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[toxicanonymity]

when was the first time reader hugged raider on her own and what was her reaction?

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1k, raider!Joel x f!reader / Raider Masterlist

mood board by @milla-frenchy

A/N: This question is kinda tricky because he's always had that twisted tenderness for you and you collapse into his arms on day one at the end of Failed Rescue. Thank you @milla-frenchy for questions and reading passages. SUMMARY: This is one scenario I can imagine . . . A glimpse at life in your early days at Joel's trailer. You get to wash your clothes for the first time. WARNINGS: I8+, angst / pitiful, brief dubcon piv, references to past noncon, toxic domesticity.

SET BETWEEN "STASH HOUSE'" AND "SHOOTING PRACTICE."

When Joel first took you home to his trailer, you were shaken up, quietly in shock.  He comforted you again, just like he had right after he shot your boyfriend. “S’gonna be alright, sweet pea. I’ll make sure no one hurts ya.” Other than that, he didn’t talk much. 

He didn’t quite know how to take care of you. He seemed to treat you like a stray kitten he had taken in without thinking. You were something  precious he enjoyed having around but needed to learn to care for.  He didn’t think to give you clothes right away.  Your diet was practically entirely meat, which you didn’t care for – small game like rabbit and squirrel.  He held you close at night, in a possessive way, but it still made you feel safe.  He knew your name but didn’t tend to say it.  He always called you sweet pea, and was never stern or angry in those early days before you escaped. 

He didn't physically force himself on you.  Even that first time, he had his way with a calmly delivered threat to hand you back to his men.  Based on that first day – when he did it three times in a matter of hours– You assumed he was an insatiable sex machine.  And he did become one, but not right away. After bringing you home with him, he didn't fuck you the next day, which led you to wonder if the prior day's actions had been fueled more by the situation than a need to have your body. As if seeing those men with you triggered an animal instinct – claim, fuck, take. And you became his. 

Back at Joel’s trailer, he was mostly quiet. If he spoke, it was to insult his men, rage bubbling in his voice as he ranted about what they would have done to you.  You were still in shock the first day or two.  Then, sitting at the kitchen table, you finally started crying with reality setting in, and fear about what life would be like.  

"C'mere," he said, placing a hand on your arm to pull you closer. He began to take off your pants and you let him. He didn't have to warn you. “Wanna go to bed or stay here?” After that, all he had to do was get hard, palm himself over his jeans or unzip them and you would lie there compliantly or get on your knees.  Your body was on board before you were, and at some point your mind caught up. You stopped feeling guilty for your physical enjoyment. 

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One day, you laid down for a nap on his bed and woke up when the mattress dipped under his weight.  He lay on his side, propped up on his elbow with his head in his hand.  He didn’t say anything to you, but he fiddled lazily with the hem of your shirt, looking at your body. He would undress and dress you like a doll.  You were getting self conscious without any clean clothes. You took baths but put the same clothes right back on the next day. Joel didn’t seem to notice or mind and you were shy to ask for anything.  

He wasn’t looking for you to do or say anything, and you weren’t sure you should, but while he was touching your clothes, you took the chance of asking,  “Can I please wash them?” It was one of the first times you spoke without him first speaking to you. 

He dropped the hem of your shirt and took a deep breath as his big hand came to your inner thigh and he caressed it, then squeezed.  He looked at you for a few seconds, then nodded. 

“You know how?” he asked. 

You nodded. “I can do yours too. . .if you want.” 

His brow furrowed in contemplation, then he nodded.  His voice was deep. He talked so little that it felt special when he did.  “Soap’s in the pantry.” 

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He put his thumb in your waistband and unbuttoned your pants deep in concentration.  You helped him take your pants down, then he put your hand on the hard bulge in his jeans and used it to massage himself, which made you get butterflies between your legs as you felt him harden.  After a minute of that, he reached between your legs and sharply inhaled when he felt your slick. Your face got hot. 

