#which was not embarrassing! bc it was obviously for a higher purpose!

[daisywords]

they should make a support group for people who love to sing but are cursed with mediocre voice

[hangovercurse]

I’d Drop it All for You

Pictures of you and Pete are spread all over the internet, causing a whirlwind of hate to enter your social media.

Request: “Pete content please! anything !!! smut fluff whatever”

Pete x Reader

Warnings: Cursing, depictions of depression and anxiety

A/N: *Insert normal spiel about respecting A.G. and only using her for plot purposes. No harm intended.* Also I wrote most of this after a meeting with my therapist so... enjoy :) (He’s so cute in this gif I wanna kiss his face)

Word Count: 1820

You weren’t one of those people who loved being the center of attention. You knew that being in the spotlight also meant constantly living under a microscope, and you decided a long time ago that that was not for you.

But you were lucky enough to work as an assistant art director at just 24. You were hoping that The King of Staten Island, your newest project, would help get your name out into the professional world. But that wasn’t the only thing to come out of the film.

It happened unexpectedly, you showed up on set the first day, ready to do whatever the art director required of you. You couldn’t help but be slightly distracted by the lead actor and writer, Pete Davidson. He was so kind and funny, and he wasn’t uptight like everyone else.

After a few hours of filming, he came up to you, introducing himself. He said he “wanted to get to know everyone working on the project,” but you didn’t see him introducing himself to anyone else. You two started talking during breaks. Then he started sitting with you at lunch. Then he was asking for your number.

In a matter of weeks he was asking you out to dinner, taking you to a cozy restaurant that you absolutely adored. He walked you home, his hand grazing yours until you intertwined your fingers.

It was all very romantic, so when Pete asked if he could take you on another, you obviously said yes. Flash forward two weeks and he finally got the courage to ask you to be his girlfriend, even though you were both exclusively seeing each other already.

After filming ended 2 months later, you were still working on the film in post, which meant you had an excuse to stay  in Staten Island with Pete. After about 2 weeks in post, you spent more nights in his bed than your hotel’s.

Nearly 6 months later and you were happier than ever. You were splitting your time between your small apartment in the Bronx and Pete’s basement apartment. Pete introduced you to most of his friends, and you introduced him to yours.

But other than your small circles of friends, you kept your relationship fairly quiet. Pete doesn’t have social media and yours is strictly professional, so there are no pictures of you two together. You weren’t hiding each other, you loved each other, you just had no reason to tell tabloids. And you were perfectly happy with that.

Which made it so much worse when various news sites had pictures of you two holding hands. Had they been anyone else you would’ve thought they were cute, walking along the South Beach oceanside at night.

Pete had been in the SNL studio all day when the pictures were released, while you were in his apartment, trying your best to focus on the photoset in front of you. The production team wanted the film to scream “teen romance,” which basically entails subtle pink undertones and a higher saturation. But you couldn’t quite get the coloring right, probably because you weren’t actually focusing on the colors.

You sighed, looking at the time and realizing that Pete won’t be back until sometime after 2am, which was a whole 5 hours away. You let out a huff, pushing away from the desk and making your way to Pete’s closet and searching for one of his hoodies. They always smelled like him (and weed), so it was a comfort to you.

You crashed onto the bed, finding the phone that you had tossed there a few hours earlier. Turning it on you were surprised by the number of notifications you were getting. You knew the photos had surfaced but you weren’t expecting this.

Your Instagram was blowing up with new follows, likes, and comments. It was kind of exciting at first until you started reading some of the comments.

I mean, we knew he would downgrade from Ari, but this is like… really far down.

This girl really thinks she’s special just bc Pete’s dating her. Hun he could do so much better

Who is she?!? Literally no one.

Someone needs to show her how to dress

That hairstyle is not it honey

Pete Davidson is dating YOU??? He could do sooo much better

Ari was prettier sorry not sorry

The entire comment section on your last post, a picture of you on the set of your latest film, was pretty much the same. There were some nice comments, but a lot of mean ones.

And you couldn’t help it, you couldn’t stop looking at them. It felt so cliché, but it was like all of your deepest insecurities about being with Pete were thrown out on the table.

You knew that Pete had a fairly large following, and that a lot of people had really strong feelings about him. You had expected that if and when your relationship went public you would have a lot of people watching you, scrutinizing you. But you didn’t care because Pete was worth it.

