#wtf am i doing with my kife
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1. What font do you write in? Do you actually care or is that just the default setting? + 4. What’s a word that makes you go absolutely feral? :)
WEIRD QUESTIONS FOR WRITERS (BECAUSE WRITERS ARE WEIRD)
1 What font do you write in? Do you actually care or is that just the default setting?
Now I know that this is a hot take or an unpopular opinion. But comic sans. Now I see you look at me like "dude wtf" cuz everyone is like boo comic sans BUT! Actual general wwriters write in comic sans because it helps people write faster and people will write better. its proven to help with productivity AND help people to get out of a writing block. Also, as the local dyslexic author, unlike other type faces- each letter of said comic sans font is different and distinct from the others. A lowercase d isn't just a right flipped p. a captial I isnt just an l without its tail.
It helps me work through my fics and is the this hack is the reason why I have produced more content this year at a faster rate [bar that like two months of writing burnout where it was just me falling out of love with newsies] and to me its better.
What’s a word that makes you go absolutely feral?
Love. It can be used in so many different senarios. Love can be out between friends and shown through actual romantic lovers. There can be a love of animals or a favourite food. Characters say I love you to the point it hurts them? People whispering I love you to animals and their pets or just random cows they see when driving? People screaming that they love something because their favourite song comes on the radio
Love is in so many things and places and can either be a word that people paint in gold or a rusted kife plunged into someones back and it makes me so feral when I see the whole concept of being in love being thrown askew.
Hence why I like the idea of the hairtie fic so much. The Idea that kenny loves adam and jay and cole so much that he has to do better than them because the crowd loves him more and then he starts to hurt Adam because of it. Cleaner!Kenny using things that Jay loves like musicals to hurt them because thats what the Cleaner tells him to do. Jay looking Kenny dead in the eye and going "you're not better than Kota. You never will be." Because she knows that Kenny loves Kota more than he will ever love Adam or Cole or even themselves. And Jay has accepted that- soulmates are always destined to be together. Jay knowing that the kenny that they love is still there under the sunglasses and if Jay has to spill blood on a hotel carpet and dig zeir nails into wounds Kenny has stitched closed to drag the Kenny who calls them his "little flour" and falls asleep stroking their hair. Then Jay will damn will do it!
Its also why I love writing Jay so much. Even if it doesnt instantly look like it. Everything they do is driven by love. He steals Adam's alcohol for Danhausen to sell because he loves the cowboy enough that Jay spots the yellowing of his skin when htey cuddle. Jay gets so angry when Cole breaks up their tagteam and carries that resentment until Cole breaks them down slowly because Jay loves him, enough to trust him with hotel rooms and their body and fears and the hurt drives him to hate him because if Jay loves Cole again. Than isnt that hurt going to come back? Fuck he lets Matt do stupid things to his short hair and lets him give zem dented moster cans because Jay knows that there is love in that. There is love in the sharing of energy drinks and boba dates and "I dont think I have ever really had romantic feelings." "Thats okay Matty- Love is different shapes. Your love is just Matt Jackson shaped."
I just think love is neat. Its 7 AM and I MIGHT be slightly emotional. and working on a fic with Jay's reaction and dealing with Regals betrayal.
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i want to kill myself what the fuck. as independent as i think of myself to be im realizing how much i need friends close to me. and i don’t have any at the moment, to which i’m also realizing they maybe never even cared about me. once. i want to kill myself and there’s nobody there to stop me. i don’t even cry that much but here i am on the verge of fucking tears
#i really really dont want to live anymoe#i thought my depression was getting bette rbut now i think its just becoming worse wtf#normally i would add an emoji or an lmao or sspmthing but im too down to do that#and on my fucking bday man i hate birthdays these past ones have been shit#is it my fault tho? what am i doing wrong that im never the first option? what am i doing wrong so that nonone rememberes me?#why do people hate me?#im genunily concered if im doing something wrong#i want to at least move to russia and start a new kife there and fukcing talk to no one cause all people do is hurt me#delete later
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Ugly looking Captor/Gemini nails! Wow the shit I do when I'm bored...
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