#yalls beautiful creativity is overwhelming at times

[sun-e-chips]

You ever scrolling through tumbler and you see everyones beautiful au’s of these beloved jesters and think

Damn am I lucky to exist in this world at this time

[starryknight-tarot]

𝓐𝓭𝓿𝓲𝓬𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻

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Howdy my beautiful souls✨ I'm officially back! It feels like it has been forever since I last worked on a pac for y'all! Thank you all for the messages wishing for my health, I am feeling much better. Today we will be looking into advice you need to hear! I might be a little blunt so keep that in mind. Remember to meditate, take a deep breath, and pick whatever pile calls to you the most. My readings are meant for everyone, no matter what sexuality or identity you are. Since this is a general reading, make sure to take what resonates and leave what doesn't. Credit to @chachachannah for the divider!

Pile 1 Cards: Ace of Pentacles rx, Page of Swords, The Devil, The Star, King of Wands, Seven of Cups, Two of Pentacles, Queen of Pentacles Back of the Deck: Page of Wands

There is a lot to go over here Pile 1, you may have been going through it recently or things may feel pretty chaotic for you right now. For you guys, there are somethings you may be turning a blind eye to and opportunities you haven't been taking. Right now you need to take some time to plan and TAKE ACTION! Think about what you want and what you need to do to accomplish this task. And while this is time for action, be careful not to overwhelm yourself with responsibilities, or rush into anything without properly thinking it through. You may be putting yourself down, thinking whatever you want is impossible or out of reach, it isn't. In fact, I heard it's right in front of you or hidden in plain sight. There may be negative affirmations that you are either hearing from yourself or someone else and it is only pulling you further from your goals when you listen to these words, absorb them, and view them as fact when they aren't. You need to keep in mind the power of words and how they can not only effect you, but the people around you. I heard "when you go around with a loser mentality, you are only going to get a loser result" so even in situations where you feel like you are going to lose or that something won't be successful, you need to try to think positive anyway. I know that isn't the easiest request, however, actively reminding yourself of your positive affirmations and staying determined to keep trying when things get hard can take you further than you ever thought you could go. Use your creative brain and I heard be willing to use your heart in certain situation. With the Seven of Cups, there may be a situation or even a person around you that isn't what you think. Be aware of signs that things don't entirely add up or make sense. For some of yall, this is going to be about a travel destination or someone may be offering something that isn't real. With the Devil energy, you may have an unhealthy addiction to something, for some of you I am hearing your phone or social media (who isn't now a days). You may have been consuming too much media and it is really taking a toll on you. Whatever the addiction is, this can go two way for you, you can take the proper action to help yourself or keep hurting yourself by not getting the help you need. Pile 1, you have so much potential and abundance that can be coming your way if you would just believe in yourself!

Advice Cards:

Be bold. It's time to lead forward!

Release what you do not need. Let go of some extraneous aspect of your life

It's time to challenge old beliefs!

Release all attachments that do not serve you

Complete the project or task. Something is calling for closure

Create an internal structured frame of reference and stay focused

Channeled Songs:

Pile 2 Cards: Knight of Swords, Temperance, The Empress rx, Nine of Swords rx, Knight of Wands, The Emperor, Ace of Wands rx Back of the Deck: Ten of Wands

For my Pile 2, we need to talk about how you see yourself and your own self-confidence. I actually feel like this group is divided into two groups, some of you need to work on your confidence and how you interact with yourself. You may be putting yourself down and you need to stop it! You have wonderful energy Pile 2 and deserve love and compliments just as much as others! You just need to see what everyone else sees. You are refusing people because you may have been taught that complimenting yourself shows signs of selfishness and narcissism, something along those lines. It isn't true, you are talented and strong and deserve all the compliments and praise you receive! For the second group of you, I actually want to say to keep it up and don't give up! You may feel a little out of inspiration and creativity but you may just need time to process your thoughts and really figure out what you need to do! Stay confident and positive in your work! I heard this confidence and outgoing nature is your greatest ally. In the moments that you feel like you can't get anything right and things seem impossible, remember who you are! You are that bitch! The sky is the limit for you Pile 2. You can do it, you just need to trust in yourself, beware of last minute nerves that sneak up on you and make you doubt yourself. Also don't be afraid to take bold action and maybe even trying your hand at a leadership position, you have what it takes you just need to believe in yourself. I think that is a big message here for my Pile 2s, believing what you want is possible and just doing it. I know that sounds like a hard task but I really feel like for my Pile 2s, you guys don't even realize your potential and it almost physically hurts me. Some of yall also need to take a step away from worrying about your appearance, it is only hurting you in a really unhealthy way. My Pile 2s are so beautiful inside and out and shouldn't forget that. You may need to work more on your divine masculine energy, regardless of your gender. (There is a little similar energy to Pile 1 so if you felt called, please do read Pile 1)

Advice Cards:

It is time to take appropriate action

A rite of passage allows you to move forward into new realms

Weigh your situation carefully

Give yourself your own approval

Create a plan and take the first step

Give up resistance in your current situation

Channled Songs:

Pile 3 Cards: King of Swords rx, Nine of Cups rx, Page of Wands rx, Nine of Wands, Two of Swords rx, King of Pentacles, Four of Wands, Eight of Wands rx Back of the Deck: Five of Wands

I think for my Pile 3's, you need to stop being so strict on yourself, I am also hearing that you need to surrender to something. There may an event or situation that you have been avoiding for a long time now and spirit is saying that it's time to face this and accept the result. This may be something that you feel pushes you farther from your goals or you are just afraid of the unknown of the situation, something along these lines. I am hearing that even if the situation seems like it is bound to end badly, the result isn't going to be as bad as you think, it may even end with a pretty good result! I am also getting that for some of you, you are going to or are currently facing a tough decision that is making you stressed and anxious, especially if this decision feels really important, I think spirit wants you to follow your heart with this decision. With the King of Swords, I feel like following what seems logical in this may have a more harmful result then you would have liked. But also remember that you have time, with this decision but also just in general. There is time, life feels like it moves very fast but it may help you to take some time to slow down. I am feeling a breeze and I'm seeing you in nature, feeling a nice breeze blow through your hair. You may want to connect with nature more, I am hearing for some of you, you may just need to take a little walk. I feel like for my pile 3's, you may want to be more generous with yourself. If there is something you have been thinking about buying, buy it. If you have something you've felt would be selfish of you, be a little selfish. I think you need to spoil yourself a little more. I am hearing especially going into this new year. Life is too short not to take some risks is what I am hearing. I'm also hearing some of you need to be a little more delusional lmao. Some of yall should listen to some subliminals, this might be a little helpful in some of your situations. I also want my Pile 3s to beware of conflicts with others, I am hearing some of you could be nicer to the people around you or that you may need to work on admitting when you are in the wrong.

Advice Cards:

Control is an illusion. Surrender and allow the Universe to guide you

Align your body, mind, and spirit with your heart

Create a plan and take the first step

It's time to realize the blueprint of your soul

Be aware of your inner messages

Be adventurous. It's time to go for it!

Channeled Songs:

Pile 4 Cards: Page of Swords, Four of Pentacles, The Chariot, The Hanged Man rx, Knight of Swords, Justice rx, Nine of Swords rx, King of Swords Back of the Deck: Nine of Cups

There is a lot of swords energy for this pile! The swords has a lot to do with communication and possible conflicts in that. I think for a good amount of this pile, you guys need to work on how you communicate but mostly with how you communicate with yourself. I feel like you guys may be putting yourself down and saying things to yourself that aren't even true, and some of you even know that they aren't true. You guys need to realize that you are stopping yourself from achieving things, I don't care how many excuses you may have. Some of yall are manifesting and trying to say all the positive affirmations to bring the things you want to life, however you are forgetting that positive affirmations are only a part of manifestation. One of the most important parts is to actually put in the work to get the things you want. The things you want aren't just going to fall into your lap, you need to push yourself and try new things to get what you want, even if it seems scary at first. Like, I feel like you guys may be telling yourself things to delay taking action on your passions and it's not bringing you any closer to your goals. Which is sad because we have the Nine of Cups at the back of the deck, your dreams are a reality and can come true! For some of you I feel like it won't even be that far from you but you are delaying it! I can see the visual of you feeling like you have chains attached to your legs, these chains representing your past, family, doubts, all of it, they feel so heavy and scary. But what you don't realize is that these chains aren't holding you down at all, you have the power to push through and move forward. I am also getting for some of yall, you may have just went through a bad breakup or ended some sort of relationship, take it how it resonates. But I feel like a lot of you are holding onto this person and want some sort of closure from them, and spirit is saying that there just isn't going to be some closure, at least on their end. Sometimes we meet people, and they break our hearts and some people don't have the emotional maturity to deal with it in the rights ways and that person isn't you. It can feel empty and sad not to get closure on some relationships but what's stronger and harder is to know to walk away when things are getting bad. There will be people that come into your life that will treat you better, that person just wasn't that person. You guys need to remember that you are smart and wise and soooo powerful!

