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strniohoeee · 1 year ago

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could you write that Matt and u were having a heated argument, and then he slapped you across your face. it hurt, so you hid in your bathroom... your face was swelled up, and he came to apologise to u, but you did not want to talk to him, and he sat with u and comforted u while helping your bruise. you forgave him, and you slept in his room while cuddling. thnx sm BTW.❤️❤️

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Pairing: Matt Sturniolo X Female Reader

Synopsis: During an argument, Y/N tries to grab Matt, but he freaks out, and ends up hitting her accidentally. I switched this up a bit because I couldn’t get around a man intentionally hitting me, and then taking him back, so I made it accidental🌸

Warning⚠️:Y/N getting hit in the face. I feel like you can’t obtain bruises from an accidental hit to the face, but when Matt said he could rip a door off the hinges if he wanted to…I know a backhand by him would leave my jaw broken, and me limp and knocked out

Song for the imagine: Throw It Away- Summer Walker

“Matt I’m so confused right now….what the fuck did I do?” I asked Matt as he was walking away

“I literally saw you talking to that guy I specifically asked you not to talk to” he said still walking away

“I didn’t mean to…like if someone talks to me am I supposed to just ignore them?” I asked him scoffing

“You know how I feel about him. You should’ve walked away and got me” he said finally stopping in the living room to look at me

“I’m sorry. Like you can not be mad at me for being put in this weird ass position” I said to him

“I thought you respected me” he said scoffing

“What? I do…you’re the love of my life I never ever meant to upset you” I told him

“Yeah well you did, go away” he said shooing me away

“No Matt. I made you mad and I’m sorry I didn’t mean to do it intentionally” I said to him

“I don’t want to speak to you right now” he said giving me his back

“Babe stop! I’m trying to fix this okay? I can’t fix it if you won’t talk to me” I pleaded with him

“Go away” he still said

“No!” I went to grab his arm, and he flung his hand back to break away from my grasp “GET AWAY!” As he said that the back of his hand connected with my face

“HAVE YOU LOST YOUR MIND” I screamed at him with a shocked expression

I ran away from him to his bathroom and locked myself in

“BABY OPEN THE DOOR. It was an accident. I didn't mean to hit you. I didn’t realize how close you were” he said on the opposite side of the door

“GO THE FUCK AWAY YOU JUST HIT ME, AND YOU HAVE RINGS ON MY FACE IS LITERALLY SCRATCHED AND BRUISED” I yelled at him as I looked in the mirror crying from the pain

“I SWEAR I DIDNT MEAN IT YOU WERE SO CLOSE I HAD NO IDEA MY BACK WAS TURNED TO YOU” he said banging on the door

“Matt….if you would’ve just talked to me, and not given me your back your hand would’ve never came into contact with my face” I said to him

“I know baby! I’m sorry please this isn’t fair” he said leaning his head on the door

“ISNT FAIR? isn’t fair? You know what isn’t fair is that my boyfriend can’t talk out a problem with me…he acts like a child, and guess what I get? A ringed back hand to my face” I said at him

“I am a child. I was acting childish, and I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it. I can never ever live this down….ever” he said

“This isn’t the first time you act like this in an argument. I just want you to talk to me that is all” I said wiping my tears

“I’m sorry. If you don’t believe me or don’t want to accept my apology that’s okay” he said back

“I really don’t. I don’t know how I feel right now. About you…..about us….together” I said to him

“What? No baby no…let me in” he said jingling the door knob

“I don’t want to see you right now” I told him

“Please baby. Let me in. I’m not letting you go, and I’m fucking sorry. I’m so disgusted with myself right now. Never in a million years would I ever put my hands on you” he said getting emotional

“Matt go away” I said to him

I heard his footsteps recede, and I allowed myself to fully break down. I just wanted my boyfriend to talk to me, and instead I got his back to me and a hand to the face. I really couldn’t do this with Matt anymore. This is getting so exhausting.

