#yashahimekin

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Ehehehe... been a long time but hey! The irl Towa Higurashi, back at your service! I keep... thinking about when I married Riku about ten years after everything. Mama was so happy! Sesshomaru... ahh... well by that point he accepted it and started warming up! I still remember how much it seemed like uncle Inuyasha and papa were ready to go at it... but they got through it without any incident! Applying makeup with Setsuna and Moroha... what a magical night. - Towa Higurashi, Yashahime

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heya! i'm Towa Higurashi from Yashahime: Princess Half-Demon/Hanyou no Yashahime! i'm... kind of new to this fictive thing, while i've been kinning for a long time it's only started to become this personal to me. i'm... trying to look for my mother, Rin. i'm a canon Towa (so my canon is on hold until s2 in a few months), but even if you weren't a canon Rin, i'd... i'd like to talk to my mama if i can. this is all so new to me, but even if it's not "the same" i'd just.. love to be able to talk to my mama. i've always felt that i'd... really get along with you, you know? my mama... even if you don't think Yashahime is the best or that great, i'd love to talk to you as 'me!'

my body is 27 and i'd prefer to talk with people whose physical bodies are also 18+. i don't want to give my social media for free if this is published i'll look at the notes if its posted and try to reach out to people in the notes, or you can reach me at @princess/half/demon (one word). i could add you on discord if you're willing!

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Hey... Setsuna, Moroha, mama, daddy, uncle Inuyasha, aunt Kagoma, Souta-papa, Moe-mama, Mei... Even though the show wasn't that good, it all worked out well in the end, didn't it? Beyond time and space, our family is still a family... even though the number of people this system can completely trust is a number we can count with one hand... ha. Even if none of you existed in the real world... I love you all, and I trust you all so much. I love my family! ily all! - Towa Higurashi, Yashahime

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Ack, I forgot to send in an ask again! This is Towa Higurashi... I wanna say happy father's day to my adoptive father (Souta) and my biodad, Sesshomaru! This is my first father's day away from the Higurashis... I had a memory of catching some fish with some herbs to try to make a good dinner for you, dad, to celebrate. You said it tasted good... it made your pup very proud! I really love yours and mama's praise, you know?

- Towa Higurashi, Yashahime

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Miroku, Sango, Kohaku. You were like parents to me and helped me look for Towa. Despite being "very busy". Thank you!

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And suddenly, I held that statue of my -type in hands, forgetting the world around me. Eventually putting it on a shelf. Why the anime design. The manga would have done Towa more justice. Even if none of us had the purple halfmoon mark. But we've been discussing that for days and nights - while Moroha fell asleep, woke up , just to continue her nap seconds later. It was never "peaceful"... just bearable.

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Aaaaah, shoot, this is late! Sorry, I've been having a rough time, so I didn't send this before mother's day... anyways, I'd love to wish my biological mother (Rin) and my adoptive mother (Moe Higurashi) a very happy belated Mother's Day! Words can't describe how much I love you two so much, my mamas! - Towa Higurashi, Yashahime

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I wanted to say, to the Rin and Sesshomaru that somehow visits here... I hope you two are very happy with your versions of your families, in your own canons :)

We still got a lot of work here... father has 900 years of emotional constipation he needs to finally crap out. But... ya know, I think I had a memory of a proper hug. We're getting there!

... Even though you're not "my" parents, I've always been really happy every time I've seen any of your asks. It lights me up with a joy I can't quite describe... familial love?

I know I'm not a normal kid. I don't have a normal family or a normal life. And now for some reason I don't really understand, I became this... physical embodiment of trauma and live inside another girl's brain that, only years later after coming to 'life' took the form of an anime girl of an anime of questionable quality.

... But! What's 'normal' ever been to the family of the great Sesshomaru? Dad is a thousand year old dog demon, my mom is a regular human woman, and me and my sister had to save the world with my cousin with timetraveling. And I had to see somebody I love very much, Rion, die in front of me. Riku came back, at least...

