#with a special guest appearances from a few ateez members and wonyo🤩

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Idol Crush! [32]

► THIRTY TWO: jonghoe from ateez (2.4k words)

"Wonyoung!"

"And Jungwon!"

"Won! Won! Cross!"

You were about five seconds away from just calling it a day and bolting the hell out of Music Bank. And could anyone blame you for wanting to leave?

Absolutely not.

You highly doubted anyone wanted to be in your position right now; watching the boy of their dreams host a reputable music show with his very beautiful girlfriend standing right beside him. You were honestly just itching to leave, but your responsibility as an idol weighed you down, keeping you rooted in place as you continued to watch the live broadcast from your waiting room.

You weren't the only one gathered around the screen. Both Ami and Riyah were seated on the couch next to you, eyes trained on Wonyoung and Jungwon's introduction skit while Jia sat in the makeup chair a few feet away.

"They're really cute together, huh?" you mumbled as you observed their dynamic, a slightly forlorn expression on your face.

The two of them seemed so comfortable around each other and they were doing an incredible job in front of the camera. Then again, you had to remind yourself, they were dating. Of course they'd have amazing chemistry.

A small part of you feels bummed out seeing how well they work together, but the larger part of you feels incredibly guilty.

How could you even think about Jungwon the way you did while knowing that he had a girlfriend?

How could you even allow a small part of you to hope that their relationship wasn’t as secure as it seemed?

How could you even entertain the idea of Jungwon reciprocating your feelings when it was now clear that he only viewed you as a friend?

God, you were well and truly going to hell for having all of these thoughts. It would be a wonder if you didn’t get a VIP entry straight to the pits of the underworld.

“So what?” Ami scowls, “You and Jungwon would look totally cute together too. Personally, I think you’d look even cuter!”

You felt the beginnings of a small smile begin to form on your lips. Trust Ami to try and hype you up even though it all seemed hopeless at this point.

You turn your attention back to the monitor, your eyes falling on Jang Wonyoung. Although you were older than her by a few months, you couldn’t help but admire the girl. She was a top-notch idol who managed to re-debut despite previous hardships. And even with all the bullshit you saw people saying about her on social media, she still managed to walk around with an air of assuredness and confidence. 

You, on the other hand, were a mess.  

You felt like crying half of the time when you thought about your life. And although you were trying your very best to look like somebody whose social life wasn’t going up in flames, you were pretty sure you were failing to do even that. Maybe it was a good thing Jungwon didn’t view you as girlfriend material. You could barely hold your shit together under pressure. At the very least, you were happy he seemed to find somebody as lovely and assertive as Wonyoung.

A knock on the waiting room’s door shakes you out of your self-deprecating thoughts and you turn your head to see 3 of your label mates walk in. Choi Jongho, Jung Wooyoung and Kang Yeosang all enter - Wooyoung greeting everyone the loudest by far and causing all of the attention to fall on him. When Jia sees him, she scowls in annoyance and you can’t help but laugh when the boy easily gravitates towards her. To be honest, you had no clue what the relationship between them was exactly, only that Jia got annoyed by him easily and he took a special pleasure eliciting a reaction out of your aloof leader.

Yeosang and Jongho naturally make their way towards you, Ami and Riyah. 

“Hey guys,” Yeosang greets cooly, taking a seat next to Riyah while Jongho makes himself comfortable on the armrest of the couch, “Everything good?”

Your eyes narrow suspiciously as your gaze shifts from Yeosang to Jongho.

It wasn’t particularly weird for them to be asking about your group’s well-being. On the contrary, you’d even say that your group was on extremely friendly terms with most of the Ateez members (given that you were all under the same company) ,however, something definitely felt off. Jongho was oddly silent and Yeosang had his attention trained on you specifically. Not to mention, you literally saw them less than an hour ago when you were practicing your scripts…So why the sudden interest?

You push back your suspicions and answer Yeosang’s question with a shrug, “Everything’s good. Just nervous y’know…It’s our first time performing our B-side, and as you can see,” you gesture around to your incomplete group, “our team isn’t really at full capacity.”

“Right…Right…” Yeosang trails off and you raise your brows at his awkward expression. When you try to look at Riyah and Ami, you see that they’re avoiding your gaze as well. Okay, something was definitely up.

“Why are all of you being weird?”