About 20 minutes later I heard Matt coming back

“Y/N I’m sorry, and I know you don’t want to hear from me or see me right now, but just listen. I have never ever wanted this okay. It was an accident, and I’m so upset with myself for the way I acted. It’s disgusting and not how I was raised. I can never ever forgive myself for the actions I pulled. But just know I love you, and I want to work this out with you. I will never act that way again. I promise you. I love you so fucking much” he said on the other side of the door

I got up, and opened the door, and when he looked up his eyes dropped

“I can’t believe I did that to you” he said closing his eyes and shaking his head

“It’s fine” I said letting him into the bathroom

“It’s not, and I can’t express how fucking sorry I am. Let me clean you up” he said running to the kitchen to grab the first aid

He came back and cleaned the scratches his rings left with peroxide.

“And this is going to sting” he said before cleaning it with alcohol

“Fuck” I said wincing

“I’m sorry baby” he said looking into my eyes

“I love you Matt, and I’m sorry if I did anything to upset you, but please just talk to me” I said looking at him

“Yes baby, I will speak to you always from now on. And I will work on not getting upset at stupid things. I just love you so much and I get protective over you, and this love for you just bubbles over, and I can’t control my emotions” he said drying the scratches

“It’s okay baby. I forgive you” I said kissing him

He finished drying the scratches up, and applied Arnicar for bruises

“This cream will help with a little bit of the bruising” he said kissing me

“Thank you baby” I said hugging him, and he hugged back

Matt took us to his room, and had us lay down. We watched a movie and snuggled together. He occasionally checked my face and kept kissing me while we cuddled. We eventually dozed off

The End

Hope you liked this one🫶🏽🖤, and for the person that requested this I hope you liked it as well🖤🖤

-J💅🏽

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nice-kill-tanaka · 4 years ago

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Hi! I read all your x readers and love them! I especially loved the Bakugou x Rough and Tough Crush, I was wondering if you do a part 2 of that one? Where the squad are trying to get the two together.

Of course Nony! Glad you liked my self indulgent work 🥰

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🌄Bakugo + Rough And Tough Crush: Part 2🌌

Looking for the whole set? Take Part 1 right here!

Summary: The Bakusquad gets a little sick of watching you and Bakugo pine after each other in your own...special ways. So, it was decided to devise a plan to get you two crazy kids together!!

A/N: Me, internally: First request, don’t mess it up, first request, don’t mess it up, first request, don’t mess it up, first request, don’t mess it up-

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💥Katsuki Bakugo💥

Let’s start by looking at your end of the pining stick

When Bakugo started treating you differently (like an equal/rival rather than a hurdle to trample on) your own perspective started to shift

You now knew what it was like to be on Boom Boom Boy’s good side. And if you were being honest? It was fun as hell 🔥🔥

Nothing got under your skin very easily, so you took Bakugo’s aggressive taunts and jeers as petty opportunities to take him up on his challenges

What’s better than a free chance to get stronger??? (Mentally, emotionally, and physically)

It wasn’t very long before you began to find Bakugo’s unwavering passion and drive attractive rather than amusing. You wanted to see more of it, to draw it out, to match it

That wild and determined smirk he used past bared teeth when you bested him would really make you feel some type of way 😳

But Y/N is currently a single-brain-celled bastard in this household

My dude, you don’t even misinterpret your feelings. You're just incapable of giving them a label 😭

You just know that you have warm and fuzzy sensations in your stomach whenever Bakugo is being uniquely himself, which you mistook for indigestion on multiple occasions

Y’all are so freaking dumb it actually hurts 😭😭😭

((^^The Bakusquad’s general consensus on you and Bakugo’s mutual pining))

Which brings us to how the Bakusquad decided to go about bringing you hotheaded lovers together

Kirishima casually suggested that they let you two get together on your own, but was out-voted in favor of putting an end to the infinite frustration that came with watching two people crushing on each other and not doing anything about it

Mina and Jiro thought of the first plan:

They’d have a movie night for everyone in the friend group and Mina would conveniently choose a ✨romance✨ movie. The rest on the squad would think of lame excuses to leave in the middle of the film, leaving only you and Bakugo alone (hopefully on the same couch). If things went well, you two would be together by the end of the movie

Their reasoning was that if the concept of romance was introduced at the right time, you’d both feel more inclined to confess your own feelings

It seemed feasible enough, so the plan was set into motion

As expected, the moment Mina pulled out the Blue-Ray box, Bakugo started to grumble about how corny the film was gonna be

But, Jiro caught a glimpse of you leaning over and muttering something to Bakugo, out of earshot of everyone else