Advice Cards:

Hold your life from a sacred viewpoint. Witness the universal picture

The issue at hand is about reflection. What is the mirror showing you?

Put your tasks and goals in order

Something you've planted is coming to harvest. Results are forthcoming!

Boldly imagine what you can do and be

You are ready to receive your fortune. Be miracle minded!

Bring something new into your life!

Channeled Songs:

Thanks for tuning in₊‧.°.⋆🫧•˚₊‧⋆.

[graffitibible]

Do you have any advice for writing or creating regularly? That’s hard for me and I’d like to get better at it.

it boils down to what works best for you personally tbh. i’ve got a system to write semi-regularly (or i did......restricted movement hours have kinda forced me to restructure that lol) and it works for me but that’s just how my brainyot works. i’m a routine-based creature so working writing into my routine was how i got myself to write semi-regularly. 

ive also had significant Brain Junk for most of my life and was gradually able to navigate how best to create in spite of that but im also like, medicated for it and the like so self-care was a factor. i couldnt create shit while i was too busy lying in a pool of my own filth having fits of paranoia about the nature of reality so i was hardly about to make myself try and create stuff when that wasnt even on my radar. 

i can share some of the things i do to keep myself writing though! like again this isn’t something that’s for sure gonna work for everybody cause everybodys wired differently but i hope some of it helps!

1. daily wordcount - i’ve mentioned this before but i have a daily wordcount that i do for my original fiction. i don’t apply the same standard to fic-writing because that risks making it an arbitrary barrier that puts too many numbers on my internal list. that being said, it’s very small. i make myself do 200 words per day. if that gets me going and writing more than that, awesome. if not, i still got a little bit done. 200 words is small, and it’s not overwhelming to catch up on if i miss a day. no matter how shitty im feeling i try to get in 200 words.

2. routine - since i’m a routine-based person by nature i basically found ways to finagle creative processes into all that. it’s not hard and fast because that kind of rigid structure makes me balk and i’m not that disciplined lol, but it’s usually something like “i have an hour-long lunch break at work and literally nothing else to do during it so i’ll write in that time period” or “i have thirty minutes of sitting by the stove making dinner so i’ll write until it’s ready”

3. momentum - or what my housemate fondly calls “The Juice.” if i have The Juice of inspiration i keep that going for as long as i can. if something’s not working for me i don’t scrap it or toss it right away. if i’m having trouble with a scene i make a note to myself and move on to a different one. example of this from my latest wip, which is part iv of mayhem

i hadnt worked out what was gonna go there and nothing was coming to me easy in the moment so i stuck the note there and kept going. my works are full of this shit. if i can’t think of a name or if there’s a statistic or a character i haven’t worked out yet i don’t wanna break my focus and momentum so i slap a note in the first draft and keep going. at a first draft stage the important thing is getting the words Out so it doesnt matter if theyre perfect. ill go back and fix them later, revise all i need to. first drafts dont need to be good, they just need to be there so i can spruce them up later.

on the flip side do not be like me and commit to this momentum so bad that you forget that you are a human being who needs to eat and consume liquids. i do that sometimes because of who i am as a person and it is a serious flaw of mine, do not be like this. sometimes getting some food in you is what you need to get The Juice flowing again and that sounds kinda gross and i am sorry

4. planning and hangups - this ones dependent on how you create. i forget where this analogy came from, but i’ve heard it said that some writers are architects who need a blueprint of where they’re going before they end up there and some writers are gardeners, who don’t need a set plan so much as they need to keep going. i’m definitely an architect - a lot of my works start out as bulletpoints of what scenes i wanna cover, what topics i wanna explore, etc. - though i have on occasion simply Written without any set destination, usually to force myself out of a creative slump. me being a big planner used to be one of the biggest barriers for me creatively because i’d spend hours agonizing over minute universe details and never start the dang story. this still happens from time to time. like heres what my organizational folder looks like wrt “pray for disaster”

that is not even all the files in there. why do i have two dictionaries. jesus. like i make these giant ass fuckin....tomes of stuff i like to keep track of, which i like to call “bibles” lol. except i could tell that getting too organized was gonna be an uphill battle with very little payoff so by the end i just made a “MISCELLANEOUS BULLSHIT” doc and for now i throw everything in there if it doesn’t fit into something like a dictionary or timeline

shit like this is why i like to just sit down and write without a clear destination in mind if i’m having writer’s block. that’s one of those things that goes hand in hand with the way i take advantage of my own momentum - if i reach a certain point where i’m just picking at details and not doing any writing i just go “ok motherfucker sit down and write shit. we will work out the details later.”

5. motivation - the ways i tend to motivate myself are weird so idk how true this is for anybody else but i’ve been writing for a pretty large part of my life. i went to college for english/creative writing and got a whole dang degree cause i still wanna make this my vocation somehow. one thing i cannot ever turn off is the writer part of my brain that’s going “oooh huh that’s not how i would’ve written that” in literally every piece of art i consume - tv, movies, books, songs, etc. sometimes that’s enough to inspire me into doing something on my own time. most of the time though if i’m feeling stumped i tend to crack open some of my personal favorite works, like books or fics that have really resonated with me, to fall in love with the art all over again. seeing the way different authors and artists do their craft helps me get in the zone of wanting to write more cause i get this nice feeling of “damn, these people really did those things with those words.....that’s fuckin amazing.....i wanna do that.” 

you do risk falling into the trap of “ugh i can’t write like them though” but that’s the beauty of writing. nobody can write the way anybody else does. ofc i can’t write like terry pratchett, only terry pratchett can write like terry pratchett, and if i compare myself to terry pratchett i’m only gonna get sad and mopey. but i can write in a way thats totally unique to me so i should not try to write like terry pratchett because that’s just impeding my own creative energy in the interest of trying to cookie-cut myself into someone else’s zone. only terry pratchett can write like terry pratchett but only i can write like zero graffitibible.

i hope that was helpful? like this is all stuff that works for me so no guarantee it’ll work for everyone else.

oh right and idk how many of yall are minors because let it be known that i do not condone underage drinking; i am an adult who occasionally will get crunk because i like to write drunk and edit sober. if you too are an adult who can legally consume alcohol feel free to write while buzzed because that is a nice way to write with zero fuckin inhibitions. i dont get blackout drunk or nothing just a little buzzed and sometimes what i write makes no sense but i am at times at my most productive at 2am while mildly buzzed. its a thing.

like again i’m not really an authority on this by any means - this is just what works for me. but if it works for you too, great!! find your zone and all that

[whatkindofnameisella]

more self-indulgent izuocha fic

hola friends, i’m here with more izuocha and this time it’s like 3000% more self-indulgent because I made it a ballet au. adults? check. angsty reunion? check. my favorite girl’s pov? check. ballet terminology? you betcha. Giselle references inspired by Natalia Osipova and Carlos Acosta’s heartbreaking act II pas de deux? uhhh yuuuuuuuupppppp. strap in, folks. if you want something that’s not really 100% mha but has those characters together in a fic with a good amount of sensual yearning then you’ve come to the right place. it’s a bit of a long one (about 4000 words) so ill just put a little bit before the cut! it might not seem too fluffy at the beginning but I promise yall it gets there. please enjoy!

