#windbreaker webtoon angst

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✦ ❝ 𝐈 𝐦𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐨𝐫 𝐈'𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤 ❞

𝑆YNO ✦ .ᐟ Your friendship with Friend!Vinny Hong is confusing. Breaking off wasn't the easiest and Vinny found himself trying to find you after many alterations.

WARNINGS !¡ SLIGHT YANDERE VINNY, NO NSFW yandere behaviors, if uncomfortable please click off. Heavy? angst, people pleaser reader, Misunderstandings, hating and jealousy, Delusional behavior, possessiveness and obsessiveness, stalking, Getting drunk, usage of alcohol, i don't think ooc Vinny is pathetic ngl

A year and half of Vinny meeting you passed. Everyday, after an argument, he'd catch a glimpse of you on the way to school. Living in this crappy neighborhood wasn't't as bad anymore, not if he gets flashed by your grin and a wave of your hand. Vinny liked every second of it, you recognized him, hitting up casual conversations to check up on how he's doing.

Today, the sun was glaring down at him. Sweat glistening on his forehead as he slung his backpack over his shoulder, his signature resting face planted on and his head floating to another reality. Vinny hated the lava ball in the sky. it made him feel sticky, being cooked up like an egg in a pan in this humid breeze that blurred everything he tried to visualize.

A cold gust blasted his little red hairs away, the unsharpness in his viewpoint became clearer than a crystal. It made shivers bump up on the skin of his naked arms. The fuzzy heat was frozen to a sharp block of ice and Vinny crossed his arms to makeshift a faux blanket, the needle picks at his skin tickling out jitters from his nerves.

With a wide mouth, the landscape around Vinny went in slow motion, h/c hairs brushed in his range, giggles pecking his earlobes. It wasn't the weather that shifted but Vinny...who was dunked in a cup of cold water with ice cubes when he made out that it indeed, was you. His hyperfixation.

The urge to chat with you...apologize made him stare like a deer stuck in headlights. Unable to take a step, to build something more than just a norm hit up and greetings. Vinny began scrutinizing the existence of you. An everyday task he never fails to scratch off his list.

White sneakers decorated your feet. a flowy sundress that had knittings of different species of flowers, dancing in the wind and exposing the supple flesh of your knees and molding around your curves. Finally, the rosebud purse that contained your stuff, hopefully Vinny could encourage himself and give you back the carmex lip balm that you've dropped last week.

The fists around the straps of the black bag tightened, it was a reflex as Vinny gawked at your florsence blessing, the light beaming from your form. Mismatched eyes bulged out when you set your gaze on him, with a curl of your glossy lips, your hand raised, shaking it at the taller male who got caught red-handed while soaking up the details about you.

"Y/–"

About to mutter up the title you went by, his words got stuck in his throat after the fog around the other person beside you got swiped away, revealing their confident and muscular posture. "Vinny!" He was trapped behind a spare wall in consideration but a swipe quickly washed the barrier away, his attention back on you.

"Hi.."

It sounded harsher than it was supposed to, defense displaying as a result of his past, he changed...but unable to express anything, his usual habits came back. The muscles of his face twitched too, thin eyebrow raising, staring down at you then love and need stirred in the sparkle of his eye, visible hearts shaping into the pupils.

The other individual took note of the obviousness. Vinny glimpsed at the thing by your side. The ocean blue eyes pinned him like a nail to a wooden board, sizing Vinny up and down. Sensing this, a prominent vein popped on Vinnys jaw while it clenched, knowing that this guy was planning much more than just being your friend.

he was trying to use you.

"Vinny, this is ------ my classmate! He's a foreigner and doesn't understand Korean but I'm helping him out here!"

Vinny could not care less, he didn't even remember what the name of this male was. He was desperate to talk to you again... after all he had a high amount of that to do. But an obstacle was in the way...

Yeah obviously he's a foreigner. Light hair, pale skin that shamed white paint and those knife-edged pupils that could point out your insecurities when they weren't even shown. Vinny was disgusted, it's not like he didn't want you to have friends but why this luxury type...he seemed to be rich...the first thing he could humiliate Vinny in.

"That's...nice. How's School going for you?"

"Ehh i have to get better grades." You stuck your tongue out playfully, scratching your scalp. "Mhm, yeah. I can help you if you want...I wanted to–" the words got stuck in his throat after you gave him a tilt of your head.

With a shallow smile at the idea, and the nod of your head to encourage the tutor thing. "That would be awesome! Thanks Vinny and say hello to your mom for me, I couldn't greet her this morning."

The simple gesture of his neck bopping down was enough as a response. "Who's that, Y/n, you still haven't introduced me." The boys seraphic tone matched the childishness he felt comfortable in. A spark funkled over your head, right, you forgot that your classmate was still here, too lost in the moment with your close friend.

"oh yeah, sorry about that. This is Vinny, we were– a...are close."

Your tone dropped a little from the smug vocals, returning to a polite speaking manner as the language switch gave Vinny whiplash, you were fluent too. The dialect was spoken like your mother tongue, flawlessly explaining and conversing.

Vinny was in a rollercoaster ride that took braking turns, loops that dropped his stomach and caused the acid to flux to his throat...or did he just want to throw up?

He hated the second that foreigner touched you and interrupted your talks so he could get your attention back on him. Vinny got pissed off, the grabby hands at your arm, tugging the fabrics. "Stoppp... i already said we'll go."

Vinnys recognized the annoyance in your way of talking, but it was another language so he had no idea whether you were just joking around. "Y/n.. Is he bothering you?" His eyes narrowed, calculating and mysterious as ever. He didn't want you to help this guy like you used to help him.

"No... it's alright, Vinny. Anyway, it was good to know that you're better. See'ya!"