“You wanna bend over or lie on your tummy?”

“Lie down.” 

“Good girl.” 

You lay prone on the bed with your head on your hands as he unzipped his jeans and  got between your legs. He put a hand on your ass and you tilted your hips for him.  He notched his tip at your entrance, then planted one hand between your shoulder blades and another on the bed and pushed his cock into you. You whimpered as your body accommodated him. He didn’t allow much time to adjust.  He fucked you wordlessly, grunting and sighing, his fingers digging into your flesh and seeming to span your entire back. His tip firmly nudged your g-spot repeatedly until you came with a whimper. After Joel came, he laid there for a minute, then got up, mumbling “i’ll get the stuff.” 

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He got out the soap and washboard himself.  A little later, he went outside with you to the faucet where there was a metal wash bin, so he could show you the stuff. There was a fallen clothesline hanging from a tree near the trailer.  

“whenever ya want,” he said. 

Back inside, Joel gathered his dirty clothes.  You started taking yours off and shyly asked if you could wear something while you washed them.  He didn’t say anything, just looked you over, then looked through his clothes. He let you wear a pair of boxers and t-shirt, either his or from a raid. 

While you washed the clothes in the boxers and t-shirt, Joel fixed the clothesline. Then he came over and watched you scrubbing the clothes, hands on his hips. “Good girl.”  This activity took your mind off things, and the the fact that he fixed the clothesline for you overwhelmed you with gratitude.  

You stood up and hugged him around his side. “Thank you,” you whispered. 

He seemed surprised, but after a second he patted you on the head and wrapped an arm around you.  "see, you'll be alright, sweet pea." Then a few seconds later, he said “goin’ inside.” As he backed away, he said “lemme know if ya need somethin’.” 

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Thank you for reading. Now flash back to the future. . . go read his more recent ones to remember how far he's come lol.

Raider's affection / possible feelings

Raider: Close (Jul 3, 2.7k) - Joel gets home late injured, and men approach the trailer with bad intentions. 🖤

✨Raider: Gun Hug (Jul 31, 3.7k) - You and Joel take out two bad eggs in the stash house

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[toxicanonymity]

Newest instalment of Stepdad Joel was chefs kiss. But everyone already knew that! I’m in love with how he just can’t help himself. My man is insatiable. Toxic, would you be so kind as to bless us plebs with a lil Stepdad Joel behind the scenes lore? I have personally always wondered what the first time dear reader and he met was like? First impressions maybe?

Much love 🫶💗🐝

Thank you so much! 💗🫶💗 You are apparently the toxic lore whisperer. When you ask for lore, I crack my fingers. . .

700 words?? CW provocative album art. TW mommy issues but not much detail

stepdad master

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LORE: first meeting stepdad!Joel

His first impressions: Moody but harmless teenager.

Yours: Old but harmless nerd, trying too hard.

The first time you met, your mom was acting like they weren't dating, he was just, her friend Joel. You were late to lunch and she criticized your parking job.

"Are you gonna introduce me to all your 'friends' now?" You asked with air quotes right in front of Joel outside the cafe. 

Your mom apologized for you. Joel smiled and looked down at the ground and when his eyes found your vintage sneakers he said, "hey, fresh kicks." You cringed at him trying to sound cool but it was also disarming how lame he was making himself.  He was old (ish, but not as old as your mom), he was a nerd, he was a fool for liking your mom so much, and he did genuinely like her. Even before getting to know him, you felt a little bad for him because it would only be a matter of time until she couldn't keep up her fake niceness. 

Gradually you got to be buddies with him. One of the first times you spent time with him was at a food truck thing the three of you went to, and your Mom went off to "say hi" to a neighbor for thirty minutes. The two of you were sitting at the picnic table making small talk.  Joel was wearing an MCR shirt. He was surprised you knew who they were.  He liked a variety of cool bands, liked cool movies. He felt bad when your mom was hard on you and he stuck up for you. You kind of stuck up for each other. You almost tried to vaguely warn him when they started talking about marriage which seemed really fast, like within six months. 