Immediately, Bakugo began to loosen his shoulders, still not happy about the genre, but more complacent. He slouched into the couch and endured it like an adult

During the movie, especially the more romantic moments, the squad constantly stole glances towards you and Bakugo. Unfortunately, there wasn’t much to look at

Bakugo, in the same position as the beginning, didn’t seem bored, but like he’d rather be doing anything else at the moment. His eyes were glued to the screen in a judgmental stare, but that he dared not say anything to ruin a certain person’s experience

You, however, looked like you were enjoying the movie! However muted your position might have looked. Though you weren’t enjoying it cause it was good. Oh no, you looked like you wanted to ✨a s c e n d✨ into orbit with laughter every ten seconds

For the sake of letting the rest of the Bakusquad enjoy the romance aspect, you limited your actions to biting your fist whenever something hopelessly cringy happened

Any longer than the halfway point, and you would’ve broken down in a fit of hysterical laughter, roasts, and jeers at the screen

Soon enough, the rest of the group made their excuses to leave the room momentarily, disappointed with their results

But, when they came back, something beautiful had occurred

“Why the hell is she running back to the apartment?? HE CHEATED ON YOU?? KILL ‘IM??”

“SKSKSKS- Okay, but wtf is her FACE?! Is that supposed to be distress?? Freakin’ ahegao faceass.”

Bakugo was deadpan roasting the movie with an amused smirk. While you were coming after it with the gusto of Monoma coming after 1-A, snorting with every comment Bakugo made

Neither of you had even noticed everyone else come into the room

(Apparently, you had told Bakugo earlier that you two can shit on the movie all you wanted once you were alone)

Alright...not exactly the plan. But, possibly a step in the right direction

Sero and Kaminari thought of the next “plan”

I only put quotations, because it’s hardly thought out enough to call it one

It was literally just locking you and Bakugo in a closet 🤡🤡

Don’t worry Sero and Kaminari, I’ll play Taps at your funerals 🎺🎺🎺

You and Bakugo didn’t even have a genuine conversation in the closet...You were too busy yelling various profanities at your friends

“Dude, it’s really FUCKING HOT in here. Let us out while I’m still feeling nice!!”

“I’ll murder you bastards when we get out of here!!! You better start running now.”

Btw, you both ended up making it out of there on your own

You managed to deck the doorknob hard enough to break it off, giving Bakugo enough leeway to blow the door off its hinges

Bakugo took care of Kaminari, while you caught and hogtied Sero with his own tape

You gave each other congratulatory fist bumps afterwards 😚

Despite the rest of the Bakusquad miserably failing in their schemes, their setups did help develop you and Bakugo’s relationship. Just not as fast as they hoped

You had become a pair that could laugh and fight together. Being each other’s advocate became a source of pride for you both

You were all set to become a romantic couple

But, what actually brings you together??

Well, it went something like this:

I’m not too sure of the exact details, but I know that you and Bakugo were having an extra intense training session

Things were starting to get a bit sloppy, as your bodies were getting tired, but your morale was just as strong as ever

It could’ve just been a freak accident, or something neither of you saw coming

But, the point is: Either of you could’ve gotten really hurt, had you not been the tough cookies you are

In your perspective, you were oblivious to the danger that you had been in. And if you did know, you didn’t particularly care. You only saw that the person you cared about most in U.A. could’ve gotten hurt

The idea of that happening, and it being your fault (or, not being able to do anything about it) really rubbed you the wrong way. You were mostly angry at yourself

But, you took it out on Bakugo

Because you were the first aggressor, Bakugo responded with what he knew best: Aggression

Yes, he was absolutely mad at himself for putting you in danger. But, what made the feeling worse, was that you refused to acknowledge that you could’ve been injured as well

Your blatant lack of self-preservation pissed him off. Why couldn’t you care about yourself the way he cared about you?!

On the outside looking in, the fighting was far too intense for any peer of yours to try and break it up

Yelling, cursing, but neither of you put your hands on each other (Like you usually did when you play fought)

Strangely enough, I think that’s how you could tell the situation was serious

Finally, your emotions had reached their climax. All caution had gone to the wind at that point

You weren’t even thinking when you yelled the next thing in Bakugo’s face

“DO YOU THINK I’D FUCKING YELL AT YOU IF YOU DIDN’T MEAN THE GODDAMN WORLD TO ME?!”

