#would love to have some soju with him fr

[escapizm]

"파도가 밀려오는 것처럼 나를 뒤덮는 너와의 기억들과 말들이 또 날"

"Like the rolling waves The memories and words we shared wash over me again"

- Han Jisung, "13"

[feuqueerfire]

The Eighth Sense Live Blogging

I've been meaning to watch this since it finished airing but feels like it's gonna deal with some Emotions and trauma, so kept putting it off. the time's here though

Also, it's my first BL in a month, I finished Candy Colour Paradox on May 16 and then watched like 6 non-BL shows, that's the longest stretch I've gone without watching a BL since Dec 2021 I'm pretty sure

Ep 1 (June 20)

so we’re getting “rich people are people who struggle” when it comes to the hyung i guess

who is the other kid who’s rooming with our dude? twin? cousin? a friend? they have a joint account apparently

oh i thought the older guy and the girl were dating but they’d broken up? i feel like i’ve heard it mentioned that she’s an ex but i may have thought they broke up during the show or smth

Ep 2 (June 20)

Jihyun has already been looking for Jaewon in every room and bus and everywhere but at least Jaewon is also getting the brainworms and sitting beside him on the bus and sharing earphones

please Jaewon being like "have some conscience, don't date freshmen, we're seniors" lol

Jaewon kneeling in front of Jihyun and putting the plastic bags on his feet and helping him put on the surfing outfit ah I'm gonna bite things

Jaewon's so obsessed with Jihyun already ah they're both orbiting each other

i think i remember hearing about this shower scene

ahh the girl who made the "I'm a fast learner" joke while opening the soju bottle is soo cute, girls with round face + dark hair + bangs remain undefeated for me fr and she's so cute and has a sliiight dimple too ah

pls i knew it'd falter when it got to jaewon or jihyun ah my guy jihyun heard jaewon say he likes him during the game and couldn't process

ah love shot pls Jaeon's ex is gonna kill Jihyun

is the reason Jaewon broke up with her not because she cheated (at least he thought so)? it kinda seems like there's something else but maybe not

they're not already gonna kiss right? i feel like i remember gifs of them kissing by the beach (a la Blueming) but would it already happen at the beginning of next ep?

there’s this vibe that jaewon has like he really is a beloved senior who is very casual and knows he is respected and has the confidence that comes from being in this element for a while. It makes me understand the appeal of a college senior; many shows have a dynamic between a senior and an underclassman but not many can show me the appeal so clearly.

Watched eps 3 and 4 on my commute to and from work, so didn't write down too much

Ep 3 (June 21)

so they kissed as expected from the gifs i’ve seen and then jaewon immediately leaves and kisses his friend on the cheek later TODO

and apparently he kisses people when he’s drunk and he’s very drunk tonight poor jihyun

also jihyun drank the whole bucket he’s going through it fr

ignoring each other but they also keep looking at each other at the beach in the shower and not sitting together on the bus ah

jaewon and yoowon are really cute together fun friendship

ah the freshmen girls thought yoonwon is a lesbian be trueeeee

aeri really wants to get with jihyun, huh? sitting beside him and inviting him to lunch then dinner. good luck girl maybe actually try with bitna i would like to see it

jihyun gay as hell the way he’s tryna curve aeri

pls the way joonpyo started talking with jaewon i thought he knew him lol but nah and jaewon spoke to easily with him too

wait what is jaewon stalking jihyun lol but ig the person jihyun was meeting was jaewon but i thought it was dinner with aeri though also for a sec i was like maybe jihyun imagining jaewon

Ep 4 (June 21)

so indeed Jihyun ditching Aeri to hang out with Jaewon, so I suppose their ignoring each other era has ended, thanks to the convo Joonpyo struck up

idek man the sliiight awkwardness but the tenson of them sitting at the han river and then jihyun trying to help jaewon draw bruh

:0 Jaewon helping Jihyun put on his bag and them staring at each other and being lost while the cab waits lol

lol Aeri clocked Jaewon and Jihyun so fast. anyway she's saying she only wanted to be Jihyun's friend now date Bitna! btw what happened to her, I want girls of the world Aeri and Bitna again - they make me like being a girl with friends who are girls

