#yall im such a freaking clownn🤦😂

[spaceoceania]

Hey guys 👋👋

Not sure if any of y'all noticed but I sorta took a break from Tumblr! It lasted way more than I originally intended it to (it was literally only meant to be for two days, not a whole freaking week) but I’m finally back! :D

The reason for even taking a break is really weird and arguably very dumb but I kinda just needed it for myself and for some introspection- basically just to come to good terms with myself?? Hahh, I actually meant to take this break since like the beginning of the year but I kinda just delayed it😅

Weirdly enough, I do feel like I learned a lot of stuff about myself, the stuff I do, and the way I think. All of which has given me a different perspective that will hopefully make me into a better person towards myself and the way I present myself to others. Which I’m very glad about! That wasn’t something I was expecting out of this tumblr break tbh. But yeah I do feel a lot better now! ^^

I do want to apologize to you all for just walking out without saying anything, though. Especially to the people I was texting (oml im sorry to you guys especially) because it was such a dick move from my part. Cause to me, being in here with you all, it’s like we're all sitting at a big table, having dinner, talking, and just exchanging things. And I'm at the far corner of said table but somehow still interacting with the whole table, while also personally talking to a couple of people around me. But then all the sudden I just got up and walked out of the room without saying anything, for a freaking week. So coming back pretending like everything is back to normal feels is almost disrespectful?? I know real-life and internet etiquette are very different but it still just felt odd to just walk back in when I consciously and willingly left? Without even thinking twice?

So yeah I'm sorry for just leaving without saying anything! If I ever do this again, I’ll make sure to let you guys know. I know I shouldn’t apologize since it was for my own good (?? though it’s not like I was even having a bad day or week when i left last Wednesday?? I was actually living my best life if you ask me) but it still felt like something I had to say..? So yeah please accept the apology cause I’m doing it out of politeness, but also because... I’m aware of the stuff I do. So yeah, you all deserve an apology cause that was really rude from me ^^;

And now imma go reply to my messages! And maybe scroll through my feed? I kinda wanna see if i can scroll all the way to last week😂 Then I will hopefully be able to catch with some things ^^

Thank you guys for everything cause I actually opened tumblr to a lot of notes which was really really sweet :') So thank you all so much!!💖💖

I hope you all had a great past few days💙 and if not, then I wish you the best of luck and will do my best to spread positivity on your feed <3