With a wave, silence dominated again, the conversation being snipped short. Maroon liquid dripped in circles when Vinny clenched his fists at the anger that rose up inside of his chest, his teeth about to snap from the way he grit them together, sharp canines grazing against the flesh inside his mouth.

His nostrils flared, muscles in his face twitching and forming a nasty snarl. Vinny wanted to grab the nearest person and punch them until they bruise up just so he could get rid of this venomous toxicity.

The splitting headache came from the unsteady emotions he was enduring. It made no sense to him. Vinny sustained an intense change of view, his dreams and hopes came crashing, it clawed at his heart and tugged at every string keeping it together and pumpy.

Why? Why?

With a sigh, he allowed the negative thoughts to subside and continued his way. Yet overthinking never failed to win, taking upon his brain. Was it just an attraction? Or was it love?

And as they do say, Love is complicated. Relationships don't last long if you two don't click together. Finding the one is hard and almost impossible. His chest ached, the stress causing the male to ruffle his flame color hair, shakily sighing. He fucking hated this perplexity.

Vinny didn't like you for your looks. Yes, sure whatever, you were pretty but he saw something more... something deeper than just your features. His cheeks warmed up every time you picked him out of his ghost state, ignoring the people's flinches or disturbed glances.

Your voice...your sunshine personality. Your will to talk to him. The determination you set on him and encouraging him. When you complimented him. When you did small things for him. When you spotted him a crowd of million people.

No matter where or with who. You managed to clean out all the objects in the way, finding your way openly to the red-head.

Even when he shouted at you...when he used to push you away and try the tough person act on you. Yet...yet still, you weren't scared! You still returned with that stupid fucking grin of yours...!

Vinny hadn't realized the tears that collected at his lashline, falling on the heat of his cheek. His heart was squeezing and swelling up, the thudding was heard plainly as it sped up.

Why weren't you afraid of him? Why didn't you call him a monster like every other normal person did?! Why...why?

The resentment of the actions he did to hurt you made the guilt even worse, suffocating Vinny who regrets and feels the end to apologize over and over again. You've pulled him out of the pit hole. Out the darkness, the void that pressured him into his habits.

He was ascending to his best while you time by time built up before plunging into the shadowy battle with yourself. He already knew that your grades were getting worse, money was even shorter on your end, your family problems.

Even when you faced those things, you decided to help him out with his. Vinny made more friends as you retreated and faded away from his life. Only when the person has withered from your grasp...you go searching for them.

Vinny had already highlighted his mistake. But god you were the most important thing to him. Without you, his world was plain and colorless. It was like a flash in front of him when you two first met.

Jack, the black furball had led you to each other. Vinny held a grumpy face while you stroked the cat that belonged to him. He still remembers when you innocently asked if it was his feline with a dazzling smile.

Anger. It was just a scoff he gave you before snatching the pet from your hands and leaving, flinching when he arrived at his doorstep and you stood right behind him, arms crossed behind your back.

That just pestered him even more. Hissing at you to leave. Calling you vile names and weird insults. It didn't scare you off.

Everyday...you stood at his door waiting for him patiently. And Vinny never failed to get caught by you. Even when he tried sneaking away by the window on the other side.

You somehow found him. Everywhere.

A long... unpleasant year passed until Vinny gave up. Allowing you to enter his personal space, you loved his privacy. Then he got bombarded with the questions that you didn't already know.

Your curious voice was clear and whimsical as you asked for something you wanted to know. It was like that scene was happening in the moment as Vinny experienced a fragment of it.

"what's your favorite color?!"

You had pondered, brighter than the sun as you used all of your braincells to think about it. Vinny had replied with a 'guess' so you did, screaming out something far from what stereotypes would say.

"Hot pink!"

But Vinny hated stereotypes. He'd go against every single one of them if he could just to gain the hate of other people. A smirk spread on his face that time, nodding then chuckling at your outburst of happiness, celebrating something you guessed on first try.

"Yayy! I knew it!!"

The world around him was splashed and spread with colors that day. The unusual paint popping up whenever he saw you. And timely... he started to see it everywhere. A relic of you left behind wherever he went.

But that trophy rusted and putrificated as time made Vinny get distracted. His friends. The girl who had a dilemma with him. The cycling. Losing. Winning. Pressure. Stress. Depression. The accident with his friend and the list went on...

It was too much. Vinny was just an adult barely at the age of 20 too, he was a human. Not a monster or a freak. The constant confusion he swam in made his vision spin and swirl. What the hell was he supposed to do?!

As a result of the changing surroundings, the nature around Vinny casted a shadow. narrowing down to a little bubble of despair.

The world meant Nothing to Vinny without you. Why wouldn't you realize?!

He didn't mean to lash out at you when you tried to tell him that day...your expression tested him, your fidgeting and the stuttering. It was the last time you two spoke before parting ways into your neighborhood, you tried coming back days later, at the wrong time where things still hadn't calmed.

the rage you caused made you shelter yourself in your shell again. Staying away from your friend who you decided to just greet everyday...checking in.

And fuck did it hurt when he saw you again, a light spreading around and scorching off the gloominess. Vinny wants to apologize. He hopes you didn't find anyone else. someone who would steal his position. Someone who would have a future with you.

Vinny was a billion percent sure that he should be your lover while you were his. He was confident of it. You are supposed to be his. You are meant to be with him.

Right? Right...?

While walking around the streets, his body taking him on a familiar one, the street where you lived. Through the frail curtains, he could see the bedroom that matched your personality. But the softness in his expression faltered when Vinny caught you laughing and joking with the classmate.

So you were draining your energy for another person again? Just to be left on a low battery and discarded without getting charged.

