#would probably be aged up Wilmon

[lovelierbitsoflife]

Went through a whirlwind romance that ended in a semi-tragic unresolved event that could possibly turn into a real life sequel or at a very least an interesting time skip. Wondering if I should do the classic writer move and create a fanfic based on my own personal tragedy just so I can process what I went through

[skibasyndrome]

Wilmon + "please I need you inside me"

cw: this is... definitely nsfw, a lil bit angsty... messy exes reunited at a party?

ALSO: the word count on this bad boy got... completely out of hand (EDIT: that's why this is also available on ao3 now)

"Please, I need you inside me." Simon's whispered confession hits Wille like a freight train. It's not what he expected him to say, not after everything, not after all this time, not after what he said last time. Not as his first full sentence towards Wille, after an awkward "hey" in front of Felice and Sara who are the only reason they even came to Maddie's party in the first place. Not after asking if Wille "has a minute" one and a half hours later.

It's all wrong and Wille is confused, so fucking confused and a little bit too tipsy to really connect the dots (have there been hints all evening? have there been signs he misread?). Instead of asking any of the millions of questions floating around his mind (Why do you want me now? Did you change your mind? What happened to the new guy? Why here?) he just stutters, unsure what to say, unsure what to do about the goosebumps mottling the skin of his neck, even moments after Simon has already pulled away again. "Simon, I don't..." (Why didn't you text? Why didn't you call?) Simon's expression twists painfully and Wille knows, oh god he knows what this sounds like and he needs to fix this. "I...," and the words still don't make their way out, so he reaches out, fingers grazing the inside of Simon's wrist, so soft and so smooth and so reminiscent of the times this was what they did. (Why did you push me away when this is what you want?) "We can't," Wille tries instead, desperate, breathless, feels his chest contract angrily, feels his resolve crumble with every passing second that he's skin to skin with Simon. Fingertips on the wrist are enough to set his skin on fire. Enough to bring him back to two years ago. (Why didn't you want me to fight harder?) "Is it because you don't want to?" Simon asks, voice gentle and careful and so painfully small - Wille hates when Simon feels like he needs to make his voice smaller - that the pang goes right to Wille's heart. (Why would you ever think I don't want you?) He shakes his head fervently, like he can shake off the hurt and the confusion and the incessantly rising heat of want that crawls up the inside of his throat. "No. God, no," he tries, feels and hears his voice break on the first no. (Did I not prove to you that you're all I ever want?) Simon's eyes meet his again, finally. Glistening even in the dim light of this hallway, and Wille wishes he could read him better, wishes there weren't two years of distance lodged in between them. Simon moves his arm and just as Wille is about to gasp at the prospect of losing him again he feels Simon's grip on his upper arm instead, firm and warm even through the thin fabric of his shirt. The breath gets stuck somewhere deep inside of Wille's rib cage. He doesn't dare make a single move while Simon tugs on his arm, places it around himself, takes another step towards Simon. (Why did I ever let you go?) The look in Simon's eyes is dangerous, is gnawing away at every bit of distance, at every wall that Wille has desperately tried to build up over these past years. Simon squeezes Wille's bicep, signaling him he can touch him back and- Fuck. And Wille does. Wille's hand still perfectly fits on top of Simon's hipbone. "If you still in any way want me..." (What the fuck did I do to make you think there'd ever be an 'if'?) "if this is still," and Simon is standing so close to him now that Wille thinks he must be feeling him. Must be feeling that Wille, despite himself and all that work he put into getting over Simon, very much fucking wants him. Now, always, probably for fucking ever. "If this is something you might want..." Simon presses against him now, hips against hips, and Wille wants to moan and cry and wrap him tightly in his arms because he can feel Simon again, too, here, close. Simon leans forward, lips moving towards Wille's ear. "Let me have this, Wille. If you still want this, let me have you."

Wille's moan is barely stifled when he feels the subtle movement of Simon against him, of Simon pressing into him, onto him, of Simon searching for contact and friction and more of Wille. "Not here," Wille tries, but he's already losing the battle and grinding his erection against Simon's, that quietly flickering flame he never quite managed to put out now stoked into a raging fire. "We don't have- and we're just-" And while he stammers away, while he digs his fingertips into Simon's side and relishes in the heady feeling of having him here again, he feels Simon slip something into his palm, a small bottle, familiar enough to make Wille's mind spin. (How did you-?) "I knew you'd be here," Simon confesses, unprompted. "I knew I'd see you." His lips leave burns in their wake as they brush down the side of Wille's jaw. Wille barely has control over his own hands, just barely registers that must be pulling Simon closer. And it seems like this breaks a dam inside of Simon. "Been thinking about you," he gasps out and Wille can feel his hands under his shirt now, digging nails into Wille's skin that remembers. "Been missing you," Simon admits, much more quietly, but before Wille has any chance - But why did you-? - Simon pushes on. "Missed feeling you... missed having you like this." And god, god, Wille is a broken man. He's never had a sense for when to stop, when to turn away from Simon before things become detrimental, and he's not about to now start acting like he has any control over his feelings towards this man. This man that ruined Wille for everyone forever. So of course Wille finds himself perched behind Simon in one of the seemingly countless storage rooms in Maddie's house, of course he's got Simon holding on to a shelf in front of him, with his pants bunched up around his knees, and of course he's back to opening Simon up for him, nice and slow and grabbing one of his ass cheeks, holding him open for a better view while he does it, because simply feeling him is not enough right now. Of course Simon is back to letting out those sounds that Wille has never stood a chance against, quiet hiccup-y moans that he draws out for a moment longer whenever Wille pulls out and gently eases his fingers back in, teasing. Simon feels just like Wille remembers, he moves just like Wille remembers, he lets out that same broken sound when Wille drops to his knees and asks if he can, please, if Simon is okay with it. He arches his back and pushes back against Wille's mouth, moans at every flick of his tongue, just like he's always done. The filthy string of profanities and desperate pleas falling from his mouth is just as enticing and encouraging as it's always been. The way Wille needs to hold Simon's hips in place, thumbs on his ass cheeks to help hold him open, the way Simon tastes, the way he grinds back and lets Wille fuck his tongue into him... It all hasn't changed one bit. Wille feels delirious, feels like he's stuck in one of those dreams that kept haunting him for weeks, months, after. He feels like he could risk waking up to his empty bed again if he pulls away to catch his breath. It still feels like a dream when he lines himself up with Simon's back, when he presses closer, not pushing in, just feeling the heat of Simon's body through his shirt, just relishing in the slick, hot tightness of being between Simon's thighs. It's so much, so fucking much that Wille needs a moment, that he needs to prepare for what he's sure will ruin him, that he needs to wait before entering him again.

