#yeagh idk what else to say!!!!

[kiirer]

Me deslumbras, me derrumbas

alt versions below (minor blood warning)

[fairycosmos]

i keep thinking abt ur rant post, i guess cause you mentioned your sister. i dont know how to word this and i dont really know you but you seem like youre taking her love with you wherever you go. iit probably is hell to have to claw your way through today without her but i think youre doing really good living for her. and again i dont know how to properly convey this but i see her traces, her love in you i dont know either of you but i have a sister and although she lives halfway across the world she s such a big part of me, and although a part of you might have died with her a part of her lives on with you. thats a little what it feels like when my sister is so far away and in a different time zone but yeah. im so sorry if this is overreaching or me acting insane i cant always tell im just a little sick of people being cut apart because of having to work to the bone for billionaires who don't give a fuck about anyone and etc idk. have a lovely day, if not today then tomorrow.

❤️ this was honestly so comforting to read, thank you so much for the kind words and for being so understanding about the never ending complexities of grief. it honestly is hell without her like i say it all the time but genuinely nothing feels real, feels like life stopped when she died and everything else has been some weird trip. i think it’s why i have to be distracted all the time bc i can hardly manage to think about it. but yeagh she really shaped me in the most fundamental way to be honest and so much of how i learned to be a person came from her. i wish i could do more to help her memory live on and make some grand gesture or art inspired by her but i think really she lives on through our small similarities and the values she passed onto me. it doesn’t feel like enough but it is what it is. UGH sorry to ramble lmao once i get started talking about her i could go on forever. i hope you know how much i deeply appreciate your msg 💗 it’s good to know other ppl get it all on multiple levels. i hope you have a lovely day too x

[6okuto]

hai everypony. used some of u and ur ocs as my muses for a little (big) (rough) spread :3 So u know u r perceived and enjoyed.

if ur surprised because we don't talk um. i recognize ur user and or did some tag lurking so. hey... um. Hey...... tags and notes under the cut!

@khalixvitae - KHALIX ! do not know this guy At All but i decided to mix things up and use him!! if u have any thoughts to share abt vil i'm all ears! >__<

@sweet-milky-tea705 - JAYCE! yasenia. smoking duck gif. is anything else needed 2 say... i didn't forget her ears i just. upside down. hair. and. giuspelazpe

@koyukiki - Leon Kennedy. LMAO he's literally the most random guy on here. "why hoseok da bus driver" vibe LIKEHEEBFHSB but u know. hiii koyuki!!

@shobvrry - wehehehe... hiii friend,, little shoto for u!! :3 do u like the placement of frozen joke bear. get it. bc. because. he. and. get it

@dira333 - kENMA!! this is evidently Not the thing i wanted to give u but. this has taken a while and i actually want 2 redo the other thing so. haii dira!! \o/

@satorisoup - tHe Only self ship other than me on here. based it on ur existing self ship comms and picrews.. R ur eyes green. like. ..IMCRYING . ROCK ON LENE!

@last0bread - !! azalea has SUCH a cool + unique design!! she's also quite satisfying to draw?? LOL. i also like doodling flowers so thanks for letting me do that :3 🩷 /silly

@mustddart - oh my god i didn't know u changed users and just got so scared. I rock w these guys. i don't know their dynamic i based it solely on this post (& it being percy) but I ROCK W THEM!!! U r one of the people i recognize by user btw. Hiiii stay awesome!!!! 🩷🩷

@luv-indigo - SOOO lovely!! loved reading about nadine and seeing her in each step ^__^ !! i recognize u by user too. Haiii all ur art and ocs r super nice and cool!!! 🙆🏻‍♀️🩷

@vaultureculture - bro i am rocking w this design so hard. elvia is stunning like okkk???!! leander i see u. i get u 🙂‍↕️🔥 phlomis is also Awesome i love the dynamics and story going on IM ROCKING SO HEAVY!!

