#wrote this to my friend to try and ignore the fact i have 75 patch tests on my back and they itch like hell

[enemywasp]

I didn't think I'd care for season 2 of black butler when I started watching it but it did get me thinking about the way the demon/master ships work and how it makes sense for them to lack boundaries or be romantically/sexually charged

Alois is more direct as the anime went for a far more clear route at showing his backstory and trauma. He is clingy and throws himself at people, often seeming to deliberately trying to rile them up or get close with them even tho they are way older, cause that's the only kind of love he ever got in the end.

After his brother died he was without love for ages, until his new "father" took him in who "loved" him, but used him as a sex toy.

So now he sort of clings onto that dynamic, uses his looks, and often makes almost advances at Claude like that's the only way he knows to gain love and approval.

Wheras Ciel is the opposite. He had a loving family for longer than Alois and was not brought into his trauma through any pretence of love. He was caged and sold to the highest bidder. Defiled and laughed at in groups as they wanted to make him impure and the perfect sacrifice for their cult.

So now he avoids touch, he backs away from closeness, and almost every time we see him have breakdowns or flashbacks, he hides away from people's hands. Often only ever leaning on younger people or Sebastian. His saviour.

He has learnt not to trust or let anyone close, but Sebastian is his exception cause he can't hurt him. He hides himself away from affection, and other than the incident with master sullivan, Sebastian is the only one who can push those boundaries to an extent. As Ciel sees him as a lifeline.

It actually makes a lot of sense the way Ciel and Alois cling to their respective butlers. And given those butlers are demons and not bound by human morals, it would be no surprise if they encouraged that dependency.

[lil-melody-moon]

revenge... 1 to 99, added extra question: Why do you love Yuri so much?

1. What is you middle//full name?          My middle name is Ewelina. I know, very original considering that my first name is Karolina

2. How old are you? 18 and still acting like child

3. What is your birthday? 22th of July. Best month of the year X3

4. What is your zodiac sign? Cancer ^^

5. What is your favorite color? Purple! And blue as well… Maybe pink too…

6. What’s your lucky number? 4 and 9

7. Do you have any pets? Yes an 11 years old dog. Though he acts like he would be 5 years old and he’s an ass. But a lovely ass

8. Where are you from? Poland

9. How tall are you? Around 166cm

10. What shoe size are you? In European measures 39 or 40, depends

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? Umn… 4 maybe?

12. What was your last dream about? Ugh, that was a weird one. I have a small crush on one of my classmates. He can be really charming sometimes and my brain apparently thought that it is a good idea to dream about a moment when he actually is kissing me in classroom. Though the strange part was that his behavior was actually Yuuri’s behavior. So a nice combination, but… My classmate isn’t that charming as Yuuri sadly. So dream stays a dream.

13. What talents do you have? Pissing off people around me, get attached to fictional characters to the point that I am caring and am worried about them like for real people, learning languages, liking hard languages, coming up with ideas for one-shots or drawing from thin air, being very grumpy sometimes… And being a no life for the most part of my free time

14. Are you psychic in any way? My intuition is usually right, and the annoying voice in the back of my head too… It is very annoying!

15. Favorite song? Just like mentioned before “Leave Out All The Rest” by Linkin Park

16. Favorite movie? "101 Dalmatians 2: Patch’s London Adventure" and this won’t change

17. Who would be your ideal partner? Considering the fact that I like well… The not so normal people… A grumpy and sometimes funny and with an edgy character boy would be good ^u^

18. Do you want children? If possible then yes, why not?

19. Do you want a church wedding? Nah

20. Are you religious?  Nah

21. Have you ever been to the hospital? Yeah, a few visits in there because of my family… I hate hospitals

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? Nope, I am an angel fake smile, *hides the huge smirk crawling up my innocent face*

23. Have you ever met any celebrities? Nope

24. Baths or showers? Showers definitely.

25. What color socks are you wearing? Fluffy blue ones. My grandma bought them for me ;u;

26. Have you ever been famous? Right now in my high school class. I am famous for the person with sharp tongue. Really, I can be such an asshole to some people…

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? Nope, I want to stay as I am. On the side, doing my own stuff without a care for the outside world.

28. What type of music do you like? Heavy metal, Neue Deutsche Härte, Nu metal, Orchiestral music, Japanese music, games soundtracks

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? No

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? One fluffy one. I love fluffy things X3

31. What position do you usually sleep in? On the right side, curled into a ball

32. How big is your house? Little flat with kitchen, bathroom and two rooms

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? Eggs! I love eggs :3

34. Have you ever fired a gun? No

35. Have you ever tried archery? No, but it seems to be a lot of fun

36. Favorite clean word? Comfy

37. Favorite swear word? Fuck, but I like to use my native language meaning for this word. It sounds better

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? You do not want to be near me without something to defend yourself if I don’t sleep more than 3 hours

39. Do you have any scars? Nope

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? No, I am not that beautiful… And probably my charisma is way too original for normal people

41. Are you a good liar? Yes, a very good one!

42. Are you a good judge of character? Yes, I am usually observing someone for a long time before I am showing my true self. I don’t trust anyone, besides my friends.

