#yall are just wild !!! so so wild !!!! i cant believe yall like me or anything i do LMAOOOO it's the imposter syndrome 😌💅

[willowser]

Willow, Willow darling, dearest Willow please. Your masterlist of stories has made my day, oh my goodness I cannot even begin to tell you how excited I am for all of these fantastic stories to come out of your beautiful mind!!

Pleased to Meet You is just... I can't even explain how invested I am in that story. The way you write Dabi/Touya is just perfection. All of your ideas sound amazing and I patiently await the day you come back from hiatus to write them 💕💕

Much love as always

Rose ❤🌺

miss rose !!! 🥺❤️✨️

i'm so excited that you're excited 🥺 happy to say that the response i've received since yesterday has been such a huge motivator ??? i'm so thankful i've been blessed enough to have wonderful people surrounding me 🥺 like you, dear !!! 🥺 thank you for your patience, and for sticking with me in my low points !! 🥺 you're so sweet !!!! 🥺💕 i can't wait to show you where touya and reader-chan are going from here, all that they'll experience with each other 😌🌹✨️

[snekdood]

i think if people look back at all of this, the amount of people trying to suppress my voice, the amount of people Not believing a victim, the amount of people who want me to shut up about it- i dont think history is gonna look as kindly upon yall as you might hope.

[cherryo]

Nsfw alphabet headcanons about the rise brothers would be great!

HIIIII!!!! okay so i decided to pick out three for each brother cause if i did all 26 questions for each brother it would be a little much for me right now! i may revisit a whole one for each brothers :3

Pairing: Rise! Brothers x reader (separately) genre: smut Pronouns: no actual pronouns but fem genitalia Word count:didnt count warnings: cussin' and sex lol did not proofread

LEO

A- Aftercare (what theyre like afterwards)

2nd best out of the brothers (Raph is the best) Runs you a bath before you even ask, he has snacks, towels, water and everything you could want in his room already!

I- Intimacy (how are they during the moment? The romantic aspect of it)

Super super romantic, literally no jokes whatsoever. As he ages he eases up but as of right now hes very intimate and romantic! He thinks sex and sexual intimacy is sacred and needs to be serious !

W-Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

He only likes to be a power bottom! He feels he has wayyyyyyy more control from the bottom than on top! He also thinks you being on top is super fucking hot

RAPH:

B- Body (what their favorite body part is of themselves and their partner)

His arms!!! Fucking thick as a log, hes very proud how much he can manhandle you with his arms and how he can hold you down or in any position with one arm!

Your thighs, he loves how they look when you sit down, have a tight skirt on, how his dick feels being slide between them, how fucking soft they are!

N-No (something they wouldnt do)

Public sex or bathroom public sex. He thinks its hot but he cant handle his noises or his size in public, it would be too obvious too quick and hes too nervous to be caught!

X-X-ray (lets see whats going on under those clothes)

HOLY SHIT FUXKING BIG AS FUCK!!!!!! Literally thickness of a coke can and the length of a normal human forearm!!!!!!!! No but fr the girth is what gets you hurtin’. You two have to prep your pussy for hourrrrssss before even attempting to slide his dick in

DONNIE

C - Cum (anything to do with cum)

He cums so much and it’s so thick and goopy and hot and-

He loves cumming in you and on you, depending on horny and situation level. If yall are in public he’s cumming in you so it drips out of you and he also does it commonly in the bedroom.

He cums on you primarily if its a quickie so he can just wipe it up and you wont have to worry bout your panties being soaked! How sweet of him <3

F- Favorite position

Mating press and doggy and i will not be expanding on this it just feels right!!!!

K-Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Literally breeding, body worship, overstim, panty sniffing, choking, collars & leashes, and -

He has so many, i believe hes the most adventurous in the bedroom! Mikey being second, raph and then leo <3

MIKEY

D- Dirty Secret (a dirty secret of theirs)

Is a panty stealer, literally sneaks dirty and clean underwear. He loves it, he primarily jerks off with them on his dick but will sometimes sniff it or stuff it in his mouth while jerkin it

L-Location (their favorite place to do it)

The bathroom!!!! Loves the counters and how creative you have to be while fucking in the bathroom. Also loves tub and shower sex! Mans is a freak fr but he just loves making the bathroom humid from stuff other than hot water ;)

Z-ZZZ (how fast do they fall asleep after?) 

Hes out, the second yall are done hes out. Hes so bad at aftercare and i know he has that whole alter ego but it just feels right!!!!!! Hes a sleepy guy :’)

[batfambrainrotbeloved]

More DSB headcanons (because I wanna)

- Cardinal is either surprisingly docile or incredibly violent with criminals/rogues/villains. No in between

- Tim will just mail random shit to people he doesn't like (rats to Ra's, roaches to Lex, a card that tells the Joker to "fuck off and die in an alley")

- He has run into Lady Shiva at some point and has surprised her with the fact that he knows some of her moves (idk if you know but he trained with Lady Shiva for a little bit in canon)

- His accent switches on occasion to something totally random

- He gets weirdly calm during rogue attacks, and it freaks the Batfam out because "how the fuck can this bratty rich kid do this so well???"

