#yeah I'm extremely sad

[mod2amaryllis]

my albino kribensis died tonight :( I'm still looking into it, I'll put like test details and stuff in the tags, I'm so at a loss....i found him probably minutes within death because i check on them so often. was going around saying goodnight to tanks before lights out and found him. super super bummed. it was barely more than a week but i really liked him...

[jade-of-mourning]

support your brother / sport brother

[tales-of-magic-and-chaos]

The probability of Loki having a gigantic crush on Stephen upon meeting him is 100%.

[sf9]

goodbye (for now) idol!Rowoon you'll always be part of sepgu and SF9 will always be 9 💖 thinking about how Rowoon's acting career helped bring new Fantasies to the world and how SF9 grew thanks to all the members in their own way - actor!Rowoon you are famous but idol!Rowoon will always have a special place in my heart :(

[hirazuki]

Hijikata:

Also Hijikata, in the previous episode:

There is no one he lets off the hook less than himself 😔

[butterflieswhisper]

tori sitting on the stairs is so. the lighting in heartstopper is awesome big fan of the blue/orange. is tori also depressed in the show i still think it would be so fucking funny to offhandedly mention her school burning down

[moonchild-in-blue]

Oh.

[irritablepoe]

You know what's fucking stupid? The little mean voice inside my head that tells me being in a fandom is childish and "aren't you too old for that" and "aren't you feeling ridiculous caring (and projecting) so much for/onto fictional characters" bc literally no MUM, I'm in fact just doing what I love and it's cruel that I feel ridiculous to this day that I'm building up my personality through fictional characters bc I never knew who I really was and fandoms are giving me the opportunity to explore that. Yes ofc that's not "normal" or whatever but is it really that bad? Like I'm feeling better through that, it's giving me motivation to do things. So yeah... Thanks.. another reason I have to unlearn shame I suppose.

[ghostzzy]

idk since i made that post earlier i've just been thinking about all the ways adults were weird and shitty to me because i was gender-nonconforming as a kid. because i MIGHT grow up to be a lesbian or, worse, transgender. and how much it sucked to figure out my identity under those conditions -- where every adult i'd ever met had already figured out What I Was and hated me for it, and i had no idea. idk it's just sad. i'm sorry baby izzy went through that.

[say-hi-intrepid-heroes]

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[ranboo5]

I'm watching the VOD of LexieMariex and Shubble talking about their experiences and I'm not done yet -- I'm an hour 30 in and I'll likely be back with more Comprehensive Thoughts when I am all the way thru -- but it's a very candid and insightful conversation in many ways and it's so awfully prevalent to me how like

How absolutely fucking much of it is pure misogyny. This is a conversation abt power dynamics and in many cases about gendered power dynamics -- they point out how much they've been done wrong by the men in their lives defending this and so many of the things they talk about going thru exist so heavily in the context of gendered power dynamics. Both Shubble and Lexie talk about experiences of their abusers weaponizing misogyny and misogynist power dynamics at them both in particular smaller scale cases and in larger scale ones from Shubble being forced to be Wilbur's maid to the "women aren't funny" thing to the sexual violence to the forced emotional labor to the "boys' club" dynamic in their friend groups to the way that their abusers continued to be platformed and supported on a large scale because of how utterly and deeply our culture and thus any fanbase is steeped in misogyny. The gendered dynamics are so elevated with the fact that the viewerbase on which these people's careers live and die enforce those dynamics So Much - gender gains a financial and social power in an environment where, bluntly, men are more popular streamers.

I hesitate to criticize their discussion of this lest it be taken as discrediting of their arguments (honestly this contributes very little to the substance of their speech, which again is very insightful and extremely valuable) but honestly the only mistake they make is the invocation of "narcissists" esp by Lexie where like . While mental health can certainly play a role in how and where abuse happens I don't think that's an important takeaway at all bc all of what they describe is (as they themselves correctly diagnose repeatedly) an issue of systemic blindness and pure, utter, vile, blatant, completely banal misogyny. As always abuse is about power and people with power clinging viciously to it in any way they can, and feeling entitled to the labor and bodies and service of the people they still believe are beneath them. It's about privilege and the systems in which we r all complicit

And that includes the fandom response. Idk I am definitely #partoftheproblem given how little I tend to branch out in my entertainment tastes but like it is our job as a community to do long, hard, continuing examination of gender dynamics and our role in them and why blorbo from our streams is so often a man. This really is the culmination of the fandom misogyny that people have been criticizing for years and it's deeply shameful how little we've all listened.

