#y'all I thank you for all these notes cuz that's a lot than what I've expected but damn that's A LOT in 8 HOURS 💀

[thedemises]

goddamn you guys are down bad for that guy. jesus christ. the fact that the boothill work I posted 8 HOURS AGO got 118 notes baffles me greatly. 💀

[girl-named-matty]

20 questions for fic writers

thank you for the tag @rypnami <33

How many works do you have on AO3? Seven currently! Idk how many more there will be but for now it's seven!

What's your total AO3 word count? 627,138!

What fandoms do you write for? Hogwarts Legacy but I'm more currently writing for a different fandom.

Top five fics by kudos? Passion || Sebastian Sallow is my most popular fic!

Do you respond to comments? Yes. I sometimes forget I have ao3 ngl but 99% of the time I respond to comments on wattpad if I can remember.

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Usually I try to give happy endings to stories because I'm that kind of person. So towards the end I'll have something angsty but the very end will usually end on a better note. But In The Shadow of Her has a decently angsty towards the end because it follows along with the game and In The Shadow of Magic has is angstier towards the end for several reasons lol.

What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Honestly--outside of my full fics, my one shot "Moving in" probably has the happiest ending.

Do you get hate on fics? Perhaps??? I'm not really sure. I've gotten a few off-handed comments that make me go "???" and any hate comments have been very rare.

Do you write smut? Lol nope and I never will. I'm okay with writing stories without it.

Craziest crossover? Ummm I can't really remember ever writing a crossover but me and my bsf would joke about Sebastian and Ominis going to a Jackson Wang party so?? Does that count? 😂

Have you ever had a fic stolen? YES ACTUALLY LOL. It was ages ago and I was literally like 12 y'all HAHA. The fic wasn't even GOOD but it was on Wattpad and got reposted on NovelHD. It was crazy for me to find out ngl. I didn't really care, especially cuz the fic was garbage (in my opinion now) but yeah LOL.

Have you ever had a fic translated? Not that I can recall.

Have you ever co-written a fic before? Yes. Many times. Me and my old fandom buddies from a long time ago would do it.

All time favorite ship? AAAAAAA. I hate this question because I can never decide lol. I don't really have a favorite ship but I do have some I like. I'm not going to say any outside of the HL fandom but I will name a few from my friends. @rypnami's Jamie and Jack have had my heart for so long <3 @morelikeravenbore's Aurelie and Sebastian. Ugh I just love them sm <3 @catohphm's Danny x Adelaide is SUPER cute and I love it sm <3 @keri-mcberry Keri x Sebastian OHHH MY GOSH. Keri is literally my favorite artist and everything from her is just so cute and adorable and omg I love it. <3 @boxdstars Amara x Natty. Super adorable, super funny. Props out to Natty for dealing with Amara. Love them sm <33

What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? My old fanfics from old fandoms that have just been sitting on my computer for four years LOL.

What are your writing strengths? Fluff, usually. I'm good at Angst too. Romance eehhh kinda?? I've never been in a relationship so I don't really know how it works but I've written several relationships that I think were good.

Thoughts on dialogue in another language? I used to do this a lot actually. But I doubt 100% of it was correct. Now that I'm older, I definitely hesitate more with it. But I think it's super cool and I planned on doing it for my fics but my MC's first language is Irish (Gaeilge, Irish Gaelic whatever you wanna call it lol) and in the 1800's it was even harder than it is today SOOOO in order to avoid mess ups, I just used one-word expressions most of the time.

First fandom you wrote in? Oh gosh, I can't even remember. Maybe it was Merlin??? Spirit Animals?? I don't even remember cuz it was so long ago.

Favorite fic you've written? My favorite fic is probably not even and HL one LOL. But to keep it HL, all of my books have a special place in my heart and I really can't choose. Some of them have strengths over others and that much is clear but idk if I'd ever be able to choose.

No twentieth question - I LOVE YOU GUYS AND THANK YOU FOR LISTENING TO ME YAP LOL <3

tagging: @plxnetn1ne, @endeavour12345, @superconductivebean and anyone else who wants to join in and talk abt their writing! <3

[fillinforlater]

Important Announcement and Updates

Hello everyone, Smite here!

Dear readers of my blog, loyal followers, writer friends and everyone in between, I got some news for y'all. Things will change and partially already have and I feel like I should give a heads up about it in a single post so you're not confused as to what has happened.

But first of a word from our sponsor a big thank you for the insane Notes-Totals on my last couple of fics. There is a lot of 900+ and already a fuckton of love for "Just Testing", and leaving aside all the nonsense I wrote in this fic, I'm still very grateful for the support. Thank you!

Now to the upcoming changes/wtf is actually happening:

1. I will take an (warning, evil words ahead) indefinite hiatus from writing fics in the manner I did in the past/up until now.

What does this mean?

"Are you retiring? Are you going to delete your stories? Are you not going to be online/active in Discord anymore?"

NO, NO and NO.

I have no plans to (ever) retire and if I would, a 31some would look pitiful it would be with a feeling of certainty and geniune satisfaction (at least I hope so).

I just need a break from this neck-breaking pace of forcing every ounce of horniness and creativity from my head onto the Docs to the point where it's all just a mush of nudity, sex and filth and words and chaos... I'm losing grip on wtf I write at times.

This hiatus is to reset myself, to test other things without feeling forced to post them or at least something just to be on a streak, just to push that number higher and higher. I will def continue creative writing, just don't expect me to post it cuz it won't be all kpop.

BASICALLY: Stories will be released, but they will be rarer and most likely longer and hopefully still to your liking, from a story and smut perspective (unless it's full-on fluff/angst).

2. Uni will come like three big waves and during the strongest fucking tsunami, I have to do a boatload of other things on top. I'll be busy, I need to be focused, failure is not an option. Freeing myself from the (internalized) pressure of "having to post a fic this week" will help me to push through this mess.

I'll miss you when exams start and I'll come back to you, don't worry.

3. MoA will continue until Part 100, then there will be a two year special (because dayum, that's how long I am doing this already) and before/after the special, MoA will enter a new phase:

Instead of doing an appreciation post every Monday, I will do MoA's whenever I've read one to five stories that I want to appreciate. They will pop up every now and then, in different formats, to show you what I read and enjoy and who you should follow for more good stuff.

My intention with MoA was always to appreciate something, never to exclude someone or tell them that their writing id bad because they have been featured less than others. I want to continue this with more heart than before, so I'm going to break out from the regular pattern after Part 100.

4. Regarding the update I send a while back with all the series' and stuff: I still have intentions to keep my promise and write them, just with less urgency and pressure. The final request from back in January 2022 (lol) will also be written.

I will try my best, I thank you for your patience.

5. The final part of L4 and another fic are big guarantees to be released soon, so get ready, cuz I won't hold back. Remember: I'M STILL HERE! I GOT A LOT OF STUFF...

See y'all around!

... and I'll add more!

Let's start this new era on my blog. I hope you'll give me the same love and support you've given me until now.

(Oh, and feel free to flood my askbox with pics, questions, gams and ideas. No guarantee of reacting to them, but they might stirr me up xD)

[sucktacular]

Vent

At my parents place and have no words

Well actually I have too many words

If I ever ever ever talk about coming back here in the future someone PLEASE kill me instead it'd be less cruel

The moment I got in my old room I started sobbing and bawling my eyes out because this place is just so fucking disgusting and it truly shows my parents do not give a fucking shit about me or anything frankly

Dad gave me such a nice lil "I prommy we aren't disappointed and thus not keeping in touch as much we are actually just proud of you and trust you to take care of yourself out there" speech in the car when like LMFAO you're so funny I've literally been avoiding yall

And then don't even have the fucking brains or care to give me any clean sheets for my bed

Just two+ year old dirty sheets covered in pet hair and ceiling debris

Like I asked in AUGUST to come here like what the literal fuck is wrong with y'all (derogatory)

So my room had "water damage on the ceiling but we prommy it didn't leak" it did leak and the ceiling is literally cracked and falling down but okay I'll ignore the clear signs of a leak left in drippy dust on MY furniture I left

This house would make y'all vomit

Floors covered in ancient pet mess and the bathrooms.... Your skin would crawl. I don't even want to look at it let alone use it. I cleaned it with whatever cleaners I could find in the house cuz they also don't clean anything or have fucking dish soap to begin with let alone hand soap so that's cool and neat

Anyway please please tell me I'm a fucking idiot stupid moron and kick my ass if I ever talk about coming back here that doesn't involve "stopping by to pick up the last of my things"

They keep saying "hey if you wanna start over you're always welcome to come home" as if I wouldn't literally rather fucking kill myself than come LIVE here, let alone subject my poor fucking cat to this god forsaken house.