- Not specifically DSB but he plays Project Sekai because it helps with hand eye coordination

-🎭☕

(no this is definitely not because I saw the post that you had 11 asks and I wanna change that)

OHH Love these- and thank you for filling my ask box, always appreciated <333 ____________________

True! Though Cardinal doesn't actually deal with rouges as often (the bats are always quick to cover that front and they try not to cross work paths unless nessicary, aka why the riddler fight was so far "from the usual") They are the silent hand behind the scene, and the ocassional "ghost of christmas future" like with Arthur.

The most "docile" Cardinal is, is towards Catwoman where they will pop in on her mid robbery, just stare for a sec- and then dip. And the most agressive probably with Black Mask/Joker (which yall will see eventually :) ______________________

Not something I considered before, and id say Tim has definently fucked with old foes for the hell of it- BUT he does specifically avoid anything close to the leauge, The last thing he wants is to be on Ra's radar on top of all the other bs he deals with.

But mailing bananna cream pies with small explosives to a joker hideout?? Yes. ________________________

YES- I actually touched on this a little bit (the training not the meeting) but I do think they've run into eachother. But that Shiva, unlike most of the other villains/antagonistic characters- seeing behind the mask? She was interested- but left it alone

MUCH to Tims utter relief. __________________________

Yes. Elaboration not needed, though I will say he rarely slips up when hes "in the zone" but relaxed?? You best believe he's suddenly french ________________________________

Actually? Kind of normal for Gotham- I find it wild that growing up in a city with like a 40000% higher than natioal adv crime rate, that you ARENT in some way numb to it all.

Its less common in the elite because well, they have money to stay away from it all. But its not TOO out there- its just that "Huh guess Timothy is one of us more than we thought??- wild" _____________________________

Tim is like me in the sense of "cant-play-games-alone" or else painfully aware of every milisecond ticking by that you arent being "productive" (exception being minecraft)

But game night @ Obis?? You best believe that Alan is a GOD at beat saber, and show him Project Sekai??? Hes going to make it a personal challenge ____________________________

[tojisun]

I live in the Midwestern US and we get a lot of tornadoes every year. some states/areas more than others. but because it's so normal, you'll often hear of folks going out to watch them from their yard

oh! we also have monthly tornado siren testing. the day varies depending on your area/state...so like once a month all of a sudden you'll just hear a siren off in the distance and think "ah, shit..." only to realize it's the first (x)day of the month.

today was the day for my area—scared the crap outta me before I realized what day it was 🙃

my mind genuinely, truly, cannot comprehend the wild wonders of the US of A.

i cant believe thats normal; i also understand why they need to do the siren testing which im glad they do! cant have the geography turning against yall and yall not having anything to let each other know shit’s up, yk?

and like i hope ur all safe 😭 idk how ppl cope w tornadoes - do yall got bunkers? safe zones? but yea hhhh

with all my love, hope you’re safe n sound !!!

[luvistqrzzz]

THE ACCIDENTAL POLAROID- 21- FINALE::: it's like a polaroid love ( written::: 0.5K )

'Where are you taking me, Chae?!' You screamed blindfolded as you felt your three friends around you, leading you out of Hueningkai's broken car.

'Ssh! It's a surprise', she replied, taking your hand and pulling you into a room. 'I swear to God if you're kidna-' your voice died down as Sunoo removed the blindfold and you were met with the somewhat familiar surroundings of... Hungry Jungle diner.

You stood there, frozen in your spot and feeling tensed because you knew who'd be there. The guy you'd met (? sort of ) in this place. The exact one standing on the small stage staring into your eyes.

The silence was broken by Chaewon gently tugging at your hand and leading you to an empty table. You quickly looked away from him, embarrassed. Who thought it'll be a good idea to bring you here? You could almost kill your friends if only you didn't love them so much.

Heeseung cleared his throat, catching your attention, 'The last song for today is my uh own song and it's written for a special someone. I hope yall enjoy it.'

A soft melody filled the place as he started singing but his eyes were on you.

Why am I relying on to love?

It's obvious feeling anyway

I believed I would know everything

I guess it as trap that I fell for even I knew it

You couldn't help but blush at his voice and the sweet lyrics. Maybe giving the letter wasn't that bad of an idea. Even if the room was filled with people, for you, the chatter died down almost like you and Heeseung were the only ones.

It's like a polaroid love

It's not going my way

I don't even have any trendy filter

But I love that vibe

He finished it, a small hopeful smile on his face. Heeseung muttered a small thank you and bowed before leaving the stage.

Alarmed, you quickly got up, following him as he walked towards through the back door. 'Yah Lee Heeseung!'

He stopped in his tracks. This wasn't part of the plan. He had planned to properly confess to you after the night ended, not like this. 'You can't just walk away after singing that song and making me go crazy.'

He turned around to face you but before he could say anything, you ran up to him, pulling him into a kiss. His eyes widened but he slowly melted into it, pulling you closer by the waist.

You didn't even know what had gotten into you but there you were kissing him out of the blue, a thousand butterflies going wild in your stomach.

'I'm sorr-' '- sorry.' You both burst out into laughter, faces still close to each other. Heeseung caressed your cheek. 'Soooo, what do you say, girlfriend, let's get out of here', he suggested.

You playfully shoved him, 'Who said I was your girlfriend, polaroid boy?!'

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SUMMARY- Lee Heeseung doesn't believe in love at first sight but what happens when he accidentally clicks a polaroid of a girl at the local diner? A girl he can't seem to get out of his mind.