"Are you okay?" Simon asks, breathing heavily and grinding back desperately, and it's almost like it used to be, almost as sweet and caring and devastatingly gentle as they used to be. Almost, because there's an edge of fear, of worry, of uncertainty. Wille nods, pressing his forehead against the soft wispy hairs at the back of Simon's neck. He's so okay. He's so much more than okay, feels so much better than he has months and that alone is absolutely fucking breaking him apart. "So okay," Wille gasps out, pulling back slightly to line himself up. He ignores the slight tremor in his hands, that anticipatory shiver of pleasure that courses through him. "So fucking okay," he moans when he slowly pushes in, sinks against Simon, slips back into that old, familiar, breathtaking sensation of connection and closeness, of soft, warm bliss. And Simon does it, too, moans, throws his head back, angles himself so that Wille can slide home, can claim this feeling for the two of them, finally again. Simon's affirmative hum travels through Wille's chest like the heavy bass on the dance floor did earlier, Simon's sweetly assertive command for "more, Wille" pierces him like a knife. But he can, he absolutely wants to give Simon more. He pulls back slightly, only to thrust into him again, giving more and deeper and harder, making Simon's breathing stutter, making the shelf that's bearing more of less all the force groan under the impact. Every bit of desperation, every yearning thought Wille has tried to neatly file away breaks lose in him, every single time he dreamt of this imagined just one more chance at this hits him at once. By the time he pulls back, words of warning on his lips, mumbled apologies for being so gone so quickly, for not making this last any longer falling into the sweat-heavy air around them, his eyes are burning, his throat closing up. It can't be over already, not again, not now, not ever. Simon's arm shoots behind him, grabbing onto Wille's ass, pulling him closer again, urging him back inside to the hilt. Wille's hips stutter and he gasps out another pleading warning, sure that he's going to fall any minute now, but Simon only digs his blunt fingernails into Wille's skin. "Stay," Simon presses out, so quietly that Wille barely hears it. But it's enough to make Wille press his eyes shut, go rigid against Simon's back. "Inside me, please," he adds, words so drawn out and voice so breathy that Wille can't help but moan in response. Simon needs him, is all Wille can think of when Simon grinds back against him, Simon needs to feel him again, he thinks, as he listens to Simon's staccato breaths and the sound of his slickened hand jerking himself off. It's all the way it used to be, it's like he was never gone, it's like they picked up where they left off, like it's them, together, against all odds again. It takes no more than a couple thrusts before Wille is coming, gasping into the sweaty hair in the back of Simon's neck, pressing closer, wrapping his arms tightly around Simon's chest and stomach, like that will keep him from ever leaving again. Wille is still panting, still shaking, when he feels Simon's come hit his arm, feels Simon go pliant in his arms. He doesn't ask why now, why after all this time, when Simon, hands still holding Wille against him, like he, too, is scared Wille will leave, pants out a quiet "thank you". Wille doesn't ask what this means, either. Doesn't ask what Simon now thinks of him, what Simon now wants to do. He doesn't, can't, get out a single question while he holds onto Simon and Simon holds onto him.

OOOF. I......... I guess that was the vibe when I sat down to write this today. Thank you so so much for sending in that prompt, dear anon! I hope you enjoyed it! 💜💜💜

Send me "Wilmon" + a sentence and I will write you 2k apparently another 5(+) sentences

[colleybri]

First Lines game

Rules: List the first lines of the last ten (10) stories you published. Look to see any patterns you notice youself and see if anyone else notices any. Then tag some friends. 

Thanks for the tag @faceofpoe! And just like you, I definitely agonise more over ending lines than opening ones. Nonetheless...

(All fics are Andor and Rogue One. Shamelessly.)

Truths and Consequences Can we go to your place?” Cassian asked, flatly. 

He's asking Brasso. This is one of those ‘try for a wham line opening and return to it later’ type-things. I do love my time jumps. It’s a Brassian tale and a WIP. 

Warming Up “Well, fuck this,” Jyn exclaimed matter-of-factly as she swept in out of the blizzard into the warmth of the shelter. 

Relatively uncomplicated and fluffy Rebelcaptain. Jyn generally 'swears like a trooper' in my headcanon and I would love to see a Rogue One edit where she’s swearing at the Troopers as she’s thwacking them. (Probably a lot to do with wanting to hear Felicity Jones swear.) 

Marking Time “I couldn’t sleep. Can I get in the bed with you?”

I’m noticing I’m quite fond of opening with a line of dialogue. This one is little girl Bix with her parents. It comes full circle in this Tear-Jerker ™ gen fic about the grieving process.

The Only Connection that Matters “Clem”. The complete unknown. Not only had Luthen managed to humiliate Vel by making her take on this mercenary (how terrifying, really, that his only commitment was to the money…), but he had also turned out to be really dislikeable. 

I'm cheating here with this angsty Velcinta fic - really just to show that the opening ‘sentence’ was not, in fact, a line of dialogue this time. 

Together, On This Beach I would have loved to cook for you, on a beach like this.

A relatively rare excursion to first person narrative for this shamelessly sentimental slice of sad Rebelcaptain. 

