#whyd this take me 3 hours to write

[idvxreader]

*sees requests are open* is for me? 👉👈

Naib and Mike with affection/ touch starved s/o please?

   yesyes 👀 ty for the request!

naib & mike with a touch starved s/o

   naib

naib is very observant; he notices how clingy you are, how your hand reaches out to grab his but shys away before any contact is made.

i think naib is also very touch starved. behind closed doors, he likes to have long cuddle sessions, especially after a stressful day. 

he tends to show you a lot more affection when it’s only you two present. lingering touches, kisses, etc.

he isn’t very keen on pda, but he doesn’t want to ignore your needs. he’ll give you head pats and ruffle your hair, but when there’s few people around, he holds your hand.

naib likes to give you back massages; it feels like a way to build intimacy and help you ease up.

whenever you initiate contact, he melts inside. he’ll often return it, but if there’s too much people around, he lazily slings an arm around your waist and pulls you closer to him. 

if he notices you staring at people being lovey-dovey, he’ll lay his hand on your lap so you can play with his fingers. he looks down at the floor to avoid seeing people stare.

naib might get a bit annoyed if he doesn’t get enough alone time; he likes hugging you, kissing you, etc. but he needs his space. 

he’ll hand you one of his shirts, he assumes it’d help, especially since his scent is on it. 

   mike

unlike naib, mike actually takes a lot longer to notice. he’s big on affection, and when you get overly clingy, that's when he begins to notice how you crave more attention. 

he reassures you and becomes overly affectionate. if it’s too overwhelming / makes you uncomfortable, he’ll stop. he wants you to be comfortable; if it’s okay with you, he’ll continue to show his endearment for you. 

always checking in on you to see how you’re doing. 

mike doesn’t mind your clinginess, he’s also very clingy! he’s around you 24/7; whatever chance he gets, he'll take it.

big on pda! he doesn’t mind the attention, nor does he care. he’s loving you! why would it matter? 

big on back hugs and surprise kisses! he peppers kisses all over your face; he likes to see your reactions to it. beware of his hugs, they’re hard to get out of.

if you wanna talk about your touch starvation, he’s all ears. he’ll do his best to help.

“it wouldn’t bother me if you asked for more, so don’t be afraid to ask, okay?”

mike tries his best to satisfy you and gets very ecstatic when you initiate any form of affection before he does -- you managed to beat him to it. 

[kyufessions]

ERIC - ACACIA

meaning: acacia’s represent hidden love and beauty in withdrawal

pairings: secret idol boyfriend! eric x hidden partner! g.n. reader

synopsis: you didn’t like being the secret anymore.

genre: angst with a bittersweet ending ♥︎

a/n: whyd this make me tear up towards the end </3 writing angst for eric was hard bc he’s my baby so that’s why it’s not too long,,, enjoy regardless ~

“i dont if i can do this anymore.” you admitted to your boyfriend, twiddling with your thumbs in your lap as he sat across from you at the dining table.

his eyes widened at your confession, shaking his head profusely as he reached over to place his hand on your arm. “what- what do you mean?”

a little over three years ago you and eric became official after having met through a mutual friend of his. when eric came back to california to be with his family for a while, you were finally able to hear his voice face to face rather than other facetime calls at ungodly hours of the night. and once you were able to, you transferred to Yonsei university to be closer to him. but, of course, with him being an idol dating him wasn’t the easiest thing.

at first, you thought you were able to keep up with his idol life. you found the secretive, nightly dates exhilarating for a while until they became rather pathetic in your eyes. but don’t get it wrong, you loved spending any time you had with your boyfriend and had him sleep over some nights as well. but seeing other couples as you ran your daily errands or were on campus doing normal couple things such as holding hands or simply just posting videos together on social media, it started to get to your head.

you understood that he wasn’t able to come forth about his relationship with you because of the fans and the backlash he’d receive from the media, nor did he want you to suffer alongside him as well. but at the same time you just wanted to come forth about your relationship and show it off to the world. besides, true fans wouldn’t be upset but rather happy and excited for him. you tried explaining that to him, but he shut it down everytime. he explained how either the timing wasn’t right or how he wasn’t exactly ready yet. and you never pushed it because why would you? if he wasn’t comfortable announcing your relationship to the world, then you should respect it. after all, you’d be putting his job at risk and he loved every aspect of his job no matter how tiring it seemed to be. so who were you to potentially take that away from him?

