#yeah i don't actually like anything after day 3 LMAOO

[ghost-qwq]

gonna post my goretober art every 6 days ^^ hello chat

^^ HERE ARE MY PROMPTS THIS YEAR 🫡🫡🫡

Art under the cut :P

[disappearenceofsomeone]

the small... the itty bitty.. the sad sniffles..

(hi guys!! needed a break to deal with something, but hopefully I can actually try a schedule for posting stuff soon :3 )

uhh I got designs + barely cohesive context right below:

I love these SILLIES!!! don't mind how empty Winnie's page is, I didn't know what to do

decided that giving them school uniforms to match the surrounding this took place in was a ok decision so I did that!!

also here's the rlly confusing context I made in the middle of the night whilst accidentally pulling an all nighter at the same time:

(I have 0 experience in writing anything in general, I was spouting whatever made sense in my head so if you think this is ooc for them, it probably and most likely is lmaoo. sorry in advance to everyone who was curious ehough to read whatever... this is considered..)

anyways, prologue takes place in an elementary school where Winnie just finished his day at school, it didn't go that well but y'know, there's 10 more things to worry Abt then that. He gets to the bus stop, knowing well he was gonna have to stay there for awhile and planned on making himself comfortable. Upon arriving, he hears sad sniffles from across the seats and boom, sad lil meow meow auggie appears!! Very concerned Winnie approaches the kid, proceeds to get a very hot headed response from him as auggie pushes him away (he isn't having any of it today + he was kinda a punk when he was little like damn!!!) Winnie clearly sees that the dude needs ATLEAST *some* company so he just, sits by him awkwardly. Augustine over here doesn't have a clue why he's still not going away but accepts it nonetheless, albeit in a very tsun tsun way I guess. Winnie takes this as a small talk starter and tries to engage with him, to no avail as auggie seems to have a very reserved manner when alone. After a few minutes of trying, he decides to just be straightforward and ask him what's up, to which Augustine replies with a 'none of your business, why do you want to know?' type of response. He just tells him that moping around wasn't gonna do him any good and since they both seem to be going home late anyway, might as well kill time. (on second thought, they sound very adult for 7-12 yr olds, what. I will come back to reread this dw) Augustine now knows Winnie doesn't mean any harm and decides why not, got nothing else to do. He proceeds to tell him regarding how others seem to only want to be around him whenever he acts a certain way (ie, very bubbly, friendly, etc) and thinks about whether or not people actually do like him for himself. It also makes him feel like if people actually knew how he was, not many would stay (like a 'yeah I want people to stay, but I want them to stay for who I actually am' type thing). Winnie tells him that he should be himself, regardless of what anybody else thinks otherwise. Additionally, Winnie thinks that if nobody's willing to stay after seeing the truth, it's their loss honestly, he thinks Augustine should care about people who would actually be there for him, not for who he's trying to be. Augustine is somewhat stunned by this, asking if he's been through this before, to which Winnie remarks with a similar situation happening back in his previous school (Winnie's friends didn't stay in touch and never contacted him ever since he moved). They pretty much notice atp how similar they were and decided to spend to the entire time waiting just chatting, turns out they got along very well (cue scenes of them yelling at each other playing games, cat scratching as they yell something dumb at the other while simultaneously talking about how cute the cats walking around were). Time passes and bam! Winnie's mom finally comes over to pick them up!!

"Hey! I know that lady! She's my mom's neighbour! :O"

"Oh, it's my mom-- How do you know my mom???"

"Uh, duh!! >:/ I just said that she's my mom's neighbour--- she's your mom!?!?"

(Cue them getting inside the car and getting bits about how Augustine and his mom met. Apparently, he and his mom visited to send off some gifts for her, when in actuality, it was to send off some medicine for Winnie, who was sick during this time. Of course they got some gifts but the medicine was important. And the gifts were too.)

As they got closer towards their houses, Winnie was planning to just go back inside the house immediately since he's got no plans going on and assumes that was it. Augustine thinks otherwise, so when they both got out of the car, he immediately blurts out his name and introduces himself. Winnie, realizing this entire time they haven't even said their names towards each other, also introduces himself in response.

They both seem to connect easily and since no one else was willing to, they will instead. With a promise to stay by each other's side no matter what, they both spent their entire childhood together. They were practically two peas in a pod, nobody ever saw them apart, even if they were in a group of people. They stood out by a lot since then, the very loud and obnoxious kid was hanging around with someone who could chill him out in an instant. The two were inseparable

[bluelolblue]

Hiiiiii! So we talked about vampire John and Santino - what about werewolf John and Santino? Are they both werewolves? Does one turn the other? What’s their whole vibe? I want to know all about it! 🖤🐾

WEREWOLVES YAYAYYYY

This made me so happy bc I love werewolves ever since I was a kid YAYYY!

I also personally like those werewolves who look like wolves (more like anthropomorphic), you know, have tails and don't have any human features (there's so many werewolf designs). Because that is a real werewolf to me :].

Okay, I love this so much, lemme hyperfixate! This gave me such a good idea that I will write a longer fic on it one day!

Imma explain what I have in mind now! :3

Werewolf AU! 🐾

John is giving me werewolf vibes, so he's the one that was first turned into one. How it happened? Well, he was just doing what he usually does. He was on a mission but got ambushed by an enemy who just happened to have lycanthropy. He got some symptoms a week later and turns out he also got it and became a werewolf. I see him a dark-black coated werewolf (because of his hair), honestly kinda like the black werewolf from "Van Helsing" (2004).

I also think John got more physically stronger, I mean he looks the same just yk got more strength (bro is already strong like just imagine with extra strength). Yk also night vision and everything else.

He didn't want to tell Santino at first because he didn't want to scare him with that. In this AU there's lots of possibilities, like what if they were supposed to hunt werewolves and now this happened? That would make the whole situation even more intense! Then again, Santino noticed that something wasn't right with John. Like... he had even more trouble sleeping than before, was more restless and other side effects.

So, Santino was curious and wanted to help if something was bothering him. And then the whole "I got turned into a werewolf" talk happened. "Please don't be scared or mad at me l-" but Santino literally can't be scared or mad at him. And he's the only person who isn't scared of him, honestly. "I don't mind it. You're still the same in my eyes."

Santino accepted it. And he was really curious actually. Like... his werewolf form, he really wanted to see it. And once he did... yeah. Oh yeah >:]. Sorry if I sound weird, ummm monster sexy time isn't for everyone I understand 😭. Santino is a freak, okay lmaoo!

It didn't took long for Santino wanting to become one, too. If his lover is going to be a werewolf and suffer some side effects as one, he is going to do it. One more thing I think comes with changing into a werewolf. Muscle cramps after turning back to human. C'mon, that has to hurt! So, I like to imagine Santino massaging him, his legs, his shoulders, his back, anything that hurt. And back rubs when John struggles to sleep or has some side effects.

John was a bit worried about turning him into a werewolf. It can be really exhausting and and painful at times. But, Santino insisted. And John can't go against him. On the bed, pinned down, John bit into his shoulder enough for his fangs to sink into his skin and let the blood flow. It wasn't a big bite because he didn't want to hurt him too much. Santino did wince and whimper when it happened but he was glad John did it. Now he can be like him.

It left a little scar, just like it did to John (however I think he has a bigger scar because it didn't happen willingly). And of course, the side effects started happen after some time, John told him it was all normal and kept comforting him through it. His first transformation, John was there for him of course. Comforting him like always. I see him a brown coated werewolf, like his hair color yk. Maybe a bit more curly near head.

Ahh he would be such a cute werewolf. Not as big as John, and not as strong as him but still gets all the advantages of being a werewolf. A cutie, like imagine him wagging his tail when John praises him and pets his head AAWW!

It takes some time for him to get used to this new ability, like especially with his tail, "Why is my tail wagging??" And John is like, "That's because you're happy, love." Absolute cuties :3

When they're both in werewolf forms, I kinda think they would snuggle and, like how dogs snuggle each other, rubs heads together and nip on each others ears and that. Just be cute together.

Do they get freaky- yes. 💀😭

Considering how curious and kinky they both are (*coughs* Santino especially *coughs*) um... yeah. They definitely did it like that. :>

But they really just support and comfort each other. If someone wants to hunt them down after finding out they both became werewolves... they are ready for a fight against whoever wants to hurt them.