Taehyung's soo annoying with constantly trying to set up Eunji and Jaewon

Jaewon's entire face changing as he spots Jihyun in the midst of studying with Eunji

we get to see a bit more of Jaewon's therapy now, seems like he's been going for a decade and is unsure about the future - there's a thing he really wants to do but hasn't had the courage to pursue. Also, his need to be liked by everybody and be nice to everybody (as initially mentioned in the last episode during the convo with Yoonwon and now here) remind me of Light On Me Daon

Eunji is soooo bitchy, making Jihyun work so hard and also lying about Jaewon wanting to be her group partner agh and even breaking the glass. I'm actually very receptive to terrible women (recently: rancid personality Yeji in From Now On, Showtime! and just terrible horrible Seon Ah in The Devil Judge) but she's sooo mean and terrible D: the way she's threatening and being rude to the owner as well agh

Jaewon saw Jihyun being picked on by Eunji and so came to walk him home? so cute

pls first the ramen eating thing at the beginning of the ep and now ending with Jaewon being like "oh? going to your room? aren't we moving too fast" lol silly

pls Jaewon's hand on thigh the almost kiss

There's something so grounded yet dreamy to this show. Blueming sort of vibes where it's so floaty but seems real

Ep 5 (June 21)

It's 1:30 am but I accidentally screwed up my sleep schedule but taking a 3.5 hour nap this afternoon, so here's an episode before I go to sleep and then wake up for workkk

"when will you skip class if not as a freshman?" o I skip classes all throughout uni <3

pls Taehyung dude so obvious about Bitna, I think he said "I like Bitna" both times during the I like you game in ep 2 lol

Aeri is soo girl of the world, moving Jihyun out of frame to take photos of food and then telling him to take photos of her before he can eat plsss let the man have his snack

pls Jaewon so obvious even fuckass Taehyung being like yah why are you nervous to call Jihyun, are you and Jihyun dating or smth lol while Yoonwon laughs from the side

plss why was this phone call sooo like it's just a phone

bruh Taehyung really said "it's fortunate that Jaewon doesn't have siblings" but Jaewon had mentioned "my dongsang would be..." or smth in ep 1 before so um and this comment made Jaewon angry

lol Aeri and Jihyun ganging up on Taehyung

ah switch from the bus of Jihyun sleeping on Jaewon's shoulder to now Jaewon sleeping on Jihyun's shoulder. drunk ass Jaewon

"Hyung, you can't kiss me today (since Jaewon's still drunk and apparently has a tendency to do that)" "When did I kiss you?" yo this would end me - aw does Jihyun have a bit watery eyes or am I imagining things

ah Jaewon did indeed have a little brother up until he was in high school at least but he's probably dead now i guess

and I'd also guess the thing Jaewon wants to do is become a photographer or something

damn, did the camera break somehow? oh did the father break it? oh I went back and I think you can hear the father drop a bunch of things after yelling at Jaewon

ah, his younger brother got into an accident while with Jaewon? was his driving?

Jaewon mentioning Jihyun at his therapy

I should definitely not be watching another episode because it's over 2am and I knowwww this ep kills people because I think Jihyun almost drowns or something buttt I saw gifs of them kissing and in bed and stuff, so I guess they start actually dating or acknowledging things at least so I'm tempted

Ep 6 (June 22)

agh fuck it, it's 2am but might as well watch about half the ep or something, until some good stuff happens but before the bad stuff

ohhh Jaewon straight up said he's going on the trip with his "boyfriend"

bruh how does this man make any money, he's giving both Jihyun and Jaewon free stuff from his store for being handsome

their little convos and clinging off each other and learning about each other and also Jaewon inquiring about Jihyun and Aeri ah they're cute

ah Jaewon telling Jihyun about his brother dying - also at first I thought he'd be Jihyun's age based on Jaewon's sentence in ep 1 but then he seemed like more than just 4-5 years younger in the flashback but ig it's just a discrepancy in flashback

plsss the way they keep staring at each other and getting closerwhile pretending to sleep

they're already surfing so I was like um they're not gonna already have the drowning right but I skipped forward a bit and they kiss in the ocean and I've seen gifs of that too, so I'll keep watching

plsss kisses in the ocean to get rid of your trauma vs to cause you trauma and it's so... casual now ah

girl they're shirtless already

not Jaewon evading the kisses while they're presumably naked and have done stuff girl are we playing hard to get this is so cute

I think I could say something about every fucking clip in this fucking shirtless scene I'm gonna scream for 7 years and also rewatch like they're??? so cute it's so cute idek

pls the drowning scene ending wth Jaewon sitting at that same place alone? if I didn't know it ended happily + the movie had a happy ending even earlier I would've lost several years of life I think