“do you not love me anymore? did i do something wrong? whatever it is-“

you sighed, taking his hand in yours and rubbing small shapes into the back of it. your eyes finally met his, a frown playing on your lips as you noticed them starting to gloss over. “eric, don’t cry please. this is hard enough as it is for me.”

“then don’t do this!” his voice raised a bit, but you knew he wasn’t actually yelling. he was just scared, if anything. scared of losing you. “i can take the next week off if you want me to, i’ll figure it out with my company! babe, please. whatever it is, i’m sorry.”

you shook your head, biting down on your lower lip to hold back a sob. “i don’t want to be a secret anymore, eric. i’m tired of it. i’m tired of not being able to show you off to the world. i’m tired of not being able to go on cute little cliche dates around seoul on your days off-“

“you know how the media will react, y/n. you know i can’t just-“

“and that’s exactly what i mean, eric.” you sighed once more, running your free hand through your hair. “it’s been three years. three. years. and i understand you’re an idol, i really do. i’ve been there through thick and thin, but three years and you still don’t want to announce our relationship?”

a single tear fell from his eye, rolling down his cheek and falling from his chin onto the placemat on the wooden table. “i do, i’m just scared about the media and the fans-“

“that’s what you don’t get. they’re not going to kick you out after five years when you’re a vital part of the group and contribute so much to it. and your true fans would be happy to see you have a significant other, not angry or upset in the slightest.” you looked out the window into the city lights, watching as the breeze of spring swayed some of the branches back and forth. you let a teardrop escape from your eye, feeling a thumb graze it away. “i just- i don’t want to be anyone’s secret anymore.”

and with that, eric got up and left your apartment with a waterfall trailing behind him. you never heard from him again personally, just would hear about him in the media or from friends on occasion. a few months following your breakup, you noticed how his fans would mention how unlively he seemed to be or how his happiness came across as fake. you’d be lying if you said you didn’t notice it as well, because truth be told you were in the same boat. even your coworkers and peers in class noticed how out of it you seemed to be. your eye bags darker, your clothing more messy, even your friends would complain about how messy your apartment seemed to be compared to its normal tidiness. but none of your friends in korea knew of your relationship, so you had nobody to talk to about your heartbreak. you could only cry to the stuffed animal eric had won you back on one of your very first dates at a fair back in california, and he wasn’t of much help.

as time moved along, you started to feel somewhat okay again. your grades rose, your appearance more giddy. you started to notice the change in eric whenever he’d pop up on your twitter feed from time to time, seeing his genuine smile in vlives or small clips taken from youtube videos fans posted from variety shows. eventually, you started to see other people as well.

after a year of being separated from eric, you started to realize that not all breakups are bad. sometimes they’re necessary, whether it be for wrong-place-wrong-time purposes or just simply not meant to be. you realized you started to move on from him when you missed the memories you shared with him more than eric himself. and you didn’t know this but, eric felt the same way. he still loved you, of course. you were his first love and nice versa, but to go back to you would be a mistake because that night he left your apartment made him think. why did he not announce your relationship? why was he so scared? everything you said had always made sense to him, but he just was never sure why he never wanted to go forth with it.

but as time progressed, he moved on as well. after a year and a half, he announced a relationship he was in to the media about a fellow idol he had been involved with for the past few months. he exclaimed it wasn’t serious, but hoped for it to gradually grow into something beautiful that his fans will learn to accept and support regardless. when the news came out, you were happy. happy he found someone he was willing to tell the world about without fear of consequences.

a few months later, you stood in the back of an arena with your new boyfriend with your the boyz lightstick in one hand and your partner's hand in the other. you cheered, singing along to every song your old friends performed. to be proud was an understatement. sure, you hadn’t been in contact with any of them much since the breakup between you and their group mate but you still supported them regardless. the group of men were happy to see you at the concert, only. a few noticing you and being joyful to see you still sending them love.

eric was one of the people who didn’t notice you though, which was fine because you’d rather him focus on other fans instead of yourself. at the end of the show, eric was the last to give his thankful speech for the fans. tears were already flowing through the crowds and artists eyes, and your exes speech was just the cherry on top that opened up the gates. the speech seemed normal, him thanking the fans and expressing his gratitude for the endless support. he was thanking his family and friends as well. but what you didn’t expect was what left his mouth next.