Now you weren’t so sure. It wasn’t that you couldn’t handle people talking bad about you, because you definitely could, even if it hurt. You just weren’t expecting the amount of people comparing you to Ariana or saying that Pete could do so much better.

And it only bothered you so much because you felt it too. Your inner demons loved to remind you that Pete had dated Ariana fucking Grande and now he’s dating you. Anyone could see an obvious downgrade.

You turned your phone off and threw it on the opposite side of the bed, trying to think positive thoughts. “I am in control of my own thoughts and emotions. I am catching my negative thoughts and fixing them.” You murmured your therapist’s mantra to yourself, but it was too late. The thoughts had already taken hold of your mind.

Your eyes started to water as you could feel the heavy feeling in your chest set in. You pulled the hood over your head, pulling the straps to hide as much of your face as possible, and pulling your knees to your chest. You laid like that for a while, tears falling as doubts ran through your head. Once you had effectively exhausted your thoughts, you went numb. Your tears had stopped, but you couldn’t move. This wasn’t an unfamiliar feeling, but it sure wasn’t pleasurable.

There was a sort of buzzing throughout your body, almost like the feeling when your foot falls asleep, but everywhere. It seemed to block out your sound, as you didn’t hear the basement door open. You only knew that Pete was home when he sat beside you on the bed, pulling the hood off your face.

“There’s my beautiful girl.” He smiled at you. You tried your best to fake one back, but you honestly couldn’t find the energy. Pete pulled you so you were sitting up, back pressed against his front. His arms wrapped around your middle as he pressed a kiss to your temple. “What’s goin on?” He murmured against your skin.

“Did you see them?” You asked, your voice quiet and hoarse.

Pete let out a sigh, “Yeah, I saw them.” He paused, his hold on you getting tighter, like he was making sure you couldn’t leave. “I’m sorry baby. I know you didn’t want it to be a whole big thing.”

You turned your head to face him, “It’s not that. I really don’t mind that people know. We weren’t trying to hide anything.”

He smiled, “Yeah, I know I just- it was nice having this to ourselves.”

He wanted to hide you. He’s embarrassed of you.

Your inner dialogue never seemed to shut up.

You turned away from Pete, trying to hide the tears forming in your eyes. “Yeah.” You whispered.

“What’s wrong, you’re still upset.” He rocked you in his arms, kissing the top of your head. You shrugged in response, not trusting yourself to talk. “You can talk to me, y’know.”

You nodded, leaning further into Pete’s chest. “People found my Instagram.” You murmured, looking down and tracing the arrow tattoo on his hand.

“Whaddya mean? I thought it was public?” He furrowed his eyebrows.

You sighed, wishing you hadn’t said anything. “Yeah, it is. But after all the articles people started following me and shit.”

“I would ask how that’s a problem but I deleted my Instagram so I can’t really talk.” You could tell he was trying to make you feel better, but you couldn’t seem to get out of your haze.

You shook your head, deciding to drop the matter. “It’s not, I’m just being overdramatic.” You sighed, putting on a fake smile and facing him fully. “Wanna watch a movie?” You asked, trying to change the topic.

He gave you the I-know-you’re-bullshitting-me look, which made you look down. “Something’s bothering you, Y/N. And you’re trying to pretend it doesn’t because you think your feelings aren’t valid, but they are.” He tilted his head, trying to meet your eyes that were still trained on the bedsheets below you.

“Where’d you learn that one?” You chuckled half-heartedly.

“Rehab part 2” he smiled, hand coming to your jaw to tilt your head up. “C’mon, talk to me. I wanna help.”

You huffed, moving towards the opposite side of the bed where your phone laid. You opened it, finding your Instagram, and showing him the comments. His eyebrows furrowed as he scrolled through the comments. When he decided he’d had enough he put your phone down, grabbing your waist and lifting you onto his lap so you were essentially straddling him.

He leaned his forehead against your own, your noses touching. “That’s all bullshit, you know that, right?”

You looked down, biting your lip. “Y/N you’re the most amazing, most beautiful woman I’ve ever met, okay? I’m in love with you, not anyone else.” Pete’s eyes were searching yours, trying to figure out what was going on in your head.

“I know.” You sighed, “It’s just hard to be with you and not compare myself to her. And then all these people started to do it too, and they kept saying that you could do so much better and you can. So, I dunno I guess I just kind of spiraled.”

Pete captured your lips in a long, passionate kiss. “Y/N. There is literally no better than you. I can’t do better because you are the best woman I have ever loved. “

You pulled Pete in for another kiss. “Thank you, Pete. I love you.”

