#yea cause i feel couldy

[swayyyy]

i just hate the fact that everything's so good on the surface... im a normal person with their shit together. but the moment i allow myself to have even a single thought Amit house i really feel, about how I've felt for the past 4 years, im not the same person anymore. i was supposed to write the future letter but ig yahi likh deta hu; vo vaise bhi likh k nahi ho raha merese.

haa toh, basically what i meant was that im broken... been broken for some time now. and yes ofcourse i want to get better but i dont even know where to start. atleast i should, i think, have some idea as to how broken i really am, isnt it? or is it just something im imagining? nevertheless im in pain. amd im broken. and im lonely. but idk how to... get better. hiw di i escape this sthiti??? just feel even writing all of this. on top of that yaha kyu likh raha hu. idk.

but yess iffd you see this , and wanna talk...?? please hmu. so ig this is what the post is? i mean this is what its becoming, atleast: a call for help. idk how to talk to people and im in a very awful state cause of it, especially now since I've changed my city and lost all my old friends.

it kinda feels like my old self got broken into pieces and im trying to put back together myself. except some broken pieces keep getting lost, and newer ones keep being added. basically a mess. but yea I don't really have a hope of making an online friend at this point. imean I've been without ine for so many years now. most of my posts go unread anyway. shit am i being dramatic rn. tbh even if i am, it is completely understandable; it is me who's writing this!

but yeaaaa, i should go and write that future letter thingy. gotta take care of myself jab dusre don't lol