“and there’s one person i haven’t been able to thank personally that i would love to right now. thank you, for always being by my side even if i didn’t deserve your love. you will always be in my heart, my acacia.”

your heart fluttered at the nickname no one has called you in years, feeling your eyes tear up at the name he had given you years back. you wiped the tears away, smiling at the rest of his speech. that night when you were alone in your apartment after the show, you stayed up later than you should've, thinking back to eric’s speech. you debated for several minutes thinking if you should message him or not, but ultimately deciding to. you didn’t know if he had the same number, but hoped he did otherwise it’d be quite embarrassing.

you deserved every ounce of my love, eric. you deserve all the love and support the universe has to offer you. it was just bad timing, is all. you will always be in my heart too, my first love. happy to hear things are well for your career and life wise. stay happy, eric sohn.

[venusiangguk]

stella it’s almost midnight, pls tell me not to reread icrlr for the 3rd time. it’ll take me a little over an hour and idrk if i’m in the mood to cry… smh whyd u have to make my #1 comfort/sadness fic 🤨🤨 tf is wrong w u tbh<3

yes this is a real pic of me when i first read the epilogue ‼️

sometimes crying before bed is nice 😌 makes u wake up with clear skin 😌 ALSO AIZJXJDJDC the pic omg 😭😭 me writing it as well <3

[bnhaworld]

This came to me while listening to a really soft song. I hope you enjoy! I really like Iida as a character, and he has potential. I actually cried a little while writing this-

(P.S: The owner of the gif is attached!)

-Calamari

Is this okay? // Tenya Iida x Reader

In which Tenya thinks about whether or not he deserves you. 

It was nearly 3 in the morning. The dorms were silent, and not a single noise was heard throughout the entire house. You had woken up after a nightmare, and you were still trembling from the contents of your dream. You were shuddering silently as you padded your way over to Tenya.

There had been few nights like these and never once have you had a dream bad enough for you to resort to waking him at such an early hour. But you couldn’t help it.

The dreams had been about him. You had a petrifying nightmare in which he had died that night he had confronted Stain. It had been bothering you for many days and many nights, but you hadn’t expected such a futile thought to invade you in your resting hours.

You knocked on his door and rocked on your heels, realizing that perhaps he wouldn’t hear you. Maybe showing up at his door was pointless, and he wouldn’t even open up the door.

You heard the floor creak beneath his feet as he came to the door. He opened it up and stared at you. His serious face fell gracefully into a smile. It was that smile that set you off, though.

“T-Tenya..” You murmured to yourself, despite his presence. You threw yourself at him, and he caught you in his arms, gently placing a kiss atop your head and then his chin. 

“(Y/N), why are you here at this hour? You could get in trouble..” He whispered into your hair. You felt your eyes water, and you slowly buried your head in his chest, refusing to answer. You felt his head move from one side to the other before he pulled away slightly, looking down at you.

“Are you okay?” He asked. His eyes widened in concern once he caught a sight of your tears. He had his answer. He lifted a hand and wiped away your cascade of tears and scooped you up into his arms with ease. He shut the door quickly and carried you to his bed. He laid you down on one side and quickly climbed in beside you. He pulled you into his chest, with your face in his direction so he could keep an eye on you.

You sat there in silence. Neither of you said anything for the first few seconds, as you continued to cry. Eventually, Tenya sighed. It was enough for you to snap away from your distress long enough to tell him what was bothering you.

“Tenya.. do you remember when you went to find Stain?” You asked, refusing to meet his eyes. You felt him nod, urging you to continue. After another moment, you pushed out the question that had been eating at you ever since. 

“Why didn’t you tell me?” You began in a soft voice, your words cracking at the syllables. “What if something had happened to you? I would’ve never known it was you who went after him and not the other way around. You.. You could’ve died, Tenya! I could’ve helped you during your grief. I could’ve been there for you, a-and I don’t know what I would have thought of myself if you had gotten hurt. Who would I go to? What would I have done without you, Tenya? Why.. Why’d you throw yourself out there, knowing what kind of man he was?” You paused, taking in a quivering breath before looking up at him with eyes full of hurt. “Did you think of me? And of how I would feel?”

His body had grown tense, and a single stray tear fell away from his eye. He knew exactly what you wanted to hear. He also knew exactly what he actually wanted to say.

