#y’all DO NOT want to meet the me who was on Facebook at 15 lol

[foxytonic]

I don’t know how many of my followers were around or on here in like 2014/2015, but do y’all remember those burn book blogs? Or the positivity blogs that were their complete opposites? That’s what I immediately thought of when I reblogged that post about old school tumblr discourse lol

[infearandfaith777]

lil thang i wrote

Long post ahead y’all but who knows maybe you’re getting a preview to what will someday be a successful blogging or writing career and you’ll be glad that you knew me before i blew up the internet with my offensive views 🤪 lol just kidding i know I’m not that important haha!!

Over the course of the next few days I’m going to be posting all the photos that im always forgetting to post bc im deactivating my Facebook for the foreseeable future, and i would like to have my mass amount of backed up photos on here. Social media is a huge time sucking vortex for me in this stage of my life. It always has been (I’ve been in big tech’s clutches since i was in the 6th grade, i consider us all to be little lab rats of the ongoing social media experiment) I’ve been making a real effort to work on it the last few years. I’ve made progress, I’m just not seeing the full fruit and i know that it’s because I’m 1) stubborn and sinful 2) i choose my wants over what I know is right. I guess those are the same thing 🤪 My oh my, it’s so easy to slip. My biggest step for this year was deleting my Instagram a few months ago. i lied to myself when i said that it wouldn’t be a big deal to have the Facebook app on my phone since I’m not a fan of the layout/platform anyways. but what I’ve found is that slowly but surely, the time that i would’ve spent on Instagram is now being spent on here 🤷‍♀️ oy vey.

I know myself well enough to know that my self control when it comes to social media is an absolute mess, it doesn’t matter how hard i try. I keep failing at meeting my goal for how to spend my time online and I’m over it. for some people their social media usage/consumption isn’t a big deal because they know their limits and they’re mature enough to handle it but I’m not and it’s okay to admit that. we’ve built an attractive idol in the shape of a little square box of light and quite frankly I’m sick of mine. I don’t want to miss any of the beautiful season of life that I’m in. Socials aren’t adding to anything for me right now, as much as I’d like for them to and try for them to. They’re taking from me. Who knows, they’re likely taking from some of you too but we don’t usually question it because our culture is so addicted and it seems unrealistic to think of real life without an online life on the side.

time is God given, and short, and i want to steward mine well. Now, I have to clarify that I’m not bashing social media or it’s users. It might not seem like it from everything I’ve said thus far but I love social media. Really, truly i do. & that’s the heart of the problem, is that sometimes i fear that i love it more than i love God. It’s hard for me to be in the word sometimes, yet i have no problem hopping online and seeing what’s poppin. That’s messed up. I love the brilliance of everything at our fingertips. I love what it can be. But I hate what it often and usually is. it’s designed to keep you scrolling & i of all people understand the incredible difficulty in finding balance. They feed on our sinful desire for constant and instant gratification. Despite the coding, the use of the tool itself is a neutral party. It’s up to us how we use it, whether that be good or bad lies in our hands. Literally, your phone lies in your hands.

So what do you choose to do with it?

If you could see God sitting beside you watching what you’re looking at (which He IS but you know what i mean, if He was literally visible to your eye staring at the screen) would you at any point be ashamed of what you’re doing on your phone? I know there’s times that i would be.

How much time do you spend on it?

Can you answer those questions honestly and be at peace with the answer? If you can, great! 🤠

But if you’re like most of us and maybe less than pleased with your time usage or what you’re doing/looking at online, then what are some real changes you can make?

Is there something else could you be dedicating your time to? Something you always say you “don’t have enough time” for even though you have plenty of time to be online??? 🤔

Do you think you could limit your consumption if you tried or is the urge to scroll too powerful?

We could all stand to ask ourselves these things from time to time..

Im cutting off what I know is a sin for me. It might not be for you and that’s awesome. Either way we should be talking more about how social media has affected our society.

Maybe with a long hiatus, and a lot of prayer, God will help me to learn how to use my social media the way that i know i should. wisely, with MUCH greater self control, and always for His glory. 🤍

Colossians 3:17, ESV: "And whatever you do, in word or deed, do EVERYTHING in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him."

(emphasis added)

Proverbs 15:3

The eyes of the Lord are in every place,

Watching the evil and the good.

Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it. Keep your mouth free of perversity; keep corrupt talk far from your lips. Let your eyes look straight ahead; fix your gaze directly before you. Give careful thought to the paths for your feet and be steadfast in all your ways. Do not turn to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil (Proverbs 4:23-27)

“The eye is the lamp of the body. So, if your eye is healthy, your whole body will be full of light, but if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light in you is darkness, how great is the darkness!

Matthew 6:22-23

“Turn my eyes from looking at worthless things; and give me life in your ways.”

Psalm 119:37

“But I discipline my body and keep it under control, lest after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified.”

1 Corinthians 9:27

[officialcolumbiauniversity]

February 15, 2020. It’s been a great start to spring semester on campus; I’m registered for 4 classes as well as research, but I decided today that I’m going to drop one of them. Puts me at barely 13 credits but it’s worth it: the psets for that one class had 10-15 problems each week, and it would take me around 4 hours per problem to finish. And it was only 2 credits! I only stayed in it this long because I love the subject, and it’s half a semester so I thought I could just suffer through it and bullshit my way through. BUT I love the subject, and I would rather take two years to understand it once than fail the class now then relearn it again in grad school. 

Anyways, with the absence of this class I suddenly have 5 days of the week off, and it’s Saturday so I’m gonna take a nap then try to get some work done for research. I’m in a new lab again this semester, after the last two labs over two semesters were definitely not the right fit lol. This semester is one I’m hoping to stay in for the rest of undergrad: it’s a baby lab because the PI was just appointed at Columbia last semester. Three grad students and me, potentially a postdoc that I had the honor of sitting in on his interview of! and asking questions along with the other team members (interviews are just an hour-long talk of the postdoc’s research history and what he plans to continue). I love love LOVE this lab because I feel like an actual member of the group, with agency, like I’m going up on the website n all that :) and I can stroll into work whenever I want and the PI is training the grads and I himself, etc. The lab is brand-new, so new that a good portion of it hasn’t been set-up yet and actually a good portion of my research will be creating some of the technology!! Because we’re trying to develop a way to image single electrons, so obviously it doesn’t exist and we’ll be developing microscopes to figure out how.

Anyways, that’s my academic life. Clearly I can talk about research all day so I’m just gonna move on. I will say that I’ve been taking so many math classes that I realized like a week ago I could totally get a math concentration too if I just took like another 4 classes, so I guess I’m chem/math now! Wow a whole STEM bitch y’all could never

I’m otherwise not too involved in campus life anymore, tbh. I can’t tell if that’s the norm, because I don’t think it is but when my sorority was preparing for recruitment and we quickly introduced ourselves to the rest of the chapter a surprising number of people upperclassmen were like yeah I kinda do this and I’m in this club but I don’t rlly go to meetings anymore and ya pretty much the sorority is what i’m most involved in now. And i was like huh. I do, however, still worry about it, and i keep trying to think of ways to get involved so that job or grad school applications are easier. Research takes up most of my time so when I get back from it, I’m pooped. I either go work out or watch Netflix, or cook, or chill w my dog, and I’m honestly happy with this life. I guess I’ve kind of figured out that clubs are pretty culty on campus, and not being involved in a club doesn’t mean you’re not passionate about it. It just means that those people who are just make it their whole life/social scene, the way I make my dog and research my whole life.

On campus, things have settled down since the Tess Majors attack. I don’t think I wrote about it before: just a few days before finals week a Barnard freshman named Tess was stabbed to death in a mugging as she was walking back to campus. It was terrifying not only because she was an unarmed, white, freshman, but also because it happened with no provocation and extremely close to campus. I personally ended up deferring two of my finals to the beginning of this semester, because I was too scared to leave my dorm to study. I also spent a ridiculous amount of money on Postmates and when I had to leave I took a cab even 4 blocks. Since being back on campus, things have quieted down, but I along with a lot of other people downloaded the Citizens app, and that awareness of all the crime going on in the city makes me feel much more vulnerable still.

Also, for some reason a facebook page called Columbia Confessions has blown up; I’ve posted three or so times myself and my most recent one, a shitpost about stealing people’s Canada Gooses at parties, broke a hunnid which I’m proud of! I actually wrote it to specifically target some kid who kept complaining about his lost Valentino, and someone actually tagged him lmao.

Lastly (that I can think of), the housing process has just begun and its a weird time on campus as usual: freshmen breaking down and losing friends over groupings, sophomores just trying to avoid the drama of last year, juniors angling to see if they can get an EC suite or a nice Hogan single. I personally was offered a nice single in my sorority house which i GAVE UP because a good friend of mine we’ll call Omicron wanted to room together and I’m tired of not having friends lol. She’s got ODS accommodations and theoretically so do I, so we’re trying to go for a Watt, EC, or Woodbridge 2-bedroom suite. I don’t know which I want because I’ve never been in any of those dorms, besides an EC townhouse, so I’m feeling really nervous about giving up my brownstone room. But I don’t really fuck w my sorority anymore, and worst comes to worst I’ll live in River because they have some HUGE ass singles, so for now i’ll trust Omicron and hope that we get a Watt 2br because they have lounges. 

OH lastly for real, I’m in art hum this semester! so keep ur luscious eyes peeled for a Core Review at the end of this semester~

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #264

I did tell y’all WoW would devour my life again when I got my laptop back lmao. But I’m still alive!!