As if they weren't charging me $600 a month to live in my own fucking parents house when I literally had no where else to go when I was in my early 20s

but okay yeah sure I'll definitely come back to this moldy, putrid, rancid, and STILL piss smelling house to "start over"

I'd literally rather just end it man there's no way I'm ever coming back here

Y'all are deeply deeply fucked in the head

Like I thought I WAS BAD??? nawwwwwwwwww

Anyway I brought my own bed sheets and pillow and blanket cuz I figured it'd be better to be safe than sorry and I'm glad I did cuz I was exactly right that they wouldn't fucking do the bare minimum for my visit 👍

Leaving off on the only fucking positive I can muster from this fucking hell hole is I found a lot of my old cassettes and death note stuff I made and Pokemon cards and things

My lil Pikachu backpack from kindergarten... 🥺

Old sketch books

So to make it so I don't lose my god damn mind before Tuesday, I'll maybe share some photos of all that shit

Thank God I brought a whole fucking lot of weed with me LMAO (deeply pained laughter)

Also my dad is the most pissed off aggressive driver ever and I feel in fucking danger every time im in the car with him

Let alone a 2 hour drive from my place to theirs

End.

[psychelis-new]

I know I kept sending short asks cuz those are at the spur of moment but.

I just wanna express my appreciation towards you.

You're an amazing gift to this community. I started feeling a lil uhhh scared? Reserved? Around you. Maybe cuz it's your theme being monochromatic and very aesthetic, and how you form your words and sentence. It's like... Very well thought out and trying to keep things neutral, which is very opposite of the chaotic me.

However, that aspect of you gives out a peaceful vibe as well. There's a slow sense of secured comfort, where people can just rest here and read your PACs with a cup of tea in hand.

I know we don't really interact much but I think (and feel) that there's a mutual respect that we have with each other. I mean, we do respect each other and other people, but maybe (just maybe) the mutual respect we share is slightly different? It's more than just mutuals, but we can take that further. Can we be closer friends?

So yeah, I think it's the caffeine hitting in the morning but yeah I really wanted to get this out. I hope that things are doing well for you and wish that all good things fall upon you. I await more readings but I also await more random notes/stories or anything that you wanna share. Seeing you on my dashboard just makes me happy!

And I hope you're happy as well! Take care, stay hydrated, stay comfy, and may you get through whatever challenges life throws at you. <3

First of all, thank you Ann! I've been reading this as I woke up but I needed a little time to collect my thoughts (and go training) before answering you: I am not that used to receive so much appreciation from someone heh. This said, let me tell you you made my day: I've been smiling reading through the whole ask. :)

I'm sorry I'm not as good at expressing the emotions I feel as you are. It's something I still have to work on (yay emotional abuse!). Maybe this is what makes me look scary and closed off at first, or maybe it's also cause I don't really take too much part in the community either (not even from my other main account: sorry everyone, I am like this lol I tend do change my mind and follow my guts a lot). It may be because of a not so good experience back when I didn't have good boundaries (which made me come back with pretty strict ones before finding a new balance), and because that's what I realized I should do from the *often implied* feedback I get: people are here for what I can give them in terms of readings and advices or messages, they don't care that much about me as a person (and I accept that ofc! not judging anyone: this blog is about tarots, not about me), so I don't often share much of myself nor I tend to dm to too many people unless I feel there can be mutual interest of any kind.

Differently from you, I'm also pretty introverted I guess lol. But I am very happy that at least in my readings and answers you can find a bit of peace and comfort cause that's what I feel is my main job here and on my other blog too. Trying to help y'all and make you feel understood cause life is pretty stressing, and so it's healing and all, and we all need a break and someone to put a blanket on us sometimes, right?

Anyway, aside from this little explanation I feel I owed everyone in a way...

I would really love to become closer friend with you. I think you are a very talented and outgoing person which I really admire. You call yourself chaotic and for the little I have seen maybe your main blog is (and I am honestly saying this with a smile and lot of love) but Idk, what I feel around you is just a very sweet and deeply good energy. This energy can take any form imo, even the chaotic one, but at the end of the day it doesn't matter: it's what there's at the core that matters. And yours is a funny cute chaotic imo. Which I really appreciate. I wish you to receive lot of love, support, appreciation and hundreds if not more of good things. And that you can be strong through difficulties and trials and just know that if you need even to just vent, here I am :)

Take care, stay safe, stay hydrated you too and be well<3 And okay let's dm lol

[miitarashi]

Note: i've been writing alot just about Leo,so let's make some changes in here. I give to y'all some of my headcanons! Or a situation that involves the headcanon,idk.

Note²: and again, if they are out of character,sorry cuz i don't really know about they manerism,but believe me when i say,i tried 😔✊🏽.

Warnings: forgot to put this. A lot of swearing, misspelling words (cuz i'm a inattentive bitch) and probably i'm gonna redo.

Prompt: you have the same insecure as them.

✨Headcanons✨

Raphael:

Her body.

Mostly because i headcanon her as a trans girl. She wants to be more feminine,more cute and fragile but when she sees herself in a mirror,she sees anything but feminine and you were the same.

In your case,your body aways looked more like a boy or sometimes,not even that.

You wanted a middle size breast.

More feminine features.

Beautiful waist.

Long and curly hair...

But all you got is a mini breast,waist kinda in form of a square and a terrible straight hair,you not even straight God dammit!

And one day,you breakdown. Looking for your figure in the mirror for more than you can handle,texting Raphaela who's right away showed up in your house. Coming to your room,seeing you on the floor crying and sobbing hugging yourself.

She rushed picking you from the floor and putting you on her lap caressing your back gently for some comfort.

"[name],what happen?" - she asked quietly, sounds like if she talk a little more loud you would run away. When you didn't respond,she knew why.

"...crisis again?" - you nodded - "my beautiful cupcake,you know how perfect ya is? If you don't,lemme tell ya,i mean...wanna hear it?" - another nod - "ight,where do Raphaela starts? Hmm...oh! Your body! They are so cutie! It's good to squeeze cuz you have skin and meat enough to be soft and smooth like a marshmallow"

You laugh a little,cleaning the tear remain in silence to hear just her voice.

"lemme see more...your hair? I love it, it's easy to deal with and he match perfect with you! And because you treat him really well,your hair is soft and soo good to smell. Last but not least" - she hold carefully your face, lifting up to her see better smiling at you - "your beautiful face that makes my heart beat faster whatever i see you because of how pretty they are"

The tears coming again,but this time, it's tears of relief and happiness. You hug her, whispering "thank you" several times,she chuckle a bit hugging back,you could hear her heart racing probably because what she said still blushing.

"again, thank you for it Raphaela. This words coming from a girl so beautiful and precious like you...really makes me feel better. I love you" - she looked surprised. She? Beautiful with this body? She tigh the hug more, hidding her face in your neck and quickly you feel something wet knewing right away.

"what? You really don't think yourself is pretty teddybear?"

"n-no i..."

"well,now it's my time to spoil you" - you pull away a little cleaning her tears caressing the cheeks admiring she for a few seconds with a almost dorky smile - "i could keep admiring you all day long,you know that?"