Rix Road (Andor S1 in never more than 12 drabbles) You are watching me as I work. 

Having said that, here’s another one!… but this is the last in my series of ‘Andor retold in drabbles’ so they’re all first person. This is Wilmon Paak building his bomb in the finale. Forgive me, but as it’s a series I’m going cheat too and go to the next ‘proper’ fic (I’m also ignoring poems)...

Salvage Operation I will find you. 

This is my ‘what happens next to the Ferrix crew’ fic with a particular focus on Bix, trying to start to heal herself by attempting to repair B2EMO. Probably the most (deliberately) disjointed thing I've written. Opening is one of my ‘multiple meanings and references!’ lines. I'm apparently a sucker for those.

Slipping The hospice we use as a safe house is a grim place, many levels down, and Andor’s been there too long already. 

My Luthen/Cassian series is all first person Luthen (so far) so I’m already reconsidering my comment above about it being rare for me. What with this and the drabbles… ok, yeah. 

Vision Jyn reaches over to their little container of wild towberries, grunting a little with the effort for she is not as flexible as she used to be. 

Another gentle Rebelcaptain (it seems to be my go-to ship for Being Nice To Cassian - as well as for killing him, obvs!) and one of my favourites as it deals with ageing - one of my pet themes. I think one of the tags is 'older people like sex too'.

Warm and Wet His full, beautiful smile returns, finally, when she moans at his touch.

Quite astonished really that I have to go this far back to find a Bixcassian story as it’s probably my favourite ship (and canonical - wheee!). I guess I should get back to this ‘early years Cassian is so very fucked-up, really’ series which does actually include a fair bit of recreational-writing smut alongside the all the inevitable idiots-in-love angst. 

My main conclusion is that I really should try and write something totally linear for once. Must be my failing attention span.

No pressure tagging: @laneboyheathens @distressednoise @ and @notasapleasure and anyone who would like to play.

[gulliblelemon]

do you have any ideas about alternate universes for the wilmon in Where We Left Off, if they'd confessed their love for each other earlier? or do you think the story you shared with us is the only way it could've gone for them? 💓

What a good question! I don’t know. Part of me wants to say “there could be infinite versions of them! Where anything could have happened!” And another part that wants to say “that’s the only way it ever could have gone. That’s their story!”

The answer is probably somewhere in between. But I think the version I went with couldn’t confess their love much earlier. Wille wasn’t ready.

But I suppose it depends when the timeline split. Because I posted a snippet earlier from when I was playing with the plot: if after their first meeting, they’d met up regularly and casually and Wille remained Crown Prince and they just had a… different dynamic.

Once I’d decided that they would meet less often and more intensely, I think there was only really one way it could go.

Maybe it could have gone differently right at the end, in the last chapter when Wille says he’s leaving. I think that could have been a point where if they’d had their shit together it could have gone better.

Simon didn’t even realise until chapter 6, and maybe he could have confessed then. But I think it would have ended in disaster. Because Wille wasn’t ready.

And Wille had known for ages, but I think a confession would have scared Simon off because he wasn’t there yet.

But maybe Wille confessed the second or third time they met, like the dramatic love-struck teenager he was. And maybe Simon would have been just naïve enough to think ‘what if’ and go for it. (But Simon wasn’t in a great place at that point, so wouldn’t have been a very solid foundation for a relationship).

So I’ve said a lot and not really answered your question. But it’s been really fun to think about!

Thanks for the ask! (Let me know if I’ve made absolutely no sense and you have follow up questions 😅 I love talking about this!)

[young-royals-confessions]

Hi, I have been really into young royals for a while now and so I have read quite a lot of Wilmon fanfics!

But in my previous fandom (wolfstar) there were several fic rec accounts that would compile rec lists for particular tropes (such as charecter A pining, or established relationship fluff) usually in response to an ask, and then would have a masterpost, compiling all the differnt tropes they made rec lists for in alphabetical order so you could search to see if they made a rec list for the trope you are in the mode for (examples of these accounts are wolfstarlibrarian and wolfstarhaven) and I don't think an account exists like this for Wilmon yet! Do you know of any accounts like this for Wilmon?

If not I might try and start my own, as I find they are a very useful tool in fandoms (bc often fics with very specific or charecter specific tropes won't be tagged under that trope on ao3)

If I were to do this I would probably copy wolfstarwarehouse's format for fic recs (bc I am bad at compiling lists.) Basically this format is just posting individual fics with a link and the summary and the word count and ao3 rating and tagging it with specific tropes.

There would be one for the fic length range (like under 5k, 5-10k etc), a royal/ non royal tag, a non canon/canon complient tag, mabey an charecter age tag (teen/ adult), (a tag for ao3 rating???) and mabey a tag with the charecters POV it's written from (not sure if this one would be helpful or not)

But most importantly there would be tags for different tropes, such as Simon: jealous, or Wille: oblivious, or Simon: famous

And a tag for their relationship status at the start of the story, so like relationship: friends, relationship: established, relationship: ex's, relationship: roomates, relationship: enemies

And a tag for mood so: fluff, crack, (light) angst, angst with a happy ending, fluff and smut, hurt/ comfort

The orignal creator of this also has theme tags (eg: theme:drinking, theme: grief, theme: clasism) and I would try to do this but idk if it's easy or not

I'm not sure how many tags would be useful to have as idk how many you can filter with at one time.

(I used to always just search up the length and 1 specific charecter trope I wanted to read and scan the other tags when scrolling.) But I think I am getting slightly ahead of myself bc I would first need to ask the fic compliler from my old fandom if i could copy there concept (which they could very understandably not want) and I dont even know if there is a market for this yet 😅 (that's what this ask if for)

Ideally i could also receive asks with fic recs and people would say the key tropes, mood and relationship status, so there are more fics for ppl to sort through, but I could also do it with just fics I've read

Anyways I'll problaby just use this to see if anyone is intrested

PS: sorry for the massive overuse of bracets in this ask (I know I have a problem, I just can't stop myself), and the length (can you tell my ADHD meds have worn off?)