Will he be able to return you the polaroid or will love follow him along the way?

GENRE- smau with written parts, college!au, strangers to lovers, fluff, crack, angst (veryyy slight), slight love triangle

TAGLIST- open! send an ask or comment to be added- @yenqa @xuimhao @ddazed-lhs @astrae4 @ghostiiess @seungminstaehyun @haechansbbg @chaechae-23 @ak-aaa-li @whippedforbeomgyu @ahnneyong @ineedaherosavemeenow @jhopesucker @j-wyoung @tnyhees @liliansun @rikizm @jadeluvsenha

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AN- ANDDDD THATS A WRAP!! Omg i cant believe that its finally over my first finished smau😭😭😭 i cannot gurantee a bonus chapter but imma try TT!! Tysm to alll who supported this smau ily ily your comments and feedbacks really made my day <33 this was such a silly idea but it turned out fun i hope yall enjoyed it too🤧🫶! See yall in love theory iggg ;))

[eastereggie]

woohoo !! didnt except to respond to this whole essay (for more context, im talking about the document jay made about the drama in the kaeloo fandom lol) considering the fact that its basically just 222 pages of insults towards random (and especially her mental state -who tf do you think you are btw) and then pretending to be a saint by randomly saying "b-but ! i dont h-hate you guys 🥺". i knew that this whole "call-out post" would be bullshit, but thats just low. really, really low. i figured that you and your little friends (or should i refer to yall as a cult too ? since we're going in the extremes :)) were mostly just here to insult people and play the victims, but i didnt think it would be that bad. i wont say much about whats in the document because i think its randoms place to do so, since its basically just a long ass diss to her, but i still wanted to write a short response. am i allowed to though ? i mean, as a teen (even if im 18 in a few months, ive been called underage in your document so ill go with that) i can draw and read explicit content to explore my sexuality ���🥺 but i cant think for myself right ? :/ thats too bad. i cant agree with my friends because that would also mean that im a yes-man and that im being manipulated or wtv helps you sleep at night lol

this is just to respond to the little part that has been directly adressed to me: if my answers are short when the drama is brought up its because...i actually dont give that much of a fuck about the drama itself. do i think that you guys are gross for writing and drawing porn of children and animals ? yes, i do. would i care if you just stayed in your own server to share that shit to your "safe place" ? absolutely not. you do you. that is none of my problems if you dont bring it up in a space you share with KIDS. thats the whole problem with you. you posted your disgusting content in websites where kids will obviously find. as an adult, you must be really naive to think that they will just read your warning and think: oh yeah !! ill just move on to a new fic :3 !!

they are kids. this is a kid show. obviously, you are sharing your fandom with kids, and you have to be careful about that. that is your responsibility, whether you like it or not. you cannot except to be appreciated and respected when you write porn about kids, in a fandom full of kids. if you genuinely, truly believe that everyone should accept you for that...then man, theres nothing i can do for you. but you know, you could share your things since you cherish them so much in patreon or in your discord server if its too explicit, but ao3 ? wattpad ? the stm ? those are FILLED with young teens. i can't believe you're whining about having to respect rules to coexist in a fandom of a show about kids with kids...wild

again, this is my OPINION. i cannot force you to not like...well, the things that you like... but i can definitely call you out if you're sharing that to kids, even if its indirectly and that you put warnings or whatever. you need to be cautious about the members of the fandom. if you're unhappy about this, then leave the space that isnt for you.

as i said, this happens in many fandoms filled with minors: bunch of adults are weird. they're being called out for being weird. they cry about it and create a group. they call people who call them weird, weird. its really common. thats why the center of the drama isnt new or interesting to me. thats why i dont write essays whenever it is brought up in the main server, or when nsfw fics were posted there. creeps exist in EVERY FANDOMS. do i still think its good to call them out ? totally. but that explain why i:

1. didn't really say anything when jay were posting their fics. since they agreed with us on the topic of kaeloo fics with nsfw but still were posting them, i figured out that there was not point in arguing. i just ignored the weird parts of the stories or simply didnt read anything. i dont like conflicts, and had a lot going on (still do), so i didnt speak about it before. thats my bad though: even if jay wouldnt have cared because they have a different opinion than me about aging up characters apparently, i shouldve said something whenever i had the chance and not only when the subject of fics with porn was brought up, and i take full responsibility. but you must know that i do not support those type of works and never have said that i do. whenever we spoke about it, i made it very clear that it was gross and that i dont agree with it at all. to tlak about jay's fics again, i mostly was enthusiastic about all the parts where sex wasnt involved (about the ss of me talking about jays fic about pregnancy, i loved seeing how mr cat and kae would act as soon-to-be parents ! i think its cute !! do not mean that i agree with writing full scenes about how that child is made).

jay has great ideas, thats why i liked their work so much. i will never pretend that i hate EVERYTHING that they do. theyve wrote and drew great stuff, and just because i dont agree with them as a person doesnt mean that ill ignore that or the compliments that ive given to them. i admire a lot of their work and didnt lie about any nice things ive said to them. this is not all white or all black.

