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[pvnkshooter-a]

@wildernesslost / shauna & nat

tensions were growing higher the longer everyone was out here. that much was evident by the way jackie liked to bitch and moan, particularly when nat didn't deliver on the food front. away from the rest of the group, with shauna approaching nat's eyes rolled into the back of her head. the other girl saying something about how it was 'uncool' that jackie had talked shit. yeah, no fucking shit. "oh what like you suddenly care about me, shauna?" looking up, head cocked to the side before she managed to speak again. "you know i didn't ask for this and neither did travis for that matter but i don't see her shitting on him the way she shits on me."

[misquigleya]

some meme i lost, oops.

@wildernesslost asked: “Oh, I’m sorry, it’s time to be discreet?”

                          Lips parted but nothing came out, not at first anyways. It took the blonde a few minutes to process her thoughts and get them in order before she did reply. "What, would you like me to get a plane and write it in the sky that Shauna Shipman-Sadecki killed Adam Martin?!" she hissed, eyes rolling as head shook. "I can not believe you. How freakin' hard was it to just listen to me and follow simple instructions to avoid all of us, need I remind you, going down for your little lover's quarrel?"

Misty could only hope and pray that Jeff would keep his mouth shut because she wasn't sure if she could easily explain him disappearing. Especially to his wife. "God I thought you were smarter than this!"

[videoacolyte]

❛  what are you doing here?  ❜ ; @wildernesslost

They haven't the slightest clue. Interactions they've had in the past with Shauna have been friendly-- teammates. Comradery. Stereotypically involving them standing to the side of Taissa and Jackie, watching the headstrong girls go at it. Van has never been much of a leader. The comedian and caretaker. A good second to a true spirit. "I don't know." They answer honestly. "I saw you and... thought I might uh... see how you are..." With everyone else constantly wondering about her Shauna has to be annoyed. Van doesn't want to add to it they just don't know what else to do.

[liveshauntedmoved]

❝lottie ,  what just happened ?❞ | @wildernesslost | meme [ accepting ]

taking a step back, fear glosses her features as her hands shake at her side. that was a good question, wasn't it? what had happened? lottie is trying to wrack her brain for a memory, for a sliver of thought that would allow her to answer shauna's question. she fears there really isn't a good one because for all that was good, lottie can't remember. she had been sorting through their supplies - and now, she's here, blood from her hand but no memory of what had happened. "i... shauna i don't know." it's the most honest yet, most un-useful answer she could give, and she knows it as she takes another step back, away from shauna not wanting to hurt her.

[likehaunting101]

"do you think i deserved it?"

@wildernesslost

"do YOU think you deserved it?" hawk eyes watched the ground as jackie tucked her knees beneath her chin, lips pulling down into a frown. does she think shauna deserved what happened? NO. but it wasn't her opinion that mattered right now. "what do you think SHOULD have happened, shauna? what do you actually think you deserve?"

[perfectionreached]

wildernesslost asked: ❛   console .   comfort  my  muse  as  they  cry .

"it's okay, you're okay -" taissa has done this so many times before, it feels like second nature at this point. she wraps her arms around shauna, squeezing as tight as she can. she holds back tears herself, sitting there in silence for a moment before she speaks. "i don't know anybody stronger, you're going to get through this. i promise."

[vndersons]

Looking over from Shauna, then back to Nat, Eli couldn't help but smile just a little. She was so fucking pretty. Even out here in the wild where everyone was looking pretty rough. Though, Eli did definably find her a little scary. Though some how, it turned him on. It also added to part of her allure. There was a small blush that came to his cheeks., making them blotchy and pink. It was nice of her to try and build him up. Not that he felt like he was ready yet to talk to her. Especially with Travis hanging around like a mosquito.

Hearing the sound of her laugh only did even more to make him feel better. Eli had always loved to make people laugh, though mostly they were laughing at him, versus laughing with him. It was his turn to laugh, though it was more nervous then hers. "I call you a bad ass bitch who's not afraid to kick my ass if I say anything bad." Eli gave her another grin before looking over at Nat again with a sigh. "You really think that I have a shot over him? She just seems so..." Into him like I'm into her? "Okay with being treated poorly. And I can't fucking stand it."