When you wake up to pee at night, do you turn on the light? You mean like, in the bathroom? Uh, yeah? When was the last time you got a fresh box of crayons? Damn dude, I don't have a clue. What color is your favorite towel? I don't have a favorite. They're all just random colors. Do you know anyone’s phone number by heart? Actually no, not since Mom got a new phone. I really need to learn it. Do you wear hoodies? Yeah, one Pikachu one. Something your mother said or did that shocked you: We were arguing and she tried to kick me out of the car once. Obviously I didn't listen. It was one of our worst arguments. How many different homes have you live in?We're in our fourth house now. WELL there's another if you count the apartment, but I didn't officially live there, I was just... always there even though it was against policy lmao. Then when we were technically homeless I "lived" with my former best friend, but again, that was not an official thing. Did your mom go to college? She is, though cancer has thrown a wrench in the plan... She's on her final semester of a bachelor's degree in social work. With cancer now plus this wild quarantine, we don't really know what's going on. Where is the best place you know to take a dog for a walk? We have a park maybe like 15 minutes from here that's pretty decent. Nice fountain, fishing docks, plenty of ducks. Are there any crazy sandwich combinations you like to eat? It's not "crazy," as I know it's actually tasty to some people: having lunch meat, cheese, mustard, and potato chips. I haven't had that in yeeeaaars. Which food do you think you have the most cans of in your cupboard? Uh. I'm not sure. We usually have fruit, beans, and soup in there, but I'm not sure which there's more of. Do you save fortunes from fortune cookies? No. Are you offended when Christmas is spelled Xmas? No. Do you prefer rugs or bare floors? Rugs. Describe your favorite mug or glass to drink from? I don't really drink from any. Your bad habit that you love the most: Heh, drinking soda... Do you name your pets after tv/movie/book characters: I have before, yes. Had a guinea pig named Harry Potter lol, rats named Tezzeret and Rhoka, and... that may be it. I am not positive, had a lotta pets... Have you ever died in one of your dreams? Yes. Which is tastier: fruity gum or minty gum? Fruity. Be honest, have you ever bullied anybody? Who was it? Oh my god, I was about to say no, but wait. When I first started RP at around 9, I had the impression you were supposed to always be in-character. Me, at the time my account being just "mozart2" (I don't count her as my first RP character though, she turned into Ruby and was drastically changed) on the Animal Planet forum, wanted to be the "dominant female," and one of the girls whose name was like Angelkiss or something was "mean" to me and so I reciprocated until I GOT FUCKING BANNED ON THIS ACCOUNT I'M WRITING THIS AND IT'S SO EMBARRASSING WHAT THE FUCK WAS WRONG WITH ME I HATE YOUNG ME SO MUCH. What is the cutest Halloween costume for a baby to wear? Idk. Is it a turn-off if somebody’s teeth are stained yellow? Not necessarily. Yellow doesn't mean dirty + everyone is supposed to have some coloration, and I can't say shit anyway 'cuz mine are kinda yellow from poor self-care in the past anyway. I just care that they're clean. Which of your friends is the tallest? Which of them is the shortest? Girt is a damn giant lmao. I only reach his chest. Shortest, I'm unsure. Do you know any quotes from Forrest Gump? Well besides the famous ones, no. HA, fun fact that cracked me the fuck up though, someone in the government in NC that is running for... something, there are sometimes like three signs in a row along the road that say "RUN FORREST, RUN" and I fuckin died the first time I saw it. Do you believe in demonic possession? How about ghosts? Angels? I don't believe in angels or demons, so. Ghosts, yes. Would you rather judge a singing or dancing competition? Why? Dancing, for sure. I'm more educated on the form and techniques, plus it's way more entertaining. What was the mascot at your elementary school? A bulldog. It was super cute, and in art class, the art students all worked together to make colorful, clay models that were in the principal's office. Everyone loved them. Have you ever fallen down in public? Did anybody see you? Yes and yes. Do you scream when you go on rollercoasters? Do you close your eyes? I'll probably never know 'cuz my ass is afraid of them lmao. I get dizzy too easily and I'm terrified of the potential of getting sick. Do you think home-made cards are better than store-bought ones? They're more thoughtful imo. What is one romantic movie that you enjoy enough to watch more than once? The Notebook. Who was the last person to walk out of your life, and why? By their volition, probably a Facebook friend. How did you decide upon your favorite colors? I didn't know you could pick your favorite color. Are you less likely to approach people that look/dress a certain way? Wow no. I mean unless they look obviously dangerous, like if they had blood on them or something like that. What is your favorite Starburst candy flavor? If you say anything but pink, you're wrong. Do you prefer schedules and plans, or spontaneity? Schedules. Sponteneity, usually, stresses me out. How do you let someone know that you like him/her? I mean idk. Act like it or say it. Do you think that you act like yourself while online? I'm more myself online. Have you ever lied about something to get someone to like you? Hell no. I'd want them to like me for who I actually am. Would you rather buy presents for others, or receive them? BUY, so long as I'm happy with what I bought and know it'll make them happy. How did you meet your current best friend? YouTube. The last song/poem/story you wrote - what was it about? I haven't finished it, but I'm writing a poem about the strength of cancer patients following Mom getting her hair shaved off. Are you a mostly blunt person? No, because I'm too afraid of starting an argument. Do you have any talents that come naturally? I guess writing since I've been applauded for it since I was very little. Do you go out often? Even before quarantine, not at all. I go out so little that my eyes seriously hurt when I step outside; I always have to squint or entirely close my eyes for a few seconds. What's the best Valentine's Day gift you've gotten? There was one year Jason got me a really pretty heart box of chocolates plus the game Heavy Rain and a pink rose. May still have a picture of it on my old phone... Is there anyone who is overly nice to you? No. It's hard to be "overly nice" in my opinion. Would you prefer internet or television? Internet. What is something you lose often? I'm not sure. Not a lot. Do you enter a lot of sweepstakes? I never do. How old is your oldest sibling? 30-something. Have you ever considered writing a novel? Yes. Who's the last person you said I love you to? Mom or Sara. What's your stance on spooning? What a question. It's comforting, but I usually can't actually fall asleep like that because I get too hot. Have you ever been "popular?" Nah, not really. Well, I was pretty well-known in the meerkat YouTube community as an editor, but not like, Yelozo level. Has someone ever tried to convert you? Well, I was a Christian when my sister's friend's grandpa made me like, SUPER uncomfortable by talking to me all the way home from school (he had to drive us this day) about the Bible and stuff because it was his "job" as a religious man and I kinda had to take this little Bible from him just to be nice. Even when I was a Christian I wasn't VERY religious and really really felt like he was hardcore shoving his beliefs down my throat. Are you thin? Ha ha no. Do you like big earrings? Heavy/big earrings ruined my ears, so no. The holes are too stretched now and is why I'm putting very small gauges in so it doesn't look as stupid when I put an earring in and it just barely hangs on because my ear lobe literally looks like it could tear. Animated character that was your gay awakening? HA, there's been a few that looking back, I definitely thought were more than pretty, even as a kid, like Sheego from Kim Possible. But #1? Holy mother of fuck, Bayonetta. That is one fuckin HOT MAMA. What show/YouTube video(s) do you put on in the background when you don’t have anything to watch but you want something on? Hmm. It really does depend on what I feel like semi-watching. Maybe like, a let's play where I'm not THAT interested in the game, but I still do listen and glance over. Your go-to bar order, if you drink? I've never been to a bar, but when I go out to eat and I feel like getting a drink, it's usually a margarita. What’s your favorite pair of shoes that you own? UGGGGHHHHH my tall leather boots with all these buckles and stuff. They're hot. What was your first word as a child (that wasn’t a variation of “Mom” or “Dad”)? I don’t know. What’s a job that you’ve had that people might be surprised to find out you’ve had? Nothing that's really "surprising." Just three ordinary minimum wage jobs. What’s directly across from you? My snake's terrarium. Do you own any signed books/memorabilia in general? No. ;-; I wish. What do you get on your bagels? What WOULD you get if you had access to anything you wanted? I've only ever had cream cheese. NO WAIT, I tried jam once and it was fucking repulsive. One bite and I was like "fuck no." I think it was strawberry jam though, which I hate. I'm not sure what else I'd try as idk what would taste good. Fruity or herbal teas? Neither. What’s that one TV show that you’re a little bit embarrassed to watch but you still like nonetheless? None. It's funny, as a kid when I thought I was "too old," I tried to hide the fact I still adored Pokemon, but for years now I've just been like "lol fuck yeah man Pokemon." What was your “phase” when you were younger? (i.e., Mythology Nerd, Horse Girl, Space Geek, etc) Being an emo/goth/metalhead thing was NEVER a phase, Mom. Goddamn do I wish I could afford a gothic wardrobe laksjdfawde. What’s that one outfit in your closet you never get the chance to wear but want to? There's no telling. I rarely check my closet for "special" clothes, but rather my dresser. Where do you sit in the living room (we all have a preferred spot, and you know it)? The couch. Are you a “Quote that relates to the photos” caption-er, an “explanation of where I took the photos” caption-er, or a no caption kinda person when you post pictures online? I'm all of them, plus sometimes song lyrics I find relevant lmao leave me alone. Name a classic Vine: YO that one of the dude looking for his berries with a WILD outfit, expression, and voice and then scares adventurers away from his tree made me fuckin cry for about 1,000 repeats. I miss Vine, man, good shit. What’s the freezer food that you stock up on when you go to the grocery store? We don't really "stock up" on any particular food. We do, however, tend to get a large box of frozen rats for Venus, if you can count that, but obviously that's not from the grocery store lol. How do you top your ice cream? Chocolate syrup mmmMMMMMMMMMMM Do you like Jello? Yeah. Do you have a fear, even only a slight fear of insects? I do. Do you have a favorite poem you like and can recall? If so, what is it? I don't have a favorite, no. Have you ever resided in a home that was haunted: *shrugs* I do think paranormal things happened in my last house, but idk about calling it haunted. Do you ever play any MMORPGS: Just WoW. What’s the closest river to you? Tar River. Have you ever been in a building with over 100 floors? I don't think so. What bird is the cutest? Oh, I don't know. Something small and pudgy lol. Are you scared to look at your own organs on x-ray or ultrasound? No, that shit is so cool. Have you ever held a real sword? No. What do you think about most? PTSD is v fun. My brain naturally drifts to relating topics when I don't know what to think about, which is most of the time. Certainly don't try to, but it just. Happens. Most attractive singer of your opposite gender? Hell man, idk. I do have a weakness for Kellin Quin though; he's the first to come to mind. What was the last film you saw in the cinema? The Lion King. What are you currently listening to? "Saturnalia" by Marilyn Manson. How many people have you kissed, that you can HONESTLY say you loved? Two. The last person to be under covers with you? Sara. What's the compliment you get the most? Uhhh I think it's "I like your tattoo" (referring to my Mark one). BITCH just wait til it gets tidied up for four hours. Have you ever disliked someone just because a friend disliked them? If they have good reason to, yes. I can't deeply dislike someone I don't know/have personally seen be a piece of shit, but I can sure not be fond of them until they prove unworthy of that judgment. Have you ever won a lot of money in a slot machine? How much? Never gambled and don't plan to. Do you eat/drink at your computer? Yes, oops. How much do you overeat at special occasions? (Birthdays, Christmas, etc) Actually, I tend to under-eat at most special occasions because odds are I'm not going to like the food. This isn't always the case, but yeah. Do you think it's important to enjoy your job or do you just work for money? I think it's very important to enjoy it. If you had to, which record would you go into Guinness World Records for? Probably the longest consecutive hours of not leaving the computer laksdfjawe I hate myself. Do/Did you enjoy school? Why (not)? From the very beginning, I hated school. It's why I was a goddamn monster to get up in the morning, even in high school. I only enjoyed (to a degree, anyway) my most recent college because it was a way to get out of the house and work towards my future. Do you find it difficult to sleep at night? Any reason(s) why? Boy, do I. Most recently, after being put on a medication for my nightmares/terrors (which works!), I have intense muscle spasms in my legs, oddly only when I'm falling asleep. Apparently it's a very rare side effect of it, but I'm willing to tolerate it in place of having nightly terrors. Then there's my PTSD and just general poor self-image that can both send me down a total spiral. Have you ever wished you were born the opposite gender? Why? Not legitimately. Like I've wondered what it would be like, but I've never truly wanted to be a guy. I'm just content with being what comes with being genetically female. Do you think you'd make a good model? Would you ever want to be one? Hell to the fuck no. Have you had an argument with anyone recently? If so, do you still have issues with that person? Not recently, no. Who was the last person that asked to hang out with you? Tell me the story of how you met that person, everything you remember. Hell man, I don't have a clue. Have you ever worn colored mascara? If not, would you ever think about trying it? And if you have, what is/was your favorite color to wear? No, but I guess, if I had a reason to? What do you remember about your first day of secondary school? Were you more nervous or excited about it? I very faintly remember I had no desire to be there. Before Facebook became popular, did you use any other social networking site, like Bebo or Myspace? Yeah, I had Myspace. Has anyone ever asked you out, and you turned them down? If so, did you feel guilty about it? Why do you think you said no? Yes, and not *really*, as I'm very strict with myself about whom I date. It's just awkward. And I just didn't like one guy romantically in elementary, my best male childhood friend was black (mind you I haven't been racist in the least since I was a tiny kid, I was just raised like that), and I knew Juan had a bad rep. Have you ever asked anyone “Do you love me?” If so, did you get the response you wanted? Do you think when someone says “I love you”, you feel obliged to say it back? Ugh. Let's not. I feel obligated only with family. Has someone of the opposite sex ever sang to you? If so, how did you respond to it? LET'S. FUCKIN. NOT. If you’ve had a bad experience in a past relationship, did you find that you were scared to get into another relationship, in case the same thing happened again? Terrified.

[essaysbyciara]

Thy Neighbor II: Lovin’ The Crew [Chapters 14 + 15]

[Prologue] [Chapters 1 + 2] [Chapters 3 + 4] [Chapter 5] [Chapter 6] [Chapters 7 + 8] [Chapters 9 + 10] [Chapters 11 + 12] [Chapter 13] 

Peace, family! 

Heads up: these chapters are somewhat long. Winston finally gets some attention! As always, thank you for the reads, likes, comments, messages and positive energy. Definitely wrapping this thing on up soon and that damn Yahya story too lol. 

Peace and love! 

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

Hey, Ciara. It’s Winston…

She knows who you are already…

Hey, Ciara! Thinking about our car ride the other night, just wanted to …

Sounds like you’re asking her out again…

Hey, Ci! 

Ci?! 

Hey! Made a playlist of those songs we talked about the other night. Wanted to share. Praying for you during this midterm season. 

Of course I’ll say I’m praying for her. That’s safe. 

All Winston knows since his divorce is playing it safe. 

Married at 24, he didn’t know much of anything else. Freshly married, Winston was on his way to finishing his Masters and thinking about his Doctorate. His wife was on her way to medical school with the goal of becoming a research pathologist. In fact, they pathed their entire lives. Degrees by 27. One child by 30, another by 32 and a move to the West Coast. They both wanted the sun that avoided them since birth. 

But in the midst of following the game plan, they forgot about their true dreams. Medical school was the dream of her parents; she wanted to study music and dramatic arts, having done a play or two in college. He wanted to travel around the world as a missionary. They both felt tied down by the dreams of other people. They wanted off the path they created for themselves. 

So they went rogue. She quit medical school and enrolled at Tisch School of the Arts. He started applying to missions and was accepted to travel to East Africa, to learn from the Ethopian Orthodox community. They were happy, their dreams were no longer deferred but as Winston planned his trip, he wanted his wife to join alongside him. Why do this alone? But that would stop her dream and with both of them unable to compromise, Winston left her to go fulfill what he felt was the mission of his life. 

Skype and texts could only do so much. She fell in love with a fellow student. He started an emotional affair with another missionary. Winston was warned of such a thing before he left, thinking he’d never fall for that type. When he found himself upset that his missionary “friend” didn’t text him “good morning”, he knew himself to be caught up. 

But when Winston returned home, he killed his affair. She hadn’t. He saw the Facebook messages, found some of her distraction’s clothes inside of their house. A condom in the trash can. He was done. 