So yeah ep 6 isn't as horrific for others as it is for me but it's interesting that Bloodhounds also had an ep 6 that puts you through the wringer

Fave Scenes:

The last cuddle/make out/sex scene

honestly a whole lot of this ep, esp the parts where they're being cute and not recounting trauma

Ep 7 (June 22)

couldn't watch an ep during lunch, so here i am finally watching it

Aeri beat Taehyung up plssss fuckass

okay at least Jaewon punched him

why do they keep mentioning someone dying though like Jihyun's injured, not dead

pls Eunji is actually sooooo irritating, she's doing way too much

dang, the therapy scene even mentioned Jaewon being too tired/depressed to come to therapy and him considering "extreme decisions"

plsss the argument with Joonpyo that ended with him saying he can never beat Jihyun

interesting that Joonpyo brings up Jihyun seeming different, he really does have a different vibe and is... cooler/slightly meaner/has more "sense"

Jihyun saying his happiest memories are the ones right before the accident and Aeri saying "that good?" lol

ah her telling him about everybody gossiping about Jihyun and Jaewon going on the trip together and wondering why

What was that scene with the dude in drag though? i actually am kind of enjoying how Aeri and Jihyun are sharp and rude about others when speaking to each other but this was like... what? Why did the student act that way afterwards - so ott and mean and yet asking Jihyun to lunch? the whole thing felt like a mean, stupid joke that didn't land

Ep 8 (June 22)

aw shucks they had no scenes together last ep and now it's avoidance once again

Taehyung has the right to not forgive Seo Jaewon but he's such a fucking dick and terrible human that it's like oh fuck you

ah Jihyun spoke for Jaewon, follow him you buffooon but I know he's too weighed down by guilt

omg Joonpyo stealing the phone D: okay no i believe he'll be supportive

ah cuties as expected

oh hoooo determined, aggressive Jihyun determined to get Jaewon back (esp from Eunji) ah you've changed from the beginning of the show for real

bro tell me why everytime I hear the voicemail thing, I'm reminded of Squid Game. I guess I haven't heard enough korean voice mail messages yet

pls Jihyun really has a lot to say back to Eunji, rude freshman you're interesting

plsssss Jaewon nooooooooooooo how could you say this T.T but also Jihyun's little declarations were so good about how he goes crazy when he looks at Jaewon's face and remembers those moments

Ep 9 (June 22)

Man, I should start studying for my midterm that's soon bc I know nothing and I was only supposed to watch till ep 8 today but um um ummmmm I wanna watch more and I lack self-control

idk how appropriate it is for a therapist to call their client selish and yell like that lol but at least she's making him see that avoiding Jihyun might not be for the best

gosh this hand on thigh and reaching for hand

the way Jaewon avoided looking at Jihyun right up until he got up and Jaewon looked after him

why is this shot so close to Yoonwon's face for soooo long

dang, what's up with happy bright jumpy Jaewon today?

so she cheated on him quite a bit rip

pls Jihyun's boss and Jaewon's convo

damn Conan Gray song appearence

sure, they can have an unspoken understanding and listen to the same song and Jaewon comes to Jihyun and then kiss all open-mouthed

Ep 10 (June 22)

i think this clip is the first thing I saw from this show, a clip of this on twitter from when the movie was released or something. it's sooo cute

ah Jihyun afraid that Jaewon left and searched everywhere

they're soooo cute, clingy Jihyun and babytalking Jaewon + the "I'm still your hyung" like twice bc Jihyun keeps pushing limits

(Linguistics) Jaewon said okay let's do banmal since Jihyun keeps saying "eung"

Yoonwon I'm proud of you ^.^

Jaewon my guy has everybody begging him to stay over/go to a motel lol first Eunji now Jihyun but he curves everybody pls

no! don't become friends with Taehyung again! better not, Jaewon!!!!! grow a spine! don't understand him!!

pls the way Jihyun got caught up in not knowing when he and Jaewon would celebrate an anniversary really reminded me of NCT Markly

lol Jaewon Yoonwon besties who date younger boys

ah idk if these reconciliations with Taehyung and Eunji feel earned. At least Eunji's one makes more sense where they're still tense and not friends again but Taehyung is like... agh we're giving him an arc in 5 seconds?

yeahh i knew Yonnwon and Joonpyo were gonna hook up what with Yoonwon mention of dating younger people and Jaewon leaving them alone lol

"Were we that obvious?" girl who time rumours abound, everybody guessing it right even those random dudes after the club cancellation meeting

damn even a Eunji and Jihyun convo

congrats Jihyun on succeeding in getting Jaewon into your bed, you worked hard

oh hooooo aggressive Jihyun and them talking about it too pls i die it's a favourite trope

(Linguistics) also in that scene Jihyun was using banmal, no -yo at the end, ahh

they really took the reconciliation and forgiveness theme to heart in this ep, huh?