“I love you too. If this happens again, I want you to call me. I don’t care what I’m doing, I’d drop it all for you.” You smiled, sitting in the arms of the guy you loved. The thoughts didn’t just magically go away, but for a brief moment in time, you were happy.

[tsumucore]

“I just want to be with you all day, every day...” ♡‧₊˚

Request by @artsamber : Scenario where Oikawa and his s/o are in a secret relationship bc she’s kageyama’s older sister and everyone finds out during one of their matches uwu 🥺

Word count: 1.8k

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There was nothing more exhilarating than the atmosphere of a sports event - the throngs of spectators eagerly rushing to claim the seats that would give them the best view, the shrill blow of whistles as referees dictated whether matches were taking a turn for better or for worse, the smell of overpriced street foods wafting through the entire arena as vendors waved over potential customers. However, all of this went unnoticed by you; your attention was on your phone as you impatiently glanced at it for what felt like the umpteenth time.

You were planning to meet up with your boyfriend to wish him luck - the way you always did before all of his matches. When he finally texted you the meeting spot, you were marching towards your destination with a purpose. You pushed through the crowd as politely as you could, before ultimately giving up and breaking into a borderline jog to your agreed meeting spot - a utility closet located on the outskirts of the building. By the time you reached the door, you gave yourself a second to catch your breath and fix your hair before pushing it open.

“It’s about time,” a familiar voice lilted at your arrival. Before your eyes had even adjusted to the incredibly dim lighting, you immediately launched yourself into your lover’s arms and buried your face in his jersey as the scent of his cologne filled your senses to the brim.

“I missed you so much, Tooru.”

“Y/N,” he murmured as he tilted your chin up and kissed you gently. “We just saw each other a few days ago.” He moved both of his hands to cup your face and kissed you a few more times before slowly migrating to your jaw and down your neck.

“I know,” you sighed contentedly as you relished in the feeling of his soft lips pressing against your delicate skin. “But it’s not enough… I just want to be with you all day, every day.” His lips stopped moving on your neck as his chocolate-brown eyes looked up at you with curiosity.

“We could, you know. We could just tell everyone about us - we wouldn’t have to sneak around anymore, and we would be together whenever we pleased!” You had to admit that it sounded tempting, but the rational part of your brain told you to hold your horses.

“Tooru, you know why we can’t do that. For God’s sake, you’re playing against my brother in twenty minutes. Considering your history with him, I don’t think he would necessarily be our biggest fan,” you ran your hand through his soft hair, silently willing him to resume his kisses. He didn’t. Instead, he stepped away from you.

“We’re not dating him; we’re dating each other. Whatever qualms Tobio has about us shouldn’t matter. I mean, obviously they matter, because he’s your brother. But at the end of the day, we shouldn’t let what others say keep us from being with each other,” his voice was rising higher and higher as his cheeks grew flushed and his eyes held an intense expression.

“And what if everything backfires? What if Tobio starts hating me? What if it only becomes that much harder for us to be together? What if-” Your ramblings ceased to continue as Oikawa closed the distance between you and rested one hand on the small of your back while the other stroked your cheek with the gentlest touch.

“I have faith in our relationship. I think you should too.”

Your eyes widened as he gazed at you with the most loving expression you had ever seen him wear. As much as you feared the consequences of making your relationship known to the rest of the world, you realized that it wasn’t fair to Oikawa - you were stifling him, in a sense. Your internal deliberation gradually came to an end as you felt yourself relent to him.

“This really means a lot to you, doesn’t it?” Now it was your turn to bring your hands up, cradling his face.

“More than anything,” he beamed. Your heart melted at the sight of his elated expression, and you sighed before kissing him once more.

You felt as though you could stay here with him, in this dingy utility closet, with its single lightbulb and musty air, forever. However, you didn’t forget that time was ticking, and he had a game to be at in about ten minutes. You took his hands in yours and kissed his knuckles for luck, the way you did before all of his matches. With one last embrace, you parted ways - he was on his way to a very last-minute warmup, while you were on your way to hunting for the best leftover seat you could find.

The match between the two teams was eventful - at least, it felt that way for you. This was the first time you had ever watched a game between your brother’s school and your boyfriend’s school; needless to say, you cheered for both. You ignored the confused and occasionally dirty looks that were being thrown at you from spectators; it didn’t matter - you were here to proudly support them both, regardless of the outcome.

