#wrong-ntentions

[ultimategeekboy]

hey, umm… this might be a little to forward but… ur really hot. can I maybe get ur digits?

Says the actual hot one here! Unfortunately.. I lost my phone and can't really call or text sorry 😔

[moving-mountains5]

Tagged by @moments-in-0blivion , thank you! 🖤

Last song: avec moi - Chibi Ichigo

Favorite color: blue or green

Last movie/show: nyad

Next on my watchlist: past lives, i´m on my oscar strak

Last book: never let me go by kazuo ishiguro

Last game: pokemon go. Lol

Sweet/savory/spicy: Spicy and no i can´t handle it

Relationship status: 😬

Last thing I searched online: album of the year

Current obsession: nothing :(

Greatest flaw: being born

Fic i'm currently reading: naah not into that. I read the architects drama tho does that count

I tag: @goddessofthebees @emmelyy @wrong-ntentions @trustyoureyes @boosdoener

[orphic-feelings]

Top 5 blogs?

@my-sxe-world @biergarten-eden @wrong-ntentions @friiendly @handinhandmitdiir 🤘🏻😊

[howtomovefreely]

Find ways to GET the dialogue out 

Why is the tech on the mobile so “hurtful” : the pushing of buttons, the glare & the light, the reading of fine print, the having to shuffle between screens, so once out-of-sight, I have no idea what was happening & this revulsion to charge it.  My mind forgetting to do that & related to a feeling that “life is too hard” so one more mistake that creates stress & it’s over.  Like having to put any device on the floor in front of you at any restroom since wasn’t feeling what was in my hand so “forgot” if the item was in my hand.  Not unless I visually stare at it, out-of-sight, out-of-mind, so again, very different & why you start noting.  You learn from mistakes & you develop effective systems. 

Signs of someone who can’t do that is showing their anxiety in ways that reveal true priority & well, we’ll get there.  Methods of ways of thinking that aren’t that “unusual” but are also multi-layered, the importance is that there is 100% self-awareness so acting like a doofus, or blonde bimbo is the question & it’s definitely not real.  Behind-the-scenes & why I’m happy for these ptsd memories, no seriously, since I can get them out, 1, 2, 3, having done this with all that TEACHER stuff from 2013 & 2015.  That is going to be the best there will ever be, the ability to talk about it, frankly, is what a survivor/victim really needs

THESE DIALECTIC CONVERSATIONS requires their own notebook

Practice understanding HOW text messages works to have less FEAR over WHO is in your phone

There are uncontrollable situations & the screen gives me a headache . Easier to avoid, but that is also the way understood confusion to EXIST & linger over it . meaning acute headache on L temple 7/10 (pain) meaning can embrace & keep moving or stop & lost 2 hours.  There is no distinction between which is worse : emotional or physical pain | Equally bad | have wanted to die from both in the moment so let’s move forward & focus on fixing this for real

the reflection | The PHYSICAL PAIN IS 100% MORE TOLERABLE : this is written after neck has begun to move (& crack) up & down/side-to-side & rotating so able to “whip” my neck, a move I’ve not done in years (think: hair flip)!

I know physically things are different  & I just let thoughts POP UP to distract from the physical pain so here is the writing from BEFORE : the reflection done & this post is FINALIZED. 

ask the right questions 

label ideas not people

never accept behavior that is disrespectful : yup, there is when the hands were put on me so at the same time, “you choose your battles...” um, no, you recognize the person wasn’t “the good” person they pretended to be

respect is 100% related to everything & this is why people are capable of lying to each other.  They can turn it on & off & in reality, it’s something that is earned through action, reliability & trust

deepest folds of MELODY : Scotland & unicorns keep calling me. Not safe to get around the world is a sick state to be.  Travel is one of those life’s luxuries & necessities 

who gets to eat & who doesn’t?  Hunger can make you do “crazy” things but isn’t that the point of being civilized?  To identify what makes us barbaric (hate, indifference, in need...like on the edge of death) to the point of SURVIVAL?

An old pic I came across, not sure why I have it, but there must have been a thought.  Clearing space since tech (laptop) is telling me, “um, hello, you’ve reached maximum capacity!!!”  Letting it go, 1, 2, 3.  Highlight then command + delete . That’s sequencing.  That’s a lil memory.  That’s the only way to make more capacity. 