Vinny was somehow gonna win you back. He needed you. Not because he was in a bad situation and pathetic again...yeah...not because you still pleased others even after they hurt you.

There...was nothing better than staying away for a while, right? Then you could recover from your problems and Vinny wouldn't be there as a limitation.

That night, Vinny had visited a...not so normal place. It was one of his least favorites. A club. The neon lights that stung your eyes, the loud music that deafened your hearing senses and the creeps left and right trying to drug you and traffick...

The redhead could practically feel the beats in his body as the Signals glided and made the floor buzz. He ignored everyone. He ignored everything. Just sitting at the bar with the delmonico glass that held in fuzzy substances. It wasn't an exemplary action...no. but it caused his nerves to ease off.

Sooner or later, without registration, one glass after the other burned down Vinny's throat, gulping all of them until he was dizzy. His face was flushed, hearing and seeing everything twice or triple of the norm.

The boy stood up with wobbling legs, away from the reaching hands, long nails that stroked up his biceps or abs, kisses being thrown in his direction and the weird people. The redhead tumbled into some walls, rested at some windows until he apprehended the local vicinity.

Knock. Knock.

His knuckles thumped onto the wood, to notify the person inside. That person was you. In your nightwear, just about to go to sleep. There was a nervousness that was built inside of you. Who was it? And at this time? The clock read out a clear '2AM'.

Opening the door slightly, you peeked with your eye which sent shocks through your body after seeing Vinny in his state, leaning against the doorframe with a pained expression. "Y/n..please" he hopelessly mewled out your name, one of his large hands settling on the wood for support, pushing his shoulder from the relaxed position.

"open... please?"

His words were slurred. And your heart raced.

What the hell was he doing? Worry raced and won against your frozen state as you quickly pulled him inside, the taller and obviously more buff boy fell on top of you, making you stumble your way over to the couch, losing your balance.

Vinny rested right above you, locking you into a caging hug as he rubbed his face against your shoulder, like a cat. The boy sniffed the nectar of your perfume, his eyes almost rolling back as he melted like putty into your comfort.

Finally. Your touch. He wanted more of it. He wanted you to touch him and feel him up everywhere.

"I'm so sorry...I'm so in love with you, Y/n."

Your eye twitched, signaling the fury and sudden blow you had to take. "Don't you fuckin' dare say that! You're drunk!" You squirmed, trying to buckle away from the arms wrapped around you like a blanket. Vinny had winced at your tone, it boomed inside his head and gave a pulse of a splitting headache.

"noo...i swear. I'm not. I love you. I'm... not drunk. I love you. I love you."

Vinny mumbled out, his eyelashes fluttering close while enjoying the warmth your body gifted his colder temperature. The need for you was being satisfied, finally. Vinny couldn't stay away.

He just can't do it. He demanded to have you back. He wants you. He just has to have you.

You were his.

Closing your own eyes, your upper lip scrunched and brows narrowed. Why was he doing this? He didn't actually mean it, did he? He was just not sober at the moment and tomorrow he'll be regretting everything.

Tears streamed from you, landing on Vinnys cheek. "Mhm...don't cry, Y/n. I'm sorry–...my fault? I didn't want to yell at you. I just love you so much it hurt when you cut me off. Please Y/n..."

"please don't ever leave me. Please..."

The pathetic desperation in his tone made you sob even more, his voice breaking along your crys. "You stupid dummy. There's no way I'm forgetting what you did."

"I'll make it up to you...promise."

"promise?"

Vinny instantly sat up, his body weight being removed allowing you to breathe again. His hand was in front of your face, holding up his pinky finger.

Vinnys mismatched pupils glowed under the light, softened and...for a second...it didn't feel like he was drunk at all. His heart was light and skipping beats at your touch, Vinnys cheeks going pinkish while he had his eyes on you.

You cloaked your smaller pinky around his and so, his gaze directed at the little connection you two made, a genuine, honey-like smile showing on his features and he tapped your thumbs against each other to seal the important promise.

"i swear I'll never hurt you again..."

Followed by a sloppy kiss planted right beside your lips before his head went limp on your chest, soft snores escaping him. And a loud sigh left you...was it real? What he said? Or was Vinny playing you? Either way... you felt too guilty.

Too guilty to not accept him. It was impossible for you to say no...

Your hands found themselves in his locks, playing with his scalp. While chewing on your bottom lip, liquid that matched his hair color dripped out of the injury and you simply licked it away, tasting the metallic flavor to make sure you weren't dreaming. This wasn't your imagination.

ARGH. The ending was good but rushed wtv

I HOPE you liked this and sorry for any mistakes.

Lyrics taken by the neighbourhood, Song: Softcore

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Wanna be yours

(Owen knight x reader)

Summary: you hated it when Owen got into fights you always nagged and scold him about it but what happened this time is new to you..

I was sitting my ass in this hard chair for an hour now doing my school works, suddenly my attention got taken away from my works when my phone makes a 'ding' noise, someone texted me

I looked at my phone for a minute before taking it, I pressed the button turning it on revealing my lock screen a picture of me and Owen together, a small smile plastered over my lips as I saw the picture of the two of us

I unlocked my phone looking at the notification Noah sent a message I take a look at my messages it was noah, my friend and also Owens, what could she be sending me this time? I thought as I opened her message

' y/n! Owen got into a fight again, I don't know where he went He just left immediately ' noah texted,

my heart raced, I immediately put my phone on my desk and stood up from my seat not minding if I haven't finished my school works yet. Owen comes first I took my jacket and wore it putting my phone inside it's pocket before leaving my apartment with my own bike with me

I rode off letting my feet pedal where it's taking me, Me and Owen had been friends since elementary, he was a very good friend of mine, he makes me smile, laugh and everything, but one thing I hate about him is when he gets into fights, any kind of fight that involves him, I hate it, Owen is not a short tempered guy but once his red button has been clicked

may God be with you

It was already night, at 9pm sharp the sky was already dark and the street lights illuminated the street, it was quiet, suddenly I stopped my bike when I saw a familiar blonde haired figure sitting in a bench his head was fall down in his hands holding it, I walked towards that person I already knew who it was, without hesitation I smacked his head making him jolt in shock and also in pain

Owen looks at me pain wais visible on his looks, bruise was all over his face making me feel bad for smacking him earlier if I could go back in time I would definitely repeat that...