"me too [name],me too"

With a quick peck on the lips,you spoil her all day with a girls day,you two were really needing it.

Donatello:

His insecure is so many,but i think that is his leck of sympathy,i know the why behind this,but even so i can see he struggle with it.

And you was almost like that. Raised in a house where was no reason to cry if you had everything in your hands. When you opened up to your parents, you only received complaints and fights, the kinda of thing that makes you grow up not knowing how to understand both your emotions and those of others.

But you met him.

He didn't need to have his emotion undestand,he already knew,hungry,sleep,hot and cold but there are sometimes that isn't just hot or cold.

Sometimes,he breaks.

And you should be there for him right?

You was in the kitchen,preparing some sandwiches and snacks for Donnie,he was in his lab for a long time and didn't get any food or drink than coffee. When you finished,walk to the lab and open the door,you hear a loud grunt coming from him.

"D? Are you ok?" - making your way to his table,you ask concerned.

"ok? If everything will be ok?? No [name] nothing in this is ok!" - he was screaming, angrily screaming at you,you did nothing...right?

"the system itself is simple compared to the rest, which should make it easier, however, those damn segments are short! Swap for another one, they're not compatible, swap for another one, it doesn't fit, and it's become a cycle where I can't find a clear answer no matter how much I reanalyze! You think that's ok [name]?!"

"no Donatello,it's not" - from the habit acquired years ago, you swallow the tears and keep your calm posture - "but not just with the system, with you too,if you want something to vent your rage,make it to the wall,cuz i'm not gonna be standing here taking it. Have a nice night, Donatello"

You leave the food above something near you and leave a long steps trying to get away from him asap being followed by Donnie almost instantly.

"wait [name],i'm sorry,i was just-"

"anger. I know Donatello and it's ok,i just not gonna be by your side from now"

"what- no,why?"

"why Donatello?" - stopping and turnning around to look at him that was visibly worried, but to you, that didn't seem genuine, you had no way of really knowing, in fact even what you felt didn't seem valid - "i already told you about my past life didn't i? About how much i heard this same tone that you screamed at me,how it hurted and that's the only why i'm still calm enough to talk,i don't know what or how i should feel or react but i know that i'm not deserve to be treat like this by the one that i love,sorry" - turnning around to make your way out. He stop you.

"i'm the one who should be sorry and you right,i was bein a bad boyfriend to you..." - he seemed sad? - "it's just...that's something new to me. Even when the two of us have a terrible sense of sympathy,mostly me,you make me feel so welcomed in your life,your patience,your calmness and...and...-"

You give a little chuckle looking at him struggling to continue thinking in what to say. You probably look like him doing the same thing.

"i really can't with you,you know that Don?" - you approache him,offering some soft pats in his shoulders making him relax by this minimum contact - "do it again,and i gonna make your life a living hell,ok?"

You tell with a emotionless smile looking at him,who just give a little laugh turnning his face,chalenging you.

"oh really? More than my life's already is? And how you gonna make this devilish thing,my dear?"

"i know your code to auto destroy everything. the new one. Connecting my phone to your computer and typing in the code takes less than a minute, do you wanna test, my love?~"

He looked surpresed and terrified at this threat as you say in a devil's singing voice.

"you wouldn't-"

"yes. I. Would" - givin a little peck in his cheek,you walk back to the lab dragging a flushed Donnie with you - "come on,the sandwiches,snacks and drinks are waiting and you gonna eat all of them because i don't remenber the last time i see you walk out the lab to eat,no complains"

"ok, but I would like to suggest one condition. You have to help me after I finish eating. Deal?"

"deal"

Michelangelo:

I think his insecure would be emotional dependence. But he is Dr.Feelings????

Yeah,that's exactly the point. He is the psychologist of the group,and since I'm also my friends' psychologist i kinda know how it feels.

The fear to tell anyone about what you feel and be just a burden in the person's life,bein emotional making people aways thinking that you fragile and can't do things by yourself (flashback of mikey going to grab the Lou Jitsu game episode).

So yeah,you and him are basicaly mutuals.

When some of your "friends" call again just to vent and go away without trying to ask if you were ok,mikey would be always by your side like you do to him.

"and then,she said that i didn't even deserve to be alive [name]! I loved her so much and for what?!" - again,one of your friends called you to talk about that one girl,you aways tell him to get away,but he insisted and insisted and insisted and now,he was crying over the phone in call with you.

"look bubby,i not gonna say 'i told you',your faith in her was real,you are a good person and no one really want your death. Believe me,who lose something good was her,don't push yourself trow it ok?" - your voice was forced to sound gently,it wasn't a good day but you have to do it.

"y'know what? You right! Yeah you right! Thanks [name]!"

"your welcom-" - he hung up before you could end - "it's ok [name],mikey's gonna come anytime,it's gonna be ok" - you comfort yourself bringing a smile to your face.

A few minutes later,the orange turtle knock on your window as you happly go open for him to jump inside. He give you a quick peck on your forehead and hung out for a while until you notice some signs similar to yours when you was in your limit. He was more distracted than usual, you ended up having to repeat what said because he didn't hear as if he had been disconnected for a moment, even his smile seemed forced.

Givin a deep breath,when the movie ended you turn to the side were he was,took his hand in yours and smiled.

"you wanna tell me or i'm gonna make you open up?"

"wha? What you talking about?"

"mikey"

"i'm ok!"

"no,you don't" - you copped his face making him look only to you - "you can't hide it from me,like i can't hide it from you. Please,tell me whats wrong for me to help"

He sigh grabing your hands,making you squeeze his soft cheeks.

"it's Rapha, she's not the problem of course,i love my big sister but,this week was something. Rapha, Leo and Donnie again with Sheldon, don't get me wrong,i love helpping my family but... sometimes i just wanna-"

"be the one who is heard and understood?"

"yeah! This!"

"i know how it feels,so why don't you use me for it? I told you to come up to me whenever you needed,i can hear and help with it" - you said caressing his cheek with your thumb.

"thank you for it [name] but,i can see that you needed it too so...why we don't make a session of Dr.Feelinge where both of us are the Dr.Feelings???"

"oh"

"pretty genius right??"

"totally"

"ok! Let's settle things up then!" - he grab your hand putting you on his lap resting his chin in your neck making himself comfortable in your arms letting out a sound of relief - "muuuch better"

"ok so, who's gonna start?"

"you of course! Let it out baby!"

"are you sure?"

"uhum,I will only pay attention to you I promise" - he gives you a quick kiss on your neck making you chuckle - "no matter how tempting it is to want to tickle you for that giggle there"

"ok ok,i'm gonna start"

"Go on sunshine!"

And the rest of the night was with you two Dr.Feelings each other,making a note to make this at least one in a week for the sake of yours mental healthiness.

Leonardo:

Leo is kinda obvious,out of the part of bein leader.

He's bigger insecure is. Almost like Donnie. Not bein useful or good enough for the team,for his brother or everyone that's important to him.

While donnie have his genius brain, Rapha with her strenght,mikey with his creativity,all he have (think he have) is his pretty face and charm,that's when he's not feeling down cuz i know this man have some self esteem problems.

And you? Well,although you aways bein see as a confident person bein the leader of your friend's group,you had the same problems. Probably that's why you two come along pretty well.

Today was particularly good,your science work goes pretty well, everything was ok to say the least but the universe was feeling goofy so out of nowhere,you look at yourself in the mirror and don't like what you see. You have some extra skins here and there,ok,nothing much alright? No. It was much. Your hair was really good? Did you present a work like this??? Shit,you feeling ugly. But even like this you go to the lair,your favorite place to be,they wouldn't care about your apparence...right? When you arrived, the red and orange ones welcomed you.

"hey there buddy, how's your day was?"

"kinda good actualy,we do a..." - you make a double check to see if Donnie was around,this little word could transform your life in a living hell. Making sure he wasn't around you sigh relieved - "science work in school and i got a good grade for it"

"really?? Good job [name]!" - mikey says happly for you givin a side hug.

