#womanhood is a performance n im tired of bein a circus clown

[ofsaintsandmurderedmen]

don’t rly kno how i feel about calling myself a lesbian anymore

bc i like girls and the label fits in a technical sense. but when u look at it that way like. i guess the label nonbinary fits me in a technical sense as well but i can’t bring myself to fully accept that as a Truth of who i am

so it’s like i mean i guess i’m a lesbian but i don’t really want to actively call myself that. it doesn’t feel right.

calling myself a lesbian is like putting a square peg in a round hole. it fits but u rly gotta force it in. except in this scenario there’s no square hole to put the square peg in. either u force the peg into the round hole or u just don’t put the peg anywhere

and then there’s the whole gender thing. where i’m hesitant to call myself nonbinary, but not at all in the same way i’m hesitant to call myself a lesbian. it’s not because it doesn’t fit it’s because it’s scary. being a lesbian was the only thing that even somewhat connected me to womanhood and now i don’t even rly identify w that label anymore. i’m just not a woman in really any sense at all, but i feel like i’m so indifferent to my gender i can’t even label it but i also feel like a lot of society is rly dependent on labels so if i don’t label myself as anything then i am just Not Anything

in all honesty i could just call myself a nonbinary lesbian for the sake of convenience but that label doesnt sit quite right with me 2 describe myself