He blamed himself for pushing an agenda to be free, to break from the plan they had for themselves. He quit missionary work and enrolled back into NYU to finish his Masters. She, however,  continued in the arts program and right next to her lover. She wouldn’t concede. Her dream was worth it. So Winston thought the marriage wasn’t worth it and he filed for divorce. 

Since then, he’s dated but failed, always attracted to women who would fit inside of this perfect picture of his life. Medical students, PhD students; he tried to find someone that could replace his ex-wife. But then he had fears of his future wife  living out her dreams only to find something -- and someone --- better. He felt disposable, like once she would find something new and better, she’d leave. 

Ciara fits the narrative with her dreams of a Doctorate and her determination to change the world. However there is something about her dreams of finding the freedom in her faith, for pushing individuality, for being her despite the culture’s insistence that her freebird self was the problem that attracted him to her even more. She thinks about shaking the tables. She isn’t about straight and narrow, she is about doing what her heart feels is right. And she found peace in her heart within her studies, something Winston wish he felt. 

And her hips swayed like the ocean when she walked, which Winston felt crash into his body every time he caught a glimpse of her walking throughout campus. Ciara stoked this lustful fire inside of Winston that he hadn’t felt in years. At first he believed all of his feelings to be wrong, writing Matthew 15:19 inside of his journal when some nights were rougher than others. 

Winston saved all of his cursing for when Ciara left his car, letting out moan-laced expletives as he watched her walk up the steps into her apartment building. He wanted her in all the right and wrong ways, readjusting himself in the driver’s seat to allow some room for the growth he couldn’t control. 

But after a cold shower and his bedtime devotional, his nerves -- and body parts -- calmed down. He gave himself some grace and prayed that night to not let those emotions motivate his actions. He’s seen many of his friends use the opportunity for sex as a reason to act like “good guys.”

Y’lan’s story was warning enough. 

But to Winston, she’s unattainable. When he heard Y’lan say that he dated Ciara, he figured himself to be out of the game. Guys like Y’lan are cool and of the culture. They don’t look like church boys. They have one foot in the church and one in the streets. Winston was, in all ways, a nerd. A Bible-reading, Jesus-loving nerd. Ciara doesn’t go for those, he thought.

Sitting in U City Coffee, awaiting Y’lan’s arrival, Ciara doesn’t know what to think anymore. Her ice coffee dilutes as she ignores her caffeinated pick me up by scrolling through Trevante’s instagram to see if she can find “Meganne The Intern”. Ever since that night, Ciara can’t help but think that Trevante is continuing to sex another woman into a mess just like her. 

Puzzle pieces start to come together in her mind: no wonder Tre held out for so long, becoming super affectionate and protective once they started having sex. She always knew deep-down that Trevante wouldn’t be able to handle her celibacy. Naivete increases thinking that a man who couldn’t keep his apartment empty if his life depended on it would be able to do such a thing for little ol’ her.

“Hey, Ciara. Sorry I’m late.” Ciara breaks her search to look up at Y’lan almost out of breath in her sight. 

“Hey! It’s okay. You breathing hard like you ran here.”

“Yeah, my bad. Just played a quick pick up game with some kids. They damn near ran me off the court. I lost track of time.” Y’lan’s body ripples under his grey Nike sweatsuit. He’s not dressed for a meeting and Ciara’s growing sexual angst does not care one bit. 

As Ciara walks up to the counter to buy a bottle of water for Y’lan, Y’lan works through his plot to confront Ciara about Trevante. Y’lan’s anger seethed from his pores listening to Trevante talk about Ciara as his future, as a woman that he’d want to settle down with. There is nothing settling about Trevante, Y’lan realizes. Having seen Tre at his worst at bars and hangouts, he knows him to be far from ready. Ciara would be up against the worst of them with Trevante. Y’lan doesn’t want her to get hurt. Again. 

Ciara comes back with her aqueous libation for Y’lan. Sitting down in front of her laptop, she looks down to see a message from Winston. Her curiosity overflows until Y’lan breaks her concentration with a question. 

“Before we get to this, can I ask you a question?”

Ciara knows exactly what’s about to happen. 

CHAPTER FIFTEEN

She knew this day was coming. Ciara stops mid-sip, her chest growing hotter by the millisecond. Dreading what’s about to happen, she feels the mercy in Y’lan asking about it first.

“What’s up, Y’lan?”

“So what’s up with you and Trevante?”

Ciara becomes unnerved at the lightweight aggressive way Y’lan asks his question. Y’lan didn’t enter the conversation gracefully and Ciara can tell that he has no plans on letting up. She adjusts her body in her chair, tilting her head to the left as her eyes squint toward Y’lan, trying to make sense of his tone. 

“We’ve been kicking it for a minute. What’s good?” Ciara matches his energy and Y’lan feels the shift. 

“Hey, I’m not trying to hem you up. I’m sorry if I came off that way. I just went to go see him a few days ago and he told me about y’all, that’s all.” 

Ciara wonders if Y’lan told Trevante about their past. She suddenly feels every pipe within her burst. “Word? Cool.”

Ciara’s pretend nonchalance bothers Y’lan. Maybe she doesn’t care that Y’lan cares. Maybe Trevante found out in between then and now so her inaction to gain a reaction is valid. He decides to go for round two. He needs to know for sure. 

“Does he know about us?”

“No disrespect, Y’lan, but you should be the last person to be checking me about what I do.”

Y’lan nods his head to fight the anger growing inside of him. “I’m not trying to be disrespectful, Ci. I promise you. I just … you do know that’s my friend, right? When we linked up to talk about it, it didn’t seem like he knew. And I didn’t want to be the one to tell him because, real talk, that ain’t my job.”

“I agree with you.” Maybe Ciara is done putting up a fight, he thinks. “I’ll tell him.” 

“Bet, cool. Like I said, I ain’t mean to make it this big. I just...”

“Does it bother you, Y’lan?” 

Y’lan’s mind claims that he’s protecting Ciara from inevitable heartbreak. Y’lan heart knows that he wishes he and Ciara could try once more to get it right. As the battle rages on between his heart and mind,  Ciara’s pettiness rages inside of her body. Whatever emotions she possesses about her past with Y’lan are ready to be unleashed. She’s waiting for Y’lan to say just the right words. 

“That y’all are together? Nah, not really.”

“You sure? Don’t lie to me.”

“I’m not lying to you, Ci.”

“I mean, you did lie to my fucking face for a smooth year so I don’t know…”

Y’lan walked himself right into that response. He braces for the rest of what Ciara has coming his way. 

“Yo, Ci. Don’t do that. I told you…”

“Told me what? You didn’t tell me anything. I found out after the fact that you didn’t want me. You showed me, you couldn’t tell me.”

“How can you say that I didn’t want you?”

“You left!” Ciara’s tears puddle inside of  her eyes as she tries to hold back the scream that undercurrents her words. She exhales, closing her laptop with swift aggression. Y’lan’s body sinks into his chair, his mind taking a few more seconds to ponder what to say next. 

“I know I can never really earn your trust after that, I know. I’m sorry. You met the worse iteration of me. I’m now a better person.”

“You know, I hate that shit. Why did I have to be a casualty of your growth as a person? I didn’t sign up to be a “lesson learned”, Y’lan. I wanted to be yours.” 

“Do you still want to be?”

Ciara and Y’lan both pause at the question that escapes Y’lan’s lips before it could be stopped. 

“Y’lan, I can’t… I’m not doing this with you.” Ciara shoves her laptop into her bag. Shuffling to find her keys, she looks down at her phone to see a text from Trevante. 

Can I see you tonight before you leave for your trip? 

Y’lan has his answer. 

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[tht-lesbian-fangirl]

I was tagged by @katiemcgarth​ (thanks queen👑)

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

last...

1. drink? Tea  2. phone call? My platonic wife/bestie @ggoodigii​ 3. text message? A new friend!  4. song you listened to? I’ll Be Good - Jaymes Young 5. time you cried? idk, last time i watched a good movie 6. dated someone twice? Nope 7. kissed someone and regretted it? Yes (@ all the boys i kissed before i realized i was a full out lezzie) 8. been cheated on? No 9. lost someone special? My cat Phantom 10. been depressed? lol cute question my prozac can answer for me 11. gotten drunk and thrown up? Nahh, not my style

fave colors:

12. Black 13. Blue  14. Purple

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends? Yes (thanks to studying abroad whoop!) 16. fallen out of love? Yeah 17. laughed until you cried? Yup 18. found out someone was talking about you? Nope 19. met someone who changed you? Yeah... 20. found out who your friends are? I already knew ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list? Unfortunately lol

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl? that’s a loaded question man... 23. do you have any pets? Just one cat now 24. do you want to change your name? Nah, I dig my name 25. what did you do for your last birthday? My friends threw me a surprise party and i love them!! 26. what time did you wake up today? 6:50am 27. what were you doing at midnight last night? Sleeeeeping ‘cause that jetlag has yet to wear off 28. what is something you cant wait for? Listen guys, I just want a wife and two kids and some cats and to just settle down and be happy with the people I love that’s really all I want 30. what are you listening to right now? Meet Me on the Battlefield - Svrcina 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom? wtf. probably?  32. something thats getting on your nerves? Nothing? I’m pretty easy going 33. most visited website? Binch you think I ever escape this hellsite 34. hair color? Brown 35. long or short hair? Long  36. do you have a crush on someone? Yep and she’s currently 4,098 miles away rn but that’s FINE. 37. what do you like about yourself? I like the few talents I posses. My eyes are cool too.  38. want any piercings? I’m good with just my ears 39. blood type? O- 40. nicknames? My high school straight crush who’s no longer straight who I also just lunch with used to call me Ellie lol 41. relationship status? Single (if y’all couldn’t tell from my previous answers..) 42. zodiac? Aries  43. pronouns? She/her 44. fave tv shows? I watch WAY too many shows, but Orphan Black will hands down always be my favorite 45. tattoos? Nah, against my sect of Judaism 46. right or left handed? Ambidextrous ;)  47. ever had surgery? Yeah just minor 48. piercings? Just one in each ear 49. sport? Karate and Krav maga   50. vacation? Thailand would be swell  51. trainers? Converse? I mean...the sports I do don’t require shoes lol

more general 52. eating? nothing but I could go for anything rn 53. drinking? Still tea... 54. im about to watch? ONE DAY AT A TIME SEASON 2 YASSSSS 55. waiting for? dinner! always!  56. want? a wife and to meet katie mcgay 57. get married? crossing ma fingers 58. career? Clinical therapist

which is better

59. hugs or kisses? why not bothhhhh 60. lips or eyes? Lips 61. shorter or taller? doesn’t matter to me  62. older or younger? Older 63. nice arms or stomach? Arms 64. hookup or relationship? Relationship 65. troublemaker or hesitant? Hesitant

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger? Only once   67. drank hard liquor? shh don’t tell my mom  68. lost glasses? I’ve literally had the same pair for 9 years, I’m never loosing these babies  69. turned someone down? I’m terrible at saying no :/ 70. sex on first date? Nope 71. broken someones heart? Yeah :/ 72. had your heart broken? Once by a gf and once by a friend (those totally count!!) 73. been arrested? Nope 74. cried when someone died? Only in movies 75. fallen for a friend? hahaha isn’t that gay culture

do you believe in

76. yourself? I do my best 77. miracles? No, but I do believe in fate 78. love at first sight? It’s possible 79. santa clause? whomstdve??🔯🔯🔯 80. kiss on a first date? Yea, but I always ask first!! 81. angels? I’m aware that Katie Mcgrath exists so duh

other

82. best friend’s name? Alek 83. eye colour? Green/Gray (it changes)  84. fave movie? Imagine Me and You  85. fave actress? There’s……so…..many……

I’m tagging: @stennnn06 @chloeniccole @crazyintheeast @readomon @proudlyfangirlingravenclaw @xgryffinclaw54x @severelymysticshark @xstinebouchard @clexakru2112 @nooowestayandgetcaught @a-screaming-gay @gay-and-loyal @agentofkhaose @themehplace @nerdaday @shades-of-lucidity @nerdiestnerdnerd @lenas-bitch @lena-lipbite-luthor @gendercool-alex and anyone who wants to do this!!

[judyta217-blog]

Things I Wish I Knew Coming Into a UC (or just UCI specifically bc I can’t speak for every UC)

Q: Do my AP’s even matter? Don’t I just need to get an A in the class and look good for college?

A: YES they matter a lot. Maybe I’m just dumb and I didn’t know this but AP credits do you a lot of good in college because there are these lovely things called enrollment windows. And the amount of AP credits you have affects the time of you enrollment window. So i.e. 58 credits you get your enrollment window at 11:15 am on Monday; 14 credits you get your enrollment window at 5:00 pm next Thursday

Q: Why does having an early enrollment window matter?