"Did you get into another fight again?" I asked even though it was completely obvious, but he just looks at me for a second

" Wasn't it obvious? " He sarcastically said I was about to open my mouth and start scolding him when he spoke

"Can you please stop scolding me?" He said as if he already knew what I was going to say, He raises an eyebrow, but remains calm and direct with you, despite his rage over what happened after he lost the race earlier against Jay, his words makes me close my mouth

" what happened this time Owen? " I asked looking at him worried " nothing.." he answered looking away from me then looking down at his bruised fists" How many times do I have to tell you that stop getting into fight- "

" Enough, I told you to stop scolding me " he cut my sentence once again, I scoffed at his attitude and words

" how can I not scold you? You always got into fights" I spoke putting both hands on my waist looking at him " how many times do I have to tell you to stop getting into fights owen!"He rolls his eyes as you continue to scold him

you sometimes feel guilty for nagging him, but he's just so hard headed, even though he seems to ignore it

"What am I supposed to do?" He sighs "Just stand back and allow Jay to do whatever he wants? I can't just let him." He continues

" why do you have to fight? You can talk with him about it Owen, you don't need to fight with someone every time, don't you understand what I am saying? " I frustratedly said to him, looking down at him as he was sitting on the bench

I pulled his chin making him look up at me " look! You're all bruised up again " I nagged

"Oh please, don't be so dramatic. It doesn't hurt that bad, plus it's not the first time." He raises his eyebrows and looks at you sarcastically. He thinks you're joking right now "I'm used to fighting, you should know that by now." He continues

I looked hardly at him before letting go of his chin huffing at the air, gosh his head is hard as rock I put my hands back on my waist turning around not knowing what else to say, He won't listen to me

" can't you listen to me for once? I've been scolding and telling you 'bout this since we were kids " I muttered to him glancing at his side view

Owen scoffs at my words before he shakes his head. "You're still scolding me till this day. Haven't you done enough?" He sighs and looks at you with a serious face.

"Look, I appreciate you for worrying about me, but you're being overprotective. Let me handle my business." He hissed before looking away His words sent me to the edge of my temper

" I'm your god damn friend Owen and I care that's why I worry about you! " I yelled at him, gritting my teeth as I feel frustrated and annoyed about what was happening right now

Owen rolls his eyes at me "You're still treating me like I'm a kid. It's different now. I can handle it myself! I don't need you to tell me what to do! Mind your own business damn it!!" He raises his voice emphasizing each words

His words shots a million bullet in my heart

' I don't need you to tell me what to do '

' I can handle it myself '

I got hurt at what he said I feel like he's saying that he doesn't need me anymore, I put both of my hands inside my pocket, I looked up trying not to let my tears fall down, luckily it's night time and he can't see it, how can he say those words easily? How do he expect me to react at his words? Should I laugh?

" y-yeah you're right..." I looked down at my feet as I let out a fake laugh " you're not a kid anymore...you can handle yourself already haha..." I bit my lip trying not to let out a sob " okay fine..." I said " I'll just go home, I don't know why I am here anyways " I said as I pointed at my back, looked at him first before turning my back at him taking my bike with me

Owen immediately notices how you changed in a second. He knew that look when you were struggling to keep it together so he quickly stood up and went to you. He knows that he's wrong and he immediately felt guilty,He gently grabs your shoulders and turns you around so you can look at him in the eyes.

"Hey, I didn't mean it like that. Don't take it personally." Owen sighs, it wasn't like him to be rude and insensitive to you, he just got carried away by his emotions and he hated it every time his emotions take over him, he doesn't like hurting you, how can he hurt someone he love? He loves more than friends

I just scoffed at him not looking at him, a tear left my eyes making me wipe my cheeks with my sleeve

Owen sighs, he hates it when he makes you sad. Seeing you hurt hurts him also

"Hey..." He gently caress your cheek and pulls you closer in front of him, so you can make an eye contact with him. "Look at me." He said, I do as what he told me to, I looked at his baby blue eyes those orbs that left me speechless and mesmerized " you speak as if you don't need me anymore, like I was just a mere distraction to you " I spoke as a tear left my eyes

Owen's heart sinks as soon as he heard you say those words. He immediately wraps his arms around you and pulls you in tightly on his chest."Stop that, you're always going to be important to me. I'm sorry if what I said had hurt you." He said as he wiped your tears with his fingers.

"I'll never act like that again, I promise. You're so important to me how can you be a distraction? You're the one person I always seek comfort from you're too important for me to lose." He said as he gently strokes your hair,he felt guilty for acting like that he doesn't like what he did to you, I rested my head on his shoulder as I let out a quiet sob

" I hate you so much Owen " I sob as I grip his shirt " I hate you for making me worry about you all the time " I cried

Owen chuckles slightly because of how you're expressing your feelings while crying on his shoulder. He smiles, he finds it so adorable and charming to see you so emotional towards him. He hugs you a bit tighter and strokes your hair again.