“Thank you, again, so much for coming.” Ochako’s arms were getting heavy with flowers, and she was running out of creative places to put them. One sticking out of her duffel, one in either pocket on the ends of her bag, an extra-large one in her arms – she would never have enough vases for them all, she never did. Sometimes she wished that people would just forget politeness and show up at the stage door with a smile on their face and a twinkle in their eyes. No apology for their horrible manners or forgetfulness, no overwhelming compliments that she didn’t know how to take, no trying to describe things they didn’t understand as if they did. Just an, “I loved it. Thank you so much,” and the hint to move on and let her go home in enough time to soak her feet in an ice bucket. Well, the kids could take their time; the stars in their eyes, their out of breath ramblings and their thousand dollar smiles could give Ochako the power to dance an entire four act ballet all over again. But with the adults? With their praise and expectations seeping through the cracks of their words? It made Ochako want to crumple up into a hole and just hide there for a while. Far, far away from the feeling that she was never actually good enough.

               It was a cold February evening and the city lights in the theater district blocked out all of the stars as Ochako greeted people by the stage door of the Opera House. She battled mounting exhaustion, muscle fatigue starting in her feet and climbing up her legs as old friends and family gave her sparkling bouquets full of fragrant flowers and compliments that made her feel like a million dollars. It made her heart beat a bit faster in her ribcage and the tunneling winds feel a little less intense when she heard someone say that she had made their evening. It was hard to believe, but she chose to take what she could get. It made standing a little more bearable, and people a little more happy, so she struggled through one-sided conversations strung with high praise that made blush creep up her neck to her face. 

“Oh, we should be the ones thanking you!” A group of friends from elementary school stood in front of her, about to leave. “You’ve grown so much since we were kids. Mie was never large enough for you.”

               “You’re too kind,” Ochako touched her hand to her chest, trying her best to convey warmth over the dull, pounding pain in her calves, “Call me again sometime. We need to meet up sooner than every other year.”

               A polite laugh rippled through the group of girls in front of her, “Of course, Uraraka!” They pulled back in to one last hug, “Break a leg with the rest of your performances! I’m sure you’ll be just as beautiful as you were tonight.”

               “Thanks so much you all – good night!” She waved down the alley as her friends walked the other way, back into the lights and cars of downtown Tokyo.

               Ochako sighed, watching the smoke from her breath curl up into the cold night air. She shifted the large bouquet from one arm to the other and stretched from side to side, thinking of a steamy shower and ice bucket waiting for her at home. Giselle was only two acts, but it sucked the life out of her every time she did it. It was her favorite role by far – being happy-go-lucky and bouncing off her feet in act one, being agonizingly slow and ghostly and heartbroken in act two. Playing a role where love won. Ochako never realized she needed to collapse until she got through the wings and to her dressing room, the effects of long petit allegros and pas de deuxs hitting her like a sack of bricks. She blinked a few times as she turned, feeling the dreary-ness of the night pulling down on her like a magnet. She took one last stock of the alley, making sure she finally finished talking to all that were there, wishing that Tsuyu were there to walk home with her as she caught glimpse of curly greenish black hair out of the corner of her eye and –

               Wait a minute… curly, greenish-black hair?

               She snapped her head back to where she had seen it, blood suddenly rushing through her well-worn arteries, air being sucked in through her hoarse throat. He had said that he might make it but she didn’t believe it, he was always so busy nowadays with his galas and international performances and, and –

               Her vision tunneled. Ochako’s heart stopped pumping for a count of two, her stomach taking that time to do a backflip along with all the butterflies that had suddenly appeared there. Her eyes took their time to drink him in; a bit tall and sheepish leaning against the wall next to his mom, a small bouquet of white and pink flowers in his bare hands. A winter jacket zipped up to his chin, a knit hat hiding half of his unruly hair. Perfectly tailored slacks and simple dress-shoes, standing in almost a resting pose, ever the dancer. That warm and good-natured smile pulling at his lips and that familiar spark of innocence in his eyes that made him so handsome. For a second she was sixteen again, looking at her best friend as studio lights bore down from overhead on his smiling face while they warmed up together before morning class. Seventeen and feeling her pulse zing as the popular kid partnered her in front of all the other girls who wanted to feel Izuku Midoryia’s hands on their hips. Eighteen and watching from the wings as the newest prodigy nailed his final UA performance, catching his eye every time he looked into her spot in the darkness behind the lights. Eighteen and drinking in the feel of her best friend’s arms around her as he hugged her at graduation. Eighteen and breathing in his cologne as they danced in a fancy reception hall. Eighteen and trying to burn into her memory the glint in his eyes when he laughed, the way he leaned against the barre when he was tired, the way he fidgeted with his fingers when he got bored in rehearsal or the way he bit his lip when he struggled with a combination. Eighteen and wishing that she wasn’t saying goodbye, anything but goodbye, it wouldn’t really be goodbye, convincing herself that she wouldn’t really bee saying goodbye at all.

               All that in an instant. Maybe she hadn’t needed to try so hard to remember all those details after all.

               Izuku Midoriya looked at her and fatigue flushed out of her legs so quickly she felt like she was floating. Ochako’s arms almost forgot to hold her bouquet; she felt like the flowers would just faze through her. Seven whole years of traveling, and rarely seeing him, getting used to just the idea of him, seeing pictures on the news, catching up through social media in the gaps between his rare visits, watching as he checked one thing after another off of his bucket list, feeling the gap between the two of them grow further and further… And now he was here. Less than ten feet away, tangible, and smiling expectantly. A knot unraveled within her and her shoulders relaxed from a tension she didn’t know she had been holding in. She felt like she was going to combust just standing there, so she took shaky steps that didn’t make her feel any less likely to clip through the ground.

               “Uh… Sorry the bouquet isn’t any bigger,” His voice sounded so different, so much more fitting and grown into than what it had been before. As she looked at him, Ochako looked for the hints of the timid prodigy she had once shared her life with. For a second she panicked. He looked stronger and taller, confidence rooting him to the ground in a way she had never seen in their time at UA. But when she looked deeper, she found bits of familiarity; the way he always hunched slightly in on himself, the tentative way his hands fidgeted when they had nothing else to do, the slight smile that was always genuine, the gleam of burning ambition that was always behind his eyes. He took a hesitant step towards her, biting both of his lips before opening them to speak, clearing his throat like he didn’t trust himself to talk, “I wanted to get something a bit more… you know, deserving, but ah…” He looked down at the flowers, opened his mouth and closed it, sucked in a breath before looking at her again, “I just came off a flight yesterday and there wasn’t really enough time to order a bigger one – oh!”

               Ochako tackled him with a hug, having to stand on her highest relevé to place her head over his shoulder. She hugged tight to his chest, wrapping her arms around his shoulders, crushing the bouquet she had been holding against his jacket with one hand and feeling the muscles of his back underneath his coat with the other. She breathed in the scent of his hair and his clothes for the first time in an eternity. After the initial shock wore off she felt his chest rise with an intake of breath and felt his cheeks lift with a small smile against her hug. His arms wrapped around her, warm and gentle and comforting. He was so strong and yet he held her tenderly, like if he grasped her too tight she would break. It was a feeling she felt foreign to; his arms against her like she was made of glass, afraid to constrict any tighter less she would shatter yet just tight enough to admire and wonder at. She felt so secure in those arms. A blizzard could have been raging around the two of them and she wouldn’t have feared the storm one bit. The aching feeling of tears clawed its way up her throat. She fought the battle against them and failed.

               “You of all people should know that the flowers don’t matter!” She whined. Against her will it came out as if someone had poked holes in it. A tear stung her cheek in the cold as it ran down her face.

               A small chuckle shook him and reverberated through her body, “You’re right, you’re right. I should know that.”

               Ochako sniffled and pulled away, immediately feeling a warmth being sucked out of her and barely remaining as she held on to his arms. A new light took its place as he looked slightly down at her, a smile playing on his face and tears gathering in the corners of his eyes. He was trying hard not to show it, but it came right through to her. The watery eyed, quick-to-cry teen that she had known throughout all of UA’s upper school would never really go away.

               She cleared her throat and smiled, “I mean, I really should be mad, shouldn’t I? You leave me for seven years and all I’m greeted with is a bouquet barely ten flowers strong!” She laughed and wiped away another tear, “But it’s hard to stay angry at you for too long, Deku. Always has been.” She squinted and smothered a smile hearing his nickname come out of her mouth again. She had missed saying it.