Check out @impossibleknots fic spreadsheet and rec lists. Not sure if it's exactly what you're imagining, but definitely a great resource!

[bigalockwood]

20 Questions For Fic Writers

Thanks @sunshine-rudberg for tagging me <3333

How many works do you have on Ao3?

7!

What's your total Ao3 word count?

175,665

What fandoms do you write for?

Young Royals. I used to write for other fandoms ages ago, but have no interest to write for any others right now.

Top five fics by kudos

(The results to this are kinda skewed, because I started posting my stories for users only after Royally Whipped, which drastically influences nr. of hits and kudos).

Royally Whipped

we'll make a home on the cracks (glowing review)

Simon Eriksson hates breeches

All Is Fair In Love and Secret Santa

arm-biting (vindictively)

Do you respond to comments?

I try my hardest, but when I was writing Royally Whipped I was insanely busy and got super behind on replying. So now I have a mountain of comments waiting for me to reply to . I'm trying my best to go through them and keep up with the comments coming in because of should've said no.

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

No angsty endings for me. I guess in terms of what was angsty until close to the end, it would have to be glowing review.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Royally Whipped, I'd say. Season 3 completely derailed my plans for that one, so it's much less angsty than originially planned.

Do you get hate on fics?

Not yet. But I guess there's always first time for everything, right?

Do you write smut?

So far, no. Just weirdly suggestive scenes.

Craziest crossover:

Never written one.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of. Hope it doesn't ever happen, either.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope! (As far as I know, at least.)

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

In an old fandom, yes. It was fun but also super messy and definitely far from my best work.

All time favourite ship?

Wilmon! No one does it like them.

What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

There's a bunch of stuff in my drafts, but most of those are just rouch ideas or random scenes. So no WIP. I'm usually very good at finishing them (though there is an abandoned twilight fanfiction on another website, but I'm not touching that one with a ten-foot pole).

What are your writing strengths?

Questions like that always throw me off, because I genuinely don't know. But I think I'm pretty good at coming up with metaphors for my characters feelings that are hopefully not too cringy to read.

What are your writing weaknesses?

I ramble. A lot. Other writers could probably tell my stories in three chapters and be done. I'm unable to do that. Also too many details in general. Pretty sure I overuse and repeat certain words all the time. Generally just don't know how to make anything concise.

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I don't mind it when reading fanfic (actually barely notice), but personally choose not to use it. If the story is set in Sweden, then imo they're already speaking Swedish with each other, so no need to have them say Swedish words.

First fandom you wrote in?

Twilight lmao

Favourite fic you've written?

You're asking me to decide between my children??? Okay, I'll give it a shot. I think Royally Whipped will always have a special place in my heart because I wrote it in such a chaotic phase of my life. But I also really, really love Simon Eriksson hates breeches (I think it's very funny ngl) and had the best time writing glowing review.

No pressure tags @hergrandplan, @wilmonsfolklore, @gulliblelemon, @nerdyfangirl76, @iwouldnevergetintofanfic & anyone else who wants to do this (I could tag so many amazing people, but I have no idea who's already been tagged, other than those along side me)!

[bluedalahorse]

AU part 2: in the YR early 00s megafandom, where are you reading your non-Wilmon fics?

You’ve probably seen my post by now about YR as an early 2000s livejournal megafandom, with speculations about what the different fanfic archives would be and how we’d all interact. You may have also voted in my poll about which Wilmon archive you’d frequent (but if you haven’t there’s still time.)

One poll remains, and that focuses on which non-Wilmon archive you’d be spending time at. If you are of my internet generation, you can answer this poll based on the ways you were doing fandom at the time. Confess your dark secrets! Or you can just go with vibes. This does not have to line up with your IRL YR fandom identity.

Feel free to reblog and add to your alternate universe fandom story! Tell us more about your crossovers, your sparkly graphics, your Y2K character playlists that you have burned onto a CD and cried over. (Don’t forget the time you ended up on fandom_wank!)

[edmarienism]

you think they're soulmates, but only started to develop feelings for eo in the last year? they've had insane, magnetic chemistry from the start, been very intimate and kissed a lot (as wilmon) and supposedly hooked up in 2022 (more than two years ago); so I find it very hard to believe it took them this long to realised they've more than platonic feelings for eo. I'm so sure there's alway been something there that they both suppressed/not acted on (bc of the age difference (when e was a teen), being costars, n and f, how complicated it all would be ect) that has grown stronger with time. or do you mean you think the sexual attraction has been there, but the romantic love is new?

no ofc not, never said that at all😭. i believe that e has had a crush on o since the very start. probably even in a gay awakening kinda way. boy was crushing HARD. and his feelings only got worse over the years but he also learned how to deal with them and suppress them. i think omar on the other hand has always been very attached and endeared by edvin since the very start but lbr 17yo edvin was too young for him and he was getting with N during that time so i feel like o only rly developed underlying feelings for E during s2 filming and then those feelings got worse and worse over the time too but obviously he's good at suppressing them as well.

[brownbitchshit]

Honestly, I wouldn’t mind if s3 were the last season. Would I love a s4? Sure. But a 10 episodes long s3 is what actually I want. Mostly because of selfish reasons because by the time (should it renews) s4 will come out, I'll probably be 30. And I dont know how much my life will allow me to be obsessed with my not-so-little Swedish show! So I wanna see the end while I am in love with this show.

Also it'll be good for the story line as well. Trilogies are always classy. Ideally I would have loved to see 3 years of Hillerska or maybe an aged up version of Wilmon and them getting married and what not. But should we get S3 as final, we might at best will see them graduating Hillerska and maybe Wilhelm giving another speech. Which would be pretty good. Maybe an abdication in the horizon? Who knows. But hopefully it'll be a good ending even if it's not a royal wedding.