2. didnt write really big responses in the STM. this is a server about kaeloo. the drama isnt really brought up there, except when its important or at the start of it. with college, job, family issues and the start of adulthood soon, i do not have time to be on discord in the first place. either im here for a brief moment, or i can be active when everyone is asleep so they already said everything i had in mind and all i can say is "yes" to messages i agree with and "no" to messages i dont. you do not know me, and if you genuinely believe that this is all i think about what is happening, then you're just extremely stupid...obv i wont talk about everything i think in details in the STM, or rub it in your face.

the only reason why im involved is because you're harassing my friend and i do not want her to suffer alone. its as simple as that. i will always support my friends in public, and correct them in private if i think they did something wrong. is random perfect ? do i think that she does no wrong ? ofc not. i'll always tell her if i think that she's not doing something right, the only difference is that i'll tell her in private, not in a discord server. how do you except anyone to listen to you if you already don't respect them enough to confront them privately and privately only ?

i think ive spoken for my part and i will not speak for any other people involved in this ridiculous drama. i think this is all really a personal issue with random (and also khamil apparently) and i do not believe that it's my place to speak for any of them. as i think your friend said, which i think is true, im not relevant in this drama, and again im just really here to support random but also to express myself when i think that its a general matter.

so ill conclude this by saying that this is a really disappointing document. posting the insults that have been told to my friend, for no reasons other than hurting her, giving her a few really serious and uncalled for diagnosis, posting her vents from when she was a teen to make her feel vulnerable, posting hateful and ableist comments about her publicly, posting comments of people insulting vulnerable members who need to vent and more...that is so, so petty.

jay, i didnt know you for long and we weren't super close, but i still liked you a lot (/p ofc). i know you'd love to think that you're the victim and that we are all just shit talkers who hated you or whatever, but that is not the case. reading the messages of the drama after the drama has been shocking. reading your tumblr posts, reading what your friends said to my friend, reading your document, all of that have been so disappointing. not here to play violins and act dramatic btw, this is just a fact i wanted to share.

theres a lot of things unsaid, but i think that it's really random's place to speak about it, not me or anyone else. id like to respect her opinion in all of this, so ive only really spoken about what i generally think :] !! that being said, i wont post this seriously about whats going on anymore except if i need to, thats why im blocking a few people too. i want to enjoy my post without child porn being rubbed in my face. i really feel like all this other part of the fandom wants is attention, so i wont focus my whole tumblr on them lol, but calling them out is still important to me. i dont except them to change their ways since they look so sure of themselves, but anyone can dream, right ? sorry about how disorganised it is, or if my english is bad and also for my spelling mistakes lmao 🤸🤸 ty for reading this far though !! please check out random's response when it comes out !!

[sevaonpandora]

★ !! ANIMALISTIC ₊˚

. . .

being lost in an unknown forest so far from your clan that you meet an ometecaiya ☘️

warnings!!: sharp fangs, knife, blood/scrathes, slow burn ?

Note 📝- thank you guys for the support on the last post !! Also i wrote this at 1am..sorry if its rough 😓💗

neteyam x fem!reader

`✦ ˑ ִֶ 𓂃⊹..

you were lost in a big, dangerous forest. And you had a couple of marks and scratches here and there. in your clan your known as the brave and risky one..but youll never admit that you're terrified right now. Everything looked the same, there were no paths just wild life. Night was setting and you can get attacked by anything anytime right now.. but then suddenly you hear someone or something stepping on a branch. You turn around quickly, holding your knife in your hand with heavy breathe.

oh eywa..

the creature reveals himself and- a boy? your instincts tell you to hiss at him so you do, tail flicking in a protective stance..but its just out of shock and fear. The boy dosent react and tilts his head to the side, probably wondering where you even came from. He notices your tail movements and your posture, you teeth were sharper than usual. You seemed a bit more animalistic than the other na'vi. This was ometecayia property, his hand was on his knife aswell just in case youll attack but..he was gentle with you because you guys looked the same age.

'..are you alright?' he asks, his voice curious but genuinely concerned when he sees your scars and blood

You dont answer just nod slowly ..

'where did you come from?' he asks, referring to your clan and how you got here. He was serious.

'.. tarayngi" you mumble..a bit embarrassed that you got lost, your ears pointing down

'im Neteyam, ometecayia.' he says with a small smile , he can tell your nervous and scared so hes trying to be easy on you but in reality hes just as shocked as you are.

'do you need help? '

'im alright.' you say, even tho you needed the help. You need food, water, shelter. A safe place.

It was silent for a second, but the boy didnt believe you one bit.

'you seem injured .'

You gulp.

'here, let me take you to our clan.' he softly grabs your hand..and you hesitate.

'please, trust me. i wont hurt you'

Your eyes stare into his..you nod. I mean what could go wrong? Hes just a boy that seems around the same age as you and is friendly.

You and neteyam enter the village and he brings you to his father.

'dad- sir i found a lost girl.' he says, switching the name he calls his own father (sorry yall☹️.)

After explaining what happened, Jake and Neytiri let you stay for a night and tomorrow they'll bring you back home. You felt relived that you didn't have to spend the night in a dangerous forest alone.

'do you need tsahik?' neteyam tilts his head at you with a soft look

'no- im fine..' you say, tail flicking a bit.

night finally comes, the sky getting dark but being brighten up with the millions of stars. You were excited for tomorrow, to go home..but theres one problem.

There arent any mauri or hammocks left.

'shit- uhm.' neteyam mumbles to himself

'..there arent any hammocks left.'

