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starlooove · 1 month ago

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Uhh sometimes I feel so sad that I don’t think I’ll ever be able to have a romantic partner - like i don’t want one and if I did date someone genuinely I don’t think I’d be able to put up with it for more than two weeks but I feel so sad that like. The option is locked away ig. Like i still get crushes and the flash forward to the picket fence 3 kids and a dog and all but the thought of actually dating someone and putting that effort in makes me want to curl up and die

#like It’s not that i can’t feel romantic love #i mean for me personally I just #AND THIS IS NO COMMENTARY ON ANYTHING OR ANYBODY IM TALKING ABOUT ME #i think I must be waiting for the right person bc it’s like. I could date someone. but i dont think I could be the effort in #like i just don’t think I could bring myself to care and choose someone every single day #or i guess to make someone put up with me every single day #wow that’s going in the journal ew #Uhm anyways point is #i like the idea of flirting the concept of a date #but a committed relationship might make me sick #IK unicorn hunters are annoying but kind of ideal for me idk #y’all deal with eachother and hit me up every two weeks Idgaf #and whenever I get a crush it’s like super intense yes you’re the one I wanna date u #and then we actually talk or i get over it and it’s like #Id love to hit if u asked but i don’t even wanna date u #and I’ve felt like this for awhile but it became real when work crush was asking about my type and they were like ‘so I have a chance’#and I was like yeah #we were talking about looks #but it was like. despite the fact that I daydream about making out with u if u asked me out rn I’d have to say no #like i just don’t like it lmao. maybe i should stop shutting it down as soon as it starts and try it to see #but as of now I’ll stick to the flirting bc I haaate the idea of a partner sorry. like it’s just. around me. all the time? now #THATS THE THING ID HAVE TO MAKE RULES #NOT BOUNDARIES LIKE STRAIGHT UP RULES! you cannot do x you cannot do y #and idk that’s not the kind of relationship I want but I think it’s the only one that wouldn’t make my skin crawl so #not viable.

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