Shauna couldn't help but roll her eyes hard at the woe-is-me act, trying to laugh, since he did seem pretty bummed out, and being actually mean to Eli would be like kicking an actual puppy. She sighs, face softening a little, but still shaking her head at him, ❛ i don't think that's true, you just need to like actually have a conversation with her, she might look scary, but she's actually pretty nice when you get to know her...❜ there was a hint of regret in her tone if you listened close enough, she had known her pretty well, but that felt like a lifetime ago. ❛ besides, if Travis is you competition, I'd say you got some good odds in your favour...❜ which was just about as close to a compliment as he was going to get.

his joke gets her giggling, a real laugh for once, which was rare given the shitty circumstances they found themselves in, head shaking as she's laughing, ❛ that was a good one, I gotta give you that, walking talking sphincter, huh? what do you call me when i'm not around? ❜ she teases playfully.

[misquigley]

What Shape Does Your Pain Take?

Mask

You hide your pain behind a mask. Maybe you feel you can't be helped, maybe you think no one cares, maybe you don't want to hurt anyone else with it, you're afraid of being judged, or maybe there's another reason. But whatever the reason, you fake a smile and try to function normally even though you're one step away from falling apart. Secretly, you wish someone would notice it's a mask, ask you if you're really okay, see right through and make it be okay somehow. You're hurt and a little angry that no one's noticed yet, but you'll never admit it. White lies, not that bad…Are they?

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[pvnkshooter-a]

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knuckles

it feels as though you have fought every day of your life. sometimes, you cannot even tell how much of the blood on your hands is your own... and how much comes from those who've tried to hurt those you defend. you deserve the gentleness of a kiss to your bruised knuckles and broken skin, a reminder that you are not only made of violence.

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[liveshauntedmoved]

❝i don't want to be alone tonight.❞ | @wildernesslost | meme [ accepting ]

a soft look came over lottie's face as she looks at shauna, a light pang tugging at her heartstrings - though it's not hard, always having a surprising amount of empathy but for those she truly cares about, and shauna is one of those people. "i won't let you be," she says, opening up her arms for the other, offering up her warmth to help. wanting shauna to feel safe is all that she wants, and would do what she can to make sure that she would get it. "you will never be alone, i'll make sure of it."

[wildernesslost]

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[perfectionreached]

"shauna," she starts off, feeling like she's about to explode. it was hard enough being stuck in the wilderness and dealing with all of that, but she can't imagine what shauna was going through. taissa worries about her the most. "i know you. please don't lie to me. not now. i know you're in pain...." that probably wasn't the most helpful thing to say, but in that moment, taissa didn't know what else to do. she sighs, composing herself before she speaks again.

"we are not getting rid of another body and it sure as hell isn't going to be yours." she's stern and strict in her tone, almost sounding angry. but if anything, she was just so extremely worried. "you need to rest, okay? we're going back to the cabin, both of us." she thought the fresh air would help, but apparently it was having the opposite effect.

perfectionreached asked: what was your plan ??  you could’ve gotten yourself killed !

a dry laugh echos in her throat, shoulders shrug softly, a blank expression pained on her face as she looks at tai. maybe she shouldn't have wandered off on her own like she did, but everything was so loud she just needed to get away from it all for a minute. she's still weak, can barely walk without searing pain in her abdomen, but she keeps quiet about it, plays if off like she's fine, even if she isn't fooling anyone. especially not tai, ❛ i didn't have a plan okay? I just -- ❜ she trails off, head shaking, eyes staring down at her feet, arms wrapped tight across her stomach.

❛ maybe that wouldn't be such a bad thing -❜ she scoffs, a humourless laugh follows as she meets tai's gaze, she can see the concern painted across her friends face, and there is a wave of guilt that washes over he, ❛ i'm kidding, obviously --❜ she isn't. and she thinks tai probably knows that too.