               Ochako watched his breath quickly catch at the sound of that name. A new gleam popped up in the corner of Deku’s eye as he looked at her, she could have sworn she felt his pulse pumping a bit faster through his fingers. She was sixteen and captivated by the underdog’s smile again, all flustered and floating in the light of those eyes. He suddenly blinked and looked down at his right hand, pulling it away and displaying the small white and pink cone of flowers. The scent wafted up to her; fresh roses and chrysanthemums and a dozen other small varieties packed into a dazzling selection. Not glamorous, not flashy, not expensive. Just simple and beautiful in its own way.

               “Well, these are for you,” a nervous sort of humor shook his voice, “If you’ll take them, of course.” Deku met her eye again, a hope hiding within. It melted her.

               Laughter bubbled up her throat and out through Ochako’s mouth, hands shaking as she reached out and took the small bouquet from his hands, “They’re beautiful, thank you.” Her fingers brushed against his for a second in the exchange, rough and freezing in the winter air. Goosebumps raced up her arms at the contact.

               “Okay okay, you’ve had your chance! My turn now!” Ochako turned to her left and found Deku’s mother smiling at her, tears already running down her face. She waved her son off of Ochako and gathered her into a hug of her own. She wailed over Ochako’s shoulder, “Uraraka, you were so beautiful tonight!” Her contact filled Ochako up with a different kind of warmth from Deku’s; motherly and brimming with pride. Like sitting around a fireplace at home, a sense of family warmer than any blanket that could’ve been tucked around your shoulders. Ochako mumbled a quick thank you into the fuzz of her hood collar. When they pulled away from the hug, Ms. Midoriya started rambling through a shaky voice, gripping a well-used tissue in her gloved fingers, “Simply stunning, Uraraka, simply stunning! You had me crying all act two, with that look on your face the entire time,” Her voice wavered as if the memory of it would make her start crying all over again, and she took a breath to compose herself before continuing, “Such beautiful stage presence, just like I remember from UA!” Ms. Midoriya reached out and cupped her hands around Ochako’s face, making Ochako blush against the cold, “I’ve never seen a more beautiful Giselle, never – Izuku, don’t you agree?”

               Ochako turned to find Deku grinning at the interaction between the two of them. He looked her in the eyes again, nodding, twisting her stomach in a knot, “Definitely. I mean, you’re jumps just look like you’re weightless – “

               “Oh, Uraraka, you should’ve seen him during the act two pas de deux! Crying a river next to me, I swear – !“

               “Mom!” A blush cropped up on Deku’s cheeks as he leaped forward to try and intercept his mother.

               Ochako smothered a grin and waved a hand in his face, “No, no, carry on Ms. Midoryia. You said he was crying?”

               “But – “

               “I looked over to see what this sniffing sound is and I see Izuku sitting there with an ocean’s worth of salt water on his face,” a defeated sigh escaped her son as she continued on, “Completely still. Barely breathing, even! I swear he could’ve been a statue in a museum – “

               “Okay, okay,” Deku made a successful interception, placing a hand between Ochako and his mother, “I think that’s enough for now, thank you mother.”

               On the outside Ochako laughed, but on the inside she took a minute to imagine it. That pas de deux was her favorite to both watch and perform. She flashed back to her own performance of it earlier that night and imagined what Ms. Midoriya had just described; herself lifting up her leg in the iconic side develope, promenading to an arabesque with a look of sorrow on her face. She had been hot and exhausted but was powering through. Her leg felt dead and she worried that it wouldn’t hold her up for much longer, but adrenaline kept her upright. And then she imagined Deku, still as stone and captivated by her. Crying. Not the loud, easily triggered type that she had grown to find endearing. A quiet, stunned cry of emotions that couldn’t have been expressed through words. Ones that refused to be tucked away and instead boiled over through tears and more tears. The type that made your lungs ache from the lack of air that refused to be taken in. The thought of it made Ochako’s head spin. She wondered how often an international ballet star cried like that at a performance he had the spare time to watch.

               As Ochako finished laughing a look of sincerity came across Ms. Midoriya’s face, “But really, Uraraka,” Ms. Midoriya peeled her son’s hand back, “It was so touching. Everyone in the theater was so captivated by you,” tears at the corners of her eyes threatened to flow over, “When you did those beautiful developés, with that stunning skirt…” She grasped her chest, “I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. It just wrenched my heart in two – all of our hearts, really.”

               Ochako felt her chest filled up with warmth. That wasn’t the kind of compliment you received every day – the kind that really touched your heart. Even if Ms. Midoriya wasn’t an expert in ballet, she had still meant every word she had said. Every syllable had been laden with another sobbing fit waiting to happen. Ochako appreciated that a lot. “Thank you, Ms. Midoriya,” Ochako reached out and placed her hand on the mother’s arm, “I’m so glad you got all that from my performance. I wish you two could see me more often!” Those words left a hollow space in her, knowing that they wouldn’t be coming back for her next performance. It was an inevitability that made her sad. She swept it away to the back corner of her mind just in time for Ms. Midoriya’s next words to knock Ochako off her feet.

               “But we will!” Ms. Midoriya lit up with a burst of energy, “There will be so many more opportunities next season with Izuku coming back into town –“

               Ochako did a double take and choked on her own spit. She turned away to cough and regain her composure. She had heard the rumors floating around the Corps girls recently but she hadn’t allowed herself to get caught up in them. Rumors were often just rumors, and no one from the main administration had passed it by her yet, so why should she believe them? She was a Prima with UA’s main Company – Japan’s biggest and most well-known ballet. She even toured and guested at other places from time to time. She couldn’t afford to let herself get caught up in maybes and distractions. Her carrier came first, always. It was always that way: carrier first, emotions later. If she wanted to make it, it had to be that way, it could only be that way. When it came to school she made the quick decision to focus on her training. When it came to graduation she took the route that she had always wanted to take without hesitation. When it came to finally being in the company she blended in to the corps, became the perfect copy. When it came to being a soloist, she treated every role like she would never get another. And when it finally, finally, came to being a principal, she only bathed in the sunlight for barely a minute before getting back to work again. It never stopped. She would never be as good as she wanted herself to be, so she settled for constantly working towards it. The past spent all work hours locked far away where she wouldn’t be able to get to it. It only held her back, to dwell on could-have-beens. That was all it seemed it would ever be.

               But now, for a second, she forgot to put carrier first. Emotions burst through the dam in her heart and surged outward to her fingertips, the floating feeling returning to her brain. Disbelief held thin but tight against her mind. She had waited seven years and given up hope for just as long. Ochako had only worked with Deku once since graduation, and she knew that was all she would get. Of course it was. He was a star; talented and handsome (god was he handsome) and always grabbing at the fruit out of reach. Everyone wanted a piece of him. He gave everyone a piece of him without hesitation, too. So why in the world would he settle for home? For what he had come from?

               Disbelief, however thin, held tight around her and would not let go.

               But she wanted to. Oh how she wanted to let go.

               The butterflies were dancing around her stomach again.

When Ochako turned back, she stared back at Deku’s mother in shock. A storm of emotions boiled within her that she was trying hard to conceal. “C-coming back to town? For next season?”                Ms. Midoriya cocked her head to the side in confusion, “You don’t know? Didn’t Izuku tell you?” She blinked a few times, leaning further in, “Izuku’s signing on with UA for a season or two starting this fall. It’s still a bit under wraps but – “

Ochako snapped her head to her friend, electricity zapping through her veins. She scanned his face furiously for clues – a guilty smile, a gleam in his eye, a reach behind his head and his torso folding in on himself. He looked at her, then the ground, then her again, then the wall, his freckles surrounded by a bright blush that sent her heart racing. She was floating again, so light that she could’ve passed right through the ground. This time she forgot to hold on to her flowers. The two bouquets in her arms crashed to the ground along with her duffel bag as she flung herself back into Deku’s arms. She saw herself at eighteen, alone and with a new sense of fear no matter how many people she had around her. Alone and feeling forever inferior to her best friend who had left her in the dust. Alone and never, ever good enough. Alone. Always alone.

Now, in his arms, sure that Deku would be back, she felt that memory wash away. The air was cold but he was warm and she could, for once, be the selfish one. And nothing else mattered for that moment. She would see him every day. They would warm up and take class together. He would take the empty space next to her at barre and in the center. They would laugh together as they messed up simple combinations and tried to get back on tempo. They would eat rushed granola bars in between rehearsals in the afternoon and go to physio at night.

