#whitegoldtower decides to ramble

[whitegoldtower]

Fuck it, have my face. I feel good about myself for once and my dysphoria is disappearing more and more with the more stubble I can feel on my face. I’m freshly shaved, yet I can feel more facial hair ready to come through only a day later 😌 starting to feel comfortable with the way I look, at long last. How long has it been? It’s been over ten years, at least.

My voice has now dropped so low I can feel it in my diaphragm and I no longer sound like a twink. Also gaining more muscle mass (I want to be a hench elf pls) and a glorious amount of body hair. Whilst my natural colour is blonde, my beard hairs seem to be growing in pitch black?? Pop off I guess. I want that twink death and I want it fast. (Although I think I’m already too buff and too hairy to be classified as a twink anymore lmao)

[whitegoldtower]

I just want to scoop you all up under a leathery wing, hold you close to a bloodied pectoral, graze your cheek with a loving fang, a pointed ear.

I’d like to hold you and whisper;

Goodnight, my scions of darkness, goodnight.

Sleep as the dead do, folded into mere specs of dust under the velvet cloak of my night, and know that I hold you in my palm. Safe, although not quite warm.

[whitegoldtower]

Not me writing two more chapters of the volkihar fic, falling asleep and then having a dream about getting bitten by a vampire 😂

I was so scared for the first half bc the room was dark and I could just feel a ???male presence??? When I should have been alone? And my mind instantly jumped to horrid things. I got that primal AFAB fear like ice in my guts. Survival brain kicked in and told me “you’re into this. You’re into this.”

I could feel long hair against my bare chest. Cold, slender hands pressing down on my collarbones.

As soon as I realised I was being paid a visit by a vampire… ? Instantly relaxed. INSTANT RELIEF. If I could have spoken in the dream, I’d have been like “Thank fuck you’re not a human man. You had me going for a second” 😮‍💨😮‍💨

And then the shock of being bitten woke me up lmao. Felt so real, I literally clapped a hand to my neck and let out a rather… ✨unmanly✨ yelp 💀

Twink really had me in the first half ngl

Ok but imagine the hilarity of being a vampire, being a creature of the night, a monster, and when your victim realises, instead of getting more frightened he just lets out a laugh and a sigh of relief

Because a human man in his room at night is a much more terrifying prospect.