These anxieties NEVER existed before reveal HOW FEAR WORKS since there doesn't have to be a real threat or imminent danger for there to be FEAR : oh great!  Fear from not being able to do the work.  They can read & write so just help them since the class is so much ahead which isn’t the child with special needs’ fault.  Said a specific situation in a school setting & the world didn’t implode...yes, it’s very clear who will understand what this feels like & it’s the individuals who are the last to want to talk about it since that was me -- never -- this was going to my grave until it kept happening.  It is still happening so if this is the way to end it all forever than I hope I’m right & if I’m wrong, then I guess it’s back to figuring out what is going to help but I’m pretty sure I’m right since ED IT-- “ED”ucate “I”ntentional “T”riggers-- meaning we’re going to write all wrongs.  Make the worst, discrimination against kids with special needs into the best, reminding people it’s how you treat your most needy in society that defines who you are so I’d like to give everyone another chance to do the right thing & make sure everything is done so THIS NEVER HAPPENS AGAIN.  I want to try really hard since I’m convinced the modification & elevation of anyone with difference just makes your classroom better.

It’s a voice

It’s a memory

It’s a pattern

It’s an act

It’s a choice 

FACE fear & TALK BACK to stop it from escalating 

USE the right words

I talked back to all those who put their hands on me & repeated the question of “Why is their safety not important?” and “Why are you pretending you know what you’re doing?” so many times I am sick of my own voice

and why?!  This is survival & your body / mind will tell you everything you need to know : stay away from people like this but if you can’t do that LEARN FROM THIS 

“I don’t not know” or “I do not understand” is NOT AN ACCEPTABLE ANSWER.  It allows them to decide “disability” was the reason for “not wanting to take care of” and what about your participation in the behavior you EXHIBITED : do I have to list it?

SERIOUSLY, I DO NOT ACCEPT THIS ANYMORE because as I tell more & more, my body gives in & out & that is what heals so that is what I’m going to do.  I have no idea what the law is, the only thing that is helping is sharing what happened

HARMS ARE TOO REAL not to embrace truth & like I said, I’ve lived my life & this is the drama I’m sucked into since I will forever be managing my physical pain & I accept it so let’s TALK ABOUT IT

[oadara]

I'm a DIE-HARD Jon fan and while I prefer Jon over Dany (I ship Jonerys btw), I acknowledge any wrongs he's done (which you listed), I still think he's a pure cinnamon roll, but I do get what you mean. I can't fully speak for those antis messaging you, but I think what those antis are meaning to say is that people should be able to defend Dany without talking about Jon's mistakes... because dismantling Jon doesn't build Dany up or justify what she's done (which I don't think is even "bad" btw)

Hello,

Finally, a rational person, thank you for messaging me. As I had mention (and I agree with you), compared to most of the characters in the series, Jon Snow is pretty vanilla (in the color scheme of things). 

I do get what you are saying and I agree, The defensiveness many Dany fans feel it’s from constantly having your favorite character attacked when similar actions by other characters aren’t question so vociferously. 

I’m going to give a general examples to illustrate the double standard that is ramped in the fandom (discussion board and blogging fandom) and why we bring up Jon or anybody else when discussing issues Dany is demonized for. 

Wildlings vs. Dothraki

Now these two cultures have clearly been setup as parallels from each other. Everything we here about the Wildlings from crossing the wall to kidnap and rape Northern women, to their pillaging of Northern villages and attacks on the Wall, it’s all there in the books. And before the series, there is no thread of the Others, however, I still don’t agree with placing a Wall to separate them from the rest of Westeros. However, that still doesn’t justify, the kidnapping, the raping, and the pillaging. 

With good reason, Jon wants to bring them across the Wall, not only are there innocent people among them, having them become part of the Other’s army will just make everything worse. Fans now believe that because they follow Jon they’ll refrain from the raping, kidnapping and pillaging. Cool.

Now, on the other hand you have the Dothraki, another group of rapers, kidnappers and pillagers. When Drogo died and Dany came about her new khalasar the Dothraki that where with her, where not allowed to rape, or kidnap or pillage. Dany well within her rights (withing the culture of the Planetos) wants to recoup her families crown and become the Queen of Westeros. So she assembles her army which include Dothraki. 