“WELL FUCK YOU IF YOU THINK THAT YOU’RE ANY LESS IMPORTANT TO ME THAN I AM TO YOU.”

At that moment, you both turned away to storm off before abruptly stopping in your tracks

“What?!” You said in unison, registering what you both had heard and said

You sighed, frustrated at your own stupidity, unclenching your fists and begrudgingly explaining your true feelings to the seething object of your affections

As you spoke, you were realizing just how whipped you were for Bakugo. And how you didn’t know it until you were given the opportunity to blurt it out with pure emotion

Your words weren’t very poetic (You actually sounded very constipated), but what you said was what you felt in its rawest form

Bakugo could hardly think of what to do next. His crush was reciprocated and they confessed first??? Wtf???

His silence made you uncomfortable, and you didn’t feel like blowing up again. You huffed, shoved your hands in your pockets, and turned to stalk away, unsure of what to do next

Before you could completely turn on your heel though, you felt yourself being roughly shoved against a nearby wall

You weren’t even given time to react, because as soon as your back made contact with the wall, a warm, caramel-scented sensation met your lips

The kiss you had just registered didn’t even last two seconds, but the lingering feeling stuck with you as your brain effectively shorted out

“Yo, wh-what was that??”

Bakugo was impossibly red, one hand still on your shoulder, keeping you in place. Even though he refused to make eye contact with you, it was clear that what he had just done was completely intentional

He scoffed, voice barely above a grumble, “Damn dumbass...you didn’t even give me a chance to respond...”

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[🌌 There you go bud! That’s one set of headcanons for the road. Hopefully it lasts for a while, but if it doesn’t, feel free to come back! I’d be thrilled to see you again.🌄] —Reagan

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aquarianlights · 7 years ago

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Are you okay?

For the most part, yeah. As you guys know, I’m currently living in my Uncles house in Massachusetts. I’m here until late August. My uncle is very abusive to me and my mom. I’m literally scared of him so I’ve been driving around places during the days so that I can get away from the house and not be home when he gets home, which is why I haven’t really been on tumblr because I usually just end up at the beach where there is really low signal and nothing will load on my phone. So I can’t go on FB or Tumblr while I’m out there. Which, I leave the house at like 10-11am, a few hours after I’ve woken up, and I stay out driving around/exploring or reading a book at the beach until my mom texts me that she is home.

My uncle is always yelling for no reason and has put a lot of restrictions on me, ie: when I can and can’t shower. The one time I asked him not to yell at me because I had had enough, he whipped around, slapped me, and screamed at me “Life’s tough, kid. Get over it.”. And on several occasions, he has yelled at me things like “You should know how to do this at your age.”, which makes me feel like I’m worthless and stupid. And he’s always slapping me across the cheek.

He also yells at my mom (his older sister) about things like “You should know how to get there. You lived here as a child.” when my mom had never been to that part of Massachusetts before. He’s always making us feel stupid and worthless. And he’s been saying really sexist things because he thinks “Men should be men and women should be women. Women should know their place.” Things like that. He thinks women are worthless and should be obeying the men in society so he looks down on my mother and me. (Since I appear as a woman, even though I’m a man.)

He has also hit and yelled at me for showering. Like, it’s hard enough to get up the motivation to shower when you have depression. The one time I take a shower during the week, he started screaming about how he had to take a shower downstairs without a towel or shampoo. Which is when he put a restriction on when I can and can’t shower. I’m not allowed to shower when he’s home. One of my coping mechanisms is taking a long, hot bath and he has said that I’m not allowed to take baths.

And then the neighbors complained that my mom parked in front of their house. Which, my uncle lives in a town house and all the houses are connected (like apartments, but a lot bigger) and my mother and I have to park on a public street coz there’s no where else to park. And sometimes there are so many cars parallel parked on the street, that we have NO CHOICE except to park in front of their house. So my uncle comes in and starts screaming at my mom that he “didn’t want to hear any sass from [her] mouth” because he “already heard it from the neighbors.”

He also threatens both of us on a daily basis. And when I finally asked my mom to talk to him about all this, she told me “It’s better to just keep quiet or we might get kicked out.” Which can’t happen right now because my mom has to work here until August and we’d have no where else to go. But, I’ve never seen my mom act so submissive. She’s always been the dominant one in my life. I’ve never seen her act anything except dominant. So this kind of hurts.