@kandy-katz - omg. i did the chibi first and by the time i got to the last empty space i realized sol was the only one who was a sole (haha) chibi and !! 😭 i felt so bad bc his full design is SO SO cool so he's here twice. HE'S AWESOME!! 🩷🙆🏻‍♀️

@dreamtydraw - smoking duck gif. apple bag trio.. lOVE THEM!! 🩷💌 wasn't originally gonna do all 3 but i saw this pose and thought it was silly and fun.. yeagh. all ur ocs are always so lovely and unique!!! everypony reading this go check dreamty on itch.io and play all 5 games NOW!!!

@evanox - SARA RAAAHHHH!!!! saraahhhhh!!.???? haha get it. ...just looks like i spelt ur name wrong. Let's carry on. MAEHWA!!! 😭🩷🩷 worked off jayce's art I hope she looks ok. sage is drunk and saying something stupid /affectionate Idk what.. hehe she's lovely!!

@anonymous-eggy - Big Fan of masks and i love this one. HIS DESIGN IS SO FUN!! i finished drawing them the fastest fr fr i want that shirt so bAD and their hair is so nice yeahh i rock w az HEAVY!! 🩷🩷

@someiicecube - cannot overstate how heavy i rock w esther. u hooked me at an awesome stunning design and reeled me in w reading too many romance books and wishing it was him. so me. SO COOL!!! 🩷🩷

da process........

yeahgh. 👍 i wud like to draw some for real in the future but actually if i draw anything in the next few days my brain will explodeo.

[toomanysubcultures]

it makes me so mad that people say that quentin quire should never have been rehabilitated bc thats kind of shitty when you think of what he represented

he was basically an alt-right poser that got pushed to that level of radicalism bc he lost the one part of his identity that had remained constant and also sophie didnt want to date him, finding a new identity in hierarchy, raw power, and co-opting a whole subculture

but its important to portray that people like that can change??? like rehabilitation cant just be for people we like it also has to be for people we despise

bc one of the main things that pushes people even further down the pipeline is social isolation and abandonment

ive seen it happen to a lot of people in my real life and its honestly really sad, the way that alt-right propaganda makes you externalize your own insecurity and self loathing onto everyone else, and the only way to fight that is to surround the person with people who give a shit about them and want to see them change and grow, not just shutting them out and shit

not to say that minorities have to give their time to fascists to try and convince them to not be facists but yk

this isnt to say that critiquing how his redemption was executed (i feel like post-riot quentin never really confronted the fascist-y stuff he was on and that's just not good, also i feel like he was kind of watered down to just "annoying gifted kid") but i do think that at least showing that hatred isn't permanent is a nice idea

esp since a lot of comic fans are kinda leaning to that anti-sjw alt right-y scene, so having a character like that could maybe connect with people not all the way down the pipeline and pull them out

idk if im being an idiot rn or if im cooking but yeagh,,

[jjcocker]

hi this is a pinned post

(working on a fanzine w a friend .. check it out if y want to!!!!!!)

yo

✦ i have a bunch of names n im too lazy to list them all, just call me yuri

🇧🇷 might mess up my english at times Sory,

🏳️‍⚧️ im trans and remix3tengokic (gender that EYE coined heeheee), he/him/ele/dele, heart/hearts (note that um im still kinda trying out neos u. yEagh)

aspec (now questioning where Im at, but surely aspec)

a Miner (⛏️)

also block #ventpost if u dont wanna see my waa boohoos,,, thats all that tag rlly is

++ i dont have a real.. set dni list? i just block whatever I feel uncomfortable or grossed out with 👍

✦ i like a lot of stuff, mainly fixating on rhythm heaven rn

self proclaimed rhythm heaven himedanshi,

i do at least oen million thousabd typus per day

also i love the rapwomen i slOVEVGJD I LOVE THE QPWOMEN SO SK MUJC IM. I KSJFJDBJD

look aat them. please

fun fact abt me loving the rapwomen I Especially love the blue one to the point I even questiones if I was fictionkin bc of her......i mean I projected SO much stuff on her2the point I can say shes literally me,

what else do i sayyyyyy uh

i am also the 3rd strongest rockershipping warrior (im cureently beign Obnoxious about them rn,) so ahhm. block dat tag too if yuo dont wanna see me posr about htem. or nto idk,

✦ if you wna draw me (which if u do i Love yoy/p) heres. my sona,,,, finally threw an updated refsheet together- w a few changes made but Eyah

Woo-hoo!