Faves Scenes:

a lot of it was them together and being cute

the ending with them trying out a new dynamic of aggressive Jihyun

Overall:

It was interesting and I think the show had a good grasp on characters and relationship dynamics and progression but it didn't burrow in my heart the way it did for many people, esp those who watched while on air. I liked that there were friendships each character had and that they existed outside of just this relationship; even some of the friends existed outside of just being a friend, like Yonnwon was a whole human. The female friends were great, Yoonwon is a treasure and I liked how Aeri was so sweet but so mean sometimes, a very clever city girl type. Also, the tension and cute moments between Jihyun and Jaewon were great, especially in ep 6 and 10.

I know there was stuff with the colours and going in and out of light vs dark and how it represented the characters and I caught almost none of that but I'm sure that would've made the experience better. Also, I listened to a bunch of podcasts discussing this (and still have another one Boys Love Boys Love that's going through it ep by ep) and some of them mentioned that Jihyun's actor apparently has no prior experience and was literally picked up off the street to do screen testing, a la kpop boys.

I think it's a good show that's done well but right now, it's not taking up much brain space and it also didn't make me viscerally feel anything, so it's at the place of good show but i won't be thinking much about it. In the future if I do find myself thinking about the characters or plot or whatever, I'll bump it up the same way I did for Blueming.

Rating: 6.5/10

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[kingbaekho]

you’re my home (friends-to-lovers!you x jr)

pairing: nu’est’s jr x you

word count: 2.2k

genres: fluff, slice-of-life, slow(ish) burn, friends-to-lovers

a/n: i truly have nothing to do this summer, so i’ll start writing more!

jonghyun’s the yin to your yang.

whenever people find out that you and jonghyun are best friends, they’re always taken aback. it’s no big deal -- you two are used to it, and you’ve spent multiple long nights rambling about it over facetime.

there’s jonghyun, who suffers from rbf, but once he smiles, turns into the cutest human being alive. he’s a serious introvert whose late nights are spent watching anime, reading manga, or playing video games. on the rare occasion he’s at a party (usually having been dragged to it by you), he sticks to the walls with only soda in his hands, carefully watching to make sure that nothing happens to you as you disappear into the crowd. he’s selfless the a fault -- his friends have regularly pointed out how often people ask him for help without giving anything back in return, to the point where you blew up at a girl in middle of math class for asking him for the answers to last night’s homework for the tenth day in a row. jonghyun doesn’t mind, though. he never does. as long as he can be there to make someone happy, he’s happy as well.

and then there’s you, the virtual polar opposite of jonghyun. if you have to stay at home for even one day, you get restless. when jonghyun can’t find his voice, you do it for him -- hence the above incident. while he’ll never say a bad word about anyone, you’re blunt -- if you dislike someone, you’ll make it crystal clear. you like loud parties, dancing, random hookups -- everything jonghyun doesn’t. hell, you even look like the polar opposite of jonghyun. while he prefers oversized sweaters that, according to you, are a “big uwu”, your hair is dyed platinum blonde, with a closet like an instagram model.

yet, you and jonghyun are the best of friends, like yin and yang (for your 18th birthday, you and jonghyun gave each other yin and yang stick-and-poke tattoos that actually didn’t turn out too badly, especially considering the fact that both of you were tipsy). you coax jonghyun out of his shell, while he calms you down and keeps you safe. you’re up in the sky, but it’s jonghyun who keeps you anchored to the earth. it’s been this way ever since ninth grade, when you were the new student that, when you could have had your pick of popular friends, chose jonghyun to sit next to during lunch. and now, four years later, you two even chose to go to the same college.

except lately, you and jonghyun have been growing apart. jonghyun understands -- you’re both 18 now, almost college students. he wants to give you space to breath, to let you grow into your own without him to tie you down. you two are so vastly different, and it makes since that you would want friends that want to do the same things that you do. jonghyun doesn’t mind. he’ll always be here, waiting for you.

after all, he has his girlfriend now. yena is much more like him, and so being with her feels effortless in a way that being with you doesn’t. as much as jonghyun enjoys spending time with you, your boundless energy can be tiring at times. with yena, he could spend day after day by her side, just watching anime. she’s comfortable, a lovely familiarity whereas you’re the unknown. nowadays, jonghyun just wants to be comfortable.

even though for the past few months, you and jonghyun’s communication has disintegrated into exclusively snapchat streaks with the occasional tagged instagram meme, it’s your number that he dials the night that yena dumps him, after he spends hours sobbing into his pillow.