And then, the worst part for me, is that I can hear my uncle downstairs while I’m upstairs (coz he yells) and I can hear him talking about me to my mom behind my back. All bad things. “It’s bad enough [s]he is here, does [s]he really have to be so lazy?” Stuff like that. He doesn’t believe mental illnesses exist. He has explicitly told my mother that “people with this fake depression act are just lazy” and “people with this fake anxiety act need to man up and get over it”. Things like that. Also telling me “You don’t have any real problems. You need to get over it and do this this and this.” Blah blah blah. Stuff like that.

And right before my mom and I left for my uncle’s house a couple weeks ago, my father, who is schizoid, had a psychotic break. He had been hearing a radio for days and nights and hadn’t been getting any sleep because of it and for some reason, he thought he was hearing it from me (my bedroom is two floors above his, so???). So he ran up the stairs to my room at like 11pm and started banging on the door because he thought it was locked (I’m not allowed to lock my door anymore or my parents will take it off the hinges and I don’t lock it anymore and my dad knows that so Idk why he thought it was locked?). He never tried knocking or opening it. He just started banging on the door as hard as he could. I thought it was going to break. I also had an immediate panic attack because it was all silent, and suddenly someone was POUNDING on my door. The first thing I thought was “Oh god. One of my parents had a heart attack and I need to help”. But no. My dad was just hearing a radio and couldn’t sleep because of it. So I run over to the door which is all the way across my bedroom and there’s a queen sized bed in the middle of the room so I had to go around it. Took kinda long. The pounding got louder so I immediately wrenched the door open when I got to it. I didn’t even get to say “What’s wrong” before my dad had his hands around my throat. He pushed me onto the bed and tightened his grip and started SCREAMING at me “WHERE IS IT?” and I had no idea what he was talking about. But my mom heard, of course, and she came running up the stairs, asking in a panic what was wrong. When she rounded the corner to the loft I stay in, she saw my dad strangling me so she tried to pull him off of me, which she did, and he turned around and backhanded her. My mom started screaming at him and he’d scream back and I was just laying on the bed coughing, trying to get my breath back. And my dad was shouting “WHERE IS IT? WHERE IS IT?” and my mom kept asking “WHERE IS WHAT???” and finally he was like “THE RADIO. I KNOW [S]HE HAS IT SOMEWHERE UP HERE.” and my mom and I were both like “What??????” and my dad started strangling me again and this time my mom didn’t pull him off of me and she just kept talking to him and finally he released me and it dawned on him that he had made a terrible mistake. So he just started apologizing profusely and my mom lead him back downstairs and told me to wait in my room and she’d be up in a minute and I overheard them talking about the radio and how there was none and my dad was just profusely apologizing. And he eventually went back down to the basement and my mom came up and comforted me and told me what was going on. Then we left for Virginia the next morning.

And then when we got to my mom’s friends house in Virginia to stay the weekend before we drove to MA, I didn’t have any internet service all that time. And then we drove to MA and my uncle greeted us by screaming at us.

I honestly don’t know why my uncle is always yelling and so angry, but I can’t handle it because of the things I went through as a child. Hearing someone yell immediately gives me panic attacks and makes me cry hysterically where everyone can hear me even if I bury myself in a pillow. Which, if my uncle hears me crying, he hits me and tells me to “Get over it”.

My uncle also doesn’t want me “being lazy” and “staying around the house all day”, so I just leave almost as soon as I get up and drive around exploring or go to the beach until it’s safe to come home when my mom gets home. My uncle is pushing me to get a summer job, but I literally can’t because I have disability now and they’d take my disability away if I started working. So I had the idea to volunteer, but I haven’t been able to push my anxiety down enough to go turn in my applications to the various no-kill animal shelters I want to volunteer at. Because I don’t have anymore Ativan until next week because you can only transfer controlled substances once in your entire life to another Walgreens and I’ve already transferred them one time in my life. Which, btw, REALLY fucked up thing? Like, what am I supposed to do when I move????? Jfc. But the second I get my ativan, I’m going to turn in those applications. My anxiety has just been through the fucking roof lately. I can’t push myself to talk to people I don’t know right now. I guess coz I’m scared they are going to yell at me? I’m not really sure.