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? Yes, English and a bit of German

44. Do you have a strong accent? Let’s be honest, Polish doesn’t have a very strong accent. If it comes to English than yes, I do have strong one. And about German accent… Still working on it :3

45. What is your favorite accent? Without a doubt, German

46. What is your personality type? Dunno, didn’t do that test

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? I don’t know

48. Can you curl your tongue? Yeah

49. Are you an innie or an outie? Innie

50. Left or right handed? Right handed

51. Are you scared of spiders? No that much. Just little thingies walking on their small 8 legs ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

52. Favorite food? *scratches my head*  Chicken soup with self made noodles

53. Favorite foreign food? Pizza or Spaghetti

54. Are you a clean or messy person? Clean, I hate mess

55. Most used phrased? Dunno

56. Most used word? Just

57. How long does it take for you to get ready? In the morning before school? An hour

58. Do you have much of an ego? Sometimes *sweats*

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? Suck

60. Do you talk to yourself?  A lot. And then my mom thinks that I am talking to her

61. Do you sing to yourself? Yes, it helps to concentrate on things

62. Are you a good singer? Dunno, ask my dog Dog: Woof!

63. Biggest Fear? Being left alone

64. Are you a gossip? No

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? I am not watching movies, though I came up with very dramatic au for my oc x canon character. Not gonna tell because smart me is too shy

66. Do you like long or short hair? Long or middle. They are fun to draw

67. Can you name all 50 states of America? No. I have problems with Polish map and you want me to know states of America?

68. Favorite school subject? German all the way!

69. Extrovert or Introvert? Introvert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving? Yes, once or twice

71. What makes you nervous? Talking out loud in front of people who I don’t know. Getting involved into situation where a lot of people needs to get their voice about something

72. Are you scared of the dark? No, dark is nice and calm.

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? Yes because I just have the urge to do so

74. Are you ticklish? *hides my legs*  Not at all ^^

75. Have you ever started a rumor? I am not that kind of asshole

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? I think not

77. Have you ever drank underage? I hate alcohol so nope

78. Have you ever done drugs? Look at the answer above

79. Who was your first real crush? Fuck real crushes, let’s go to fictional characters. This asshole *points at Bakura*

80. How many piercings do you have? Only on ears but I am not wearing any earrings

81. Can you roll your Rs?“ No

82. How fast can you type? Fast

83. How fast can you run? Not so fast

84. What color is your hair? Brown

85. What color is your eyes? Hazel. From light blue to light green or green, to gray blue.

86. What are you allergic to? To people who have tendency to piss me off

87. Do you keep a journal? No, but if we are counting the many one-shots I wrote to keep my ideas in one place then yes

88. What do your parents do? They are old, they are relaxing

89. Do you like your age? Kinda. I would rather be older though. Be after collage and such, have work already and have my own flat

90. What makes you angry? Oh God… People who thinks they are better for whatever reason, people who thinks that it is bad to have something original in yourself, people who wants to outsmart you just because they want to dump their shit on you, people who gossips behind your back, people who… *a few hours later*  And finally people who are just sexists.

91. Do you like your own name? Yes, I do. Long names are cute

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? Fuck, Dalia do not laugh, don’t you even dare… I like the name Jörgen and if my plans go as planned then maybe I will have the opportunity to give it to my child. Maybe… Ah, dreams…

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? Neither will be good

94. What are you strengths? Hiding my true self before others, being able to cut myself off from society for most of the time, being creative

95. What are your weaknesses? Choosing favorite characters - they are dying or are suffering or are treated badly by the writers and fandom, plushies, heavy metal music - especially Rammstein and Metallica

96. How did you get your name? My mom overheard name “Karolina” on one of the parties when she was younger and she liked it so she thought of giving me that name

97. Were your ancestors royalty? From Polish side yes, but only from my dad’s side and from German side? Ich weiß es nicht ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

98. Color of your room? Purple and green. And I want it to stay like that

99. Color of your bedspread? Purple and blue for now

Your extra question: Why do you love Yuri so much?Oh… Oh God *blushes* Well…It is not only because @amiiera pulled me back into Arc V and made me make oc for Yuuri, but… He’s not only handsome and cute and adorable. His voice is perfect, like a melody for me, his behavior is charming as well and his smirks really can make me fell really weak and squeak more than I was squeaking while seeing Vector, but the thing is, I can relate to him very much. The thing about being alone, without family, without friends. I went through hell in Primary school. I was without anyone who could shake me and woke me up from this nightmare. @true-lab were - and I really hope so that they still are - my only friend at that time, but even though, I still felt alone. Now to the parents stuff… When I was younger my dad drank a lot and I don’t have very happy memories from that time. I was always closing myself in fictional world, trying to not listen to my dad or ignore him completely so yeah, childhood almost without parents is checked as well.Now to other point why I like him so much. The way writers treat him and the way fandom treats him is just awful. Not only Arc V writers are really bad, but fandom doesn’t see that abusive relationships are bad and they are - in my opinion - shipping Yuuri with the worst characters they can. And I kinda want to protect him from everything. I just… Want to make him happy even if I had to make whole new au for him and my oc. I just want to see him happy for once. He deserves it, and I don’t care what other people thinks about him.