#yeah ok I'm just fucking triggered because I can literally HEAR people way younger than me getting way better treatment
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david-watts Ā· 2 years ago
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today Iā€™m going to be angry about past decisions
#hm! fucking hate that if I want something I have to get it myself because my fucking family has an idea of me that is incongruous#to my actual self!#should've fucking FOUGHT the decision to move me from one class to the other. both times.#but no I was beholden to expectations#and of course everyone else feels like they get better opportunities than me#it's not always about not taking the opportunities presented because sometimes the only opportunities you get fucking Suck#'oh you should've taken more *~opportunities~* in high school' yeah ok I made the choice to not get bullied more when I could actually#and of course there's always when the special opportunities they went on and fucking on about getting pulled out from under you#I hate the word opportunity now fuck this#I feel like I am behind everyone else#and that I missed out on the years where I. had the actual ABILITY to learn new thing#things#yeah ok I'm just fucking triggered because I can literally HEAR people way younger than me getting way better treatment#at the hands of that stupid fucking school#it is my fault. but also if they weren't fucking LIKE THAT THE WHOLE TIME#I know it was like. inevitable. since everyone I was held to the expectations of had either a head start got to do what they actually wanted#and DIDN'T start developing severe mental illnesses that prevented me from functioning#but I still fucking hate them all! I didn't ask for special treatment I asked solely to be treated equitably#I feel like I wasted half of my childhood and of course I DIDN'T GET THE OTHER HALF#you won't get the other half when you're being pursued by the government as a way of getting at your parents#I do actually like. want to be better at stuff. but NO I HAVE to feel inadequate
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to-a-merrier-world Ā· 4 years ago
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TEDDY HI okay I think I'm late but I would love to hear about DC Spiderman, love and other ways to die (the jay one at the end), aaaaaand Zuko accidental baby acquisition!!
LYSS! hi! lol
ok, so, DC Spider-man is, essentially, what it says on the tin--an AU where the powers of the multiverse that be decide to stick a Peter Parker into a DC universe, and things go a little differently for him. He still gets bit when heā€™s 15 and his uncle still gets shot, but Ben doesnā€™t die--instead, he goes into a coma for a few months. During that time, Peter takes on his Spider-man persona to deal with his guilt (and the fact he doesnā€™t know if his uncle will die or not). Eventually, Ben recovers, but Peter continues to be Spider-man. Ben and May find out a year later, and while things are tense for a while, they eventually accept it and help him out (such as with his webshooters).
Anyways, the beginning of the fic partially follows some points of theĀ ā€œJustice League: Warā€ movie. Peter ends up meeting Superman, Batman, and Green Lantern when they go crashing through New York fighting each other. At the time, Peter is 18 and a senior in high school. I also get a huge kick out of Bruce being younger than people expect, so heā€™s only 22. Hereā€™s a lil excerpt I wrote:
ā€œSpider-Man, donā€™t fight him,ā€ the man in black growled.
He glanced back at him and saw heā€™d climbed back to his feet. He was holding a weird, glowing box that basically screamed ā€˜Danger, Will Robinson!ā€™ But the man himself didnā€™t set Peterā€™s senseā€™s off.
He was in a get up similar to Supermanā€™s, but in all black and with a mask that covered half his face. The mask had little points on top and he had an emblem on the front that looked like aā€¦Ā 
Oh, Peter thought, eyes widening behind his mask.Ā 
The Batman.
Well, that saves me a trip to Jersey, he thought. And thenā€”holy shit, the Batman knows about Spider-Man!!
and another, cause i think these are funny lol:
ā€œWell?ā€ Superman asked. His question was clearly addressed to Batman, but he was glaring daggers at Lantern.
Yeesh, Peter thought. If looks could killā€¦ Wait. Superman has heat vision. His looks could actually kill! How does that even work, anyway? Does he just stare really hard, or is it like flipping a swiā€”Wait, stop, I need to pay attention, Batmanā€™s talking.
ā€œļæ½ļæ½antern and I chased it into the sewers. It exploded before we could find out anything, leaving this box behind. We deduced that both the creature and the box were likely of extraterrestrial origin. We agreed to reach out to you,ā€ Batman gestured towards Superman, ā€œto find out anything you knew, and tracked you here.ā€
ā€œBecause heā€™s an alien?ā€ Peter asked, cocking his head.
ā€œUh, obviously?ā€ Lantern replied. ā€œWho else is going to know anything about aliens?ā€
Peter ignored him, carrying on with his line of thought.