She would feel his strong hands on her hips and breaths sliding down her neck as he stood behind and partnered her. His shirt would be damp with sweat and his breathing would be heavy, his brows set in concentration as he held her. She’d experience the rush of the crowd next to him, be half of one well-oiled machine. She would hold his hand in the wings before they went on together, feeling the electricity zapping between the two of them, sharing nerves and emotions and anticipation for the lights. She would stand next to him at curtain call, curtsey until her knee was to the floor and hug him in the spotlight.

All of that would happen. It seemed so amazing that she wanted to pinch herself to bring her mind out of a daydream. But it wasn’t a daydream.

It was a cold February evening. The lights blocked out the stars in the Tokyo’s theater district as Uraraka Ochako hugged her best friend for the first time in years by the stage door. His embrace was warm and comforting and she wanted to stay there for as long as he would let her. He had given her a small bouquet of pink and white flowers that she would keep alive for as long as possible in her most beautiful vase she could find. He was signing on to the company that she never thought he would turn back to. Her heart was doing cartwheels around itself in overwhelming excitement.

Ochako couldn’t wait for autumn to begin.

[personagf-moved]

alphabet & soft questions ✨

I was tagged by my bb’s @prksjmiin (alphabet ask) and @joonieblossoms (soft ask) and i didn’t want to make two separate posts so im gonna apologize in advance bc i decided to stick both posts together :’) dkdkkdkd yall aint gotta read everything but if u do ily and im sorry i write novels on novels dlfksdkf

i’ll tag @koyasdad, @1ovegf, @joonlit, @sleepyyyoongs, @constellationstars and @capgi 💘

honestly feel free to do either one or both or none if u want dkkdkdkd i just wanted to tag u guys bc ily

Alphabet ask:

a // age: 21

b // birthplace: new jersey!

c // current time: 1:17 am

d // drink you had last: coffee

e // easiest person to talk to: my brother when he isnt being an absolute fool

f // favorite songs: 

aint it fun - paramore

trivia love 

honey - kehlani

abbey - mitski

moonlight - ariana grande

g // grossest memory: i was in the city one time and a bird shit on my forehead. i think about it at least twice a week 

h // horror yes or horror no:  H O R R O R   Y E S   B A B E E E Y Y Y Y Y Y Y im the absolute worst person i’ll dead ass watch a scary movie/video or read horror stories by myself just bc. 

i // in love: with my whole ass soulmate namjoon. i luv u string bean man

j // jealous of people: im not even gonna try to lie i am a very jealous person and i am so sorry about it but i really cant help it lmfao. blame my scorpio venus i guess

k // kids of your own someday: when i say i have been thinking about this everyday.........! i wanna have it all i want the kids the white picket fence the dream house everything. i cant wait to be a mommy one day and love n support my bb’s :’)

l // love at first sight or should i walk by again: we a whole ass fool on main and believe in love at first sight!!!! i really do believe soulmates are a true thing and if a love is destined to be across an infinite span of lifetimes and universes then it will always find its way back. when you know, you know, and i genuinely believe that. 

m // middle name: padilla

n // number of siblings: 1 older brother, 1 half brother (older), and 1 half sister (older)

o // one wish: to find true love

p // person you last called: my manager bc i had a work question lol

q // question you’re always asked: “why are you like this” (usually friends @ me when i wild out...which is like everyday), “are you mad?”, “how old are you REALLY?”, “how’s your brother?” (bc he ghosts all family n i have to speak on his behalf like always fsdfjksdf)

r // random fact about you: i once used a horrible bootleg copy of the force awakens to make a star wars crack video dubbing the part in shrek when he first meets donkey over the scene when rey first met bb-8 and it went viral and has like 200,000 notes and even had articles written about it. also i had a weird fascination with jar jar binks and danny devito when i was in high school and i had a habit of making either one of them my icon on school accounts so i could make people laugh when they emailed me or saw me in a word document skfkkkfkf

s // song you last sang: “abbey” by mitski :’(

t // time you woke up: exactly 10 this morning and it was weird bc i picked up my phone and it had JUST turned 10 when i looked i was so shook lol 

u // underwear colour: she be black 

v // vacation destination: paris bc im a basic bitch :’) also japan/all asian countries. i wanna connect with my roots more :/

w // worst habit: yeeting the fuck outta people’s lives when i think they’re getting too close/when i get overwhelmed. im sorry im a flighty bitch @ anyone i’ve ever ghosted :( i love anyone who’s ever tried to talk to me and its never ur fault, i just get the urge to escape sometimes and i’m trying to fix it 

x // x-rays: omg @ tori dead ass me too tho, i had x-rays when i broke my arm when i was around 6 :o

y // your favorite food: my mom’s spaghetti! and sushi. also i love any and all filipino food but specifically i like nilaga and kare-kare oooo baby

z // zodiac sign: we’re a proud libra sun 

Soft ask:

What’s the smell of your shampoo?

we got them fruity scents up in here we keep that shit smellin like a goddamn strawberry field take a fuckin whiff babes

What’s your aesthetic?

the moon and stars, soft pink and purple sunsets with a burning red on the horizon, sunrises as well, paintings and generally all art revolving around flowers and the celestial, pretty pastel pink and yellow, the sound and smell of rain falling against the window while being curled up in bed uwu 

What’s your favorite time of the day and why?

lately it’s been night time. i generally get more creative and feel more at home during the night. i miss being a morning person tho. 

What do you most like about the beach?

not a lot fklsjdjfkslkdflksdlkf i usually only go to get a tan and walk the boardwalk with my friends, but if i had it my way i would never step foot in the ocean for the rest of my life sdjdjdjdjsj we dont trust her!!!!!!!!!

What do you worry about constantly?

when i’m gonna figure out what i wanna do with my life lol. i took a year off to think about it but all i ended up doing was working myself to exhaustion and getting comfy in a work only mindset and now i’m only even more confused about what i want to pursue. i’m just glad im going to chicago next week because i feel like a change of setting for even just a week could give me a much needed reset on my mindset going into the next year. i worry about the future but the problem is i worry about the present too lol. oh well, we’ll figure it out!

What is a song you’ve cried to before?

oh boy...

trivia love

moonchild

first love

she used to be mine - waitress soundtrack

20 something - sza

26 - paramore

the letter - kehlani

landslide - fleetwood mac

when you see my friends - mayday parade

and many........many many more...... skskskks music is my main emotional outlet so naturally im gonna cry over anything that reflects my heart

What are some relaxing tips for your followers?

as The World’s Number One Most Stressed Out Human Being™️ i am definitely in no way fit to give advice on how to relax LMFAO 

but i guess something that always works for me is putting on music i KNOW will make me sing a long or make me happy to distract me from the nerves i’m feeling. also putting on my favorite comfort movies to make me feel better (they’re big fish, scott pilgrim vs the world, and spirited away btw lol)

 What are some things that make you tear up?

the ending of coco, seeing my mom cry, or anyone i love cry tbh, when children are neglected/abused, thinking about the world i’ll have to bring my future children into and how i’m going to be able to teach them to stay strong and bright in the face of it, lyrics that hit too close to home, absolutely anything tbh i cry easy

What is your favorite from each sense?

sight - the view of my cherry blossom tree against a pink sunset in the spring of my childhood home, a person’s eyes and how they light up when they smile, especially when they crinkle as they laugh

smell - the earth after rain, a forest in autumn

taste - my mom’s cooking, good coffee on an early morning

sound - beautiful melodies and harmonies to accompany them, a baby cooing, birds chirping at sunrise

touch - my pillow when its nice and cool, a cat’s tummy, a baby’s cheeks, fingers running through my hair

What is an alternative reality you’d like to live in?

one where im married to namjoon n we have a lot of smart musical prodigy babies who have his dopey smile and i live comfortably in our big ass home in korea where i raise our babies n get that good pipe down every night like i should

jk i wanna live in a reality where magic is real and i can cast spells and live my best life as the true witch that i am

What are some troubles you face on a daily basis?

for starters im ugly as shit so theres one

if we mean practically then i have really bad knees and i recently busted them again so its been really hard getting up and down stairs lately and bending over 

but idk theres not really much. emotionally i just tend to get withdrawn and timid in public so it can be hard for me to speak up when i go out

What is one scene from a book that makes you really sad?

unfortunately i haven’t read as many books lately as i did when i was younger...so a lot of my memories are from books that i read like as a kid lol......THAT BEING SAID i think rue and finnick’s death in the hunger games was truly heartbreaking to read, the spine of my copies of both books have cracks on those pages bc i had to read it several times just to really believe it. also i thought it was written so heart wrenchingly well that i had to go back.  also in looking for alaska when pudge, a man who loved to know people’s last words, realized that he would never know alaska’s last words. im also really thankful for that book bc it introduced me to wh auden’s poetry and to this day he’s still one of my favorite poets of all time.  