OKAY! This was so fun to write and think about! Thank you so much for this ask! I really love this idea, so I'm gonna add it to the list, Werewolf AU! YAYYY! 💙🖤💙🖤

[m-ilkiee]

Hiiiii, I’m a new follower of urs like 2-3 days ago lol. I just wanna say I’m so glad I found ur account and the series “Monsters” cuz, not to be dramatic, it literally changes my life.

Two chapters in and I’m so GONEEEE UGH. Ain’t no way I’m surviving the rest of the series fr…😔 The brainrot is real tho, totally did not stalk through the monsters tag LMAO. Those two psychos (their names shan’t be mentioned.) are making me want to rip my own hair out cuz wtf. FREE MY GIRL YN SHE NEVER DID ANYTHING WRONG‼️‼️‼️

I’ve never felt so bad for a character before (even tho it’s essentially “me”). Bro I wanna strangle those two so bad, u have no IDEAAA QNDKDK. Then again, I myself have a problem too cuz I keep coming back… someone save me from toxic men PLSSS. Honestly, this series got me in a chokehold so bad that I even created an ai about those two on chai LMAOO (also dw, it’s private so it’s only me using it and I won’t make it public without ur credit :)) )

Just wanna say that Monsters is fucking amazing, no words can truly describe how this series make me feel rn. I normally don’t sent asks or anything of the sorts, but I have to let it out somehow… if you don’t mind, I’d love to send u a few of my own characterizations/interpretations of those two after reading the two chapters :)) anyways, GOOD DAY AND IM LOOKING FORWARD TO WHATEVER U PUT OUT<33

HELP THANK YOUUUU. I actually saw your reblog the other day, but I was way too anxious to respond. Thank you for really loving monsters fr I am sooo grateful ngl.

Dw, I totally stalk my own tags too. And yeah, writing those two men makes me want to cry or bash my phone somewhere because they get me frustrated half of the time, like I'm the writer and I still have a hard time wrapping my head around what the reader did to suffer such pain?? Like, she's just a nice person trying to survive and they have beef with her over the fact that their sister is hanging out with her friend compared to them.

Part of the reason I did write this story was that I have a terrible obssession with toxicty and toxic men, so yeah, I feel you about going back to them. Some scenes are pure indulgence ngl (the gun scene in chapter 2 cough cough).

Thank you sm for not making the AI bots public. I really don't mind it as long as it's personal use, since there aren't really many tr rps around that may agree to rp the plot of monsters. I fully understand

Thank you sm for sending an ask. I'm fully interested in hearing all your characterizations and interpretations of the characters if you don't mind, I'm all ears. I love seeing different persepectives of my readers, I'd love to hear all about it.

[memberment]

gooooooodmorning everyone

I am ready to fight everyone today.

THAT BEING SAID.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day.

I have come to the conclusion that outside of everything I'm posting I'm going on a fake hiatus while I restructure a bunch of shit and take some time to be a human.

So besides like everything that's already been committed to the weekly post racket is going to be every other week for a little bit.

I will not be shutting up here though someone would literally have to pay me to shut up on this platform.

(5:03) I'm so fuggin tired from work hell today guys I hate it here LMAOO

(8:37) good morning everyone I'm alive again. (I actually took a nap?? Like it worked???? I dunno I'm not gonna question it I'm just gonna be happy and press on finalizing genesis.)

We're still at 114.7k but the yap fic is GROWING.

Like, the amount of thought I put into this random rare pair magical girl au that all of seven people are gonna read is genuinely funny to me. BUT AT LEAST ALL SEVEN PEOPLE WILL BE ABLE TO APPRECIATE THAT BECAUSE SO FAR I ATE‼️

Yeah, guys. I'm never gonna be able to write anything like that again.

LIKE I'M NOT QUITTING YET.

But nothing like that will ever come from me again.

Kinda like the way nothing like Dandelion will ever come from me again.

(Oh my fucking god now I'm upset over Dandelion I JUST GOT HERE)

(9:44) I just wrapped up on 23 and I'm losing my shit. 14 more to go and THEN WHAT. I DO MY HOMEWORK????

Holy shit the thought of functionally going on hiatus fr is actually scaring me guys. (I genuinely need to do this for my wellbeing and the quality of my fics BUT I DON'T WANT TO LMFAOOOOO)

(10:21) okay, I'm sorry, but I find my yap fic to be really funny in the sense that like, okay, yes I am talking about my process. There are some things that would be overlooked and having it shoved in your face and actually acknowledging those things honestly makes the story so much more fun and overall way more enjoyable imo. But every now and then there will just be a comment thrown in like "in case you need something to be upset about."

LIKE WHY AM I LIKE THIS???

(12:14) Next genesis chapter is up I'm just tryna finalize this entire fic but I'm terrified bc I just hit chap 25 and all I wanna do is read this one fic I have 2 chapters saved of but I NEED TO FINISH THIS!!! I CANNOT PUT THIS OFF BECAUSE BEFORE I KNOW IT I WILL LITERALLY BE POSTING THE NEXT CHAPTER AND REALIZE I'M MISSING LIKE 1K WORDS LMAOOO

(3:59) I wasted so much time just being a bozo. 27's done through. I'm at 115.3k now!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!

(6:57) 31 is pretty much done I am at 116k and I am DEAD.

This is getting properly wrapped up tm after my lab work I will be reading my fav until I pass out GOOD NIGHT!!!<3

[clownhonkbonk]

to any interested here are my reactions i remembered to write down for the magnus archives in it's entirety :3 it's not too many bUt this is what you get

the episode numbers are written with them!!

ft me trying to understand the story with a great deal of pain writing on my phone in my notes app mostly at 1 am

REACTIONS 👀

56 sub statment thinf w martin

avtually got tears in my eyes. i love you martin. i love you jon. im so happy he just went " avtually, im rather relieved " or whatever bc hell yes girl u are so unwell.

this show is so addicting.

57

OMG 28 DAYS LATER MENTION!!!! THE END IS EXTREMLY FUCJING NEIGH!!! not the reference but excited

spooky.

WAY too attached to them

58

only just skipped the add and " episode Fifty-Eight. Trail Rations" And immediately went " oh NO !! cannibalism :( " and the read the description like LMAOO everytime there's anything relating to food in this podcast i just go " oh no it's cannibalisim "

holy shit it's a woman cannibal, diversity WIN

WHAT THE FUCK I REALISED WHATS HAPPENING WHEN THEY'RE BOTH DEAD

benjamin wtf homie this is NOT good bedroom foreplay

ouuugg auch good writing.

i understand the possible cannibalisim thing now

YES JON OFC THEY R WORRIED ABT YOU YOU DUNBASS IM CRYING PLS

at lwast he doesn't think it's martin as much anymore ❓❓❓❓

i NEEEED to stop going through s1 animatics but QOW this fanvase is awesome i love all the designs.. i used to think martin and tim were the same person for a few episodes

65

honestly hell yeah tim. shout at jon for being weird. but also sike you can't leave.

66

insane.

81

ok im like halfway through this but like so for the deities / entities that r silly

we got

eyes, spider, diseases / insects ( though they maybe different ) and meat maybe???? maybe there's just three..

83

oh oh the guys r all core fears / most common fears, one extra is THE STRANGER OOOOoooOooooO

84

i love you martin for filling in n trying to take over for jon ur such a cutie

idk how much i believe that elias did it but like all evidence does point to that

86

actually love their lil dynamic. cuties.

103

OUUUGH JON WHAT THE FUCK DID U USE UR BRAIN POWERS ON HIM WTFFFFF

104

martin is getting spaceyyyyy uh oh.... be careful bb..

107

jon have you been DRUGGED?!?! (8:00)

jon bb mayb take a break you seem to be like having iron deficiency LMAOO

111

ok we got 14 whores of the universe

1 end - death

2 eyes

3 vertigo

4 the stranger

5 the spiral - madness

6 isolation - fear of being alone / seperated form ppl

7 burning/fire

8 the desolation

9 the slaughter violence

10 the web - also being manipulated

11 the vast

12 filth disease insexts

13 claustrophobia

14 darkness

the meat ❓❓❓

124

OUUUGH HE LITERALLY DITCHED THE RECORDING JUST TO RUN AFTER MARTIN the gays r getting to me

126

WHAT HTEH FUCKKK !>??!?!?!? !??

bro this is NOT therapy. bro ham lukas peter you dickwad what the fuuuuuuuuuuuck.