However, all matches demanded a winner, and this one chose Karasuno. It was an intense game, and although Seijoh had put up an impressively ruthless fight, they ended up losing the last set by two points. You felt your heart swell as you watched Kageyama get absolutely dog-piled on by his teammates, and you felt your stomach churn as you switched your gaze to Oikawa’s crestfallen demeanor while he led the rest of the team to bow in thanks for the audience.

After both teams left and the court was starting to be prepped for the next match, you proceeded to make your way to a hallway near the locker rooms, where you knew the teams typically congregated when they weren’t playing. As you meandered through the crowd and turned the corner, you were immediately greeted with the sight of both teams standing around and talking amongst themselves as they waited for the locker rooms to be unlocked. Karasuno were excitedly chattering away and jumping on each other, while Seijoh were much quieter, murmuring to themselves as they tried not to focus on the rambunctious bunch next to them.

You approached Kageyama, pulling him in for a hug and ignoring his faltering protests. It was apparent that although he was acting as if your affection was annoying him, he secretly appreciated it. You congratulated the rest of the members as their giddiness enveloped you. As the elder sister of their beloved setter, you naturally earned their respect. While Tanaka and Nishinoya were practically tripping over themselves as they fought over who would get to hold “Big-sis Y/N-chan’s” bag, your eyes drifted over to the other team.

You swallowed thickly as you caught Oikawa’s eye, cheeks heating up under the duress of his strong gaze. All you wanted to do was jump into his arms and comfort him with hugs and kisses; you didn’t give a damn anymore if people saw. You were exhausted with pretending your relationship didn’t exist; your boyfriend needed you right now, and his feelings meant a great deal more to you than what others thought. Before your brain could process what was even happening, your legs were moving quickly to where he stood and your arms were flinging themselves around his neck.

His arms promptly wrapped themselves around you in response and his lips curled into a smile. “Thank you, love,” he whispered into your ear.

You stayed like this for a few seconds before all hell broke loose. Both teams were gaping at you before screaming exclamations at the top of their lungs. Their expressions of disbelief reverberated through the hall, causing random spectators to stare curiously at them.

However, no one’s voice could match the sheer volume of Kageyama’s. He was shouting your name, and then Oikawa’s name, and then your name, and then Oikawa’s again and again and again. He marched up to the two of you, with Tanaka and Nishinoya hot on his heels, and got right in your boyfriend’s face. At this point, he didn’t say anything - he just stared at him with the most vicious glare you’d ever seen cloud his face. Oikawa stood his ground and stared directly back, with his hand in yours the entire time. You gritted your teeth and stepped directly between them, lightly pushing Kageyama back with one hand while the other remained intertwined with Oikawa’s.

“Tobio, please,” you said to him in the most soothing voice you could muster. “I understand that this may come as a surprise to you, but-”

“A surprise? Y/N, this is ridiculous! Him?” It was almost as if he was questioning himself instead of you.

“Tobio,” you spoke in the same gentle, soothing tone as before. “I understand this is a lot to take in - no, don’t scoff at me like that - but Tooru and I are together now. It’s okay if you need time to adjust to this, but it’s ultimately happening. I promise you, this is the happiest I’ve ever been. So, can you please give this a chance for me?”

Kageyama’s scowl was still etched on his face, but his eyes softened just the tiniest bit, and when you saw that, you knew everything would be okay. “The happiest you’ve ever been?” he asked you slowly.

“Ever,” you beamed.

Your brother’s seething expression gradually melted into a mildly grumpy one, which you could accept. “I still don’t like it,” he muttered as he looked at the ground. “But if you’re happy, who am I to stop that?”

You threw your arms around him as you chanted your thanks to him over and over again.

“Tobio, you’ve grown so much,” Oikawa commented which earned him a glare in his direction. His tone suddenly deepened as he proclaimed, “And now I need you to know that I’ll take care of her.”

At this, Kageyama appeared to be taken aback as he stammered out a “right.”

During this entire “soap opera” moment, as you mentally dubbed it, you had completely disregarded the audience that was practically eating up every word being exchanged between the three of you. A wave of embarrassment suddenly crashed over you, causing you to lower your gaze and instinctively clutch onto Oikawa’s arm. He understood at once and turned to his team, announcing that there was nothing to see anymore and to enter the now unlocked locker rooms already before they stank up the place. At this, Karasuno also began to awkwardly disperse; some entering the locker room, some leaving for the restroom - anywhere else away from this hall was preferable.