All we hear from those who don’t like Dany is how she’s bringing a bunch of raping savages to Westeros to destroy. How she’s not bringing any women with the Dothraki so they’re going to feel the need to rape Westorosi women (I seriously got an ask about this). Never mind, that while Dany had her group of Dothraki, they obeyed her laws. She’s proven that she can keep them in line. 

Now, I can make that argument without ever bringing up the Wildling, I can quote you how when the taking of Meereen happen those who raped were castrated and I’ve tried making that argument. However, even with canon proof from the books, people still insist that Dany is just going to let the Dothraki loose to create mayhem on the good people of Westeros. And how do you argue with people who dismiss book canon. 

So you see why I bring up Jon, so that I can juxtapose what he’s doing with what Dany is doing. And how it’s not that very different. Because while Jon understands the existential thread to the world, Dany doesn’t have that knowledge. And if she did she would act quite differently given her past behavior. 

Of course this entire topic is mute when we know that this large army Dany has amassed is really going to be integral to the fight against the Others and if she had not amassed it, well, everyone would be fucked. But even this argument is dismissed because her intentions when coming to Westeros aren’t pure. I’m sure you can understand my frustration and that of others. 

This is just one example of many. 

By the way, I was being a bit facetious about Jon. But noting his shortcoming is not bringing him down, like I said, that makes him interesting to me and I’m really looking forward to TWOW Jon who I expect will be much darker. 

Thanks for the ask!

[ultimategeekboy]

64, 72, 84

64. Favorite dipping sauce? hmmm probably BBQ sauce or mayonnaise.

72. Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? Dunkin Fonuts for sure! I'm not a big Starbucks guy.

84. Chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? chocolate.

[moving-mountains5]

5 favourite mutuals

I have lots more, but here are the 5 first that come to mind! @moments-in-0blivion

@emmelyy

@wrong-ntentions

@defeateddaylily

@goddessofthebees

[ultimategeekboy]

11. what’s your ideal date?

21. if you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be?

25. what’s the best personal gift someone could give you (playlist, homemade card, etc.)

11. What is your ideal date?

I like a relaxed stay at home date where I cook dinner for someone and watch or play something afterwards. I also love going places where they have cheap but amazing food! Who the fuck wants to pay $90 to $100 for 3 small items on a plate! 😂

21. If you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be?

"You'll survive don't worry!"

25. What's the best personal gift someone could give you (playlist, homemade card, etc)

I'm not really picky, I'll love it if it made you think of me!

[ultimategeekboy]

thanks for being the best Valentine, I love you 🥰

Of course, I had a good time! 🥺

[ultimategeekboy]

Urgh!

[ultimategeekboy]

34 😊

I actually had a dream earlier that I owned a talking shoulder monkey who was being a smartass to me 😅😂

[ultimategeekboy]

3 🤪

3: Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for.

There is this one person that comes to mind. There was this girl that I was into who was way out of my league but I just instantly clicked with. Like our energy and vibes just matched perfectly ya know, it just felt right.. it didn't take long for me to absolutely fall for her.. but, little did I know that she was already into someone else at the time, a normal person would've probably moved on but I couldn't, I was too infatuated with her and just couldn't let it go. To make a very long, messy story short. They had a falling out (probably cus of me) and I saw that as a chance to shoot my shot and turned out that sticking around fighting for her was the best choice I ever made.

[ultimategeekboy]

Pass the happy! 💌 When you get this, reply with 5 things that make you happy and send this to 10 more people! Get sending. 💖💐✨

1. Obviously @wrong-ntentions

2. My cat Luna

3. Video games

4. Comics

5. Good food

[ultimategeekboy]

happy birthday hot stuff, I love you 😘

Thanks!! 🤍

[ultimategeekboy]

💖: i have a romantic crush on you!

💜: i want to make sure you’re happy

💛: i just think you’re cute!

💘: i wouldnt say no to a platonic marriage

💗: i want to give you a hug! for like a million hours

💋: i want to kiss you!

💪: id fight someone if they talked shit about you 😤

🔊: im really glad i started following you! (ur welcome)

💬: we should talk more! (how r u not sick of me??)

💭: i think about you a lot .. like too much bro

👏: everything you say is great wtf…

🎧: you have excellent music taste! & ur such a great singer 😉

👑: your blog aesthetic is lovely! duh that’s why I followed !!!

[ultimategeekboy]

I love you. 🖤