ISOLATION??????????????????????? WHY IS THE ISOLATION GOD POKING AT MARTIN ?!?!?!?!?!?!??! DICKWAD??!?!?! ?criyng asobbign why

i actually low key love lukas " dynamic duo " is sO funny sjkdjk

martin i miss u come back it;s not woRTH ITTTTTT

fuck i draw jon like trent crimm if he was a twig and gayer and green

131

i physically recalled at the start they've IMPROOOVED their aUDIO... fucking crazy.

also bitches be bitching ( jon AND melane )

honestly fuck yeah helen girl

133

girl is dealing wth SOOO much trauma poor girl........... jeez.

cannot stop thinkin about martin :(

i miss tim.

134

WOOOO MARTIN

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH HE LEFT THE TAPES FOR JON WTF

the buried / cave

the end

the corruption / filth

the dark

the desolation

the eye

the flesh

the hunt

the lonely

the slaughter

the spiral

the stranger

the vast

the web

135

feeks like they're reading together but w a wall in the way which is sad

142

MARTIN PLEASADEEE

also jon what the fuck please don't be a dick this lovely lade lost her job and gained so much trauma.

143

jon stop using ur thing constantly on people it makes me worried for you and insanely pushes you to not being human.

jon i know she tried to hurt you both but ur being so mean, im WORRIED.

hell YES hellen

144

martin im still upset at you for going " why does no one tell me anything !!!! " while literally avoiding them and asking yhem not to talk to you!!! wtf broham.

anyway loving this story

145

gertrude what a girl holy cow<3

146

IM SO WORRIED ABT MARTIN AND JON GUUUUUUH WHAT THE FUCK.

150

jon u r so self destructive...

151

holy ahit simon fairchild..

154

what the fuck im sobbing what is this good omens bullshit i love it but im crying not really but like heartbreaking????

171

i don't know if jons gonna survive if he doesn't stop getting weird and weirder.

also adorable "is he your boyfriend?!"

" yes actually "

jon what the fuck w u n these flesh flowers

ok hi!! thst was the last one.:3

i didn't write down reactions for further episodes but if we can bring our attention to me writing at some point ( in early season 5 ) in my sketch book " 10 bets jon or martin dies at the end "

[skylerfurmaniac]

skyler

skyler

skyler

am hunger

has thou got any sona lore thou is willing to share...... 🥺🥺🥺 /nf

i

PEOPLE WANT MY LORE I WASN'T EXPECTING THAT

okay yeah I will I'll give u some food ^^

Everything is underneath keep reading it's a long post lmao

Skyler was actually a mechanic before they fell into the dark world. They could fix anything that you asked for

When Skyler fell, they fell around the time a bit before before the phone started calling spamton. The Addison's found them in the city all lost and stuff, and just basically added them to the friend group.

Skyler was treated the youngest basically even though they were the oldest one. But honestly it would depend on how they were cus they can fluctuate their age if they wanted or because of emotions lol

Until spamton became a big shot, no one else knew Skyler was a, well, GOD (I'm made the basics of Skyler when I was 9 please don't blame me lmao) only they knew and only around them could Skyler be more of... Themselves

Only reason it became public was because in the early days of the big shot era, Skyler was messing around with spamton and stuff, using their magic and shit, and Queen walked into them.

She than basically said if you don't work for me and use those powers of yours, than I won't let you near him

Not really a thing Skyler NOR spam really wanted

So even though they hated it, Skyler started working for queen yeah

Skyler actually knew what was going to happen to spam, but couldn't really interfere because, classic laws of "if you break their path, you break the world" so yeah. It kinda had to happen

It hurted them so much

To just see the person they love, just.... Fall

Anyways the reason why to Skyler wears those gloves and why Queen kicked them out of the mansion (it really didn't matter to them much anyways) was because Skyler TRIED to at least for spamton not to get dunked in the acid..... But they were just to late..... Just. To. Late.

The reason why they are a god though is because they made a deal with...... Someone.... But every wish comes with a curse! And the greater the wish, the greater the curse....

Spamton and Skyler never actually started officially dating till after Skyler found him in the dumpster. EVERYONE knew they liked each other but they'd always ignore them, just saying they were friends with benefits. Yeah right lmaoo

skyler doesn't know who they are or what they are to be exact tbh

Oh and also this sona has SOOO MANY PROBLEMS LMAOO

Depression, social anxiety, ADHD, autism, PTSD, and trust issues XD

Just your daily mess!!

They try not to show it tho :P

Tired, eppy creature holy fuck

Soul is actually rainbow, with a gold outlining

Bleeds red tho. It's weird tho cus when the cut is more dire it slowly turns to gold

PLUSSHIEEESSSSS

They love them so much holy crap help them through a lot

"I TRUSTED YOU!! I TRUSTED YOU WITH MY LIFE, AND WHAT YOU DO? YOU BETRAY ME!!!! I BELIEVED IN EVERY SINGLE WORD YOU SAID TO ME, I BELOVED IN YOU SOOO MUCH!! BUT I WAS STUPID TO DO SO!!! I WAS AN IDIOT!!! YOU ARE THE ONLY PERSON I HAVE EVER TRUSTED, I HAVE NEVER TRUSTED ANYONE ELSE. YOU WERE THE FIRST ONE. AND YOU DESTROY IT!!!! I HATE YOU!!!! HATE YOU HATE YOU HATE YOU

HATE YOU!!!!"

:3

Anyways have a drawing of mechanic Skyler lol

[myloveforhergoeson]

man at this point idc what the btr boys are doing lmaoo im so invested in how roxy & dak are gonna go. do we ever see roxy's pool date with jo & camille? i wanna know what they think about this whole roxy dak mess he's putting her through....

hello! i wanted to respond to this rq bc i've literally been thinking about it all day

thank you for being interested in dak and roxy i was so scared people would stop reading after i introduced that little plot line! all i've gotta say is... roxy writes based off life experience or scenarios she creates in her head... so... yeah... hahahaha

i did not originally intend to show roxy's pool date with jo and camille but i will write it tomorrow after i get off work and post it asap! i've been writing the season one finale for literal weeks at this point and i'm starting to go crazy over it so itll be nice to get into a different little one shot for a bit. i'll post it in a reblog of this question so we can all find it :)

more under the cut !!!!

right now i will give you a little sneak peek about how EVERYONE feels about the roxy-dak mess because i'm generous like that, and i don't really get to show everyones feelings on it in the story bc we only get inside her head... there's a bit in chapter 13 where we see a little bit of how the guys feel about it, but i didn't want to make it a whole thing and then it kinda turned into a whole thing 🤷‍♀️

anyway: how my characters view love and roxy's relationship through some cannon events and my own personal beliefs

jo: takes absolutely no shit when it comes to love, we see this when kendall has his thing with lucy... she grew up listening to boy bands and has a standard for how men should treat her <3 plus i think she's been in one non-serious "we went on a few dates so i guess he's my boyfriend" relationship from back home so she has a little experience. she thinks dak isn't worth any more of her time after he stood her up but she is afraid to voice this to her bestie...

camille: is a hopeless romantic and would go nearly to the ends of the earth for the ones she loves. she's a "if it's meant to be, it's meant to be" kinda gal and at age 16 fully believes logan is the love of her life. i think he's her first partner! she wants roxy to be as in love as she is and thinks that, while shitty, the whole standing her up thing is just a bump in the road on their way to everlasting love

carlos: pre-established to have never been in a relationship but he's like a silly jock so i'm sure he's been on at least a few dates! he has older sisters in my story (because he feels like he was written by a woman (me. i'm that woman.)) so you know he knows the proper way to show a date a good time! he thought roxy looked so pretty on her first date and he just wants her to have a good time and be happy. if dak makes her happy, he's happy! and he was actually kind of okay with the stand up thing because they got to hang out and dance together <3

kendall: captain (?? i don't think i made this up... this is in the show right?) of the hockey team in a midwestern high school. he's had a few partners and i know his mother whooped his ass (metaphorically) into shape after she found out he goofed around too hard and hurt someone he went out with on accident... as for the roxy and dak affair, he may or may not have picked up on the fact one of his good buddies may or may not like her... he's not a fan but will not say anything bc he isn't in the business of telling her what to do (she will hit him with her songbook very hard)

logan: while a believer in his love science, he's yet to find a way to quantify how he feels about camille after the party in chapter 10 :) he dated a bit his first few years in high school (mostly double dates with james? i also think is a fact from the show), and has had a few non-serious partners but he's never felt this way about anyone else! in his love science-y world, he can tell that dak does not feel the same way about roxy as she feels about him. if he did, he would've come to the party. simple love science!