"i'm not surprised,i knew ya could do it from the start" - she reach your head givin little pats with a proud smirk.

"thank you guys. Wheres Leo?"

"he's in his room. While you're on your way there, can you call him for dinner? It's almost done, today I feel like I've overcome myself!"

"course! I can't wait to see what the big and adorable chef has prepared this time"

"i not gonna let you down, believe me!"

With a excited smile,you nod your head and make your way to Leo's room,thankfuly they didn't notice your ugly state and with this same believe,you knock on the wall.

"L-e-o-! Can i come in comrade?" - you call him playfuly waiting to his response in the same tone.

"no i...uh...i coming in a little while,it's for dinner right?" - that's is not his normal tone.

"yes but,i was hopping to have a little talk before we eat,and now,i feel like you really need this,don't you?" - in a softer voice, you ask receiving a brief silence cut by a 'come in'

You enter in his room,seeing your friend shrunken in the corner of the bed lifting his head just enough to see you.

"i..." - he tried to say something but feeling the tears coming back,he just hide his head from you.

"wanna say to me whats wrong?"

"you gonna laugh at it"

"wha- the audacity!" - you fake a hurtful reaction givin a little chuckle walking and sitting on his bed - "of course not,you really think that i'm that type of people? Me??? The Neon Leon biggest fan? I'm offended,sir!" - now he laugh a bit cleaning the rest of the tears,turn around to you seeing his puffy eyes and red beak.

"SoOoO?"

"ok ok,i tell you. You big goofy"

"look who's talking"

"you right,i'm the best,sorry"

"you little shit-"

The two of you laugh more,your little plan worked but Leo was the first to stop looking down with a sad smile.

"[name] i...you really think that i...uh...good...?"

"what?"

"i don't know just,look at me,this red strips and all it's...ugly...i'm ug-"

"don't you dare to say it about yourself" - you copped his face in a slap making him look at you - "Leo,you are handsome"

"i don't think-"

"well but i do. Sometimes i wanna be you!"

"you what?"

"yeah! Like,you so handsome, inteligent, funny,pretty, affectionate, beautiful and precious and,i already said handsome??" - he chuckle a bit - "and your cute strips? I love 'em! That one,and that one,and that another one"

You lean on top of him kissing his strips making Leo laugh trying to get out off your grip.

"ok ok,i get it [name]! Get off!"

"glad you understood" - with a victorious smile you sat up in bed - "when you feel like that just compare yourself to me,you will be better in no time like,look at this" - you point to yourself with a little smile - "it's easy when you have a uglyer friend and i'm here for it"

You laugh it off,even if hurt to make,if this makes Leo feel better is enough but,you are the only one laughing. Looking at him,he seemed concerned.

"hey,come on, don't leave me-"

"don't do this,please" - he grab your hand givin a reassuring squeeze - "you are feeling the same, aren't you?"

"i-...kinda of...but that's ok!"

"no it isn't" - his other hand make her way to your cheek caressing gently the place - "you don't need to wanna be like me,you already is a wonderful person [name],much more than me, that's what i like in you so, don't make this kinda of joke about yourself,ok?"

Your brain stopped for a second. He really said that? That he likes you?? Even when you feeling and looking the worst today? Your heart going crazy in your chest,cheeks getting hot and red by the realization still looking at him who. Like you. Just realized what he said.

"w-well,i'm very thankfull for my biggest fan effort to make me feel better soo,let's get dinner???"

He looked as nervous as he was desperate trying to change the subject,but you decided to not leave that chance slide. You start to get close to him, slowing reach his face looking for Leo's eyes shifting to lips and back to eyes in a silent request for permission fully granted as he also get closer ending the distance between you two with a kiss. One of his hands copped yours and the other hold your face with care,when you parted the contact he give his usual cocky smile without taking his eyes off you.

"someone with this pretty face shouldn't be calling yourself ugly mi vida~"

"again,look who's talking guapo"

He's smug face was replaced by a surprised one making you giggle at his reaction.

"since when???"

"since we literally learn it on school??"

"then,why you never said anything?"

"i wasn't much confident about my pronounce"

"but that was perfect!"

"because i practiced. Now" - you get up from bed giving a few steps to the entrance - "let's go mi campeón~,your brother make something real good for dinner"

The turtle's face was more red than his sisters mask and the strips on his face,he rushed to you givin a big hug extremaly happy for his new pet name and both of you go to the kitchen for dinner.

[agooberscast]

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That's 42 more posts than 2021!

754 posts created (39%)

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#5

((So, I'm sure you're wondering 'Yo, where has Goober been for about a week?'. If not, that's also fine and I'm here to tell you. This past week, as well as the week before, has been some of the busiest times I've had in awhile. It completely caught me off-guard and the change in temperature from moderate/cool to hot/hotter is not helping.

I haven't slept well since the temp change about two-to-three weeks ago and it's catching up to me badly. I think the recovery time for this is also skewed because of it. So, I think I have to make a decision I didn't want to.

I'm going to be going on a small hiatus again. For the moment, I hope it's only until the end of the month. I'll be lurking on my personal blog and my self-insert blog @agoobersretreat , but I will be mostly silent otherwise.

I love you all very much and I appreciate your patience with me in that I need time to recover and you all have proven, time and time again, you're willing to afford me that.

Until next month or so, ciao~!))

23 notes - Posted June 4, 2022

#4

Suddenly, Mallow is hugged by Anne!

"Oh, thank GOD you're back to normal, girl..."

"Oop? Oh, uhh, thank you?" Mallow giggles and squeals, happily hugging Anne back. A nice and cozy soft lady? Why wouldn't she?

"Mmmm, I dunno what you mean or what happened, but I'm glad I'm okay then~!" Awww, those big-little eyes.

24 notes - Posted April 6, 2022

#3

((Gonna be busy for the rest of today and tomorrow, so my plan is to finally get to those asks and replies this weekend while I'm staying inside and avoiding the heat that's suddenly upon us!

Until that day, I will be reblogging this each day or so and also gonna ask for an ask call on @agoobersretreat , as I can usually spit those out pretty fast and also I'm always in the mood for playing myself.

Anywho, you guys have a great rest of the week and I'll see ya then~! Keep an eye out for activity all over soon enough~!))

25 notes - Posted May 10, 2022

#2

Alrighty, I answered a lot of asks today on all my blogs.

Against my better judgement, send me some more to whittle down over the week. I'd appreciate keeping my mind busy, ya know?

Love y'all~!

32 notes - Posted March 21, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

someheartlesslady

"Depends. Have youuuuu been behaving?"

“Yiiiiiiiiiiisss~! I have been cuz it is...not like me to misbehave~?” Lying through her teeth, of course.

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[waveletstsbitch]

Listen the thing about tacos is that all the ingredients are perfectly settled in the confines of tortil- (AND ACTION)

what ? i should i- i should go now uhh okay

Hello there , i am @machinegun-kulkarni this is my intro post ! Wooo. I am also know as machinegun-kulkarni yeah without the tag too and was previously known as rikshaw-boy, wheredotrashbinsgo , latibuletreehouse, whydowestillbelieveinmagic , rebelredcarnatio and here it comes drum roll please *drum rolls* the magic guy ! But seriously don't call me that , you can call me let's see umm oh who am i kidding Magic Guy is a dope name call me that i larb that name but as my lazyass mutuals who mean the Jupiter to me wanted to shorten it i prefer MG (magic guy) ^^

So i make random posts and reblog stuff mostly something funny or just about music i used to write poems but now i barely have time not because of school just cuz im lazy hehe anyways if you wanna read my poems which i would really appreciate they are under the tag carbon dreams and i also make shitposts and you can find that under well shitposts and I've did some web weaving or you know what you can take a look and give it a name yourself its under the tag web weaving and yeah hate to brag but i also make moodboards so check that out under magic guy makes moodboards now ^^.