@perfectionreached // dire situations prompt

[vndersons]

The blonde had been in one of her moods all day, something typical and happening with increasing frequency the longer they were out there. Anna couldn't help but wallow in her negative thoughts, in everything she missed. This wasn't the same for all the other girls. They had parents, boyfriends, friends that they missed. Anna, she had a fucking child. And what was worse, a realization she had while staring out at the flames of the fire, she was starting to forget what he looked like. And if she was starting to forget little things like his smile and how his curls looked... How much was he really remembering of her? Especially seeing as he was so little, not even a year yet.

There was a part of Anna that was grateful for Shauna speaking, shaking her from those heart wrenching thoughts with her voice. Slowly, the blonde looked over to the brunette, her brow arching as she did. Normally, if someone was wanting to spill a secret she was all ears. Getting off on the small power trip it gave her over the other. But this one, this felt so different from the others. Maybe it was her time to reflect on how she treated others, something she'd thought of often out here in her own personal purgatory. Something she thought was maybe punishment for those actions in some big cosmic joke. Still, the blonde remained silent, listening to her words.

Pregnant. It hit Anna in the face like the other girl had thrown a brick. Letting out a breath of air, it sounded more like a scoff then anything. Why the fuck was she telling her this? There was an anger that began to boil inside the blonde's chest. Our of everyone here, her. Shauna was telling her? To what rub it in her face? Shutting her mouth that had fallen agape, Anna ground her perfect porcelain capped teeth together. How dare she. How fucking dare Shauna. Sure, Anna knew she could be a bitch, but she didn't deserve this. Not this.

Opening her mouth to speak, her brown eyes fell on her teammate and she stopped instantly. Looking at the brunette, she recognized that look. The fear. The uncertainty. Anna knew it well, and that was back home when there was doctors and options and support. She couldn't even begin to understand just how scared she had to be. Hell, Anna was scared for her. Noting her own rough pregnancy and birth with medicine and hospitals. All they had out here was Misty. Well, Misty and someone who'd gone through it, her. There was a long period of silence that had now passed, and the blonde knew she needed to say something. "Do you know how far along?"

It was eating her alive, the guilt that permeates every time she even looks at Jackie, and she knows she can't keep it a secret forever, not when her attempt to get rid of her little problem hadn't exactly gone to plan, and the reality of giving birth in the middle of butt fuck no where was starting to feel more real, and more suffocating when she thinks about it for too long. It's just the two of them, out by the fire the rest inside the cabin, it felt like some kind of karmic fuck you for betraying her friend like that, only this particular fuck you might actually kill her.

❛ Anna, I uh - if i tell you something, you have to swear to not say a word, okay? or i'll fucking kill you. But I feel like I'm losing my mind, and I just -- fuck...❜ fidgeting nervously with the hem of her shirt, eyes cast down, can't bring herself to make eye contact, but she thinks maybe if anyone will understand it'll be Anna. A long pause, breath hitching before she leans in, voice a whisper, ❛ I'm pregnant...❜

// @vndersons gets a starter for Anna

[vndersons]

Every time she left, with him, Eli felt like he was going to be sick. Not just because what people accused them of doing every time they left. Though that sure as fuck stung. But because he knew if something did happen out there, he'd never be able to forgive himself. Apparently, he'd been just a bit too obvious with his glares. Enough so that Shauna caught on. "Yeah", he scoffed, giving a half ass shrug in doing so. "Kinda hard to do when you're practically invisible to her." It was clear that he was wallowing in his own self pity, something not uncommon for him to do. "Honestly, he's like a walking talking sphincter... I wish she wasn't so into him."

she's not sure what's driving her more crazy being stuck out here with her own secret, or watching eli pine day after day for his not-so-secret crush, it's just the two in ear shot, and eli's been staring at her with travis with the wounded kicked puppy look he got whenever travis was around nat. ❛ You know, just a thought but you could ACTUALLY just try talking to her -- I know, radical notion, huh? ❜ she teases, nudging him, eyes rolling as she looks over at nat and travis getting ready to go out on the hunt for food. ❛ i dunno why she even likes him, he's kind of an asshole. ❜ shauna scoffs, continuing what she was doing preparing the meat for dinner.

@vndersons gets a starter for eli!