#which probably doesnt help my chances much of living till the end huh

[stupidlyunhinged]

uhm i went with love interest cuz i thought itd be fun n then got thriller soo like percentage wise how likely am i to die

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[theunconcernedembalmer]

ok i got the aesvic out of my system now time to pick apart the letter n why i wont really be following aesops diary exactly here. literally no one asked but i wanted to get my thoughts down somewhere cos i have. a lot

just gonna put a quick rundown of aesops diary entry as a refresher (mostly for myself so i dont miss anything): he dreamt that he was helping jerry with what was probably a murder n was affirmed n he thinks its a sign congratulating him on carrying out his duty. over the years, he carries out his duties as an undertaker n comes to the manor looking for a “fresh start” aka what sounds like his first victim. according to aesop, said victim should be quiet, n potential victim number 1 is victor. something about badly needing him to become his “silent friend” n he mentions he’ll get to wick n the 2 other survivors in due time, but for now he’s very eager to start his “mission”.

im generally okay with the letter (i have seen so many fights over this aha) cos there is no surprise he wants to kill ppl (ppl who r fighting over this point. did u even read his deductions?? guy happily killed his mentor??). but i didnt quite like the fact that he still looks up to jerry (although. i guess thats valid i just. dont like it). i was also initially kind of confused about the real reason why he would want to kill ppl since as u progress through the letter it sounds less like he kills for duty (cos of the whole dream thing at the start) but more “because i want to :)”, which is an okayish edgy kinda take imo. like not that u cant characterize aesop as Kill Kill Murder Die, but i kinda find that. pretty boring in the long term.

im just gonna put what my original take on aesop was, like all of it. first off, he hates jerry. u cannot tell me a psychotic serial killer like that can raise a child without emotional trauma. like any child, this isnt even counting the extra damage done because hes autistic. (n i also hc that aesop has read his moms letter to him at some point, n he should have come to the conclusion that it was somewhat also jerrys fault, whether through logic or denial that his mom would want to leave him, so that just adds to it.) but as much as he hates him, his teachings are the only ones hes been exposed to, n its been so ingrained in him since young so even if he hates jerry he would still subscribe to whatever twisted ideology jerry was feeding him, which ill get to in a sec.

going through his accessories, he has that origami that he folds for each of his clients, n it shows that underneath it all, aesop is still kind. this isnt expected of him n its definitely not part of his job scope as an embalmer. he (still?) has the heart to wish the best for those that have departed n takes the time n effort to fold one for each n every client he sends off, which is probably a lot. so going off on that, my hc is that jerry, being the manipulative asshole that he is (who probably definitely manipulated his mom into indirect suicide) probably used his kindness against him to make him believe that by murdering ppl he is helping them, framing all of his serial kills as a sort of mercy kill (like his mom). so the thing that aesop takes away from all this is the very twisted logic that by killing ppl he is helping them, therefore being a good embalmer and a good person in general. n everyone wants to be a sort of good person, or at least for aesop that is part of his job description to be a good embalmer. n we all know aesop is very serious about his job.

i also hc that he has killed several ppl between killing jerry n coming to the manor, cos i follow the story that he took the invitation from that poor lady n thats how he ended up at the manor. surely the lady didnt come to him right after jerry died?? but anyway, the way i see it is that he thought he liked to kill. like he finally truly understood why jerry kills so much (which is interesting now that i think about it. guy really just went along with all those murders without truly believing huh), because it felt good to kill. at least thats what he thought, the revelation that killing felt good n is good, but i say its because he hated jerry, n offing someone u kinda hate should probably feel pretty gucci. n its also so much easier to pick clients off the streets than in the manor, so i would think that he has killed ppl like his mentor did, but each time he did the great feeling that came with ending ppls life just. wasnt as good as the first time round. it just became a sort of normal satisfaction of a successful embalming.

this can go two ways: 1. he keeps on killing to try to find that great feeling again, which is cool i guess (n probably what canon would want, except canon states that he hasnt killed since jerry), but id like to go with 2. he just stops because jerry isnt around to enforce it whenever he isnt feeling up to psychoing someone to their death (which is probably how jerry got his victims, n damn if that doesnt take a lot of mind games that i dont think aesop has the mental capacity for since half of it is fighting with his social anxiety n other issues. dealing with alive strangers?? no thanks?? i doubt he would have learnt properly how to lure in clients as efficiently as jerry because of this, mostly cos he was only needed for the murder afterparty aka embalming n funerals). n as much as he stays professional, there is no. professional way of gaslighting someone to their death.