“what’s up?” you answer with your usual brazenness.

jonghyun doesn’t know why, but he feels an urge to get out of his house. he needs a distraction from this heartbreak. “are you free?”

“uh, what’s up?” you ask again. jonghyun realizes that it’s a saturday night. of course you’re busy. he sighs.

“don’t worry about it,” he says.

“no, what’s up?” you repeat. “this is the most we’ve talked in months, something’s obviously wrong.”

for as flighty as you are, you have a sixth sense about these things. jonghyun pauses.

“yena and i broke up.”

“i’ll be there in ten minutes.” you hang up.

“jesus, you look like a wreck,” you mutter when jonghyun climbs into your car at 11 that night. you push a box of tissues into his lap before speeding off into the street. neither of you speak until you reach a stoplight, and you look at him for what must be the first time in months. jonghyun notices that you’ve dyed your hair a fiery orange.

“what happened?” you ask, rolling down your window and tapping your fingers against the side of the car. you turn somebody to love up to a fifty.

jonghyun sniffles. “she said she found someone else.”

“christ,” you whisper. out loud, you say, “bitch couldn’t spot a good thing if it hit her over the fucking head,” in your usual blunt style. it does make jonghyun laugh, though. you turn to him with a small smile. “i think this calls for a midnight snack run, yes?”

he nods. once again, you’re off, going at least 10 over the speed limit, as usual. jonghyun really has no idea how you’ve managed to avoid a speeding ticket in all your years of driving.

“what were you gonna do tonight?” he asks to make conversation. he doesn’t like the silence between them, the awkwardness of it can’t help but make him feel guilty for not reaching out to her lately.

you shrug. “minki’s house.”

there’s a pause before jonghyun says, “you didn’t have to, you know.”

you shrug again. “i can party whenever i want to. i still consider you my best friend, jonghyun. i’m gonna help you out.”

you pull into the parking lot of a grocery store, instantly reviving the old memories of whenever jonghyun would sleep over at your apartment and you two would slip out at midnight to run to the the 7/11 on the street corner, giggling and relishing in the rebellion.

and just like the old days, a mischievous smile spreads across your lips. “come on!” you yell into the windy night air, already halfway across the parking lot despite your heels. you throw your hands up in the air, gesturing wildly. jonghyun smiles, too, as he breaks out into a sprint to catch up to you.

you laugh once he catches up to you. “took you long enough.” once you two enter the store, you hop into a cart. “push me,” you demand, pouting playfully until jonghyun acquiesces.

you two spend what seems like eons in the store, racing up and down the aisles, jonghyun putting in the cart whatever you want.

“soju?” jonghyun is already walking over to the bottles, predicting your response.

“yeah, of course.” you wave your hand dismissively, and jonghyun picks up a six-pack in each hand.

“get wine, too!” you call as he’s walking back to the cart.

“i don’t think we can drink this all on our own.” jonghyun raises his eyebrows

“wrong!” you cry. “if there’s a will, there’s a way!” he just shakes his head and fills the cart with as much alcohol as he can carry.

“this is a terrible idea,” he states as he pushes the cart out of the alcohol aisle.

“you always say that,” you reply, reaching for a bottle of soju.

“at least wait until we pay for it!” he protests.

“fine,” you grumble, retracting your hand.

even though this is the first time you’ve talked in months, it’s easy for the both of you to fall into your normal cadence. by the time you two leave the grocery store, with you handing jonghyun your grocery bags with an overly-sweet smile. jonghyun realizes that he hasn’t even thought about yena. sitting in the car as you drive off into the night, humming along to radiohead, jonghyun traces the yin tattoo on his wrist with his finger. no matter what, at the end of the day, it’ll always be you and jonghyun.

you park somewhere along the bank of the hand river, and with soju and snacks in hand, you and jonghyun settle yourselves on the sidewalk along the edge of the river, where the water occasionally laps up and splashes the sidewalk with a small spray. after the shopping trip, the silence between them is now comfortable, punctuated only by you opening a bottle of soju and by jonghyun opening up a bag of cheetos.