... I think seeing your asks reminds me that I'm not normal, but also, that it's OK I'm not normal. I'm not a little girl crying for her mom and dad anymore! And... I hope that me, and every version of me lives a life you can be proud of. I've been trying to figure out why those asks make me feel warm, and I finally figured it out!

- Towa Higurashi, Yashahime

[fictionkinfessions]

Hehehe... being a fictive kinnie is fun~ I'm the irl Towa Higurashi AND I get to be Honoka Kousaka too! This is actually fun!

Yashahime was a mixed bag, and there's theories about why the ending was so rushed... but in the end me, Setsuna, and Moroha reached the end of our long road. That is our accomplishment! And now... I'm gonna have fun exploring my identity! And I'm getting in on this kinning thing the host has had for years!

- Towa Higurashi, Yashahime

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I'd like to ask another fan about their opinion of the following theory; mom (Kagura) gave birth to us "Naraku style" - by "splitting". But... If that person is a (hardcore) "Sesskagu" shipper, they might get angry because "that's not how children are made." Also, genes: How can we inherit anything from Sesshomaru?! (Willpower.) Not my problem. Naraku nearly consumed Sesshomaru, and if mom and most of her siblings were born after that fight... Yet... Taking the jewel into account...

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Something that's not taken into consideration by fandom; the number of (demon) marks might not just match Sesshomaru's, but also Kagura's. Long white hair (+red stripes), usually tied to a ponytail, short bangs, purple halfmoon, magenta stripes above golden/ yellow eyes (s. manga art), pointed ears, two stripes on cheeks. Fur like in the anime (but as body part, I couldn't put it away. Also, it grew as tail. I seldom used it as scarf.) Back: spider burn. Demon form: red eyes, black giant dog.

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Demon: Daughter of Sesshomaru! - me: Daughter of Kagura of the Wind! (because the situation would not allow me to introduce myself as daughter of Sesshomaru and Kagura of the Wind. No, he never insisted on his title and was cool about not including it. Also, he wished us not bringing it up; "I will not repeat myself.")

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... I really hope all the Sesshomaru and Rin kins out there who didn't drop it are still enjoying the show in it's last moments. I hope you're all having a really good day. - Towa Higurashi, Yashahime

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Femininity is really complicated for me... I really love the butch design I have in canon (still sad they axed 'boku' being my personal pronoun), and our host is a trans girl, and I remember in my canon and my heart I'm a trans girl too! The Higurashis were very accepting, I'm happy that Souta-papa found me. But... it makes me conflict with my way of wanting. It's not bad I want long hair, right? And a dress, and some makeup? ... I'd want mama (Rin) to put it on me. - Towa Higurashi, Yashahime.

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Before, the thought of Yashahime ending terrified me. Not because I think it's some masterful piece of work (ofc we hope there's a season 3, a continuation, new adventure, etc!) or anything like that... but because I was afraid of myself 'ending.' What will happen to me now? I was mostly canon compliant, what would happen to me if my story ends? Would I fade away from our mind? Would I integrate with the host, like before I knew who I was? Even if the anime was the absolute worst thing ever, if nothing else, it going meant I was alive, right?

... But I'm alive even if it ends. God, I'm sorry I send so many asks like this to you! But. I'm alive. And you know, the fear has gone away, but I didn't fully understand WHY. Now I do.

Because I'm alive, and I enjoy being alive, it's OK when the story ends. I'll be sad. This facet will cry in both her soul and with the host's body. But at the end, I'll smile.

My story will continue, in the body of this woman, even though I'm not the one primarily in control of the body! I'm gonna keep being alive! I can roleplay 'myself' through the Higurashi Towa we right! I can talk to the new friends I've made with other people's systems, and singlets too! My own story isn't over! Not by a long shot!

- Towa Higurashi, Yashahime

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... That was cruel. I really wanted to hug you, mama, papa. I wanted to feel the hug I've never had a chance to feel in canon, and imagine this real body embraced in the same way... I hope that day comes soon. - Towa Higurashi, Yashahime