But I’ve had so many flashbacks since I’ve been here because of my PTSD. PTSD is why I can’t handle people yelling at me. My therapist has said I can have skype sessions with him, but I haven’t done it yet. I haven’t called him either, which I do in emergencies. Basically because I can’t find the courage to talk to someone on the phone or skype because I’m so anxious. I reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally need that Ativan prescription.

SO, I mean, that’s not all that’s happened. That’s barely scratching the surface. I can’t even tell you guys how many times I have almost caved to cutting or attempting suicide since I’ve been here. My mom and I have been in a few fights, mostly verbal. And I have screwed up parallel parking SO many times because I’m reaaaally not good at parallel parking and I get yelled for it by my mom AND my uncle because I “should know how to do that by now”. Which…I’ve only had to parallel park maybe three times in my entire life before this??? So… Idk.

My uncle also will not leave the house without his really old dog. And he makes him stay in the car while he’s working or going out to eat or going to the gym. The one and only time he will not take the dog with him is when he is golfing. I just don’t know how anyone could be so cruel. I’m surprised the dog hasn’t died from heat stroke in one of the summers yet. I’m also surprised he hasn’t been stolen. I just don’t understand how he can be so cruel. He also screams at the dog constantly and won’t let him in his room. Which, the dog is too old to climb stairs anyways, but he still never lets him upstairs, even when he was a puppy.

I just…ugh. I legit hate people who leave their dogs in their car. Idk how anyone could be so cruel.

I mean, don’t get me wrong, I LOVE being in MA. Massachusetts has been my favourite state in the US since I was really little. I’ve always wanted to live here. And I might be moving here with a friend I met over tumblr about a year from now. I love how the weather is still cold. It’s 55 degrees F out right now. So nice! *-* I can’t stand summer. Lol. I don’t ever want it to be hot. I wanna wear comfy coats all year round tbh.

ALSO I’m getting to go meet/visit about 10 friends (all of which I’ve met over Tumblr in the past few years) during the next couple month. I also get to see one of my long-time high school besties and her husband and baby, neither of whom I’ve ever met. I’m really, really excited. I get to start leaving to see people on the 8th of this month. Which is coming up really soon! It’s the 2nd now. *-* Much excite!

BUT ANYWAYS

Yeah, I know my queue ran out, which has never happened since I have had this blog like 5 years ago. I just haven’t had a lot of time with enough internet access to load things on tumblr mobile which is the only way I have been able to get on Tumblr until literally right now. I promise I will start posting again soon. Gonna fill my queue up over the next few days. I’m so sorry I’ve been gone, you guys. :c I miss you all. Thank you for all the kind and concerned messages I’ve gotten during my absence.

Normally the only absence I take from Tumblr is when I get locked up in a psych ward, but I literally can’t chance that anymore so my suicide attempts and self harm are over. Which is amazing and a really big step for me. Because if I get thrown in a ward right now, it would be a state ward because of all the wards I’ve been in since I was 18. And state wards are REALLY hard to get out of. I wouldn’t be able to handle being locked up like that. I’d legit go crazy and probably kill someone who worked there. I can’t handle being locked up at all. Psych wards are the worst thing that could happen to me/anyone. ._. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. But you guys know that already. Lol.

Um. Anyways. I’m okay, in the lightest sense of the word. I’m not feeling too depressed, but I’m having a lot of flashbacks and recurrence of self harm/suicidal feelings.

It’s not a fucking wonder that my uncle’s wife and kid left him. I’m legit scared of him. And that is why I stay in the guest room where my mom and I are sleeping with the door closed pretty much all day when I get the balls to stay home. I don’t want to leave MA because I absolutely love MA, but I miss Echo like crazy. It’s hard being away from my pupper for so long. :/

I’m sick of being yelled at and I’m sick of being slapped/hit. I can’t even defend myself or demand an apology because of the threat of him kicking us out. My mom won’t even talk to him about it because of that. I just can’t wait to leave to see my friends and stay with them for a while in other parts of MA.

I mean, we have a lot of family up here that would take us in, but none of them are close to my mom’s work like my uncle is.