james: good lord! he has dated anyone who is someone at mountain aire high school and it's always been to elevate or retain his own social status. so when he's normally a flirt for fun, or because it makes his boring little small town feel less boring, it's always been a game to him. except somewhere along the way of flirting out of habit with his new friend, he might have started to actually mean some of the things he's said. he thinks dak's a douche for standing her up and he's trying to make that clear to her the only way he knows how: vague hints and comments here and there. another established james fact is he's never been dumped, so i imagine this brings up a little bit of fear of rejection in him as well. he has trouble voicing his own feelings as well, since he's always trying to come across as perfect.

whoo boy that was way more than i though it was gonna be lol. if you make it this far, you deserve a medal. thanks for the suggestion! i'm excited to write the pool date... we haven't had enough roxy/jo/camille in the fic lately

[astral-from-afar]

Ooh nice to see a fellow Kamen Rider type of person

Personally, out of the three main tokusatsu, I think I watched Kamen Rider more than anything. I did watch all 3 equally at first but my interest went from Ultraman and Super Sentai (from when I was little) to more of Kamen Rider as I grew older.

I haven't watched much from Reiwa since I stopped watching Tokusatsu maybe 3 years ago. But growing up, my parents were into tokusatsu, so I was naturally shown a lot of it, lmaoo. I kinda stopped being open about it after some kid in third grade made fun of me for it 💀

After that, I became self-conscious about it as I grew up, so I told myself I had to stop watching it. My parents still watch it though, and they tell me it's good, but I don't have the courage to start watching again 😭 Lately I wish I didn't do that cause now I feel like I'm missing out on the fun lmao- it was really fun to watch because they tend to have a deeper/darker meaning to them, even if it seems to be for younger audiences at first glance, which I find neat.

I don't really remember much from W, since I watched it way back when I was younger, but I remember the acting was great (I think the actor for Philip was only 15 at that time? I've seen that guy in other J-dramas and his acting is amazing). I remember liking W but I just don't really remember what it was about. Maybe I should revisit it sometime.

I think my favorite was Den-O. I'm pretty sure I've watched all of the heisei ones but I can't recall all of the good ones that I liked. I do remember liking the 3 last Heisei ones which I believe were Ghost, Exaid, and Build, but out of those 3, I think Ghost was the best.

ALSO YOU ARE SO RIGHT the kamen rider soundtracks tend to be bangers

Oops I kinda talked too much about myself LMAOA (I tried to shorten this the best I could. i really did. I DELETED 3 PARAGRAPHS LMAO)

No way you used to be a fan AS WELL. Now I feel a bit embarrassed for recommending stuff. Also Den-o is top tier. Deneb is probably one of my favourite kamen rider characters just for how funny he is.

To be fair I was more of a Power Rangers kid growing up. I started off watching mega force when it was still airing and religiously watched the reruns of older stuff like Dino Thunder, which was my favourite.

I stopped watching after a bit because man are kids RUTHLESS. Some of them made fun of me so I stopped watching for a bit. Luckily I have younger siblings who were watching the show up on it so I became a casual viewer, mostly watching for my siblings and then lying at school the next day.

The reason I got into Toku was actually because of a YouTuber that I was subscribed to. I had 0 clue what kamen rider was and they were praising fourze so I thought ‘I’ve seen jojo part 4, this is practically that with superheroes’ and then proceeded to watch the series. I then moved onto the other series like ooo, build,gaim,W,Den-o,ex-aid and blade.

Funny story about my watch through of blade is that I had no context for where most of the memes in the fanbase came from so I watched Blade to mainly understand everything. I had gotten up to the final arc but had to take a break since mock season was going on. When I finished I remember that I rushed home and decided to watch the last arc, despite being very tired. Yeah big mistake. Who knew a bench could make Astral cry but it did

I’m wondering right now what series to watch now. The smartest decision is to probably catch up to the latest season but I’m probably going to wait until it finishes to binge it. I’m torn on watching a late heisei era show or trying to see more early heisei works. I’ll do what I do best which is spin a wheel and decide what to watch lol.

Nooo man you don’t need to shorten down your thoughts. It’s fun reading this stuff and believe me I’ve been holding back from spamming the dashboard with my random Toku thoughts so you shouldn’t worry about if you’re saying too much. If you want to get back into it the newest season of kamen rider is around the corner so you could start getting back into it from there.

[riverstardis]

series 32 episode 11:

weird how lily used to fancy mr grayling🤢

RASH!! also his mum🥺

ah rash says "good luck gift for your favourite child?" so he DID used to have siblings!! guess none of them care enough about their dad to help rash look after him or contribute to getting him in a good care home huh

lmaoo madia nearly crashing into connie on her motorbike

lily saying her father used to say "emotion is the enemy of success" and elle nods and goes "my dad told me the queen is really a lizard" SJDFJDJF

"staff nurse david hide" "ha ha not seek?" "no, i'm a buddhist" SJSKJFJF oh no is this gonna renew my anger about them wrecking david and rash's friendship for that pointless ollie and rosa storyline

"i have our new f1, dr rashid masum" "well, he appears to be invisible" 😭😭😭

"some of the women working here, they're pretty er, brusque" LMAOOO

lmaoo robyn asking louise what she thinks of the new f1 and louise goes "i'll give him a month" sjsjdjf "i mean totty wise. i think i'm gonna give him an 8 out of 10. 9 if he's got a thing for redheads with kids" 😭😭

LMAO rash saluting connie😭😭😭 she goes "strange boy" SJSFJJF that reminds me of louise saying ethan was "a bit odd" in his first episode. also i just realised in both their first scenes they're with their mums👀

i'm still bitter about ethan not being in this episode to say goodbye to lily

aww dylan saying sanosi's no longer part of his life :(

oh yeah i forgot lily and sam had beef lmao. sam nicholls i mean obviously, weird cos i just came straight from reap the whirlwind where she has beef with sam strachan lmao

ohh rash i love you <3

alicia looks GORGEOUS💍💍💍

awww rash running out of connie's office to throw up sjsdjffg

he almost leaves his glasses in the toilets lmaoo the first sign that he doesn't actually need them? honestly that whole glasses thing is so funny like they didn't want to commit to another character with glasses after they already got rid of lily's and ethan's and they knew how they complicated things, but they did want us to know immediately that he was a stereotypical glasses-wearing character (like lily and ethan) so they just decided to give him glasses for a few months and then reveal he never even needed them?? tbf it worked, i mean we could already tell he was a new ethan by this point lmao

iain telling lily how he feels about her right before she goes in to do her talk. way to sabotage her career mate :/

aww connie talking about how she's seen lily grow into a very fine doctor🥺

aww alicia introducing herself to rash and saying she heard he did alright today and inviting him to the pub with everyone. he's like "i don't really drink" and she goes "me neither, see you there" sjfjfjdf oh yeah i forgot this was during her "given up alcohol and men" era

awh rash overhears robyn and david talking about how they rate him :( he nearly doesn't go to the pub but lily tells him that it's something she should've done on her first day🥺 oh yeah cause she was pretty isolated from everyone until she made friends with ethan... SO WHY TF ISNT HE HERE SAYING BYE TO HER

she thought she'd blown her talk and she didn't seem that upset about it, ig bc it stopped her from having to choose between hong kong and iain, but then she finds out that not only did she get the research post they're asking her to talk over from mr grayling as the leader because they don't like working with him LMAO

now iain's literally begging her to stay bro wtf???

"i am lily chao, and i have to go" 😢😢😢

does she not like,,, need to empty her locker or anything??

bye bye lily I MISS YOUUU

i firmly believe that if not for cal's death ethan and rash would've been friends immediately

[fear8not1]

FIC WRITER INTERVIEW

thank you for the tag @its-all-papaya and for reviving my dead tumblr

How many works do you have on AO3?

i currently have nine works on this account and i had about 11 on an old one

What's your total AO3 word count?