It's also good for the cast because we probably haven’t realized how good this series has done for both Edvin and Omar's career. Edvin said in an interview that he did some auditions in UK and I really hope he breaks out in the mainstream Hollywood scene. He will rock it and he's so deserving. And Omar's music career has definitely taken a flight internationally. His songs are being streamed in spotify like crazy. He will soon become a big thing in European music scene. And ofc his acting career is looking good as well. So they both might not want to be tied up to this series for so long.

So overall, it is actually better to end it while they have time rather than getting one extra season only to get cancelled later and having no closure. I am happy should this rumour came true. But ofc not opposed to s4/5/6 either if it ever were to happen.

[omarscurls]

Simon X Vaccines

Inspired by Omar’s old tweet about being able to take the COVID vaccine without his mom, featuring my old fear of shots, and lots of Wilmon fluff :))

A bit Simon-centred, at least in the beginning

TWs: Shots, sort of hospital environment? Anxiety, probably swearing

A/Ns looks like this

Enjoy!

• Simon is not scared.

• Sure his hand is shaking a little, so his hides it underneath the table. But he’s not scared.

• The school nurse stops talking and starts handing out papers that your guardians need to sign, if you’re getting the vaccine.

• The lesson goes on and everyone seems to have forgotten about the papers. Totally Simon too. Maybe not really.

• It takes Wilhelm gently touching his arm and asking a question about whatever they were working on for him to calm down.

• The week of the vaccines are ages away anyways, it’s fine.

• The thing is, Simon does not like getting shots. He has hated it ever since he was little.

• Which is why Linda sends him a concerned look when he asks her to sign the paper.

• He tells her that he’ll be fine. It’s stupid to still be scared of shots.

• His mom decides to drop it and hands him back the paper.

•He hates the feeling in his stomach when he puts the paper in his backpack.

What am I writing again?

• A couple of weeks later, and Simon had just woken up before school.

• Oh yeah and he’s a bit late, but if he skips breakfast and just runs to the bus there’s a chance he might still be on time.

Don’t mind where Sara is, she’s sick or smth. It’s not relevant and complicates things haha

• So when Simon arrives to the first lesson a bit out of breath he doesn’t realise what week and day it is.

• It feels like someone poured a bucket of cold water over him when the teacher starts reading the list of people that can start going to the school nurse, and she says his name.

• The people that were called starts moving, and that’s when Simon notices that Wilhelm is going with him. The Prince seems unbothered about all this, and talks about how it’s nice to miss some of the lesson.

• Simon just nods along, but he can feel the knot in his stomach coming back, and he tries to not start to cry.

• Wille seems to notice that something is up, so when Simon really does get tears in his eyes, he pulls him in behind a corner and lets the rest of the group walk ahead.

• He gently pulls Simon in for a hug, while asking what’s wrong. Simon mumbles a “nothing, I’m fine” at first and hides his face further in Wilhelm’s neck.

• A minute or so later, Simon continues “... it’s just... like...I don’t like shots. I thought I would be ok, but I don’t know, I had forgotten about it, and then I was just like not ready when we had to leave”.

• Wille smiles a little despite it all, his beautiful brave boyfriend, who is never scared of anything and always the one comforting people in situations like this, is scared of shots.

• Simon also looks very adorable in his big hoodie and still gently holding on to his boyfriend.

• Eventually he has calmed down enough that they decide to continue to the nurse’s room.

• Wilhelm holds his hand all the way through the corridor, and he doesn’t seem to care about the fact that some people are staring at them and whispering.

• There’s only one person left of their group when they arrive at the waiting area.

• They thankfully don’t pay much attention to Simon and Wilhelm and pretty soon the nurse opens the door, another student walks out and the last student walks in, so now they’re alone.

• Wilhelm puts an arm gently around Simon, and tells him again that it’ll be okay.

• The nurse comes out to get the next person a couple of minutes later. But when she asks them who wants to go first, Wilhelm asks if they can go together instead.

• She seems to consider it for a second, but notices that Simon has been crying and that he’s still subtly clinging a little to Wilhelm.

• They are both allowed inside, and Simon tenses just seeing the chair standing in the middle of the room.

• He absolutely hates the way these rooms look. All the sterile equipment laying around and the white yellowish walls.

• Simon pointedly does not look at all the ready shots laying in a plastic box on a table.

• The nurse asks for their names, even though you could see her clearly recognising the crown Prince.

• Then she asks who wants to go first, and you can see the fear in Simon’s eyes. But before he even manages to get eye contact with Wille, had his boyfriend already said “I’ll go first” and squeezed Simon’s hand gently.

It’s too late to give the nurse a name now, I just have to work with it

• If Wilhelm is nervous, Simon really can’t see it (and it is kind of his thing to notice what the boy was really feeling underneath all of the princely stuff)

• Wilhelm doesn’t say anything when Simon squeezes his hand even harder as he gets the vaccine.

• The nurse turns around to prepare for Simon, so Wilhelm gives Simon a quick hug as they switch places on the chair.

• He wants to pull away when he sees that the nurse is ready. But Simon just holds on to Wilhelm’s hand even harder and looks quickly into his boyfriends eyes. The comfort Wille’s eyes bring him makes him relax a little bit.

• Enough so that when the nurse asks if he’s ready, he nods and focuses of the feeling of Wilhelm’s hand in his.

• It’s over in a few seconds and Simon is surprised over how little it actually hurt, even though his arm is starting to feel a bit sore.

• She makes them sit in the waiting area for a few minutes just to make sure they are okay and not getting any weird reactions to the vaccine.

• Wilhelm is kissing Simon’s face all over and telling him just how brave he was.

Reference to when Simon calls Wille brave in episode 6

• Simon seems very relieved and just giggles when Wilhelm kisses his cheek and pulls him closer to him.

• Eventually they go back to class.

• And it all made Simon’s fear of shots way way better, but even years later he still brings Wilhelm along almost every time he needs to get a shot.