"I'm sorry, you might hate me right now, but that will never change the fact that you're always going to be an important person to me. I'll make it up to you. Just forgive me." He whispered to my ears his hot breath hitting my ears his gesture makes my heart beat so fast and the closeness we had he might notice my heart so fast

" do you know how worried I am?earlier when noah texted me that you got into a fight with jay again?! " I yelled " I don't want you getting hurt Owen " I punched his chest slightly " why are you so stubborn? " I mumbled

Owen couldn't help but feel guilt and regret for making you worry about him so many times. The way you're crying into his chest and begging him not to get hurt anymore makes him feel like he's the worst person you ever had.

He sighs and shakes his head, wishing that he hadn't said what he said earlier.

"I'm sorry, I'll promise you I won't fight anyone anymore." He said as he looks at you with his blue eyes that look so irresistible under the night sky I looked back at him, looking at his wounds " damn you Owen! You always know how to make me soft towards you " I said as I bit my lip looking at him

Once again, he couldn't help but chuckle when you were being so cute and sweet towards him. You were very vulnerable and emotional right now and that's what he really loves about you.

"I'm a bit stubborn, but I really mean it." He smiled and leans closer to your lips. He gently grabs your chin and turns you toward him.

My heart started to run like crazy, out face are so close to each other, I looked deeply in his baby blue eyes noticing the affection it was in, this time I'm already sure that owen does feel the same as I am

I felt my cheeks heated up as I looked at him with my red eyes and red cheeks, I feel embarrassed fuck

Owen couldn't care less how red your eyes are, in fact he loved it because it makes you look irresistible to him. A grin appears on his face as he gets closer and caress your cheeks slowly with his hands. He brushes your jawline and chin with his fingers. You can feel his touch as it sends shivers up and down your spine.

His breathing is heavy and he leans closer and he's almost inches away from your lips.

" God damn it Owen " I hissed

then pulled his face to me as our lips crashed into each other, it was obvious that he was shocked at what I did but didn't mind it was also his plan in the first place, he wrapped his left arms on your waist pulling you close to while his right find it's way to you cheeks, his lips started to move and you did the same, you both kissed under the moonlight, he kissed you passionately with full of love

After a second he pulled away catching an air, he layed Hindi forehead on yours as your eyes were still close, I hope this isn't a dream

" Y/n....I like you "

Owen finally said, making you look at him, a smile went on your lips

" I like you too Owen.."

I confessed back, same as mine, Owen smiled as he cupped both of my cheeks before placing a light peck on my lips

" That's good to hear then.. I've been wanting to tell it to you..." He said closing his eyes before saying..

" wanna be mine y/n? "

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Chainsaw Man

Across The Spiderverse

Pls pls pls send in requests, im so boreddddddd

[drkbluedream]

MASTERLIST

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GENSHIN IMPACT

Little Crush - Beidou 🦋🫧💙

A Dare pt.1 - Zhongli 🦋🫧

A Dare pt.2 - Zhongli 🦋⛓️

JUJUTSU KAISEN

Miscommunication - Nanamin 🪼🥀

First Date - Nanamin 🦋🎐⛓️

TOKYO REVENGERS

Release Tension - Baji 🦋🫧🥀🎐

WEBTOON

Run - Jayjo (windbreaker) 🦋🫧🍺🎐

Toxic - Yoo Wooin (windbreaker) 🦋 🥀 🎐⛓️🫐🫐

In progress

- Gojo Satoru smut (requested)🦋⛓️🫐

Status request ; open.

Guide ;

🦋 - smut

🪼 - headcanon

🥀 - angst

🫧 - fluff

🍺 - alcohol involved

🎐 - alternate universe

💙 - same gender

🫐 - drugs

⛓️ - bdsm act

I pick dark blue as theme bcoz i can sense sadness in this color so maybe, soon, or idk when, i will post angst only

[amourlyns]

⠀ ⠀ updated: monday april 1st

‍ ‍all rights reserved, ©2023 amourlyns, don’t copy or

‍ ‍translate my works. stealing formatting is prohibited

𝑎𝑝𝑒𝑥 𝑙𝑒𝑔𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑠

⟢ including: octane, mirage, bangalore, loba, fuse, bloodhound, catalyst, ash, revenant, caustic, pathfinder, rampart, seer, gibraltar, horizon, crypto, lifeline, wattson, valkyrie, vantage, wraith and vantage & many more

𝑤𝑖𝑛𝑑𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑟

⟢ including: jay, minu, yuna, mia, dom, hyeok gwon, joker, vinny, owen, harry, noah, mia, juhwan, mario-nam, monster, shelly and wooin & many more

𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑣𝑒𝑙

⟢ including: captain america, thor, ironman, hulk, hawkeye, scarlet witch, spiderman, doctor strange, black panther, moonknight, deadpool, black widow & many more.

𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑐ℎ

⟢ including: tracer, widowmaker, mercy, genji, reaper, solider 76, zarya, d.va, sombra, hanzo, winston, doomfist, mei, junkrat, symmetra, moira, reinhardt, pharah, zenyatta, orisa, cassidy, winston, roadhog, torbjörn & many more.

𝑡𝑙𝑜𝑢

⟢ including: joel, ellie, jesse, dina, tommy, abby, tess, marlene, henry, sam & many more.

𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑐

⟢ including: anyone from any franchise

𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑜𝑓 𝑑𝑢𝑡𝑦

⟢ including: konig, simon ‘ghost’ riley, johnny ‘soap’ mctavish, john price, macmillan, farah, alex mason, frank woods, david mason, logan walker, kyle ‘gaz’ garrick, kim "horangi" hong-jin & many more

𝑟𝑑𝑟2

⟢ including: bill williamson, dutch van der linde, john marston, abigail marston, javier escuella, charles smith, arthur morgan, lenny summers, sadie adler, hosea matthews, sean macguire, & many more

𝑑𝑒𝑡𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑐𝑠

⟢ including: batman, superman, wonder woman, aqua man, harley quinn, red hood, nightwing, cat woman, flash, cyborg, lois lane, batgirl, kara zor-el, starfire & much more

[binsoojun]

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MASTERLIST— 💌 ;;

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[ ♡. ] ㅤ➜ㅤdefinitely can write for this!

[ ♧. ]ㅤ➜ㅤcan write for this, i just need inspo.

[ ♢. ] ➜ㅤehh, might need some time writing.

[ ♤. ]ㅤ ➜ㅤi don't write for this anymore.

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ONE PIECE [ ♡. ]

— oblivious - gn!reader × sanji short drabble

— the writing is on the wall. - gn!reader × modernau!donquixote doflamingo oneshot

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GENSHIN IMPACT [ ♢. ]

— love at first punch - xiao drabble

— anxious puppy love - fischl and bennett oneshot

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VIRAL HIT / HOW TO FIGHT (WEBTOON) [ ♤. ]

— what went wrong? - gn!reader × kim munseong angst drabble

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GOKURAKUGAI [ ♡. ]

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YOUR TURN TO DIE (YTTD) / KIMI GA SHINE [ ♡. ]

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WUTHERING WAVES [ ♡. ]

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MAIRIMASHITA! IRUMA-KUN (WELCOME TO DEMON SCHOOL! IRUMA-KUN) [ ♢. ]

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BRUTAL: SATSUJIN KANSATSUKAN NO KOKUHAKU (CONFESSIONS OF A HOMICIDE INVESTIGATOR) [ ♡. ]

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TRUE EDUCATION/GET SCHOOLED (WEBTOON) [ ♢. ]

— hwajin na + hanrim im s/o headcanons

— hwajin na with pacifist s/o headcanons

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WINDBREAKER (WEBTOON) [ ♤. ]

— june lee + jay jo with pacifist s/o headcanons

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LOOKISM (WEBTOON) [ ♧. ]

— gun drabble: a date out with him

— goo gives you a sudden love confession !?

— gun + goo 'type to' short headcanons

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OBEY ME [ ♡. ]

— saying i love you for the first time. - gn!reader × satan + diavolo + mammon + leviathan fluff imagine

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ORIGINAL CHARACTERS (OCS)

— oc introduction: the hajimes

— hajimes being yakuzas info

— yuri hajime drabble ; taking care of troublesome members

— hajimes: what are their special abilities and weapons?

— yuki hajime chibi sketch

— hyunwoo kim (elexir, amatsuki 's no. 2)

— yuri x akio dumped oc drabble prompt (two immortal gods)

— xu eita chapters (pre to current apocalypse)

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[kittsyspaw]

✦ ❝ 𝐆-𝐚-𝐧-𝐠 𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐲, 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐁-𝐚-𝐧-𝐠 𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐲 ❞

𝑆YNO ✦ .ᐟ FWB!Vinny Hong tries to earn you back after noticing you've been slipping away, keeping you as his.

WARNING !¡ mentions of Vinnys break-up, One-shot, friends with benefits, short! HEAVY smut, 'One'-Sided feelings, hard angst, gaslighting and manipulation, vinny also kinda pressuring you back to him, OOC vinny cuz ik he would never

"V'...s-slow...down!"

Thuds from the bed echoed into the deepest corners of Vinnys new high-rise flat as the male forged an entrance into your elastic walls

Your body was tired...and it was only the second round, your muscles stretched into all the positions your acquaintance placed you in. The mewls leaving your throat were out of breath, yes, the current position was Vinny taking you from behind, one of your legs being held by his palm while the other supported you on the sticky sheets, his other hand grasped your shoulder for support.

Suddenly, your head was pushed down against the pillow, silencing all the noises that were forced out of your mouth, it felt too surreal, the squeaking, the insults spitting out of Vinnys lips and his body heat warming you up.

"Oh fuck... Don't fucking cum. Not yet."

Shivers danced down your sides at the boys deep, raspy voice, your nerves catching on and making you squeeze on his hard, angry cock that penetrated you endlessly. Your hips bucked up, away, so you could hold your orgasm as ordered.

You lifted your head up a bit, mouth sobbered with saliva, building a slick string between you and the pillow, tears collecting at your lash line, it was too much. You were gonna cum soon, your insides tightened together, the fire in you flickering to finally turn into huge flames.

The vision you entrusted yourself with was cut short by fingers tangling themselves into your sweat-filled locks, pushing it back to it's original spot. Vinny leaned his body down, hitting you from a new angle that reached spaces inside you that you never knew existed.

"Fucking hell...im not gonna last...just a little longer, yeah?"

The only thing reaching your ears were the groans from Vinny, the squeaking bed mattress, the constant thudding, harshly slapping against each other and the most embarrassing sound of your pussy proving that Vinny was doing a good job, your juices buttering up your pussy.

"! so good..."

You yelped out, the sheet being crumbled underneath your fingers, Vinny sped up, chasing his pleasure. The air was humid, both of you reeked of sex and sweat, you were already tired but Vinny was still energetic, being a cyclist sure came with a lot of stamina, especially since he had been using you to train after he got a new schedule and a specifically modified bike for himself.

"V! Vinny!"

The snug cunt around his cock made Vinny melt on the inside, he felt that knot in his stomach, his chest stuffed while he controlled the way his lungs worked, pacing up a hood breathing technique. His eyes watered, Vinny was hot all over, his whole body felt like he's been standing under a summery sun proudly high in the air.

"God dammit... your thigh is twitching again...keep it inside, don't burst yet... we'll do it together."