[toomanywordsnllines]

Ghost and Roach being the type of best friends that do things like cuddling, laying on top of each other, going to each other's rooms and sometimes sleeping there, anoying each other constantly, sometimes even (more roach) giving kisses in the cheek and forehead (sometimes as a way to annoy but mostly as affection) and just being extremely close together but all very, platonically (maybe some people think they have a thing going on but no they don't, they are just best friends and have know each other for very long)

And then Soap comes

And kinda starts doing the same thing (after getting closer to Ghost) Roach and Ghost already do

And for sometime everyone is like 'Oh, this is normal, they're close friends too...'

Not Roach tho. Roach clocked those two dumbasses with the 🤨 stare the first time he saw them cuddling.

So one day he comes up to Ghost and is like: 'So you like Soap.'

Ghost: No, I don't???

Roach: 🧐 you cuddle with him.

Ghost: We do the same!

Roach: Yeah but you look stupid while doing it.

Ghost: No, I don't.

Roach: 🧐🤨

Ghost: ...

Ghost: okay maybe I do like him a little but-

Roach: 😏

Ghost: I'll kill you

All I'm saying is that Roach and Ghost are besties and AS THE BEST FRIEND Roach has the job to call the bullshit when he sees it

[thedreadvampy]

I tried listening to Olivia Rodrigo and I'm sure this is really good for its target audience of Teen Girls Going Through A Breakup but has she actually ever put out a song that isn't about a guy cheating, breaking up with her and moving on to someone else?

like babe he's not coming back it's been 2 years you gotta find something else in your life

[genderqueerpond]

amyeleven fivenyssa crossover

[roomba-mangga]

"what does familial affection feel like" normal person questions to ask at midnight

[goldentigerfestival]

Yuri's dialogue (JP) is so fascinating to study, like... the repetitive use of certain words/phrases that others use sparingly but he uses constantly. the way it feels like his vocabulary is more expansive than what he uses, but he defaults to a "comfort" level of speech. the way it mixes in with his sort of "street talk" words and the sheer level of informality. the way his "street talk" phrasing is contrasted by the tone of his voice (on that note, people I know who also know JP are also very endeared by these aspects of him so I KNOW IT'S NOT JUST ME!!!).

'cause the thing is, he uses phrases that yeah, other people do use, but he uses a handful over and over and over (contrast to other characters' sparing use of repetition). it's actually... really refreshing? it sounds more relatable and less "video game/anime/JRPG/RPG" writing or something, idk. like closer to how a real person would speak.

I do my best in my translations not to make things sound too stiff across the board, but Yuri makes it so easy. it's why I'm so interested in translating all his lines in Vesperia, like... the actual, original tone for him with his original wording because it's smth Eng only players don't get to experience ('cause even if you listen with JP audio, if you don't know the language, ofc you're gonna miss out on context. it's nobody's fault for not knowing, just... they unfortunately miss out). the thing is, there are a lot of times when the lines in and of themselves are not contextually incorrect in the English ver (usually the situation for smaller scenes, because they altered the text outright for more important stuff which was the stuff that originally set me off, but there were also plenty of cases of just vocal tone shifting with the correct context that still gave off the wrong impression), but Yuri's tone is shifted away from the original in Eng even though it's completely and perfectly translatable.

I am by no means about to translate the entire game because let's face it, I really don't care that much for Vesperia on the whole. I'm kinda stuck with it because Yuri's there lo and behold I actually am WAY more engaged in his stories in Rays, Link and Asteria because it's an amazing character put into circumstances where he actually gets to shine and feels more alive, which Vesperia did not provide nearly as well with its very disjointed story. also, Tales gachas have banger stories that are arguably better than the mainline games, and they regularly make Yuri a very central character to the gachas. Crestoria was also about to do it until they pulled the plug on that game and I'm pretty confident something interesting has been lost to the world. also I just generally don't have the energy or motivation to do that, so... I'll only be focusing on Yuri's lines, especially because his stuff is where the bulk of the messing around was. he's just insanely fun to translate for and I love burying myself head first into his speech.

will I actually finish this project? dunno. will I get around to posting it? whatever I get done (so all of it if I complete it), and if I decide to call it quits then I'll post what I have at the time I decide that. will it take a long time? probably, but I can always mention stuff along the way...