And hey fun fact Im a minor not the minor used in Python or in Musical notes its the noun used in law to -

"a person under the age of full legal responsibility" yes mommy's little boy ^^ ugh i should stop saying that. So yeah im a 15 year old brown boy oh did i just give away my age ? Ehh whatever, I am a 15 year old brown boy who's trying to live in this beautiful world or whatever you guys call this ecological mess

My pronouns are He/Him. And here's little something that im so glad and proud that i did.

Everyone are loved and supported here and if you are Homophobic , Biphobic , transphobic (hold on i need to catch my breath how many sexualities do we have?!) LGBTQ+ phobic , a racist , a sexist , a pedophile or anyone who hates someone for being themself and real and much cooler than you I wrote a song for y'all its called "kill yourself" sooo yeah do it unless you wanna change.

Oh shut up google , umm Google wants me to share my music taste with y'all ehh it's not that complicated i listen to a lot of Arctic Monkeys, The weeknd , Cigarette after sex , Pretty Reckless , Kid Cudi and bunch of other Rock n Roll bands and Hip hop. See , Isn't that diverse ?!

So that was my SHORT intro, wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be who knows how many times i procrastinated this , she does @pani-puri . (AAAND CUT !)

Phew anyways where was i yeah so the thing about tacos is tha.......

THE END

Written , Directed , Performed , Concieved and Executed by - Me tada ! Magic Guy thanks you for spending your wasted times in reading this infinity gauntlet .

[allitbb]

In the name of love

Ok. So. Been writing Pitch Perfect fanfic lately, cuz why not right? This is my latest little bit. If you'd like to read the rest, please visit my AO3. Link at the bottom.

Beca watched as Chicago dipped and kissed Chloe. She cringed by instinct. She honestly couldn't help it. But she schooled her face within seconds.

Theo began talking and Beca was extremely grateful for that. She needed the distraction. Just for a bit. It always takes her a bit to cool off. She's been through this many times with Chloe. Here we go again. Maybe this time it will stick. Maybe this time Chloe will finally be happy.

Later that night Beca happened to be in the hotel lobby. Well not happened to be. She was purposely in the lobby. She was waiting for Captain America to leave Chloe for the night. She finally caught sight of him exiting the elevator with a goofy grin on his face. Beca sighed. Suck it up, Mitchell. This is your choice.

"Hey, Chicago!" Beca yelled and waited for him to spot her. Once he did, he furrowed his brow in confusion.

"Beca? What are you doing down here? Chloe was looking for you." He said as he walked to her.

Beca chuckled. "Yeah, I just figured I'd give you guys some privacy. Take a seat. These hotel lobbies don't have comfy couches for nothing."

Chicago sat and gave Beca a sly look. "Is this the best friend talk? Should I be shaking?"

Beca chuckled. "Something like that. But am I going to threaten physical violence? No. But I do want to talk."

"Ok. Let's talk." Chicago smiled.

She sure does pick the lookers. Beca sighed and shook our her shoulders. Once she was hyped enough she dove right in. "So. I know you guys haven't known each other long. But. Are you planning on turning this into something? Or is this just a tour thing?"

"Well. I mean, I hope it can turn into something? She's super sweet. Definitely the girl next door type. I hope we can work something out."

Beca nodded. "Well I'm glad you're honest. Most guys just say shit like 'absolutely!' Without giving it any real thought. So. The Army? Is that like a lifelong commitment thing for you?"

"Uh. Actually. I joined the guard to pay for college. I have another year left before I can call it quits. I don't plan on reupping. My plan is to return to the states and finish out the year with my unit and then find a place to settle down and call home."

Beca nodded. This might actually work. "So what do you plan on doing after your contract is up?"

Chicago fidgeted. "Well. I went to college for computer engineering. So I hope I can put that degree to good use."

Beca smiled. He'll be home. That's good. "Cool. So here's the deal. You seem nice. And genuine. I like that. Obviously Chloe is attracted to you so that's a plus. I'm going to give you a few pointers. To help you get things rolling. If in a year, and you still are with her and have held up to your word, you can ask me for more. I won't give you more until I know you're serious. Got it?"

Chicago nodded vigorously.

"Good." Beca sighed. "Ok. Take notes."

"Do you mind if I record this? I'm terrible at notes. I recorded all the lectures in college. So much easier."

Beca chuckled. Well at least he's taking this seriously. "Sure. Go right ahead." Beca waited for him to pull out his phone and start the voice recorder. She cleared her throat once he was ready. "Ok. So. First things first. Do not, and I repeat, do NOT take her on a date to dinner and a movie. That is so lame. If anything, at least go to the movie first and then dinner, so you have something to talk about. Always wear your seat belt. I know it seems insignificant, but her cousin was thrown out of her car when they were teenagers. Luckily she lived, but it kinda scarred Chloe. If you're going to buy her flowers, buy stargazers. They're her favorite. And don't buy them when y'all argue. It makes her feel like you're trying to placate her with pretty things. And the last thing I'm going to tell you for now, text her. Each morning and each night. It doesn't have to be a book each time. A simple good morning and goodnight will suffice. She just wants to know she's being thought of. That she's important."

Beca stood as if to leave but Chicago grabbed her wrist gently to stop her. Beca looked down at him to see his brow furrowed again. She raised hers as if to ask what?

"Not that I'm not grateful, but why are you telling me this? And where are the threats?"

Beca chuckled. "I'm telling you this because I want her to be happy. I'm not gonna sit around and watch you fumble through it until you can figure it out on your own. She deserves to be happy from the start. Not five years down the road when you finally remember how she likes her coffee. And the threats will come in a year if you're still together. No point in threatening you now when you aren't really invested yet now is there?"

Chicago chuckled. "Well. This is the weirdest best friend speech I've ever received. But. She was right about you. You are pretty great. Thanks, Beca."

Beca nodded and walked away.

XXXX

A year later.

Beca was sitting on Stacie's couch with Bella on her lap. All of the Bellas were coming over to celebrate her first birthday. It will be the first time they've all been together since the tour. It will also be the first time Beca has had the chance to slow down. Her career was new, so therefore fragile. She had to work her ass off to make sure she was taken seriously at the label. Yes she was an artist, but she was also a producer and still had to prove herself in that aspect. They refused to let her have total control over her own album. She was too new to the scene. She didn't mind. She knew she was going to have to prove herself. But it did take up a lot of her time.

She arrived at Stacie's two days ago, and slept through most of it. She was exhausted when she arrived. But now that she's gotten plenty of rest, she's able to enjoy being around Bella and Stacie while they wait for the others to arrive.

"So what's the deal, DJ? You showed up looking like a zombie. Don't get me wrong, a hot zombie, but a zombie nonetheless."

Beca laughed as Bella slobbered on her hand. Apparently babies like to chew on other's hands, not just their own. "It's been crazy, Stace. These last two days have been the most sleep I've gotten in a while. Most nights I don't even make it home. I end up just passing out in my chair."

"That can't be healthy, Beca. I mean I get it. You want to make it. But there has to be a limit."

Beca chuckled. "Yeah. There is a limit. But I haven't reached it yet. This is my dream. Like. My mega dream. The one most people never even get even a tiny glimpse of. I could slow down, but that won't get me where I want to be. I want to make music that connects with people. I want to have a song that saves someone's life one day. I want to release the track that stops the little girl from jumping. I want to be blared in the boy's headphones who's laying in bed at night wondering what he did wrong. I'm not going to get there by working right hour days." Beca looked back at the baby on her lap and cooed.

Stacie blinked. She was in a daze. "That is probably the most noble reason for ever wanting to be famous."

Beca chuckled. "I don't want to be famous, Stace, just make important music. I want the music to be famous, I guess."

Stacie hummed. "Well. Just take care of yourself. I barely see you and we live five miles away from each other."

Beca sighed. "I know. That's why I text you guys all the time. I don't want to miss out on everything. I'd rather be updated by phone than not at all, you know?"