Your mind drifted away, leading to thought that had been implanted in your brain for some time. Vinny was only using you, fuck yes, you loved every second that he touched you sensually...so roughly manhandling you after a while ...you were growing tired of it, the constant reminder that Vinny already has someone he's always thinking of.

Yumi. God how badly you want to like her as a friend, maybe if it were a different life, a different circumstance where you didn't harbour harsh feelings for the Redhead that you've known for a while. The heartbreak and depression you went through because of them revealing their relationship on the day you were gonna ask Vinny out was nothing like you.

You kept away. You bottled up these feelings and stayed for yourselves because it was hard, exhausting watching them make out or have insides jokes that brought them closer in other peoples eyes because the only two who understood them were Vinny and Yumi.

Your mind played tricks on you, you blamed everything. Jealousy was a dangerous weapon, you couldn't even look Vinny in the eyes because of the teeth gnawing at your veins every time they held hands.

Until...until that fucking day came. Two months and one day after the reveal of their partnership, Vinny called you in the middle of the night, asking you with a yearning voice to come over to his old, shabby house where he stood alone because his mother was at work.

'I need to get some steam off' he has told you, in your vulnerable state that craved some intimacy, somebody holding you, you went over like an idiot. All because you loved Vinny, it seemed like a win-win to you. Officially, you were marked as a homewrecker that night yet Vinny kept telling you that nothing would happen because you two would stay private about it.

And so, the two of you have been doing this for a while, it's not news. It would've been a huge piece of gossip for his ex-girlfriend, a heartbreaking one at that and you couldn't help it. Vinny suggested the idea of having this type of relationship without her knowing, telling you that it's not her business anymore now because they newly broke up.

The guilt made you drown. The pleasure made you thirst for more. The little joy in you after their breakup was like a reward but the aftermath of your overthinking made you suffocate.

Yes...you won him? Right? After all, they broke up...Vinny found some job and now has a better life in a bigger house that wasn't running down and needing repairing with every harsh move you made.

Everything shattered. Vinny abruptly stopped pouncing at you, his marking hands immediately jumped off your skin to reach his device, the cold air that touched the spots beneath his warm palm made you gasp, you came already? Vinny didn't.

You saw the caller ID that read huge letters of "Yumi ❤️"

Leaving behind no assurance or comforting words, the me stood up from his humid situation, putting on his bathing cloak and walking away to have a private conversation. You just...sat there on the bed, naked on display, humiliated. Was he making fun of you? How easy you were?

Tears ran down your already puffy eyes, you brought up your shaky hands to wipe them away but they were like an open-left sink, streaming down to no end. Your chest heaved up and down overwhelmingly. You felt used, ruined, out of place.

It was your own karma, for scheming in a betrayal against a beautiful woman who was much better than you, after all, Yumi was the one who introduced Vinny all the trick and it made your stomach churn. Did she also have a sex with him? Just like this? Did he treat her in such a crude way too? Probably not. You could imagine how it was filled with wet, sloppy kisses, giggles and laughter leaving their bodies while you stood in a gloomy, pitiless and quick sex that had you troubled walking for a few days.

But...you wanted it, the attention from a male, not just any male, it was Vinny.

He came back minutes after, finding you dressed up in your T-shirt and your panties, about to cover yourself with your jeans.

"Where are you going?"

You flinched at the stern tone coming with the question that quickly reminded you of what you two were in the middle of, the ecstasy was about to end before that phone call, where you probably would've gotten a water bottle before the next round started, classic routine for you.

"just... dressing...i thought you didn't want to–"

Vinny cut you off, placing a gentle pat on top of your head before crouching down in front of you whilst you sat on the sheets that crinkled from your movements . He touched you like you were a feather...with such care, holding your face in his cold hands, the temperature from before dying down when he stood on the balcony

"Baby...look at me, I'm sorry, yeah? It was just a business call from Juwon, don't work up your pretty little head, got it?"

You nodded, too lost against his sudden shift in personality while talking to you, melting at the contact of him on you. Vinny...seemed so happy? Oh but, he just lied to you? It was a call from his ex, is that why? Why he's happy? Not because he likes you?

"V'...i think i wanna stop this friends...with benefits thing...sorry."

The feeling of being scared of what's gonna happen next made you unable to hold eye contact, playing with your fingernails seemed much more interesting to you in the moment of the anticipation for what Vinny was going to reply with.

"Why? Did i do something? If its about the ca–"

Quickly interrupting him, you shook your head, explaining how you were gonna search for an actual relationship because you want to feel loved by somebody, and it was the truth. You craved for it, pathetically so.

"Hey...i still stood with you, even when i was with Yumi, you know that, right? You also agreed to it."

Your heart paced faster, oh, he was right. He did do that for you, ruining his relationship with his girlfriend to have you in his bed at night or when she wasn't there. You broke apart things you weren't supposed to meddle with. "B-but Vinny..." Your vision blurred with bitter tears that slid down your cheek pitifully, the pressure you held from the responsibility was even worse than having to think about the future.

With one attractive red eye and the other black, his gaze was fixated on you, awaiting a response, expecting you to say this was a prank or something. A prank he found ridiculous, Vinny knew how he was manipulating you right now but it was for his benefit, he didn't want you to leave yet. After all, you're trying to slip away from his grasp.

Grinding down on his teeth, he wiped away your waterfall with a sympathetic expression, his red locks tickling your cheeks when he pecked you lips. Your heart rate flared up, your whole body was warm, sweating from the back of your neck when you finally came to the sense of what he did.

V' kissed you.

"o...!"

The muscles in your face twitched on their own, showing Vinny a little grin, your brain discarding all the decisions and sad ideas you had right away at the exchange of Vinnys attention for one small peck.