So he went with the latter.

“I needed to avenge Tensei, (Y/N). I didn’t tell you because I didn’t think you’d understand. You would try to stop me and I-”

“Of course I would!” You snapped at him, your tears growing hot. You grabbed him by the shoulders. “So many people care about you! It wasn’t your job to do that! You didn’t have to! No one asked you to avenge Tensei!” You were whispering loud enough for it to be considered a hiss. You looked away from him, lowering your head. “I’m sorry. I know I should’ve been there for you when everything happened, but I.. I didn’t know what to say. I’m just.. sorry.” You closed your eyes, tired of being angry and hurt when it felt as though the conversation were one-sided.

“(Y/N).” Tenya’s voice cracked as he called out to you. You looked up, your eyes still shrouded with a flurry of tears and pain. “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you. I know I should have but.. I was so hurt. I didn’t want you to be in all the pain I was in.. Forgive me..” 

You only nodded, giving him the best smile you could muster through all your pain. Tenya returned the smile but his own was laced with remorse and regret. He leaned forward, pressing a soft kiss to your forehead.

“Get some sleep, (Y/N).. Okay?” 

Wordlessly, you fluttered your eyes shut.

“I love you, Tenya.. I do..” You murmured softly. You had tired yourself out from crying, and it was very late in the night. It took you mere moments to fall victim to your drowsiness and let Tenya’s warmth carry you into a comfortable slumber.

Tenya, however, was left awake and alone with his thoughts.

He wondered how he had ended up with someone like you. Someone who worried so much for someone like him. He couldn’t hold himself back or even live up to the rules he would make everyone else abide by. He was so unfit for the world he tried so hard to keep in order. He felt as though someone like you, who made perfect sense and cared so much, could really love him.

He wondered if it was even okay to be with you. He reached his hand forward, and brushed a stray lock of hair behind your ear. 

Was it really okay to have you worry about him? Was it really okay to be the man who had captured your heart for himself? Was it really okay for him to love someone like you as much as he did? Was it really okay if he let himself go just for you? Was it?

As he took a long look at you, he knew his answer. He knew it from the way his tears fell for your words, and the way he wordlessly took you in to take care of you. He was sure of his answer when his heart pumped at the same rhythm as yours.

He placed an arm beneath your head and pulled you closer to him, placing his head above yours. 

He knew it was okay to be with you. He was your happiness. And while you weren’t quite sure of it yet, you were the salvation he was looking for.

Tenya knew it was okay to love you because he knew it was the right way to feel when someone as special as you came along.

[dulharpa]

this is for hayley! @whistlingwillows a dear friend <3333

it’s meant to be a birthday present haha. i just want to shower you in love;;; so thought maybe i could go through as many of your fics and comment on them :^)))

(TO EVERYONE ELSE: please go to @whistlingwillows blog and read her fics!!! they are SO FCKIN GOOD AND AMAZING AND UGH HER MIND (it’s a lot of mcu and her bucky and steve fics are a*. i DEFINITELY RECOMMEND))

i wish you a VERY happy birthday and i hope we stay friends for many more years <3333333333 

i’m going through your masterlist heehee ;)))

ah first off, nice theme! i never could rlly see it before because i’m always on mobile heehee. also sorry for not reviewing them before??? i don’t usually read fics on tumblr as you’ve probably guessed;;

anyways, IM GON REVIEW THE SHIT OUT OF THESE >:DDDD

far from home -  bucky x stark sister!reader

firstly, i like how youre introducing the reader from buckys pov, like you can sort of already gather what shes like from them

‘Bucky can hear Tony’s soft inhale, feel the intensity of the man’s glare directed at Steve. He shouldn’t be eavesdropping, but a twitch of muscle would be enough to alert both men that he’s here. With the amount of tension crackling in the air, a brush against the wall would be equivalent to a thousand cymbals crashing in cacophony.’