(n also since ppl have pointed out that his twitter replies n other kinda informal stuff have shown that aesop does have reverent respect for life, which also adds to him not being so blindly bloodthirsty as implied in the letter. i dont really see the twitter replies as very canon, but it does make sense that he would come to revere life with his unique take and obsession over death, for one cannot exist without the other)

so this leads me to the motive that aesop brings to the manor, at least how i see it. he isnt exactly coming to the manor to kill per se (like from the very early story, he came to the manor to return the letter to a relative of the deceased lady, something about respecting her last wishes. something like that, its really been a while since i saw that exerpt), so like killing ppl isnt his main purpose of visit. its more of hes always on the lookout for weaker (or at least those that take less mind games to kill) people to mercy kill, n it just so happens that he knows the manor n his mentor almost died from there, so theres a pretty good chance he can find some ppl that fall into this category n so it just so happens that he also has a job to do there. its still counted as a Job for him since no ones gonna tell him that embalmers dont actually. murder. 

so in my version, aesop only tries to sway ppl that he knows he can convince, n these ppl would typically be those very sickly ones like his mom (andrew im looking at u) or those with an actual death wish/ very weak will to live. but here aesop is choosing his “first victim”, and the criteria for that is... quiet? never mind “not evading him” and “not cranky” being on the list too, but that isnt quite what i was expecting from someone so dedicated to their duty of murder. sure he wants an easy first kill, but like. i dont think its consistent if his motive was really to continue jerrys bastard legacy. especially when the next paragraph is essentially him gushing over victor, that... sort of implies something else. or at least in the way i see it, since i believe that canon wants us to think that aesop just really loves to kill.

aesop likes victor. very much so. so much till he wants to kill him. which i guess makes sense cos he likes death, n now he likes victor. so he just. puts the two things he likes together. whats better than victor? dead victor. anyway the rest of the letter is more like “whatever, i technically should kill the others too but my priority is victor” so like. he confuses his (dare i say) yandere tendencies with his duty since the end goal for both is a body in a coffin.

having said that. i know i have aesvic brainrot but i also know this is one sided as hell (at least from the letter alone, not counting the letter shaped cookies in his birthday art that apparently belonged to victors birthday cake aha) n lowkey alarming since. the goal is to kill victor. i kinda want to interpret it as him genuinely wanting to be friends with victor (really wanting him to be a “silent friend”, maybe cos he doesnt actually know how to be friends with living ppl n is better with dead ones? therefore victor should be dead to be friends?) but not knowing how to n throwing in his obsession with death ends up with. this minor disaster waiting to happen. but i uh. dont know if this is valid. its valid to me at least, with my original interpretation of aesop. n again cos of his ingrained professionalism, he also kinda sees this as part of his job to send ppl off, so its another plus. not for victor, tho.

idk if ill add this yandere side in my aesop. i mean my boi has technically tried to kill victor multiple times in the past HAHAHAHA. maybe like sometimes he can be a bit obsessive. as a treat. but generally nah cos thats definitely gonna end up in a murder somewhere somehow n i cant. just kill victors here on the ask blog scene lashjflkjhdlfkjhas

so yeah that kinda takes care of the last part of the letter, as for the first part. as much as aesop hates jerry, i would also think hes pretty starved for affirmation (like i said jerry isnt going to be a good parent figure ever) n i guess it makes sense if the only times jerry has ever complimented him was aiding him in his kills n hiding the evidence, which might (?) add to his desire to kill (but that probably dies with jerry aha). so the way i see it as aesop is getting affirmation n takes it as a good sign instead of. remotely liking jerry. idk if im stretching it a little but i really dont like the take where hes okay with jerry. anyway we are ignoring that he hasnt killed before entering the manor cos that doesnt quite make sense to me (i wasnt dreaming about the letter from a lady stabbed in the face 36 times or so right???? right???????)

im also not like. trying to defend him, im just trying to make sense of his diary. boi has issues n is a little too far gone (not as far as canon tho), in my take very deluded in his way of showing kindness. literally cool motive still murder (or in canon, just murder?), please get therapy. but i just dont really like the direction that the letter was originally trying to imply, with him really just hell bent on murder without like. a clear motive (at least to me it isnt very clear since the last part really doesnt sound consistent with his supposed intentions). i mean i love being edgy with aesop every now n then but i dont think it would make for meaningful characterizations in the long run so. ill still be sticking with my original take on aesop with maybe a bit of yandere for victor cos thats always fun

[sebs-anxiety-and-insanity]

I failed you/Analogical

This is a superhero au like thing the characters may seem a bit out of character so :(