Kageyama began to turn on his heel to follow his teammates, but before he was able to take a step, you grabbed onto his hand and squeezed it. He squeezed back, causing you to smile before finally releasing him. It was now just you and Oikawa left to yourselves.

“We did it,” you beamed up at him. “You were right about everything. I’m just so… at peace now.”

“Now the world finally knows you’re mine,” he teased before pressing a feather-light kiss on the tip of your nose. “Now I can be with you all day, every day.”

.°•  rules  ₊˚•.  masterlist  .°•

[endoyamato]

HOW TO LIVE ON ~400BGN A MONTH (in bulgaria) (if you live alone+one pet)

this is a small guide i decided to put together for people in Bulgaria (or other countries who are poor, don't get paid a lot, live in capital cities etc). please note that i am privileged enough so that i live alone but i DONT PAY BILLS besides my phone bill and internet bill (which are altogether ~70lv). from what i understand though water+electric bill is around ~100lv so this guide should still help. i also have the privilege of having a full-time job that pays more than the above, but i was in a very tight spot a few months ago (and a couple of times last year), so i have this as a sure way to manage to survive until it gets better. therefore, my tips are for such a situation. i understand my privilege, but i hope this can still help people!

all currency will be in LV/BGN, as it is focused on Bulgaria. but you can probably still use some tips if you live elsewhere!

so, due to some stuff with the bank that i won't get into, a few months ago i was at -200lv in my bank account - i had some money saved+i took commissions, and i was able to cover that amount so that i was back to 0, but unfortunately that happened right before a trip i had to the UK. if you've ever been to the UK, esp London, you know it's expensive as fuck for everyone else. so for only one weekend, i ended up spending around 500-600lv (for hotel+food+tickets). which meant that i barely could manage for two-three months, because i was always short around 500-600lv (i only recovered this month - and that happened in may!).

the moment you get money, divide it into envelopes, each labelled for a specific purpose! for me, it's like this:

CAT - 50lv PHONE/INTERNET - 50lv (back then i paid less for phone lol)* MEDICATION (bc i have to buy+take meds) - 50lv GROCERIES  - 150lv

that way, everything can come up to 300lv. *do NOT use text messaging services on your phone because those are pricy AS FUCK. and try to avoid calling 0700 numbers bc last time i racked up a +10lv bill just from that. try to use internet (mobile internet is cheap and limitless) as much as you can for everything. get viber, whatsapp, fb messaging, etc.

if you shop in a supermarket like Billa, Billa has cards. GET A CARD. they're free to make, and some products are cheaper that way, especially in the bigger supermarkets. i don't shop at Lidl, so i don't know if they have such a program. if you can, shop in a local small store - they're usually a little cheaper than supermarkets! buying in bulk from a small store can be embarrassing, but last time i went for basic groceries it was around 20lv.

things to buy that last a long time and are cheap:

- rice - pasta - ready to go noodles - eggs - soup - bread, but NOT WHITE. white bread molds really fast even in the fridge, so you'll end up throwing away half a package of bread after a week. - potatoes - FRESH vegetables* (tomatoes and cucumbers mainly, i can only eat cherry tomatoes which are more expensive but it's still ok because i buy a bunch and then just eat them over the course of a week) - krenvirshi, put them in the freezer

*if you are easily distracted and forgettable/have depression and low energy, do not buy frozen vegetables. i can't stress this enough. you will put them outside to unfreeze, then forget or feel too tired to cook them, and by the next day they will have to be thrown out. buy fresh vegetables and put them ALL in the fridge.

- if you find any, corn on the cob instead of in a can. put it in the FREEZER. in stalls outside (not in supermarkets), i've seen a package of 6 corns for ~4lv. they are more filling than a can of corn, and about 5 cobs last longer than a can, which lasts about 2 days and is more expensive overall.

i don't eat beans or 90% of dairy products, so i can't give advice on that!

