#work on ya biases THEN u can think about doing hormones buster

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afab transfem & on testosterone hal. your art has opened my eyes to a gender i have never thought of before. you have me questioning everything . im insane im feral help me

I LOVE TALKING ABOUT HAL'S GENDER here's link 2 post abt on T hal. she's a complicated character and her connection (or lack of, with her non existent body) with dirk is fascinating. its kind of hard to say that she's afab in the way that... OK HEAR ME OUT, i think being assigned x at birth is different than being assigned x by narrative.

dirk was ambn but also afab within earth's societal standards. this can tie in with dirk's internalized homophobia and the disconnect he has with being into guys but also not wanting to be referred to as gay. anyways about hal, she didn't appear into the story as anything BUT glasses, and only was assigned male (dirk) by the narrative. her struggle with gaining her own autonomy is sooo very trans allegorical.

the reason why i thought hal would have gone on T, lies in how the option was presented to her straight out of the session. partially because she wanted to look different than dirk but its mostly that she has internalized beliefs of still needing to be an ambn guy (dirk). puberty was a fuckin STRUGGLEEEE for her because of getting tossed on earth c as a bodily 13 yr old. while the last programmed memory she has of a body was of said 13 yr old body, the disconnect she has when she sees her peers compared to herself is staggering, making her feel temporally left behind. "ok everything will be better once i become red dirk again... why does that fill me with dread."

i think she'd enjoy being on T even after the gender revelation because of the idea that she's able to alter her body however she sees fit. she'd do some body mods too if roxy wouldn't keep stopping her lol (she does it eventually). i think she might have some difficulty with understanding what being a girl means because of the strider-serket gender extremes curse, but she'll get there eventually.