Your eyes widen slightly..

'oh' you stand there akwaradly, not sure what to say

Jake, neteyams father then walks in and looks at neteyam then you

'sorry but you two will have to sleep next to each other ' jake says, his voice calm..as if its not a big deal and then leaves.

what in mother eywa. I cant sleep next to someone i barely know. Neteyam turns his head to look at you

'hey, if youd like i can sleep on the floor' he says, he didn't want to make you feel uncomfortable.

You wanted to say yes but you felt bad. Hes done so much for you just for him to sleep on a cold hard floor

'no- its alright. Youll get cold'

you say, your voice hoarse.

Neteyam smiles at you , finding you gesture generous

'okay.'

You both get in the hammock, luckily it was pretty big so it could fit two people. You bodies were akwaradly pretty close..you turn to the other side.

'goodnight, teyam.' you say..you already gave him a nickname. a smile creeps on his face at the name.

thats cute..

he thinks before replying

'goodnight.' he says back, turning to the other side

SHOULD I MAKE A PART TWO?? 😼

[i-think-were-alone-n0w]

ill speak my fucking truth, the TUA s4 ending was BULLSHIT.

alright alright, i get yall's issues ab five and lila, but i also understand it to some extent.

but one thing we can all agree on is how full of plot holes, unanswered questions, and how shitty of an ending we've got. also, it was so fucking rushed! hell.

to address the ending; why the fuck? why? why would our comfort characters cease to fucking exist? in all timelines, they've fought so hard to build good lives. it was bound to be ruined, but them to fucking cease to exist? thats wild!

and alright what about the other kids with marigold? (?) there were about what, 40+(?) born, right? where are they? this cant be real.

to address some other plot holes..

ray: what do you MEAN he just.. walked out on allison? they loved each other dearly, we sidnt get a fucking explanation?

sissy, SLOANE??: what, did these characters just disappear into thin air? if ray is alive, why couldn't sissy be, too? mostly after the big part harlan played in the third season. also, where the fuck did sloane go? so ben survived, but sloane just, what? disintegrated??? turned into pure marigold? hell.

ben?: why is no one talking about him? his love story was rushed, his motives were a bit stupid (not entirely, so i could excuse this), also he just fucking died and nobody seemed to actually care? klaus had little to no reaction and he was the closest to ben? what the hell is going on?

viktor: we ve gotten none of his backstory. we see a supposedly ex gf of his at the start, and they say he s getting every girl in town. what is he, afraid of commitment? a player? not able to sort his priorities? also, how come he didn't suffer any consequence after literally sucking those particles out of ben!? i mean, his body's got a fuck ton of marigold, and in theory when coming into contact with that bs particle; he should've what, exploded!?

reggie: how and why is reggie for once, supposedly nice? until now he played a role snd at the evnd revealed a facade and it being some evil plan. this time over though, what we see is what we get. he trusted viktor, he followed up on his word, gave him time, gave him chances, called so many times, and in the end, told his wife that he wishes to save it and couldnt believe it was her behind it. so why is he no longer evil? what's up with that?

jennifer: soo why was she inside a squid? what happened to her parents? how did she get that power? why is she destined to meet ben? erremmm.. so many plot holes w her.

commision: (i might be very wrong here and not remember the past seasons, feel free correct me if im wrong.) but ure telling me, that in NO timeline the commision still exists? lila and five have managed to travel through hundreds of them over the span of 6.5 years. and all of this, none of those timelines were helpful? or.. anything at all? i wish their arc wasnt so rushed, maybe more ppl would see through it. it didnt feel like 7 years. it felt like 2 months.

diego: throughout the season we see him getting clowned on for being a "failure" and being "fat" only for him to look the same, fucking ripped too, and be normal, react like a normal person would. he was a good, hard working father and good husband with pure intentions. what was all that for?

claire: i need to see more of her. we know klaus' been sober for 3 yrs, but its been 6. which menas that claure has seen that "bad, sick" side of klaus. we see her know how to recognise that he was relapsing. i wish we saw more of her childhood, her with allison and how she got so closs to klaus.

it all was so rushed. idk ill add more if i remember more chat.

if any of you want to see me address lila and five, i've made other posts. i think their arc was important, not necessarily asked for, but justified, too. i'll folloe up with more posts and answer questions. no hate here.. js opinions:).

[lxndonorris]

a rant

So Ive been thinking, and Ive been thinking about this a lot but never actually did anything about it.

Ive been dealing with social anxiety disorder for years and been to therapy for years, and I managed to work on most everything that impacted my life. Can you believe I didnt wear some clothes for years cause someone said something funny about it and I got anxious? Too anxious to wear it? Wild.

But I feel like F1 has become this monolith of anxiety for me, and Ive been avoiding watching it for a good year. Its just about things that could happen, like crashes, or what people might say about my guys and how it effects me. Social anxiety fucked up my brain yall.

But the worst thing you can actually do is avoid the thing youre scared of because it turns into that huuuuge fucking thing. The more I avoided it the more Ive been anxious.

But I love the sport, especially the guys? So I still care, cant sleep at times when its on cause anxious, and where do I get my daily dose of F1 from? The most biased sources on earth.

Social media.

At the end of the day I couldnt care less what Sophie from down the street thinks about Max. Or even my mutuals say about Charles, Daniel, Lando whoever.