Stacie smiled. "Yeah, I know." And she really did. No one asked about their lives as much as Beca. The group chat stayed alive because of Beca. That surprised Stacie for the longest time, but now she understood. "You're kinda a softie, you know that, Mitchell?"

"Shhhhh!" Beca was wide eyed and staring at Stacie.

That startled Stacie. "What?" She said, wide eyed as well. Looking around d for an intruder or something. "What happened?"

"Someone could hear you! You'll ruin my rep!" Beca stage whispered as seriously as she could.

Stacie rolled her eyes and hit Beca with a pillow making sure not to hit Bella. "God. You scared me you idiot."

Beca chuckled. "Beca's fine. I haven't went by God for a long time."

Stacie shoved her again. "What am I gonna do with you? You're insufferable."

"Well you know what they say." Beca wiggled her eyebrows.

Stacie furrowed hers. "No." She shook her head. "What?"

"Insufferable in the streets, killer in the sheets!" Beca cackled at her own joke so hard that Bella started laughing too, even though she obviously had no idea what she said.

Stacie threw her head back into the cushion of the couch and put her hand over her eyes. "Oh, my God." Stacie sighed, exasperated. "My friends are morons." The smile she was sporting was proof of nothing. "She looked back at Beca. "Give me my child. You're going to corrupt her."

Beca snorted. "Oh please. Have you met you?"

"Touche!" Stacie said. There was then a knock on her door so she looked at Beca and took a deep breath. "Well. Here we go. You ready, DJ?"

Beca smiled. "You know it."

Xxxx

The party was in full swing. Stacie had also invited some of her mom friends from the gym. Not that it really mattered. One year olds don't really play with each other. This was really just more of a chance to be around friends and get free clothes. She's a single mom. Come on.

Stacie was walking around and mingling. It had been so long since she had any real adult time. Beca had Bella almost the whole time so she really didn't have to keep much of an eye out.

Stacie was about to go to the bathroom when she heard talking coming from the room Beca had stayed in the last two nights. The door was cracked so she peaked in and saw Beca sitting on the bed with Bella as Chloe's boyfriend, Chicago, sat in the chair in the room. She got super confused and almost burst in thinking something was wrong, but decided she'd listen for a minute.

Xxxx

Beca had been asked by Chicago if they could talk. She had Bella and didn't want to turn any heads so instead of finding Stacie she just took her with her and Chicago to the spare bedroom.

"What's up?" Beca said as she bounced Bella on the bed.

"Well." Chicago cleared his throat. "I was wondering if I could take you up on your offer?"

"Oh?"

"Yeah. Uh. I mean. I've been out for a month now. And as you know, Chloe and I have been together since the tour. I know you said you'd give me a year. And I want you to know that I am serious about her. But we just recently got to start spending a lot of time together since I was able to move to New York. She. Uh. She's pretty special. And I want to make her happy. And I'm man enough to know when to ask for help. I think she loves me. She hasn't said it though. But I feel like she's holding back. And I don't really know what I'm doing wrong."

Beca smiled sadly. Suck it up, Mitchell. IIt's your choice. "You're not doing anything wrong, dude. She's a complex creature." Beca chuckled.

"Has. Uh. Has she talked about me to you? You know, like, do you know how she feels? You're her best friend and I know y'all talk all the time."

"Oh, no. Nuh uh." Beca shook her head vigorously. "I'll help you, just like I said I would, but I won't disclose what she says to me. She trusts me and I trust her. I won't break that. Not for anyone."

"Shit. Yeah. Sorry. You're right. I'm just. I guess I'm just worried. IIt's like she holding out for someone better? Or more? I don't know."

Beca sighed. "Look, dude, y'all have only been together for a year. And most of that time y'all didn't even live in the same state. Give her time."

Chicago smiled. "Yeah. Yeah you're right. She's just so great."

Beca chuckled. "Of course she is. She's Chloe Beale. She's amazing." Beca cursed herself as she saw the confusion cross Chicago's face but he cleared it quickly.

"Anyway." He said and pulled out his phone to record this.

"Yeah. Anyways. So like I said a year ago, if you stick around, I'll help you. You held up your end, so I'll hold up mine. Chloe needs you to be present. Not just there next to her, but even when you're talking on the phone. If you're not going to listen to what she's saying, there's no point in being on the phone with her. Make time for her. Even if you see each other every day, make sure you set a day, at least every two weeks, that's just for her. No social media. The least amount of calls as possible. It doesn't matter if you take her to the zoo or just spend the day cuddling. Though to be honest, she'd probably like staying in bed and cuddling and watching Netflix more. Do you know how she takes her coffee?"

Chicago shook his head no.

Beca sighed. Calm down. You figured he wouldn't. That's why you asked. Don't be a dick. "She takes her coffee half with enough creamer to make it almost look like milk. She likes the powdered creamer. French vanilla. No sugar needed since the creamer has it in it. If she ever asks if she looks fat in something, don't try and be cute. That's literally the only time you're allowed to tell her she's being ridiculous. If she's had a bad day at work, don't try and fix it. You can't make it better she just wants you to listen. And then after she's done venting, put on some music and sit and cuddle for a bit. At least once a week, surprise her by pulling her into a slow dance with you. Even if there's no music. Trust me. She's singing something in her head anyways. Make sure it's not the same day of the week every week. You don't want her to be expecting it. Make sure there is always a spray can of whip cream in the fridge. She says she doesn't like it, but when she's stressed you'll hear her in the middle of the night eating it on the couch. I think she likes the fact that it makes noise. And never, EVER, try to have sex with her while you're drunk. I'm sure she'll tell you some day, but until then, don't ask."

"Is. Um." Chicago cleared his throat. "Is that it?"

Beca put on her hardest glare. She saw Chicago gulp and smirked inside. "No. I promised you one more thing."

"And what's that?"

"The threats. I need you to listen and listen well, Walp. I may be small so I know I can't kick your ass, so I won't threaten that. But if you're an asshole to her. If you're mentally or physically abusive I will have you killed."

Chicago chuckled but sobered right up when Beca kept glaring.

"I've never been more serious about anything in my life, Chicago. I don't mean you can't fight. Everyone fights. She will cry and be upset, but do not try and beat her down physically or emotionally. I do not care if I get caught. I do not care if I go to prison. I will hire someone who would be more than willing to cut your fucking dick off and shove it down your throat. And considering the route my career is taking, I'm pretty sure I'll be able to afford it. Chloe Beale deserves happiness. I do not doubt that you can provide that for her, but if you start to feel like she isn't worth it or some bullshit like that, then you need to leave civilly. Do not be the ass hole that tears her down before you leave, because if you try and break her, I will not rest until you are dead."

"Um." Chicago stopped the recording. "Yeah. Uh. I don't think I've ever had a best friend speech like that. I can, uh, honestly say I believe you."

Beca nodded and returned to cordial face she keeps around Chicago. "Good. Then that is that. Now. In another year, if you're still around, if you want to marry her, feel free to give me a call or something. I'd be happy to help you pull it off. Good luck, dude."

Xxxx

Stacie stepped away from the door so that Chicago could leave. As soon as he was gone she stepped into the room. Beca had tears in her eyes as she talked to Bella. "She deserves the best, huh Bella?"

"So why aren't you giving it to her?" Stacie said as she leaned against the wall.

"Jesus, Stacie!" Beca jumped. Bella giggled. "How long have you been here?"

"Here as in right here? Or here as in able to hear the conversation you just had?" Beca gave her the look. "Fine. I heard the whole thing. You ever gonna tell her you're in love with her?"

Beca sighed. "I'm not talking about this, Stacie."

"The hell you're not." Stacie turned back to the door and hollered into the hall. "Chloe!"

"Stacie, no! I'm so fucking serious right now!" Beca whisper yelled.

Chloe came bouncing into the room. "Hey! What's up guys?"

"Absolutely nothing!" Beca pushed out, glaring at Stacie.

"Nothing, Chlo. Could you just take Bella for a bit? I need to talk to Beca." Stacie said as she took Bella from the fuming girl.