✦ i have a bajillion sideblogs!!

some of them r:

@kii-yan (kii-yan rp blog, quit)

@rap-women (blog where I am Double the insane for the rapwomen)

@rhythm-userboxes (blog that I Really sshould post on again bc i have requests but is STILL inactive to this day, its a blog 4 rh themed userboxes)

@uhn-uhn (was gonna just be a namesnipe but I impulsively made it a blue rw rp blog. in a hiatus but because i dunnohow to start it)

some other blogs that are just namesnipes

thats .longer than i thought itd be

✦ + in case this goes to merda my discorf is @/rapwomen (without the / you.kniw what J mean)(and I also have a shitty bird site account but uh. idk dm for that one ig)

extra. images that Describe Me/silly (+ blinkies!! jj one made by me, the rest made w blinkies.cafe)

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teehee

[kev-smell-my-fart]

hihihi it's ready!!!!!!!! idk what else to say to promote this thing but yeagh!!! reblog this and spread the word or smth

[saltlickmp3]

I know barely anything about x files but I’ve been wanting to ask you about it soooo id love to learn anything you have to say about it !! Sorry that’s not more specific aaa

OKAY YAY i dont mind hehe okay so

in the episodes i literally just finished rn, some shapeshifting aliens who Claim to have mulder's sister samantha (who was abducted by aliens when they were younger and was the catalyst for mulder being like. the premise of the show) show up, one of them pretending to be her. as a viewer you sort of know that is Isnt Her b/c one that changes the paradigm too much & b) its like halfway through a season & they wouldnt do anything that drastic halfway through a season it had to be a fakeout. also. i have a dvd of the first bit of s7 & one of the episode descriptions says he's still looking for evidence about his sister so you know they keep dragging that out longer lol.

but the interesting bit is that it's well established that the reason mulder is into this stuff, with the whole paranormal investigations, is that he's hoping he will one day find samantha - for him its gone beyond the point of just wanting to find her, like he wouldnt know what to do with himself if she really did come back - he was awkward enough around shapeshifter samantha as it was, like after 22 years what do you even say. I Think. in my super educated opinion lol that deep deep down he doesnt even really want to find her anymore because that would almost. end the whole point of this. like they could have their stilted family reunion & then what? mulder goes back to work knowing that he wasnt a nutter after all but? only to witness more incredibly dangerous strings of murders?

from a show point of view it would be the sort of '& they all lived happily ever after' ending that generally massively throws off the vibes of a show. like idk what happens with samantha further but i dont think they ever Really bring her back. in all likely hood she Died in 1970whatever & mulder Knows That. but he kknows also that everybody else thinks that. he has a bit of a monolouge where he says that witnessing his sisters abduction & him Believing in his heart that it was aliens....... like he knows that that ostracises him from people. he values that belief above all else, & the cost of relationship, his reputation, several times almost his life. but like what would he even do if he found her i doubt he knows. idk its not the most unique character trait to have, wanting something for so long you dont know what to do when you finally get it, but its compelling none the less & its the first time i personally have seen it where the thing desired is a person. especially not in a romantic context. yeagh

[buried-in-autumn-leaves]

Opinions on autistic Nate? (The headcanon of Nate from XOD being autistic)

I feel like this is like canon ? I am a fake fan and do not remember every gb lady ask ever but I thought I remembered one about this. If it's not canon I feel like it should be, because he feels like such a clear representation of autism. Idk what else to say but like. Yeagh

[chilipowder9]

a lot of radfems view trans guys as confused or traumatized/victimized women who masculinize themselves for protection unconsciously, so. just so you know. im guessing that's what that user means when they say 'worth fighting for' or etc... maybe not but yeah.

ah thanks for that extra bit of patronizing info

also not technically binary ftm but idk how else to explain "definitely not female and definitely in a more masculine way but I am in no way a man either" yet so yeagh

[tex-now]

A Beast has been awakened. not to argue with op i agree with them entirely i just think a lot about this topic and have a lot to say

from what i've experienced. No! they are actually teaching it. not well but they are. however. takes a deep breath.

