#why can’t I have a deadly accident instead of people who want to live
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/9.10.23
#truly ironical#in bed at 22 and tomorrow I’d even get to slee longer anyway#when I go to bed this early it means something is wrong with me#almost spilled I wasn’t totally fine with my parents#big mistake#never show you’re not okay because then they’ll want to know why and you’ll have to make up something#I don’t like telling them I am not okay putting the mask on is much easier#anyway it does suck to say you’re good 10x a day but you’d want to jump off a cliff really#to think I was so excited about today#I hate everybody#want to see people but also do not care#want to jump into a bubble#Halloween nee years and my birthday#next weekend I’ll be mentally over#this weekend I was thanks to my stupidity#goodnight#why can’t I have a deadly accident instead of people who want to live
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Can’t stop thinking some ideas that popped up in my head last night for the Camboy/streamer AU because i was working late and needed something to keep me sane
- Roach being a smaller streamer and announced he would be having a Subathon and Ghost accidentally (it was not an accident, he’s a simp) donated him too much money and now poor roach has 72 hours worth of stream time mere minutes after he started streaming, he didn’t expect to go that long nor actually getting that much money in one sitting (literally he just sat down) and he’s sitting there frozen in place because why did Ghost, THE GHOST donated so much money, he asks if it was an accident and he would gladly return the money if it was, and ghost who has never spoken in chat before revealed that nope; he’s just…supportive of smaller streamers ( a huge roach simp)
- Roach found out that Ghost/Soap follows his spicy twitter (works for OF too but i have no idea how OF works lol) so he puts on their merch and may have had a little TOO much fun with his photo shoots and his little uh…spicy Video may have accidentally gone viral in the Ghost/Soap community and people are FREAKING OUT, there’s copy cats for other streamers too and Roach almost gets a heart attack one morning when #dicksfortwitchstreamers goes viral and a censored version of his tweet was the top post on the Top twitter Page
Some smaller stuff that i couldnt see fitting in the AU
- Soap convincing Ghost (or vice versa) to join a dating show online, and he someone chooses someone that to the community is really toxic and only joined the game to gain popularity, and while Ghost has no intention of getting to know the person, it didn’t stop roach from absolutely SLAMMING the ever living fuck out of the person in his alt account, and for a bit of Angst, add roach in that dating show too and Ghost turns him down out of pure shyness cause he couldn’t even talk to Roach nor look at him in the eyes without going beet red
- Roach, Ghost and Soap in a compilation together, thats how they found out about him, could be for a video titled “Streamers with Thich accent” or “Cutest Twitch Couples (and its of Jackson and Roach / Price and Gaz/Ghost and Soap of course)”
Now on to the “Ghost is reborn but due not wanting to pursue the same career becomes a streamer instead” streamer/camboy AU
- found Roach by accident while going through the COD tag, Roach is playing the game for the first time and he goes into the stream just as Roach gets shot and he almost goes into cardiac arrest when he hears Roach scream (I know Roach didn’t say anything but lets pretend he did) he actually had to go to the hospital for his panic attack though, doctors still trying to convince him he doesn’t have PTSD (yeah right u fucks)
- as much as ghost wants to ignore this Roach in favour of trying to convince his own roach to join him, there’s just something about the idea of letting go of the past and continuing to live in a universe in which both of them would find comfort and happiness with the same people they once knew
- on one of Roach’s chill stream he mentions he would like to get a tattoo one day, he’s deadly afraid of needles though, maybe he’ll get one if someone holds his hands though :> this is when their friendship had blossomed quite a bit so Ghost goes to his chat to say he would hold his hands, in any universe (and he will never let it go, never)
Reading the top part: 🥰
Getting down to the Ghost remembers part: 🥲😭
I love the idea of Ghost justgetting so hasty to donate to Roach that he
A) Donates way too much without thinking and
B) Forgets to switch to his alt account when he does it sjjdjfjfjfj
I can just see chat losing their mind and Roach is just staring at the screen completely frozen and when Ghost gives his stressed excuse of "I just like to support smaller streamers" within a week people are calling him out like "You've never donated to anyone else 🤨" and he just refuses to address what happened shshshsh
Stealing the Roach dressing in their merch for some of his content idea because YES
It would happen later in the au and he finds out but can't get them to admit it so he starts doing things like that to try to send hints/get them to confess and he's like "Oh I'm sorry I just grabbed something ����" and when the video goes viral he can literally see Ghost and Soap struggling lmao
Bonus points if he's in the room with them when they find the video on Twitter and gets to watch them have a meltdown while trying not to show it AH
Also I literally have to write the compilation idea as a non-canon oneshot now. I already love Ghost and Soap being jealous of Jackson cause he's in all the videos, but if they think Roach and Jackson are dating before they ever find his content? Then fall for him while thinking they're dating??? THE DRAMA! THE JEALOUSY!