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One day, after they were married, you and your mom had a huge blow-up and Joel came to your room bc at her request, he told her he'd try to talk to you for her. But he didn't. He just sat on the floor and looked around trying not to bother you. You kept your earbuds in and ignored him. 

He found your Rolling Stones Sticky Fingers vinyl and picked it up. He turned it over to read. He said "nice, where's your record player?"  You didn't have one at that point. That was your dad's, and you used to use his player. You hung onto that album but not for the music.

You finally took out your earbuds, feeling bad for him talking to himself.

Joel said, "my favorite Stones album is Some Girls."

"That's such a cliche," you grumbled without really looking at him, but the fact that you even said anything was a compliment. 

He asked, "Yeah, what's yours?"

You paused, then sheepishly admitted, "Some girls," and you both laughed.

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You didn't live with them for long before you left for college, which was shortly after you caught him jacking off in the office that time, which neither of you ever acknowledged.

In college you started partying and dressing provocatively.  He followed you on Instagram your junior or senior year. At one point he accidentally liked then unliked a pic that was mostly cleavage. It made your heart skip a beat, and not in a creeped out way. But you didn't think much of it at the time, you had too much else going on in the boy world already.

You never lived at home again after leaving for college, but when you occasionally came home to visit, there started to be a different tension. It was like he was trying not to look at you. It wasn't that creepy -- You were both human and he wasn't "stepdad" long enough to ever feel like a father figure.  But there was tension, and occasionally you bickered over dumb stuff.

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After graduation, you got a job and moved across town. Over time, there were a couple of guys you dated long enough to introduce them to Joel at family events.  He was polite but quiet with the first one.  The last one, you seemed to really like, and Joel was kind of cold with him. After you and that guy broke up, you started getting the urge to see Joel more often, which ultimately led to the time you went by when your Mom wasn't home and knowingly caught him jacking off.

Joel never would have made a move on you, so thank god for your advances. Even after following your instagram, he tried (and failed) not to look at you.

[toxicanonymity]

Dearest toxic,

I was wondering if you could please share a word or two regarding Daddy Slasher Joel’s first impressions of the reader.

Also maybe I’m extra stupid but does he really work for the towing company??? Just the way he pulled up and his “uniform” seemed a lil sus to me.

All the love in the world,

A devoted Slasher wife, and camper princess.

slasher!Joel Lore

Great questions. If anything, you’re extra smart. I dub you a red flag detector 🚩. And boy do I have lore. . .

Tow Company: You’re supposed to wonder if he really works for the company: He's not the guy you spoke to on the phone, his truck is unmarked, and he’s tuned into a radio where he can hear dispatch information (since there’s “no cell phone service”). IF/when he has bad intent, it would be smart to pick off jobs from other drivers instead of his own.

But the truck is also how he makes money. So I think he’s a sketchy contract tow trucker who also takes an occasional job covertly as described above. The tow truck company doesn’t have him as an employee, they just coordinate and dispatch independent drivers then pay them for the jobs, deducting a fee. Joel specializes in the late night jobs because not many people will take them. He’s kinda bottom of the barrel 🥺.

I think he dreams of having his own business and he's "working on it." He doesn't have the business acumen 🥺 but his mom encourages him 🥹. He sits at his TV dinner stand working on names and plans. He draws logos. He scratches out ones he thinks are stupid 🥺. "Joel’s 24/7 Tow Truck" "Joel's Late Night Tow" (He's still working on it). Logo of his truck from the side (crossed out). Logo of the giant hook in the foreground of his truck with a ton of erasing where he's trying to get the perspective right.

