#ya es pura enemistad y hartazgo yea no shit por eso t dejan

[vaamm]

whatever thinkpiece was written abt modern friendships or whatever and for a moment i believed i was some sort of monster for not being able to naturally produce an emotional response instead of coldly saying the words i knew she wanted to hear after she told me abt her tumor and now i remember the reason i cant get to care about her was the lack of reciprocity from the start, listening to her (bc i was just lonely so what else could i do??) on what happened to be her most vulnerable right when i met her, and once again coldly figuring her out and knowing exactly which words and actions would turn this into a meaningful friendship for her that i could just be chill abt, even knowing how lowk dangerous that imbalance could be bc it was obvious she had a crush on me, and how obsessed w me she was and how in just a month i became her "bestest of friends" and no amount of her quasilovebombing would ever work on me at all into naturally caring deeply abt her but well then, yet again how could i? trying to put the blame on her less functional autism and depression cant justify for me her airheadiness and self-absorption, every time i try (i tryy) but i know a wall would result in a more engaging conversation than her, she spams me with vent texts abt things that have absolutely nothing to do with me nor would she provide any given context and expects me to know everything thats going on on her life even when i moved back to my hometown, absolutely no etiquette regarding individual hyperfixiations, the way i get at least 10 reels/tiktoks sent daily abt media ive told her i only know by name but never had consciously engaged with and will get sad at me for not having an opinion abt it... when im not on the receiver end she just flat out ignores my unprompted niche toks i sent ('do unto others as you would have them do unto you ' much??) (most stupid complaint ever) and yet she would try to insert herself into anything i post even when completely unrelated to her (pettiest complaint: i may post abt literally anything unknown to her and she will reply "idk what that is lol" i may ask for local recommendations in my hometown and she would still reply "idk" yea no shit u dont even live here) i cant find anything she does or says genuinely funny or endearing, i believe its time for me to take the final step and separate entirely

soooo bored, need to platonically dennis system someone