That doesnt effect me. At all.

So I want to try to confront my fear and just try to enjoy this shitshow of a sport I love to get to terms with myself.

If I end up not liking it anymore, I atleast have closure.

I try not to delete this, so we will see about that.

[raeygina-george]

Hii Raey! For the emoji ask game (the one I answered) Can I also give you the whole thing? :D [Only if you have the time tho!]

In that case...the whole thing - ones you you don't wanna answer <3

(Tag me in it btw :3)

📷 What’s set as your phone’s lockscreen?

a picture of a gravestone that says 'drowned in the pussy on it' with 'rip raey' shittily written under it. since i know you're so enamored with this lockscreen that you want to know my homescreen as well, it's the same image but hand drawn by my bestie

🍫 Cheese or chocolate?

chocolate but honestly both!

✨ Do you have any nicknames?

uhhh..... some of my friends call me pookie or raeybae but other than that not really lol

🎵 Last song you listened to?

against the kitchen floor by will wood!

✏️ Have you ever written fanfiction?

yes and i just foudn out fairly recently that someone made a tumblr acc based off of one of my fanfics. that was a wild day

😏 Are you on discord?

yass. username commanderofspicyfire if yall wanna chat!!

 💛 Do you have any piercings?

i have the basic ear piercings. i think it would be fun to have more but ive tried some of like the fake piercings & they don't really look that good on me + they're covered by my hair + you're not allowed to have piercings in when cheering so i'd have to get them all during the off season but there's not really enough Time for the piercings to heal before the season starts again </3

🐰 What do you think says the most about a person?

as gon said, if you want to get to know someone, find out what makes them angry!

🍪 If you were a cookie, what kind would you be?

uhhhh... probably like a caramel chocolate chip cookie.....

🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person?

DOGS I LOVE DOGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!1111!!!!!!!!!!! i do like cats too but DOGS BIG FLUFFY DOGS PUPPIES HOLY SHIT !!!!!

🎧 Headphones or earbuds?

headpohones yumy

🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know?

i actually dont think that knowing how many calories is in a human tooth is weird but i can't think of anything else off of the top of my head soo. 36. but while fact checking my answer i came across a much weirder fact, which is that the average newborn human baby has 420,000 calories in it. well... blaze it baby......

🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl?

both but im more of a morning person tbh. ignoring the fact that i can't get out of bed on time to save my life

🧸 Favorite place to nap?

in my bed so cozy and eepy

🏳️‍🌈 Are you a member of the LGBTQIA+ community?

yass

🦋 Describe yourself in three words.

stupid bitch (affectionate)

👖 Jeans or sweatpants?

sweatpants

🥤 What’s your go-to Starbucks order?

i dont really drink starbucks but on the very very rare occasion that i do, caramel frappucino

🧡 A color you can’t stand?

i don't have any of those, but my least favorite color just like by itself is definitely that desaturated yellowy green

☕ Coffee or tea?

tea!!!! i haven't had coffee in a while but it made me feel kinda sick

🌙 How long have you been on tumblr?

since uhh june 2022 i believe? so not that long in the grand scheme of things

🌴 Desert island item?

assuming this is the 'what would you bring if you were stranded on an island' question, i would bring the anime character saiki k for obvious reasons

🐸 Describe your aesthetic.

most of the time i just dress comfy but on the rare occasion that i do dress up it's like. pastel lesbian schoolgirl on the side of goth OR malewife.

🔮 What’s your dream job?

[winry rockbell head in hands image] i dont know

💙 Relationship status?

i mean ignoring the fake polyamorous relationship my besties have suddenly created, single

🤎 What color is your hair?

brown lol

💌 Do you talk to yourself?

nope

💄 Do you wear makeup?

not usually? sometimes i will wear some eyeliner but im kinda eepy

🌸 Best compliment you ever received?

i cant really think of the Best One because a lot of people have given me really really really nice compliments and i appreciate them all lots

💞 @ your favorite blog.

@gxlexii and of course all of my mutuals!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love yall!!!!

(also, just out of curiosity, does tumblr not give you a notification when someone answers your ask?)

[shaampoo]

okay so in one of my poll post yall said yes to me talking about the fics i have without spoilers (it isn't done yet as I'm writing this BUT I'm a lil impatient and i want to talk [or type kasjkdh])

Alright Lets go

Number 1: Time is Going in Circles

Alright so i already finished this one but its like 4 pages long and i didn't write like "Chapter one" and "Chapter 2" etc. and i feel like its kinda short and needs more story but its too long to be a oneshot but time to talk about it

So its pretty much where Emmet is stuck in a time loop in when Armamageddon happens and slowly while I'm writing he kinda goes insane and is willing to do anything (As in ANYTHING) to get out and he slowly just loses any care for human life (his love for his friends kinda fade since they don't believe him when he told them he's in a time loop but he still cares for them) since if they die oh well the time will just reset why worry? I already know how it ends but I'm gonna keep you in suspense :] *Evil laugh*

Number 2: The Exciting Afterlife Of Emmet Brickowski

So basically Emmet dies

Number 3: It takes t-

Just kidding with ya imma tell ya more about ghost Brickowski So pretty much as I said Emmet dies and turns into a ghost, and since its in chapter 1 its kinda like not spoiler ish? so the reason he dies is that Lucy and the gang kinda broke into the construction and then something something Emmet falls, Benny tries to save him fails Emmet dead. Emmet kinda fell from a really high height and hit his head too hard and dies. Lucy lead that break in so she kinda feels responsible for his death