Ok so I thank you for reading! I feel like this was a mess to write haha

And just so you know I based this of my experience with how we do this in Sweden, so please ask if it doesn’t make sense to you. The vaccine in the story isn’t or doesn’t have to be the COVID vaccine, idk I choose not to label it.

[absolxguardian]

It's been a while since I've read Rebel Rising, so thank you for pointing that out. The commonality makes me think that Saw's breathing and mental problems being the result of chemical exposure was something in background material for the film, just completely undefined. Something one of the writers or director wrote down when Forrest Whittaker asked what his character's problem was. The idea that he starts out as radical, and even willing to do war crimes and not care about collateral damage; but becomes more paranoid and deranged over time also seems to have been something established behind the scenes when RO was being made. In Catalyst (and also Mask of Fear, but that was published this year), he acts mentally stable and Rebel Rising charts his increasing paranoia.

It also never occurred to me to check if Wilmon's age had been published somewhere instead of just point out how there's no room for the work camp anywhere in his backstory. Even so, when Saw was younger than 19 could still be during TCW. His arc is in 20BBY, and Ahsoka, Steela, Lux Bonteri, and Saw are all part of a tangled romantic subplot. Ahsoka, the only one of these characters with a confirmed age is 16 then. So he and Steela were presumably intended to be minors in our world. Multiple reference books (based on the citations in Wookiepedia) put Onderon's occupation at the start of the war. But like I said, his partisans wouldn't have been able to save him from a work camp before they received training from the Republic.

I do think his story is probably based in reality, like its something someone else experienced. Given how messed up of a planet Onderon is ecology wised in Legends, I could even see there being an extra fucked up forest with rhydonium somewhere on it, which the Dendup government had criminals harvest. The lie isn't just to hide his less glamorous introduction to rhydonium. It's also to hide that he used to be a monarchist, especially since Dendup would have bowed to the Empire.

As for Pluti being framed, I took that as being something the show was suggesting as possibility given Saw's general history of paranoia, and how to the audience him shooting Pluti came out of nowhere. I've not rewatched his earlier scenes with Saw to see if there's ever a gesture that could feasibly be a plant. If it was a plant, you'd want someone else to be the person to find the evidence to deflect any potential suspicion. I don't think that's 100% what happened. Like I said, I think its just something the audience is supposed to question.

So Saw is 100% lying about having been in an Onderon work camp. His partisan group before they were given Republic training couldn't have broken him out. And if it was a "normal" prison sentence by the pre-Seperatist government of Onderon, he wouldn't have been fighting to restore the monarchy that did that to him. After his arc in TCW, he stops being an insurgent for a bit until the Empire shows up. And we see from The Bad Batch, that there more likely to just kill Saw and all of his partisan if they caught him. And he fled Onderon shortly afterwards.

He obviously still has some sort of weird complex and perhaps even psychological addiction to the high of rhydonium. I think he must have been introduced to it in a less inspiring way, like as an adulterant in cheap spice. I think the episode was supposed to imply that its the cause of his breathing problems in Rogue One. When he appeared in Rebels season 4, less than a year before RO, I remember some people being confused that other than a dead eye, he didn't have any of his injuries from the movie. This new character trait suggests that the loss of both his legs and his breathing problems ("burns you from the inside") are the result of some kind of rhydonium related accident.

The way his paranoia is depicted is very consistent with Rebel Rising. He's convinced someone has betrayed him off little evidence, Pluti asking what station they were going to hit ahead of time. And the reader is unsure if he was right, or if he planted the evidence because he's so certain that he's right. I'm a bit conflicted about them depicting the most radical rebel as crazy from getting his brain cells cooked by gas fumes, but Saw is more than just radical. The self-defeating paranoia is an established character trait, obvious in Rebel Rising and implicit in Rogue One. You could even read Saw's instability as a warning about the dangers of forming a movement around one charismatic unquestioned leader. You all become slaves to his flaws. And remember, in Rogue One, it's not the Rebel Alliance that's right. It's the Rogue One crew who combine Saw's unhesitating use of violence with not committing war crimes (and the same goes for Rebels. It's the Ghost crew that's right, while Saw and Mon Mothma are both wrong) that take the right approach, which the Alliance is forced to adopt to get anything done going forward.

[gulliblelemon]

20 Questions For Fic Writers

Thanks for the tag @bigalockwood!

How many works do you have on Ao3?

22

What's your total Ao3 word count?

266,115

What fandoms do you write for?

Exclusively Young Royals. 

Top five fics by kudos

See You (Soon)

Where We Left Off

Please Try Again Later

Happy 18th, Crown Prince Wilhelm

The Umbrella

(I have a whole kudos spreadsheet and watching the trends is fascinating 😉)

Do you respond to comments?

Yes! Well, I try to. It sometimes gets a little bit overwhelming, especially at the beginning when there's an influx. But they're all so wonderful.

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I haven't written anything with an angsty ending. I don't think I have it in me 😅

(Unless you count one shots in a series, in which case it's What Am I Going To Do? But that's part of a whole universe that does have a happy ending, so I'm not counting it - although when I posted there was no promise of a continuation of the story, so it was angsty for a while).

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

All my fics have happy endings. But I think they all feel like it's a happy ending to that particular part of their story, and will go on to be more after.

Do you get hate on fics?

I haven't as of yet. I still can't really believe that's a thing that happens.

Do you write smut?

No. And the longer I go on, the more I wonder if I should. But then again, I wrote a whole fic that was basically about hooking up without it, so maybe I'll be fine never writing it.

Craziest crossover

I've never written a crossover.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! I had The Umbrella translated into Russian and uploaded to ficbook.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No.

All time favourite ship?

Wilmon.

What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I have a folder full of WIP documents, most of which are just a line or a few sentences scribbled down. Some scenes, some ideas. I doubt they'll all get written, but lots get pulled for other things. And Wille's Month made me dust some of them off and either expand on them or just publish as they were.

