#xx. kim seonhwa

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✘ |  just a little...sensitive // @offleurs

malachi supposed it was the alcohol, and him arriving to the ball alone that made him slightly aching to be clingy. when there wasn’t a shadow for him to be in, he found it hard to exist. if his eyes weren’t low and the world wasn’t moving in slow motion he couldn’t quite place where he should put his hands, or position his feet. or how he should answer a question or laugh or sip his drink. 

he couldn’t help it, needing someone to take cover underneath. one whiff if seonhwa’s perfume had him in a bee-line towards her direction, a pout on his pretty lips. he whined tugging lightly on her dress, “where have you been i’ve been looking for you all night. and don’t tell me you were with hyung because i’m just going to keep whining about it.”

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[to ilsu] "i mean truthfully speaking, out of all the artists i've ever worked with she's the only one i feel like the only one who has believed in me like this. i mean for me to produce a whole album for her? to want me to be the only one producing her music going forward like...from someone like her...its like being knighted, and i can't help but want to say yes because i don't think i would have made it to this point without her being there when i had no one else but you two."

[to han] "why does she keep torturing me like that?! i could have gone the rest of my life not knowing about any of that and here i am spiraling. i have enough questionable things going on in my head i don't need to hear about you and her *gag* bye."

[to his mother] "i don't know where in your head, you think you can call me talking about her like that and think that i wont outwardly embarrass and disrespect you even as your son. you're just mad she was there because you know what she is to me. and you know exactly the image she may have about you. what you didn't want her to see your- mmm. that's what i thought. and tell lori if she wants to be in your business so bad she should be the one cutting you checks every month not me."

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lost // with: @offleurs tw: parental death mention, grief mention

when he'd got the call, it seemed like it all went too fast. the officer was stern, gave him clear instructions on how he had to come identify her, that they'd preferred in person etc. as if it was a business transaction. and he just nodded, gave short and masculine answers as he tried to process what he was hearing. he wasn't surprised, this didn't come out of left field, but he didn't know how to feel. it was relief, but it was also remorse, like he'd missed the perfect opportunity to do something and now he'd never get the chance.

han had told him he could use the key whenever he wanted, but it was three in the morning, the rain was pelting the windshield of the car and he hardly doubted they wanted some soaking wet person just opening their door. so when he pulled up to their shared home he just stood their a moment. he hadn't noticed his hands were trembling, that explained the random jerks he had to pull to stay on the road, and the reason why it took every ounce of strength to press their doorbell and heavily knock on the door. he didn't know why his face burned, or why he couldn't distinguished whether the wetness of his face was created by the droplets on his face or the emotion he couldn't quite figure out, but he just needed seonwha to answer the door.

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Ring The Alarm - Subunit debut EP, RE:GN; The start of a Dynasty

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he cringed a bit listening to his own guide track as he always did. he’d thought it be a good addition to the idea he had in motion for an upcoming ep, but something wasn’t quite right about it. the cadences were perfect, the points he wanted to make in terms of vocality were spot on but something was off. sonically it sounded fine, it was emotional yet up beat and after working on it for so long he couldn’t understand how his own voice still hadn’t fit the bill.

he’d decided to let it be for now, allowing the rest of his songs on his phone to play as he packed up his things to head to the studio he’d rented time in.  the familiar tune of ‘gotta go’ took the place of his own voice, seonhwa’s piercing the drums of his ears in the most melodic and lovely way.

“are you fucking serious?” he said to himself, a gentle sigh with his laugh before he tapped one of the pinned chats in his messages.

to noona: please tell me you’re not busy. to noona: i have something for you.