He then becomes a ghost and since he hit his head in his death he kinda has amnesia and doesn't remember his death but the first people he sees are Lucy and the gang (Benny, Unikitty, batman,Metalbeard) and feels a connection to them. Still, he doesn't know why (Maybe cause they're responsible for his death lkvkjs) but he feels especially connected to Lucy. He doesn't know why (Cause she caused his death) and then he follows them around and saves them from capture then like 2 years later he finds Lucy about to fall down a hole. Hence, he pushes her away (with ghost powers, he feels more solid in the construction site cause The Piece of Resistance is there and it makes him more alive or something) and falls in the hole but since The Piece of Resistance makes him more solid he kinda cant fly away and go ghost, he meets Lucy and doesn't know why she looks so scared. Then pretty much the movie happens but with ghost stuff and guilt ig

Number 3(actually): It takes two

So uh how do i explain this dhshash

So Rex time travels but messes up and ends up in the same body with Emmet chaos ensues it kinda goes like the movie but not actually. Rex may or may not try to kill the others so yeah

Number 4 Oneshot: Trying to move on (and not looking back)

So pretty much Lucy tries to get over Emmet's death (Rex timeline) Thats pretty much all i can say xlckjlk

Number 5

Okay i know i said 4 but uh this is an au of an au and an au if that makes sense

So pretty much Alter Ego au by @thinknamewhat x The Anti Lego Movie by also Thinknamewhat but all i got for this au is that Ryan just becomes Erix and becomes nice all the interesting dialogue is

"Dangervest thats really your name?" A patron asked

Ryan wanted to smack him, who ask that type of questions? But he forced a smile, have to stay nice it would be embarrassing if they found out that he was Ryan

"Yeah got it from my dad really wild guy"

Okay so i kinda got an idea on how this geas now that i wrote that but uhhh its still kinda boring

Uh i kinda (?) have other aus but its just Thinknamewhat au x The Anti lego movie asjnxc

Anyways hope you guys liked my talk see you guys in idk alaska or 2085

[khiphop-discussions]

I'm not really familiar with Owen, could you please make a post about what he did/siad? The khh/krnb industry is so wild it's hard to keep up with everyone andd everything they do/have done😂

Whew....where do I even start? It's actually a long laundry list.

So the most recent was when he said he doesn't care about BLM at the height of the protests during the pandemic. He said bascally "yall cant cancel me. I'm still getting money" or whatever. He eventually apologized after many people called him out. This is literally the only thing he's ever apologized for. So on one hand I believe him cause he DOESN'T EVER apologize for anything. No matter HOW bad his reputation and hate gets. But on the other hand I kinda wonder did the heat just get WAY too intense this time and so he gave a fake apology.

His other controversies include:

Saying "why do you guys care. you're not here parents." when a mkitrain member (neil) tried to get or did get nudes from a minor

Said he wants to "rape white bitches"

and honestly? I think there's more. I'm not even gonna lie but I can't remember them all. However, these are the really extreme ones that most people really hate him for and rightfully so.

I also don't like him but I kinda just try to ignore him now cause I got tired of talking about all the crazy, terrible shit he does.

While I HAVE publicly acknowledged that he was nice, polite, and humble when some acquaintances I met in Korea approached him in Hongdae one night* , I AM NOT a fan or apologist of his. I honestly lowkey regret even putting that out there and HEAVILY debated whether I should say it or not before posting. However, it was after a lot of people were surprised/annoyed that him and Ph-1 were friends again and I was trying to give context to why people in the industry will still tolerate his presence or even befriend him. I was shocked he wasn't a complete dickhead IRL tbh.

In addition, that was one experience that made me realize why some fans (and other rappers) will defend certain people (especially Owen) so hard. Cause I DEFINITELY used to be one of those "OMG so and so still has fans??? How is that even possible?" type of people. It's possible they met these people IRL before (obviously not in all cases) and had nothing but good experiences. So I was trying to basically convey that information to other people to help them understand a bit better. I feel like if something is true there's no reason to not say it but I still halfway feel like sometimes it can be unnecessary to say even if something is the truth. Regardless, I don't think that came off the way I really wanted it to. I think it might be something people have to experience personally like I did OR just be on a platform where long form text can add more nuance. Twitter is VERY bad for nuance LOL. Even if you make a thread, the first post ALWAYS gets more views than the subsequent ones so many people will miss the details/nuance even if you go out of your way too add it.

So ANYWAY, I just wanted to go more in depth here while we're on the topic of Owen just in case anybody remembers that tweet about him from not that long ago.

*this was a LONG time ago in Summer 2019. I've never had any direct interaction with him cause I ACTIVELY couldn't stand him back then but I wanted to observe the KHH scene while I was there so I observed everybody whether I liked them or not. Also, the acquaintances told me what happened in the conversation when they left and came back to where I was sitting. Just to be clear. These acquaintances were ALSO not fans of Owen and one didn't know who he was at all. One knew who he was but didn't know much about him. They saw him perform earlier that night. Hence why they approached.

