#which seems like it maybe isnt a rational thought to have about pencils but trust me when i say its based in lived experience | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

merlions · 3 months ago

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One of the most bizarre aspects of going back to live with your parents as an adult, with the perspective to notice how ridiculous some of the ways they interact with you are - like things that were definitely present and weird when you were a kid but you didn't necessarily have the perspective to understand they were strange - is just the unrelenting, constant barrage of utterly inane observations they make about truly, genuinely, incredibly normal behavior. Not like trying to say mean things or be judgemental necessarily, just like bug under a microscope disordered excess inspection type of shit, where you actually have to wonder why they have that much time and energy to spare for it

Truly like "Oh I used your bathroom earlier and I noticed you bought mouthwash. Are you doing alright?" Shdjdjfifnf what could you POSSIBLY mean by that

#???????????#any aberrant behavior Must be Noted and aberrant is defined as anything thats not sitting still doing nothing #though thats noticed too! its just not noted verbally. it's more of a side eye “im Worried about you” type of thing #im not really complaining in a big way im just noticing how its been changing my behavior #esp as a recovering alcoholic i have to watch myself for like Hiding Shit #but ill catch myself trying to hide like a new pack of pencils i bought and be like ? why?#and my only answer is “honestly I just dont wanna hear it right now”#which seems like it maybe isnt a rational thought to have about pencils but trust me when i say its based in lived experience #somehow

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