I can just imagine like a video comes out of Jackson somewhere kissing someone or something (just like a fun one time thing for him) and Ghost and Soap are royally pissed on behalf of Roach and even more pissed when Roach posts another video with Jackson. They think Jackson managed to convince Roach to stay with him and they end up making a bunch of passive aggressive tweets about it or something
Drama channels are eating it up and when Roach realizes the tweets are about Jackson he's pissed because that's his best friend tf? JUST THE CONCEPT MAN AH
Also adore the internet dating show idea so much like I can just see Ghost getting to the end with Roach and this other person and he chooses the other person cause he's too nervous to get any further with Roach.
Roach is absolutely heartbroken but he's still like "well I want him to be happy and have a good date" then the video of Ghost and this other person's date comes out and its so clear that there had to be HEAVY editing done to make it seem even slight normal and even with the editing everyone can tell that this other person was bring a bit of a dick to Ghost.
The internet is pissed, naturally, and Roach literally goes radio silent on his main account, but is making the most insane rants on his alt account about how shit this person was and how he (Roach) would have never treated Ghost like that. He literally ends up getting his act account banned from the other persons twitch chat because he is in there cyber bullying to the max.
A few months later when the other persons internet career has essentially failed and gone stagnant, when someone asks him about it on chat the clip of his smug and way too satisfied reaction goes viral ajdjdjjd
For Ghost Remembering Specifically:
God the idea of him getting so excited to find Roach only to immediately have to deal with a PTSD trigger just...oh man. And you know that he probably ended up taking time off from streaming and everything for a bit after and was essentially just dealing with the sudden memories and rise of paranoia and anxiety on his own. Soap helps a bit but he doesn't understand and Ghost doubts he would believe him if he did tell him. God...I feel so bad for him man.
He tried to stay away from Roach's stream but after another conversation with SiTO Roach he just needs to see him. He just needs to see a version of the man he loved being happy and not weighed down by what happened. Roach's streams quickly turn from a trigger for him into a form of comfort to come down from things. If he can see that Roach is happy and alive it helps him work through everything.
With the tattoo thing 😭 I know when they eventually get together they do go get a matching tattoo and within like two weeks there are compilations of Ghost touching the tattoo when he gets nervous or stressed or just needs to calm down.
I also had an idea for Ghost who remembers: he gets like invited to do one of those streamer fights things against a super toxic streamer and he says no cause like...he has a whole life of military experience that he's actually kept up with training wise and he is not going to put someone through it. Then the other streamer makes a video or something shit talking and Ghost is still like insisting he's not going to do it even when his community is pissed. Roach doesn't understand why he's so against it but supports him and ends up like briefly mentioning the situation on one of his streams.
That clip of Roach talking about it and very kindly dissing the toxic streamer goes viral and the toxic streamer responds with yet another video shit talking Ghost, but this time he fucks up and brings Roach into it. Ghost sees the video and see's this Toxic streamers wanna be alpha male community shitting on Roach and he gets pissed. Though he doesn't want to rise to taunts, you absolutely do not fuck with his bug and get away with it. He calls the people back and says he's changed his mind if they still want him to do it.
Naturally he absolutely sweeps the floor with and humiliates the other streamer
GUYS I LOVE THE STREAMER/CAMBOY AU
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ariadne's mom and dad are dead and she lives with her paternal grandma. she had an older sister, 3 years older, who may have died in the same accident that killed ariadnes mom and dad (and a couple other people in potters fields). ariadne was really close to her older sister. and now shes gone, but theres magic she can wield now. she wants to know everything about the magic of the dancers, of the garden of sorrow, of life and death and the world beyond. She wants to know it all, uncover the secrets of the universe, and wield magic to the best of her discretion. She’s been a magical girl for longer than Anthea and Sicely have. She’s a math geek-- she loves theoretical physics and things like antimatter, unexplained phenomena, cryptids, and the unexplored.
The numbers also point towards there being something beyond the Garden of Sorrow, and she’s become distracted in fighting against the Garden to instead further investigate. If there's a chance she can break through the veil of life and death with magic/science to reunite with her sister again, she’d do anything for it.
Her infatuation with mathematically proving the afterlife, to reconnect with her dead sister, borders on obsession. She’s deeply lonely, and feels like she lost the only person who could possibly understand her, especially in a town that doesn’t encourage people going off to college. She believes this is her only chance at a magnum opus, and if she can’t do this she’ll finally have to give up on her sister for good and accept that she’s gone. She’s not sure she can do it. She feels lost without her role model and family; who is she without her? When she lost her, she did not know what she would do. She can’t conceive of the person she can become. She has no future.
the only person in town she believes is on the same intellectual level in this way is her therapist, Thomas. they mostly spend their sessions talking about magic principles and nerding out over the unexplained. her friendships have deteriorated recently, which actually makes it harder to be a Dancer-- you need to be in accord to use magic. she's very good friends with Lucerne, but lately the way her grief has been manifesting as tunnel vision has created a rift between them. ari is also jealous over lucerne, whose little brother survived a deadly encounter. i think she and lucerne get in a fight over it once where she yells at them smth like at least YOUR sibling lived! as if lucerne has it at all "better" ari resents the conditional immortality that being a dancer bestows for her-- where was this ability when her sister needed it? why ari and not her? it hurts. she doesnt know when it will stop hurting.
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