[lynxandbadger]

a statement to share your spirit with the world

[hanjisungz-archive]

omg its the one year anniversary of this blog :O

[gatorbites-imagines]

Anakin skywalker, Darth Vader, Obi wan Kenobi, Cody.

Overall Headcanons

Back on my Star Wars bullshit, so heres some overall hcs about some of the characters I love, enjoy. Ft some x reader elements. Can yall tell which character ive been most obsessed with lately?

 Let me know if you guys are interested in more like this, as it’s a good way to get the writing juices flowing.

 Mild nsfw stuff under the cut, but it’s nothing wild.

Anakin Skywalker

-          Anger issues, but would never yell at you as it reminds him of his time as a slave

-          Gets nightmares about his time as a slave and his fears.

-          Wears black because it sets him away from the other jedi. They made him feel as if he didn’t belong, so he was gonna go his own way.

-          When he first joined the jedi he had a really hard time drinking or just using water in general since it was so sparce on Tatooine. Nowadays he enjoys to take long showers and baths.

-          Cant eat too strong tasting foods.

-          Has a real hard time talking about his emotions. Because of this, if he falls in love hed rather go around nursing a crush than actually confess.

-          He falls in love super easily, and gets kinda blinded by it.

-          Touch starved as hell, literally melts into your hands if you cradle his face in your palms.

-          Loves kissing, could spend hours with his lips on yours or just kissing you all over.

-          Oral fixation. Goes hand in hand with him loving to kiss so much. Watch out for your fingers.

-          Has a strong gag reflex, but doesn’t let it stop him.

-          This man is verse leaning towards submissive and you can’t convince me otherwise. Those anger issues make me think he just wants someone to love him and take care of him.

-          Loves you wearing his clothes or wearing your clothes.

Darth Vader (I know he’s also Anakin but whateves)

-          Still has real bad anger issues, but in a more subdued and controlled manner if that makes sense. Still won’t yell at you.

-          Very self-conscious about his body, and is scared of touching anything he cares about because he doesn’t want to accidentally destroy it.

-          Still has horrible nightmares but these are mainly about the purging of the jedi.

-          He secretly listens to recordings from before the fall of the jedi and the republic when he is feeling extra down.

-          Mourns how he can’t kiss anymore. Tries to breathe as quietly as possible when you cuddle because he thinks the noise disturbs you.

-          Secretly still sensitive so it would help you if affirm that you love him.

-          More touch starved than ever, wants you to touch what little accessed skin he has, all the time.

-          Doesn’t talk much anymore. This scares other people as he’s just a large silent scary shadow.

-          I don’t think he has much of a sex drive after becoming Darth Vader, mainly because I think his own body is too damaged, though he would be able to use his hands.

-          Though I think he would like to sit on his knees in front of you with his head in your lap, having you caress him.

Obi wan Kenobi

-          Insomniac to the fullest. He uses the force to keep going.

-          Loves tea more than anything, has a collection of teas from different planets he’s been too in his time as a jedi.

-          Touch starved, as I think all jedi are at this point.

-          Has nightmares and lasting trauma from the many things he went through even before he became a jedi knight like melida/daan and bandomeer.

-          Quite protective of those he cares about, though he doesn’t express it much with words.

-          Doesn’t cry much, so when he does, he just needs someone to hold him as he gets it out.

-          He sneaks out of the temple to eat at Dex´s diner all the time. He brings along Anakin, Ashoka and later multiple clones.

-          Isn’t as uptight as people think. He will bend or break rules regularly, he just isn’t caught.

-          I think he both tops or bottoms, whatever the mood is that day, though I see him as the type of person to refer to it as “lovemaking”.

-          Has had multiple partners in the past, a few being Quinlan, I believe they were casual and just did it to relieve stress and etc, Santine or even Siri Tachi.

-          He is quite confident with a partner, even if he isn’t sure what he’s doing.

-          Likes making his partner feel good, holds you close and maybe even clings on quite desperately at times.

-          A big cuddler, just wants to lay for hours and half sleep with you in his arms.

-          Would keep your relationship a secret for obvious reasons, but would be willing to leave the jedi for you If you got very serious and truly loved eachother.

Cody

-          Tries to keep serious at all times, but can be quite goofy and lovey-dovey behind closed doors.

-          Very protective over his fellow clones and the jedi he is assigned.

-          Used to follow orders as closely as possible, but after joining the 212th, has started to follow in Obi wans footsteps and bend rules to fit the situation.

-          Secretly struggles a lot with being a clone and not being seen as a living sentient being by most people.

-          Has issues with his self-esteem, please tell him he’s good enough.

-          Has very little knowledge about kids, the outside world of sex ed, as I don’t believe the kamonians thought it was something clones needed to know.

-          Sterile, as I believe most clones aren’t able to have children.

-          Likes to cuddle and be held close, hold him as tight as you can against your chest. Will listen to your heartbeat and fall asleep to it.

-          Likes it when his partner caresses his scar or holds his face in their palms. Please pepper kisses all over his voice.

-          I think he’s fine with whatever in the bedroom, but it will be kinda awkward or goofy the first couple of times as he figures out how it works.

-          Likes to go slow and take his time, take you in and really show you how much he loves you.

-          Doesn’t keep your relationship a huge secret, as in his squad and some jedi know but not the council or the republic as you could be forced to split up.