Logan woke up tied to a chair, seemingly alone, though mixed with the dark and not having his glasses it was hard to tell. He struggled, trying to get free, in the end it was a futile effort. "You're awake." Logan froze as the voice rang throughout the room. Suddenly the light was turned on, making Logan hiss as his eyes tried to adjust. A man put his glasses on him. Two men stood before him, one wearing a purple vest, black button up, with a grey duster coat, he had purple gloves and black dress slacks. Logan couldn't see his face due to the purple and black wooden mask with only eye holes and tiny holes at the bottom for speech and breathing. The other man wore a green shirt with a leather jacket, and skinny jeans. Much less formal than the other. "Who are you?!" Logan hissed as he once again tried to get free from the ropes that bound him. Making the man in green gasp. "You don't remember me? Well you know my brother, Roman?" Suddenly it clicked. This was Remus, a.k.a theDuke, who had murdered 15 people (that's just the victims they know for sure belong to him) age 20. Remus slowly moved over to Logan, sitting on his lap and wrapping his arms around his neck. "I can't wait to torture you~!" Logan paled, that was a major possibility. No one knew where he was. He told them he wouldnt be back till late, which means they would only start to question it tomorrow. Another man walked in, wearing black and yellow, dressed in casual attire. Remus snapped his head towards the door. Immediately getting off of him and moving to stand near the man in the mask. "Remus. What have I told you about touching our victims?" Remus only bowed his head as the man leaned against the door. "Logan Ethan, or better known as The watcher. Age 21." The Male obviously knew who Logan was. But Logan had no clue who he was. "Who are you?! Why am I here?!" Logan struggled even more, but to no avail. "Fine, fine, you want to know who I am? I am the behind the scenes like type! Much like you, except I don't fight much, I help my people escape when need be. You though, you should be more careful! It was too easy capturing you." Logan struggled even more. "Why am I here?!" "Tsk, tsk. I expected more politeness from you. Besides, you have information that we need. Anxiety will make sure we have that info soon!" The man dragged Remus out of the room. Anxiety? As in the famous murderer?? Anxiety walked up to Logan, swiftly kicking his chest. Logan braced for impact, but it never came. He slowly opened his eyes, to see Anxiety towering over him as the chair was now propped against the wall behind him. "Where is Thomas?" Thomas, was a small child, he was found by Roman, and brought with him. "I don't know-" anxiety slapped Logan, causing Logan to grunt in pain. "Where.is.Thomas." Logan stayed silent. Anxiety sighed, turning to a table. "Not talking huh? Nothing a little," he turned back towards Logan, knife in hand. "Persuading won't change." Anxiety walked up closer to Logan, dropping his knife with a giggle. "You know what? How would you feel about not having that little super power of yours?" Logan kept a straight face. They couldn't take his power could they? Anxiety scowled at him. "If I wasn't in such a hurry to find Thomas, I could torture you." He pulled up his chair now leaning over Logan, who blushed slightly. "You wanna know my super power, smart boy?" Anxiety leaned in next to his ear. "This." Logan screamed, writhing in pain. It felt as if a thousand knives were being stabbed into his whole body times ten. After a few minutes it stopped. The pain was gone, and anxiety stood up. Yanking the chair back into its original position. "Thanks, Lo. I can find him now." Logan blushed at the nickname, but glared at anxiety as he left the room.

After a few minutes Anxiety came back into the room, cutting Logans ropes and putting a gun to his head. "Now, Lo, let's go get Thomas, don't try anything. Talyn has their sights on whats his name? Ah, yes. Patton." Logan nodded, and anxiety slung his arm around Logan, stealing his glasses in the process, and covering his eyes with his hand. After they were out of the building, and maybe a few blocks away, anxiety returned his glasses. The were in an ally. "Logan, we have got a long walk ahead. Tell me about yourself! It's not like I have a gun against your back or anything." Logan sighed. "Why do you wanna know?" Anxiety pushed him further. "Look, chances are I'm gonna shoot you! But probably less likely if I get attached don't ya think? Speak up." Anxiety pressed the gun further into his back. "Fine. I live with my friends, Patton, Roman. And my boyfriend Virgil, doesnt live with us sadly." They turned down an ally. "Continue." "Uh, Virgil is a great artist, I love his work. Of course they all have their talents! Patton can cook, and Roman is a great singer." Logan continued to talk about his friends and Virgil especially. Anxiety finally hushed him. "We're here." Before Logan could react Anxiety tied him to a pole. Anxiety held the gun at Logans forehead. "Remember, Talyn." And with that he watched as Anxiety went over to the fence where Thomas was playing. Anxiety took off his mask, but since his back was facing him he couldn't see. Thomas saw him and jumped up and down. Saying something unaudible. Anxiety quickly put his mask back on. "Thomas, buddy go home, I'll meet you there, meet the others." Thomas nodded running past Logan running back he direction they came from. "Hey you!" Anxiety whipped around facing an officer. "Who are you? Take off your mask." Anxiety nodded, bowing slightly. Before standing back up and shooting the man. "Oops, my hand slipped." Anxiety giggled. "B-back...u-up-." "Ba-back up?" Anxiety laughed kicking the radio away. He walked over to Logan, in tieing him. Chuckling he waved Logan off. "You can go, it was fun!" Logan taking advantage of the situation ripped off Anxietys mask, throwing it aside. Anxiety hissed angrily turning back around. "Vir-Virgil?" Virgil rolled his eyes. "No, your it's your fairy-fucking-god-mother!" Virgil glared at him. "What happened?" “I’ve become what they told me I was.” His dead eyes seemed to bore directly into his Logan's soul. “For that I was bound for this path." Virgil walked over and picked up his mask. "And they were right!" Virgil put on his mask, dragging Logan with him. "And your not gonna tell a soul that I'm 'anxious little Virgie!'" Logan stopped. "What?" Virgil spat, angry that he had stopped. "Virgil- I.... I'm sorry... I failed you."

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@autumnpleaves 💜

Thank you to @helloidkwhatimdoing-0 for the ship! And I'm sorry its crappy :/