- frozen meat, always try to look at the prices first of course. try to buy in broika instead of a package of a few. - spreadable cheese, try to avoid Philadelphia as it is more expensive. - try to avoid stuff like lukanki as they're usually pricy and can't last super long (in my experience at least) - olives - jars of pickled stuff, as they usually last a long time - frozen nuggets

try to avoid snacks like chips and cookies, but you can buy obiknoveni biskviti for pretty cheap!

now, if you are way too tired to cook or make something, here is a list of things you can eat outside that aren't that pricy: - avoid mcdonalds. i know it's tempting and seems "cheap" but it really isn't, and it's not very filling either - instead, go to KFC - they have something called a Street Box, that has a few pieces of meat+corn or a small salad i think for 2-3lv, and it can be a meal for two days. generally if you buy a KFC menu, you can divide it between 2-3 days - there is a hummusbar place in sofia around Popa, which seems pretty expensive but it's very filling and it can last 2-3 days if you save it properly. the thing i always get is around 11lv. - in smaller stores (not supermarkets) you can sometimes find sandwiches which are in a pack of 2. i personally can't eat mixed so i take the one with only kashkaval+lukanka, and it lasts 2 days. - a place on pl. makedonia offers really good grilled food for like... 3lv for a sald+meat+a bread. next to it there is a chinese place that’s again around 2-3lv a portion. around the same area there’s a tiny bar where things are expensive except a box of hummus which is 1.50lv and lasts a couple of days, but don’t buy bread with it bc that’ll raise the price by a lot. just get the hummus.

generally avoid restaurants and fast food places though, if you can. if you do go, try to leave something to take home.

if you have a pet like a cat, and it doesn't require special food (in which case unfortunately i don't have advice - my dog can eat only very special very expensive food, so obviously the expenses will be higher, but my mom takes care of my dog so), still don't buy the cheapest supermarket brand. be kind to your pet. don't buy it the level of food you yourself wouldn't eat. i usually buy cat pouches, and give my cat 1/2 of it daily + dry food, which he leaves in his bowl for the next few days. for dry food, i TRY to buy bulk that lasts about a month and costs around 13lv, but due to a bad back i can't always do that, so buy whatever you think is best. cat toilet, there is a brand that you can throw in your own toilet and lasts a month and a half for ~7lv, it’s called CITY PETS, silver protect. unfortunately bigger/expensive pet stores won’t have it, so you might have to look around neighborhood ones. i’ve discovered it lasts a REALLY long time. 50lv should be enough.

whatever you have left over at the end of the month in those envelopes, save and put towards next month's expenses. or buy yourself a starbucks because you deserve it!

if anyone has suggestions/corrections, please feel free to add stuff!

[tenpercentsugar]

1-100 boo

1. How long have you had a Tumblr?since 2012

2. Describe your first kiss, who was it with, what was it like, where was it etc?hard pass see ya

3. What’s your biggest regret? I know we all say we don’t regret things but obviously it’s how we learn, from our mistakes. So what’s something from your past you wished you could have changed?i don’t know what my biggest regret would be but i do regret taking acid last august cuz i went to hell and i think it permanently changed me

5. Favorite Songs at the moment?well my april playlist consists of chanel x frank ocean, overtime x bryson tiller, for however long x bryson tiller, reminder x the weeknd, deathgrip x fit for a king which are all songs i’ve been loving nonstop

5. What is the craziest thing that you have ever done?idk if this is crazy but once i took three klonopin then did coke

6. What’s the most embarrassing thing that’s ever happened to you?probably all of 2016 if i could remember it

7. Do you have any scars and if so, how did you get them?they’re all self-harm scars

8. Where would you like to be in 10 years?somewhere warm and rainy with a big dog and a family working at a job i love making decent money

9. What are your views on drugs and alcohol?don’t use them as a source of comfort. that’s a huuuge trap. recreationally they’re fun tho

10. What are your views on religion?i wish i could believe it! i really wish i could cuz it would be nice to have moments of crisis and feel comfort in knowing an otherworldly force is going to take care of me thru it

11. Have you ever thought about ending your own life? If so, why?yeah of course. i guess i just knew that all i did was hurt people and i had to get rid of that energy from the earth. i feel better now tho

12. Write 5 facts people might not know about you.i can never do these things bc there’s not much that people don’t know abt me. my life is an open book for allll to see

13. last really important text you got?i don’t think i’ve been texted abt anything super important recently. usually my texts are j “wyd”

14. Can you let go?for the most part!! i don’t like holding grudges

15. Discuss your first love.i’ve never had a first love and i am sooo coo on that

16. Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up. Explain why each song is on there.i don’t have an ipod i use anymore which is sad

17. Name somewhere you’d like to move or visit.i’d LOVE to visit greece but i’ll totally move to oregon

19. What are your views on mainstream music?no hate, i find shit i like in mainstream music all the time. tbh i have no clue what’s playing on the radio rn tho. if you turned it on i would not recognize like any songs which is weird asf