115,450 jesus who wrote so many words????

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

anything you ask i do (for you) - 1 496 (wtf) - Formula 1 RPF

let's take a breath (before we go, go, go) - 758 (???) - House MD

that's the speed - 672 - Formula 1 RPF which might get a chap 2 and 3 before the end of the year .... ???

i wanna hear you say my name - 668 - One Piece

except you (you can stay) - 572 - Formula 1 RPF

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

yeah, i do ! i respond to all comments except hearts (because i'm not sure they're really meant to be answered). i think it's really important to thank people who take the time to leave comments, whether they're entirely fleshed out analysis of our works or just keysmashes.

i most likely will never be an actual writer, but writing on ao3, exchanging with people about the dumb little things i write is the closest to being a proper writer. it's really nice and i want to give back as much joy and happiness as i receive :)

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

i just realised i don't write a lot of angst at all. i do have a couple of angsty drafts but i never feel good writing angsty ending... i guess song of myself would be the closest thing to an angsty ending in all of my works ? maybe ? but it's a dead poets society fic so of course it's kinda angsty. maybe i'll try to finish those angsty drafts one day, i'm not terrible at it it just makes me :(

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

i like getting together ending so pretty much all of them outside of song of myself LMAO

Do you write crossovers?

no, never tried

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

back in my fanfiction.net days yeah but nothing bad

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

yes! i write a bit of everything for smut, although i haven't dabbled in uncommon fetishes and kinks (don't know if i ever will but it'd be good practice). i find it rather easy to write smut because a lot of it is focused on emotions and feelings, which is what i prefer writing.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

don't think so no

Have you ever had a fic translated?

no

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

back in the days yeah but co-author ghosted me LMAOO and then like soph, a lot of roleplaying so a technical yes ig

What's your all-time favorite ship?

oh that's a tough one. honestly this may sound a bit dumb but probably landoscar ? i've written a lot of ships, been a fan of even more than what i've written, but i just can't seem to let go of landoscar at all. i think it's half because i truly enjoy their personalities and dynamic and half because i feel so close to oscar. we have a very similar personality and way of doing things that makes it soooo easy to write him. so the process is not difficult usually

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

as soph said, all of my WIPs LMAO i have over 30 drafts just for landoscar stuff. there's one that i absolutely love but know i most likely won't finish it (and since i won't, i'll share a bit with you) ;

it's a color soulmate AU. you live life in greyscale up until your soulmate touches you.

lando is a very famous painter who sees in greyscale as he has not touched his soulmate yet. oscar works at a museum where lando is granted access because he's struggling with his most recent painting. they spend a while together analysing paintings and techniques and everything, getting to know each other through art. lando still deeply struggled with his painting ; no matter what he does, it feels wrong. his background is painted, but the middle stays empty. after a while, at a party, oscar briefly touches lando who regains his color gradually. he doesn't know who touched him, obviously, and has a major freak out where he ditches oscar for a few days. he finally sees his paintings in color for the first time ever which makes things even worse. he refuses to see his works for a bit, tries to figure out who the hell could have touched him (obviously fails). finally, he grows some balls and goes back to the museum and oscar is just observing his favorite painting, one he has master copied while oscar was watching, and it hits him like a brick. oscar is what he needs to add to his painting.

anyway. the thing is entirely fleshed out in my head but i have so many drafts, so many things to write that even the tiniest bit of research is too much atm. maybe one day...

What are your writing strengths?

i think i'm good at dialogue and emotions. a good number of people have told me they've cried reading some of my other stuff, which is always good, and i think i have a high understanding of how people work mentally so it makes writing emotions, dialogue, characterisation in general a bit easier.

What are your writing weaknesses?

i really suck with descriptive pieces. i always forget to set the location and include spatial points for the reader to cling onto. i don't think i'm great at action scenes either because i'm too deep into emotions and feelings to really give a proper view of everything.

more than everything, though, i have a huge, huge problem with motivation and inspiration. im always inspired, i have a concerning amount of drafts, but most of them are around 3-4k. that's when i generally forget about them or move on to another idea. i try to fix that by going back to one of them every time i write my main idea but i only end up adding 500 words before going back to my main idea. which sucks.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

i think it can be useful if the reader is meant to be alienated, but it never works fully unless its a made up language. other than that, i don't mind it too much but i think outside of tiny words here and there (pet names in mother language, national name for a town etc) it's not that useful. a bit of a pain in the ass if you're a native english writer (i'm not, but still), and a bit of a pain in the ass if you're the reader.

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

funnily enough, same answer as soph. i used to write a lot of one direction back in the days. technically, the first ever fandom would have been warrior cats which is . something. so i'm gonna stick with one direction, the second fandom i've written for. after that it'd have been harry potter or teen wolf.

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

for ships, i have a few loscar drafts and a few logan/alex/george ideas. i don't feel entirely comfortable writing alex (specifically), but who knows. for fandoms, i have a few shield fics that i absolutely love (WWE team) and want to get to soon, a few friends fics that i think would be nice to post, some mentalist/the office/hannibal ones, too. i tend to always be too into whatever i'm watching so that makes a lot of fandoms in the end lol.

What's your favorite fic you've written?

i'm satisfied with all of them, but i really like anything you ask i do (for you) because i don't usually write getting together stories without a side of smut, so it felt a bit different. it also was purely because i love fake dating and wanted more for landoscar. except you (you can stay) is also a favorite of mine because it was my way of coping with being sick far from my family and the idea of someone washing my hair for me honestly carried me through it LMAO.

i'm gonna cheat a little but i'm also gonna add vampire landoscar, my current WIP, because it has been very fun to write even though i kinda forgot about it for like, six months.

not tagging anyone but please do this if you feel like it !! <3

[sssammich]

yeah the early woso era was A Time but it gave us some great gems like all of the collaborations the woso authors used to write and the way you guys all built off of each other's work, that podcast you used to have with that other woso author (where you would start recording and not tell her you started the recording for each episode's intro), and specifically that krashlyn fic where ashlyn cheated on ali that ended up coming true (that fic was literally all i could think about for the entire month after the whole sophia bush fiasco)

i also dropped out of fandom at around the same time but ended up rejoining a literal decade later because of the 2023 world cup last year and some of the changes that shocked me were:

tobin heath and christen press are dating??? and went public with their relationship

kristie mewis is the gay sister?? AND is engaged to sam kerr (the first thing that popped into my mind after hearing her name again was that video she did with carli lloyd riding a scooter in a banana suit?)

euoprean woso players' popularity have been rising like crazy in the past ~5 years or so (esp the english national team and league)

so there's a lot more variety of who to be a fan of outside of the uswnt which is great

the sport has also grown so much more diverse (more woc, more publicly out lgbtq+ players)

more publicly out lgbtq+ players means more super cute (public) irl queer relationships to follow <3

but it also means so much queer dating drama between the players 💀

i feel like there's less rpf these days

which might be because there's less of a 4th wall between fans and players like the older generation were all normies but the newer generation are as chronically online as we are

but that doesn't explain why there's so much self-insert fanfiction (there's sooo much)

it's gone more mainstream which means more collective fandom brainrot so it's probably for the best that you're no longer in the fandom

0H MY GOD THE *PSYCHIC DAMAGE* ANON HOW COULD U DO THIS TO ME

i legitimately forgot i held a podcast about woso and woso rpf LMAOO that was insane unhinged it's all gone now unforch and probably for the best (god what a wild time. for the record, i loved it and it was great, but jesus i forgot. i remember going into my partner's closet LMAO because she actually had one so i could record. fucking wild)

anyway yeah lmao listen despite being a consistent talex shipper, there was ZERO questions that alex morgan was like the straighest straight who ever straighted. but tobin. well, that was no surprise. christen press tho! that was a surprise to me lol some of my best fics in that fandom are, like, not about talex tho LMAO

OMGGG KRASHLYN FIC LOVE TRIANGLE; what fic you're thinking of and what i wrote is probably not the same. but this just makes me think of the ashlyn/ali/niki fic that came about when seeley wrote one thing and then jessie wrote a response fic and then i wrote a response fic to that. holy fuckkkk this feels like my roots of writing just popping up announced. how do you solve your writer's block about two sad women? you add a third sad woman in the mix. holds up. (i mean, these are real people so cheating is literally the worst and love triangles in general can be super complicated but from a storytelling standpoint: *chefs kiss* delicious)

everything you've bulleted out is like equal parts surprising and not surprising but i will agree that it was probably for the best that im no longer in the fandom.