Say something to your followers:

thank you thank you thank you thank you THANK YOU for following me and for some reason deciding to stay after how many times i act up on the daily. all jokes aside i really appreciate every single one of you no matter the number and i sincerely hope that you always have love and joy in your heart and that 2019 treats you well. i HONESTLY mean it when i say that i am always here if you guys want to talk or send me things or roast me or talk shit seriously i wanna hear it all and talk about it all i think all of you are so interesting and so beautiful and i’d love to get to know more about you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS! yeet!

[ztufs]

10 Animations (and games) that made my life a little better

So for my first post I’d like to just share my appreciation for 10 animations I really felt a connection to, whether they were emotional, out of fascination or just pure amazement. I have no “rules” for what kind of animations they’re gonna be, aside from them being animated (Shocker I know). 

So yeah, I hope yall enjoy this list, and leave a comment about some of the animations that left you with a smile on your face!

#1- Wall-e

I’m gonna start of this list with my favourite animated movie (or just movie in general): Wall-e. It’s no secret that Pixar makes great animations, and I know I’m not the only one who loves this movie. What really captures my attention is the feeling of soltitude and ambience shown throughout the first act of the movie, until Eve arrives. What I find great about this part is how much “show don’t tell” is used, to describe to us, the viewers, about the post-apocalyptic world. 

Being that the main character almost never speaks, repeating alot of words or lines when he actually does, makes it super duper cool how the animators used visual storytelling to show us how the world has gone to shit, as well as Wall-e’s expressions and sounds to pinpoint exactly how he feels. 

If you haven’t seen this movie, I highly reccomend it!

#2- Ori and the Blind Forest

For my second pick I chose one of my favourite games, name is in the title.For me, this game has everything: Awesome music, tight gameplay, a flubtastic story, and smooth animation. Playing this game really felt like going on a journey through a MAGICAL world, where anything could happen! Even though this game was the source of alot, and I mean ALOT, of ragequits, it still brought me back every time. The art in this game is fenomenal, and combined with the animation I really feel it when Ori, the game’s main character, flies through the world, up and down walls and through changing environments. 

Also Managing those difficult jumps feels really satisfying!

#3- Death Parade

There are alot of animes out there (yes I’m a weeabo), but there’s a few that I’ve really enjoyed, Death parade is one of them. It’s opening might trick you to think you’re gonna watch a friendly, happy-go-lucky show about different people living in purgatory, but you couldn’t be more wrong. It’s dark themes and how it tackles different topics about human pshychology with a touch of humor and warmth really got to me. I felt a connection with the main character in a way I haven’t with any other characters in anime, and the realization about the main characters fate (no spoilers), really worked for me. 

#4- Night in the Woods

I really love this game. I don’t know if it’s the overall great stylized aesthetics, the great, great music, the amount of clever, funny voicelines given to the characters, the characters themselves, showing multitudes of different personalities and charisma, the general story of the game, the oh-so-smooth animation or the underlying themes of friendship, anxiety and an existential crisis that grips me. I might have a clue though. 

This game really delves into the greater questions about life in a really humorous and philosophical way, and i loved every step of the journey. It has really worked as an inspiration for me when it comes to creativity and life itself.

#5- Spider-man: Into the Spider-verse (trailer)

I’m just gonna throw this out here first to clearify: As of the date I wrote this list, the full movie wasn’t out, so I had just the trailer to go by.

Ok, I’m not gonna lie. The moment I saw the trailer for the spider-verse movie my mind. Was. Blown. The animation in this video is perfect. It’s the amazing mix between cycadelic cartoon meeting animation. The colors are vibrant, the animation is smooth as butter, and the textures really capture the comic-feel of everything. Along with me being a Spider-man fanboy I really love the whole concept of the spider-verse, and I can’t wait for this movie to come out

I hope Spider-pig is in it.

#6- Animator vs. Animation (the whole series)

If you watch alot of animations on youtube, you’re bound to come by one of these videos. Made by Alan Becker, Animator vs Animation is a series about an animator (You don’t say), who has to fight his own animated stickman. The genious about these videos is how it’s animated. The animator uses different tools in the animation program, as well as the computer and even phone, to really make it seem that he’s fighting with a virtual stickman. Getting better and better for each video, you can really see how different principles of animation are applied, to make for a really cool untraditional “stick-man fight”.

The series is pretty funny and shows you how creative and meta you can get with animation. Just don’t come to me if your pc is attacked by a small stickman.

#7- Angry Birds - Piggy Tales (The first two seasons)

NOW BEFORE YOU LEAVE THIS BLOG IN DISAPPOINTMENT AND ANGER, let me just say that there’s a special reason as to why I chose this, out of all things.

There was a period in my life where I was going through some rough things, and I spent a lot of time cooped up in the hospital. As I didn’t have a lot to do, phone games became my rescue, one of them being angry birds. I remember getting 3 stars on every stage (get on my level noobs), and having fun watching the different animations the creators of angrybirds made. 

That being said, Piggy Tales is actually a funny short show, made on computer to resemble clay and stop-motion animation, making use of physical humor and slapstick. The animation is pretty smooth and funny, where different kinds of settings are explored each time. 

Be aware though, as the third season shifts from clay-like animation to more refined animation. This might be off putting for those who found the clay-style appealing.

Piggy Tales are short but many, so if you wanna kill some time, this might be a good time-assassin. 

#8- When Marnie was there

I had to include a Ghibli film here, I mean come on! Which one was the question though, but I was kinda allready set on one in particular. “When Marnie was there” is my favourite Ghibli film. I feel like it really connected with the movie in a weird beautiful way. The themes I saw and experienced throughout the movie, might not have been the same as the ones the writers and producers saw. opr me though, I felt like the movie really showed what it can feel like to be alone. Along with beautiful music and composition of scenery, the movie really grabbed me from the get-go and didn’t release me until the credits started rolling. What I was left with was a feeling of solitude, but at the same time I felt grateful for having friends and family, and for being part of this journey we call life. 

Conclusion: Anime makes you feel feelings. 

#9- Sly Cooper (trailer)

As with the Spider-verse, this is only a trailer, since the movie has been either cancelled or suspended for a long time.

The Sly Cooper games were the first games I ever played on a home console, so they have a big place in my nerd-soul. So when a movie was announced, I was well on my way to the cinnemas, even before the trailer was released. When I saw the trailer though, I was overwhelmed with just pure good-feels. The character-designs had changed to give them a more natural look, but it worked really well in my opinion.

As for the dialogue, the voiceactors were the same as the ones I grew up with, aside from the main character, Sly, but I let that slide since the new voice actor, Ian James Corlett pulled off Sly’s charcter pretty good! The animation of him jumping, sliding and running through the city also matched the way it felt playing the game, and doing those exact same actions.

If the movie ever comes out, I’ll be the first in line by any sacrifice necessary.

#10- Pooh’s Grand Adventure: The Search for Christopher Robin

To finish of this list I thought I’d share a piece of nostalgia! Though It’s been a long time since I last saw it, this movie was a big part of my childhood! Now don’t make fun of me for choosing a kids movie for this list, I still think this movie has a great story and music, along with the animation and background-paintings. Besides, making fun of me makes me sad, and I’m a big boy so I’m not supposed to cry. 

This movie really excels at showing how vivid our imagination can be. Every scary location in the movie is shown at the end to be a reimagined version of reality, emphasizing just how much a kids imagination changes the world around them. 

So yeah! Thanks for reading through my list of 10 animated things that really made for the raisin in the sausage (It’s a norwegian saying so don’t feel confused). 

I don’t know what this list says about me as a person, but it is what it is. I also hope you found some of the stuff on this list intriguing, and that you might wanna check it out. 

Welp, that’s it for me! 

Ztufs out!