"Sure! Come here you little cutie!" Chloe cooed as she took the baby. "Oh. B T Dubs. Most everyone has left already. Just some of the girls still here." She turned and left the room.

Stacie closed the door and turned back to the glaring woman child on the bed. "So. Spill."

Beca, glaring still, started to get red in the face. She was really trying not to blow up on her, but this really wasn't any of her businesses. "Stacie. I'm asking you, as my friend, please drop this. There is nothing to discuss."

Stacie sighed. She didn't want to push too hard, but she knew there was something. She could feel it coming off the shorter girl in spades. But Beca has always been a little closed off. She knew Beca was into Chloe. Pretty much everyone had a bet going on as to when Beca would finally blow up and confess, but it's been years and she's yet to say anything. She's been the dutiful best friend for Chloe. Supported her relationships. Smiled when Chloe was happy with someone else. Stacie just didn't know why. Why would someone put themselves through that? Especially since everyone can see that Chloe likes Beca too. "Beca. You know she wants you too. What are you scared of?"

Beca huffed and shot up from the bed. "I'm not an idiot, Stacie. Of course I know. I'd have to be blind not to see it. I'm not scared that she'd reject me." Beca went to walk passed Stacie to get to the door, but Stacie grabbed her wrist. "Stacie. I have my reasons. And just because you don't know them, doesn't mean they're not valid. Drop it." She ripped her wrist away and walked out of the room.

As Stacie walked back into the living room, she saw Beca snuggled up into Chloe's side as Chloe held Bella and tried to make her play patty cake. The shine in Beca's eye as she watched Chloe sealed the deal for Stacie. She knew then and there for a fact that Beca is in love with Chloe. Oh, Bec. Why are you doing this to yourself?

XXXX

Two years later.

Beca was sitting in her in home studio when she saw a scrawny toddler run into the room. "Bella Bella Bella. What are you doing here? Where's your mama?"

"Her mama is right here." Stacie said, out of breath as she came into the room. "I go to the gym every damn day and I still can't keep up with her. How the hell do you do it?"

Beca chuckled and was about to answer when the tiny girl interrupted.

"Bec Bec! I miss you! You been gone so long!" Bella said as she jumped into Beca's lap.

Beca laughed and hugged the girl tight. "I know, sweetie." She kissed the girl on top of her head. "But I'm back for a while. What do you think about keeping me and R'Kai company while your mom has a spa day?" As Beca said this she was looking directly at Stacie.

Stacie squealed. "Yes! Oh, my god. Beca! I knew there was a reason I kept you around! I seriously need a mom day. Also, maybe a night?"

Beca chuckled. "Sure, Stace. She can stay the night. Just text me and let me know when the coast is clear, yeah?" Beca knew what Stacie meant. Stacie wanted to get laid. Period. No telling how long it's been. The hunter hasn't been able to prowl like he could in college.

Stacie winked. "You got it, DJ." Stacie swooped Bella up from Beca. "Ok, lil bit, you're gonna stay the night with Bec Bec. Ok?"

Bella nodded in the affirmative vigorously.

Stacie chuckled. "Ok. Good. So. While I'm still here, why don't you go make sure you have clothes here. I know for a fact you will destroy at least 2 sets of clothes by staying one night with Bec Bec. I don't know how you both get so dirty."

"Ok mama. I be quick so you can have mama time." Bella squirmed out of Stacie's arms.

Stacie chuckled as she watched Bella run down the hall.

"You know you have approximately two minutes before you have to go find her before she burns my house down, right?" Beca asked.

Stacie looked at Beca with a sly smile. "Yeah, but you have plenty of house. She wouldn't get it all down." Beca laughed. "Besides. I wanted the two minute reprieve to tell you that I missed you and I'm so glad that your tour is over. Are you still planning on taking a break?"

"From my own stuff? Yes. From producing for other people? No. I'm working on Halsey's next album and that's going to take up most of my time. You know how she is."

"Well. At least you'll be home. Remember. Don't work yourself to death." Stacie gave a stern look.

Beca laughed. "Stace I haven't had to work like that in over a year. My Grammys give me plenty of leverage. I'm not going to be a zombie again. But you know how it is in this business. If you're not working, then you're irrelevant. You pretty much have to prove yourself all over again."

"I just worry, ya know? I mean, yeah you've gotten better, but you've missed so much. I mean I get it, but don't you want to settle down? You're never going to find someone if you never slow down enough to fall."

Beca sighed. "I'm not looking to fall, Stace. You know this. Now let's go get that munchkin before she puts lipstick on R'Kai. That dog loves that girl and let's her do anything."

Stacie laughed as she walked towards Bella's room. "Well if you didn't spoil the girl so much. You gave her her own room! I don't even have a room! And you can't call R'Kai a dog. That's like calling a tiger a cat."

"Well a tiger is a cat." Beca smirked as she went into Bella's room. "And Bella has her own room because she's too adorable to say no to. You could really learn a thing or two from her pout."

Stacie swooped Bella up and blew raspberries on her tummy. "Your Bec Bec spoils you too much, don't you think?"

Bella shook her head no. And laughed.

Stacie let out an exaggerated sigh. "Of course you don't. You find clothes?"

"Yes, mama! And look! I look like Bec Bec now!" Bella showed off her mini leather jacket she found on her bed.

Stacie hadn't noticed at first. "Beca. You did not buy my daughter leather!"

Beca scoffed. "Of course not. It's faux. Chloe would kill me."

"Speaking of Chloe." Stacie said as she sat Bella down. "Did you talk to her yesterday? "

"Of course I did. I called her from the plane yesterday. Her and Chicago celebrated her birthday at a rave. She seriously has some weird kink with glow sticks." Beca laughed.

"How are they doing? She doesn't really tell me much." Stacie asked.

"Don't start, Stace. I know what you're doing."

Stacie put her hands up in surrender. "Hey. I'm just trying to look out for my bestie."

Beca sighed. "They're doin great, Stace. He treats her so great. I hope he gets his head out of his ass soon and proposes. IIt's been three years! What is he waiting for?!"

"No you don't." Stacie mumbled. Beca heard though because Stacie saw her go rigid. But instead of saying anything about it, Beca just began playing with Bella.

"Go have a good time, Stace. I got this."

Xxxx

Beca woke up early the next morning to a giggling toddler on her chest. "Good lord, child. Too much energy for the morning."

"Bec Bec! Auntie Chlo is here!"

Beca's eyes snapped open at that. "What?"

"Hey sleepy head." Chloe said from the bedroom door. "Want some coffee?"

Beca sat up as Bella toppled to the bed. She rubbed her eyes to clear the sleep out. "Sure. And you know. I gave you that key for emergencies. What if I had been nude."

"Wouldn't have been the first time." Chloe winked.

Beca laughed and shook her head.

Xxxx

Beca and Chloe sat at the island in the giant kitchen as Bella colored on the floor with R'Kai by her side.

"So, Chlo. To what do I owe the pleasure?"

"I. Uh." Chloe cleared her throat. "I have some news."

"Oh?" Beca arched an eyebrow.

"Yeah. So. Chicago proposed."

"Chloe!" Beca squealed. "Chloe that's so great!" Beca saw the hurt flash across Chloe's face but she ignored it as she always did.

"Well. I haven't said yes, yet."

"What?" Beca feigned ignorance. "Chloe, why not? That's crazy. You guys are crazy about each other."

Chloe sighed. "Yeah. I guess I just wanted your opinion. You're my best friend. I can count on you to tell me the truth. But I guess you answered my question."

"I think if you love him, Chlo, and you see a future with him, then you should marry him. If he makes you happy, then you should marry him."

Chloe nodded as tears filled her eyes. "Yeah" she put on her best smile. "Yeah, you're right. He does make me happy. So happy. He's great."

Xxxx

Beca watched through the window as Chloe paced outside on her front porch. She was on the phone but Beca could only speculate on who it was with. She assumed Chicago. Chloe opened the front door as soon as she was off the phone.

