#who would the self in sert be- childe?? i-

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sometimes i remember someone bookmarked cyanide narwhal with the tag ‘self-insert’ and i have to stop and wonder if they mean they’re holding the fic by the neck all “he’s just like me fr” or if they truly think it’s a self insert. if it’s the latter i’m dying to know who they think the self insert is. please share. please,,

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bio/ THAN.

NAME: thanthai kerongthikhikhorn ( แทนไท เก้รงทิขฃร ) * ALIAS: than ( he only goes by than ) FC:  bank thiti mahayotaruk SPECIES: human ETHNICITY: thai BIRTHDAY: 2001 THAI HOROSCOPE: snake [ source ] ELEMENT: fire AGE: 18 FAMILY: tuk ( mee ‘mom’, deceased ), sert (phcc ‘dad’, alive ), top ( piichaai‘eldest brother’, alive), tharm ( nongsaaw ‘little daughter’, alive )  LANGUAGES: thai, english

BACKGROUND: born to a small family of four, than has always been a mama’s boy. they used to live in chiangmai, far from the capital and the urban buzz, until his mother fell ill in 2006. they moved to bangkok to seek better medical treatment, and they were moving around the city a lot due to toppling rent and bills. his family owns a photocopying store in bangkok, which also doubles as their home.

his childhood was turbulent and lonely, without many friends around. he would skip school to sit with his mother all day.  tuk, a nickname given by her friends for her sweet nature, used to teach, so she home-schooled -- hospital-schooled, in the literal sense -- than for a long period. sert was too much of a perfectionist for such arrangement, and than’s relationship with him began to crack. his elder brother, top, tried his best to maintain harmony.

things turned bright briefly during 2009 and 2010, and his mother was healthy enough to be discharged and stay at home. she was pregnant and gave birth to his sister tharm in early 2011, then her condition took a nose dive. shortly after, she passes away, leaving her husband and three children.

than had trouble socialising with classmates but no issue on the volleyball field, and so the sport quickly became his new comfort. he did his best not to fail his subjects but couldn’t reach the standard sert expected, further deepening the divide between them. soon enough, than would devote all his free time to volleyball, aiming to go professional after school. sert was mad but most of the time distracted by tharm, who began showing learning disabilities. since than was always away, top took care of tharm the most.

father-son tensions were at their boiling point in 2016, when than faked sert’s signature to apply to st sebastian, the school with an elite volleyball team destined to go pro, but failed to get in. stubborn and unwilling to accept defeat so soon, he went for the second best -- theppanya.

it was there he met puen, the begrudged captain with a personal mission to defeat an ex-teammate, singha, in the next national cup. than used to attack but was assigned to set for puen, their main spiker. initially unhappy with this arrangement, he only found determination to succeed because of puen’s constant provocation. at some point, the two bonded, and hostility softened into comradeship and eventually more.

CHARACTERISTICS:

As told by his zodiac, 

venus is the mouth -- kindly spoken, but dishonest he doesn’t admit to his weaknesses, and this stubborn pride often leaves him in and unconscious cycle of self harm. he lies to his father, mostly by omission, hoping to choose his own career.

sun is the heart -- unreliable temper has been an issue, a barrier that prevented him from having close friends. that coupled with his fluctuating family situation, he displays spikes of joy, agony or anger. he is eager to please, too, which easily ends up with promises he cannot keep.

mercury is the loins -- enough carnal desire urges leave him jittery and uneasy. that’s why he would rather tire himself on the volleyball court.

saturn and moon are the hands -- works quickly and efficiently smart, versatile and flexible, he is good with handy work. he generates incredible momentum, powered by unparalleled determination and competitiveness. he is also rash in making decisions.

mars and jupiter are the feet -- enjoys travelling life is more to one place, even though he longs for stability. as soon as his father showed the slightest sign of recognition, he pictures himself at the olympics one day. he wants to feel as much as possible. [ source ]

RELATIONS:

puen ( puenthai ปืนไท, ‘gun’ ) -- boyfriend, 19 years old the star spiker at theppanya. initially harsh and unreasonable but quickly realising he was deflecting his anger towards singha on than. his parents abandoned him when he was young, and his aunt didn’t want to take care of him. as soon as he could manage, he moved out and made his own living aside from volleyball practice. his father remarried, had another child, and puen was devastated to find that his father was capable of parenting, after all. however, upon discovering the divide between than and sert, puen secretly delivered tickets so sert and fah could witness how serious than was about his dream. while than promised puen to win the u18 cup for him, puen told him, ‘no need to promise, just try your best.’ when singha was hit by a car and in a coma, puen had a meltdown and lost his will to play. his friends -- jane, naw and leng -- all expressed concern and disappointment, and than was remarkably upset. the night before the final match against st sebastian, than went to puen’s place. ‘i’m still trying, are you?’ he said, referring to that promise. puen showed up, in the end, and theppanya gave their all. some young blood got hurt but they never lost spirit. they fought till the very end, and for the second time in a row, was crowned second. after the match, puen thanked than for being there. that night, puen found than training alone at the gym, saying he couldn’t sleep. the two practiced till dawn, and than admitted he would miss puen after he graduated. puen promised to return and play with him no matter what. a year later, when than finally lead theppanya to champion, he confessed. puen said yes, and they have been dating since then. 

singha ( kraisingha ไกรสิงห์, ‘famous lion’ ) -- puen’s best friend, 19 years old famous setter who transferred from theppanya to st sebastian after the u18 2015 cup. his style is fluid and comforming to whomever he is teamed with. while his fallout with puen lasted nearly a year, the two reconciled and made peace with their diverging paths. once puen’s emotional support, singha understands his struggles and short temper. after the 2016 cup, than visited him in private, and singha took the step to ask if than had feelings for puen but let the younger setter respond with blank confusion. than sees singha as a role model but also an imaginary rival, hoping one day to surpass singha in all ways. [ source / source ]

* surnames were only introduced to thai culture by the 1913 surname act, which prohibits any new surname duplicating the existing ones. any two people of the same surname must be related, and it is very rare for two people to share the same full name. i tried by best to read from my screencap, feel free to correct me if i misspelled his surname. [ source, screencap ]