“Weird?” Ami’s voice comes out high-pitched, “Who’s being weird? I’m not weird-”

“They told us about your crush on Jungwon. Actually...they kind of told us about everything. ” Jongho interrupts bluntly, if not a bit sheepishly and you gasp. 

Unbelievable.

You glare at the two girls seated beside you, “Literally why would you tell them? ” your voice takes on a whiny edge, but you’re not actually mad, just severely annoyed.

The members of Ateez, especially the younger ones, were almost like your brothers. They were people you were close enough with to engage in deep conversations, but not exactly who you’d choose to disclose your crush to.

“It was totally on accident!” Riyah exclaims apologetically, “Ami and I were in the practice room talking about everything and how crazy it all sounded and these losers took it upon themselves to eavesdrop at the door,” she pointedly glares at a guilty Jungho and Yeosang, “What were you guys doing sneaking around our practice room anyway?”

“Uhm, excuse us for wanting to be good seniors by checking up on you guys!” Wooyoung huffs, joining the conversation. He slings his arm around Jia who in return shrugs it back off.

“Anyways,” Wooyoung looks at you, “We wanted to ask you personally about it this morning while we were going over the script, but Hongjoong hyung said we should stay out of it.”

“And yet here you are.” You reply dryly.

“This whole thing is such a mess. ” he shakes his head, ignoring your half-hearted glare, “You’re telling me you can barely trust two of your members and your prince charming already has a girlfriend? Who did you piss off in your past life Y/N, cause they’ve definitely got it out for you.”

Jia sees your figure slump at Wooyoung’s words and she takes it upon herself to elbow the boy in the ribs, “Do you have to be so blunt?”

“That’s kinda rich coming from you.” he winces.

“I still can’t believe Daiyu and Sunwoo would do such a thing though,” Yeosang says, successfully interrupting Jia and Wooyoung from prolonging their banter, “They never seemed like they could be capable of such a thing, let alone to one of their own members…”

“Oh, we couldn’t believe it either,” Ami clenches her fists while you remain silent, “And the fact that none of them have the balls to reach out to us or Y/N? It’s like the two years we spent together meant absolutely nothing to them!”

“This is so fucked up,” Wooyoung sighs, serious for once.

He shoots you an apologetic smile and you only shrug wordlessly. Your older friend pouts at the crestfallen expression on your face and he bounces over to you, taking your head in his hands and moving you side to side like your head were a steering wheel, “Stop looking so sad! I can’t even tease you about Jungwon because you look like you’ll burst into tears any second!”

“You are ruining my makeup!”

You know what would make you feel better?” Wooyoung gasps as he pulls back, leaving you wincing as you rub your neck, “I should do aegyo! You guys love it when I do aegyo!” he grins brightly and the room bursts into a chorus of groans.

“No Wooyoung,” Jia scoffs, “You love it when you do aegyo.” 

“Umm, excuse me…” Your manager interrupts, her voice akin to something like a saving grace, “But your guys’ interview is scheduled next. We need you in position.”

Nevermind. She definitely wasn’t your saving grace. She was basically sending you off to your doom.

“Hey, Wooyoung, how about instead of aegyo, you knock me over the head so I don’t have to embarrass myself on a live broadcast?”

“Oh, sure! Do you want me to-”

“I’ll knock you both over your heads if you don’t get your asses up.” Jia declares irritatedly as she runs her eyes one last time over her script, “Come on, it’ll be over before you know it.” Her last line is directed at you with a reassuring smile and you sigh, exhaling deeply.

“Don’t worry Y/N,” Jongho’s voice says encouragingly, “I’m sure you’ll do great.”

“Promise to sing at my funeral when I die of embarrasment?” you ask pessimistically.

Jongho only sighs in amusement.

Jang Wonyoung thinks that she is a very observant person. That, or you and Jungwon are just so painfully obvious.

When Ikonic and Ateez walk onto the set for their joint interview, Wonyoung watches with mild interest as you and Jungwon interact. The greeting is slightly awkward compared to the rest and while you try your best to avoid eye contact, Jungwon can’t take his eyes off of you. Or more specifically, Jungwon can’t take his eyes off of Jongho’s hand on your shoulder.

Interesting, Wonyoung thinks as she glances at her fake-boyfriend. His demeanour had changed instantly when he saw you and Jongho walking together and Wonyoung almost thinks she can see the pessimism rolling off of him in waves.