"Get those things out of your little dumb head, mhm? C'mon, i still wasn't finished with you"

Giggling when his hand ran up your thigh, Vinny pushed you back against the mattress, starting over the progress again, remembering that he didn't cum the last round.

You were giddy. On cloud nine, your mood flipped the change with no little review about what just happened, you got your crushes attention. That was everything you needed to lose the consciousness of the fact that you were gonna suggest not doing these meet-ups with Vinny anymore.

Once again, you were lured back into the trap that has been constructed for you, an endless cycle perhaps...But no matter what, you wouldn't be able to stop thinking about the fact that you're always not gonna be the first option. You never were. The second girl that was only taken advantage of for personal satisfaction.

It hurt. Knowing that Vinny would go back in a heartbeat to Yumi if his situation got better, then he would forget all about you, all the situations you had would be long in the past, the past is something you always are over.

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You were soundly asleep, tags all over your body from the intimacy you explored just a few hours ago, the scratches down Vinny back stung as he watched your peaceful state. The device he held onto to notifying another message, his ex-girlfriend asking to call him, few texts before telling to come over because she missed him.

The redhead leaned back on the mattress, eyes wandering on your figure, it was just what friends did..., sighing out loud, what should he do? Standing up after leaving some pills and a cup of water on the nightstand, Vinny, with heavy guilt, took his keys and closed the door after him, making sure not to wake you up from the slumber you got pounded into.

Yayy i hope you guys liked this, sorryyy i just reallly love Vinny and i also like me some good ass smut-angst

Lyrics taken by NLE Choppa, Song: Gang baby

[slvttysstuff]

REBOUND chapter 2

Chapter 1 https://www.tumblr.com/slvttysstuff/738042134255583232/rebound?source=share

(jay jo x reader)

warnings: Angst, grammatical errors

Summary:months after shelly and jay broke up he found himself in a relationship with you while he hasn't moved on yet from his past lover (shelly)

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After leaving their house you found yourself running at the place where jay gave shelly a flower as an apology and where you found jay broken at the time shelly cheated on him, it was already dark outside, it was late.

I sat on one of the bench, putting both of my hands on my face, crying my heart out, this was my first heartbreak and it was because of jay, my childhood friend, why did I even think that he'd already moved on from shelly when he's really not? I'm so fucking stupid

I continued crying when I suddenly smelled the scent of a cigarette , it was familiar the smell was familiar as I put down my hands and looked back to see if someone else was here

" what are you crying about idiot? "

Vinny...

I saw Vinny at my back taking a hit of his cigarette " what are you doing here? " I asked ignoring his question as I looked at him with my red eyes, he looked down at me holding a cigarette on his other hand while the other was on his bike

" why should I answer your question when you don't answer mine? " He sarcastically asked making me scoff about his attitude, no wonder why both of us don't get along

" why do you care? " I said looking at him, " I don't " he answered making me roll my eyes as I looked back at my hands that are wet by my tears

" you two broke up? " Vinny started, sitting besides me but at the other end giving a small space between us, I chuckled lightly, he got it right, I nodded my head as response

" you knew from the start that the two of you won't work, why did you even try to take the risk? "

His question left me dumb founded, his words makes me question myself too

'why did I even took the risk?'

I looked down in silence as he once again blew out a smoke " I thought you quit smoking? " I asked trying to switch the topic, he seems like he understands that I don't want to talk about what happened between me and jay

" I did, I just want to take one today " he mumbled but enough for me to hear, I looked at him as I finally got a look of his side view, he was actually very handsome I just don't know why people bash him about his eyes, it actually suits him, my eyes landed on the cigarette that was on his lips

I sighed and took the cigarette without his permission as I put it on my lips and took a hit, his eyes widen " h-hey! " He yelled as he looked at me, I looked at him tilting my head on the side lightly as I gave him a questionable looked before blowing the smoke in front of his face making him cough " yah idiot! You don't blew the smoke Infront of someone! Dumb ass! " Vinny scolded

I chuckled at his reaction and looked up taking a hit once again before blowing, I saw the smoke fading " I broke up with him, and then tomorrow I'll see him and in practice and in the tournament" I said " what do I do? I don't know how to act " I continued as I felt my eyes burn once again

Vinny looked at him " just ignore him, what's so hard on ignoring someone.." Vinny said looking at me irritated by what I said when it was completely obvious what to do " or just act normal like before when you were still on your right mind " he added making me looked at him brows near to collide " im in my right mind up until now " I argue as he shrugged his shoulders

I was about to take a hit when he took the cigarette on my hand and throwing It on the ground, stomping it after " don't try to smoke idiot it's not cool " he said as he stood up, I only looked at him " go home it's already late, you'll be late on your school tomorrow" he said, he took his bike " stop thinking what happened today and build yourself up, stop crying on someone who's and idiot too " he said pointing out jay as i laughed softly and stood up also " thanks vinny " i said, he looked at me with 'thank you for what dumbass' look making me roll my eyes as i punched his arms not too hard and started walking away....

im back! Feel free to request if you want me to do other story with windbreaker characters!!:))

[kittsyspaw]

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>ᴗ< this is just if you want to ask me something, currently, I can't rlly write much lol

>ᴗ< ok I don't appreciate anything that forces me to write and i need my time to post and update because i also have a 3 stories on my Wattpad account.

>ᴗ< it's mainly a Windbreaker x reader blog, but lookism or bleach characters are okay.

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>ᴗ< but in NSFW fanfics, i only write for a female reader with a AFAB. The gender is never really mentioned tho the only thing used is 'You' so it can be a genderfluid reader if that's what you like

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