#why ppl be slamming cabinets and breaking things and yelling

[gay-doodlebug-with-adhd916]

I Cannot Emotionally Handle The Feeling Of Losing A Hyperfixation And Not Getting A New One Right Away

y'all I swear tfw you lose a hyperfixation and haven't found a new one yet is literally the fricking worst???

We always joke around and complain about how terrible this feeling is and I'm always like "ugh oh yeah I hate it haha" and I never seem to remember how terrible it feels unless I'm actually in a moment when that's happening. Like, that weird antsy feeling of knowing that you're behind on things because of executive dysfunction but it's not like you currently have anything to excel at and it's not even like those times when sometimes you're not good at something but you still have fun doing it cause you're sitting and trying to play videogames because you feel antsy and want to feel that *reward* feeling (if you're ADHD I can almost 100% guarantee that you know the exact reward feeling I'm talking about) but like... you don't feel the reward feeling you just sit there trying to enjoy yourself and literally just think "what am I doing sitting here rotting away trying to have fun literally just staring at a box filled with unhealthy light I could probably be doing so many things much better for me" and it's not even necessarily like there's a specific thing I have to be doing at the top of my head but it's like I get that "oh crap you're procrastinating you need to get back on task" feeling at the wrong times and I don't have any specific hyperfixations that can make that feeling go away so I'm just stuck with that feeling you get when you think you're itchy so you scratch yourself just to find out that you didn't scratch the right spot and your itchiness is somewhere else

Idk man, just-

Y'all I swear I only ever remember the terrible extent of this feeling when I'm in the thick of it and I've had to deal with this every time I've ever switched hyperfixations it really just never seems to get any less difficult???

On the bright side out of utter painful boredom I made cinnamon sugar tortilla chips drizzled with chili infused honey and it tasted good! Hyperfixation block didn't go away tho :/