A: Well it matter bc everyone wants to have a good time in college amirite? So you want the best or easiest classes? And usually those classes are in high demand because who doesn’t want the best professor for that Chem or Anthropology class? Since I am a STEM major, I can can only speak on the part of classes like Biology and Chemistry because that’s all I’ve taken. So far my bio and chem classes with the “good” teacher have filled up within the first week ish. So if your enrollment date happened to be in the second week and you needed that class you will need to 1) stalk the class schedule thing for someone to switch out 2) wait for ppl to fail (bio and chem classes are taken in a series so lets say ur taking bio 1 and you need to get into bio 2; you’d have to wait for someone who signed up for bio 2 but failed bio 1)

Q: Housing?

A: They will send you an email and stuff. In terms of finding a room mate and stuff, most people go onto Facebook, click on the UCI Class of 2022 page, join it and look at the things people post. I would personally message the person I would like to room with just to get a sense of who they are as a person and if y’all would get along. Ask anything and address any issues you may have from the start because you’re going to be sharing a room and spending a whole year with these people and ofc you’d want it to be as smooth and easy as possible.

Q: What’s housing at UCI like?

A: Shit honestly LOL. Okay okay your first year dorms aren’t that bad. I actually like it a lot. But UCI has 2 types of housing for first years: 1) Middle Earth 2) Mesa Court. It’s actually the 2nd, 3rd, and 4th year of housing at UCI that’s hella shitty. There’s different housing for upper classman that you’ll figure out when you come here lol. But for UCI, we had to wake up at like 6:30 am one morning to get housing for 2018-19. It’s basically on a first come first serve basis but the freaking system JAMMED ON ME HDSOFH. Yea so I didn’t get the on campus housing that i wanted for my second year. But that’s fine bc you’d just try again next year :’ )

Q: It’s okay to not be thriving all the time.

A: I think I had a hard time dealing with this these last two quarters because in high school I did everything I wanted to do. Which included: 

1. Waking up to get that education ya know 

2. Going to swim practice and trying to stay somewhat fit and feeling like I got to improve/ work towards a goal everyday

 3. Going to Medical Assistant vocational school to gain more insight on careers in health care (highly recommended bc you get paid $10-$15 after you get your certificate/ you get an externship during Jan-Jun another college app bonus)

and my Red Cross stuff which I won’t put into words bc that would be an essay.

But you see I did all this in high school and it’s a bit of a change to switch from a life that focuses so much on extracurriculars to one that focuses mainly on academics. I tried to be the same high school me, but that’ s a bit hard since you course load will be much heavier. However, this was my choice. You could do whatever you want in college and still be that busy extracurricular person. 

Q: How much do you study in a day?

A: I try to get in AT LEAST 4-6 hours a day bc chem and bio are hard for me personally but maybe you’re good at it and that won’t be the case for you. Everyone has different study habits and stuff.

Q: What’s it like making friends in college?

A: Now you can be like senior hs Judy who thought, “I don’t need friends bc I’m going to be a doctor!” lol. But I knew in my heart that I wanted to be surrounded by a good group of people so before attending UCI I knew that I would have a couple of friends going into college. But making friends out of my high school circle definitely takes a bit of effort just because nobody has like the same schedule as you so everyone is just doing their own thing most of the time and it’s hard to keep up with people’s lives. 

But if you really want to go somewhere for college I don’t think your friends should be the reason stopping you bc why would you sacrifice you future/ being somewhere where you could become a better person for other people. Plus if they were your real friends they’d still be here for you during breaks and stuff. Go where you think you should go. I promise you aren’t wrong and that you’re will meet new friends and ppl who will push you to do better things.

yea and theres that stuff like self care and blah but i think that’s pretty basic stuff that you can figure out along the way. HAVE FUN KIDS

*if you have any other questions that are not related to UCI I highly recommend talking to someone who’s currently attending the college/university you want to attend to get a better perspective*

[purplesurveys]

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1. smiling right now? No. Does anyone sit here grinning while taking surveys? < Hahaha the visual made me laugh so I am smiling now, indeed. I don’t usually smile when taking surveys though, unless someone sent me a funny text or something.

 2. did you ever date the last person you kissed? Yeah, and that’s still going on.

 3. What’s irritating you right now? My wireless headphones are charging and I really want to use them now.

 4. when did you last eat pizza? End of Feb-ish. JM called for a meeting at 5:30 on a Friday, so to make up for it he bought three party-sized pizzas and a box of mojos for all of us. He was starving that time so that was definitely a big influence on his order which was unnecessarily too big, considering that we were only five people in the meeting.

 5. do you drink beer? Only if I really have to, otherwise I hate the taste. Some parties or social events only serve beer, so. I always have to mask the disgust on my face for every sip too, lol.

 6. what do you want? For me to stop overthinking. I can do that about everything, and it’s not fun. It’s just tiring.

7. do you have any television obsessions? Friends. Save for seasons 1 and 2, I’ve watched every episode at least a dozen times and even keep it playing on Netflix to help me fall asleep.

8. last spoken words you heard? “You ok?” My puppy was whining in his sleep so I called him and asked him that.

9. when was the last time you cried? Couple of days ago. I was watching this soldier dad surprising his kids for Christmas. Am a big sucker for dads being gone a long time and going back home their family, given that my dad has been an overseas worker for as long as I can remember.

10. is your sister a slut? She is not. Not that it would be a bad thing if she was; she’s just not one.

 11. pepsi or coke? I don’t like soda but my parents would sometimes buy one of the lighter versions of Coke and when I tasted those, it was actually a bit pleasant. Still didn’t enjoy the fizziness but at least it burned my throat a lot less.

 13. what is your favorite sport? Pro wrestling, if it counts. I havent’t watched an episode in years and I truthfully don’t recognize half the top wrestlers in the world right now, but I’m still very much attached to it. Wrestling’s been in my life in so long that it would be dumb not to name it as my favorite.

14. do you enjoy piercings and tattoos? I don’t actively look for them in other people but when I come across someone with a tattoo that has a cool story behind it, I’d love to hear about it.

15. do you enjoy taco bell or mcdonalds? Yes. Taco Bell slightly more, because I barely get to have it whereas there’s a McDo every five kilometers where I live and it’s easy to get tired of it.

16. are you restless? Lately yes, more than usual. Finally got around to joining several job-hunting websites just so I can get acquainted with this new environment that I’ll be in for pretty much the rest of my life, so naturally I’ve been overthinking a lot - about whether I’m good or skilled enough or not, if my resumé’s good enough even though mine is objectively stacked...the mind is not a healthy place, y’all. Sigh.

17. is your computer a laptop? It is.

18. what is your favorite color? Pastel pink.

19. what color is your hair? Black.

20. last inbox text message? “Is July 19 okay?” From our college yearbook’s editor-in-chief. I work on the yearbook committee and very few people have been submitting writeups, so we’re thinking of extending the deadline from today to ^ that date.

21. your response? I gave it a thumbs-up. The EIC likes acting as if he’s in charge of everything and never asks for my opinion or assigns me anything as the associate editor, so much so that I’ll sometimes take up certain crucial tasks all on my own and just inform him afterwards. Today he sent that message and he didn’t even tag me for my opinion and simply tagged the overall graduation committee head, ugh. I still acknowledged it with a thumbs-up so that he can’t say I’m unresponsive.

23. do you like anyone right now? I like all my friends, but I like one person in a romantic sense.

24. who is in the room with you? Kimi and Cooper are both sleeping near me, albeit separated. I don’t think these two are ever going to get along, and I’m slowly trying to accept that lol.

25. what are you wearing on your feet? Nothing.

26. what are your favorite pairs of shoes? Either my pair of Nike Cortez or the retro Onitsuka Tiger sneakers. Both are really comfy and go with most of my clothes.

27.who was the last person to say i love you? Gabie.

28. what was the last thing you ate? Luncheon meat sandwich for breakfast.

30. what is the closest item near you that is blue? An empty disposable vape pen in my wallet. It’s been out of juice for a few months now but I just haven’t thrown it out.

31. what instant messaging service do you use? Messenger for the most part. I move to Telegram if the topic is going to be confidential.

32. who was at your house last? My grandma and cousin. Kuya got McDonald’s for me and my siblings and I got sooo excited because I hadn’t had McDonald’s since before the lockdown. They also went over just to catch up, because my village had finally slightly loosened how strict they were with not letting non-residents in; and also to meet Cooper. 

33. which do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants? Definitely jeans. I own like one pair of sweatpants and I never wear it.

34. what is the last movie you watched? Embarrassingly enough, it’s still Cat in the Hat. Though there’s a local movie that’s been getting unbelievably good reviews that I’ve been itching to see; it’s called Through Night and Day. I plan to see that next.

35. what do you currently hear right now? I have a lo-fi playlist on my Spotify. This current song has a bit of piano going on.

36. is it on the radio or computer? Laptop.

38. where is your mom? She’s at her workplace, most likely typing away on the computer.

39. where did you get the shirt you’re wearing? My mom formerly owned it and she just passed it down to me.

40. where was your default picture taken? On here, it’s of Diane Nguyen from BoJack Horseman. Given that we’re both Southeast Asians, wear glasses, like to write, and love our food and eat them messily, it might as well be a portrait of me lol. My profile picture on Facebook is my graduation photo, and on Twitter it’s a webcam shot of me carrying both Kimi and Cooper, in a rare moment that I got to hold them in each of my arms.

41. are you texting someone? Nope.

42. would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Yesss.

43. would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you? I truthfully don’t know what I would do since I’ve never been in this situation. I do see a slight chance of me taking them back, as stupid as it sounds. But I guess I will never really know what I’d do unless it’s already happening to me.

44. do you own something tie dyed? No.

45. did you hurt yourself today? I don’t think so.

46. do you want someone you can’t have? Can’t say I’m feeling like this right now.

47. who makes you smile the most? Kimi, especially when he listens to what I say because he always looks so sweet haha. Cooper’s in his terrible twos at the moment and is just hell-bent on biting every hand and foot he sees, so I’m still adjusting.

[wanna-17]

joshua highschool!au

summary: you and joshua hong were strangers at a tutoring academy but what happens when he moves to your school and you guys bond over music and small cute moments?

genre: fluff, slice of life, semi-real life 

style: bullet-point 

length: 4.4k 

a/n: so this is something i’ve wanted to write for a while because it’s actually semi real life (not me ofc i cry someone i know) and i think their story is super cute. i’ve made some alternatives e.g. in real life it’s a church/school setting but because i’m posting on tumblr i decided to change it to a tutoring academy/school setting. but do let me know if you want a  version of the original setting :) also this ended up being really really long (mainly bc i know like a lot of exact details and wanted to include as much as i can) and im unsure if you guys like my writing style but im hoping to improve more over time as i hopefully write more bullet point styled scenarios :) 

so you’ve been going to this tutoring academy for a while and you go like once a week

you actually look forward to tutoring bc u were actually put in a really good class where everyone is friends and even have a group chat for memes 

anyways theres this guy called joshua who sits at the back

and hes like the most handsome guy in the class and all the girls /not so/ secretly fawn over him 

and like there are loads of rumours about him which claim that he opened his own lil company that makes apps and stuff which earns him $$$ at the age of 12 and how he like used a drone to capture the whole of his relatives wedding and how he like mastered 3 instruments and is a tech genius and on top of that really smart

which you obviously dont believe because thats not even human ??

anyways you do admit he’s sort of ok-above-average lookswise but u aint that shallow because he has a bad personality and you just hate him 

but you have evidence for hating him !! 

one time you accidentally walked into him verbally being mean to this other poor guy 

so you naturally just assumed he was a bully and had a bad impression of him

you thought he was a prideful annoying rude and horrible person 

and you just dont understand the hype about him at the tutoring academy 

like they literally give out flyers with his face on it ?? umm ?? what marketing purposes lmao 

anyways one day at tutor

your friend kyulkyung is like omg did u hear joshua is transferring to our school next year hdkhfaaku

kyulkyung is highkey a fangirl of him and always tries to talk you into him being a lil angel and nice person but you just snort lol

anyways you obviously dont care that he’s going to your school next year so you just shrug whatever 

later that night when u get home u get a friend request on facebook from...dun dun DUNNNN what a surprise joshua hong 

and you’re kinda like well ok ?? no harm in accepting a friend request 

you accidentally click on his name too and think oh well might as well stalk him a bit 

and damn his fb profile is super interesting bc he actually posts a lot but its not like dumb stuff boys usually post about video games 

but like cute family pictures of him and his lil bro and you’re like this boy is family oriented i LIKE 

then you suddenly come across a video...of this guy from your tutor...on kids masterchef

so u watch it and its the cutest thing ever 

lil joshua stirring an egg and trying to make an omelet hehehe

and omg apparently he made it to the semi finals of KIDS MASTERCHEF???