IM CRYING ALREADY. the imagery in here is GLORIOUS. your tone here is so fitting! oo and the alliteration here is perfecto

ooooooo!! the backstory coming in  👀👀

‘despite what some people think that Steve and Captain America are two different personas, there will always be parts of Steve in the Avenger, and parts of the Avenger in Steve. They both want to believe in something good. They are, after all, one in the same.// Just as how Bucky and the Winter Soldier are the same man despite everything. HYDRA simply amplified the hate, fertilized the seeds of rage, curated the quiet thunder within his soul, within James Buchanan Barnes so that the Winter Soldier could thrive.’

yIKES! lol this is very character study like! nICE. it hurts tho, my poor children, i love you both 

oo ‘starlight eyes’ that is a very nice way of describing them

‘“Then what was London?” The protesters. “São Paulo?” The earthquake. “Vancouver?” Freezing cold water.//“Look, I care if Stark’s gonna run us over trying to find her. I care enough because she’s part of our team. Come off it, Steve. I know she can take care of herself. I’m gonna take a nap. Dr. Cho said no partying post-Singapore and what do you know, we throw the biggest party ever.’

ooo singapore uwu and london? (coincidence? haha jkjk) and the hints abt reader and buckys background are so good?? but so annoying??? like i just wanna KNOW yknow?? 

‘The water runs copper and the sting bites at his palm as he tries not to think. Tries to focus on the numbing cold that runs over his skin.’ 

your imagery is so vivid?? im actually in awe??? i am so regretful i havent kept reading your fics. like i know they are amazing, i just keep putting them off??? idk man. hopefully this makes up for it (gd tho, im still not done with commenting on one fic. this is what im doing with my motivation teehee ;)

‘ He feels weak. Tired. He wants to go back to bed but he also wants to stay out in the sun for a few hours more. The sun kisses his skin through the windows and he squints against the blue sky, wondering ‘

mood during this quarantine lol

‘“Oh, right.” Your voice is flat, uninterested, cold, as you stare at him. “You killed my parents.”Shit.‘

 OUCH LMAO THATS C O L D, O GOT +100 PHYSIC DAMAGE FROM JUST READING THAT

ooo robin as a nickname noice. very much gives me batman vibes lol

oh! and the way of doing the ‘flashback’ is neat! very original. it both tells us what happened AND buckys reaction to it again. he can re-analyse himself and reader. very cool

‘If you walk away now, don’t bother coming back!” Silence. Bucky can hear his own strained breathing, your soft sigh as you soaked in his ultimatum.’

👀👀 yikes that ultimatum. :// not good bucky. tbf theyre both trying to hurt each other but Yikes

eyy!!! readers pov!! finally! and the switch after we find out the outsiders pov? brilliant

oh no :(( more angst

‘When’s the last time you saw your therapist?”“Don’t have one. I’m perfectly capable of taking care of myself.”’ they BOTH need therapists;;;;

very good fic!!! :DD they rlly do hate each other! i definitely like how you went back and forth with the timeline! it gave me a v strong idea on what yn was like even before we rlly got introduced. i am now very curious on where reader is? i love your characterisations! 

i will read the 10k+ fics but heck the last one took me ages lolol (i will comment in the future tho!! i promise <3 ) (that took me over an hour jjhghgdjh)

slipping away- amnesiac modern bucky x reader

omg,,, AMNESIA! >:DDDDDD

‘ Put your fucking seatbelt on’

oh no, istg theyre going to have a car crash arent they (’ doesn’t put the seatbelt on to spite you.’ NO PLEASE PUT IT ON U DUMBASS)

ok,,,,, at LEAST he put it on before he got hit, thank heck. but still. youre so cruel to your poor characters lmaoo

oh gosh

‘You fall apart slowly, like pieces of you peeling away until you’re nothing more than your broken heart. The sobs that wrack your body are relentless and you shove your forearm into your mouth to muffle your cries. You want to bite into your skin. You want to distract yourself from the agony tearing you to shreds. You want to feel anything but the pain.///Tears sweep into your hair, cloud your vision and your whole face floods with heat as you try to breathe through the pain. You’re cleaved into pieces on that bed, eyes squeezed shut as the tears keep flowing, and your throat burns’

this hurts damn, it is so vivid?? i can really feel it 

i am so glad you got into writing yk?? so glad

NO PLS, TELL HIM. TELL HIM :((( ‘shes nice once you get to know her?? shes known nat for years now!! years!!

oh god ‘he looks younger without the burden of your time together’ this is so angsty omg

‘Well, he was stumbling through his apology and I just let him finish.” Your body fills with warmth as you remember his embarrassed smile, the way he shoved his baseball cap farther down his head, chin tucked to his chest, trying to hide that face. “When he was done, I opened my mouth to say something polite but what came out was ‘You look like someone I’d very much like to kiss’.”

