#will and scruggs (ivan) are making me actually fucking nuts

[punkbarbarian]

second chances, gregory alan isakov / @punkbarbarian & @creacherkeeper / night walk, franz wright / @creacherkeeper / cowboy like me, taylor swift / @punkbarbarian / you are jeff, richard siken / the undone cowboy writes to his sweetheart, silas denver melvin / @punkbarbarian / wolf like me, tv on the radio

the mercenery and the criminal

[image id: 10 screenshots of text on varying color backgrounds.

1: "i could share it with you, if you gave me the time / i'm all bloody knuckles, longing for a home / if it weren't for second chances we'd all be alone"

2: two discord messages. the first reads "“i’m glad you’re here.” will speaks into scruggs’ shoulder. he is not letting go anytime soon." the second, from luka (he/they), reads "scruggs wraps his arms around will's back. "me too." he pauses for a while. "it was long time ago. but is why you can't say that name outside house. when i … got out … was big news. safe here in lost, but … good to be careful."

3: "walking home, for a moment / you almost believe you could start again. / and an intense love rushes to your heart, / and hope. it's unendurable, unendurable."

4: "He could come off intimidating, whether he wanted to or not. But the right people would know him for who he really was beneath."

5: "[verse 3] now you hang from my lips / like the gardens of babylon / with your boots beneath my bed / forever is the sweetest con"

6: "It would’ve been easy for this to be a one-off, emotionless physical relationship. That’s what Will had expected. It’s what he had become accustomed to in the past decade. But there was something about Ivan that drew him in. Inextricably, there seemed to be something about him that drew Ivan in, too."

7: "choke down the feeling, and you're trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you've discovered something you don't even have a name for."

8: "i'll skin you an apple / tight between the knife & my thumb, / if you let me feed you every slice. / that's the only paradise i can offer you. / (i'm sorry-it's what i have-it's what it is)"

9: "scruggs putting the past in the past vs will still holding onto it so hard even tho its been so long."

10: "[bridge] dream me, oh dreamer, down to the floor / open my hands and let them weave onto yours / feel me, completer, down to my core / open my heart and let it bleed onto yours / feeding on fever, down on all fours / show you what all the howling is for" /end id.]