“i’m sorry about yena,” you say after a long bout of silence. you take a swig of alcohol and look off into the distance.

jonghyun shrugs. “i guess it was bound to happen at some point. we’re going to completely different colleges, after all.”

“still.” you turn to look at him. “she’s a dumb bitch.”

he just laughs, used to your bluntness. “i mean, that’s just life.”

“i guess, but still,” you say with utter conviction. “you’re a great person, jonghyun. she doesn’t deserve you.”

“i don’t know,” he says, taking the bottle of soju that you offer him. “different people just need different things in a relationship.”

you set down your bottle with a clunk, and jonghyun realizes that you’ve already consumed most of it.

“are you gonna be okay?” he asks, scrutinizing you with concern in his eyes.

“yeah!” you wave your hand dismissively again. “it’s all good in the hood.” but you’re already starting to slur your words.

“do you want me to drive home?” he asks.

“yep.” you nod, leaning back on your elbows. jonghyun rolls his eyes playfully. he didn’t realize how much he’d missed you. it can be tiring playing catch-up with you whenever you drag him to parties, but it’s these moments, where it’s just the two of you on some random adventure, that he misses, no matter how small the adventure is. to him, being with you is thrilling, like a roller coaster. maybe, after the same-old same-old that being with yena was, this is what he needs.

“i’m sorry for not talking to you.” your voice breaks the silence.

“hm?” he turns to you. “what do you mean?”

“i--” you hiccup. “i kind of made a conscious effort not to talk to you.”

he blinks. “why?”

“because of yena.” you take a hard gulp of your soju.

“what do you mean?” jonghyun inches closer to you, and unsuccessfully tries to pry your hands from your bottle. “you’ve had too much to drink way too quickly.”

“it’s mine,” you pout, curling up into a ball to protect your liquor. “anyway, i didn’t like yena.”

“i mean, she just broke up with me, but she was always nice,” he says, sitting back down. “i thought you two got along okay.”

“no.” you shake your head vehemently. “not that. the issue was that--” this time, jonghyun doesn’t stop you from drinking.

“i like you,” you say finally, suddenly sounding sober. “i’ve liked you since the end of tenth grade.” you turn your gaze to the ground.

jonghyun’s taken aback. out of everything he expected her to say, that wasn’t one of them. your dating history consisted of a stream of college boys who only stayed long enough to buy you whatever you wanted before you moved on to the next. never something serious. never anyone like him.

he’s reminded of when he had a crush on you, too. he thought he’d quashed those feelings with yena. but now, in the cool summer breeze, knowing that you like him, too -- he doesn’t know anymore. maybe it’s just the rush of post-breakup emotions. or maybe jonghyun’s realizing that you were what he always needed.

“i...” his voice trails off.

“i know.” this time, when you speak, you sound weary. “you just broke up with yena. you still have feelings for her.”

he nods slowly. “yeah, but i mean... i don’t know anymore. i’ve had a crush on you, too, ever since the summer before junior year. but i didn’t think you’d like me back... and so i dated yena. so now, i don’t know anymore.”

“i see,” you say carefully. “can you... kiss me?”

jonghyun doesn’t know exactly why he accepts, but he inches over to you anyway. despite the strong taste of soju on your lips, kissing you feels so natural. the way his lips meld together with yours makes jonghyun think that you two were made for one another, like puzzle pieces. there’s no awkwardness, no fumbling. it’s plain and simple, and it’s another reminder that maybe, jonghyun had gotten it all wrong that it’s you he’s really been searching for.

“that was nice,” you mumble once you two finally part, your arms still wrapped around his neck.

“mhm.” he nods, looking down at you with a smile.

“so what do you wanna do now?” you ask, looking up at him expectantly.

jonghyun shrugs his shoulders. “i’m not really sure.” your arms fall away, and he sits down, staring at the twinkling lights of the buildings across the river. “but i have a feeling that this will work out.”

“that’s the most un-you thing i’ve ever heard you say.” you smile, moving so that you can rest your head in his lap. “but i like the way you think.”

jonghyun smiles down at you. “maybe you’re a bad influence on me.”

