.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

then Asher returns, and doesn't find his dad at home and gets sad

Phenylketonurics

POOR DAD NOOOO

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

thinking his dad forgot about him

but dad is looking for him in the other side of the world

and Asher returns to space with Cairo

the adventure continues

breaths in

Phenylketonurics

;o; BRAVE THAT IS SO HEARTWARMING/BREAKING

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

kill me

xD

FONCreator

yeeeeeeees

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

hmmm I wonder if that star wars scene in the first pages is foreshadowing?

mathtans

Or maybe Dad knew his wife was an alien all along. When Asher goes missing, he's like, "damn aliens come at last", and he finishes building his rocketship and goes into space after him.

FONCreator

ohyeee

He punches aliens in the face tooo

mathtans

Dad puuuuunch!

RebelVampire

what if his dad really does know about aliens and space tho

mathtans

That's why he taught those self defense techniques. To take out aliens with mobile genitals.

RebelVampire

is like some super cool space ranger

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

he's a boxing champ he can do it

mathtans

Or Dr Niels comes for him, and Dad punches the Doc out and takes his spaceship.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Daddy appears in a super latex outfit: I CAME HERE FOR MY SON Asher: Dad omg I'm glad to see you and sickened at the same time

FONCreator

yee

mathtans

Hee!

FONCreator

Boxing dad in boxer briefs

RebelVampire

omg dr niel is like "Im here to kidnap you like i kidnapped your son and wait...why are you trying to punch me!?"

mathtans

Thing is, I don't feel like Asher has to necessarily get back to Earth then... but the Dad is a loose end otherwise.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

dr niel confessed he's Asher's dad

mathtans

Time travelled from the future.

FONCreator

oh noooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Dr Niel is still cucked lol

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

like I said that star wars playing while Asher was sleeping in the first pages might be foreshadowing of that

FONCreator

truetrue

mathtans

Mharz: OH! I forgot about that. Yes, the "I am your father" thing. (Is Dr. Niels his father??)

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

they did pick that specific scene between darth vader and luke

RebelVampire

its a possibility. thatd be some cool forshadowing

mathtans

Maybe Asher loses his hand.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Asher, I'm your father

FONCreator

Yeah Mike did

so maybe he did that on purpose

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

so then Asher will lose an arm?

can we make jokes about being unarmed?

RebelVampire

but to be fair, that is literally the most iconic star wars scene. so it couldve been picked just for the iconicness

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

I'msorry

mathtans

He's 'armless.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

robot arms... he can punch stornter now

ture

true

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

asher learns falcon punch

mathtans

Or for the "standing up to a bad guy" thing.

In space.

FONCreator

He makes a psychic arm

make it canon Mike

mathtans

I wonder how espers is ranked? Like, on the weight of stuff you can move? On the finesse? Are there tournaments? Seems like it's prevalent enough that there might be tournaments. Maybe Dr. Niels lures Asher out that way, like Robin Hood.

RebelVampire

do they even rank them tho?

FONCreator

There could be a cult too

mathtans

Dunno.

I theorize, not all theories have to be coherent.

Phenylketonurics

Math's theory is a very good theory

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

it will be fun if one of our theories are true

RebelVampire

well i cant say i wouldnt like to see an esper tournament

cairo can enter him

be like earn us some cash bro

mathtans

I can see it.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

omg

FONCreator

yee

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

yes

mathtans

Be like, "Make a name for youself, people will want to track down Earth for you." "But they might invade." "Details..."

FONCreator

xDD

RebelVampire

cairo makes him an elaborate intro speech where earth is like every other word

mathtans

"Earth makes the best calamari" "Don't tell the squid people that."

CairosImporters

Just finishing up at work. I'm excited to read throu all this

TheVoidchildProject

Late to the Tea Party! I loved Abducted and just wanted to quickly wake up and chime in (4 am over here O_o)!

mathtans

I wonder if there's any aliens out there who don't have bodies? Like, they're just energy or something.

TheVoidchildProject

Cairos!!

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

Asher ended up enjoying life in space

mathtans

Void: Oooh, good for you, so early!

FONCreator

well the owner of the theme park kinda has no body

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

and doesn't want to return enymore

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

Asher makes his own alien family, screw Earth

and dad

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

with shea

LOL

mathtans

Kinda. But could still be hit. I'm thinking, how do you hit energy beings.

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

yis

TheVoidchildProject

I was just going to commend all your awesome characters! Not just Asher and Cairo, you know how much I love poor Fin!

