#xave 🌞

[myelocin]

@xavestory

September 20th, 2013, room #288 on the west wing of the hospital she worked at— I was 13 and really lost. I asked her if she’d be coming with us and she said she didn’t know. I sat with her that night, when my brother left to buy dinner and didn’t know how to talk to her. She didn’t either; we avoided things like that.

And she told me she was proud of me, and I tried so hard to not cry infront of her. So I looked at her, and I can still remember the red beanie she had on and the sweet smile on her face.

I asked her if she wanted me to grab a warm blanket because at 13, I didn’t know what else I could do. I knew she was slipping and that I was behind on so much schoolwork from missing classes that week, but that moment will always be the most special to me. She was just a mother telling her daughter that she was proud.

Xave, this is exactly how it went. The fact that you got it right from her beanie, to even the jacket I remember wearing that day, to how long my hair was back then. It feels like I’m looking at that moment in time again and I am just bawling my eyes out right now T—T

no words will ever describe how amazing you are and how thankful i am to have met you. like i always said, you have a way with crafting worlds. worlds so vivid and intricate and it’s amazing how you do that,,, and i am more than blessed that you let me slip into a world where she exists again.

thank you

Cradle | Sakusa Kiyoomi, Iwaizumi Hajime

Synopsis: First is love; in the forms over the years you come to know. Then second is grief and loss; and how the struggle that comes with it defines and reshapes you. And finally third is acceptance, where you realize that the awakening to love and life’s questions have always just been in the palm of your hand.

This story is for those who shielded themselves from love before it could even hit them. 

Characters/Pairings: Sakusa Kiyoomi x Reader x Iwaizumi Hajime | Seijoh 3rd years (friendship)

Genre/Tags/Warnings: Slice of Life, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Fluff, Slow burn, Seijoh4!Friendship, Cellist!Sakusa, Musician!Reader, Hajime lmao, Mutual Pining, Love Triangle, Happy Ending!!, Character death, mentions of spiraling

WC: 17.5k

a/n: a month long wip! this one is all for you, mom. i broke my heart writing down these memories, but i hope you read this on the other side. + big thank you to @introvertedfangirlpower for the cello facts! really helped me :)

playlist: Message to Myself - Roo Panes

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For you, love began in the unknown.

You say unknown because you don’t remember much of your childhood other than the flashes of residual warmth that came with the memory of your mother. For as long as you can remember, she always felt like that: warm and familiar—like home.

Her presence like the warmth that stays on your coffee mug long after you’ve consumed your drink. Warmth like sitting in front of a fireplace as you watch the last bits of firewood extinguish in the flames.

And your fondest memory perhaps—warm like the hands that cup your face and kiss your forehead every morning before you left for school.

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[myelocin]

Azalea, hyacinth, daisy and roses for you baby🥺🥺🥺 I won't regret being greedy, go all out!🖤

xave!!! nfjdndj slr i was cooking n eating 😗✌️ practicing da wifey skills or mr takahiro 😔🤚

Azalea: Is there something you need to get off your chest? If you feel safe and comfortable telling us, do so.

— Honestly I just wanna go back to the US asap so I can start my life 🥺✌️ kinda tired of being at home and feeling stuck both literally and figuratively ncjdnd watching everyone’s life progress while i’m here w a weird sleep schedule has been feeling p heavy

Rose: Tell us about a piece of art (in any sense) that you love and why?

— It’s the one you did of my mom 🥺 I don’t have photos of her during that time and considering how much of a goldfish my memory is at this age,, I’m glad in the future I’ll have something to look back on and remember that moment w her and feel like it wasn’t just a figment of my mind. Aaaaaa ilysm 🥺🥺🥺

Hyacinth: What’s the most unusual thing you do in your spare time?

— I straighten one side of my hair and curl the other as tightly as i can LMAOOOOO idk why 😔🤚 but i do that at least once every couple weeks

I answered daisy here! :D

[myelocin]

BABY IM SO SORRY FOR DISTURBING YOUR SAD HOUR FOR CRADDLE🥺🥺🥺 I love you and I'm looking forward to be on the floor crying because of your beautiful writing😩 cradle will be the death of me and I'm not complaining:')) please take your sweet time & take care sissyy🖤🖤

JCJDNJDNSJSJSSN NO I LOVED SEEING MUSTARD SUNA PLUS THE CHIBI TWINS IT MADE ME WANNA SCREECH INTO MY PILLOW CKSNDNSN

I cant wait to finish cradle n share it w you guys ;w; so thank u for the kind words (　-̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥᷄◞ω◟-̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥᷅ )

u take care too!!! make sure ur hydrating and staying well rested or im gonna have 2 fite u ᕙﾉ•̀��•́ﾉ୨