(also self-insert fics are, like, so bold. i don't hate it or anything because, like, it's fanfiction do whatever you want but it's so...revealing. me writing the way i write is already making me so exposed but to just blatantly blitz through that and go for a self-insert. damn.)

[julsvu]

teen romance — camilo madrigal

synopsis : how i imagine dating camilo would be like <3 also my 1st post :o

contains : camilo having identity issues, some cuss words

the fluff :D

oh boy, the moment u agreed for him to be ur boyfriend, ya better be ready for an adventure.

camilo would be smiling so hard once u accept his confession skfbske, like the mf just won the lottery. (i mean he kinda did but yk /hj)

ok so like

i feel like he would smother u in affection everytime he sees u

but he'll respect it if u aren't comfy w that

he would be lowkey nervous abt pda but at the same time he has u as an s/o now, he has a good reason to flex and shower u in affection 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

mf was whipped and will always be whipped for u

ure prob just as whipped as him tho

maybe more than him /j

ANYWAYS

he would def like dancing with u, just jamming to random music in his room or dancing in the town, not caring if a ton of ppl r watching u guys 😍😍😍

literally hes so romantic and such a gentleman during ur relationship :((

felíx raised him well

constant cuddling sessions w him :((

also a warning; just bcs u guys r dating doesnt mean he would stop pranking u LMAOOO

during dates, he would literally make u go to his room and have a romantic ass date there by him shifting the room into a romantic theme or sumth

like OMG??

he would be such a gentleman bruh :((

also when you meet his family or when he introduces u to them, they would accept you immediately.

they would tell u embarrassing childhood stories abt him

and how annoying camilo was gushing about u when u two werent dating (dolores def said that as revenge when camilo was teasing her for mariano LMAOO)

pepa and felíx would be vv happy that u make their son happy

literally a bit of rain would drop on u bcs of pepa's tear's of joy, but felíx would ofc calm her down

they're so proud that camilo found the love of his life :((

they also sometimes see themselves in u guys when they were younger

and alma would prob be hesitant, but she will accept u after sometime, dont worry :D

overall his family would accept u, and would see u as their family as well 2!

the angst D:

when he is experiencing identity issues, he most likely wouldn't be that open abt it, like he would lock himself in his room, wondering if the reflection he's looking at the mirror is rlly him or not :(

and u would wonder where did camilo go throughout the day, cuz usually u guys hangout w eachother after chores.

so u go to casita, and went to his room, finding himself staring at the mirror and tears in his eyes.

the sight broke you.

and once camilo heard his room door open, he looks at u with a shocked face, tears still in his eyes

and you didn't hesitate to run to him and hug him, rubbing his back, asking him whats wrong.

"why do you love me, (name)? when I don't even know who am i.."

"camilo, i love you because of the way you smile, the way your eyes brighten up when you see something you like, the way you're so brave, not hesitating to do anything risky, the way you let me out of my shell, the way you make people laugh — the way you do everything. you're camilo madrigal. the boy i fell inlove with, the boy who makes me happy, and my first and forever love."

yeah he cried more after that,,

he was just so glad he has a partner like u :((

ok anyways moving on for the arguments

i actually dont know what u guys would be arguing abt but ig imagine u guys argue and yk big fight and stuff sad

fortunately, the both of u prob wouldn't stay mad for eachother that long

the only thing unfortunate was for dolores, she heard the sad ass argument while she was just trying to talk to mariano ☹️☹️

OK ANYWAYS

so like camilo would prob try making up to u by forcing u to talk to him once he sees u in town again, he does not care if ure talking to someone else or sumth

so like u guys go to somewhere private, and a silence fills the air until u say: "what do you want, camilo."

ouch

but, camilo was determined to apologize and fix everything alright?

he looked at you, and said sorry about the argument and how he wasn't really thinking about what he was saying, and promised to do better and be much more aware next time, instead of being careless.

ofc, u apologized as well and accepted his apology :D

the end !! hope ya enjoyed it hehe <3

© 2022 JULSVU. all rights reserved. please don't plagiarize, translate, put in other websites or copy my work without permission. ty!

[insomniactalks]

So after reading some reviews and episode descriptions I have a feeling Ricky and Gina gonna mend their friendship in 3×03. So with their started friendship(again) Ej gonna get some jealous hence that scene in trailer happened in 3×04. But since colour war gonna happend in 3×06, we know portwell are perfectly fine by that episode(thanks to "it's on" music video). And in the choreography Ej and Ricky looks fine with each other too. So yeah overall I'm expecting drama but also super excited for portwell journey in season 3.

This anon and I have pretty much the same thoughts LOL😂 I don't really have anything to add. ( sorry for my late response though😅)

Oh wait. Just want to add something now that it occured to me. I can't be the only one who's kind of excited for some Portwell angst. No couple is perfect, so I'm actually really excited to see how EJ and Gina are going to handle their first big argument as a couple. The last time they really fought was in 1.06 I think. Even during their 1.0 days, they were actually being pretty honest with each other in that fight lmaoo😂 Gina tries to pretend like "nothing" changed, then a second later, she admits that "everything" has changed for her because she doesn't feel like she has to get the lead anymore. EJ wises up soon after that too. I'm certainly interested to see just how Portwell will navigate real conflict in their relationship this season. 🤔 If they were being honest with e/o and themselves during their S1 days, I doubt that will change in S3🤷🏽‍♀️

[rogue-durin-16]

STICK TOGETHER

Summary: When Fred finds out Y/n is planning on leaving the Wizarding World, he canalizes his feelings in the worst way possible, which leads to a terrible outcome that seems unfixable.

Pairing: Fred Weasley x Slytherin!Reader

Genre: angst

Tags:

Fred Weasley: @whiskeyn-rain @lumos-solemn

Permanent taglist: @elia-the-bibliophile @randomparanoid @karlthecat15722 @thebutchersdaughtersblog @amourtentiaa @just-here-to-escape-from-reality

Warnings: swearing

A/N: @meph1stophelian is here putting pressure on me to post this already so I'm apologizing for the poorly written ending lmaoo enjoy <3

Rogue-durin-16 masterlist

"Fred, calm down." George begged me; he walked by my side, trying to talk some sense into me, but it was not the moment. "You gotta understand her— throwing a fit isn't going to help anyone—" I didn't even look in my twin's direction while he spoke. "Bloody hell, Fred—"

"Y/n!" I quickened my pace, leaving George behind after spotting her in one of the corridors, having a chat with a couple of Ravenclaws. "Can I have a word?"

"Sure— Oi!" I hadn't waited for her to reply before grabbing her hand and snatching her away to pull her into the nearest broom closet. "What was that about?"

"Tell me I heard Katie wrong and you're not actually leaving."

"I can't tell you that." She plainly responded, her voice steady.

A single, gobsmacked snide left my throat. "You're joking, right?" My heart ached as if it was being constricted when she shook her head no. "So you're fleeing?"

"What?"

"Things are getting ugly so you're running away."

Her eyes dug into mines as she stayed in a very uncomfortable silence before replying with. "So what if I am?" When I averted my eyes from hers, she called my name. Her eyes were somewhat softer now, with a gleam of plea in them. "For the last two years we had nothing but tragedy. Diggory died, You-Know-Who is back and recruiting, the ministry is full on going against a teenager, this pink colored nasty toad is physically abusing us, and on top of that, I have to put up with my housemates' bullshit for having muggle blood— I'm tired!" Her voice had raised a bit, enough for me to know she was struggling to keep it at bay, but still managed to. "If I can have a life out of this then—"

"You're a coward."

"Fred." there was a warning on her tone, but I couldn't listen.

"You're leaving... people behind," she attempted to reason; I didn't let her. "Dunno why I'm surprised, really. At the end of the day you're a Slytherin for a reason."

Her eyes started to well up, and I couldn't tell if it was with anguish or fury. I knew I was getting under her skin, but that was exactly what I intended to do; if I was going to leave that room scarred, so would she.

"Self-preservation, you call it." I scoffed, feeling my own rage building up faster each passing second. "Pure cowardy."

"Is that what you think?" Her tone wasn't steady anymore; she was holding back the poison of her words, for my sake.