you keep scrolling down and thats when u come across the evidence of him opening up his company with an app and tech jazz and u r like is this guy even rEALL

you’re still doubtful tbh so u go the appstore and type in his app and it comes up...even with CREATOR OF XX APP: JOSHUA HONG ???? you literally fall off ur chair bc wow 

he cooks, he makes apps, he’s family oriented..that is all i need in a man HA HA 

so next time at tutor u see him ur lowkey like the other girls staring at him bc wow he seems decent all of a sudden lol 

ur other tutor friends are like: u r so lucky y/n josh’s gonna be at ur school 

and ur kinda thinking maybe i should befriend him now cos he’ll defs be super popular at school 

but tbh this fawning literally stops after 2 days and you go back to reality and focus on ur studies and all that 

well as for joshua he doesnt really know u too to him ur that cute girl from tutor nothing much 

fast forward to the next year ~

you kinda fully forget that josh is even coming 

so the first school day back is all nice and chill and u get to ur fave class music heheh 

you love music bc it really helps u concentrate and you also play clarinet and piano and love it 

you’re also topping the class and sometimes you think you wouldn’t mind being a music teacher 

so in music u take a seat next to your friend seungkwan who has power vocals and plays trumpet and when he sings at school performances you always accompany him as a pianist with woozi on drums 

you and suengkwan are just chatting and catching up about holidays

when the teacher walks in followed by a student and you see that its joshua 

and you’re like thinking o crap this is really awks i should hide

before u can do any of that tho he kinda makes a  beeline for you and takes the seat next to u cos he only knows u in the class haha 

and you’re literally looking the other way and u pretend u dont notice him take a seat next to u and you’re overly engaged in conversation with seungkwan

but seungkwan being the lovely and outgoing kid notices joshua and is like: hey!! are u new dont think ive seen u before

seungkwan is friends with everyone and everyone loves him back

joshua: uhh yeah i’m new 

and seungkwan is super excited and like welcome!! i’m seungkwan and he sticks his hand out and is like and ur name is?

joshua is like i’m joshua 

and seungkwan is like oh btw this is y/n 

and it gets super awks cos u guys know of each others existence but maybe have talked like once when he had to pass u a bag of chips at tutor and u were like thank u 

and seungkwan senses something and eyes you guys back and forth 

after 837491 decades josh breaks the silence and is like hello y/n in a really meek voice

and you awkwardly smile and say hi 

luckily class starts and the teacher introduces joshua to the class and asks him what instruments he plays 

and the rumours prove to be true - he plays 3 instruments piano guitar and flute the real life guy cant play piano lmao

teacher asks him to demonstrate with the instrument hes most confident in 

and so he starts playing the guitar to the tune of fireflies by owl city and also shyly starts singing to the lyrics check out how cute joshua is playing fireflies on his guitar here IM sOFTTT

and everyone is in awe at how good he is 

and you lowkey feel your heart rate increase bc boi you love guys that play guitar and sing well 

the way he sings is very gentle and sweet and the way he strums the guitar with his long fingers and how his eyes are full of gentle passion just makes you sWOOON

and somehow the way he sings with his emotions poured in just really touches your heart 

after his performance everyone starts clapping and some girls even stand up and cheer lmao 

he gets back to his seat and seungkwan gives him two thumbs up and says: bro are you kimbap kidding you were great you really should play guitar for me next time i sing

thanks says joshua bashfully and he kinda looks over to you with a hopeful look as if hoping you’d say something too

so you’re quickly like: yeah you were really good :)

josh: thanks y/n

anyways the teacher shushes everyone and is like: let me announce your first assignment! it’ll be in groups of 4 and it’ll be a cover of a pop song of your choice which you’d have to arrange yourselves. if you need help, you are welcome to ask other classmates that have experience in arranging or to ask me

whenver its group work you and seungkwan always join woozi

woozi comes over to you guys 

and then both woozi and seungkwan are like to joshua: wanna join our group pls

and so joshua joins your group 

and everyone else in class is jealous lmao because u 4 are definitely the top group with all the musical geniuses 

ur kinda happy that joshua joined ur group bc he’s really good at guitar 

and so u guys decide that u will do keyboard, joshua on guitar, woozi on drums and seungkwan on vocals 

and y’all learn that joshua knows how to hack into arranging music programs for free 

and woozi is like: WHAT MY LIFE HAS BEEN A LIE????

also shows u guys that infamous app you made and he has some secret code so u guys can download it for free instead of buying it for $15

ur group actually gets along really well and has good dynamics bc everyone has great ideas on what songs to do and how to do it and stuff 

and its actually really fun with them even though you’re still awkward around joshua for no reason and he’s kinda shy too lmao

joshua suggests doing “breakeven” by the script 

and u have a fangirl moment bc u love the script and everyone agrees that its a great song choice :)

anyways one day you guys decide to meet after school to practice and  to refine the arranged piece which joshua and woozi did 

BUT FOR SOME ODD REASON seungkwan can’t make it anymore bc he has to babysit his little brothers and woozi has a student council meeting 

so its just you and joshua

and you two have never been like alone before like during group practice you guys make small conversation when the other two there and its all good and sweet but this was gonna be AWKWARD 

anyways so you try to initiate conversation by asking how he’s finding the new school 

and he just gives a short answer: pretty ok 

and it becomes you two just asking each simple questions and giving short replies

but its only when you he asks you how you started getting into music that the conversation really starts going somewhere because your eyes light up while talking about music and so does hie eyes

and you guys talk about how classical music is so under-appreciated these days and how mozart is a music legend and just the beauty of music etc. etc.

and in no time its getting really dark and you both have to head home

you guys walk to the bus stop and he gets on your bus 

and you’re like: hey i don’t think i’ve seen you catch this bus before?

joshua: yeah, but this bus also takes me home there are two buses that stop near my home!

you: oh ok cool 

from that day on you and joshua actually got super close due to both your love for music

you guys always practiced together with seungkwan and woozi even when the group performance was over (and your group topped and got A+!!!!!!!!)

you also encouraged joshua to join the school band club which seungkwan and woozi were also part of

you literally baited him in because the school band club was going on tour to europe next year to get some sick masterclass training and perform at famous places in austria 

so he basically joined so he could go to europe ;)))))) HEHEH

and even though you guys have different friend groups you guys sat near each other in the classes you shared, went to band club every monday morning at like 7am and also sometimes grabbed food together before tutoring 

this was when literally EVERYONE at tutoring and school started shipping u two together and you’d get embarrassed and joshua wouldn’t really say much either 

and to be honest deep in your heart you thought joshua was the ideal boyfriend but you had a rule where you weren’t gonna date in high school bc you wanted to focus on studies and you thought that high school relationships dont last and that they were pointless

and you’ve never really had a crush before so you’re super clueless lmao 

one time students in ur music class volunteered to busk on the streets and you thought it’ll be fine so u and ur squad (josh, seungkwan and woozi) all signed up for it ^^ 

BUT when the day came around, woozi had a really bad fever and couldn’t get out of bed and seungkwan’s mum had to show up to work so seungkwan had to babysit his little brothers again

and so the busking was at school ..,,, except when u got to school the gates were locked AND it literally started pouring 

you regretted not agreeing to your mum driving u bc u were a good daughter and didn’t want to bother her when it was her birthday 

you also regretted not bringing an umbrella with u as u didn't want to miss ur bus 

and so there you were soaking wet in the rain on a saturday morning not pleasant 

you didn't know what to do and none of your gal friends were busking and u didn't want to bother them so you ended up calling joshua and he picked up in 2 rings 

joshua: hey whats up?

you: sorry to ask of this but are you almost at school? because the gates are locked

joshua: oh really? i’ll be there in like 1 minute

you: ok see you soon

and in exactly one minute a car appeared and joshua hopped out with an umbrella

and he had the most concerned expression when he saw u soaking wet without an umbrella

joshua: omg y/n are you stupid why dont you have an umbrella

you just sighed as he held the umbrella above both ur heads 

joshua: why don’t we go inside my mums car before we decide what to do i dont want you getting sick :( 

you guys headed to his mums car and he just held the umbrella above both your heads and you noticed that it covered more of you than him

he could have easily put his arm around u so he wouldn’t get wet at all 

but this was one thing you came to notice and really admire about joshua

that he’s such a respectful gentleman 

whenever you befriended a guy you’d low key make it clear that you weren’t interested and just jokingly friend zone them 

he never made you uncomfortable with his actions or words and always 100% respected you and kept his boundaries 

anyways soon u guys found out that you had to enter the school from the back gates instead of the front  gates and the rain slowly came to a stop

cue: joshua’s mum eyeing you two in the rear mirror from the front lmao

anyways the day went well and you guys had a lot of fun busking together and even got ice cream together afterwards :)) 

next year rolls around and you guys have only maths and music classes together but still hang at tutoring

its  valentines day and tbh u never expect much because you’ve never received a red rose you’ve only gotten those  yellow friendship roses 

but during roll call the person giving out roses is like: y/n a red rose for you!!!! and you’re so SO happy bc who could be this secret admirer??

the rose also came with a super lame pick up line “did it hurt when you fell from heaven?”

you were so curious as to who it was 

joshua: oooOOOHHHH whose the unlucky guy pls we all know its you lmao

anyways europe FINALLy  rolls around and heck u are keen to visit mozart’s house

some of your girl friends like eunwoo, yuha and roa are also going 

when the whole band club arrives in europe every day is busy busy with music workshops and such and its only 5 days in where the teachers who came on the trip give the students like 3 hours of free time

teacher: ok u guys must be in a pair at least so u don’t get lost!!

however, all ur friends only want to go shopping while u wanted to take a walk and admire the scenery of europe 

but then someone taps you on the shoulder and u turn around and its joshua 

joshua: hey what were you planning to do during the free time?

you: i wanted to look around and see the architecture and the scenery and stuff but everyone wants to go shopping :( 

joshua: oh really! thats so good because me too i’d rather take a walk around here rather than go shopping; all my friends wanted to shop too 

you: omg thats great we are always in sync arent we haha

joshua: yeah we are! let’s go together then?

so you and joshua walk around the land of austria and admire the beautiful architecture and takes pictures of the scenery and visit all the pretty churches 

it’s literally your favourite day so far in europe bc you’re so happy ahhaa

(little did you know tho seungkwan literally refused joshua to hang out with him bc he was so sick of seeing joshua tiptoe around you. seungkwan: I BEG U TO HAVE SOME ALONE TIME WITH HER PLS BE ROMANTIC PLS CONFESS ALREADYYYY)

so that night dinner is also free time so students can choose where they wanna go to eat and seungkwan joins you guys and you guys all end up in a really fancy and aesthetic restaurant 

where the lighting is dim, there are lit candles and roses hung around and its literally a beautiful restaurant

you’re super oblivious but seungkwan is like glaring at joshua the whole time and kicking him under the table 

while they’re having a staring contest you’re just chatting away about how much of a great time you’re having and how this is the first time in your life you’ve been inside such a nice restaurant and  chugging on your food 

after the meal you take a toilet break and little do you know while you’re doing so seungkwan is giving mediating lessons to joshua so he can calm down 

and by the time you get back seungkwan is gone

you: oh where did seungkwan go?

joshua: oh he just went to chat with woozi

you take a seat and is like: so do u reckon we should head now?

and then joshua is like: actually there’s something i really want to say to you

and you just look at him super confused bc did something bad happen?? and you’re just super clueless and oblivious to his feelings towards you

bc the reason why ppl even ship u guys in the first place is because everyone can see how the way he stares at you, cares for you, catches your bus thats a 15min walk to his home when there’s one that stops directly in front of his home, how he always helps you with work, how he always encourages you to not give up whenever you’re having a hard time 

and then joshua is like: y/n you probably have an idea already but i really like you, i like you a lot. i’ve liked you since we got ditched by seungkwan and woozi in music class and we ended up talking about music and had a proper conversation. also the rose for valentines day this year, that was me too 

and you are S H O O K 

and your mind is blank

and then you blurt out the dumbest thing ever 

“sorry i only see u as a friend and dont want to date in high school”

.....

teacher: ok guys we are heading back to the hotel now!!!!!

joshua’s eyes and shoulder’s drop completely and he looks so discouraged and sad

and you’re brain is just confused as to what just happened...you suddenly feel hurt? lost? 

you told yourself never to like anyone and up until now you’d never felt your heart race for anyone...you suddenly felt like you lost someone precious....someone special...

you guys part ways and head back to your respective friendship groups 

and the moment you get back to the hotel you head straight for your room, not wanting to talk to anyone about what just happened

bc girl u needed time to process what just happened and to really think bc you’re heart was aching for some strange reason 