First impressions of the reader: The first thing he sees is your short dress and the fact that you’re hot and alone. He senses you’ve had it with this day and you're probably not paying close attention. He catches you checking him out and starts to think there could be potential. Maybe you’re DTF. By the time he gets hard and you stay straddling him, he’s sure of it.

Lots of love 🥰💙🔪, a slasher sympathizer

[toxicanonymity]

What does sweet pea do when Joel isnt around?

Like when he’s busy and the others (Carter) are guarding her?

Does she talk to carter at all?

Sit around and run scenarios in her head?

Does Joel bring her books or games?

Masturbation?

Sweet Pea by Herself. Raider Master

Good question, I think she does talk to Carter a little. Carter probably feels bad for her.

She has books from the trailer (shooting practice drabble says a little about what's in the trailer) and she has playing cards from the trailer but since they're old and wrinkled and faded it's easy to memorize which ones have what kind of damage. Joel hasn't really brought her stuff yet (clarification: entertainment wise) and when she went on raids with him, she was hesitant to take anything because she felt bad. :(

She runs scenarios about what life could have been like without the outbreak, whether she would have met Joel at some point. She wonders what Joel's life was like since he'll never talk about it. And she thinks about the future, like if he's ever going to (consciously) kiss and cuddle her or tell her he's hers, too. If he's ever going to tell her he loves her.

She thinks about how to make him happy. She replays things in her mind where she's seen cracks in his tough facade and really clings to those moments. She even plays "he loves me, he loves me not" type games with the cards :( like if it's a heart or diamond, he wants to kiss me. She thinks about things they could do together, whether he'll take her anywhere other than a raid, whether another life is possible--especially the more fed up he gets with his men.

And yes, I do think she masturbates. Especially if she wakes up and he's outside doing something like shooting practice. I think she fantasizes about him protecting her, even shooting guys :-[] I think she's secretly a little dark in that way, like it turns her on seeing him so dominant and even violent. But then she also thinks about him being soft with her. Every time she cums she imagines him kissing her. Sometimes she can practically feel it (from the time he was half awake in the morning).

[toxicanonymity]

This is probably the dumbest ask you’ll ever receive but since a lot of stepdad!Joel takes place on Snapchat I am DYING to know what his Bitmoji looks like in your mind. Does he use the weird 1.0 version or the one everyone else uses? Is it accurate to himself or just a dumb shitpost-y one? I don’t know why I’m so hyperfixated on such a minor detail but I’ve gotta know what you imagine in your head (I’m a whore for lore)

Not dumb I love this. I imagine it as kinda hot lmaooooo with some type of goofy little flare. If anyone else wants to take a shot at this, have at it 😭 since he's new to Snapchat he prob uses default style.

Stepdad masterlist - see Snapchat, Amazon, bonus snaps, bonus snaps #2 is where he uses the melting Bitmoji.

[IMGs: modern style Bitmoji, brown hair and glasses, gray joggers, cropped blue tshirt that says cutie. 1) half his face melting into a puddle 2) lounging on bed with phone saying "send pics" 3) sulking on the floor in a corner 4) gif, reclining in front of a fan sweating]

[toxicanonymity]

did slasher learn his lack of housekeeping skills from his own family or is he rebelling against his mom’s neat and clean house? i could picture his mom as a hoarder but mayb shes miss clean and he just doesn’t let her in his nasty ass camper lol. I’m so grossed out and yet turned on by him, brava

He grew up with a mom who coddled him and always cleaned up his messes, so he didn't develop his own cleaning habits and skills. That said, I don't imagine his camper being worse than a stereotypical bachelor pad. Like there might be an empty pizza box on the counter, but not anything molded or buzzing with flies. He'd throw it away when he needs the counter space or if he remembers on his way out. Like if he trips over an empty beer bottle, he's going to sigh, grumble, and pick it up. Occasionally his mom comes and he lets her do some cleaning but that's less and less as she's getting older. She would be happy to know what reader did 🥲

[toxicanonymity]

I always imagine sweet pea wearing floral mini dresses and white mini skirts. Like very soft, cotton maybe. Puritanical and cute, just like Joel likes it. And most importantly, easy access 😮‍💨.