this is so soft i stg im crying in the club

OH SHITTTTTTTTTTT , you left it off like that!!! thats so cruel!!!! i can’t!!! how dare you!!!! :””””””((( im typing this with tears in my eyes ill have u know!!

anyway!!! very good fic!! you could honestly make that into a longfic very easily lol. i felt too many emotions :(( 

i was just about to say where is the fluff!! where is it!! when i saw the next one and yay :))) pls i cant have more angsty stuff rn

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cookies and rings and things bucky and reader

‘how much do you love me?’ ‘count the snowflakes, multiply by a million’

did you have to start the fic off with such a SOFT line? its so soft! so TENDER 

‘He wonders what kinda insane person wears socks without any clothes on, but then decides that it’s the kind of person who’s fallen in love with him.’  jesus, the soft moments filled with love are the greatest <3

you can write fluff so well, whyd you have to pain me with all that angst ;””””) (1/10 hurt, 9/10 comfort is the way to go lolol) (jkjk ill read the angsty ones too when i have the spoons) (gonna reread that hydra steve one and ik thatll fuck me UP)

‘ Then, he can feel the cold metal of the ring she slid onto her own finger less than twenty-four hours ago and realizes that he had thought a lot of things shouldn’t be possible, and yet they still are. ‘

you literally brought me to tears reading this softness, you have truly found my weakness

‘ She’s so damn gorgeous with flour on her face and eye bags beneath her eyes that he’s sure she will inevitably make his heart burst ‘

he already likes her so much! i can’t believe this is affecting me so much :’)

‘Bucky is quite sure Sam is in love with his girlfriend in the fact that he’s in love with the fact that his girlfriend is possibly in love with Bucky’

this is so soft??? sam loves reader bc reader loves bucky sm. pls my hear <3333

you do fluff SO WELL DAMN 

‘F.R.I.D.A.Y.’s voice echoes in his small little perch and he still thinks it’s weird without having the side effect of Stark in his suit chasing after him to hear the A.I. but he shoves that uncomfortable feeling of the dead man out of his head. That is too much regret to unpack right now on a mission. ‘

yike bringing back that reminder oof

but thats so soft??? (i am def overusing soft but,,,,, i love it and the vibe) she sent him cookies! god i can feel the love  

‘She expresses her feelings through cooking, which Bucky has learnt the hard way. One time, they got into an argument over something stupid—he can’t even remember what started it—and came to the kitchen at 2AM to see her sitting at the kitchen island crying her eyes out and surrounded by baskets of muffins.’

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 my hEART

you show how much they love each other in so many ways??? i am dying

“Alright, I like it.” Rolling his eyes, he pecks her forehead and she smiles victoriously. It’s so adorable that Bucky, with less than three hours of sleep, adds, “God, I want to marry you.//”“What?”//Oh.Shit.

oh my god! i am literally tearing up!!! AGAIN!!!!!!!!

oh shit o am literally crying

your fluff got me crying harder than your angst i hope youre happy

I really hope you enjoy reading this?? i keep forgetting to like text you but i wanted to do something for your birthday. especially in quarantine when everythings gone crazy. one year i swear ill do something REALLY good for you. not making promises bc i hate if i dont. but ill like, learn how to podfic because you D E S E R V E  I T 

ive spent like three hours doing this lolol 

thank you so much for everything hayley!

[hamlacey]