(obviously you were oblivious to the fact that you had always liked joshua the whole time sighs) 

you can’t think straight so you decide to call ur sister nayoung 

you completely forget about the time difference between europe and australia 

and so when nayoung picks up she’s groaning into the phone: IDIOT ITS 7AM HERE AND A SATURDAY I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP 

you: you won’t believe what happened

nayoung: what did you get a boyfriend lmao

bc before u went to europe ur sister always joked about finding a handsome european guy with a cool accent lmao

you: not really no

nayoung: WHAT 

so you tell your sister everything that happened and how you felt so empty and lost after rejecting joshua and unexpectedly you even start crying 

and you can hear your sister sigh over the phone

nayoung: look y/n, the fact that you’re crying and even more confused obviously means you like him. to be honest i always had a feeling he liked you and i also thought you liked him too. these days all you ever talk about is him at home and you’ve never said a negative thing about him,,, you totally like him 

and you being a stubborn one are like: “no he’s my friend a really close friend that i trust, he’s basically my brother, its like i lost a relative” you sob

nayoung: remember in weightlifting fairy kim bok joo...do you think you’ll be okay if joshua wasn’t by your side anymore? think about it carefully, thank about all the times you relied on him in the last year sorry had to bring in weightlifting fairy kim bokjoo because #swag forever and this part actually happened in real life bc the girls sister said this lmao

and well it was true that you’d relied on joshua too much recently there were times where you were struggling and u turned to him for advice in particular that time where you were considering dropping out of music bc it was getting stressful and taking up so much time

and no matter what your family and friends said you wouldn’t listen but when joshua advised you mind u with the exact same things nayoung said you somehow trusted his words and he was like your rock at times and always willing to listen to u and encourage u 

by this point more and more tears were flowing and you didn’t even know why YOU LIKE JOSHUA BUT U R OBLIVIOUS POTATO 

nayoung: maybe you can tell him that you were flustered so you can rethink it again you might regret this later

you: ok thats a good idea ill try to...

and after nayoung the best sister in the world pep talked u and lectured u for the next hour u finally decided that you would reconsider ur decision and let joshua know 

you were dreading the awkwardness bc ever since the confession u guys had not talked and avoided eye contact at all costs 

you sighed and decided to sleep so u wouldn’t have to think about it for now and deal with it tomorrow

meanwhile in joshua and seungkwans room 

josh: seUNGKWAN U LIL IDIOT she freaking rejected me this is the most embarrassing rejection in the world how will i live after today??????

seungkwan: i dont get it tho y/n clearly likes u why would she reject u i even asked y/n’s sister nayoung to see if she had a crush on anyone 

josh: i’m never talking to u again seungkwan do u know how hurt i am 

*cue seungkwan trying to make joshua laugh by acting out natural disaster scenes from american movies lmao* 

so the next day you’re trying to find the opportunity to talk to joshua but he was always surrounded by ppl 

and u were so nervous bc u had planned what to say in ur head and despite the weather being -2318 degrees Celsius u were sweating from head to toe 

anyways right after breakfast and before boarding the bus u finally see joshua by himself because seungkwan had gone to the loo 

and you slowly approach joshua taking deep breaths because u were about to face the most awkward conversation of ur life 

but before u actually reached joshua he saw u coming and awkwardly looked away as he rubbed the back of his  neck

but u had to do this nayoung was right what if u regretted this and took this to ur grave he was the one guy u were so comfortable around and u could be yourself and he was so supportive and not to mention cute and smart too 

you: hey josh

josh: oh uh hi y/n

you: ummm look i wanted to talk to u about ummm yesterdays events 

cringe it was already getting so so so awkward bury me in a hole already

josh: ahhh ok sure what do you need to say?

you: the thing i’m really sorry about what i said yesterday...tbh i was really flustered and i just ended up blurting that out i hope i didn't hurt you. but i wanted to ask if u could give me a chance to reconsider what u said bc ur a really great  guy and i think i’ve never seen u in a romantic way before so starting now i’ll seriously consider your feelings for me and also work out if i have feelings for u 

and u were so embarrassed and u felt ur cheeks go red  and ur looking at the ground

josh: a chance? i couldn’t even get a single minute of sleep last night says josh jokingly

you: omg really im so sorry :(

josh: its okay im really happy that you’re giving me a chance ;;; like tbh if u think about it, we go same tutoring, see each other in band club and even share closes together...we really can’t be awkward around each other so i was thinking of approaching u and telling u that its ok if u didn't feel the same way

you: *blush* yeah thats true.............

josh: so y/n dont be awkward anymore ok? lets go back to the way we were

you nod sheepishly 

josh: and just give me your answer when you’re ready,,, i can wait an eternity for u HDJWFHWWK CAN YOU IMAGINE JOSHUA ACTUALLY SAYING THAT I CANT EVEN 

and yay its all good between u guys and no awkwardness and you guys back to your usual relationship

and like the more you think about it, you find urself falling for joshua and noticing just how handsome he was and how kind he was 

and you just really liked the fact that he was such a gentleman 

he didn’t push you about your feelings, he continued to respect ur personal space and he didn’t make moves on u and just continued to be a good friend 

but u heard from seungkwan that he was hurting a lot inside even though he smiled whenever u were around 

and u didn’t like seeing him in this state 

so you decided on ur answer !!! 

(bc ur heart fluttered so much whenever you were around him and u started actually caring about ur looks and how he thought of u) 

it was first period at school and it was music class

like 97% of music classes it was just practice 

and u purposely get seungkwan and woozi to practice with all the other students 

so u and joshua are just sitting on the stairs and joshua is lightly strumming on his guitar looking like a prince i tell u 

and u guys are just chatting away normally and u tell yourself i need to say it its okay it’s normal i’m just gonna say it 

and u probably have a super panicky look on ur face 

and josh is like: r u ok y/n?

you: im fine..it’s just that i wanted to tell you something...about u know...that

and you see josh’s face literally drop and he stops strumming his guitar and mumbles: oh

because joshua thinks he’s gonna get rejected for the second time rip 

and you’re really flustered again so you’re like

“i like you too, i want to give us a chance i can’t afford to lose you”

and literally the josh’s mouth curls into the biggest grin and u can see his eye smile hdahfoeifhq

and he looks you in the eye: y/n will you be my girlfriend starting from today?

you: yes i will joshua 

IDAHLQF QYES FINALLY YOU GUYS ARE TOGETHER

literally everyone is happy and suengkwan wants to throw a party for u guys

basically at school u guys are the music couple bc u guys sometimes do duets and are always defending each other when other ppl say that classical music is dumb 

and one time a teacher was super mean to u and joshua stood up for you and you are like where did the shy joshua go 

you guys perform a lot with the squad aka seungkwan and woozi 

joshua even shouts seungkwan bc seungkwan played a big role 

*nayoung in the background: what about me :((((((* 

and like at tutoring the tutor, jeonghan is even happy and is like to this kid: pass me $10 i said so they’d get together this year lmao 

i just realised i forgot about kyulkyung lmao 

kyulkyung is so happy and loves third wheeling dates to get free food lmao bc joshua is such a gentleman and insists on paying all the time

but eventually u guys decide to take turns and agree that he can treat desert 

and yeah you guys are couple goals because super supportive of each other, always watching out for one another and you guys only have eyes for each other 

ok i need to end it here lmao its like too long

and yes this girl got confessed to in austria (when they live in australia) its actually so romantic tbh im not jealous at all *wiggles eyebrows* 

[ilovethings-somuch]

Tag Thingy

I was tagged by @dreamingintheimpalawithdean, thank youuuu

Rules: answer these 85 statements and tag people

THE LAST

1. drink:  water 2. phone call: Momma 3. text message: "it would be a miracle. and I would already be using one miracle that day by meeting him so it’s logistically impossible” (my friend and I have very in depth conversations about meeting Chris and Seb...) 4. song you listened to: Birds if a Feather by The Harmaleighs 5. time you cried: I don’t recall 6. dated someone twice: nope 7. kissed someone and regretted it: yes, regretted it to the point that I’d rather tell people I’ve never been kissed.  8. been cheated on: no 9. lost someone special: yes 10. been depressed: I’m not sure, but I don’t think so. 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nope

FAVOURITE COLOURS 12. Maroon 13. Green 14. Black IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. made new friends: Yes 16. fallen out of love: Nope 17. laughed until you cried: Maybe, it happened all the time in high school, but those friends aren’t around as much so I don’t know if I have in the past year 18. found out someone was talking about you: yes 19. met someone who changed you: I think having this blog has changed me 20. found out who your friends are: yes 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: No

GENERAL 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: I think all of them, but I don’t really use facebook 23. do you have any pets:  YES. 3 cats, 1 dog, and 1 rabbit. 24. do you want to change your name: nope 25. what did you do for your last birthday: um, probably got food with my parents.. I don’t remember. 26. what time did you wake up: 8ish 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 28. name something you can’t wait for: Christmas movies on hallmark 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: last night, but I can hear her talking right now  31. what are you listening to right now: nothing, but if we’re being technical, I can hear my mom talking about my cat and my dog barking in the yard. 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes 33. something that is getting on your nerves: people who only talk to me when they’re lonely or having a bad day 34. most visited website: tumblr  35. haircolour: Brown 36. long or short hair: LONG 37. do you have a crush on someone: Other than my boys? no 38. what do you like about yourself: my eyes and hair 39. want any piercings: not really. Maybe belly button but I’m too self conscious  40. blood type: I have no idea.. every time I’ve tried to give blood I have conflicts :( 41. nickname: T 42. relationship status: Single, and scared to mingle. 43. zodiac: Capricorn 44. pronouns: She/her 45. favorite tv show: Grace and Frankie, does that count? 46. tattoos: nope, I’m scared of commitment. 47. right or left handed: Right 48. surgery: yes, one when I was like 9 49. piercing: Ears 50. sport: what does this mean? I enjoy watching pretty much any sport. 51. vacation: somewhere with a beach 52. pair of trainers: I have a pair of nike’s 

MORE GENERAL 53. eating: nothing 54. drinking: nothing 55. im about to: write a thing for school, or finish a fic 56. waiting for: the week to be over 57. want: friends.. 58. get married: what? lol I mean, hopefully, someday. 59. career: uhhh. yeah hopefully I’ll make up my mind someday

WHICH IS BETTER 60. hugs or kisses: I don’t know 61. lips or eyes: Eyes 62. shorter or taller:  Taller 63. older or younger: Older 64. nice arms or nice stomach: uhh idk 65. hook up or relationship: relationship 66. troublemaker or hesitant: i don’t know, I think hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER 67. kissed a stranger: No 68. drank hard liquor: no 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: luckily, no 70. turned someone down: Yes, but I’m still not convinced that it wasn’t a joke 71. sex on the first date: NO 72. broken someone’s heart: No 73. had your heart broken: Yes 74. been arrested: no, y’all think I do shit 75. cried when someone died: Yes 76. fallen for a friend: No DO YOU BELIEVE IN 77. yourself: sometimes 78. miracles: yes 79. love at first sight: no, but I’m willing to be proven wrong. 80. Santa Claus: no, but don’t tell my dad I said that. 81. kiss on the first date: sure 82. angels: yes

OTHER 83. current best friends name: Annika 84. eyecolour: green (sometimes blue) and brown.  85. favorite movie: Captain America: The First Avenger

tags (feel free to ignore) : @amistillmyself @pegasusdragontiger @thewintersadie @always-an-evans-addict @lumelgy @valentinesbird 

[dadulov]

I was tagged by @flowbros

THE LAST

1. Drink: water 2. Phone call: dad 3. Text message: telling @flowbros where to meet me after our organic chem test 4. Song you listened to: the other by lauv 5. Time you cried: probably yesterday?? idk man i cry a lot 6. Dated someone twice: n/a 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: n/a 8. Lost someone special: grandparents 9. Been cheated on: n/a 10. Been depressed: just a lil. nothing serious 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nah Three favorite colors - 12. blue 13. green 14. gray

IN THE LAST YEAR I HAVE

15. Fallen out of love: nah 16. Laughed until you cried: multiple times 17. Found out someone has been talking about you: no 18. Met someone who changed you: absolutely 19. Found out who your friends are: unfortunately                                                 20: Kissed someone on your Facebook list: nope

GENERAL

21. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: most of them 22. Do you have any pets: YES!! a dog and a cat 23. Do you want to change your name: nah 24: What did you do for your last birthday: got lunch and saw wonder woman with @actual-clint-barton 25. What time did you wake up: 6ish 26. What were you doing at midnight last night: teaching @flowbros how to do ochem 27. Name something you can’t wait for: NOVEMBER 10TH AKA THE FIRST HOME HOCKEY GAME FOR MY SCHOOL 28. When was the last time you saw your mom: last weekend 29. What are you listening to right now: brooklyn nine-nine 30. Have you ever talked to someone named Tom: my history professor last semester 31. Something that is getting on your nerves right now: hulu.com only showing 4 different commercials in the past 3 hours and impeding my binge-watching capabilities 32. Most visited website: tumblr, youtube, symbolab 33. Hair color: brown 34. Short or long hair: shortish 35. Do you have a crush on someone: uh there’s a cute guy in my chem class that looks like colton parayko so does that count?? 36. What do you like about yourself: i have great music taste

