#wonderful mango anon

[lostnfinding]

i love ur blog colorsssss (i know i say it every time and it’s probably not a good thing that it keeps changing considering the cause. but this combination just makes me v happy :D) -a very rambling mango

thank youuuuu :D

[lostnfinding]

ur drawings are so nice :D i love the kitty :) -mango

thanks!! :D

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ssssnekkkk :O -mango

angry noodle :D

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I AM BACK FROM THE VOID!! im so sorry i havent been able to send asks! i'll send another ask in a few min with my alt discord (~sneaky~ ik) cuz i finally figured out how to make one! -mango

MANGOOO!!! HII!!!

oooh yes!! im not gonna answer that one so your discord isnt just out there, but ill find you there!

[lostnfinding]

hi hi hi!! i just wanted to pop in and say that you are amazing :))) (and on a side note that documentary seems very interesting, i hope u have fun!) and this is something that i want to watch but i don’t have disney plus so i thought i’d recommend: soul! (if it’s something you’d be into, if not that’s perfectly fine) and an early happy new year to u too!! -mango :)

hiii!!!! youre amazing too :)))

yeah, ive watched Soul, its really good! the documentary was really interesting too do i have to go back and rewatch it bc i fell asleep? yes

happy early new year!!

[lostnfinding]

Hiiiii ur blog’s green is very pretty :) *yeets huggles and sadly disappears back into the void bc useless internet restriction* -mango

hiii mangoo, thank youuu :)

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i saw that you got to wear a button up for grad and :DD!! first of all congrats! and second of all YAY!! i'm sure you looked perfect :)) -mango (i'm sorry i was going to send this earlier but then brain went nope and i forgot lol)

thanks!! it was nice wearing it, it felt good

(its okay, it happens :))

[lostnfinding]

thank you! and that's great! I hope you get to do fun and relaxing things over the break :) (and the fact that it's summer where u are really confused me for a sec whoops) -mango

yeah, hemispheres are a bit confusing, takes me a sec to remember that's winter in some places

[lostnfinding]

I'm good, i've finished a lot of my big tests except for one that I have tomorrow so that's chill. I mean I should probably get to studying but ~useless brain~ what can I say :) How are you? -mango

thats great that you finished most of them!! and good luck with tomorrows!

and sometimes we need a break, its okay to distract a bit

im good! finished my tests for this year, and i go into summer break next week, so im pretty excited for that!

[lostnfinding]

hoi -mango :) (i really want to start a conversation but i have nothing to say lol)

hi! how are you?

[lostnfinding]

*gives you a nice big gentle hug* you are splendid and awesome!! and an amazing friendo :D (i'm sorry I literally cannot find words other than awesome, but for real. you are amazing and I'm super glad i get to be your friend :)) /gen -mango

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youre a wonderful friend, mango, i hope you know i care a lot about you /gen

[lostnfinding]

oh ok :) i just wanted to make sure that that would be ok with you. (i'm in a mood to give out hugs for some reason would you like one?) -mango

i would love hugs!

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i was just wondering what you'd like me to call you... since im not a legit mutual :) -mango

you can call me Nicco, Nix, Pheonix, Theo, Eli, Kai, whatever youd like! the only reason why youre not a "legit" mutual its bc you dont have tumblr, but i think of you like one :)

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ok im gonna see if i can place a hold on Sick Kids in Love somewhere, your daily reminders have worked :) -mango

yayy!!! its a great book, and it goes in on how it feels to be a sick teen with an invisible illness very well :D

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thank you for that. I'm sorry if I shouldn't have said anything, I hope it didn't feel like I was busting in on your feelings. I'm sorry you have to deal with all of this. I'm sorry for your loss. /gen -mango (you don't have to reply to this, i just felt really bad if I made anything worse. and I just wanted to say that I'm very thankful for you and I really care about you. <3)

you werent, its nice to talk to someone about this. i feel like i cant talk to my irls bc they get really sad and ig they arent used to feeling so sad, so we just dont talk about how it affects us. im glad you came to talk about it, it is comforting to know im not alone.

im sorry for your loss too /gen

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i read your tags on the thingy about farrah and annaleigh (i know just enough of the plot for it to make sense, thanks for that) and i just want to say that... same. i listened to the song and yeah. agh. but idk something about u saying all of that made me feel less alone, so thank you. they say it gets easier, but does it really? :'( -mango (gentle hugs bc that's what i'd do if i could see you)

i think in some aspects it does, but the fact that theyre not there is just always gonna hurt. maybe the memories wont be as painful one day, but the emptiness of them being gone is always gonna be there, and i think well have to learn to deal with it and sometimes its gonna be harder but well get through it. its a mixture of anger and hurt and confusion because why them? i guess thats a question well never get the answer for. and it hurts. a lot. but its okay to hurt

im here if you need anything