a mess for english class

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uhh ok this is gonna be a MESS OKAY?? i have lots of thoughts so this is going to be a stream of consciousness! ok first off ,,, i dont understand?? the first part of pt 4 was hecka confusing but then they all started getting drunk and high on codeine?? im??? hwat was that freaking doctor (jk he was a watchman but still) doing?? how ??? im?? how did they sneak prostitutes in arent they illegal im so CONFUSEd also i feel so bad for billy like even big nurse was like lol men love sexy times how would you not like it uwu?? ok so even the nurse should know rape can be to anyone regardless of gender and i know that billy was enthusiastic about it but peer pressure exists and i am PEEVED AS HELL!!!! also like. when did bromden get so comfortable talking and how did i not see this happen omfggg. also i saw that harding like took over and then MCMURPHY CAME BACK WITH A LOBOTOMY I YELLED OKAY like i did not see that coming at all ?? the nurse forced that on him pretty much?? he specifically said he thought that was too far and she just went “yeet” n did it?? im pretty sure they need permission to do that smh! i am yelling okay! i don’t understand how this much happened without intervention tbh like that freaking doctor wait his name like turkle is he the doctor or a patient i dont remember?? yeah whatever hes a freakin. matey dude he just kinda went w it all?? the mans of the hour okay yeah hes a night watchman im freakin dead i cant believe hejust kinda went w it bc he wanted to smoke weed w the dudes im YEll ? sorry this is iterally a stream of consciousness! im still so confused as to why the prostitutes were like totally into the dudes ? like holding their hands and planning trips w them and stuff okay thtat confuses me was it all an act or did they actually like billy n randle lmao ??  ookay next thing at the end bromden just up n leaves and how the HECkums did he do that?? i thin that sso coo he just kinda got up once he realized he could live without mcmurphy deadass after he KILLED him he suffocated his jesus oof and by the way by his jesus i mean mcmurphy bc hes like. the Man for bromden ya feel.. also my qusetions for this book are like. does bromden realize this is lowkey racism like the whole shutting him down and ppl not listening to him is like bc of his race bc it originates w that okay im confused as heck ok also like bromden is lowkey ace & homoromantic yall realize right he likes dudes but not Like That lmao ?? like he says in pt 3 i think it is that hes not a HOMO but he likes to look at dudes idk that sounds kinda gay to me ! ok i feel so bad for that doctor who walked in on billy’s deathlike that s TRAUMATIZING (trigger warning im talking about how billy died) dude he walked in on someone with a slit neckc i dont know ho wi would be able to function after that holy heckkkk oof! also i want to know why the other acutes were suddenly able to just leave?? how was mcmurphy so influential on them to the point of recovery?? OH WAIT were they never really needing to be in there and they were suddenly able to recognize that and leave? also wait isnt mixing SSRIs/medication for MI’s and alcohol & other drugs like REALly not good?? considering theyre probably taking meds like zoloft n stuff? or were they not taking modern medicines hm… i’m still a little confused hmm like i know that one dude started seizing (i think at least) also why did they not give him the medicine smh! whyd they just pour it all over him?is he ok? did he die why was that not followed up on? also i kinda dont like the fact that it ended with everyone magically better bc honey that is not how mental illness works theres a reason mayo clinic lists them as chronic wait here one sec so social anxiety is super common and thats chronic which means all the other ones are chronic as well so how are the patients all kinda able to just. leave? i know you can be mentally ill but out of a hospital oH was mcmurphy the only commited patient? i get it okay. did the nurse hear bromden ever talk? hm. are there any patients that despise each other? im listening to what is this feeling? from wicked because my parents are watching a movie and i want to focus on this and it made me think-- do yall think any patients HATE mcmurphy ? or bromden, for being close to mcmurphy or something? does billy hate his life before he gets humiliated by big nurse? does he hate mcmurphy? huh i am Thonking! ok im done :)  thanks for reading my thoughts on cuckoo’s nest woo

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1. What is your full name? Rather not say although it isn’t hard to figure out.

2. How old are you? 22

3. When is your birthday? July 1994

4. What is your zodiac sign? Cancer

5. What is your favorite color? Idk maybe pink, yellow, orange.. 

6. What’s your lucky number? 123,456,789 7. Do you have any pets? Not really me specifically

8. Where are you from? US

9. How tall are you? 5′3

10. How many pairs of shoes do you own? Maybe 5-8

11. What did you last have for breakfast? ausage egg n cheese

12. What was your last dream about? I recently quit my job and I keep having dreams about working there :( which sucks bc I really do miss it. 13. What is the best thing about you? my sense of humor if you’re into that sort of thing 