FONCreator

The possibilities of "hairstyles" with her species' tendrils

like dreads

TheVoidchildProject

Nothing like creating a muscle shark man who's also a bullying victim! Why didn't I think of that!

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

lol

mathtans

Finnnnnnnn! I say again, guy needs a new job with better coworkers.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

adorable sharky is adorable

RebelVampire

he also needs a new shirt. that would also help

mathtans

It is a clever reversal.

TheVoidchildProject

I'm guessing he could probably put them down, but that's bullying for you! Brawn can't help you there necessarily. And that's why Fin is a great character!

I'm holding out hope that he'll join@the crew once he gets over his beef with Asher...

FONCreator

or at least be a source of intel

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

finn's just naturally a nice guy... and very sensitive

such precious sharky

Phenylketonurics

Finn definitely needs a new shirt, his pride is shattered without clean clothes~

mathtans

He's not that nice. Talking about locking people up for spilling hot sauce.

FONCreator

Shark's gotta work on his social cue

*cues

mathtans

Another reason he needs a new job, where he can't order stuff like that.

RebelVampire

idk if id call fin a naturally nice guy. nice guys dont beat up ppl who accidentally spill hot sauce on their shirts XD

Phenylketonurics

I WAS GONNA SAY. I'm not keen on him because of how short his temper is! But yeah, it could just be because he's had a tough time so far~

TheVoidchildProject

I'm also very curious what the building is towards with Asher's mum. I'm with ppl that it's probably esper stuff but I didn't necessarily think she was alien and sich.

mathtans

Fin can join the production of "Cats" on Cairo's home planet.

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

makes shark cats

TheVoidchildProject

Naw, but that short temper is because of the bullying (I'm guessing). He continues to pick on others since he's being picked on.

mathtans

Though it would also work if his coworkers finally respected him, though I'm not sure that'd happen.

Fin stars in the next Sharknado!

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

LOOOL

RebelVampire

maybe thats how fin and asher become friends. they fake a fight so fin looks like a badass who beat an esper

TheVoidchildProject

Plus, im@a sucker for a "villain" who shares similar traits as the protagonist.

FONCreator

yeeeee

mathtans

RebelV: Ooooh, I like that.

Phenylketonurics

VC, yes, that's what I was guessing, too. He just needs someone to help him curb that quick temper. Build that ego up, make him feel like a superstar. X]

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

that would be cool twist

then Fin has to capture Asher

but he helps him get out

TheVoidchildProject

For sure Phen. It's a character with room to grow. Just like the main cast. That attention to character design is admirable!

mathtans

Maybe Fin meets the powered-up-bully (from what Doc Niels was doing), and learns how Asher really was bullied all the time.

TheVoidchildProject

makes for all allround more interesting character gallery. ^_^

mathtans

Yeah, good cast.

Phenylketonurics

IT IS, so many cool characters to learn from~! It was really impressive to see Asher's growth alongside Finn's -- I consider Finn an adult and yet Asher was schooling him on empathy, haha^^

RebelVampire

maybe powered up bully bullies fin. thus they have a common bully.

mathtans

Ooh, that's possible too.

TheVoidchildProject

Phew, well I gotta go back to sleep. Glad I at least got to chime in on this one. I might set some alarms for these in the future too! Hooray for Abducted and good night all. ^_^

FONCreator

nice talking to ya

mathtans

Sleep well!

RebelVampire

night~!

Queen Brave Hikari of Memes

night

Phenylketonurics

Have a good night, VC~!! Get lots good z's~

FONCreator

this was fun ^^

Mharz of Angels & Punchy Ladies

yay!

was able to catch up to it

RebelVampire

Unfortunately, the scheduled Comic Tea Party is now complete~! Thank you everyone so much for joining this week’s chat~! That being said, if you would like to continue discussing the comic, we encourage you to do so~! We want to give a big thank you to Mike Battle, as well, for volunteering ABDUCTED for our reading queue. If you liked the comic, please be sure to support Mike Battle’s efforts. If you have questions, concerns, or suggestions about CTP, please feel free to PM me, or e-mail me at RebelVampire@startfaire.com.

With that said, next week’s Comic Tea Party will focus on Centralia 2050 by Michelle. Please use this week to read as much of the comic as you would like. Hope to see you next Thursday (August 17th) from 5PM to 7PM PDT~! Until then~! @Michelle Comic: http://centralia2050.com/