But as for actual WIPs that I'm actively working on, I haven't got one that I don't think I'll finish. Once I start, I kind of get to the end by whatever means necessary 😅 Even if it takes me ages.

What are your writing strengths?

Erm... horrible question 😅. Dialogue? Maybe? I don't know. Someone else would have to answer that for me. I think I have a very skewed view of my own writing based on what I do and don't like doing.

What are your writing weaknesses?

Also horrible question, for very different reasons. Repetition probably. When I have something I just need to get down, I stop paying as much attention to how I'm saying things (what words I'm using, how I'm structuring sentences etc). But luckily @iwouldnevergetintofanfic is pretty good at catching it.

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

It depends. I am not fluent, or even passable really, in any languages other than English. I'm not averse to dropping the odd word in, but in general I write the English translation (since they're speaking in Swedish anyway). I also discovered that the grammar rules are different, so ended up changing a load of stuff back to English in one fic because I wasn't sure which grammar rules to use.

First fandom you wrote in?

Young Royals.

Favourite fic you've written?

I don't know. I like certain ones for different reasons.

Where We Left Off was a massive undertaking. It's over twice as long as the next longest thing I've written (still not long by 'long fic' standards) and I was writing it for nearly a year. (And I'm not sure I'll ever write something that long again, that's not really how my brain works).

See You (Soon) was the first one where I felt like I knew what I was doing, and I think I will always be very fond of it.

I loved the process of writing Making Music, because it was a gift for a dear friend @purplehoodiesandclementines.

But I love them all in different ways 💜

No pressure tags for @unfortunate17, @enjoythesilentworld and @peakotp (and anyone else seeing this that wants to answer - I love reading these. I'll even retroactively tag you if you want!).

[bluedalahorse]

The Saraugust tag on AO3 and other thoughts

I track saraugust on AO3. I know I talk about what their fanfic landscape looks like a lot, so I wanted to mention the actual numbers. There are about 90 fics tagged Sara Eriksson/August Horn of Årnäs on AO3, in a fandom that’s currently sitting at about 5000 works. Of those 90 fics:

The vast majority of them are fics focused on another pairing, with summaries that hint of Sara/August comes up it’s because it’s mentioned, and not a developed subplot.

Of the ones focused on another pairing, handful of these focus on another pairing including either Sara or August (e.g. Sara/Felice or August/Vincent) and include Sara/August because it’s part of the backstory. Fair enough!

Some of the fics that do include Sara/August include it just to sink it or make it tragic. (Admittedly this includes two of my own fics; I have a goal of writing them with a more hopeful ending in the future but we’re not there yet until we finish grad school. And I’m a slut for tragedy so I can deal with a tragic take on their relationship. That said, I have also discovered mean-spirited fic among the stuff that purports to be tragic, which I feel less good about.)

A small number of fics include a kink that is Not My Kink enough that it’s a squick for me. While I’m a firm believer in trying almost anything, I feel the polite thing to do with squicks is to salute the author from afar but also not read the fic myself. YKINMKATO, as we used to say in the old days.

The remaining handful of Sara/August fics are fics I have already read or written.

So when I call sargust or saraugust a rarepair, I promise I’m not just being dramatic and whiny. I mean I am a bit, but ;) I know there are pairs that are rarer, that don’t actually get canon screentime. I probably can’t complain too much, because my imagination is active enough that I write fics for the characters in my head, and those would also be written to my tastes. So you know, I manage.

On a pure level of fandom sociology, relatively independent of my own feelings, this fascinates me. I had initially assumed that Sara and August would pick up some kind of organized following after season 2. They kind of fit an archetype that a portion of fandom kids go wild for (the reylo/darklina/delena/chair/dramione/zutara/hopefully you know what I mean by now archetype) but they also kind of… don’t fit that at all? I didn’t expect (or want!) anything that pervasive and juggernaut-ish, goodness no, but given the sort of “nostalgic for livejournal era fandom” quality of YR’s writing and its appeal to people of many ages, I thought Sara and August might pick up some “I shipped [whatever pairing] back in the day and this made me nostalgic for it but I also want to think a little more deeply about it than I did in the past” fans. I figure Wilhelm and Simon were picking up those kinds of fans, too—the way they are written also makes me nostalgic for a certain era of fanfiction, and part of what I like about wilmon is that chance to feel nostalgic but also to reflect on some of the power dynamics at hand. Especially after season 3, I see both ships as ones I approach with my critical lenses nearby.

Anyway. The show is making commentary on and deconstructing the notion of a bad boy crush (that has to be true, given August’s “award” at third year dinner and how much he wants to reject it) but it’s also leaning into the earnestness of Sara’s feelings. Lisa’s approach to writing that fascinated me and drew me in—it felt so much more raw and honest than leaning into a bad boy fantasy entirely without questioning it, or on the other side of things, rolling one’s eyes at the fantasy and saying “of course we’re too enlightened for this, unlike the Other Girls.” I never really had a full-on reylo/darklina/delena/chair/dramione/zutara/whatever era growing up—well, ok, I was into Devil’s Minion back before it was cool and the Vampire Chronicles was only books, maybe that counts even though it’s m/m? Maybe reading Jane Eyre counts? Idk. I am not like the other girls but I am exactly like the other girls. We are both at once.

But maybe, Sara and August are also sort of sitting in this uncanny valley, and that uncanny valley puts a lot of people off. I love that about them and I’ve built myself a house here and been very comfortable, but one day I poked my head outside the window and gone, “my goodness! We sure are in an uncanny valley. Why do I have so few neighbors?”

And I also can’t ignore the bullying anon (and not anon) comments I’ve seen out there in the internet wild, and the role they play in discouraging people from writing fic/making edits/etc. The general consensus is that YR fandom is very nice and I have seen that, but I have also seen times when it isn’t. In any fandom, there are outside forces that shape AO3 numbers.

