#yeah I was kind of worried I’d hate the show 😀

[daydadahlias]

i thought you said you’d never go to a show?

i did say that! Because I never really planned to go for a vast variety of reasons, including but not limited to the fact that I’m super light and sound sensitive and have chronic migraines so the last concerts I’ve gone to have absolutely knocked me on my ass. There’s also the matter of cost, and travel, and the terrifying amount of people that go to shows. There were lots of reasons I never wanted to go to one. And I’d also set the precedent of being like “I’m never going to a show 😤” so I also really feared getting asks like this one if I ever went 😌

But, a couple of weeks ago, I was on TikTok watching 5sos videos (as one does ofc) and it came to a video of Carousel live and it just kind of hit me like a brick out of nowhere that I might die never having seen my favorite band and it was really scary. So I obviously got really dramatic and in my head about it and cried to my mom for like three hours. Buying tickets was kind of a split second decision (because there was definitely a lot of panicking about if it was the wrong idea for me or not). But I texted two friends and was like,, “I think I wanna see 5sos” which for me was a really big deal. And they went (very pressure free ofc) “u should” so the next day I bought tickets (and cried 😌 bc im a drama queen). I bought them late and I got lawn seats so they weren’t too expensive!! And my irl bestie hyped me about the venue because it’s outdoor and the sound won’t be so overwhelming and blah blah blah but I got myself some loop earplugs for the sound and brought some tinted sunglasses for the lights 🤓

And I have spent the entire last week absolutely petrified of going to this show lmfao 💙 it has been rough 💙 But I survived, I didn’t get a migraine, and there were only a couple times the lights were too much so I just shut my eyes. And I actually took out my earplugs after a few songs and was like “the migraine will be worth it.” But I didn’t even have one! And I bounced around as best I could and sang all the words to all the songs. And then obviously cried a bunch, that’s a given (which is also embarrassing because like why are you crying to don’t stop). And I also screamed when I realized Ashton took off his vest and it scared the friend I was with hehe.

So all that to say: yeah!! I did say that!! But I changed my mind. And I’m really glad I did!!