#why can’t I be normal and not get attached so fuckinf fast

[littledoggyboy]

I may have just ruined the one fucking situationship type thing that could’ve turned into something real.

So I thought I was Done with bleeding with fingering cuz it hasn’t happened in a long time but it fuckinf happened with this person I’ve been seeing and I got so embarrassed and angry I started crying and couldn’t stop and they comforted me the whole time and I just fucking know that they have lost all interest in me that I doubt they even had in the first place cuz they say they’re attracted to me but like. They kinda dodge saying that they like me. Idfk.

I just know I ruined something that could’ve been wonderful because they are the absolute kindest person I’ve met irl and I just. They were so amazing and I can’t believe I’m gonna lose them and it’s all my fuckinf fault.

Today was already a horrible day and now I just. I’m skipping class tomorrow I don’t fucking care. I have work tomorrow which I can’t skip cuz I offered to cover for someone. But I’ll be sleeping all fuckinf day until then so I can just stay the fuck in bed and ignore everyone