"Hey. Bec?"

"Yeah. Chlo?"

"I'm gonna head back to the hotel, but I'm in town for a couple more weeks. Can we have lunch tomorrow?"

"Sure. I'm not going into the studio for a few more days so just let me know where and when."

Chloe smiled. "Will do! See you later!" Chloe leant down and kissed Bella's head. "Bye sweetie!"

"Bye Auntie Chlo!"

Beca watched her angel walk away. You'd think it'd hurt less after all this time. It didn't. Suck it up, Mitchell. This is your choice.

"Ok cutie patootie. Let's get you home to your mama!" Beca swooped the toddler up and got them ready to go.

Xxxx

Two weeks later.

Beca was sitting in her home studio working on Halsey's album when the red light came on at her deck. That meant someone was at her front door. She sighed and made her way over. She wasn't sure who would be there but it better be good if they're interrupting her work. She swung the door open.

"Walp? What are you doing here?"

Chicago cleared his throat. "Uh. Hey Beca. Can I come in?"

"Sure." Beca stepped out of the way to let him in and then led him to the living room. "So. What can I do for you."

"Well." He said as he sat down. "I came to talk. I know Chloe came here a couple of weeks ago. And I know she asked for your opinion. And i wanted to say thank you. Also. I wanted to ask. Are you in love with Chloe?"

Xxxx

A year later. Beca sat in a room full of family and friends of Chloe and Chicago. The ceremony was beautiful. Mr. And Mrs. Walp were having their first dance and it was perfect, of course. Stacie laid her hand on Beca's shoulder.

"How's the maid of honor holding up?" Stacie asked.

Beca looked at Stacie and smiled. "I'm good, Stace." Beca place her hand on Stacie's. "Thanks for asking."

"Of course." Stacie smiled back.

After a while, everyone was mingling and dancing. Chloe decided to take the time to ask the question that's been burning in her mind all night. "Hey, Bec?"

"Yeah?" Beca spun around to look at her.

"Can I talk to you for a sec?"

"Of course!"

Chloe pulled her off to the side. "So. Were you ever going to tell me that you and Stacie are together?"

"What? Who told you?" Beca asked.

"You just did." Chloe smiled, but it didn't reach her eyes.

"Shit. Well. Uh. Well. I mean. We're not actually together. I mean. We've been sleeping together, but it's casual. We're both pretty busy, ya know?" Beca fidgeted.

"Wow. Well. I wasn't expecting that." Chloe chuckled. "Well I better get back. Can't leave the new groom alone for too long."

"For sure! Go go. Have a great time, Chlo. This is all for you." Beca pulled her into a hug. She heard Chloe take a deep breath but didn't say anything.

Beca watched as Chloe walked away with a fake smile on her face. She felt guilt until Chloe's eyes met Chicago's. The fake smile turned genuine in a heartbeat. Beca let out a sigh of relief. Beca felt a hand on her shoulder.

"You good, DJ?"

"Yeah." Beca turned back around to face Stacie. "I'm good. You ready to head out? I doubt the happy couple is going to be leaving that dance floor any time soon and Bella's sitter can only stay until eleven."

Stacie nodded and smiled. "Yeah. Let's go get our girl."

Xxxx

Three days later.

Chloe was searching the hotel up and down for her phone. She lost her damn phone on her honeymoon. How dumb is that? "Hey, babe?" Chloe yelled. Chicago was in the shower. "Have you seen my phone?"

She heard Chicago holler back from the bathroom. "No but you can use mine to call it. It's on the nightstand."

"Great! Thanks babe!"

Chloe swooped up his phone and started calling hers. No luck she didn't hear anything. "Fuck." She mumbled.

Chloe laid on the bed and started playing on Chicago's phone. She was bored and he wasn't exactly known for his quick showers.

Needless to say. She found his cloud. Which held files named Beca. Of course she clicked on them.

Chloe sat with a look of confusion as she listened to the second file. What in the world? Of course she didn't hear Chicago come out of the bathroom.

"You should listen to the last one."

Chloe jumped and looked up at Chicago. Her brows furrowed. "What is this?"

"Just listen to the last one. She didn't know I recorded it. It was after you went and asked her if you should marry me."

Chloe listened.

Xxxxx

"Are you in love with Chloe?"

Beca went rigid. "I don't know what you're talking about."

"You don't have to lie, Beca. I'm not going to be mad. I can't blame you if you are. IIt's more work to not be in live with her."

Beca slumped down on the couch. She was so tired of hiding. The only one who knew the truth was Stacie. Maybe if Chicago knew, he'd convince Chloe not to make Beca the maid of honor. Highly unlikely, but still. "Yeah. Yeah, I'm in love with her. Always have been." Beca held eye contact. "But it doesn't matter. It doesn't change anything and it never will. I promise you."

Chicago shook his head. "I don't understand. Why did you help me? I mean, I'd understand if you had lied about anything. Tried to get me out of her life. But you didn't. I don't get it."

"I never lied because I want her to be happy. That's all I want for her. Ever. Just her happiness."

"But. I mean. Not that I'm complaining or anything, but you never tried to be that for her? Why? I know she's attracted to you. Hell, she loves you. All you'd have to do is say the word and she'd drop me in an instant."

Beca shook her head. "You don't get it."

"Then explain it to me Beca, because I may not know you like the Bella's do, but I know you love her. I have to know, before we go through with this. That you aren't just going to swoop in and take her from me."

Beca sighed. She could understand that. "Chicago, I promise you. That won't happen. Ever. And you're right. I do want her. And she may or may not still want me. But it's not about what we want. It's about what she needs. She needs someone who can be there to hold her at night. She needs someone who doesn't hole themselves up for sixteen hours a day for months at a time. She needs someone who isn't gone on the road for months at a time. She needs someone who can give her their whole heart. And I can't do that for her. I know it sounds dumb. Trust me. I know. But music is my first love. I know myself well enough to know that I would break her. I would put my music first too many times. I'd make her think she's not good enough. I'd make her feel insignificant. Which is the farthest thing from the truth. She's light, and love, and sunshine on a rainy day. She's a warm embrace on a chilly night. She's the best kind of person that there can be. And I won't be the cause of ruining that." Beca wiped a tear from her eye and looked at Chicago. She could tell he was holding back his tears. He really is a good guy

"You love her, Chicago. And she does love you. Don't doubt that because of me. So let me help you one last time. When she tells you that she's in love with me, don't be mad at her. Because Chloe Beale has enough heart to be in love with you too. She won't hurt you. And I would never hurt her by asking her to. When she says she wants to see me, don't get jealous. Nothing will ever happen between us. And even though I'm in love with her, she's still my best friend. And I am hers. I will never try and turn her against you. When you have kids, and she wants me in their lives, don't yell at her. I will never try to replace you and I will love them like my own and make sure they're happy, too. When she asks if she can fly out to see one of my shows, don't be mad. Because before anything else, she's my best friend and only wants to support me. She will never try anything with me, Chicago, so please. Don't ever doubt her. And when she's old and grey and wants to know if you guys can move next to me. Just know it's because she wants to sit on the porch with me and yell at kids who are passing by."

Chicago stood and pulled Beca up into a hug. She began to sob on his shoulder. "You're a great person, Beca." He whispered in her ear. "And an even better friend. She's lucky to have you. And I'm lucky you're her best friend."

Beca sniffled and shoved his shoulder. "Alright Captain America. Get out of here. I'm done being mushy. You better not tell anyone you saw me cry."

"I didn't see a thing!" Chicago smiled.

Beca chuckled. "Yeah. That's right! Later, dude."

"See ya, Beca."

Xxxx

"Are you mad?" Chicago asked.

Chloe looked up at him, tears running down her cheeks. "No. No, I'm not mad. But. Um. When we get back. I think I need to talk with Stacie."

"Stacie? Why?"

"Because I think she's what Beca needs too."