37. Any piercings: ears 38: blood type: red 39: Nickname: CB 40. Relationship status: single af 41. Zodiac: taurus 42. Pronouns: she/her 43. Favourite TV show: brooklyn nine-nine, the office, the flash 44. Tattoos: none but hopefully one soon 45. Right or left handed: right handed 46. Surgery: i’ve had surgery on both of my feet so now they both have 2 screws in them 47: Sport: to watch? hockey. to play? tennis 48. Vacation: idk somewhere not hot 49. Trainers: like shoes?? if so i wear my nikes all the time 50. Eating: goldfish 51. Drinking: water 52. I’m about to: probably watch b99 until @flowbros gets off my bed and goes to her own room 53. Waiting for: hockey season 54. Want: hockey tickets 55. Get married: hopefully??                                                                                   56. Career: chemical engineering (we’ll see though)

WHICH IS BETTER

57. Hugs or kisses: hugs 58. Lips or eyes: eyes 59. Short or Tall: tall 60. Older or younger: older 61. Nice arms or stomach: arms 62. Hookup or relationship: relationship   63. Troublemaker or Hesitant: in my head? troublemaker. in real life? hesitant. (unless i can be indirectly petty bc that’s my fave)

HAVE YOU EVER

64: kissed a stranger: no 65: drank hard liquor: yup 66. Lost glasses/contact lenses: all the time my dudes 67. Had your heart broken: only when my dog blatantly ignores me 68. Been arrested: no 69. Cried when someone died: yes 70. Fallen for a friend: nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

71. Yourself: some days 72. Miracles: a little 73. Love at first sight: idk man 74. Santa Claus: absolutely i believe in father christmas 75. Kiss on the first date: maybe? 76. Angels: yes

OTHER

Eye color: green Favorite Movie(s): the princess bride, interstellar, kingsman, hercules (the disney one)

Tag 20 people: y’all don’t have to do this if you don’t want to lol

@actual-clint-barton @chubbsandseggy @charlieecoyle @icant-hockeyson @boston-strong-forever @captain-problematic @impekkablerinne @buracudabruins @mattsmartsmarns @pastasmynood @cuddlyaho @waynesimmonds @plutoisback @jrobertsons @jakegardnr @mountain-rielly @fuckleafs @dtbrown28 @subbanator @werenzki

[vicisse]

rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

thank you @olympusisbleeding for tagging me!

i tag: @percygottago, @cryptidqueeer, @lesbianshiho, @hhermes, @josais, @keeith, @underwcrlds, and uhh... idk who else to tag, but if you want to do this, feel free to either message me or just @ me in your post!

the last...

1. drink: iced green tea + lemon

2. phone call: i called my aunt to pick me up from a club meeting

3. text message: “okay sunday works!”

4. song you listened to: love story, taylor swift

5. time you cried: i think it was over a really good fic? i forgot how long ago tho

have you ever... (pt.1)

6. ... dated someone twice: oh thank god no

7. ... kissed someone and regretted it: yeah

8. ... been cheated on: nah

9. ... lost someone special: in a way? yeah. i have.

10. ... been depressed: daily mood, actually

11. ... gotten drunk and thrown up: i don’t drink

favorite colors

12. red

13. pink

14. purple

in the last year, have you...

15. ... made new friends: yes! for sure!

16. ... fallen out of love: i wouldn’t say love but i’m slowly getting over that crush on Pretty Girl, if that counts

17. ... laughed until you cried: lsajfklsj yeah jfc my sister makes the best jokes

18. ... found out someone was talking about you: yeah lol there was this giant drama last year between one of my best friends and a group of people in my friend group and apparently they made up, but at some point, even though i didn’t get myself involved with their argument, one of them blocked me lol

19. ... met someone who changed you: not in the last year, no

20. ... found out who your friends are: sort of, yeah. still in that process lol

21. ... kissed someone on your facebook list: yeah i’m not even on facebook

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: see #21

23. do you have any pets: no :(

24. do you want to change your name: legally, yeah. right now, my first name is long and too... feminine. kinda wanna shorten it to just angel.

25. what did you do for your last birthday: i think i invited some family over for a nice dinner at my favorite sushi place!

26. what time did you wake up: school’s already started so i get up at 5:15

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping

28. name something you can’t wait for: graduation........

29. ??? there is no 29 lol

30. ....... no 30 either

31. what are you listening to right now: stronger, one direction

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: probably?? i don’t really remember him tho 

33. something that is getting on your nerves: all the fucking hewwo posts if i see one more goddamn hewwo on my dashboard i swear to god---

34. most visited website: google (drive, docs, classroom, etc.)

35. hair color: black-brown

36. long or short hair: it’s short right now! hopefully gonna get it even shorter!

37. ??? she’s gone

38. ....... not here either

39. piercings: only my earlobes rn, but hopefully i’ll get my cartilage pierced too!

40. blood type: B+

41. nicknames: angel, but people call me “mom” too lafjs;lafj

42. relationship status: single, sadly

43. zodiac: taurus (chinese zodiac is dragon)

44. pronouns: preferably none, but they/them is okay

45. favorite tv show: bull (cbs)

46. tattoos: none atm, but i wanna get one in a couple years, probably

47. right or left-handed

48. surgery: so i’m assuming it’s like?? last biggest surgery? i’ve only had to get stitches, and that was almost ten years ago

49. piercings: ?? already answered

50. sport: none that i’m active in, but i used to play (and still love to play) volleyball. i also like watching tennis matches whenever i can

51. vacation: ... like dream vacation...? i’d really like to go to san diego to visit my uncles

52. pair of trainers: ... like sneakers?? i have 2, i guess?

more general

53. eating: ... like favorite thing to eat or right now? because i like my grandma’s kare-kare, but i just had some ribs and rice for dinner

54. fave drink: coffee and/or tea (iced and hot)

55. what you’re up to: i mean,,, after this, i’m just gonna do anatomy homework

56. waiting for: my sister to come home, i guess

57. what do i want: $$monEy$$ i’m broke bc people haven’t paid me back yet

58. do you ever want to get married: yes!!! but only well after i’m working ofc 

59. career: medical examiner, but the dream is to be a successful author

which is better

60. hugs or kisses?

61. lips or eyes?

62. shorter or taller?

63. older or younger? idk how to answer so i just crossed it out

64. nice arms or nice stomach?

65. hook up or relationship?

66. troublemaker or hesitant? neither

have you ever... (pt.2)

67. ... kissed a stranger: lmao no

68. ... drank hard liquor: just a sip but yeah

69. ... lost glasses/contact lenses: i’ve been without glasses for 3 months

70. ... turned someone down: yeah lmao

71. ... sex on the first day: y’all freaky no ofc not

72. ... broken someone’s heart: so i’ve been told

73. ... had your heart broken: not really, no

74. ... been arrested: nah

75. ... cried when someone died: no

76. ... fallen for a friend: no

do you believe in...

77. ... yourself: i flip a coin then decided not to anyway lsakjfdl;fj

78. ... miracles: sort of

79. ... love at first sight: nah

80. ... santa claus: never did

81. ... kiss on the first date: i guess so

82. ... angels: see #77 lskfjsa;ldjk

other

83. current best friend’s name: liam

84. eye color: dark brown

85. favorite movie: howl’s moving castle or kubo and the two strings

[marxisthozier]

me me

i was tagged by @chriscuomo

RULES: Answer these 85 statements and tag some people

THE LAST

1. Drink: water

2. Phone call: me ma

3. Text message: “tuesday or thursday would work best”

4. Song you listened to: “this girl” by kungs

5. Time you cried: i cannot remember

6. Dated someone twice: i have never dated anyone

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: i have never

9. Lost someone special: yes

8. Been cheated on: no

10. Been depressed: hell ya fucken right

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nah alcohol fucks wit me medicine so i don’t drink it

3 FAVOURITE COLOURS

12. crimson

13. plum

14. yellow

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. Made new friends: yes!

16. Fallen out of love: never truly been in it

17. Laughed until you cried: yes!

18. Found out someone was talking about you: yes but it was all good stuff

19. Met someone who changed you: yes

20. Found out who your friends are: ya

21. Kissed someone on your facebook list: no

GENERAL

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: 95% of them, some folks i know on here but haven’t gotten to meet in person 

23. Do you have any pets: I WISH

24. Do you want to change your name: i kinda wanna change my middle name bc the middle name my dad and his family wanted to give me is me grandma’s maiden name and i like that better than the fucken lame one me ma gave me

25. What did you do for your last birthday: worked at the sandwich place i was at for most of the summer

26. What time did you wake up: 8 am then fell back asleep til 11

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: talking to my roomie

28. name something you can’t wait for: fall, thanksgiving, christmas

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: three or four weeks ago?

31. What are you listening to right now: the sounds of a prettymuch interview lmao

32. Have you ever talked to a person named tom: my manager at work is called tom 

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: right now? the fact that i can’t just SLEEP for the rest of the day bc i have stuff to go to tonight

34. Most visited website: youtube, netflix

35. Hair colour: dark brown

36. Long or short hair: rn my hair is the longest it’s ever been!! past my collarbones

37. Do you have a crush on someone: yes

38. What do you like about yourself: i think i’m funny and have cool glasses

39. Want any piercings: i have my ears pierced but i kinda wanna get a nose piercing 

40. Blood type: dunno

41. Nickname: lexi, lex, lexington

42. Relationship status: single

43. Zodiac: cancer

44. Pronouns: she/her

45. Favourite tv show(s): bob’s burgers, peaky blinders, the get down

46. Tattoos: a fox on my left ankle and an olive branch on me right

47. Right or left handed: right

48. Surgery: do wisdom teeth count? also i got tubes put it my ears when i was a wee lass

49. Piercing: 2

50. Sport: i play flag football and wallyball sometimes but i watch just about anything except golf 

51. Vacation: san francisco 

52. Pair of trainers: nike bitch

MORE GENERAL

53. Eating: nothing atm

54. Drinking: water

55. I’m about to: try to do some homework

56. Waiting for: dinner and sleeping

57. Want: to be loved, to not feel worthless LOL

58. Get married: gosh i sure hope so

59. Career: museum curator, maybe a translator, i’d do archeology but i’m scared to mess with ancient and possibly sacred things

WHICH IS BETTER

60. Hugs or kisses: hugs

61. Lips or eyes: lips

62. Shorter or taller: taller

63. Older or younger: older

64. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms

65. Hook up or relationship: relationship

66. Troublemaker or hesitant: a what now

HAVE YOU EVER

67. Kissed a stranger: no

68. Drank hard liquor: does,,, the stuff in a mojito count????

69. Lost glasses/contact lenses: NAH BUT I BROKE ME GLASSES LAST WEEK

70. Turned someone down: yes

71. Sex on the first date: no

72. Broken someone’s heart: probably not 

73. Had your heart broken: eh

74. Been arrested: no

75. Cried when someone died: yes

76. Fallen for a friend: don’t remind me

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

77. Yourself: lmao

78. Miracles: ya

79. Love at first sight: not really

80. Santa Claus: no, me ma never let that happen she said she didn’t want some fake old white man taking credit for my family working hard to get me presents

81. Kiss on the first date: sure

82. Angels: yes

OTHER

83. Current best friend’s name: MCKAYLA, (initials bc these people aren’t on here and i don’t feel comfortable putting their names LMAO), m, z, f, b, c

84. Eye colour: brown

85. Favorite movie: king arthur: legend of the sword

i tag any of y’all binches

[m-ercurian]

ndI was tagged by @pastel-taegi  thank you so much i love these

Rules: You must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

The last:

1. Drink: coffee or water i don’t really remember. i’m not much of a coffee fan but it’s cheap so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

2. Phone call: my mom (it’s always my mom)

3. Text message: my friend mia

4. Song you listened to: holdin on // flume

5. Time you cried: oh shit i don’t remember???? which is pretty fucking rad if i may

6. Dated someone twice: i haven’t

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: not really idk

8. Been cheated on: nope

9. Lost someone special: hm i guess so, but i don’t see it as a loss really

10. Been depressed: ya altho i’m feeling pretty good lately (not to jinx it or anything)

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: twice

List three favorite colors:

12. Blue

13. Yellow

14. Orange

In the last year have you:

15. Made new friends: yep and i love them to bits honestly

16. Fallen out of love: yeah

17. Laughed until you cried: yup, yup

18. Found someone who talked about you: lol i don’t get this but probs?

19. Met someone who changed you: i think every person you meet influences you a bit, but nobody really changed me majorly

20. Found out who your friends are: i mean idk i guess

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yep

General:

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: a solid 70%

23. Do you have any pets: yes my dog is the love of my life

24. Do you want to change your name: naw i feel like it suits me

25. What did you do for your last birthday: had my friends over and gotten drunk, most of them stayed for the night it was amazing

26. What time did you wake up: around 9ish

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: i was cuddling with my s.o

28. Name something you can’t wait for: idk really there’s nothing in particular that i’m that excited for atm

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: 2 mins ago

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life:  i’d be less indecisive and actually finish all the things i started

31. What are you listening to right now: holdin on // flume

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: uh not really

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: i’m chill atm

34. Most visited website: probs like youtube and tumblr

35. Elementary: i’m not sure what this means but i want to forget elementary school

36. Middle school: we don’t really have that??? that’s all elementary school here

37. High school: i’m starting my last year of high school in september and i’m not sure if i’m excited or absolutely terrified