14. Put shuffle on your iPod, what were the first 5 songs? I shuffled my roommates spotofy instead

1. Wilky Way Stomp - Supervision

2. Whyd Ya Only Call Me When Youre High - Arctic Monkeys

3. Snap Out of It - Arctic Monkeys

4. Homewrecker - Marina and the Diamonds

5. Temporary Residence - Eliot Lipp

15. Favorite song? currently Packed Powder by Blind Pilot

16. Favorite TV show? Orange is the New Black

17. Favorite movie? rn it’s Butterfly Effect

18. Do you miss anyone right now?  My bf but Im annoyed with him at the same time.. complicated lol

19. Do you want children? no

20. Do you want a church wedding? no

21. Are you religious? No

22. Have you ever been to the hospital? once for a panic attack

23. Have you ever met any celebrities? I met Bastille

24. Baths or showers? baths

25. What color socks are you wearing?  red

26. Have you ever been famous? No

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? Sure

28. What type of music do you like? Anything - I like what I like I can’t really sum it up. 

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? many times

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? just one

31. What position do you usually sleep in? on my stomach

32. How big is your house? teeny

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? coffee and a donut

34. Have you ever fired a gun? Only air rifles and bb guns

35. Have you ever tried archery?  Yes, compact and longbow

36. Who is your celebrity crush? Jake Gyllenhaal but he is so fucking gross in Bubble Boy dont even go there lmao

37. Who do you look up to? My parents for different reasons, suffragists, Malala, Margaret Hamilton, women in history type people

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?  Probably a solid 48 hours but I was a mess

39. Do you have any scars? A few small ones, nothing significant

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? Probably

41. Are you a good liar? Very

42. Are you a good judge of character? Very

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? Not particularly well

44. Do you have a strong accent? Not particularly

45. What is your favorite accent? European-Russian

46. Name all the countries you’ve been to?  US obviously, Mexico, Russia

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? A 500 dollar dress

48. Can you curl your tongue? Yes

49. Are you an innie or an outie? hehe innie

50. Left or right handed? right

51. Are you scared of spiders? no

52. Favorite food? pasta

53. Favorite foreign food? still pasta

54. Are you a clean or messy person? I can be both

55. Most used phrase? idk

56. Most used word?  I don’t know

57. How long does it take for you to get ready? 30 min, but I usua;;y only give myself 10

58. Do you have much of an ego?  sometimes too much sometimes not enough.

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?  bite

60. Do you talk to yourself? Yeah.

61. Do you sing to yourself? Yeah.

62. Are you a good singer?  Yup

63. Biggest Fear? Losing someone I love

64. Are you a gossip? Sure

65. Favorite character in anything? I like Nightcrawler in X-Men, Link in Zelda, Gohan in DBZ

66. Do you like long or short hair? Indifferent

67. Can you name all 50 states of America? hprobably not lmao

68. Favorite school subject? music, history

69. Extrovert or Introvert? Bit of both

70. Favorite hobbies? the outdoors, camping, watching tv, reading, crafts, dancing, shopping, writing, 

71. What makes you nervous? anxiety and feeling like everyone can notice when it’s particularly bad

72. Are you scared of the dark? No.

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? Hmm yeah - I tend to play devil’s advocate a lot

74. Are you ticklish? Yeah

75. Have you ever started a rumor? No but Ive probably spread some. There was a rumor a while ago that I was a lesbian.

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? A few times: babysitting, training employees, leading a group, etc

77. Have you ever drank underage?  Yeah

78. Have you ever done drugs? I dabbled with a few things back in the day, not really me though

79. Who was your first real crush? Link from zelda lmao

80. How many piercings do you have? Two per ear

81. Can you roll your Rs?  Yes

82. How fast can you type?  Fairly fast.

83. How fast can you run? Fairly slow

84. What color is your hair ? naturally blonde, but currently light brown

85. What color are your eyes?  Green/Blue 

86. What are you allergic to? cats, dogs, dust, trees, 

87. Do you keep a journal? yes, like a whole bunch lol

88. What do your parents do?  police officer and nurse

89. Do you like your age? I try to

90. What makes you angry? When people belittle me or put me down. When people are put-off by my friendliness or awkwardness (which makes sense, I know, but it still pisses me off). Also when people take advantage of me. When people treat my loved ones poorly. Drinking and driving. 

91. Do you like your own name? I do

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? Not really, I like old-fashioned names like Everett, Jack, Anna, Scarlett, 

93. Do you want a boy or a girl for a child? If I had to choose a girl

94. If you had to have someone narrate the story of your life to you when you died, who would it be? the british dude who does planet earth!! Or beethoven via a symphony :D

95. What’s the best thing you’ve ever won? a 5k dollar video camera set only too bad I won it for my job that I just left..

96. How did you get your name? my dad really wanted an emily

97. Out of the original 151 which is your favorite Pokémon?  jigglypuff

98. What browser do you use? Google 

99. Color of your bedspread?  black

100. Color of your room? I dont have a room

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