[queercapwriting]

I feel so proud of you, you deserve the entire multiverse, J. Honestly? I've never felt this kind of admiration and adoration towards someone. I hope it doesnt creep you out because i truly mean it in the most genuine way. You are loved. We all love you so damn much and, and we'll be here for you, anytime. You're amazing and you deserve everything good in this world. Happy birthday, mom

Okay so I’m gonna put the birthday wishes onto this (beautiful) message so I don’t hit my post limit just by thanking people. But like seriously, yall. Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you. Yesterday was so hard for me (during the day – the night got much better), and seeing all this love flow in was…. overwhelming and beautiful and sustaining. Thank you, thank you, thank you

noracharlesandherdogasta said:                                                                      Happy birthday! I appreciate you and your compassion and your creativity! Thank you for sharing those things with us! 

         Happy birthday mom!!!🌽🍰🌽🍰🌽🍰🌽🍰🌽🍰🌽🍰. I am giving you ALL pof the vegan cake (your gf can give you tyhe vegan ice cream…) 😏😏😏       

Happy Birthday you are my favorite human I love you and you deserve the world                

everythingbluu said:                                                                      Happy birthday mom! You deserve the best of everything

Happy Birthday!           

swift1d5sos said:                                                                      Happy birthday mom!             

whiskey-glitter said:                                                                      Mom it’s my birthday too! I’m glad you had such a good moment with your student! Every time I read your fics and advice to all your kids on here it gives me that same happy feeling. I hope you understand the impact that you’ve had on all of us. I wanted to spend today reading and watching all my favorite gay things to feel represented and happy and I ended up just going through your Sanvers and Adrian tags! You’re doing important work here, and we don’t deserve it. Thank you and happy birthday.            (Happy birthday sweetheart!!!!!!!!)

           I just wanted to say that you’re spectacular and your writing matters to so many and you deserve so much for all you do. Happy Birthday!       

hey J!! I just wanted to wish you the happiest of birthdays! 🎉🎉 You are truly, truly, such a wonderful person and I know so many people appreciate everything you do that keeps us up. I hope you had a delightful day cuz goodness knows you’ve made so many of our days delightful with all that you do ❤❤ HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! (ps I know you have a million messages so please don’t worry about responding, just wanted to wish you the best!)                

roxxy1829 said:                                                                      I wish you all the best, mom. Hugs and love from Slovakia! 💞            

Happy birthday, mom! Thank you for everything you do, you are an absolute blessing to the world. I hope your day is full of as much love as you give to all of us (it’s a lot of freaking love, okay?).

deedeendean said:                                                                      HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!!! I hope you had a great day ❤❤❤            

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!            

worldclassbeauty

said:                                                                      🎶Idag er det Queergirlwriting’s fødselsdag,  hurra hurra hurra Hun sikkert sig en gave får, som hun har ønsket sig i år  og dejlig chokolade med kager til.🎶  HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! ❤                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Anonymous said:                                                                      MOM HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (Also I’m trying to cook lemon chicken for the first time and it’s going really well!) I HOPE YOU AND YOUR GIRLFRIEND HAVE A NICE BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION! WE LOVE YOU NOT JUST THE BEAUTIFUL WORDS YOU WRITE!       

  sonthechest

said:                                                                      I have never communicated with anyone on tumblr before but I think you are the best possible place to start as you seem to be one of the sweetest, kindest people ever! Happy Birthday!! I think you deserve all the gifts, many hugs, a large cake and i hope you get spoiled rotten by your missus!              

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I hope you have a great one! Sincerely, the anon who’s grandmother three confetti in her face 🤗            

                                                                                                                                                                           Anonymous said:                                                                      HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THAT YOU DO AND FOR YOUR KIND WORDS

haughtwavearper

said:                                                                      Happy Birthday from one Pisces and New Yorker to another! Love your stories. Enjoy the day!!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Anonymous said:                                                                      Happy birthday!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Anonymous said:                                                                      HAPPY BIRTHDAY I LOVE YOUR BLOG AND I LOVE BIRTHDAYS AND I HOPE YOURS IS AMAZING :)))

                                                                                                                                                                           Anonymous said:                                                                      Happy birthday, mom!!! I hope you succeed in all the things you do. You are such a wonderful, kind and charitabe person. You’re a real hero. Love you.                                               

                peggycarterislife

said:                                                                      Happy birthday!! Thank you for all the things you do for us and for your AMAZING writing! Hope you have a lovely day!! *virtual hug*                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Anonymous said:                                                                      Happy birthday, Mom!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Anonymous said:                                                                      Happy Birthday! You deserve a incredible day and amazing life ahead of you! ——-XOXOX                                                                    

fouralarmfireinanoilrefinery

said:                                                                      HAPPY BIRTHDAY!                    

                                           superkaralex

said:                                                                      Happy Birthday! Hope you have a great day and I’m giving you all the virtual hugs I can! Thank you for everything you do, you are an amazing person.

   Hi queergirlwriting. sneaky Leigh. up late, want wish you happy happy birthday! how old now? sorry your mom or dad made you sad. maybe long hug girlfriend feel better? Rock and flap and soft music, snuggle blanket feel good too. maybe under bed good quiet safe place mom or dad cant get? also, thank you for love words. read them lots. no biting me. am safe but still angry mad sad bad. much love to you now. okay bye.            

Be good to yourself, darling, and enjoy snuggling in your blanket!!

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  Anonymous said:                                                                      Happy birthday mom! In exactly two days it’s my birthday too, and I’m sitting (more laying) at home, cause I have this really bad fever.  The thing is, I’m scared I can’t go back to school on my birthday.. My friends will bake a cake and everything! I just want to get better  xx      

FEEL BETTER SWEETHEART

                                                         adorekara

said:                                                                      happy birthday have a great day ❤️             

mrtevloar said:                                                                      Sorry I’m late to the party (no pun intended) but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! I’m glad to see you have a wonderful girlfriend who’s taking care of you the way you deserve because you’re an amazing human being too. Also, lots of hugs and confetti!            

ochjulie said:                                                                      I am soooo late to the party. Have a splendid Happy (Belated) Birthday!!! Thank you so much for being the sunshine in the fandom. Your fix-it fics are gems. Flawless. Perfect. Thank you again. And I’m sorry abt the not so shiny things happening to you right now. But you will always have me and your fabulous followers to bring back the sun back to your life. Lol this is so cheesy.            

Hello.  Just wanted to say Happy Birthday and to thank you for all you do for the Supergirl (Sanvers) fanfiction fandom!  :D            

[emeraldgirlchronicles-blog]

Royal Wedding Fashion| In the News

The world watched as Prince Harry married Meghan Markle yesterday in celebration of love. While many people focused on the music, guest list and the wedding dress, I was focused on the great weddings fashion taking place as the guests walked in. It was a great day for modest fashion and I was excited to see the parade of fascinators that topped off the great parade of pomp and circumstance. Let's dig into the top picks. 

  What I loved most was that the conservative dress code never stopped the great style or creativity of what people chose to wear. This isn't your typical red carpet fare. showing skin is out and so are knees. They still delivered. Amahl Clooney was radiant in a canary yellow ensemble. She does simple very well with an A-Line cut and adds a flair with a simple train and veil. Expert tailoring made the difference. David Beckham maintained his sleek style with a very well tailored 3 piece suit, tails included. "Suits" co-star Gone Torres opted for an detailed floral number that complimented her slimmer figure. Her detail at the waist treated enough differentiation to stop the dress from looking boxy. 

The Mother of the Bride was radiant in a pale green number that packed an understated punch. I liked that she opted for 2 piece fit with a round hat that accented her loss. If you opt for a tee piece, take a note: Make sure that your dress is markedly shorter than the jacket. It will help elongate your silhouette and stop coordinates from looking too cheesy by being matchy matchy.

  Serena WIlliams gave yall so many tips to copy, at this point, save her look into your phone right now.lol. Her look masters ruching completely. I hate most ruching because it isn't well placed. Serenas is expertly placed. Combined with the neck line, her ruching softened her strong shoulders and complimented her curvy figure at the waist. It allowed balanced to her fuller hips and bust.  Her color choice is also amazing. Brown skinned gems know that pale tones pop next to ebony hues. Even her hem length was spot on. Right under the knees works for virtually all tastes, heights and styles. Oprah represented for the full hourglass gals very well. She maintained her naturally defined waist with a simple stitched waist accent and kept it simple with tiered fabric. This allowed balance to her fuller bust so the look was not overwhelmed. Yet another pale pink against beautiful brown skin. 