18. Are you currently missing someone?meg and allison for sure

19. At what age do you think people should have sex?prolly high school idk im no expert

20. What are your highs and lows of this past year?highs - got to meet so many amazing people (most notably, jake hazen), saw the story so far FINALLY, got closer w daniella, reconnected w taylor, got a job i love, etclows - lost two friends to tragedy, got addicted to klonopin/benzos, got hospitalized, completely lost all sense of self

21. What are your strongest beliefs?i believe that waterfalls are the prettiest part of nature and sunshowers are the coolest thing ever. if i were a weather phenomena i’d wanna be a sunshower

22. Who are you closest to in your family?probably my mom, kind of my brother

23. How important do you think education is?extremely!!! education opens doors for a person and i’m not even speaking on higher education i just mean in general. taking care of your intellect is really important to me!! i wish i was still learning!!

24. What’s one of your favorite shows?that 70s show is damn near my favorite show of all time

25. How have you changed in the past 2 years?ohhh boyyyy immensely i don’t think i’m even half the person i used to be but i’m okay

26. Name 5 people who are famous who you find attractive.zayn malik, frank ocean, asap rocky, tyler the creator, fucking david beckham

27. Name your favorite movie and what it’s about.tarzan bitcchhhh its abt a lil dude whose parents shipwrecked by a jungle, made a treehouse, then died and he survived and was taken in by a sympathetic gorilla whose husband is like the leader of the pack and rejects tarzan from the jump then these ppl from england come and one of them has a dark agenda that they don’t know abt. it’s lit

28. Who is someone who fascinates you and why?this is a weirdo thing but @sunsets-n–graveyards cuz she is the human embodiment of the word cool and i don’t know if i would believe any negative thing anybody had to say abt her

29. What kind of person attracts you?like who am i attracted to? or what kind of friends do i attract? im attracted to dudes w neck tattoos and nice hands or dudes that assume a kind of powerful vibe. i attract friends who are cool and funny and beautiful

30. What’s a problem that you have recently had or are currently having?i only had a little bit of bud left and i smoked it all yesserday so im gonna need to re-up

31. Name something that you miss.warped tour

32. Share 5 goals you want completed in the next 30 days.- quit smoking- work out details of the house we potentially getting- buy a dab pen and a puck- clean my fucking roooommmm- get an oil change lmao

33. What’s been the highlight of your month and the lowest point? this month has gone right past me i don’t even know if it was important enough to have highs and lows

34. What’s something that you’ve done in the past that you would never do again?take an adderall and three ritalin at night time

35. What is you’re biggest insecurity & why?my hands cuz they ugly

36. What were the last 3 songs you listened to and what did they mean to you?i have nooo clue what they were i don’t even remember what playlist i was in

37. Do you have a toy that’s really special to you and if so what is it, how did you get it etc?not anymore but i had a doll that i got when i was a wee lad and i used to care for that bitch more than i’ve ever cared for anything

38. Have you lost anyone close to you to death? not that close but close enough

39. What is your purpose in life?to improve. to improve myself, to improve the lives of others, to improve the world around me

40. When was the last time you cried and what was it over?i could not tell you the last time i cried. it was probably over sister wives

41. If you got to spend an entire day with your favourite celebrity what would you guys do? smoke down, stare into each other’s eyes, get married

42. If you could only listen to one artist for the rest of your life, who would you choose and why?either tame impala or frank ocean. both beautiful vibes. frank has incredible imagery in his music and it always takes me to a place that i’d much rather be

43. What are 3 traits that you like about yourself and what are three that you dislike about yourself? Personality wise.i like that i’m funny as fuck, generally pretty compassionate abt my friends like i try hard to reach out when i can, and how little i care abt how i look cuz that takes so much effort. i dislike that i’m selfish, obsessive, and dissociative at the worst times

44. Can you cook? If so what are your favorite dishes to make? uhhhh nope

45. What was the last decision you regretted making?couldn’t tell you i’m pretty sound in my decisions

46. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater”?nope i’ve seen people make that mistake then never again. it doesn’t always speak on the character of the person but if it were to happen to me i would definitely be wary moving forward

47. Do you ever wish you were famous?only when i wanna tweet some dumb shit and get helllllaaaa interactions

48. What’s the nastiest thing anyone has ever said to YOU? Or something that’s hurt you above anything else and why?no one’s been mean to me in a long long time so i have no clue