38. College: kind of can’t wait, kind of wanna die before it happens

39. Hair color: black n boring

41. Do you have a crush on someone: i have a bf rn

42. What do you like about yourself: i’m tall, i have pretty eyes, my hair is this nice length rn?? my glasses suit my face really well, and idk. when it comes to my personality i’m patient and reliable and always there for others. GUYS I’M STARTING TO LOVE MYSELF FUCKING FINALLY

43. Piercings: i have my ears pierced, but i haven’t worn earrings in ages so i think they healed

44. Blood type: b+

45. Nickname: i don’t have any cute ones worth posting

46. Relationship status: taken heh

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favorite tv show: sense8 (rip in peace that was such a good tv show) also how to get away with murder (keep in mind i haven’t finished s3 yet)

49. Tattoos: naw but i’d like to get one someday

50. Right or left hand: right

51. Surgery: never had one

52. Sport: i was ice skating trash even before yuri on ice tbh, i can also enjoy football during the world cup, also basketball

54. Pair of trainers: vans and converse are life

55. Eating: nothing

56. Drinking: nothing atm

57. I’m about to: play either league or sims 

58. Waiting for: dad to come back home i’ll regret saying this when he actually comes

59. Want: to dye my hair

60. Get married: i’d like to but in the distant future

61. Career: i want to do something art related (but that scares the shit out of me)

Which is better:

62. Hugs or kisses: both are good

63. Lips or eyes: eyes although again both are good

64. Shorter or taller: i like feeling smol so taller, but then again it doesn’t matter because both things are super cute

65. Older or younger: it really doesn’t matter

66. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms asdhgh

67. Sensitive or loud: sensitive tbh

68. Hook up or relationship: relationship yooo

69. Troublemaker or hesitant:i don’t care about thathonestly

Have you ever:

70. Kissed a stranger: nah

71. Drank hard liquor: yep

72. Lost glasses/contact lenses: no god bless

73. Turned someone down: yeah

74. Sex on first date: nope

75. Broken someones heart: i sort of broke my current bf’s heart before we started dating yike

76. Had your heart broken: yeah awful experience would not recommend

77. Been arrested: nope

78. Cried when someone died: yeah

79. Fallen for a friend: yikes yes can we forget that pls

Do you believe in:

80. Yourself: ocasionally

81. Miracles: i think so

82. Love at first sight: nah, it only happens in movies. this reminds me of my classmates lmao they were all shitting on the fact that i love scifi and fantasy  because thats tOo UnReaLiStiC but they all drool over those annoying instalove movies

83. Santa Claus: nah

84. Kissing on the first date: i think it depends on how the date is going

85. Angels: yeah. i always sort of liked the idea that everyone has their own guardian angel it’s quality fic material

86. Fate: yes and no??? it’s hard to explain

87. Ghosts: nope

88. Supernatural: sometimes

92. People you can  trust: well the most trustworthy people in my life are my best friends and i LOVE THEM TO DEATH also how the heck is this the 92nd question wtf the fuck

i tag: @whyjaeho (i can finally tag you this is happening); @demon-glittter; @noirkat; @beepolitics; the entire @phanpotternet; @kyusass and literally everyone who wants to do this i love y’all

[theoperaghostsstudent]

Get to know me tag

Tagged by @bookwormravenclawgirl ((Y’all should really follow her btw *finger guns*)) RULES: You Must Answer All Statements and Tag 20 Peoples

THE LAST

1. Drink: Water

2. Phone Call: My grandma

3. Text Message: I sent my grandpa the pictures he took using my snapchat so he could make them his phone’s background, lol

4. Song you listened to: Voices in my head from Be More Chill 

5. Time you cried: A little while ago

HAVE YOU EVER…

6. Dated someone twice: No 

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Yeah

8. Been cheated on: Yeah

9. Lost someone special: Yes

10. Been depressed: Yep

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Nah

FAVOURITE COLOURS

12. Blue

13. Green

14. Black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. Made new friends: Yeah, and I’m really thankful to have them in my life

16. Fallen out of love: Yes

17. Laughed until you cried: Yep

18. Found out someone was talking about you: Kinda?

19. Met someone who changed you: “I believe that everyone that you meet changes you in some way so yeah.” - @bookwormravenclawgirl ((This is such a great answer so I’m gonna leave it, lol))

20. Found out who your friends are: Yep

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Yeah

GENERAL

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Practically all of them since I don’t usually add people I’ve never met

23. Do you have any pets: I have a pupper and a woofer, and I miss my angry betta fish that was fueled with rage

24. Do you want to change your name: No

25. What did you do for your last birthday: My boyfriend at the time took me to eat and then took me shopping and to watch a movie

26. What time did you wake up: Late afternoon because I’m a lazy piece of shit

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: I don’t even remember, but probably sleeping because of my pain meds

28. Name something you can’t wait for: To start college

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: A few minutes ago (I had to tuck her into bed since she was in too much pain to do it herself)

30. What are you listening to right now: I just started watching Game of Thrones, so you can only imagine what I’m listening to, like holy crap, wtf?

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No, I don’t think so

32. Something that is getting on your nerves: Anxiety and my condition (RSD/CRPS/AMP) *finger guns*

33. Most visited website: Tumblr

34. Hair color: Dirty blonde and ashe blonde? Idek

35. Long or short hair: Long

36. Do you have a crush on someone: 

37. What do you like about yourself: Uhhhhhhhh

38. Piercings: My ears

39. Blood type: O+

40. Nickname: ChuChu, Bella, or Clau

41. Relationship status:

42. Zodiac: Aries

43. Pronouns: Any are fine, but I mostly go with She/they

44. Favorite TV Show: I can’t really pick one?? Maybe Stranger Things?

45. Tattoos: Not yet 

46. Right or left handed: Right

47. Surgery: I’ve had a handful of them because of a reoccurring problem

48. Sport: I used to skateboard and surf, but now I can only really watch sports, so football.

49. Vacation: Once I went on a cruise, and that was fun

50. Pair of trainers: I don’t understand the question???

51. Eating: ......

52. Drinking: I had some water?

53. I’m about to: Take my sleeping meds or pain meds, so I have to decide

54. Waiting for: Season 2 for a few shows a like

55. Want: To help my family and my friend and their family

56. Get Married: I want to in the future...

57. Career: I want to be a dentist, but for now I’m jobless

58. Hugs or kisses: Hugs please

59. Lips or eyes: Eyes

60. Shorter or taller: Either?

61. Older or younger: Depends on the person?

62. Nice arms or nice stomach: ?????

63. Hook up or relationship: Relationship

64. Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER…

65. Kissed a stranger: No

66. Drank hard liquor: Nope

67. Lost glasses/contact lenses: No, I freak out if I can’t see so I keep my glasses with me everywhere

68. Turned someone down: Yes

69. Sex on the first date: No

70. Broken someone’s heart: Most likely...

71. Had your heart broken: Yeah, but not for the reason you’d think? Idk, I’m stupid

72. Been arrested: No

73. Cried when someone died: Yep, and *Crying btw

74: Fallen for a friend: Yes

75. Yourself: ??

76. Miracles: Considering I’ve almost died plenty of times, yeah, definitely believe in those (and relying on them most of the time)

77. Love at first sight: Sometimes?

78. Santa Claus: Oh geez, I’m Jewish but I still like to imagine the guy is real, lmao

79. Kiss on the first date: No

80. Angels: Like I said, I’ve been pretty close to death, so yeah

81. Current best friend’s name: Malu, Nathan, Logan, Janelle, and one other person I’d like to add

82. Eye color: Light brown or just brown

83. Favorite movie: Either Trolls, Labyrinth, or the Princess Bride

Tagged: Anyone who wants to go for it, lol

[smile-stephan]

Rules: Answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people (or less)

i was tagged by @printzess-blog (thank you!!)

 THE LAST

1. drink: lemonade (and not the weird carbonated stuff y’all have in europe, i have no idea what the hell that’s about)

2. phone call: my cousin bc she wanted to know where we were getting dinner

3. text message: the previously mentioned cousin’s wife bc she couldn’t find her phone charger

4. song you listened to: september by earth, wind, & fire, which is such a tune

5. time you cried: like two days ago (i cry all the time so this isn’t really surprising to me lol)

6. dated someone twice: never

7. kissed someone and regretted it: eh not really

8. been cheated on: nah

9. lost someone special: my mom, right before i started high school

10. been depressed: every day of my life, my dudes

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: never done that lol

3 FAVOURITE COLOURS

12. navy blue

13. yellow

14. mint green

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. made new friends: yeah definitely

16. fallen out of love: nah not really

17. laughed until you cried: absolutely

18. found out someone was talking about you: yeah but not in like a bad way, like my friends will mention they were talking about me to their friends, which is nice bc it means that they think about me when i’m not necessarily there lol

19. met someone who changed you: yeah the whole ski jumping family, love you guys

20. found out who your friends are: well i mean i already knew who my friends were so?

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: nah

GENERAL:

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: pretty much all of them

23. do you have any pets: yes i have a beautiful kitty who i love with all my heart

24. do you want to change your name: i mean when i was younger i did a little bit bc i thought it was an old lady name, but not so much anymore

25. what did you do for your last birthday: my dad came up to visit me at college bc it was parents’ weekend (and also my birthday obviously) so i got to see him and he took me and my best friend out to get food, we went to the movies, and then my friend and i ate some cheesecake in my dorm room while listening to hamilton

26. what time did you wake up: like noon which is terrible i really need to fix my sleep schedule lol

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: probably just scrolling through tumblr tbh

28. name something you can’t wait for: well i’m visiting family in pennsylvania rn so i can’t wait to see my cousins and stuff but i’m also missing out on playing d&d with my friends back home so i can’t wait to go back and play with them lol

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: august 2011 when she was in the hospice

31. what are you listening to right now: the sound of the air conditioning bc it’s hot

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i can’t really name anyone specifically but tom is such a common name that it’s hard to imagine i haven’t

33. something that is getting on your nerves: i can’t really think of anything right now but i’m sure something will come up eventually, that’s just kinda how life works

34. most visited website: tumblr probably

35. hair color: brown

36. long or short hair: long, my hair poofs up too much when it’s short

37. do you have a crush on someone: not really on anyone i know

38. what do you like about yourself: i can be funny sometimes i guess

39. piercings: i have my lobes pierced and also my cartilage, although i want more lol

40. blood type: o?? i think??

41. nickname: my family calls me tora sometimes and one of my friends calls me tori but other than that not really

42. relationship status: single

43. zodiac: libra

44. pronouns: she/her

45. favorite tv show: firefly and also i’ve gotten into this show cable girls recently which is really good

46. tattoos: no, but i want some

47. right or left handed: i’m a lefty

48. surgery: not that i can remember, but i broke my collar bone when i was really little so i might’ve gotten something done with that?

50. sport: well i’ve never really played any personally (unless you count marching band lol) but obviously i’m into ski jumping

51. vacation: i go to pennsylvania to visit family every summer and winter, but i’ve never been out of the u.s. so i’d love to go to another country someday

52. pair of trainers: i probably have like 2 or 3 i think

MORE GENERAL

53. eating: like favorite food?? if so sushi....or anything my grandmom makes lol

54. drinking: usually just water lol

55. I’m about to: finish catching up on big brother bc my cousins really want me to

56. waiting for: ski jumping tbh

57. want: food tbh i’m really hungry lol

58. get married: maybe one day if i meet someone i really like

59. career: well ideally i’d like to be an archivist considering that’s what i’m going to school for

WHICH IS BETTER:

60. hugs or kisses: hugs bc they’re the best

61. lips or eyes: definitely eyes

62. shorter or taller: taller, especially bc i’m pretty short

63. older or younger: generally a little older or the same age as me, but i don’t really care that much

64. nice arms or nice stomach: both are good, i don’t really have a preference

65. hookup or relationship: relationship definitely

66. troublemaker or hesitant: i think a little bit of both is good, you just gotta know when to do which

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: nope

68. drank hard liquor: probably although i don’t really drink ever (because it’s kind of illegal lol)

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: all the time it’s the worst

70. turned someone down: yeah a couple times

71. sex on the first date: nope

73. had your heart broken: eh not really

74. been arrested: no lol

75. cried when someone died: yeah

76. fallen for a friend: nah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: sometimes, on good days lol

78. miracles: idk i’ve yet to experience one to believe in them i think

79. love at first sight: not love at first sight but i do think you can connect with people upon first meeting them, which is a bit different

80. santa claus: sadly not anymore lol

81. kiss on the first date: idk i think it would depend on the person

82. angels: idk i’d like to

OTHER:

84. eye color: brown

85. favorite movie: dead poets society

i’m gonna tag @skihuepfer, @vodkaforprevc, and @aalto-of-skijumping if you guys wanna do it lol