Neither Starship or her manager had told her that Yang Jungwon was involved with anybody before they offered her the deal. Or maybe she was just looking too deeply into the interaction and jumping to conclusions. Yujin always did tell her that she had a wild imagination...

Then again, Wonyoung notices, Jungwon was gripping his cue cards a bit harder than usual. And if she recalled, she did see a few articles about you and Jungwon floating on the internet a couple of weeks ago. What was it again? Something along the lines of the two of you and a botched pre-debut confession? Wonyoung can’t help but wonder if there might be something more at work here.

At the sound of the camera director yelling out a few instructions, the girl turns her attention back to her job as an MC. She’ll ask Jungwon about his connection to you later. Wonyoung knew she wasn’t actually dating him, so she had no right to dig into his personal life, however, not even she could deny that she was curious about the palpable tension floating around you two.

Not to mention, the rest of Ikonic and Ateez were looking between you two as if they knew something the rest of the world didn't. Wonyoung couldn't lie and say all of this wasn't peaking her curiosity.

“Okay!” Wonyoung turns her head at the sound of the Director's cue and smiles prettily at the camera.

“We’re live in 3…2…1”

“It’s Wonyoung!”

“And Jungwon!”

“Here with Ateez and Ikonic!”

“Welcome! And let’s begin this interview…”

Jungwon is…annoyed.

He’s standing in front of the camera, trying his absolute best not to mess up his lines, because for some reason (he knows the reason), he can’t get the image of you and Jongho out of his head.

When he had first seen the two of you, you were whispering heatedly and seemed awfully close to each other... Which was fine. Really. It was all good. 

Yes, Jungwon did have a slight (read: massive) crush on you, but that didn’t mean that you couldn’t have any male friends. It's not like Jungwon was insecure or anything because you were being friendly with another handsome, talented male idol who could possibly give him a run for his money.

It was completely fine.

But. It. Wasn’t.

Because if it was completely fine, Jungwon wouldn’t be resisting the urge to roll his eyes in annoyance when he heard Jongho’s voice utter his lines. And he definitely wouldn’t be forcing himself not to let out a scoff when Jongho proceeded to completely fuck up (okay, exageration, he stuttered once) his lines which made you giggle. You giggled. Like, why was that even funny?

Jungwon is so preoccupied with his inner monolougue that he doesn’t realise everybody else is waiting for him to follow his own script. It’s only when Wonyoung interrupts with a playful, “Jungwon!”, does he snap back into action, his neck and cheeks heating up in embarrassment. Shit. Was it his turn to speak?

“Ah, yes…”Jungwon trails off weakly as he looks down at his cards, searching desperately for where he last left off.

Although he had taken the liberty of high-lighting everything so that he wouldn't forget his place, none of that really did him any favours seeing as he wasn’t paying attention in the first place. Who had spoken last? Was it Ateez’s Wooyoung? Or maybe that girl from your group, Riyah - the one he caught sneaking glances at Jay hyung.

“Ask Ateez sunbae to demonstrate Deja Vu's killing point.” a voice that he easily recognises as yours whispers.

You were helping him.

With no time to ponder over your kindness, or how close your voice was to his ear was, Jungwon scans his cards and finds the lines he was supposed to deliver. He clears his throat and gestures to the members of Ateez with faux excitement, “Is it possible for you to show us the kill point of your dance?”

“Of course!” Wooyoung answers excitedly and Jungwon relaxes a bit now that the attention is not on him anymore. As per the script, Wooyoung demonstrates the dance while the rest of you cheer excitedly and follow the moves.

By the end of the interview, Jungwon wants to crawl into a hole and die.

Not only did he fumble up a whole interview on live broadcast, but he also embarrassed himself in front of you. Hell, if it weren’t for you, he probably would’ve stood there looking like a fool longer than he already did.

Also,Jungwon seriously wasn’t appreciating the amused look Jongho was sending his way. What was his deal? As if the older boy himself hadn’t messed up as well. Jungwon almost scoffs at the audacity.

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SYNOPSIS: Y/N knew that once she and her group, IKONIC, finally debuted, there'd be a chance that she'd run into YANG JUNGWON: The leader of the global rookie group ENHYPEN. But JUNGWON isn't just the leader of a famous 4th gen boy group... he's also the boy that she confessed to three years ago and got rejected by. The last thing Y/N needs to do is fall back in like with him, because even something as simple as an idol crush! could bring about some unwanted drama and Dispatch worthy headlines.

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