50. What mark would you want to leave on this world after you are gone?i just wanna be a light source in somebody’s life. like i just wanna be remembered as a light

51. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?only lipo and not for very long

52. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?nope that sounds like a bad idea

53. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?yeah in third grade i believe cuz i thought being tough like that was cool

54. What’s the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you?one time dani copped me sounds good feels good which was so romantic

55. What is one of your favorite memories?going to taylor’s w ash and smoking blunts on the roof and going to a cute little ice cream shop and the grocery store and buying hella beer then going to dan’s and smoking down more then going back to taylor’s, smoking another blunt, then passing out watching monster’s inc. perfect fucking day

58. What’s the nicest present you’ve ever received?a painting that says “keep calm and beckah on” from taylor. that was so fucking nice

59. Have you ever had your heart broken?not romantically, but yeah

60. Have you ever wanted to change anything about your life? If so, what?definitely i’d like to change the numbers in my back account and the car i drive and the state in which i live. i’m trying to be rich, driving a new car, living in michigan

61. What is something you feel like you are really good at? steering wheel drumming

62. What are your top 5 favourite all time songs by your favourite artist?the moment, reality in motion, runway houses city clouds, the less i know the better, disciples

65. What’s one thing someone has done for you that was really small but made a huge impact?dylan has pumped my gas many many times when i was too high

66. What do you do when you can’t sleep?cry a lot, toss and turn til i’m sweaty, cry some more

68. If you could change 3 things within your government, what would they be and why?this is a question for someone else

69. What’s your favourite holiday and why?fourth of july mf it’s a beautiful holiday. fireworks, cooking out, warm weather, like come on bro it’s fire

70. What’s the kindest thing a stranger has ever done for you? Even if it’s TINY like holding a door open for you, something that you remember even though they were a complete stranger.idk a couple days ago a gurl yelled hey at me from her car and that was nice i suppose

71. Who’s your favorite cartoon character?mordecai from regular show

72. What’s the first song that comes to your mind while reading this and why?reality in motion x tame impala is stuck in my head bc of that previous question

74. What would you like to be the first dance song at your wedding?i have no clue i’ve genuinely been thinking abt this question allllll day and can’t figure it out

75. Have you ever been told you look like a famous person, if so, who?amy schumer 🙄

76. What’s one thing you can not live without?idk bro probably your mom?

77. What is the most selfless thing you have ever done for someone?i have no idea someone else would have to tell me

78. Are you a girly girl?no hahahaha this is funny

79. What color is your bed?uhhh my mattress is white if thats what youre asking

80. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?i have no real hair preference hahaha

81. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?hellllll no i have no time for that

82. Do you have a best friend?three! shouts out dani, ash, and t-dizzle

82. What song makes you cry the most?perth x bon iver or only time x enya hahahaha

83. What’s the funniest film you’ve ever seen?good burger obviously

84. What’s something crazy that you’ve always wanted to do?i have no crazy ambitions i am a very scared cautious person

85. Has anything ever happened to you that you just can’t forgive?i don’t think so. i’ve lived a fairly above average life as far as i remember

86. Ever been really drunk?yeah it sucked i hate being drunk

87. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?hahahahahahahahahaha no

89. Have you ever felt ashamed about something? If so what was it & why? my whole life is just huge waves of guilt and shame

90. Do you keep a journal? If so what mostly goes in it? Random thoughts, feelings, stories?
when i do journal i write abt my day and then it turns into a life update filled w random thoughts and feelings

91. Do you like somebody?not romantically but i do have huge platonic crushes on a lot of people

92. Craziest shit ever done?ion do crazy shit!!! my memoir is going to be so lame!!!

93. What’s the saddest story/one that’s touched you the most that you’ve ever heard on the news?sandy hook fucked me up for a little bit when i heard abt it

94. If you were told you were going to have 3 daughters, what would you want to name them?navy, hazel, and alexis

95. Do you have a middle name and if so, what is it?i do and it’s jill but i used to tell people it was jeezus and that my parents were weirdo hippies

96. Are you in a relationship?yes its been seven years and im so in love

97. Do you enjoy drama?i love watching it but i’d rather die than be a part of it

98. Are you a virgin?yeah boiiii aint nobody touchin me

99. Are you short or tall?i’m average

100. Do you have siblings? If so, what are their names and how old are they? i’ve got a brother named maxwell and he’s 18 and going further in life than i can even imagine

thanks kind stranger see u at ur house later im gonna beat you up