I’m sorry I haven’t been on Tumblr in weeks now. I know I worried a lot of people. But it basically comes down to a lack of good internet reception. ._. If I can’t get things to load, what is the point of being on Tumblr??? Lol. I’m a LOT more active on FB. So if you guys have a FB, just search for Riley Roswell and find the picture of the boy with pink and blue hair. Lol. :p

Thank you for being concerned and sending me a message. Ily.

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spaceshippingace-blog · 8 years ago

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LOGH Episode 7

Episode 7: The Capture of Iserlohn

The post may contain my personal opinions / commentary.

Locations:

Iserlohn Fortress

Heinessen

New characters:

Rosen Ritter members:

Kasper Linz

Linier Blumart

Admiral Thomas von Stockhausen

Admiral Hans Dietrich von Seeckt

Walter's team arrives at Iserlohn. Walter, disguised as badly injured Lt Commander Rakhen asks the security ensign to lead him to the fortress commander. Kasper Linz warns the ensign of the upcoming Alliance attack. Walter says it's confidential and he can only reveal it to the commander. Meanwhile, the communication is still compromised at the Fortress' control room.

The station fleet discovers the enemy diversion, but it would take 2 hours for them to return to the Fortress. The Alliance fleet needs 1 and a half hour to get all their fleet into the port, so Walter needs to open the port within 30 minutes, or the Alliance fleet will be attacked on both sides (from the Fortress, and from the station fleet).

The Alliance force stays outside the range of the main weapon (Thor Hammer) and maneuvers back and forth which is picked up by the Fortress garrison. Walter and his team arrives at the control room, with one security guard wanting their ID's but Kasper saying there's no time for that. Basically Kasper is a very good actor, and twists the situation so they let them in.

Wenli in the meantime is just bullshitting his way through this whole thing like he's preparing some major attack or something :D

Walter is cool as always and when Stockhausen gets too close to him, he tackles him, and holds him at gunpoint, as a hostage. Kasper and another Rosen Ritter member, Linier Blumart is also cool, and disarms two security members as well.

One security member says this:

“His Excellency, the Commander is a man who fears dishonor more than death.”

That's where you're wrong buddy.

Stockhausen fears death more than dishonor, so he surrenders to the Rosen Ritter.

They tie the security up, but the one guy escapes and manages to hit the security alarm, which locks down the Fortress. Communications and weapons also basic transportation between floors and such are also cut. Walter plans to take over the main computer until the arrival of the station fleet. The garrison is "little more than" 50 people according to Walter. Wenli's fleet is closing in on Iserlohn Fortress, and does not receive any attack, so Wenli knows the operation is going pretty well. (Btw Wenli is mainly conversing with Murai during this operation.) Murai does not trust Walter. But Wenli does <3

YW: As long as there’s no attack from the fortress, we just have to wait.

M: It’s 10 000 to 1 that Colonel Schenkopp turned traitor or failed.

YW: I have faith in Schenkopp. The success of this plan hinges on him. Until the last, I’ll believe in him.

The emergency tube or what the hell was what Walter was brought in, had hidden weapons inside, which come in handy for the Rosen Ritter guys :) As the Fortress cannot open fire because of the lock-down, that's one less risk towards the Alliance fleet. Walter also believes Wenli can figure out a way to defend the Alliance fleet from the twice as big station fleet. Also a big relief that Reinhard isn't here, according to Walter :D

Some Rosen Ritter members stay in the main control room to try to repair communications.

Oberstein has this face of "I'm surrounded by idiots" all the time XD Poor guy, nobody listens to him :D

The station fleet receives a message from the Alliance fleet:

"Iserlohn Fortress is already occupied. If you surrender peacefully, no one will be harmed. If not, you will personally experience the Thor Hammer's destructive power."

Seeckt wants to stop the fleet to these news, but Oberstein says it would be better if they would advance because he thinks from the pattern of the Alliance fleet's movements that the Fortress is not yet fallen.

Seeckt: If it hasn't, why aren't they attacking the enemy?

Oberstein: True. But if the enemy had already taken the fortress... wouldn't they just wait for us in ambush and then annihilate us in one stroke with the main gun?

S: ...

O: The enemy we've seen is less than half our strength. If we attack while the fortress is resisting, I think we can take them out easily. Moreover...

S: Enough! We'll stay outside the main gun's range and observe the situation!

O: Your Excellency!