Canonically, does he let her pick her own clothes on the day to day? Or does he like to pick them out for her? We’ve also seen him “shop around” and bring her back clothes before. What’s his criteria for clothes when he’s shopping? Is it based solely on vibes?

I feel like this is indeed important information to the raider lore haha.

I also picture floral minidresses!! Faded, cotton, small print flowers, kinda a-line. Ever since @javier-penas-wifexx420 submitted this outfit 😍, I also picture that dress sometimes as being in her small collection (and the sneakers got canonized).

She usually gets to pick her own day-to-day and only has a few. When he's "shopping around" (plundering for those who aren't sure), I think he grabs what looks/feels right.

If he brought her something she really liked, I can see him bringing more things like it 🥹. Even if he doesn't admit it to himself. I had this future-facing HC in my head recently. . .

When it gets cooler outside, Joel starts bringing you sweaters home from raids. Colorful ones he thinks you’ll like. He wouldn’t say it, but you suspect he chooses ones he thinks you’ll like. He never brought you anything colorful until he saw your reaction the one time he did.

[toxicanonymity]

I’m thinking about the reader that mentioned Raider Tommy. I’ve also been thinking about when their paths might cross. I was wondering if he would poke fun of Joel for going “soft”? But what might Joel’s reaction be? I feel like he might have a setback. Maybe he thinks that his obvious caring for Sweet Pea has made his men and others think he’s “gotten soft” and he obviously can’t have that since his basic lot in life is to show people how dominant and alpha he is. So, maybe it makes him turn more violent again, trying to prove he hasn’t lost it? Or maybe he does what the other person mentioned and basically tries to make an excuse, like Sweet Pea is just his responsibility now and he has no choice?

Great thoughts! 🖤 This is an area where there might be some deviation from canon or fanon. Idk when they separated in canon but in this world Joel might have pushed Tommy away really early in the outbreak in the course of leaving his entire life behind, unable to handle any reminder of who he was and Sarah's death. They probably did some bad stuff together, but Joel hadn't evolved into his full post-outbreak persona. Something happened and Joel snapped and they split.

In my head, this Tommy was always kinda dark even pre outbreak. Like maybe he was hardened by serving time. But also became worse post-outbreak.

Tommy only recently came back to the general area. When it comes to what a bad guy Joel is, Tommy probably hears more about Joel than he's ever seen first hand. He might even reap some benefits of Joel's reputation lol, nepotism baby raider. So I'm not sure if Tommy would be the one to accuse Joel of going soft, but Joel's men could for sure, and either of the reactions you describe would track (and/or hurting/killing people to make examples out of them ). When Joel and Tommy eventually cross paths, Tommy could have other words for him.

[toxicanonymity]

I love sweet little bloodsucker meow meow Joel with all my heart, like he just wants to get you off so you can sleep better and he gets you all the pillows so you can choose your preferred firmness 😭 But have you thought about something like throwaway Joel as a vampire or maybe even Max Phillips in the same situation? They wouldn't give a fuck, they'd just take your blood and your pussy and whatever they needed because they're not gonna wait for your dumb little human brain to understand this is what you're made for. They just know you're theirs and you better stop your whining and get used to fulfilling your purpose and I'm not as mad about that approach as I should be 🙈

ty <33 he is a sweetheart, isn't he? i wouldn't rule out a different vampire in the future, maybe even in the same world because i've been building quite a bit of lore on it. but i'm feeling kinda monogamous toward my sweet lil guy at the moment and wanna give him all my vampire energy and mental vampire space.

still, to play that out a little, i guess throwaway joel would keep you shackled by your arms and feet, barely even talk to you, just grunt and manhandle you however he needed or wanted. i imagine you'd be quite banged and bruised up.

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