"Yeah." I wasn't capable of doing the same thing for hers. "And I don't want your cheap excuses and emotional manipulation to convince me otherwise." My face was probably red due to the anger, my jaw and fists hurt from clenching them; I was off the rails, and the person who would usually stop me was standing in front of me. "Better leave now so you don't have the chance to sell us out when shit goes down."

Silence fell upon us, our gazes locked, equally watery and with the same amount of fury and sadness within them.

And finally she snapped. "Maybe I'm a coward, but you're a self-absorbed prat who's not able to see beyond your own ego!" The way she said it hurt me more than the sentence itself. "This is not gonna be a DADA class, Fred! I don't want to fucking die because I was too slow casting Protego."

"Good luck, Y/l/n." I curtly wished her before stalking out of the broom closet I have initially dragged her into.

~~~~~~~~~~~~

We avoided each other for a week. The following Monday, when I entered the Great Hall, I found George and Katie quite depressed.

"What's gotten into you?"

They shared a look before my brother turned to me, deciding to break the news himself.

"Y/n left last night." He gave me an apologetic look. "Thought she'd wait until the graduation—"

"But she's had enough." Katie finished, toying with her breakfast. "Honestly, I wish I had a life in the muggle world too."

My lungs were refusing to take the air inside; I felt as if I would choke if I stayed there, so I stormed out, jogging to reach the countryard.

I needed to breathe.

Even after the wind hit my face, that vital task felt like the most difficult thing in the world to accomplish.

I hate her I hate her I hate her I hate her.

A sob escaped my chest, realising the harsh words I had spat at her were probably the last ones she would ever hear from me.

I love her.

A Year And A Half Later

READER'S P. O. V.

I managed to apparate somewhere in the cornfield —the only place around the Burrow I remembered clearly.

I should have landed with a broom, but apparently, Mad-Eye didn't inform Lupin that I would serve as an extra escort for Harry if they were ambushed, so my broom was now smashed somewhere down the muggle road we had flown over.

Mentally cursing the damn moment in which I spoke to Shacklebolt in hopes of being useful in this war, I looked for the entrance of the Weasley home, which took me quite a while.

Funnily enough, it was Lupin who stepped out, wielding his wand and casting yet another hex at me that I somehow managed to block.

With a swift wave of my hand, he was propelled back into the house. "YOU!" A long-haired redhead I recognized as the eldest Weasley helped my old Professor up as I stalked to them with my wand up. "YOU HEXED MY BLOODY BROOM! I'M LUCKY TO BE ALIVE!"

"Y/n, calm down—" Shacklebolt was now besides me with his hands up. "He didn't know you were coming— he was trying to protect George from further harm."

My brain was slow to process his words, but as soon as it did, I started to down my arm. "What happened?"

"Snape hit him with the sectumsempra." My eyes widened at Lupin's heavy words.

"Did everyone else make it?" The three of them remained silent, the ginger shaking his head no.

My breath caught up in my throat, but before I could ask if Fred was alright, another tall ginger flashed the corner of my eye, and my head snapped to the living room's door.

FRED'S P. O. V.

Everyone was scattered around the house. Ginny took Hermione and Fleur to her room; Ron and Harry made its way up too; Tonks went out —she needed a moment alone to mourn Mad-Eye—, and, while my parents and I stayed with George, Lupin, Shacklebolt and Bill went to guard the entrance.

I was still kneeling by George's side, holding his hand while our mother healed his wound the best she could, when we heard a yell followed by a strong blow in the kitchen.

I looked at my mum and dad, my eyes flickering to my twin while I reached for my wand.

As I got up, more yells were heard, this time clearer; the voice was familiar— I knew that voice all too well.

There she stood, at the entrance of my home.

Her eyes met mines as soon as she caught a glimpse of me, and my head started to spin. I knew I had no right to do what I was about to do, but after that night's events, in which the war became very much real, I couldn't help but rush to her and engulf her in a tight hug.

Surprisingly enough, I couldn't take more than two steps forward, since she did what I intended to do first.

"You're alright." She mumbled against my shoulder. My eyes shut, trying to block the tears that threatened to fall. "How's he?" She inquired whilst pulling away with a concerned frown.

Not trusting my voice, I nodded in the living room's direction. A quiet sough escaped my lips as she passed by, her hands lingering on my arms for a brief instant before she entered the room and took careful steps towards the settee.

I barely caught a couple of words from George and Y/n's exchange, my mind still buzzing due to the shock.

"What do you say, Freddie?" I frowned at my twin, regretting not listening to the conversation. "She can take my bed, right? I'm not gonna get far anyway."

"Right." I agreed, struggling for my voice to come out steady. It was Y/n we were talking about; I had known her since our fourth year, I had been friends and more with her, seeing her shouldn't be that nerve-wracking.

A couple of minutes later, we were all heading to our respective rooms, and as I closed my room's door behind me and Y/n, it dawned on me that I had underestimated the anxiety that could cause me being left alone with her.

Get it together, Fred.

"If you want, you can grab a shirt from the drawer." I finally managed to speak, motioning at the chest besides the window. She nodded and turned to it to look for one she could sleep in.

Now that I had the opportunity, I carefully observed her, and soon realized how much she had changed in the time we were apart. Not only when it came to her physical appearance; she stood a bit straighter, talked a little calmer; the joy with which she used to sparkle was dim now, eclipsed by a severe, worried attitude— a sign of us no longer being the kids who messed around at Hogwarts.

"I missed you" I knew right away that wasn't the best start for the conversation.

"It sure didn't seem like it." The bitterness in her tone stung my heart harsher than I expected.

"You're still mad?" The way I was conducting the conversation was making me want to bang my head against the wall.

She sighed, turning around now that she had the shirt on to meet my gaze. "A year and a half, Fred. You didn't contact me for a year and a half. I thought we were friends."

"You left me behind!" I talked back, partly because I panicked, but also because I, to my surprise, was still mad too. "What did you even expect?"

"A letter?" She questioned, throwing herself down on the bed. "I mean— I didn't really expect anything, but a letter would have been a good way to let me know you didn't fucking hate me." My eyes, now fixed on my lap, went wide when Y/n's voice broke at her last three words.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled, quite ashamed of having to apologise while also being scared of saying anything that could harm her further. "I'm sorry about not writing and- uh... I'm sorry about what I said to you. I know it's not an excuse but I was really mad and..." I cleared my throat and felt the blush creeping up my neck even before I finished the sentence. "... and hurt 'cause you- I thought that maybe I wasn't important enough to you and- yeah, I'm sorry about what I said." I tried meeting her eyes but they were fixed on the wall before her.

"It's fine." She shrugged, "I guess you were right anyway."

"I wasn't right-"

"You were." She hugged her knees to her chest and hid her face there. "Wanna know why I'm back?" She didn't need my response. "They're hunting down my family." My heart stopped beating for a second due to the shockingly deadpanning tone. "A friend gave me a tip-off— they were tracking them down. I got to them just in time." I refrained myself from asking about them —the less I knew, the better. "So yeah, you're right, I was a coward and left people behind."

My body shot up and my legs carried me to George's bed; without me being fully aware of what I was doing or which consequences it could have, I sat down and pulled Y/n into my arms.

Though she was shocked at first, her body soon relaxed into the familiarity of my arms, and she let out a relieved sigh. "You're not alone on this." I whispered, pecking her crown. "I'm here, okay?"

"So you don't hate me?" She murmured against my chest.

Maybe it was the fragility of her voice, or the warmth of her embrace I missed so much; maybe it was this past year and a half of regret, or the night's events, but I couldn't hold back my words.

"I love you."

And even though she went stiff, even if I had just blurted them out almost in accident, I didn't regret saying them, because I, in fact, loved her.

She pulled away to look into my eyes. "You mean it?"

"Yeah." I replied, calmer than I had been in a while. "And I'm really sorry about everything, if I could turn back time—" words and air were cut off by her lips crashing against mines.

We had kissed before, but it was on a bet's behalf or to prank someone; this was different, this was her pouring her 'I love you' into actions, and I embrace it gladly.

"No more running away." I commanded when she pulled back. "From now on, we stick together." She nodded, her forehead resting against mine and her palms on my chest.