ā€œIs that, like, speciesism? Or racism towards aliens? Cause, I mean, I donā€™t know a lot about non-humans, but I feel like they probably donā€™t all know each other.ā€
Superman snorted, and when Peter looked, he was definitely suppressing a smile. Probably.
anyways, the fic is an elaborate excuse to force a friendship between Spider-Man and Batman (and Superman) and would basically follow them through the years (and possibly lead to romance between them? i hadnā€™t decided lol). Oh, and last 2 tidbits before i move on: Peter is trans, cause why the fuck not, and i was also seriously considering titling thisĀ ā€œSpidey and the Batsā€ to only be read like the Elton John songĀ ā€œBennie and the Jetsā€.
ok, on to the Ajin!Jason Todd AU
so, idk what you know abt ajin, so iā€™ll explain a bit. Ajin: Demi-Human is a manga/anime about Ajin, people who possess extreme regenerative abilities that trigger upon death or mortal injury, allowing them to completely recover from their wounds in a matter of seconds to such an exceptional extent that not only can missing limbs be restored, but Ajin can fully regenerate after being turned into literal meat patties. Additionally, Ajin can create "black ghosts", which are highly dangerous combat-oriented entities that are invisible to normal humans and only visible to other Ajin.
I tweak the idea, somewhat, because in this AU, the amount of time it takes you to come back can vary--especially the first time you regenerate. It gets faster the more times you do it, but it starts off slower. Jason is an Ajin, so when he dies by the Jokerā€™s hand, he later regenerates--only, he does so much slower and more incomplete than other Ajin. His body is restored to how it was prior to dying, but somehow his mind got locked inside his black ghost. He ends up wandering around Crime Alley with his black ghost trailing him until another Ajin stumbles across him.
This new Ajin, Kay, realizes somethingā€™s wrong with Jason and tries to help by...Ā ā€œresettingā€ him aka killing him again. It ends up working, but it doesnā€™t exactly engender feelings of friendship between him and Jason. Kay is pretty weird, though, and doesnā€™t seem to mind Jason not trusting or liking him, and despite killing him like it was nothing, is actually a kind person. Heā€™s also determined to explain Ajin to him and ensure the kid understands the potential danger heā€™s in (heā€™s very vague about it, though, cause Kay has Secrets lol).
Anyways, it turns into this whole superheroes (mostly the Bats) vs the government vs rogue Ajin, and Jason ends up thrown into the middle of it all. The beginning of the fic deals more with Jason and his familyā€™s grief/guilt/trauma and Kay sorta just hangs out until shit starts hitting the fan and heā€™s forced to reveal some things about himself :3c
OKAY on to the last one, Zuko Accidental Baby Acquisition AU!
this one starts off write after Zuko Alone when Zuko is leaving that town where he met the little boy. He ends up coming across another town, but this one has been destroyed by the Fire Nation--itā€™s a literal battle ground. There are the bodies of Earth Kingdom soldiers and civilians left to rot in the sun with only the broken weapons and armor of Fire Nation soldiers to explain what happened here. Zuko is horrified and wants to leave, but heā€™s starving, so he has to go into the town to try to find something to eat.
The fires from the battle are still burning low when he starts searching the town, and eventually he hears the cry of a baby. he runs to investigate without thinking and comes across a woman with her eyes closed and so severely burned Zuko automatically assumes sheā€™s dead. In her arms is a crying baby, red-faced and distressed, but otherwise looking unharmed. Zuko approaches and as he reaches for the baby, unsure what the hell heā€™s even doing, the woman opens her eyes. She can barely speak, but she asks Zuko to take her son--Kyo--and to bring him somewhere safe. Zuko agrees without thinking, wanting the woman to pass on with some amount of peace.
The woman dies and Zuko is now left with a baby. The story goes on with Zuko seriously struggling to care for a baby, not to mention his inner turmoil and the trauma of seeing that town and watching the woman die from burn wounds. Zuko, like in canon, follows Azulaā€™s tracks, but because of Kyo heā€™s slower and ends up arriving just as Azula shoots Iroh. This time, while Zuko wants to say no to Kataraā€™s offer of help, heā€™s stuck b/c he canā€™t care for Iroh AND Kyo, so he ends up accepting her help.Ā 
Which is also when the Gaang find out that Zuko, somehow, now has a baby. Katara also helps look the baby over, and itā€™s basically a really weird time for all parties. Eventually, the Gaang help Zuko, Iroh, and Kyo get settled in an abandoned house to recover, Aang insisting on leaving blankets and food behind (mostly for Kyo and Irohā€™s benefit).
Anyways, the story goes on and Zuko, who had planned to just leave the baby at an orphanage in Ba Sing Se, ends up wanting to keep Kyo (he gets attached and feels responsible for him, and canā€™t just let him go). Things, obviously, go differently with a baby involved, and Zuko doesnā€™t end up betraying the Gaang/Iroh like he does in canon because of Kyo.
but yeah, thatā€™s it lol, sorry this is so long, i got carried away
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