“maybe so,” you hum, closing your eyes.

jonghyun knows that he’s been getting it all wrong. he thought comfort meant similarity, so he chose yena. but it’s not. comfort is the feeling he gets when he’s next to you. comfort is the feeling he gets when he kisses you.

at the end of the day, it’ll always be just you and jonghyun.

[imaginationsandscenarios]

Just Friends: Lies

Best Friends au! with Jaehyun and Johnny! 

Genre: Angst, Romance, Fluff

Summary: You met him again, but how you are really feeling? 

Author’s note: Okay, sorry this took too long again. I actually have classes in the summer. My spring semester ended, then my summer classes literally started a week after. I’ve had this chapter for a long time in my draft and this may not be editted yet. Buttttt, I hope you enjoy this! Let me know in the end whether you’re team Johnny or team Jaehyun! Maybe that’s how I’ll decide the next chapters :)

Part 1 | Part 2| Part 3

Johnny came back with a bowl of fish cake soup, then came back a second time with 2 bottles of soju. He caught you staring at a distance. “Are you okay?”

Snapping out of your thoughts, “Huh? Oh yeah, I’m okay”

“Hm. It doesn’t seem like it. Are you sure you are okay?”

“Remember that one guy I told you about? An old friend of mine. The guy that I had a crush on and rejected me?” You finally confessed to Johnny. You told Johnny about everything in your life. Because that is what friends do, right? You tell each other secrets, dreams, nightmares, or anything that you could possible think of. And in return, you knew Johnny’s as well.

“Jaehyun?”, Johnny said as he took a spoonful of the broth. “What about him?”

“Well don’t make it obvious, but turn around. He’s right there”, you said as you began opening the bottles of soju while pointing with your eye the direction of where Jaehyun is. You quickly avoided the direction and Johnny turned around. Deep down in Johnny’s heart, it bothered him a little.

Jaehyun was simply standing a few feet away from your table. He seemed to be looking for someone as he kept looking around the area and into his phone. While looking around he noticed two people sitting in a table. Never thought that he would see you again. Johnny’s back had turned against him, meanwhile you were trying to pour soju into his cup. Deep down in Jaehyun’s heart, it actually hurt him. All these years, he had missed spending time with you.

Jaehyun had always wanted to become a DJ for his favorite radio station. In the past, he had always talked to you about being able to listen to his favorite songs all the time, tell stories of people’s lives, and discuss his own stories to others. But all of that had to go down in the drain during senior year of high school. His father was a medical professor of Seoul’s most prestigious school and he did not approve his son’s desired occupation. His mother loved the idea and wanted to support him, however, his father did not. After long talks and arguments, Jaehyun decided to follow his father’s wishes, he decided to go into medical school. He was fortunately accepted into his father’s school and he was able to get the grades for it. He did not want to tell you about his college plan because he didn’t think you would support him. At the back of his mind, he thought that you would, but if he were to give you his reason behind it, he thought that you would judge him and it would create another argument. That was when he created a whole lie about going to one of the top schools for communication.

“Y/N”, Jaehyun whispered silently. He saw how you were drinking with another person, a guy specifically. In his four years of medical school, he wished he would have a drink with you, study with you, or just simply spend some time together. He regretted not speaking with you after that talk at your house. His sophomore year in college just was not going in the right direction with Yeri. He stopped having feelings with her, therefore ending their relationship. Meanwhile, Yeri moved on quickly, and Jaehyun have not found another person since then.

Johnny looked at your facial expressions. “Do you want to go talk to him?”

“What? Johnny, no! That’s just crazy!" You said in disbelief. You were wondering why Johnny would have that idea when he knows that you completely shut him off.

"Why not start now when maybe sooner or later, you're going to have to run into him again", Johnny said while taking a bite of the fish cake.

"What makes you think I'm going to run to him again"

"Because it happens in dramas. Or you never know”. Johnny shrugged his shoulders.

You began to chuckle at his comment. Little did you know, Jaehyun was watching from a distance. Seeing you smiling and laughing made him miss of how you used to laugh when he tried making a joke.

"Yo~ Jaehyun"

Jaehyun turned around following the voice. "What took you so long? I've been standing here for like half an hour"

"Sorry I had to help out my little brother. Did you just got out of work?", Winwin asked.

"Hm. Yeah"

"Who were you staring at?"

"What? Nobody", Jaehyun shook his head.

"You definitely were. Is it that girl over there?"

"Do you mind if we go to a different food stall?"