[kuiinncedes]

dreaming like we'll live forever

@gleeadvent day 4: dough :D very very late lmaoo but it's all good 🤪

so this is likeee in my kurt and the phantoms au i guess?? i didn't give too much thought to the timeline tho so idk if i'll end up like keeping these details in that main work, but i did just make a series for it to add this to lol 😋 but yeah like it might not actually align with the main work as "canon" i guess if that makes sense hgjlkdf

you don't really need to read the main work to read this, all you probably need to know is that blaine, sam, and tina died and came back as ghosts and are in a band with kurt who is not a ghost :] if you've seen jatp i think this kinda takes place uhh like after flying solo ish in the show timeline 🤪

[ also, a scrapped line that came to me while i was struggling to think of something for this prompt but i didn't know how to write the context for lmao: “Tina’s about to storm Netflix headquarters with a spatula and a bowl of cookie dough,” Puck says. "And I'm right there with you," he assures hurriedly when Tina's nearly murderous gaze fixes on him.

i had One thing on my mind when i was trying to write for this prompt XD the vision was that nd is all like hanging out and tina's making cookies bc why not and they're chilling and someone's like OH SHIT JATP GOT CANCELLED and they're all pissed at netflix bc they all watched it together <3 fuck netflix for cancelling their best show and also taking glee off <3 ]

title from "now or never" from the jatp soundtrack and it starts with d yay :DDD

warning for a small mention of kurt's mom's death, i think that's the only thing ?

1413 words, read on ao3 or under the cut <3 !!

A thud breaks Kurt’s focus on his homework; he jumps and looks up to see Blaine across the table from him, having just poofed in, probably -- which would explain why Kurt didn’t notice him -- and slapped his hands down on the table. “Hey,” Blaine says, with a cheeky grin and bright eyes.

Kurt puts his pencil down, a smile pulling at his lips. “Hey. You scared me.”

“I’m a ghost, that’s my job.”

Kurt raises a teasing eyebrow. “Didn’t think you were that type of ghost.”

“You don’t know anything about me,” Blaine says, both eyebrows raised. His arms are crossed in front of him on the table, and Kurt mirrors his position, leaning forward.

“You’re perky,” he remarks. “So then are you the type of ghost who just likes to distract students working on homework? Or did you actually need something?”

“I’m here to tell you to stop studying so hard,” Blaine teases, but then he bounces up from his seat. “It’s Sam’s birthday today. I was wondering if we could make something for him?”

“Like…?” Kurt raises an eyebrow. “You remember you guys can’t eat and, like, can barely touch things.”

Blaine exhales, pouting a little. Kurt restrains an almost-smile at his expression.

“I know,” Blaine says. “It’s the thought that counts?”

He sounds like he’s trying to convince himself, but Kurt just shrugs; he doesn’t have too much to do for tomorrow. (And maybe he wants to spend more time with Blaine.) He’s bored. “I’m down,” Kurt says. When Blaine’s eyes immediately light up, Kurt can’t help but smile with him.

--

Three ghosts face him from the other side of the kitchen counter, looking probably all too eager considering the fact that they can’t really… do much. Blaine called the others in through their weird telepathic link or something that Kurt definitely does not understand and has not bothered to understand, since the whole ghost thing is just weird anyway. There’s a whole ghost thing in the first place -- the ghosts having some kind of internal bond is the least of his concerns.

They poofed in and -- after Kurt’s hesitant clarification of “I’m just… making cookies for myself, then?” -- assured him that they would be fine with more or less just watching him bake, and especially Sam looked so genuine and wistful at the idea of just chocolate chip cookies, they were my favorite that Kurt had to cave.

“And this way these two can’t eat all the cookie dough before we do anything with it,” Blaine says pointedly, giving Sam and Tina a look to which they respond with playful laughs and a light shove to Blaine’s shoulder. He rolls his eyes, muttering, “Surprised you guys didn’t die from salmonella first.”

“It’s cookie dough, Blaine!” Sam exclaims, Tina wide-eyed and pointing at him in agreement. “What were we supposed to do?”

“Wait until it was baked , maybe?”

Kurt laughs and watches as they bicker and fall into their familiar dynamic that he definitely doesn’t fit into, but is starting to understand a little more. He still feels hesitant to do this, but… they’re the ones who can’t eat the cookies, and they’re the ones who initiated it, so the blame isn't really on him if they end up regretting it.

And yeah. He doesn’t think he could stand up to their collective pleading faces again. He grabs a bowl from the cabinet. At least he gets cookies out of this.

--

Apparently, being dead and mostly unable to touch anything does not deter ghosts from being annoyances, extreme at times. At least these three ghosts.

Kurt does enjoy himself, though, and it seems like they do as well, admirably avoiding why they can’t touch what they so want to touch, and instead giving that topic a wide, wide berth and just messing around. And they do have an impenetrable dynamic at times, but Kurt doesn’t feel excluded at all, even if only because he is the one who has to do everything.

Blaine tries to give him tips and Kurt laughs and emphasizes again that he’s made this cookie recipe many times, and Tina swings her legs from her perch on the counter, and Sam leans in close beside Blaine, who wraps an arm around his shoulders and kisses his temple, and Kurt looks down with a small smile and hears him whisper, “Happy birthday.”

Tina hops off the counter and hugs both of them from behind, also expressing her own birthday wishes as Kurt puts the cookies in the oven, finally.

“Happy birthday, Sam!” Kurt says too when he turns back to them. “I just wish I could do more for you, get you an actual cake or present.”

He wishes he could take that back, suddenly realizing it might be too close to the d-word topic, but Sam’s bright smile doesn’t falter. “It’s okay! Watching Blaine make cookies was always almost as good as having them.” Kurt laughs, a bit disbelieving but he is glad to hear it.

“You’re already the best part of our afterlives,” Blaine assures him. “I think every day we’re here is a good enough present for all of us.”

“No wonder you’re the songwriter and lead singer, with those cheesy words and the looks,” Kurt quips back before his brain can catch up to his mouth. Heat rushes to his face and he hopes against all odds that it doesn’t show, but he knows it’s pointless with his pale skin. It is a little better when he sees that Blaine’s face flushes dark as well.

Sam and Tina look at each of them and at each other with growing grins, clearly holding back laughs and Kurt ignores them.

“Pretty sure I’m bringing people in with my looks,” Sam says after an awkward moment of Kurt trying not to make eye contact with Blaine.

“Sure,” Tina drawls, grinning. “Isn’t it ‘Kurt and the Phantoms’? Isn’t Kurt the one bringing our audience in, since, you know, we’re literally invisible half the time?”

“Most of the time,” Kurt corrects teasingly.

Tina nods. “So it's all Kurt. Our looks don’t even matter.”

“Pretty sure it’s actually just all Tina,” Blaine argues. Unanimous agreement rings from the rest of them while restraining wide smiles and bursting laughs.

“And you put me behind the drums!” Tina exclaims with pretend outrage, crossing her arms. “Imagine the success if I was in front.”

They’re all laughing and keep joking about rearranging the band to maximize their “success,” which turns into deciding who would be worst on each instrument, because apparently Blaine is some sort of musical genius, beyond his incredible melodies and lyrics and into proficiency in almost every common instrument they manage to name. Except drums, which Tina seems to take some sort of pride in.

Kurt takes the cookies out of the oven when the timer goes off, setting them aside to cool, and is surprised when the ghosts include him back into the conversation seamlessly, like wordlessly pulling him into an intangible group hug. They do have their own incredibly close relationship, forged from probably many years of knowing each other, that Kurt both admires and envies fiercely -- but this makes Kurt feel like he could be a part of it.

And he wants to be a part of it; he doesn’t know what it is, but like it felt right to let them stay in the studio, like it felt warm and right to jump into the performance with them and agree to join a band with them, he feels that warmth now, spending this time with them, and at the prospect of keeping them around, spending more time with them, growing and continuing as a band.

When his mom died, he couldn’t think about the future -- not a future without her in it. He could only take it day by day, hour by hour, couldn’t let his thoughts go down that road. So it startles him a little now, to realize that he wants this band to last, wants it in his future, can envision this in his future…

But there is the problem of them being ghosts. And he’s suddenly unsure and unstable all over again, about if there is a future this way.

He pushes the thoughts out of his mind to join the others in laughing and cheering at Sam’s body rolls, back to proving his “true frontman potential!” as the uneaten, unable-to-be-eaten birthday cookies fill the air with sweetness and home.