S: The enemy fleet is, as you say, very small. But it's too small. From what we've seen, we're already between more than two fleets. It's not a mistake. If so, mustn't we assume that the fortress has been taken?! Meanwhile the Rosen Ritter is getting closer to the main computer. Did I mention there are only three of them? Holy hell!

This cute scene happens when Linier slips and falls down a bit from where he is supposed to land:

Seeckt: I'm afraid we're going to experience the power of the Thor Hammer!

Oberstein: The enemy is counting on our cowering in fear of the Thor Hammer.

Seeckt: Are you saying I'm cowering?! The Rosen Ritter uses Zephyr Particles (the explosive gas Kircheis used to take down the Artemis Necklace of the Kastrop rebellion) to get rid of (what I mean is: kill) some guards. The guard actually think the whole emergency situation is a drill.

Think about it: not once did enemy get in the fortress, so of course it's a little hard to believe that this is a real emergency situation. This is what the "It's not a drill!" line is used for, dear Empire.

Basically it's like this: throw a Zephyr Particles grenade, wait for a guard to open fire, watch as the flames catch on and kill the guards.

The Rosen Ritter attack and defeat (what I mean is: kill) the remaining guards (they notice the traces of the Zephyr Particles, so they don't fire).

The three of them overpower at least fifteen guards, then take the main computer room from the remaining guards after defeating the leader.

They open the ports and the light buoys float up to indicate where the ports are. Frederica congratulates Wenli, who says it's not over yet.

The imperial fleet sees the buoys as well. Seeckt wants to attack them, but Oberstein says that's a trap (and it is!)

S: They're taking refuge?! Very well! Don't let this chance get away. Advance at full speed!

O: Sir!

S: You again?! What is it this time?

O: This is a trap... we mustn't rush in.

S: Damn you! Didn't you say "rush in" a little while ago?!

O: The situation has changed. There's nothing we can do.

S: Don't you understand?! If the fortress has fallen into enemy hands, we can't go home in disgrace! We can at least give them a good fight; a full attack on the fortress!

O: But, by this time...

S: Silence! Get out of here!

Oberstein takes this quite literally and takes a small ship to escape the imperial fleet. :D

Wenli is already in the control room, and they see the imperial fleet advance. They use the Thor Hammer.

Soldier 1: More than 1000 enemy ships destroyed instantly.

Soldier 2: With just one shot...

Soldier 3: It is incredibly destructive.

My dear Wenli <3 It's not your fault, it's that stupid enemy commander!

I love you too, Walter <3

Soldier 1: W...withdraw?!

Soldier 2: Telling the enemy to withdraw?!

YW: Any complaints?

Soldier 2: No. How can I put it... We think of glory, fighting under the Admiral.

Wenli sends another message to the imperial fleet commander to surrender.

"Further bloodshed is pointless. If you're unwilling to surrender then withdraw. We will not pursue."

I'm so sorry this cutie and several other people died because of this incompetent commander!

The imperial fleet advances once again. Their message:

"You don't understand the soldier's heart. Our code will not allow us to endure living with dishonor! Dying to fulfill our honor, that is our code. Moreover... For the glory of the Kaiser, all ships will charge to die in an honorable defeat." Ok I can kind of understand that this is what they learnt, but this is against logic and it's a meaningless bloodshed, so I'm still angry at the imperial fleet commander for wasting all those lives.

So is Wenli.

YW: "Soldier's heart" is it?! It's because of bastards like him that the war never ends!

Soldier 1: All enemy ships are advancing...

YW: Can you tel which one is the flagship?

Soldier 2: Yes, we can, but...

YW: Concentrate all fire on the flagship! This will be the final shot!

Soldier 2: Target locked in!

YW: Fire!

Seeckt: Long live the Empire!

Soldier 2: The Imperial flagship is destroyed.

Imperial ships escape, among them Oberstein.

Oberstein: Fool. Only if we live, is there a chance for revenge.

Frederica: Enemy fleet, breaking off and withdrawing.

YW: There's no one there who would rather die. Ltjg, please contact Heinessen. Tell them my orders are fulfilled.

Narration:

Space Year 796, May 14th. The Free Planets Alliance succeeded in capturing Iserlohn Fortress on their 7th attempt. The 13th Fleet was greeted by a storm of cheers. The people praised Yang who didn't lose a single soldier. They called him "Miracle Yang" and "Yang the Magician."