"The next one is like a 10 minute walk", Winwin complained. "Plus their fish cake soup is apparently the best here!"

Jaehyun rolled his eyes and loudly sighed, "Fine"

The two walked into a table behind your table with Johnny. You didn't realized that Jaehyun was in no less than a foot away from you.

You looked up from taking a bite of the fish cake and your eyes widened at the sight of Jaehyun sitting right behind Johnny.

“Jaehyun?” You did not mean to say his name out loud and loud enough for him to hear it.

“Y/N”

Johnny turned around to see you two guys sitting behind him.

“Uhh. Johnny this is my fr—classmate from high school, Jaehyun, this is Johnny my —“

“Boyfriend”, Johnny interrupted. You looked at him in disbelief.

Jaehyun was a little heart broken when Johnny introduced himself as your boyfriend and you introduced him as just a classmate. Meanwhile, you glared at Johnny for saying that. Jaehyun bowed to him and introduced WinWin as a friend from his class.

You weren’t sure if Johnny was drunk or he was just messing around, and you were definitely in the mood to kill him later for saying that.

“We’ll let you guys finish your food first, while we order ours” Jaehyun suggested.

You and Johnny both nodded, while Johnny began pouring soju into your cup. You both quickly made eye contact and took a shot of your soju. Meanwhile, Jaehyun was ordering their food.  

You quickly finished your bottles of soju within minutes and you were starting to feel a little tipsy. You were such a lightweight that three shots of soju will get you tipsy. You stood up from your seat, lightly fixed your clothes, and gathered your purse.  “Johnny can you take me home please”

Johnny also began to stand up from his seat and nodded. Jaehyun and Winwin were just starting to eat their meal.

“It was nice seeing you Jaehyun”, you bowed at him and waved goodbye. Johnny took a handshake with Jaehyun and Winwin, “It was nice meeting you guys”

“It was nice seeing you too Y/N”, Jaehyun replied.

You and Johnny began to walk away from the stall. Jaehyun was watching you leave.

“Was she that old friend of yours that confessed to you, but you rejected it?”, WinWin asked.

“Unfortunately, yes” Jaehyun lowered his head.

“She clearly has moved on Jae. And so should you.”

Jaehyun didn’t say anything about WinWin’s comment and just continued eating his food.

“Johnny, what the hell was that? Why did you say you were my boyfriend?”, You tried not to raise at him.

“I thought I just wanted to mess with you”, Johnny started to snigger.

“It’s not funny”, your tone became more serious and you were close to having tears in your eyes.

“Listen, something tells me that you’re not complete over him or else you wouldn’t have to freak out like that after seeing him or you wouldn’t act so awkward”, Johnny looked at you with hooded eyes.

“What happened with Jaehyun is in the past. And past it past. What ever happened, happened”

“But sometimes there are things in the past can slow us down from moving forward”, Johnny stopped his tracks. You were walking ahead of him when you noticed him stop. “When you feel like you lifted up that burden on your shoulder, then you can move ahead”, Johnny continued.

“Are you being philosophical on me now?”, you said sarcastically. You looked at him, trying to read his expression.

“Just trying to help you, Y/N”, Johnny continued walking, meanwhile, you remained frozen in the same spot.

You didn’t know how to feel. Are you really sure that you have completely moved on from Jaehyun? Deep down inside your heart, there is still some feelings left behind for him. Yes, he was your first love. First one-sided love. From all of those years, good memories with him suddenly turned into that one painful moment: getting rejected. Normally, it shouldn’t bother you, right? You have met some new great people after that and everything should be fine. Then, Jaehyun showing up in that one moment suddenly brought you back. You lifted your head up and looked at Johnny’s back. Johnny has been always there for you, ever since that moment you met him. At the back of your head you thought how it would be like to have a relationship with Johnny.

Johnny stopped his tracks again, noticing that you weren’t next to him. “Y/N?”

You snapped out of your thoughts and caught up with Johnny. You looked at his deep brown eyes again. All of a sudden you wrapped your arms around him. You didn’t know why you did that. It was out of control and you just wanted someone to hold you. But part of it was also the alcohol messing up your mind.

Without hesitation, Johnny wrapped his around you. “I’m sorry I freaked out like that”, you apologized. You buried your head in his chest.

“It’s okay. We’re friends right? I’m always here for you”, Johnny responded. And in that moment, your heartbeat was beating. You still wanted to blame the alcohol, but there was definitely something else that is making you do this.

To be continued.