from what i've seen it's a potent mixture of teenagers being stupid as fuck and also social media actively encouraging less and less privacy online so they can sell your information for money.

let's look at the boring mainstream stuff first. not vents, not fandoms, like. tiktok dance video type shit.

tiktok is already a HUGE invasion of privacy mostly because it tracks basically everything in your phone what you like and what you scroll past to keep you scrolling and scrolling for hours on end. since videos are the most... idk common thing on tiktok, minors usually end up showing their face for videos, and their voice as well.

and also, since tiktok is a social media app, there's a lot of hate, that's very very easy to be spread, especially because it's so so simple to push that comment button and be an asshole. and since you can respond to comments with videos, and also since teenagers are stupid idiots with a fuck ton of emotions and an underdeveloped prefrontal cortex, they make a lot of bad decisions. like. say. "well actually im depressed with 5 mental disorders so" and "actually m aunt is this and that here's proof" ecetera ecetera. as you can see. horrible combination.

and that's just tiktok. im pretty sure snapchat tracks your location so people can know where you're at, on many social media apps people can see who you follow, what you like, bad decisions you've made. there is a huge lack of privacy overall. sharing personal information is more commonplace than ever. sharing your name and your location is being taken less and less seriously because social media websites want more money and data and discourage any form of personal privacy.

also. attention. stimulation. the dopamine. getting likes on a photo of yourself in a cute skirt and random guys calling you a ten outta ten, because you don't register that this random guy is a 30 year old man or maybe you just dont care because. underdeveloped prefrontal cortex. a lot of teenagers are lonely and feel misunderstood, and simply don't have enough (or don't feel like they have enough people who support them), so they turn to social media for the attention they so desperately need. whether or not the attention is good doesn't usually matter to them.

Oh and also the way they teach internet privacy is bogus because they mostly show the worst case scenario like meeting a crazy guy online irl who you thought was good and he kills you and since teenagers are stupid they don't register that something like that could happen to them. also idk if it's just me but most teenagers don't take internet safety seriously at ALL. it's like. insane how little they care. (i also believe that social media itself is why they don't care but that's a whole other thing).

okay moving onto venting. so. um. a lot of teens don't have anyone else to talk to. that's the main thing. im not gonna say it's smart but like. for a lot of kids venting online is all they have. like. maybe their parents are abusive and they don't have a therapist or maybe if they talk to someone irl it could go wrong but. like. yeagh. once again it's a stupid decision to make but. like i keep saying. bad decision makers.

and more on the vents a lot of people tend to give them supportive messages and stuff, offering a shoulder to lean on, someone to talk to, and for someone who usually feels really alone and misunderstood? yeah it makes sense to teenager who doesn't understand the full scope of reprecussions for their actions.

OH RIGHT DISCORD EXISTS. yeah that's teenagers being stupid again and they should Not be doing that. on a public server. that will make everyone uncomfortable. nonono bad traumadumping is no bueno.

also another thing i think makes it worse is that adults on the internet want nothing to do with teenagers, which is totally fine! it makes sense that you wouldn't wanna be responsible for all of that, and there could be a loooott of backlash on you if they do somwething stupid. however. you put two bad decision makers (teenagers) in a room with no mediator and what do you think happens. bad decisions.

once again it makes total sense why adults wouldn't want that, i won't try and bring someone down for curating their own space that's just unfair. however i will say that when an older figure (not even necessarily an adult just someone older) actually interacts with a younger person they tend to maintain a safe and healthy friendship because the younger person has someone to guide them or follow by their example. once again. i totally understand why people don't wanna do that. im just pointing out that when it DOES happen it has a positive effect on them. okay i think im done

WAIT AND ANOTHER THING. a lot of what they teach about internet safety is really outdated and doesn't apply well into modern internet spaces.

okay NOW im done

the comfortability kids on the internet have is crazzyyy. you should not be vent-posting on a public platform. you should not be telling people where you live, your age, your full name, on a public platform. you should not be posting all your mental/physical illnesses in your bio on a public platform. did they stop teaching internet safety or what.