Also notice Oprah's neckline was a little deeper. A higher neckline on a full bust would knock off the natural proportion of an hourglass figure. Princess Beatrice shined in a beaded blue ensemble that was not only well made, but well styled. When wearing an embellished dress, keep the accessories simple. Beatrice also got the sleeves right. If you like covered arms but don't like heavy fabric, go sheer; it's the best of both worlds. Karen Spencer wowed in a purple ensemble by adding layers and flair up top without overwhelming her body. She balanced an ornate headpiece with a simple short cape. A long cape would have been a little too much. 

Let's talk Priyanka. Sis said we will get a cute and covered slay and that we did. There is so much I could say, but I will say it like this-- always be aware of proportion and cut. They will create and save a look every time. What Priyanka does so well is allow good tailoring and construction elevate simple silhouettes. 

Which look was your favorite? Let me know in the comment section below!

 CIAO FOR NOW, 

[starryknight-tarot]

𝓝𝓮𝔁𝓽 𝓲𝓷 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓬𝓪𝓻𝓮𝓮𝓻

pile 1 -- > pile 2

pile 3 -- > pile 4

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Hello beautiful souls✨ I am back with another tarot card reading. It's been a minute cause I've been feeling kinda lazy. Today we will be looking into what is next in yalls career. Remember to meditate, take a deep breath and pick whatever pile calls to you the most. Since this is a general reading, make sure to take what resonates and leave what doesn't.

Pile 1

Cards: Nine of Pentacles, Eight of Swords rx, Two of Swords, Nine of Swords, Ten of Cups, The Empress, Seven of Cups rx, Six of Pentacles

Back of the deck: Death

There is a lot of positive changes coming in your career Pile 1. You could have been held down by a tough career that wasn't fulfilling you or you could have felt that it wasn't your life's purpose to be working there. You also could have a strict authority figure in your life that has pressured you to do a certain job, maybe even taking on the family business I am hearing. I keep seeing people dancing so you could be a dancer and people in your life don't approve. But I am seeing you over coming this Pile 1. I am seeing you as free, no longer bound by the things holding you back from pursuing your dreams. After you finally go for it and take action to your dream job, it will manifest easily. I am hearing that companies will fight for you to join them. I am hearing this will happen very quickly, and it may be very overwhelming for you. There may be a tough decision that you need to make regarding the future of your career and it is stressing you out. There is a lot of anxiety and self doubt in this pile so you may not believe that it's possible for this to happen and doubt your abilities but I am really getting that you can do anything you put your mind to. Negative thoughts right now will only make these opportunities come slower. Right now, you need to realize that you have the power to do something incredible with your skills, you deserve better than what you have now and your career will blossom. When you do, money will be abundant. You may have been paid very poorly and unfair, but I am seeing you will be paid for your hard work and it will be plentiful. You will feel a sense of belonging in your career, a career you can grow old doing. You may even make close friends at your job that will stay with you for a lifetime. You need to take a risk and take action to manifest this in your career Pile 1.

Advice Cards:

It's time to try something new!

Your child self needs your attention

Have a closer look at your family situation

It is important to understand and value your own energy

You can manifest your heart's desire

You need to make the first move

Channeled Songs:

Pile 2

Cards: Four of Cups rx, Ten of Wands rx, Two of Swords rx, The Hanged Man rx, Strength, The High Priestess, The World, Ace of Wands

Back of the deck: Nine of Cups

I feel like you are someone that has held on to a childhood dream your whole life Pile 2. You are so passionate about your dream career, that you can't imagine doing anything else. And I do feel like this career is your divine purpose. But for some reason you are holding yourself back achieving this. I feel like you have been waiting for this dream to manifest without actually making the moves to bring it to life. Pile 2, I feel like you have skills that the world needs to see, you could aspire to be an influencer or a celebrity. I keeping hearing, "The world needs to see you." you could also just want to do something that is very public. I feel like a career with a lot of freedom to be as creative as possible would be the best for you Pile 2. You have a lot of great ideas and plans that I am hearing would go viral. For some of you, you may be into fashion or making clothes. Some of you may even be tarot readers and it's your divine purpose to help guide people through spirituality. Pile 2, I feel like you are scared to put yourself out there and admit that you are something special and have the talent to achieve your dream. I am seeing you achieving your dream Pile 2. When you finally push through and post what you need, apply for the job, suggest an idea, you will be rewarded by the universe. When you do this you will gain more confidence in yourself to finally do more and put yourself out there more. It will encourage you to be more creative and make even more beautiful ideas. You really just need to believe in yourself Pile 2!

Advice Cards:

Change is being introduced into your life

You are much stronger than you think

It's time to realize the blueprint of your soul

Set the conditions. You will succeed!

It is time to take appropriate action

You are healing at a cellular level

Channeled Songs:

Pile 3

Cards: Five of Wands, Ace of Pentacles, Nine of Wands, Seven of Pentacles, The Star, Knight of Pentacles, Eight of Swords, Ten of Swords rx

Back of the deck: The Empress

I am getting for this pile that this may be your first job or you are just starting a new job. I am seeing that this job is something you have been trying really hard to get to, something that would get you closer to your dreams. I am also getting that some of you are very anxious about this new job and I am hearing that you really need to keep a positive mindset when approaching this job which I know is easier said then done but I would recommend repeating affirmations when you get nervous about. I am specifically thinking of drag queen named Jinx Monsoon that repeats "water off a ducks back" when she gets nervous so that might resonate with someone lol. I am seeing you are very hardworking Pile 3, willing to push yourself to achieve your goals. But some of you need to brace yourself and try not to overwork yourself so you don't burn yourself out. If you push yourself, you will feel trapped in an endless loop, I am seeing a spider caught in a web. Despite this I do see a lot of financial successful coming towards you Pile 3. I think it will make you feel really accomplished and proud of yourself (as you should). Although I am seeing some of your coworkers have really nasty energy and they may be jealous of all your success. I feel like they may try to bring you down so beware of any nasty energies around you Pile 3. While there may be a lot of jealously with some coworkers, I am seeing someone has your back at your job. This person is gonna be your rock. I am getting a more masculine energy but it doesn't have to be. This person could be your best friend or for some of you a potential love interest. Overall, I am seeing you shining brightly in your coming career.

Advice Cards:

Boldly imagine what you can do and be

You are ready to receive your fortune. Be miracle minded!

You are birthing a new self

Release what you do not need. Let go of some extraneous aspects of your life

The challenge is intended to promote your growth

Stand your ground

Get clear about your intention and hold firm

Channeled Songs:

Pile 4

Cards: Six of Pentacles rx, Three of Cups rx, The Empress, Page of Wands, Six of Swords, Ten of Pentacles, Nine of Pentacles, Five of Wands

Back of the deck: Knight of Wands

I see a lot of gain and possible loss for this pile. I am getting for some of you, you may have already achieved something really big in your career.I see this pile gaining the most financial abundance out of all the piles. It could be a family business that you may post about online and it becomes super successful. If you aren't in a family business it may be a good choice for you. Some of your careers may relate to food, more specifically deserts. I feel like you are about to make the most money you have ever made in your life. I feel like this success will come very quickly, almost overnight. This success will also help inspire to work even harder and make more. Now I am seeing there are either two scenarios for this pile. Some of you have had a lot of people practically spit on your hard work and are taking advantage of your talents. These people could be ex friends or for some of you extended family. These people are gonna be jealous and feel like they deserve credit for your hard work and imma say right now that these people are full of shit and don't deserve an ounce of credit. You may be trying to working independently and be your own boss. Then, there is another scenario where there are people in your life that helped you get to the success and wealth that you will receive and may not get some credit that they deserve. You might fight about this with these people and I am getting this person is in the right and is getting unfair payment. It is recommended to make things right with these people. For both scenarios, there is a strong possibility of people leaving your life after this success. But spirit is really saying for you to not let this stop you from enjoying your success and be proud of yourself for all of your achievements.

( a lot of these were pretty similar to other piles so if you felt called to any other piles please do read them )

Advice Cards:

You are healing at a cellular level

Set the conditions. You will succeed!

Weigh your situation carefully

It's time to realize the blueprint of your soul

It's time for appropriate action

Take good care of yourself, especially your heart

Channled Songs:

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