Incidentally, bestie @coruscantrhapsody and I have discussed it a lot. She is in Star Wars fandom and is a huge Anidala shipper, and sees some similar trends in the Anidala tag. There’s more fics there of course, because Star Wars is a much much bigger fandom, but proportion-wise, she sees similar trends in that Anidala will be tagged in a lot of fics but will not actually feature. (Many of the fics are Codywan or maybe Obikin or something.) Plus there is also a fair amount of discourse (TM) around like, being an Anidala shipper means you’re somehow brainwashed by hetero trad patriarchy or something.

(Why do we always assume that shipping an m/f pairing makes you brainwashed by the heterosexual patriarchy? I’m queer, about 80% of the art I like is queer queer queer—that’s how I found YR after all—god forbid the pairing my brain fixates on in that show is m/f! I’m not going to call them straight because hey, do we really know that? We don’t.)

Anyway. I’m thinking about all this today because today marks the beginning of my graduate school work, and outside of Heart and Homeland there will be no more work on fics until mid January. I’m hoping I’ll be able to pick up my saraugust fics again, so I can at least put my money where my mouth is and write what I want to read, but I don’t know if I’ll be able to do that for sure, and I’m also not sure if I have more than one fic in me. And that… kind of makes me a little bit sad. So I just wanted to acknowledge that I’m feeling sad about the fics I’ll probably only get to daydream about and never write, and about other fics by other people that I would have loved to read but were probably never written for whatever reason.

So that’s where we are. I’ve made this post unrebloggable and untagged because I don’t want a Big Fandom Discussion or discourse about it. I don’t mind replies and people sharing their thoughts though, as long as:

You don’t tell me you’re sorry I don’t have more fanfic to my liking. I mostly say this because people have very kindly said sorry, and I very much do appreciate the sympathy most days. But today I don’t think I need sympathy so much as willingness to sit with me and analyze what’s going on. I’m in analysis place.

You don’t say something reductive along the lines of “Well actually August sucks!” Because yeah, yeah he does, quite a lot. I am up for discussion of his flaws in a nuanced way but the absolute flattening of him to villainspace is not something I wanna do today either. Fandom also has a time-honored tradition of meaningfully engaging with characters who suck. Writers have a time-honored tradition of meaningfully engaging with characters who suck. It’s one of the things that we do! You know, as people.

So anyway those are my thoughts. Thank you for reading this far! Would appreciate the thoughts of others who are up for it.

[novkovsky]

this show literally ruined my life, cursed my entire family, and left me in tears, but I don't regret any of it

final thoughts, opinions, and spoilers under the cut

okay so I no longer hate august. in fact I sympathize with him and I feel like I understand him more through his growth and development. yeah he did so some really shitty and fucked up things that I once thought were unforgivable, but I found his arc to be the most compelling. in the end he got what he wanted but lost what he loved. a perfect contrast to willes arc in season three. honestly I don't really think august is fit to be king and filling that role is going to fill him with immense regret and probably traumatize him further, and its such a bittersweet ending for him. like he's a shithead but he's MY shithead.

I don't think wille abdicating the throne is immediately going to fix all his problems. that boy still needs so much therapy and time to heal. hell they all do. but I watched them in that moment, probably the happiest he's been in months and I felt that relief, the peace they gained from it. and maybe the aftermath will be hell, but I feel it was worth it.

and simon- omg simon. that boy is so full of love and compassion in a way that I haven't quite seen before in television nor in real life, and i deeply admire him for it. He really said

"to love someone is firstly to confess: I'm prepared to be devastated by you," UGHHHHH

but he took that chance anyways, and either he's really stupid and naive or capable of showing bravery that not many people can. also, omar rudberg is a phenomenal actor, and he captured simon so well. Like I genuinely believe no one else could have played simon but him. like that boy is going to go on to do great things, and I'm totally here for whatever he chooses to do.

omg I was actually so convinced wilmon wasn't endgame. like they really had me in the first half of 3.06 and honestly I would have been upset but I was also okay with it. I felt like they had made peace and were content with saying goodbye BUT NO THEY TRICKED ME. WILLE ADBICATION LETS GOO!!! but no I really thought he was going to abdicate (because regardless of being with simon I felt like he still would have done so) and maybe we would see a flashforward of them meeting again years later when they've both healed from all that trauma.

speaking of trauma, I can't imagine going through any of that at the age of 16-17. like therapy for the next ten years NOW- like this show is so nuanced, and you really see these characters and their flaws and their dumb and impulsive decisions, but that's because they're still kids. like you really see their fuck ups and bad decisions but you also see their justifications and why they're making these decisions and if they're wrong you understand both sides and their frustrations. like it's not black and white I feel like this is something american media can't seem to get right.

one thing watching this show has taught me is that life doesn't end when you're 17. even though then and there it feels like everything, and It feels like it's all that matters, but you grow up and people move on and are capable of change.

anyways my heart has been put through the wringer, and I'm emotionally devastated in the best way possible.

(quote earlier from Billy-Ray Belcourt, A History of My Brief Body)

started watching young royals 🤭

[bluedalahorse]

AU part 2: in the YR early 00s megafandom, where are you reading your non-Wilmon fics?

You’ve probably seen my post by now about YR as an early 2000s livejournal megafandom, with speculations about what the different fanfic archives would be and how we’d all interact. You may have also voted in my poll about which Wilmon archive you’d frequent (but if you haven’t there’s still time.)

One poll remains, and that focuses on which non-Wilmon archive you’d be spending time at. If you are of my internet generation, you can answer this poll based on the ways you were doing fandom at the time. Confess your dark secrets! Or you can just go with vibes. This does not have to line up with your IRL YR fandom identity.

Feel free to reblog and add to your alternate universe fandom story! Tell us more about your crossovers, your sparkly graphics, your Y2K character playlists that you have burned onto a CD and cried over. (Don’t forget the time you ended up on fandom_wank!)